Why I Took a Break From Streaming and my Plans Going Forward

[@CraftingSelf]

Jokes aside, I think the appeal of your content is that it just feels like you are chilling with Asmon and his friends and playing games. No agenda. No pressure. Go with the flow. Just crackling jokes with no pretense. I think that this can only continue if you keep doing what is genuinely fun for you, even if it's contrary to what we/viewers say we think we want. Take care of yourself. Also, the gardening stream was some of the funniest shit I've ever seen you do. And the storytelling element was really cool, and you are damn good at it.

[@schpeak5503]

this is absolutely factual

[@sonofZekie]

This guys correct in my opinion. Just be yourself thats the reason why I watch.

[@muffemod]

I love asmongold, he's got one of the best channels on youtube.

[@devijim]

This is my view exactly. Well said. Rather just chill with asmon than cater trolls.

[@andresstuart9382]

Your content is hanging out with Mcconnell and making fun of peoples transmog. I get that it can get maybe stale for you since your the one having to supply the content but I love that and I think it is the bread and butter of your stream

[@Envythepain007]

Any guy that spends his free time looking after his mum has got my respect dude. You got another subscription from me.

[@FimbongBass]

Has nothing to do with that, he just doesnt want to move out to pay rent

[@Sarnatuile]

@@FimbongBass You're the people he's talking about. Go away.

[@Juggernuts]

@@@FimbongBass hes made more streaming then you will with your entire life

[@Nungen]

@@DisastrousIntentionally he IS paying all of the rent, he said it himself on stream

[@HollowProject]

LuL. So If you had that much time and money as he has you would't look after your mum or what? Don't be ridiculous

[@sorchara9119]

oh shit i didnt even realise this was an asmongold channel after i got the lvl 60 mom video

[@LordBathtub]

Completely my reaction

[@Nasher1805]

I thought I'm the only one dafuq

[@shootingbapple5999]

Same wtf

[@dramaticlabelreading1293]

Same

[@YaneS-]

Same broo, that threw me off lmao

[@cornman9937]

Just remember, You've got way more people supporting you than you do against you.

[@FartSmucker]

The former are wrong ;)

[@maxellis8452]

Vin is right!

[@ZygimantasA]

No.

[@brandongelsinger6085]

I always hated him as a gamer. But as a human he got me 100. I'll still gun for him anytime I see him in game. But he got my respect 100%

[@orly2663]

I'm 29 now, i stayed at home to keep my parents property from being taken from back taxes, then in 2012, i got a brain tumor, once it was removed had tons of bad after affects for almost 4 years, then in 2016 lost my mom, im so glad i stayed, because i got to have some incredible times with her before she left, and if i would've left when i was 18, i probably would have died, Feel no bad feelings for YOUR life choices, no one is in your shoes besides you, much respect brother, do what you gotta do.

[@hamzasehavdic]

DankPlayz youre a warrior

[@Jackal216]

Bro for real I don,t play wow. I just watch your streams because it feels like chillin with friends. Stay healthy dude!

[@34Bigfella]

Same here, i used to play wow but i like to chill and watch his stream

[@READERSENPAII]

same here. I played wow during burning crusade when I was like 13 years old. Now I only play a lot of 3ds games, ff14, and some other things but I watch asmon because of the vibes.

[@grim_teevee]

Same here, he just seems like someone i'd chill with in real life.

[@Actuallyfat]

Wow is dead!!

[@iamrichlol]

Nagolbud actually a transsexual though?

[@neilslocum1]

Health is number 1. Stay safe buddy.

[@Lucyhehe_]

savety is numba uan priorityw

[@3zk1i_93]

Wecom to krezyrussanhake wher sefety is numa 1 praiorety

[@Bolt892]

He hasn't cared about his health for 15+ years

[@goodreason3123]

This is big kappa by Asmongold. My body is temple asmongolds is trashbin in comparison.

[@sanywolfer7414]

@Benis Long So people who care for one of their favorite content creators should get shot. Your logic is as badly developed as your hatred, there are a lot of people who YOU may hate but others will disagree. I don't even like WoW and I still watch asmongold not for the game but for his personality. If you hate someone don't be disrespectful while doing it because it makes you look like an asshole.

[@alphapimp]

“Thought they would draw blood and it would be Dr. Pepper” lmfao that was hilarious

[@kovacsbenjamin7960]

"I used to beat my head with a controller then I got older and I beat my head with a keyboard and now I do a little bit of both" What a legend.

[@vp3275]

He is just a guy

[@ferinoob4824]

@@niccolelopiccolo7134 yes

[@jcdenton5828]

NICCOLE LOPICCOLO shut up woman

[@shane1388]

I can't wait for more IRL's from you man. The gardening stream was fucking great.

[@sean121111]

seriously. I dont know what it was about that garden stream but it was a special moment in streaming history

[@jinxd511]

i mean it was just him in the garden but ok.

[@tazbom2470]

I liked when he apppeared on Esfand's stream during gaming convention week or two ago. It feels good seeing streamer from different perspective like IRL

[@Zeldakostv]

"I thought my blood was gonna be Dr. Pepper" LMAO

[@fu6817]

Maybe perfect blood is actually dr.pepper

[@ZandalariHero]

@Benis Long Who hurt you?`

[@hazer3248]

@Benis Long no one likes you

[@spongyfall502]

I laughed so hard

[@Zeldakostv]

@Benis Long wut lmao

[@iAmxCept]

You deserve the break man. I have never played WoW but i still tune into your streams very often just because I love your humor and personality, you keep it real and relaxed but can crack some great laughs. Your awesome dude. Excited for your return brother.

[@tylersevener4354]

Props to you taking care of your mother much love Asmongold!

[@Jonathan-fw6ty]

Bro, he lives in a dirty ass disgusting shithole of a house with dust and mold everywhere when he's a goddamn millionaire and could buy a nice house for his mom and himself. Not sure where the "taking care" comes into play.

[@DK5TY]

@@Jonathan-fw6ty Maybe his mom loves the house their in it happen to me when my parents were struggling with bills and didn't want to move. I moved back home to help them with the bills its kinda putting my life on hold but family is family

[@Icoblablubb]

"taking care" of his mother while playing WoW 10hrs a day .. ya so much time left to help his mother LUL

[@DK5TY]

@@Icoblablubb lol 10 hrs a day of wow is his job like you have yours. That covers the bills so don't see the reason why he shouldn't play it

[@SadBirbHours]

@Benis Long All these classes and you choose to roll salty. KEK

[@KeeperOfProphecies]

It's always good for people who entrench themselves in whatever they do heavily to take a break now and then and recoup. Whenever you choose to stream again, I'll be tuning in as soon as possible. Stay great, Asmon.

[@philipanderson7581]

*'...I thought my blood would be Dr. Pepper...'* _-Asmongold_

[@milorogers4839]

If he's perfect, and he has those living conditions, he is a superhuman. There's no other way to put it.

[@UnderTheMushroom]

Drink nothin but the sweet sweet peppa and eat once a day for a few years. You'd be surprised how not that bad it is lmao

[@erictollefson3736]

I was recently diagnosed with MS and totally crushed every plan I had in my life so I totally understand how you are feeling with reevaluating your life. You discover what's actually important to you, and you value those things much more deeply. Just be you man, it's a video game for entertainment and socializing, if they are rude they are just proving how ignorant they are. I hope you see and read this and it moves you in a positive way. Btw the MS is effecting among other things, my finger dexterity so I haven't played in about 2 months, but that's okay! I still talk to some of my friends over Facebook and I like that.

[@NoOne-py5or]

Honestly i think people dont watch for the games you play, they like to see you.

[@goodbull85]

@ZackRawrr we don't care what you play, you're streaming your personality. So play what you love, and we will love the happiness you derive from it.

[@Traumglanz]

True. And people don't hate him for what he is saying about their game, but they just dislike the guy.

[@m3dakbar]

I didn't really like your streams but when I saw the media share video I saw how genuine you were and I started to really enjoy them hope you find the right path love u man!

[@BeezlebORB]

I watch because I enjoy the person. Games are a bonus that we get to watch too.

[@GoingHAM111]

Exactly! Wow is soooo boring and if we actually wanted to learn something we'd watch a pro streamer, like sodapoppin ;)

[@Mestman32]

You are loved, brother. Keep pushing. Can't wait for your return.

[@Seventhus]

Hey dawg. You chillin? I'll be there chillin with you. I'm a lurker who doesn't say much, never have. But , my dude, take care of yourself.

[@pourliver]

I really loved the gardening stream by the way. I would love to see you keep streaming anything you feel like. But most importantly, take care.

[@lTheShieldl]

Where do u find it?

[@bamf6603]

He doesnt have so much strenght to stream gardening everyday.

[@meadandmilk]

Hey Asmongold, I'm 24 and I live with my mum, she has some crippling health problems and can barely get out of bed most days so she definitely needs someone around the house helping her out with regular things. I'm pretty proud to say I still live with her, I don't care what other people think. You are doing the right thing dude, you do you.

[@Mazzemax]

I see myself so much in you it's scary. I don't know if this is what you had, but I started having panic attacks last year, and that totally changed my outlook on life. Get well buddy.

[@Dom4z]

Take care of yourself mate, like truly try to minimize your exposure to stress. I myself didn't truly knew what were the panic attacks, I never experienced them. Until one time 3 years ago when I was overloaded with university assignments, work and bunch of other problems on top of that. As I was pulling another all nighter to finish all my assignments I've experienced a panic attack that also impaired my breathing for around 10 minutes. It felt as I was dying and couldn't do anything but lay on bed. It felt like I had cancer or something and was slowly fading away. Although I survived that sort of stress rekt my chest muscles on the right side, as well as shoulder blade. Been recovering through gym training ever since, and had to take steps to minimize exposure to that sort of bs I had to deal with.

[@pizzaki582]

Exercise, yeah i know its shit but if you run 20-30 mins are day, at a pace where you can talk even just at walking pace you start to feel better. Its better then taking meds.

[@Sau1itos]

Mine started last year too. It’s terrifying and puts things in perspective.

[@JimmyHereOfficial]

Do what you gotta do man. Thanks for taking the time to update us. Glad to see your mental improving and can't wait to see what content comes next. Cheers.

[@flexcannon8302]

the power of Wednesday be with you

[@qcdoomqc]

Your stream feels like chilling with the boiz, that’s why I watch it. Don’t worry about it. Take care.

[@Justin_in_NC]

@@dawn-blade We've all been there, and if you need someone to talk to just send a personal msg my way. I feel ya, i've been there, and know how you feel. Way back in 2004 during college, i got into a horrible car wreck (my own fault) that required pulling me out with the jaws of life, etc. I had broken knees, shoulders, a jaw, and to this day my shoulders still dislocate frequently. It isn't easy to just 'get a job' that pays well and keeps you happy. Unfortunately, the world is an ugly place and at times you'll have to decide between financial freedom, or your own happiness. Still, in todays world it's easier than ever to work independently online. Find waht you luv, and if its twitch and gaming... hell, start a small channel for yourself and stick with it even if its just for your own personal amusement. When i started streaming, it would bum me out at times that i wouldn't have the viewer counts of other streamers, but at the end of the day... you gotta just learn to luv yourself and stream/game just for yourself and to hell with the outside noise. I'm glad asmongold was able to come to terms with it, it isn't easy and it doesn't get easier but that's a big first step.

[@billtoo5659]

@@dawn-blade go work a labor job doing anything.. social anxiety won't matter here

[@lTheShieldl]

@@dawn-blade bro just get a job delivering pizzas. Its not stressful to me. I hate it when i don't make a lot in tips that night. If you are confident in your driving work for ups, just interaction with your co workers. Maybe work at a smoke/vap store. I think most of the customers are chill. Be a dishwasher? Don't give up man.

[@Dirkei]

Been with you since the beginning pretty much Lurking in the shadows Your growth has surprised me But, you've deserved every bit Asmon Cheers

[@thechartech]

Hope things get better for you buddy. You're a legit guy who deserves all the good things you've gotten.

[@redforeman3686]

When a WoW expansion is so bad, it makes you question your mortality.

[@snowballs5314]

this guy is whats wrong with the world, no wow needed

[@heyitspanos8004]

@@snowballs5314 no one cares

[@babdabubda5266]

@@heyitspanos8004 no one cares

[@hugosmith6776]

LOL - awesome! thought Cata was bad, left after that, came back (ID 10 T) for mists of kung-fu panda left after that...….

[@MetaL556]

@Austin Mark I concur. MoP was actually fucking great(after a few patches, but so was Legion), people were just seriously hung up on the Pandas. Can't say for Cata because I wasn't playing yet at the time. And WoD had the opposite problem to BfA - it had good gameplay, but very little content besides raiding.

[@snickle1980]

Appreciate your time and honesty here. That mortality moment in your 20s is almost something i'd consider a rite of passage. Whats interesting is how each of us arrives at that moment, and when. My mortality epiphany was equally ridiculous. I cut the tip of my finger off by sticking it in an oscillating fan Anyhow, these are rare "1-time-only" moments in a mans life and I believe taking personal time for some introspection was the best move possible.

[@snickle1980]

PS: just discovered you existed (catdany) a few weeks ago via highlights...You've made me nostalgic and excited for a game i haven't played in over a decade. See you in august!

[@saltmage2435]

i discovered you recently right before you went on your break ive been watching tons of old vods while i play this free weekend on wow. Youre awesome dude

[@Bob-kt6bi]

Quality content, from the man the myth the legend, your boy, asmongold

[@AureliusWhite]

"Please don't call me a legend or something like that, it weirds me out. I'm just a guy living in Texas."

[@lilazndrgnboi]

Bro, my dad is 90, my mom is close to 70. I'm 26, take care of your parents no matter what people tell you. I saved my parents from dying plenty of times, since they brought me into the good earth and I'm glad to see you open up over the years. It makes me glad to have spent the time to listen to your story here.

[@Perkele_Itse]

Holy shit your dad is 90 and you're 26??

[@lilazndrgnboi]

@@Perkele_Itse yep, it makes my mental age all fucked up too, sometimes I think I'm 35... but then I gotta remember physically I'm 26. Gaming has always been a better place to fit in since no one knows what you look like, and when you do share personal life stories people seem to be more understanding.

[@10runescape]

i almost hope this isnt a true story lol

[@lilazndrgnboi]

@S H My father was on the run from communist china at the time, later on married, the marraige failed, he immigrated to america then met my mother who also has her plight of tragedy. Love finds different ways to meet.

[@lilazndrgnboi]

@@eddiesonlin tbh, I don't think he has a high sex drive like most people nowadays, and he is more obsessed with being a good person and being morally upright.

[@EMLL1KESAELP]

Hope you're doing well zack, you and your mum sound like great people at heart

[@GimpyUnicorn]

A lot of obvious personal growth and accurate reflection here. I can tell you're moving in a good direction. Keep looking inward and keeping perspective.

[@Ar1AnX1x]

I'm not Asmongold's fan, and I don't watch his streams. but he seems much more genuine than people give him credit for

[@Jbayz]

When he just did youtube video's, he came off genuine too. Twitch is a dirty bitch of a thing.

[@billykordecki6052]

Its a character he plays.

[@Intensi0ns]

KZbin is genuine. Twitch is a character he plays

[@joaom3234]

Yeah, I think I would watch his streams if he streamed as zack and not asmon all the time.

[@kreanos]

He tried really hard to be something he clearly wasn't on twitch before he rage quit. I stopped watching his streams completely too then because it really was just bad.

[@harrygreen6635]

Love ur content, I like that your trying something new, them garden streams were really fun to watch 👍🏼

[@ericsansonetti6212]

Honest to god, next time I go to Central Texas to visit my friends in the Fort Hood area, I'd gladly buy you a beer and just chill man. You're a good dude in my books. People don't understand streamer persona's versus who you actually are. Hit me up sometime brother, we all have our struggles and you're no different than everyone else.

[@hiimwalker1998]

Eric Sansonetti yea he seems like a really fun guy to drink with

[@AHolmes91]

Hi

[@TX_Honeybutter]

I'm so glad you're doing better brother and i really appreciate how honest/transparent you are to your viewers! Also, taking care of your Mom is one of the kindest things you could do and most certainly makes her proud of everything you do. Honeycutt

[@Mayorthis]

will still support you no matter what, stilll my favorite streamer even if you stop now or keep going

[@Asmongold_CatDany]

asmonL

[@bgboof7482]

CatL

[@flixer7655]

catdanY

[@brucekentallen]

Did you have to go out and find an actual job, cat?

[@sinnerman20]

I love your content because it takes me back to the old days, 10 years ago when basically the whole gaming world played WoW and it ended up being an important part of my youth. I shared many incredible moments in WoW with real life friends and people I met in WoW. Watching your content often brings back those memories vividly. Few of us still play, but you are one of these guys that was there in the beginning together with us, and u know what's what. I talk about your videos to my other friends, only to find out they already knew about you as well, and looked at your content for the same reason.

[@tupatshakurtis5195]

I relate to you so much Zach. Even down to the only reason and games we've played. Halo/smash/wow. Im 28 and take care of my mom too. Have overdosed before. And just got into gardening. Its almost erry. I would chill with you on the streets. I hope you find that spark* again and find a new found joy in what ever new venture you go into. Ive spent the last few days watching your compliations and its been very enjoyable. Thank you for all of your content and best of luck to you. From one gamer to another, from one guy to another guy.

[@Botlivesmatter00]

Your communitys there for you man, not wow. Whatever you decide well be here man.

[@Skid235]

@Nagolbud Your life has to be really exciting.

[@Skid235]

@Nagolbud You kinda missed the point clever girl, i dont care at all about your life, based on your attitude here youre just a miserable bottom-feeder anyways. But hey at least your first comment made you feel supperior for a few seconds am i right?

[@Skid235]

@Nagolbud Isnt that what youre doing under every comment here with your stupid copy-pasta comment? Do you have any form of self-awareness or are you really that dumb? And pls keep lying to yourself, someone who has a life wouldn't post comments like this 10times under every comment. Your're nothing more than some pathetic loser trying to get attention. I pity you. And stop liking your own comments, doesn't make you look smarter either, just makes you look even more desperate for attention.

[@byOrbaa]

communities *

[@thedog2978]

Is this actually one of Asmongolds KZbin channels? Reason I ask is because my dude had himself a panic attack. Probably experienced alot of depersonalization and derealization, which really fucks you up if you've never experienced either before. Had the same thing happen to me years ago and it totally destroyed me, left me with a brutal anxiety disorder and a heroin addiction for a longgggg time. So if anyone know's how to get in touch with Asmon, let me know, been 5 years clean from both the anxiety and heroin, (No I did not find Jesus) and think I could really offer him some sincere genuine advise.

[@MrDucktastic]

You're looking healthier for the break. Take care man. And if you're doing IRL streams, you could totally do a DnD stream campaign. :)

[@Mordring]

Holy shit, YES! Asmongold in DnD? That would be huge. And a bonus, in DnD you still can get BiS, as opposed to WoW.

[@shreavelx8027]

He does look like he has more spirit in him. And can you imagine a IRL DND with McConnell

[@AFpaleoCon]

What you described sounds like classic anxiety. I’ve had the same thing and everyone always describes a tightness or pressure in the chest and feeling your heart rate and a sense of impending doom. It takes a long time to acknowledge it could be anxiety especially if you don’t exhibit classic anxiety symptoms like fear of public spaces, meeting people, etc. I spent like 2.5 years going to dozens and dozens of appointments and tests to find what was wrong with me and they always came back perfectly normal even though I could swear something was physically wrong with me. I don’t have any social anxiety or ever thought I was anxious but all my symptoms were those of generalized anxiety. I don’t know how to solve it because I still haven’t but I know where you’re coming from so my heart goes out to you.

[@r4inxs510]

"Imagine putting 30k hours into a game" Jesus, the day Asmon stops playing wow will be the day wow truly dies.

[@martinivanov1319]

wow is dead. activision blizzard took care of it

[@plummet3860]

I had put around 15k hours into wow at the release of wotlk I dread to know what iam at now

[@HealthyWC-2]

God imagine having an internal clock in your head for hours played on a game

[@benwaller9271]

@@HealthyWC-2 the game literally records it you dumb sperg

[@tm0675]

Imagine thinking because one single person stops playing a game that it's dead or going to be dead.

[@jasoncarpenter6123]

Actually really solid explanation. And I love the new plans Melt Down Monday would be amazing.

[@kurrandor]

That, lady's and gentleman, is what a burnout looks like. Imagine working at your job not only Monday to Friday even Saturday but EVERY single day a week - no holidays no weekend - just job - sure your job might be fun for you but humans are just not made to work on the same thing forever with no break... I'm glad asmon deals with his burnout so well and I'm glad about all the good comments you guys wrote! Hope your day goes very well! Have a great break time!

[@reflex191]

I haven't played WoW since 2010 but love watching your streams. Keep it up man!

[@aresswenl112]

I feel you man, that feeling of mortality completely sucks. Ive also been feeling it recently, been thinking i should take more care of my health and quit partying all the time. Just do you and ill continue to watch your vids and streams, hope u feel better soon mate!

[@lilazndrgnboi]

self care yo

[@maximefaille610]

Hey man, I am a long time viewer and i think i speak for a lot of people when i say that i think that you look better, happier, no stress and shit. We just love when you get ur streams on and ur videos online man, ur just funny and make everybody's day brighter. Thats it, keep it up man!

[@geturphil69]

Yo dude I had a super similar experience as you did. Scared me so bad I called an ambulance to the house although I didn't end up going to the hospital. It felt like it could be a heart attack or something. Like you I played copious amounts of video games. I don't stream but I would sit and play games for 12-14 hours in a day sometimes. I was vaping as well and have anxiety. All of this tied into it. I went to the ER a few days later b/c I was still lightheaded when something would spike my anxiety or I over exerted myself. I'm 31 so I'm close to age to you. I know how you feel man. It scared the shit out of me too. I'm actually off of video games by and large now and moving around. I think that anxiety, being sedentary, and DEHYDRATED from vaping and not drinking water are all factors dude. Take care of yourself. Be more active. Drink water. Improve your diet. That's what I'm doing and that's what it sounds like you're starting to do. I'm sorry that happened to you man. I think there comes a point when you gotta cut back on being inactive and get moving. Get an additional hobby. I picked beekeeping.

[@thirtysilver33]

We

[@gabebond_art]

Much respect, man. For real. You're a genuine dude and you seem like you'd be a great friend to have IRL and online

[@sparkoceanic]

I can't believe that was over 22 mins. It felt like 30 seconds. Keep it up Asmongold, you have a lot of peoples respect regardless of making content or not.

[@saltmage2435]

you gotta love him

[@Thamer4life]

Very sobering to watch. Take all the time you need. Best in slot life itself, man. Lots of love.

[@tylerleveski9064]

AsmonGarden. The hero we deserve. Do what makes you happy buddy, love your content no matter what. Thanks for being you.

[@lovethegame9337]

asmon started watching you at the end of WoD, years later still keeping it real fkn love you brudaaaaaaaaa

[@mmoogl3547]

Jesus.. I hadn't though about it, but it was 5 years ago that WoD came out. That's fucking crazy. Now think that WoW died before that, and we're still playing it, we're still playing it while watching Asmon regularly.

[@veskr8073]

We all love you Asmon, and you are a most productive member of society. You bring so much to the lives of so many.

[@xPantsMcGeex]

I am sure you have come to this conclusion by now, but if not, go see a behavioral therapist. Anxiety/panic attacks signature is an impending sense of doom/dream and physical symptoms mimic that of a heart attack, and also manifest in other specific ways in individuals. Getting on anti-anxiety meds are a short term occasional fix, but cognitive behavioral therapy and talking through the phases/triggers/etc of these attacks are key to being able to rationally talk yourself down and out of them, and before you know it you will be able to say "Fuck it, just keep rolling." Take care brother

[@yunicoorn]

17:30 I thought someone in my apartment was making that sound, freaked me out

[@soroushpishgir5953]

yunicorn same

[@DvalinMMO]

omg, I was like, what am I supposed to hear, "Mom stop noising!"... Damn... it was not my mom...

[@Jayo___]

Much respect man seriously you're a good dude 🤙

[@PaoloTrianni]

@Asmon you have bought so much happiness to so many people. Some one that does that isn't just a normal person they are amazing. Remember that we wear these bodies our sprites are forever.

[@benjaminwesercreative]

Mate I really enjoyed watching you and listening to your opinions. I saw you as an authentic human being. Follow your heart man, all the best.

[@jordanoliver8964]

Bro, I'm here for you not the game. :-) Doors will always open up around you, do what makes you happy.

[@doop00]

I've been depressed since 15 years old I'm now 35 and it have gotten so much worse. I live on my own since 17 so don't worry, things do not necessarily get better if you find your own place to live but it might, this is just my experience. I wish you the best you're a very cool guy. Edit I don't know if you're depressed or not that wasn't my point of my comment just wanted to leave it there just in case., keep doing what you do because people love it.

[@kalil2669]

That is not how depression works. Sure, depression can be caused by something bad that happend to you but sometimes it is not, you are just sad all the time and you dont know why. In that sort of cases you can't just take control of your life and quit being a pussy. In that sort of cases you need to ask for help

[@blech71]

Dood! You have paid your dues and towed the line through the hardships and kept true to your source material. I have grown to enjoy you and your channel over the years. I get my wow news and what’s going on through you and a few others now that I’m older and can’t play as much. I’m sure I’m not the only one that respects what you’ve done and are a true fan of your craft. It’s definitely ok to take a break and step back. You should always be able to take a break and go have “you” time. Its definitely better for the long game mentally. Keep up the great work!

[@zachcilella]

Watched this video very late and regret doing so. Touched me on so many levels. I hope you have healed fully since then, always in my thoughts Asmon. You are an inspiration to me my friend.

[@ItsDiamondWolf]

I respect what ever decision that you go with. Wow or not ill still watch!

[@Kureiji-Desu]

Spergery and memes aside i truly love your work, will be waiting for the stream :-)

[@_Libosido]

*New update **_Asmongold 2.0_** incoming* : - new Warfront: Garden - HP up - all undispellable debuffs from mind will be cleansed - new games - if you watch this video to the end, you recive Revered reputation with Asmongold

[@briankrupski6242]

imagine not already being exalted LUL

[@leannejones1551]

wow, mate, i was never a constant watcher of yours but enjoyed occasional videos on here, so sorry to hear what you've gone through and I know exactly what you mean, I suffer panic attacks occasionally and when I had my first 2 years ago it made me suddenly feel (at 31) mortal you explained it perfectly. Major respect for you to being open and honest to the fanbase, also makes people like me remember that its not just us alone with stuff like this. PLEASE just keep doing what you're doing, look after yourself, dont rush back into things and im sure the fans who understand will be here for you when you're ready or if, you are ready to come back. Ty for this x

[@miorioff]

Cheers from Russia. You have hundreds and thousands true followers here. I just want you to be happy and well. Please be safe, i (we) love you

[@christophermeador4828]

I didn't know Russians were capable of compassion lol

[@miorioff]

@@christophermeador4828 don't line all together. We are all different but share common interests. But i agree majority of our KKomrads are hard to dealt with

[@christophermeador4828]

@@miorioff I was just joking anyways haha

[@miorioff]

@@christophermeador4828 ah sorry I'm too slow! :) I'm still a bit depressed about asmon, i hope will feel better when he comes back streaming

[@AndreSh321]

КотДэни вроде тоже рашнспикер

[@Krookymonster]

So I've been having the chest pain and heart rate thing but I drink alcohol a lot. It scares me. Life is precious but its hard not to resent it sometimes. Keep up the good attitude man!

[@WeallAreAdults]

Ex alcoholic here, there are pills for you that you can take to stop you from drinking, DO IT! before its to late, You might not see it but your insides are dieng off, liver kidneys etc. Name of pills : Antabuse, might be named different in your country

[@heathers6111]

I would watch you if you were playing chess. I think the majority of us watches you because we enjoy YOU. As a person.

[@Tiggitytye]

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[@haydenkimmel2521]

HotPokket

[@whiskeySe7en]

E6yyyyyyyyyyyyy chess is dope if you don't have ADHD

[@Matthew_S_1985]

Yup

[@1088lol]

dont bash on muh chess >:((((( grrr

[@wolvojay85]

I'm not even a regular viewer of yours, but have heard of you just from being in the general mmo scene. Good for you! Good for being honest with yourself, and good for deciding to make some changes. I was 28 when I started having panic attacks and they seriously fucked me up mentally, I've found that being outdoors helps me greatly so I cut back on the computer a bit and started doing more outdoors, I'm not going to pretend like I've put anywhere near the amount of hours that you have, but I think you'll find it to be a very good move.

[@TheCrazyDcoolest]

Legends dont die even if they dont stream

[@RobinLundqvist]

very wise words, yoda

[@SurmWoW]

Welcome to the world of anxiety attacks. That's what you had a year and a half ago (maybe longer). The sudden feeling of dread and mortality, thinking that you may very possibly die at this exact moment can be very enlightening and indeed makes you re-think your existence thus far. I used to have exact same attacks every night before going to sleep. Combined with sleep paralysis, it was a real terror. To the point where I was too scared to go to sleep. That was all anxiety, which is induced by stress. Whether it's straining your body with abnormal sleep routines, lack of exercise, unhealthy diet or the combination of all of them. I was dealing with this shit for well over 7 years before something finally changed and I learned to accept my own mortality, borderline not giving a fuck about it and the anxiety ceased to have any power over me. (Anxiety is always further boosted by any underlying thought of worry, e.g. oh my heart rate is so high, what can be wrong = instant anxiety levels rising). Just change something in your life. Go travel, go do something. You have made enough money to get a caretaker for your mom. But seriously, change the scenery just even for a while and try to gain some insight about yourself and what you really want in life (not what you think you may want). This comes from a guy who's traveled for 12 years and dealt with chronic depression and anxiety for a good portion of it, but somehow, traveling and living worry-free life has helped a LOT. Hope you'll do better.

[@Antifuzz1]

I think the realisation of having his favourite game that he has sunk so much of his life into is dieing, it's almost like watching a best friend die slowly of cancer, something you had a connection with for so long is now dead and might never come back is enough to trigger an anxiety attack. I personally am going through this same process of grief due to loosing a good friend of mine, and although i am aware of the cause i can work on moving forward, but just imagine making that commitment of enjoying something and then having it taken away, not knowing what to do with your life anymore, its like going to your best friends house and he is never home he won't ever be home again. So you just wait, hope to find something else to do with your time and try to find joy and happiness again.

[@MrZarewna]

I mean this could totally be it.

[@ProjectpvpProduction]

This is great, not that it happened but that you moved forward. Same thing happened to me minus the sleep paralysis thing, for months straight. Months of doctors visits later they determined it was probably a frame of mind. After accepting that it was indeed anxiety. Instead Of being on pharmaceuticals. I decided to change something being my diet and health. No more anxiety, change works. Realizing your mortality is a nice little awakening.

[@monamoon3256]

I also suffer from chronic depression+anxiety and what you describe sounds like a panic attack to me too. Hope you find what works for you!

[@Antifuzz1]

@Todd Kinner sure you could simplify and word anything to disregard it, im 100% sure its not specifically one issue that is causing his grief, like he said he feels responsible to take care of his mother, he wants an independent life but would feel terrible if he leaves his mother, it's a lot of things that build up, and when anxiety kicks in it can hit hard for no reason and you might have any idea why, its almost a subconscious response to a whole lot of little life stresses.

[@catasaur-6177]

So i saw "mom hits 60 lvl in wow" vid few years ago, half year ago i started to watch asmongold. Now they put that 60 lvl vid again in my recommendations, dude, when i opened that channel and saw asmon face lol i was like mmhm maybe his fan or whatever. What a lovely coincidence

[@PPP603]

same xD

[@MetalDEmpire]

Do what you want to do. We will be here to support you all the way. Thank you for bringing joy and laughter to so many people.

[@yannikolskiy1766]

that was a nice time with playing wow atc, all of this years. u did big job with streams and we are from Russia thank you for that job. it was interesting so natural and fun. Good luck friend!

[@Digitalcanvas77]

DAMN. It’s good seein you NOT in front of a PC. 👍🏻

[@solarflare2199]

Holy words dude !!

[@patric4552]

Wow has really little impact with your succes. It s your personality. Stream cooking eggs, or taking a shit, somehow you re going to make it worth watching, so i will. Glad to see you re better, all my genuine respect Zack, cheers!

[@niccoleandrea4846]

@@dylanh1797I agree it must be hard. I can"t believe how negative he is on wow. It is not THAT much worse..I have only seen the game evolve. Gamers in general seem depressed, I guess that is why they spend an insane amount of time in someone else's created world, this boi Asmongolf has basically lived in a fantasy land glued to a seat and has become his own worst enemy. He has to make himself happy first..not a video game ..HIM. I can only hope he does not let his negative thoughts consume him. You can walk away from a game but, when you make that game your life it is like walking away from a life. Scary that some think this is normal. Ready Player One was just a movie but it seems some live a version of that movie daily.

[@luketiernan2226]

you are a legend sir. i have loved your stream for a long time and seen it grow into legendary status. do whats good for you. its ok to take a break you know. i am a self employed electrician, which means i have to work all the time and if i dont, i don get paid. but that is one aspect of life. you gotta take time off for holiday and show yourself some love. take a break every couple months for a week or whatever works for you. You will be more productive, have more energy and allow your creativity to bublle away subconsciously. love you dude, big d all the way

[@chiefbool]

Bro please take as many breaks as you need.

[@god6384]

I wish I could take as many breaks as I wanted but I would have to live on the street if I did that

[@SitKid721]

No Matter what we the real fans will always support you man.

[@Baradul]

From what you said it could be that you had a panic attack. Your subconscious mind (that is reasonable for fight or flight actions) might have triggered it as a warning signal because you were acting against your gut feeling for a long time. I was having such symptoms as well. Basically felt like I am getting a heart attack. I changed some things in my life (removing stress factors) and now I am fine.

[@Gravehaven007]

Brother, I’m glad you made this. I haven’t played WoW in YEARS and I solely watch you because you’re entertaining and it reminds me of chilling with my friends. You remind me of MOST of my friends and I love it. Do you man, do you. Whatever that is, I support!

[@Lukkuriddari]

Thanks for your work :) You're a great person!

[@dannybeard6217]

Originally I was watching because of the wow videos. Now it's completely different. Now I watch your videos because they are hilarious. Much love man.

[@madpolitico]

Feeling of dread? Yeah, that's anxiety, dude. I deal with that on a way too regular basis. Will just be chilling, having some fun, and suddenly feel like something awful is about to happen, like I'm about to have a heart attack, just a horrible feeling that's hard to describe. Probably not an "overdose." I'd keep an eye on that and potential triggers for it, and work to avoid them if possible. If it gets worse, might be worth talking to a doctor about that, if you're okay with the medicine (though depending on what triggers it, a therapist might be enough to help). Honestly, seeing the chat on your streams, I'd totally understand anxiety related to that. I was elated to see I could hide it in Twitch, and love that it's not visible in the Twitched "channel" on my Roku. I know that's not on you, you don't want to censor people or anything (unless they say something really horrible). It's just how people are sadly.

[@DewtehDew]

I don’t watch your streams, but have seen a bunch of your KZbin videos. You have all my respect for doing this. I to live at home and should have moved out along time ago, but I also take care of my Mom, I know how it is. Keep your head up and keep moving forward.

[@GrandpaWithers]

Good on you man, take care of your life first we’ll be fine.

[@trihardcmonbruh9016]

Don't be sorry that the video was long fam

[@ScardiMard]

Love you Asmon, stay strong bro Edit: watched it all. loved it

[@Nutters111]

I have always enjoyed your content, before twitch when you did just youtube videos. I have deepest respect for you. I live it at home with my parents too people don't always understand the situation you are in, and its not always the easiest thing to say. You deserve a break dude, you honestly need to care of yourself mental health is so important. Stay safe Zack.

[@Miles1VX]

Everyone deserves a break at some point. Keep your head up Asmon. We completely understand how you feel.

[@EagleBby]

Dude.. This is about the first time you brought a tear to my eye instead of making me smile and laugh.. Have a good one Zack.. I appreciate the video take good care !

[@StewartLB9424]

I started watching your content for over 10 years now, back when I started playing wow. I remember watching your gold making videos for wow. I bet the people that are saying shit about you can't say the same. Zack you've been apart of my life growing up, you're an amazing guy! Your deserve allot!

[@MulaSaafChasers]

Witch?

[@jamescouvillion9087]

I was probably one of his 1st 1k viewers on you tube his gold guides were R1

[@MulaSaafChasers]

@@jamescouvillion9087 R1? And isin't it KZbin* ? Get it right atleast.

[@nickmiller344]

​@@MulaSaafChasers Bro, clearly you understand wtf he was trying to say. Grow up and just let people make mistakes that don't effect your goddamn life. Also, look at your sentences before you judge..."isin't it KZbin"...you tell someone to "Get it right atleast" but don't even care to check your own grammar before you hit reply.

[@MulaSaafChasers]

@@nickmiller344 hahahah you clearly did not see what i was doing there, it's ok don't exaggerate. Cya

[@maxiderdie2hat]

most real and down to earth thing i came across in years . I never played WoW but i watched hundreds of hours of your vods just because youre a guy i would be friends with.

[@christinak2487]

Everyone needs to take regular breaks/vacations from work, streamers are no different & shouldn't be made to feel guilty about being human.