Why We Stopped Traveling Full-Time: the truth behind our break

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

**** the porn tape was for US definitely NOT an audition tape to be in one. Welcome back all and happy weekend! We had asked you all for some questions to celebrate our 350,000 friends on KZbin, first off, thank you! We wouldn't be here without your support and you all watching our weekly videos. We aren't sure if you all are aware but our KZbin videos have grown from something we find fun doing all the way to a passion and we continue to learn more about filming and editing. Who knew a little GoPro would turn into this. Thank you all. A+B

[@piastevns]

Stepsof2Foreigners ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you my sweet boys 😘

[@johnsmith4589]

TOOO funny you needed to add that disclaimer about the homemade porn tape. lmao 😂

[@MarianoContiOK]

HOLA AMIGOS SALUDOS DESDE ARGENTINA BUENOS AIRES, SE LES QUIERE, BESOS

[@robencharldelacruz6853]

I thought it would be for patreon.. Imma register immediately if so.. 😂😂😂.. will still register soon tho.. I need more that love and good vibes from you guys 🥰🥰🥰

[@Anthony-fg4sr]

Hi guys I love watching you both enjoying your marraige and traveling together. My name is Anthony and I am transgendered gay male. I just recently wrote a book on my life and hopefully will be published within the next two months. It is called My Identity so if you see it out there pick one up. Also I am on to my next book on self love and I talk about therapy and that's very important when it comes to self love. So Adam keep up the good work with therapy everyone needs therapy in life we all go through something and needs to be worked out with a professional. People who make fun or say negative comments it's because they lack self love and god in they're life. Any way much blessings to you guys and I will always be watching as long as you keep posting much love Anthony

[@johna2084]

Among the attractive qualities you both have, I think your transparency and 'being real', is part of what we all love about you! Always want the best for you guys! 💗😄💞

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

Thanks John. It was becoming too overwhelming for us to not share. We are still trying to understand the next steps but we can do this :)

[@RBS_]

...I've been sayin' it for YEARS now....& they're still 'real', too....It's a great thing...

[@Steven-sm2yw]

John A I fully agree about the REAL thing about them. Not only do they also have an outer beauty, their inner beauty is what really attracts me to them and that is all about being REAL. 😘💕💖

[@ritawamberg8980]

You looked so sad at the beginning, I knew right away what happened, I wish you a speedy recovery, and since you have a good husband at your side, everything will go a little faster. He is a great help, good luck to you both.

[@nisrinsajid2949]

bon jour

[@tiffanyrocco3625]

I've dealt with anxiety for several years, so I understand what you're going through. I'm so glad that you are addressing your issues and getting the help you need. Mental health is something that everyone is still so afraid to talk about. Thank you for being so honest and open about it, because it will help more people than you realize. Bernardo, thank you for being Adam's rock through all of this. Having that support system is so important when dealing with mental health. Adam is so lucky to have you by his side. I wish you both all the best.

[@adelguy67]

Mental health is a real issue in this day and age and it is good to always talk about it and not push it to the back, it's okay guys your travels will continue, you have a lifetime together to discover the world! Much Love to you both!

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

Thanks so much. It was becoming too big for us not to mention it. We're anxious to see what happens next.

[@MykRaffy]

Yes thanks for being open

[@squidgang4543]

So amazing

[@telodigoentucara]

I suffer from a mental disorder... I am 25 years old and I live alone. I've been battiling for more than 15 years alone, my ex boyfriends (i just had 2) got scared of my constant depressions and panic atttacks and broke up with me. No boy finds me attractive in that way and I yeah.. it is sad when you suffer from that during your youth and don't have anyone by your side that can really help you with that.

[@carinaneumann6116]

True relationship is when someone accepts your past, supports your present and encourages your furure. I am thankful you both find each other. And even it is a hard time for you, you will learn a lot and grow. It will make you stronger, believe me. ♥️ Best wishes. 🇩🇪 Carina

[@Steven-sm2yw]

Carina Neumann That is so true.

[@coreyj.5466]

I'm so glad Adam realized he heeded help and now is getting that help. Nice to see you back in Portland. I enjoy seeing you with Jonathan and Aaron. Adam take care of yourself and try not to let things get to you. Much love to both of you!!!

[@AlanSloan88]

Oh Adam I love what you said about B having a quiet strength. That's why you love him. You probably should've worked through your trust issues before you got married. Anxiety stems from fear so you must face your fear. You must live the life you were born to live. You're smart. You'll figure this out.

[@Billy-dj8zw]

I never knew of the trust issues. What is this about?

[@bobh5087]

Thank you both so very much for sharing your joys and challenges with us. Your sweet and attentive love for eachother GIVES LOVE A GOOD NAME.

[@hobbs1443]

Wow! That took a LOT of guts to make that video! I'm extremely grateful you chose to share with us. You guys will make it through this. And, on the plus side, since you're back in Portland, you have your two best amigos, A & J, for that extra moral support only friends can give.

[@COQUIRICKY]

I understand you why im also depressed and i had panic attacks,but for 8 years i have been taking medications that make feel much better. Take care and a big hug for you guys.👍👍👍

[@davidrock2771]

The love, support and communication you two have for each other in your relationship is so important! Anxiety and depression can be crippling at times and I'm so happy Adam is getting the help he needs. You both are so beautiful inside and out and I'm honored you're sharing your journey with us! ❤❤

[@jbar_85]

Omg about 5 years ago anxiety overtook my life and it has been a battle for me! It crazy but sadly I haven’t taken the time to go to therapy. You’ll have good days and bad days with anxiety. Sometimes it feels like you’re trapped in your body. Then months later all of the sudden you feel completely normal, you wanna cry and hope it lasts forever. Try to not overthink everything, live in the moment, and know that the majority of what you worry about, doesn’t even happen. I could go on and on but I’m glad you’re going to a therapist. It takes a lot to admit what you did on KZbin. Keep you head up Adam. ☺️

[@shelleythistleton4935]

I love how you love each other. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You may never know who you have helped with your honesty and strength, but rest assured that you have. To everything there is a season. Working together and individually, you will only get stronger and stronger. You have my respect for how you face the world head on. Xxx

[@toddb1344]

Stay strong, lean on each other. Thanks for showing your life

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

todd b thanks so much Todd. We are certainly doing that more to each other now.

[@toddb1344]

Stepsof2Foreigners my husband has been my rock and I for him. ( FYI still playing best fiends lol)

[@gnju9xd]

Smiles can be hard to come by at times. Once again you're showing your audience your reality, likely giving more hope to many than you can imagine. That's brave. That's generous.--Jay in Seattle

[@tplmic5866]

I can only say that I give you my love an support. If I lived near Portland, I would give you both hugs. As I write this, I cry. You are such inspiring men. I wish you well and you have my love.

[@col62]

Mental health is such an underestimated illness not just in adults but children especially since pandemic. As someone who has suffered MH since 1996 (I’m well now having had therapy and remain on right medication. But what I discovered on my journey is men particularly are not good at admitting they need help and seeking help. So thank you for being real and true. You are both wonderful guys. Be blessed and keep sharing

[@ukhairybear]

I was badly attacked sexually by two men when I was 14, after I hid it away for years. When I was 20 I met a man who I spent 43 great years with, what I am trying to say is , the things that give you the dark days will get lighter with help, and a loving husband by your side. My Jim has passed but I am lucky to be able to talk to good friends when things get bad, I hope your counselling brings you peace, and the demands go away. Be well the both of you and I truly understand how much it took for you to make this video . Xx

[@GregRBaird]

It takes such bravery and honesty to share what you have gone through not only as a couple but also with Adam needing holistic help. You two are beautiful people and take time for you. Future trips can wait and you have time. I'm glad you are feeling more grounded now. Hugs and friendship from me.

[@andrewjackson5805]

Adam I am so glad you are in therapy. Think of it as another training regimen but for your emotions and fears and trust issues. I've been doing it for years and it has helped me tremendously. It is so helpful to talk about yourself in a safe place where you are not judged. I'll remind you that we always judge ourselves very harshly and are out own worst enemy but can also be out own best friend. I once told a friend who had self esteem issues that I would love him until he could learn to love himself. I have to remind myself that I love and cherish me!!!

[@lorenzomarcus6207]

I can’t stop thinking about your last KZbin video. I’m all to familiar with anxiety and I’m happy you’re getting help Adam. It’s so heart warming Bernardo seeing you being so lovingly supportive. The way the two of you Comfort and Strengthen each other is an Inspiration to the World of what Love & Relationships have the potential to be ❤️

[@wrldszn4035]

i’m so happy u guys are back i’m sorry about ur fails and etc rn but this is great knowing this isn’t the end of you guys

[@johnindy7164]

I am confident that your transparency about your anxiety and willingness to seek guidance will help many others who are experiencing the same. Adam, I know you want to be perfect for Bernardo, your family, your friends and viewers, but no one is ultimately perfect. However, you have so many truly awesome qualities, talents and gifts... That is why Bernardo and others are drawn to you and love & care so deeply for you. Being a perfectionist myself and overly pushing myself, I've come to the realization that I am the only one demanding that and I've learned to let go and be more at peace with it. Lastly, it was good you tried 100% travel life. You learned it may not be for you. My perception is that you need a "home base" but could travel still 30-60% of the time. My work makes me travel 75-80% of the time; however, I have a solid home with friends and family there to come back to, while still enjoying travel, different cultures, food, lifestyles, etc. A home base is 'grounding' and permanent. Good luck, guys! Luv ya's...

[@robertcrundwell2782]

Ah, Bernardo and Adam, my heart goes out to you both. The first year of a marriage is hard. You have all the big things worked out before hand, and then all the insecurities come into play. Remember how lucky you were in finding each other. We went through a similar first year. You have to think about yourself and your partner. And the real problem? It’s taboo to talk about it. In an age of social media-primed “perfection,” you worry about looking unhappy or ungrateful, even like a bad partner. But there’s no shame in admitting that you’re struggling, and having a tough time doesn’t mean you regret getting married. Talking about it can do you a whole lot of good. Marriage is different than just being a couple. You are in a permanent union and the stakes just feel higher. Every fight or disappointment within the marriage may feel more significant and more loaded because this is it. By seeking help and working together, you are on your way. May the Father/Mother bless you both.

[@midcasp1]

What I like about both of you is your laughter and sense of humor. Don't ever lose that - it makes for a wonderful, lasting relationship. Want to lessen that anxiety? Every morning when you wake up thank God that you're alive, tell each other "I love you", don't make small unimportant daily events into something big, and never go to sleep angry with each other. You'll both be okay.

[@enioferrulli8418]

Adam I'm with you ❤️ and thanks for speaking of this issue. It's an important thing to do

[@rajeevraina3626]

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[@rajeevraina3626]

Baifrindship

[@TheGav67]

It is SUPER IMPORTANT & GENEROUS of you, to make yourself open & vulnerable enough to share your story about anxiety, & seeking out therapy. Perhaps thousands of your viewers don’t live the “perfect, idyllic” lifestyle that you are fortunate to experience; but they secretly experience anxiety, dark days... and they aren’t brave enough to seek help. I personally get triggered by things, & have dark days too. And I’ve been seeing a therapist as well. So THANK YOU... for sharing with them that “perfect, idyllic” people have dark, troubled experiences too.

[@joeblow8940]

When I first moved to Portland many years ago, some new friends were leaving to take jobs in CA. I shared my feelings with my favorite bartender and native Oregonian of how much I would miss them. He said to me "the good ones always come back." He was right. It seems as if Portland just has a strong pull on certain people that no matter where they roam, they always return if only to visit. Welcome back!

[@shridharaholla8398]

Hi

[@steves4639]

I'm with you Bernardo...I was with my guy for 25 years and didn't need anyone's validation, and fundamentally it didn't change the way we live but somehow after getting married it just felt 'completed'...and understandable esp to people who 'get' marriage more than partnership...we were the same as them and they understood it. I really think that the public commitment to each other cemented our bond. this was all an unexpected but welcome surprise.

[@joanneskribis7666]

You are both wonderful human beings and your love and support for each other is a beautiful gift. You are blessed to have each other. Portland seems like the place to be for you now. It doesn't need to be permanent; just take each day as it comes. Please know we're in your corner cheering you on.

[@MarkSeydel]

Panic attacks and anxiety are brutal. I've suffered from the age of seven. This month I will be 57. Thank you, Bernardo, for being there for Adam. I know it's difficult for a partner to deal with. Adam, remember, they stop. If you can keep that in your mind and go through the suffering and not try fighting it. It does end. You see that from experience. Remembering that during an attack is not very easy, but, it can be mastered. Prayers for the both of you. You guys are an inspiration.

[@matthewejcrepin9675]

I just want to hug you two so much after this video. Bernardo for being so supportive and attentive. And Adam for being so honest and open about your struggles with your dark moments. And a group hug because you two are so refreshing and real. Laughing through the dark times, laughing at the ridiculous times and being your true selves with us. Congrats on hitting 350K. P.S. Happy you're back in Portland with Jon and Aaron (even though they are away right now. Looking forward to a reunion video). Hugs and kisses from North of the 49th.

[@ed252]

Your feelings are never wrong. It is hard being married-especially the first year. Just keep in mind, that nothing has really changed. Just take a deep breath and remember how much you love each other.

[@carlosjosedubba]

Adam , você merece a felicidade que conquistou . Pense no quanto ele é feliz só por estar aí do teu lado . Não se cobre tanto .

[@bryanwoodard7810]

We are all here for you Adam. It takes time, but Bernardo is by your side. Glad your home again.

[@michaelzimmerman6048]

I have suffered from anxiety and depression for many years and it the hardest thing to try to explain to someone who has no idea of the mental torture you go through.

[@jimjefftube]

Wow, what a great and honest video Adam and Bernardo. It’s so good of you to share something so personal and I think this will have a positive effect on many that view this vlog so I congratulate you! I’m sorry about all the anxiety Adam as it interferes with so much joy that you deserve so I’m going to try a couple things that I have learned along the way as a fellow anxiety fighter. I usually remind myself every day and sometimes multiple times a day that “I live a happy adventurous life that is divinely protected”. You would be surprised how much peace this can give you when you start to believe it. Another thing that may help you as it did me and please don’t take this personally as I struggled with this when I first heard it from a psychologist. “You’re not that Important”! Meaning why do I think everything I do has an impact on others. The truth is only about half of the stuff we worry about others thinking of us is actually happening. Most of the time people are going on with their lives and we tend to put too much pressure on ourselves thinking we have such a BIG impact on others. Pressure leads to anxiety and most pressure we feel is self created. Hope that helps, glad you’re speaking with a professional and know you have the love and support of a wonderful spouse, family,, friends and even a bunch of KZbinrs that appreciate you sharing your story. Ignore negative comments from idiots and Make Lots and Lots of Memories! Enjoy the moment you two!

[@egn3376]

When your porno ends up being a comedy and horror movie at the same time😂, I hope Adam gets better, love your guy's videos!

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

EGN 33 hahaha true. We didn’t know what to do since it was my biggest attack yet since we had met. It was scary but now we can look back and watch it and laugh about it. 🤣

[@juanpintodesousa2881]

@@Stepsof2Foreigners is not a good

[@dahabizizy]

Wtf iwanna watch were did u watch them

[@hughhaefner5486]

@@Stepsof2Foreigners I used to suffer horribly with anxiety attacks. And claustrophobic symptoms all of a sudden one day. Better now but still have some. Traumatic events trigger anxiety long after the traumatic event. Good luck Adam! And Bernardo, you are a good man also. Thanks for putting your story out there. I was extremely upset upon the conversion story y'all told. Your channel educates people on the subject here. I was once a mentor type for gay kids and teens because of the high ratio of teen suicides being due to their realization that they were gay. That needs to change. Best to you both.

[@nurfatimahmalawi9267]

🧡🧡🧡💙💙💙💚💚💚💛💛💛💞💞💞

[@dugald56]

This is such a lovely video. The strength and depth of your love and relationship is inspiring, even for a crusty old guy like me. 😘😘

[@psremington]

Adam, I suffered from extreme anxiety and panic attacks in my 20s and 30s. You can and WILL move through this. It’s not forever. And bravo to Bernardo for his understanding and patience. You guys are awesome. Your honesty is refreshing and makes both of you even more lovable, if that’s possible 😉. Big big hugs. ♥️♥️

[@briansherrod1916]

I love your videos because you never know what you are going to say or release. Keeps suspense alive!

[@TPRQnet]

Welcome back HOME! I'm so glad you're back in Portland, even though I'll probably never meet you in person here. (But if you want, it'd be fun. But seriously, just welcome back.)

[@jasperlawson4292]

Love watching you guys. Appreciate your honesty. Adam, I am sure that therapy will be helpful to you. Appreciate your courage and willingness to take risks.

[@matthewgallien77]

Thank you both for an enlightening video and for being vulnerable with your YT family. You two are the Ying to the other's Yang. Bernardo stated that he loves Adam's ability be more of a free-spirited individual and take a leap of faith that something done on impulse will turn out for the better. Whereas, Adam relies on Bernardo to ground him, to be a safe harbor during an anxiety storm, and each knows the other will be there through the good and bad times; which will only solidify their relationship throughout the coming years. I'm glad that you're back in Portland; a place which holds many happy memories.

[@marjavonders3882]

☯️🕉

[@stillluvit]

Having anxiety myself, I would think not having a definite home that I know I can go to would be incredibly anxiety inducing for me. (If I were doing the traveling like you guys were.) You guys are so sweet and such a big motivation to me as a romance write. Thanks for that!

[@phallondavenport2157]

I love you guys. Adam, there's nothing wrong with seeking help. Don't beat yourselves up, because y'all had to stop traveling. Putting both of your physical and mental health, is very important. That's A lot more important than, traveling. Bernardo, continue to be there and support Adam especially now. He's going to, really need you more now than ever.

[@SagginGardener]

I love you guys especially when you disclose your true feelings with each other. Honesty is the best!

[@tonifoster3427]

Hi guys one saying that I use and have used over the years, is... it’s not how many times we fall it’s how many times we get up. I think it’s such a sign of strength to ask for help..., you both will keep following your dreams. Having a little break to look after your mental health is perfect. Xxx

[@thetravellinghobitt]

Hello my lovelies glad your back safely in Oregon pretty cool set of questions! Miss talking to you guys big hugs here from London 🥰👍🏼❤️😘😘

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

Hey Neil, thank you. We're glad to be back and getting the help I need. Big hugs to you.

[@MarkHyde]

Such an adorable couple - being open, honest and supportive of each other truly sad you went through that - been a fan for a long time also with anxiety with depressive episodes - you guys will get through this. Being home is the best - travel is awesome but being home in your own bed is wonderful . Stay strong you two :)

[@samma995]

In the future I will vote for the monument for Stepsof2Foreigners. :) Anyone else will support the idea?

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

You're way too kind but thank you :)

[@phallondavenport2157]

Oh most definitely, I will

[@MykRaffy]

Totally agree

[@RBS_]

.....I SECOND that notion; but, how big is the boulder gonna be, for Bernardo's Speedo!!? ....ha-HAAAA!! >Itlooksheavybaybeeee< >seemslikeitstherightsize

[@enzomartinez8083]

Me...😃😃😃😃

[@mohinishnaicker135]

I suffer from severe anxiety and panic attacks and I can understand what you are going through but it’s great that you have the support from your amazing husband and family you guys are amazing love your videos

[@hollygrimm108]

I'm happy to hear that you are getting help Adam I've been thinking about you since the last video. I know what it's like to have anxiety just know it's important to take care of yourself and know that Bernardo really loves you it's so obvious in the way he looks at you and talks about you.

[@bradleyf3224]

Excellent intro! Your honesty and frankness is a wonderful example of understanding, acceptance and making a choice to tackle your hurdles 👍😉

[@Justin52wales]

Your great together and glad Adam is getting the help he needs and show more of where you are in Portland please love to you both 🥰😘

[@allancuseo7431]

That was probably your most inspiring honest and straightforward video. Praying for you Adam. Just know that you are loved by many. Looking forward to hear more comments about your therapy

[@nancyborden5860]

What a great togetherness you guys have. Everyone should be as happy and loving with their mates as you two are.

[@michaelhaswood9667]

I'm behind you Adam...you can do it!! ❤I too struggled with anxiety off and on. Bernaldo love is your wings and all of us.

[@Liam_29_T]

You both are so inspiring. Take care of your selves, your well-being comes first; sending you guys lots of hugs. Thank you for making us a part of your journey. Love you guys 💙

[@mannyctrends2010]

You need to be the best version of yourself. Mental health is real and acknowledging that you need help that takes courage. God bless you both and your marriage

[@toddbooth-smith5474]

Adam, I know you have likely read this verse a thousand times being raised Christian. **Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy as unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many waters cannot quench love; rivers cannot sweep it away. If one were to give all the wealth of one’s house for love, it would be utterly scorned.** I hope this reminds you that love never fails, love never dies and the love that you share will never end. Adam, whenever you have uncertainty about life, just remember Bernardo's wedding vows, which will lead you back to the light of love that he has for you. What you have is special, very rare and always remember what brought you together and never let anyone come between the love you have for each other. I think once you settle down, both will be so much more content. Please also remember that you have a lot of friends that watch your videos and we pray for you, quietly encourage you and are your biggest fans, always. I hope this message finds you both having a wonderful day, full of sunshine to brighten your day. Peace and Love from North Carolina. ~Todd

[@arthurhorne6491]

Pray for you all the time !! Remember God loves you !!!!

[@marilynkamara1232]

Hang on in there Adam and Bernardo..you inspire thousands of people out there..both gay n straight couples..praying for U always..stay strong..we love you guys.

[@susiew.9012]

Well put Todd, I agree wholeheartedly with you. A&B are an inspiration to us all, please look after your mental health Adam. We are all here for you, you brighten our Sundays. Love and hugs 😍💋😍💋🏳️‍🌈

[@platoman3810]

Great response, Todd. I confess I had forgotten how much strength has kept the Old Testament with us.

[@jbar_85]

That was very kind, Todd.

[@robinlanders6805]

Adam, please don't let anxiety overcome you. You must not think you need to be a perfect husband. Just relax and enjoy the love you share with Bernardo. The two of you are such a loving couple who bring joy to all around you. Don't let anything overwhelm you or cause you stress. All will be fine for you both. Trust yourself and each other. I love following your videos, your life travels. Congratulations on your wedding Adam and Bernardo! 💖

[@paulkeating9950]

Just finished watching it my first comment is simply this - What is incredibly well done video. Your video skills are really awesome and of course the scenery shots are spectacular as always.

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

How kind Paul, thank you very much. We hope this comment finds you well and healthy. Thank you for watching and leaving us this beautiful comment.

[@manuelm2739]

I admire both of you the way how you treat each other as a married. ❤️

[@rutgerdejong1700]

So good you guys settled for a bit so Adam could get therapy to feel better! Your mental health is SO important! Trust in the future, things will get better and the therapy AND Bernardo will help you get through. Bernardo seems so supportive, caring and determined to help you! Lastly, seeking help is a really strong step to take! I know from personal experience it can be hard to accept you need therapy. So much respect!! 🤗😚

[@RBS_]

....I'm SO loving this comment!!👏

[@jamesk8s1]

First I send support to Adam for his healing! Glad you have chosen therapy! :), and that Bernardo seems to solidly loving you thru it. I think you should be rich, and live lives that are fulfilling at the highest level in every way: Consciously/Spiritually (whatever that means for you), Emotionally, Relationally, Financially; lives filled with beautiful moments and lasting memories. You deserve it all!

[@dermoto3523]

One day at a time Adam, we all have bumps in the road of life, I wish you both all my best, looking forward to seeing your next adventure x

[@wnymann]

Adam and Bernardo you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am glad you went back to Portland and are getting the professional help you need at this time. You did well to read the signs and realized you needed help. Anxiety and depression can really take a toll on a person. Love you guys and lots of live and prayers.

[@linneabrown2131]

You are both so amazing! You have come so far since your marriage, talking about jealousy rather than being jealous. Communication is vital to have a happy, loving relationship, and you both are doing great. Also, the story about the failed porn tape is hilarious! So glad you are back where you feel safe, so now its time to heal and rest. Love you both....Bo XOXO

[@nicholasroby8936]

I am a new subscriber in the past week 5/20, and have been watching at least 9 of your videos , and loved the traveling and scenes you both visited especially Mexico and California , but mostly touched by your open romance and hugging and kissing. I cried openly at the wedding , namely when Adam cried while listening to Bernardo's vows and when sharing his vows while crying, and sobbed when strong Bernardo cried when the videos of his siblings in Brazil were shown. Now to respond to this video of life after marriage : I too was moved by Bernardo saying that he shared in the ^dark times" and was crying again knowing he and Adam were strong in trusting and knowing a professional therapist was needed I look forward to watching many more and joining other fans in supporting your work via purchasing at this stressful stay at home times of the pandemic . I have suffered from major depression for 30 years but found relief and benefits of antidepressant Wellbutrin and psychotherapy weekly. Thank God and people like you both sharing your intimate experiences with strangers Thank you Adam & Bernardo , having grown to love you in a week without talking or physical contact

[@goodone9109]

Last to last year I luckily found this beautiful 💑 couple . for me Bernardo and Adam are my fairy tale story 🥳be always together and tc u two are such a beautiful soul together 😊be strong

[@jims6056]

I watched the wedding video, and I was tearing up! That was so lovely to watch. I also enjoy watching these q&a videos. More power to you guys!

[@Sergio107ify]

You two are great and it makes me so happy to see you two love each other the way you do. Stay strong.

[@mnfourmn]

Welcome back to Portland, Oregon. I just completed a 4,276 miles round trip drive. Nothing beats Oregon. well except the rain. I didn't miss the rain or the cold. I have enjoyed your video's since I started watching them. You guys are quite an inspiration.

[@MrJosea1971]

Many years ago I had a german boyfriend in Venezuela and he loved when I cuddled him in bed, and once he told me, "mit dir ich fühle geborgen", that means : " I feel safe with you", some years later he died, but I still remember that moment!. Thanks for sharing with us your special moments guys!, you touched my soul!

[@dondouglass8665]

Hard to put the deep feelings I am having for both of you in response to the current video. As I’ve mentioned before I’ve been on this journey with you since the waterfall days and only want the very best for both of you. Sending deep love and support at this vulnerable time, knowing that you’ll work through this, and brighter days are coming.

[@syaodzjye]

No matter what, I still love you guys ~

[@paulbailey207]

So pleased that you recognised that you need help, which is the first step of the long process with anxiety, and also with the corono virus thats going on at the moment , and your return to be based in the safety of your home in Portland for a short while. Nothing is perfect, there is no perfect marriage, or perfect husband, perfect job, etc, Accepting these things and Bernardo being your rock will help you so much. Your relationship is reward enough, that you have each other to support and lean on and develop a deeper love for each other. No one can take that away from you.. Embrace the moment and move forward together to a happier, healthier, relationship and life together. Enjoy what you do, love what you have achieved, Big hugs guys from Paul in France

[@garyjsimm]

As some one who suffers from anxiety as well, I know your pain. Not gonna lie, the beginning of this video was triggering. I’m ok though. Just remember one thing brother. ANXIETY IS A LIAR! Please remember that. The things it makes you think will not happen. The way it makes you feel is just adrenaline keeping your nerves on edge. The way your mind runs fast is just more adrenaline. You will not go crazy, die or anything it tells you. And I hate to tell you but you’re not perfect and will never be. Get comfy with that. You will be ok. You are ok. Anxiety is a bitch.

[@1533ramsay]

I battle anxiety because of a personal relationship I can't get out of easly...I cant imagine it happening when life is filled with someone who loves you conditionally...It a ruff beast to fight. Taming it is hard when its inside you...A understanding partner is a blessing to have....😏

[@MarkSeydel]

Have you been through Cognitive Behavioral Therapy? It sounds like it. It really helped me. Stay healthy.

[@shelleythistleton4935]

Great comment. For those of us that don’t suffer anxiety, this really helped me to begin to understand it a little bit. Thanks

[@garyjsimm]

Mark Seydel No I did not do CBT. Thought about it often though. Just had good therapists. Still have one. Realized a long time ago that anxiety was a liar. That realization really helped me

[@garyjsimm]

Shelley Thistleton you’re welcome.

[@im.ralphn8]

Keep going strong Adam. I suffer from the same things as yours. So in some way I could empathize you. Let’s stay close to those who love us. And have a positive spirit. You know you at least have my wishes, prayers and supports. Love you both.

[@morganessen-moller1605]

Take one day at a time, live here and now. Whit love from Sweden❤️🇸🇪

[@mitchellaverygunter4811]

I feel; Everything we need lays within us. Adam, have you heard of Self Help or Personal Development..?! It’s a deep Soul search to find the answers of why we go through our emotions, facing them, and healing finding healing from them. Best of wishes to you and Bernardo!! Much Love ❤️

[@SEACRUZNY]

Marilyn: The Eagle wasn't always the Eagle. The Eagle, before he became the Eagle, was Yucatangee, the Talker. Yucatangee talked and talked. It talked so much it heard only itself. Not the river, not the wind, not even the Wolf. The Raven came and said "The Wolf is hungry. If you stop talking, you'll hear him. The wind too. And when you hear the wind, you'll fly." So he stopped talking. And became its nature, the Eagle. The Eagle soared, and its flight said all it needed to say. 👁🙏👁

[@daviddeveau5101]

A very nice story about your meeting. Best wishes for a long future together.

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

Thanks so much David for watching. We hope this comment finds you well.

[@pierrebeukes6315]

Don't feel that you have failed, you acctually won because you faced youself and took stock of yourself and accepted the fact that you need help. So you took steps te recovery, that is a win not a loss.

[@duanewilcox2096]

It will be nice to see you two plus Jonathan & Aaron filming tonight again. You guys seemed to be such close friends.

[@magicjohnson7237]

I'm inspired by your love and how you hold each other while you talk.

[@mradaChris]

You two have found your soul mate. Cherish what you have, work through what needs to be worked through and enjoy your journey together. I lost my soul mate last year and so having this kind of close and loving relationship is something to cherish!

[@wellingtonandrey5223]

Eu amo vocês com todas as minhas forças, a cada vídeo que eu vejo de vocês a esperança de encontrar o amor só aumenta, obrigado por isso!! Desejo muitas, MUITAS FELICIDADES!!!

[@TB-bm7ci]

I am glad that you are talking about your panic attacks. I suffer from them and they can be horrible. You are lucky to have a partner to be there for you. I have loved watching all your travels. The love you two have for each other is amazing.

[@fernandoav2011]

Ansiedade é realmente um saco! Sei exatamente o que é isso! Mas o passo mais importante você já tomou: a terapia. Prenda-se ao que gosta, aproxime-se dos amigos, agarre-se ao que te faz feliz. Obrigado por ser nossa inspiração e demonstrar que são tão humanos quantos nós, e que passam por dias bons e ruins, como qualquer pessoa. 🥰

[@biga36695]

A + B, thank you so much for such thoughtful answers and opening your life up to us. I know you two will work your way through this and move on to your next adventure. Your STEPS are always interesting and draw us in with each new release. I feel enriched having found your channel and laughing, crying and experiencing just about every other emotion in between with you. Take care of each other and take comfort in knowing many strangers out there love and support you.

[@chefealex]

Ola meninos! Hi! Quando vcs virão ao Brasil novamente? Abraços do Rio de janeiro. Adorando os videos!

[@kathyborthwick6738LakotaEmoji]

I have been watching your videos from the very beginning of your channel! What I love the most about both of you is the ability to engage others by bringing them into your life to share amazing adventures and evidence that love is powerful and very healing! Being a “ gay “ couple does not define who you are and that my friends is rare & beautiful! May Creator continue to keep and bless you!🙋🏽‍♀️🦅🧡🧡

[@egyptiangawd]

Aww Adam. ❤️❤️ hugs

[@volkrik]

I love seeing how you two support each other. It's hard to understand and truly SEE someone whose experiences are so different from your own, but you are doing it beautifully for each other. Keep it up! Love you guys.

[@darrellchaisson5826]

It hurts my feelings that someone would be rude to you guys!

[@fredm6349]

I have dealt with anxiety and panic attacks all my life. They are better now, but still happen. The best thing for it is each other arms. That secure feeling makes it go away. It does get better. Love you guys very much. Big hugs.

[@pianistwannabe0828]

One of my favorite couples.❤️❤️😘😘

[@Stepsof2Foreigners]

Paolo Alejandrino how kind Paolo. We appreciate the love and support you give us 😊❤️

[@garyancer8281]

Adam, I'm so happy to hear you're in therapy! You've been through a lot in your younger days and this is the best thing for you. You guys remind me so much of me and my husband when we first got together 21 years ago! Your videos are the best. ❤️