Will Jay - I Need Control

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As a kid, I would do a lap around the house twice every night, make sure every door was locked, and I would touch the wall in certain places as I did it. It was the only way I could fall asleep because my brain automatically went to the worst places: what if the house burns down? what if a burglar tried to come in? I’ve carried a lot of that paranoia into my adult life, constantly feeling claustrophobic and hyper-aware of how I’m being perceived. My mind longs to have control, not only of my surroundings but of myself. I would say this song, along with Lies, are the mission statements of the album: the dark side that comes with being a perfectionist.
Written by: Will Jay, Sam Creighton
Produced by: Keaton Stromberg
Every time that I try to speak
It feels so calculated
If I say what I really mean
It’s like you see me naked
Not a word until I was 3
The doctors were elated
Thank god there was nothing wrong
And everything’s fine
Always on the edge of my seat
Never the right position
Check the doors are locked, 1 2 3
flip on and off light switches
Something bad could happen to me
House will burn if I didn’t
Make sure that the stove was off
Now everything’s fine
I need control
I need control
What will I do if I lose my mind
Hurt someone else, or myself
I’m terrified
These crazy thoughts, they won’t stop
Oh my
I feel the worst in me
Better tread carefully
I need control
Everybody please disappear
I’m feeling claustrophobic
Way past capacity in here
Hard to be easygoing
Suffocating’s my biggest fear
I can’t breathe in this clothing
Leave before something goes wrong
Now everything fine
I need control
Make a mistake
I go insane
What can I say, I’m a perfectionist
Slave to my brain
Circle the drain
What can I say, get me a therapist
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[@dorene7306]

The rhythm, lyrics, his voice... Everything is perfect. Just wow.

[@ThuLe-nr5rd]

Ye ikr

[@norcrosscaduceus8344]

Ikr I agree

[@AHealthyDoseofFran]

The dark side of perfectionism is always something never truly looked at - I often consider Azula from Avatar (I know extreme choice) as an example of it to stop myself from focusing too much on trying to be perfect

[@bethanysmith609]

Your comment just got me thinking, where is the dark side of perfectionism not truly looked at? In music and media? :)

[@bloodcottoncandy1514]

@@bethanysmith609 Perfectionism isn't as bad if it is done out of fun but it becomes easily toxic for the person if they are doing it to impress someone else. That's why perfectionists are easily the easiest people to become narcissistic or nihilistic if not looked after because you can either only care for yourself or think that everything is useless so there isn't a point to it.

[@bethanysmith609]

​@@bloodcottoncandy1514 I believe that whilst the dark side to perfectionism is more common and better researched (i.e. those perfectionists that are motivated externally and scared of mistakes), there are some 'healthy' or 'functioning' perfectionists. Those that strive for themselves, don't compare and use mistakes to improve. That's what my psychology dissertation was on and my research supported. Though it's a rather new and disputed theory. As I'm so used to hearing about the negatives of perfectionism (from psychology), I was curious what areas it's not really represented in, which was why I asked for examples :)

[@OwlpoAnimations]

@@bethanysmith609 Perfectionism is both good and bad. If perfectionism is fueled by negative factors it can eventually lead to one “fixing” themself by removing unwanted traits, emotions, or cares. Healthy perfectionism is fueled usually by just a want to be better at something, but when it becomes a need to be better then it becomes unhealthy. Most healthy perfectionists can eventually devolve into an unhealthy state. Healthy perfectionism makes it so people can fix mistakes or things bugging them, unhealthy causes great distress and pain.

[@bethanysmith609]

@@OwlpoAnimations yes! As my comment before said, I looked at this for my dissertation: 'can perfectionist strivings be healthy? The associations between perfectionism, character strength use and flourishing'. My findings supported Stoeber's theory - that there's adaptive and maladaptive perfectionism. However, the dominant view in psychology is that perfectionism is wholly bad! That 'adaptive perfectionism' is not really perfectionism, as striving for 'perfection' and 'excellence' are different. So that's why I asked for examples - wondering if the commenter specifically meant music and media - where the bad sides of perfectionism is 'never truly looked at' ☺️ as psychological research suggests otherwise!

[@kristinepinlac2796]

The disconjointed feel all throughout the song really reflects on how chaotic a percectionist's mind can be, which is pretty ironic. People assume that just because you're a perfectionist, that automatically means thay you have perfect control over yourself as well. But that's the thing, most of the time you have no control over how demanding and obsessive this kind of mindset can be, especially if you let it foster and grow unchecked. It can be so unhealthy especially when you have no coping mechanism for when you feel like your sense of control is suddenly taken away. Ugh, the anxiety about that is awful

[@ladywho900]

This song was everything I needed to hear after everything I’ve went through last night. I was crying so hard because nobody understood me well when it comes to my emotions and OCD, and people complained that I need “control” So when I heard this, I’d felt relieved because I’d didn’t feel so alone anymore because I’m not alone in this struggle. Thank you for this incredible, it honestly calmed me down to finally sleep.

[@irenecarlotto2982]

I don't have OCD so I can't really understand, however I know for sure your feelings are valid! 💖 Even if you feel alone you are not💪 Sending you love🙏💕

[@alexsacc8910]

YES!! I thought I was the only one who felt valid, or related to this song just because of my ocd, intrusive thoughts, “rituals”, and all that stuff.. it’s such a good song but becomes even better when you can relate to it!

[@pannipollak2622]

“This is my favourite!” - says me to all of his songs.

[@legaciesvids]

As someone with OCD, I relate! But also, this song sounds much more like someone with OCD than just a perfectionist in some of the lyrics. Like the "check the doors are locked 123 house will burn if I didn't. Make sure that the stove is off, now everything's fine." Like that's an ocd mood lol

[@legaciesvids]

I'm not saying he has OCD, to be clear. I'm just saying some of the lyrics are very relatable to ocd.

[@mothmaiden]

My therapist suggested that OCD is probably a lot more common in the population and can overlap with other things. The speech delay he described is typical of autism- but autistic people can also develop OCD and more often than not suffer from anxiety to clinical levels. It also can be a curse as the artist is clearly multitalented but put immense effort in- he is a superb dancer, he clearly has a strong grounding in music composition, he is a great writer and he has strong aesthetic skills. His appearance involves likely intense work, talked about in other songs, to meet impossible beauty standards. So, assuming this is an accurate window (which it doesn't need to be, art is not about us possessing the whole "real" him!), he also has the classic anxiety trap of feeling if he releases his distress he will lapse in capacity.

[@Sootielove]

I seriously relate about being so calculated with words and wanting to control your environment to the level of needing other people to disappear. Being so much of a perfectionist in everything including your own personality and appearance and the anxiety and need of control that comes with it is practically my entire life.

[@maggiesinger63]

Oh my gosh, my OCD has me feeling like this every day! So relatable, I love this song

[@jaimegrace2443]

omg i thought i was the only one who feels this :') "if i lose my mind , hurt someone else or myself" hits me

[@dollyonelly4564]

Theres a missing full stop in your comment lolz

[@kahel_era]

i heavily relate to this oh goshhhh,,, This song , d a m n . it S L A P S You, Sir are AMAZING!!

[@user-xh6eg1ts1t]

Oh my god, all the lyrics about getting flooded over by all the thoughts grabbing for attention, all the lights and sounds and wants and needs, everything inside and outside calling, constantly, god! it’s perfect!

[@babowasalwayshere]

I'm an autistic person and this song HEAVILY resonates with me. I also get worried about how I speak, have weird rituals I need to do to help feel control of my life. I was mute for an entire year in preschool then suddenly started talking just fine so everyone decided nothing was wrong with me. I have intense agoraphobia and if I'm social for too long it takes days for me to recover and be able to try it again. I'm paranoid about how I'll affect others and I often say things that are unsettling because I have a hard time understanding how other (non autistic) people think or feel and tend not to have a "brain to mouth filter". Also perfectionism is a super big autistic thing. We are our own biggest hypocrites and we will hyperfixate on the tiniest of errors or inconsistencies, it can be debilitating. If you haven't been tested for autism I really recommend looking into it, because of the stigma a lot of people don't know what "mild" autism really looks like and would rather go undiagnosed and thus unhelped. There's a lot of us out there, just trying to look normal. Just trying to get by. Also ABA is bad. It literally causes PTSD in autistic kids, don't use it.

[@yourfavoritepessimisticexi8041]

The song sounds like it's about OCD

[@emomsen1089]

And maybe mixed with social anxiety

[@corinnae.7877]

Anxiety disorder for me. I am always afraid of dying and need control of my body and situations.

[@whattamess]

same thoughts! the lines about the switches and the stove really did it for me

[@muirinncarty5176]

I always thought something was wrong with me, knowing you had such similar experiences as with gives me comfort and hope. Ive never related to something more in my life and I thank you Will for making me feel normal💚

[@maryhooper83]

This one hit hard. Any other perfectionistic controllers out there?

[@juliavu5780]

the talent of this man woww

[@justmelol6360]

Dein Profil 😍😂...

[@annanavenicka9688]

This song makes me at peace with my OCD, ngl. Something to hold on to in order to not feel alone. ❤️

[@nakynie463]

honestly, he is slowly getting recognition and I'm here for it

[@gabri_cheesellamasneeze9006]

I'm scared how accurate this song is for me. I swear, my need for control is obsessive

[@Faith-wz7hu]

I used to think I was a perfectionist, turns out I have OCD and anxiety. It's so nice to hear a song that describes these feelings. Although I guess my perfectionism exists separately too. I didn't start speaking until I could make sentences.

[@mlembunsessions]

I feel this song on so many levels health and personalitywise 🙏🏼 such an underrated Artist

[@kassendrasalzet4420]

I like when the song change of mood and go more dark bravisimo👏

[@nixcipher7451]

Why don't more people know your content!?!?! You're so genuine and this epiphany of more self reflecting music creates such a resonance between him and his listeners. Dang bro, I just want you to be rewarded for your talents.

[@mercilessdevil3178]

The fact that he talked about something so sensitive in a good expressive way with his wonderful voice is just mind-blowing 💕You are amazing !!!

[@montanahopkins3025]

I absolutely love all your music. You have your own style that's unique and special. I'm hoping one day I can see him in concert for my first concert. My son is only two and loves loves your songs. You put so much into your music, I love it! Keep up the good work!! Can't wait to hear another song of yours!

[@GabeLazarYT]

this is giving me Adam Lambert - If I Had You vibes and I'm all here for it!!!

[@Bo-kq8tn]

I don't think I've ever experienced a piece of media that sums up my experience with ADHD+Autism+OCD+anxiety as succinctly and accurately as this. thank you, wow

[@makotonaegi3404]

As someone with OCD this song really resonates with me. I’m not 100% sure if this song is actually about ocd, but honestly it means a lot to be able to relate this much to music like this. Makes me feel like I’m less alone.

[@sadoklajmi]

This is like... the most genius song I've heard in a minute 🤯

[@Shiavin]

Gosh I love KZbin for recommending me this awesome song~ I'm in love with Will Jay now, hands down.

[@franstetix]

this song popped up on my fyp on tiktok and I immediately recognize it, I hope from this Will will have the attention he deserves

[@hawyeefish4846]

once the animation community reaches this itll blow up, jay

[@stijnvanrijnberk]

I remember will jay from years ago and now. Its like GROWTH AND SLAY

[@syfinne2268]

the vocals, the visuals😩❤

[@kayleemcgee4421]

I’m so picky about my music and I have a specific taste and I haven’t heard one song that I don’t like. I literally love your music so much. Keep going

[@aliyam4023]

I used to have OCD and intrusive thoughts and I was shocked when I first heard this song, it was like all those memories coming back. And then I got worried that Will Jay wrote this song. I hope you're alright Will

[@justinerose3396]

I was wondering where I've seen this man's face before. Turns out he was in Todrick Halls 'Disney Dudez" video 6 YEARS AGO! I'm so happy to see how Will's music career has grown.

[@sallyw.3065]

This song is awesome.

[@Carrottastic]

This is my favorite from the album 😍

[@jess1131]

Sir, thank you for your music🙏

[@damayanthifernando2594]

Omg I love this. The story begind it is also very true, the dark side of perfection. THIS DESERVES MUCH MORE ATTENTION !!!❤❤

[@someoneunknow1285]

This song is A FREAKING MASTERPIECE. I LOVE IT. LOVE FOR ALBANIA

[@nicarowe3568]

I love when the ad ends up being another one of his songs

[@kayashainiem2281]

This is so freaking amazing!! I love this soooo much. 💖

[@mp6899]

Will, you are truly amazing.

[@lemonate7307]

I can hear this song in a badass roberry action scene in a movie

[@gloriang4951]

thank you for another amazing song in the album 🥺🥺

[@geodeheart]

i love this song!

[@rheakirkland8832]

Thank you for this. You are so inspiring

[@helenacecilia9775]

he is one of my favorites artists so far! all his songs are fire

[@mocmylov]

This is fire

[@nurianunezfreire9696]

Underrated

[@theeargasmchannel]

UGH this is too good!

[@lovergaara]

Love this album keep going ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@baileypaulina1409]

I really love this!!!

[@halfchiangel88]

I feel this so much Everything about this is so good!

[@nesrinealiane665]

Omg! From the first second. I can proudly say that I'm addicted to this one. Love it soo muchh *sub*

[@SA-nm1lm]

i love this. i totally relate to this!!!

[@polinalll325]

Perfectly ❤️❤️❣️

[@user-mu8he1lf6c]

That’s so powerful

[@jewelgibson9499]

I love this man and his music so much! Thank you for sharing your music with us all :')

[@spongebob8157]

My favorite song by you so far. Like its so catchy, the whole song.

[@kingofworld1088]

This song is awesome

[@diegosoutoh]

Brilliant!! I love it.

[@Pinkyyyy13]

i love this so much

[@bananasinfrench]

These harmonies go hard, chills

[@martezd5105]

This is so amazing and relatable

[@seaveyhonoret3802]

love this song and the picture is so prettyy 👀

[@nathaliedenhollander8035]

You did such a good job, we’re all super proud of you

[@spruillsdesk6010]

Yasssssssss so much talent

[@eefstiddy]

I WAS TRYING TO REMEMBER THE NAME OF THIS SONG FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT COULDN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING ABT IT EXCEPT THAT IT WAS SO GOOD THEN I SAW ANOTHER SONG BY WILL JAY AND RECOGNIZED THE NAME I AM SO HAPPY RN

[@ken-ef7cr]

just wow ???

[@noahishmri]

Your music is incredible as always. It's just so satisfying I can't stop listening to it

[@spongebob8157]

I love your style so muuuch. Im literally addicted.

[@reilly4764]

I love the way you rebranded yourself so much better

[@cammnk1879]

TEMAZO

[@deliberatelypositive5812]

Woah was not expecting that falsetto!! Nicee

[@dashanikitina5337]

THIS IS SO UNDERRATED WHAT THE HELL

[@limaanubis2524]

He is spectacular

[@rebycovers1596]

i love this song, this is one of the very few songs i can relate to so much, maybe because of the concept that is bad but honestly it is very comforting

[@xxxmaximexxx9271]

This song is awesome!

[@seandunavant]

Everything you produce is immaculate.

[@Icey_ace]

I love this song so much

[@fudanshidean3816]

NEW FAN... 😍😘💕❤👌👏🙏

[@annaanja3616]

I love the disco part, makes it so different!

[@Terrox_]

This dudes voice. Oh my God.

[@theoneandonlydrowlf819]

Ooooh, I'm obsessed with the way he says "terrified"

[@Kiwicitobaby]

This is my favorite song 💕

[@ms_rook]

Wow...i like it

[@himanshirawat8928]

Way to go will. 😌

[@RoboNightcore]

I Need Control while listening to this great Song

[@miraclezzgaming2336]

Omg the lyrics thooo.. Mind blowing facts.. Btw who else found this song frm tiktok?

[@rachelcarvell4831]

This is the best song you've done!!

[@abdie6569]

tbh this is waay underated its so good

[@kiukiura]

This song speaks to me on another level

[@manuelcarrillo1886]

Buen ritmo, excelente ♥♥♥

[@conferencecall42]

The last 30 seconds of this song are a marvel, vocally and production wise 🥴good job

[@juliamatias3303]

Bro I just... Wow really good job I Love it

[@angelarusso2553]

Damn addictive

[@Kyuubi1161]

The first time I heard this song I knew it was about OCD. It's so relatable. Thanks for being so open and making this song.

[@yuihpphappy4150]

Esto es increibleee