Writing with fragmented trauma memories. Processing with art.

My name is Xanthe Wyse.
My primary diagnoses are post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and bipolar disorder (type 1) which are most of my impairment as a 'mental injury', despite treatment (meds and therapy).
Recently, I have been painting rather than writing (books). I enjoy painting but I feel discouraged at the barriers to selling my art (which includes my books). I feel compelled to create anyway.
It's exceptionally hard for me to put books together, as my memories are fragmented, which I use as inspiration for the the themes (mostly relationships and processing trauma).
After avoiding getting back to working on the sequel novel: Soar Purpose, I wrote an outline tonight. I am diagnosed with an avoidance & shutdown presentation of PTSD. That includes avoiding working on the stories - with potential triggers. Yet, it's a very meaningful project for me.
I have self-published a memoir, "Bipolar Courage: Are You Sure You're Not Autistic?" and a semiautobiographical novel: "Pet Purpose: Your Unspoken Voice." I feel like I have one more book left in me inspired by my experiences ("Soar Purpose") and I want to try to work on it.
I will see if I can balance with doing some paintings here and there.
Links for my books:
www.soarpurpose...
My paintings:
www.soarpurpos...