Wrongly prescribed, hell and back!

Few things I didn't express clearly, about how these drugs are given out below -
Connect and find me on instagram @beatingthebenzo
DISCLAIMER:
The information and opinions presented here are for educational purposes only and are not intended to take the place of medical advice. Do not ever suddenly stop taking a benzodiazepine or Zdrug or abruptly withdraw from such without proper medical supervision. I disclaim any liability or loss in conjunction with the information that is presented on this channel.
An interview to bring awareness to a silent epidemic, in the medical world. I tried to fit it all in, what I have experienced, as it was a lot, but hopefully got it across!
I say in this that it is not common practice, but sadly it is, especially in the US. Over here in the UK the NHS would rarely give out Lorazepam for long term treatment ( but even some might! )...so that's what I mean about not common practice, however it does still happen through private Drs and Psychiatrists in the UK. The NHS do give out these drugs and other medications pretty willy nilly with no correct information.
For support go to insta of Facebook @thepsychmedsanctuary
Useful links for people going through this :
www.survivingantidepressants.org
www.beatingthebenzo.com
What I do know is you're still there holding on underneath. And time heals.
With Love
Emma & Wicket
( Emma Saunders aka Ema Wilde for music )
#benzowithdrawal #benzos #lorazepam #ativan #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth #benzoawareness #valium #bigpharma #antidepressants #markhorowitz #emmasaunders

[@Uma921]

Antidepressant withdrawal can be just as prolonged and horrific as benzo withdrawal.

[@dnbjedi]

not everything is a matter of opinion

[@GCT1990]

That's true, although antidepressants isn't worse but it can cause permanent brain damage, Benzos don't

[@ema_videochannel]

Yes it can! Horrible I’m currently yet to try tapering mine again after it being so hard to taper!

[@JDJRN1]

​@GCT1990 that's unknown. Can you provide a reputable study or studies stating that? There are 1000s of people that would love to have proof 51:26

[@allenmoses110]

The drug companies know the damage they are causing with benzos. They should be held accountable and given prison terms.

[@tambarker3862]

What about the good they do for people. Should ppl with debilitating anxiety suffer because some can’t take them.

[@kathis6840]

​@@tambarker3862Wait till the paradoxical effect sets in. The terror is unlike anything I'd experienced before benzos. And I had panic attacks that lasted for days. Ativan worked for me for 13 years, until it didn't.

[@Lisa-xf5uf]

I became very unwell on my meds and knowing I had to get off all of them scared me to death. I started meds at 13 and at 48 they turned on me. There was no one to help me. I'm so thankful it's over. Thanks for doing this

[@adamwiseman6117]

Did you taper off? How did you stop all the meds? How long did it take to feel normal?

[@HuntsvilleFreshClothingCo]

I feel you! I started taking Klonopin during college in 2003 for “social anxiety.” Not a single doctor over the past 20 years ever told me how they will wreck your life in every facet. I’m also an opioid addict thanks to Purdue. Smh. I tapered off for a few months and still had terrible withdrawal for over a month. Then the PAWS started. omfg. I can’t list all of my symptoms here as it would be too long of a list. But in short, benzo belly, Impending doom, anxiety, despair, tinnitus, couldn’t hold conversation, insomnia. The torment they cause is indescribable. It’s incredible to me that they are only a schedule IV drug here in the US with “low potential for abuse.” It’s as addictive as crack for someone who feels high anxiety…which is the majority of us. If I could sum benzos up in 1 word, it would be: “TRAP” Thanks for your content!

[@ema_videochannel]

Thank you for sharing your experience! I mean how can Drs ignore this! Its not ok! And its clearly happening to so many people! sending love! xxx

[@Dreaming-11]

​@@ema_videochannel Because it is their (evil) business model, it's simple like that, so they will never tell us the truth. PS: for me that happened with antidepressants, which are equally dangerous long-term.

[@beautifulspirit2973]

I’m having similar symptoms to you. So sorry you’re going through this. TRAP is a great description

[@xy-qy2yg]

TRAP for sure! I even asked non addictive/ non habit forming meds

[@Rollwithit699]

​@@xy-qy2yg ...and after asking that, they gave you benzos?! Doctors are awful.

[@Lisa-xf5uf]

Girl, there are no words to describe this. The horror of having aka, the Dr s being CLUELESS, family is no where to be found. . I can't believe I'm alive

[@carlameow13]

I'm on lorazepam 1mg and the chemical terror you experienced is what I'm experiencing. Waking every morning with adrenaline pumping, nausea, derealization, heart racing. Absolutely terrified. I wasn't anywhere near as anxious when I started them. Can't believe this is still happening in the UK. Gaslighting us all on benzos, making us believe we are getting more unwell by own hand and not helping ourselves.

[@tambarker3862]

I felt that exact same way before benzos for years. They have made my life worth living. I didn’t take them for years because of the stigma. The only thing I regret is not starting them sooner. We are all different

[@beautifullybroken1591]

​@@tambarker3862The drug that is saving you is also killing you silently. It may turn on you completely, or silently destroy your central nervous system and poke holes in your brain causing Alzheimers. I tell you this not to anger you, but to save you 🙏

[@user-sp3qp2hv3m]

Thank you for sharing this and highlighting the devastation caused by psychiatric drugs. GPs need to know what happens from Benzo's and SSRi's and support provided during withdrawal and post withdrawal. I wish you and everyone of us suffering from this awful debilitating medical injury a speedy recovery.

[@ema_videochannel]

me too XXXX

[@MrRockstar1968]

Lorazepam and Diazepam are relaxants and are also used to help aid sleep but is meant to be only used short term.

[@AdamTSLA]

Hi there, youtube randomly recommended this video and I just wanted to drop a note and say I can say I went through exactly the same thing back in 2018. I was struggling to sleep after returning back to Australia from Italy - I was prescribed Temazepam with no warning and suffered the same reaction you did after a few days. Never had any panic attacks before but after a few days on this stuff I could barely function. I was in constant terror. I took those tablets for 3 weeks but then cold turkied off… I then didn’t sleep much for the next 6 months… I ended up being told I have all sorts of mental conditions and went to hell and back. It took me a solid 3 years to recover completely and I’ll never, never trust doctors again.

[@phillippuckett5552]

Thank you so much for this! Somehow it made me not blame myself a bit less. Started with doctor for help in sleeping. Told him I wanted to stop taking it. Not much advice from him. Went cold turkey. Had a seizure. Family kicked me out of my house on same property and went ballistic on me. All while I was terrorized with no sleep. Still treat me with contempt. Take nothing now but still feel stifled. I pray for everyone going through this “mind blowing” experience.

[@janesimpson8590]

sorry for another comment. Firstly, thank you so much for your candid interview. It's very valuable information! Benzo's affect the neurotransmitter GABA system, which creates the calming effect with your nervous system. So what is happening is severe nervous system injury (the GABA receptors "down regulate", and take a long time to "grow" again). So glad you are doing better. "Medicating Normal" has so many similar stories. Those stories of recovery helped me with SSRI and Benzo withdrawal. Andy Partridge (XTC) was put on Valium as a kid and his wife threw his pills out in his twenties. He thought he should quit cold turkey (lucky to be alive) sending him into years long agony.

[@realcanadiangirl64]

I was first prescribed Xanax in 1992 at the age of 30 when I went to ER with what I thought was a stroke. I was diagnosed with anxiety and hospitalized for five days. For the next twenty years I took Xanax, Valium and Ativan but was always able to stop when I got pregnant. However after a divorce from a very abusive marriage in 2007 I was taking Xanax a few times a day and I became addicted to it. I was taking at least 5 mgs a day and would feel terrible if I didn't take it every few hours. I had a few close calls overdosing where the ambulance had to be called. In 2012 I had the doctor prescribe me 5 Restoril a day for one week which I had delivered to my door each morning. The next week 4/day until the last week only one then zero. I felt awful but I was serious about getting free of the benzos. I felt weak for a year and would tire easily but I'm thrilled to say that now at the age of 59 I've never felt better!

[@BOCHOMO]

God bless you

[@dianemorrell9638]

OMG! That's really awesome. So happy for you and for the future :) thx for your post

[@julieingham7835]

Emma I am SO PROUD of you! You are doing such good things for this community. Hugs girl!

[@ema_videochannel]

Thank you Julie really appreciate it XXX

[@22sevier]

I’m so thrilled to see you Emma! It’s so great that you are telling your story and spreading the word about the dangers of benzodiazepines. You look beautiful. I’m happy for you that you are doing much better. I hope that I can heal from my injury.

[@ema_videochannel]

Hey Rochelle so good to see your message, thank you for your sweet words! I think of you guys often, and hope your healing as gotten better and better! You will heal, time heals, im still very much stuck on loads of meds so may catch you on the zoom calls if you still go at some point. Loads lot love!

[@45Thesecret]

Nobody and I mean nobody can understand this unless they have lived it. It’s pure hell and the worst thing I have ever dealt with. The suicidal ideations are real and the chemical terror is nothing like I have ever felt. Please please I tell everyone to not take a benzo long term. You can become dependent in ten days.

[@albertinamusic]

[@jbwhetstone]

Thank you for sharing your story on KZbin, Emma. Looking forward to your documentary. I'm 20 days away from jumping from clonazepam after 20 months of tapering, and the entire taper has been an indescribable hell I never knew existed and all due a drug I took as prescribed my doctor who said it was safe to take daily indefinitely. Keep telling your story, and I will do the same!

[@ema_videochannel]

keep going! x

[@jbwhetstone]

Stinking autocorrect. Glad it was still readable. I would stay away from the addiction language when speaking about this, because you and I both know this was not addiction but physiological dependence. We want nothing more than for these drugs to be out of our lives.

[@christinehiggins1906]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[@MrRockstar1968]

I have quit all my medication completely about 15 years ago. It's not necessarily brain damage that these medications cause. The likes of antidepressant and antipsychotics work by suppressing the dopamine receptors in the brain and ever the course of time the brain fights back and grows additional receptors. So when you then withdraw you then have too many receptors and the brain needs then adapt back over, which is possible over the course of time. My word of advice is, don't believe everything doctors tell you as most of them are just guessing and I have even proven this many times. I could not believe how lacking in information my brothers psychiatrists were and several times I ended up needing to advice the psychiatrist, which I even have written evidence of with the psychiatrist apologising for their incompetence and errors. I'd love to add to your documentary as I want to blow the whistle on how disgraceful mental health services truly are and i have tons of records of this.

[@MakingItHappenMWC]

Thanks for sharing your story. There are loads of us going through this crap. All we can do is push through and get through the end. I've seen one common theme. It usually does go away. Just have to taper down and get off this crap. Your body will recover.

[@ema_videochannel]

Yes that's so true ! Common theme is the crucial taper.. not fast.. very slow! Dont under estimate the power of this crap! Sending healing your way :)

[@jackiepowell7513]

Thank you

[@CBT5777]

@@ema_videochannel I was ripped off this drug cold turkey in rehab with non-benzo, anti-seizure meds and gabapentin. I'm 21 months clean today! One doesn't have to taper.

[@zoosolo4779]

I remember feeling as though I was being burned alive inside and out for months. I remember feeling like fire ants were stinging me all over my body. I remember my mouth and teeth burning. I remember bugs and worms crawling on and under my skin. I remember the losing the ability to talk. I remember not being able to drive anymore. I remember having psychosis. I remember not knowing who I am or where I live. I remember thinking I was being held hostage. I remember being terrified to go anywhere. I remember when I couldn't walk. I remember crushing anxiety. I remember when I could not stop pacing for 4 1/2 months 12 / 14 hours a day. I remember hugging myself crying out all night long begging for someone to help me. I remember always saying please help me. I remember crawling in the yard not knowing what was happening to me. I remember being in a different dimension than the rest of the world. I remember laying on the floor kicking my legs and arching my back as my family watched and could do nothing. I remember laying on the floor for 6 months. I remember learning to sleep in a bed again. I remember losing my job. I remember feeling forsaken. I remember feeling like I was laying in cactus all the time. I remember being submerged in the bath with only my nose out of the water trying to stop the burning. I remember nothing helps. I remember being terrified and not knowing why. I remember losing bodily functions. I remember thinking I would be this way forever. I remember wanting to die. I remember praying to die. I remember the hissing Jet airplane inside my head. I remember my feet feeling like they were being boiled in water every day. I remember not sleeping for six days. I remember being up all night every night. I remember the Doctor that told me it should only take two weeks. I remember being in agony for 9 months. I remember my scale. I remember tapering. I REMEMBER 60 MONTHS AGO THAT I WAS FINALLY FREE FROM 13 YRS OF BENZODIAZEPINES. I WILL FORGET ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME. I WILL NOT BE RULED BY FEAR ANYMORE. I WILL NOT BE HELD CAPTIVE BY A DOCTOR ANYMORE. I STILL SUFFER.

[@ema_videochannel]

I hear you thanks for sharing :) you will heal I keep saying I will heal everyday xxx

[@jackiepowell7513]

I think Dr Peterson more valid. This is attn seeking I think. Sorry.

[@zoosolo4779]

@@jackiepowell7513 Are you kidding? I hope you are not serious? I gain nothing from telling my experience. Only showing that it isn't the easy withdrawal that most Dr's who give advice to people say it is.

[@kate4biglittlevoices]

@@zoosolo4779I believe you and your experience makes complete sense - also, other people’s opinions of you , none of your concern or bother - right ? Dust it off - your kicked benzo WD - no trolling comment is worthy of a second glance

[@zoosolo4779]

@@kate4biglittlevoices Thank you! Why would anyone take the time to make up a story like mine? I have zero notoriety from it. Really I'm looking for anyone who has gone through what I have because only they can relate. And hopefully it will save someone from getting on the poison pills. Thanks for the support!

[@jojojeep1]

You explained it exactly the way it is, people who never experienced it, or as good as shit to you they cannot help they only make matters worse

[@xy-qy2yg]

I think the humor is just the trauma and not able to feel this is even real. It is such a hell. My family and therapists did this to me. I went to therapy and they pushed benzos. Insane. I was in cortisone withdrawal. It is positive you still love things in life.

[@GCT1990]

I just wanna clarify Addiction vs Dependence. If you're having issues coming off benzos, you're not addicted. This are two very different processes. Addiction only happens if you've abused the drug. Addiction: is Psychological (Mental/having to do with the mind). - DSM-3 and 5-RT Edition Defined by its traits such as behaviour/repeated patterns when it comes to substances, there's a inability to control one's thoughts/urges which often leads to abusing said chemical chain/substance in hopes of a desired effect/result regardless of negative consequences to a persons, relationships, relations, social circles, financial status, career/job situation and personal well-being. Dependency: Is Physiological (Physical/has to do with the body). - ICD-10 Edition A dependency is best described by its alterations when it comes to substances such as alteration of a person's neurotransmitters within the CNS (Brain and spinal cord). You're neurotransmitters now need the drug to produce any volume of its original chemical compound as its previous state is down regulated. Needs time to up regulate which is where withdrawal comes from. You never get withdrawal symptoms from addiction, you can develop PAWS but withdrawal is only from the process of dependence.

[@tlofthouse]

Very proud of you and very pleased to see you looking gorgeous as ever with that little Wicket BABY!!! Sending you love xxxxxxx

[@ema_videochannel]

Thanks Tom :) means a lot X

[@ema_videochannel]

@tyrel yes I will share those videos again, in a documentary im making. Currently on 100mg quetiapine from 400 mg given in the wards, it is very hard to taper, and causes swelling and heart problems. I got injected with ativan in one of the hospitals

[@mtgoxwall]

My God, it's truly amazing you are here today. Respect. Benzos ruined periods of my life so I can relate but I got off light compared to you.

[@ema_videochannel]

thank you xx

[@beautifulspirit2973]

Going through this right now due to Diazepam and it’s frankly, terrifying at times. I even had a seizure because of rapid withdrawal after 20 years which should have only been a few weeks at which point I’d begged the doctor to come off them. I’m now taking Gaba supplements which seem to be helping but I’m essentially agoraphobic now and scared of EVERYTHING literally yet I was travelling only a few weeks ago. You are incredibly brave to be so candid about your experience. Far more awareness needs to happen. Great video

[@Waves353]

How are you doing now, and how long off. It’s really indescribable isn’t it? Fear if everything yes and scared to leave the house or see anyone.

[@leenobody3249]

You obviously didn’t stay awake for 8 months. You were micro napping without realising. It isn’t physically possible . I wish you well ! I empathise very much. Anxiety is just horrific! Oh ! Your description of time slowing to an utter crawl is spot on ! That is one of the hardest things to cope with . Each second is literally like hours. Unless you have experienced it you can never really understand. My problems were caused by a legally prescribed drug too. Did you ever try ‘Bumloudsenate’ for relief ?

[@user-wb2yv7ll9d]

Thanks for sharing your story. It's powerful. On the technical side of the podcast: I found the volume to be very low even though I had my volume settings at the. highest levels.

[@ema_videochannel]

is your KZbin volume also set up as well? maybe its set low on there X

[@judithwilliams3147]

Same.

[@yoga_iaini]

Thanks for sharing and best whises for your tappering 🙏🏽 Can you share how old are you?

[@kyleK69]

Thank you for the video so sorry for you're suffering. I've been tapering off diazepam for 4 years today is day 4 completely off its rough :( was on 4.5mg clonazepam 12 years and was directly switched onto diazepam Jan 2019 now on nothing 😬

[@ema_videochannel]

wow well done with sticking to the taper its long its rough not knowing what your health will be like

[@kyleK69]

@Emma Saunders thank yes it's very scary I feel so strange 🙏🏻 I hope everything is going okay for you?

[@dianemorrell9638]

4.5 mg of clonazapam? That's absolutely an insanely high dose. Thank you for sharing

[@kyleK69]

@dianemorrell9638 yeah I didn't realize until it was way too late. You're welcome. I hope this information could be helpful

[@architsharma438]

I can relate to every single word you said here. I am 8 months out of a horrible cold turkey of Klonopin 1mg and currently slow tapering Lexapro and down to half the original dose. Experienced every single symptom in the book except psychosis and seizures.

[@ema_videochannel]

Im so sorry to hear this, how are you doing now, that's great your managing to taper the Lexapro. Sending love x

[@architsharma438]

@@ema_videochannel thanks. I am much doing better than how I was 2 months ago. I was just wondering if I should reinstate at a low dose like you and do slow taper

[@ema_videochannel]

@@architsharma438 I think reinstatement for me was a last resort like I was really bad there was no improvement only getting worse.. so if your seeing improvements that is really positive and maybe reinstating would rock the boat ? It really is hard to know... :)

[@architsharma438]

@@ema_videochannel yeah it is tricky for sure. I guess I shall wait out till I am 1 year off and see how I fare and decide accordingly

[@waynegrow]

@@architsharma438 I would only reinstate if it was life or death. I reinstated after 7 months out cold turkey but my symptoms were complete insomnia severe weight loss heart rate off the scale brain misfiring at night hence no sleep amongst other horrible stuff.

[@vwalker1040]

I also was prescribed 1mg of Ativan…I tried to come off after 3 months and realized I was dependent on the drug. I immediately reinstated and started researching how to taper off correctly. I started a micro taper using a water titration in January 2022. A year later, I have tapered down to .15 mg and will continue to 0 mg. It has been one of the worst experiences of my life.

[@ema_videochannel]

Hey thank you for sharing our story, its crazy people think 3 months is short term use, taking this drug longer than a day should be illegal. Im so sorry to hear you've had to go through this too, its amazing you have got down to that amount I am close to that amount now also, Im pausing now to let my system adjust, iv been doing water as well doing 1 ml out a day, but now im down to less water my percentages are going up, think I took out 20ish % last month so im slowing now. See how that feels. Slow and steady wins the race! Hope you have a supportive Dr in this. X

[@vwalker1040]

@@ema_videochannel I’m doing this on my own…no doctor’s help. Thank goodness for the internet or I would be in a mess. I hope that your taper goes well and that you are off this poison and healing soon. I’m so looking forward to not having to shake these jars day in and day out. I’m going to have a jar smashing celebration when this taper is finished. 🙂

[@toddbogeart2707]

My situation similar I have been taking Ativan for many years 1 week ago I decided to stop.I have not experienced any major withdrawal but I did drink 1.5 gallons H2O a day it's a strange drug dangerous,I am not sure if I was taking them to treat my nerve pain and anxiety or because I was mentally dependent.I did not taper anything just had to get rid of the habit.

[@judithwilliams3147]

15mg. A day ?

[@vwalker1040]

@@judithwilliams3147 .15 mg…but I’ve now been completely off since March 1st.

[@evaollie9208]

That dog is soooooo adorable, made this video even better, comforting even

[@ema_videochannel]

Thanks he's the best!

[@Remi-bt7tp]

i tapered over 2 weeks and have been completely off for 6 years and am still home bound and 95% disabled. I have always wondered what would happen if i went back on at a low dose and tapered over a year or so. The problem with that is if it makes it worse it could get be so bad you have to be prepared to take your own life.

[@misstrace909]

How long were you on it for?

[@Q1776Q]

It took me nearly 3 years to recover from a few weeks of Lorazepam use...it was BEYOND HELL.

[@ema_videochannel]

Wow! A great example of how these drugs are so powerful, So many Drs would say that's not possible, that's not long enough! For me it was 1 mg isn't even that much etc etc.. the HUGE gap in misinformation is horrifying ... your story is like so many others! Im glad as It sounds like you recovered in the end ... It can take like you say years!

[@Q1776Q]

@@ema_videochannel Yes I am completely recovered...But I was sure I would never heal at the time!!!

[@Waves353]

@@Q1776Q is this Tim?

[@Q1776Q]

@@Waves353 yes

[@Waves353]

@@Q1776Q thanks, heard your story, I’m in that place now. Thanks for allowing the share

[@katiezurcher6414]

Thank you for this! I also have a benzo story to tell and this is inspiring. I can't help noticing that your dog looks like he's had a sleeping pill! 😅

[@ema_videochannel]

Sharing is great I think as then you realise you're not alone.. haha Wicket loves a snooze! never a sleeping pill he's perfectly able to snooze as and when x

[@jacquelinemarquis6782]

I have severe aka and no one has helped me .. I am suffering with two 2 drugs to come off that is just masking it . When I taper I will go into torture !! I have decided to go into gods hands !! Thank you so much we need your voice … 🙏🏻

[@ema_videochannel]

sending so much love and healing, im so sorry your going through this! xxx

[@jacquelinemarquis6782]

Hi Emma , I know you are doing a documentary please go on utube and look for Lucinda the warrior she had suffered for 6 years . You get a true picture what many are going through !!! Akasthisia has broke me !

[@ema_videochannel]

@@jacquelinemarquis6782 thank you. Akathasia is the worst thing in the world!

[@jackiepowell7513]

I m with you. I ll pray get on estrogen , benadryl and pray. Exercise and prayer.

[@paulchomiak1318]

Stevie Nicks was dependent on Klonopin (clonazepam).. She spent 40+ days in a rehab and then the following 18 months at her brother's house experiencing BIND..

[@ema_videochannel]

Wow well there you go poor Stevie got into the grips of the benzo hell as well ! Thanks for the info :)

[@ema_videochannel]

@@waynegrow exactly rehab for Benzos is not how it's done, needs to be a slow gradual taper!

[@ema_videochannel]

@@waynegrow yes this is very true, I cant have any operation while tapering, my system is too fried from this, even off the drug the system needs time to recover, I know they use medicines that affect GABA to put you to sleep, which is the place Benzos affect greatly. I need an operation for an infection I have, caught in the wards, but I am having to care for it until I'm off, and hope it goes away! nightmare! I wish you full healing! Thanks for your comments .

[@ema_videochannel]

@@waynegrow wow... no I know I kindled as well with many differently drugs ! Fatigue is a bad one! Really sad about street Benzos .. I didn't know that but it doesn't surprise me, very easy drugs to get hooked on. Detox cell! Yeah so sad how there's such mis information about how to get someone off these drugs, too fast and long lasting damage is caused! It's not like an alcoholic getting clean, it's a careful taper to save your entire nervous system! It's so severe I think people can't imagine it's actually true! Until it happens to them...

[@donnabittner69]

Exactly! Stevie Nicks was on Klonopin for a long time.

[@spaceengineer1452]

Benzos should be banned. Took me a decade to get off Temazapan. I was outta my mind, on that stuff.Made me psycotic. What saved me fr the withdrawls , was activated charcoal.

[@tambarker3862]

Banned because YOU ant use them?

[@judithwilliams3147]

How did that help. How did you take it.

[@judithwilliams3147]

​@@tambarker3862they're banned in lots of countries. Look it up.

[@spaceengineer1452]

Tablets. 6 at a time. Eased the withdrawl symptoms. The charcoal binds to the drug and eases it out of yr system.@@judithwilliams3147

[@spaceengineer1452]

Yes, I'm an ant...@@tambarker3862

[@nuritlanyado4331]

Thank you❤❤❤

[@ema_videochannel]

My pleasure! x

[@vacher45]

I'd appreciate if you could recommend the psychiatrist that you spoke about during the interview. I've been on zopiclone for 5 years and I'm very very worried about coming off it.

[@trishhawkins4966]

How did you go at coming off the mirtazapine. I was put on that for severe nerve pain but it caused nightmares and nerves jumping in my body while I was on the full dose.

[@cmsbeth]

Some concierge physicians do not blink about writing Xanax prescriptions. It amazes me that wealthy families are using these drugs and are addicted!

[@angelitovidkid]

I'm 25 months w days off of lorazepam cold turkey. There are so many similarities in our stories.

[@ema_videochannel]

I wish you lots of healing : ) crazy isn't it.. you think surely this doesnt happen but it clearly happens LOADS!

[@josephcarioggia9506]

Have you been able to sleep?

[@tricialewis8059]

I'm so sick right now n my heart is beating out of my chest, I run out every month

[@stardustring]

😭😭😭🫂

[@masha1414k]

Please make sure you email this doctor a link to this video so he doesn't ever harm any other patients like this... it's just horrendous

[@ema_videochannel]

I shall : ) Sorry to hear your suffering also

[@MillerTheOriginal]

Hi Emma. Fantastic story really feel for the horror you went through. This is a great video to show my loved ones as I can't communicate properly in these early days. So thank you. Are you able to take my email or something to let me know when your documentary comes out?

[@ema_videochannel]

Yes please do share your loved ones. I was trying to get mine to understand, and because all the Drs we went to treated it like nothing and not possible, I was not believe and deserted by most. Yes email me at [e-mail] and I will let you know :)

[@JohnAdams-rm7zm]

I was prescribed Xanax 2mg for sleep for over 10 years, as of today I’m 13 years Xanax free ✊ It was very tough, my Sister died from Xanax withdrawals so I was concerned about seizures so I went into detox for about 6 days and 7 months in a drug program. It took about a year to get any decent sleep. I had a side effect in my brain it felt two magnet’s pushing against each other. When I told a Doctor they thought it was all in my mind. Bullshit ✊ I’m so happy to be free from Xanax handcuffs ✊ if I can do it, then you can do it. Keep on keeping on 😎

[@ema_videochannel]

I'm so sorry to hear about your sister! and so glad you are through it ! The craziest side effects are created! other worldly .. love Drs to sit in our shoes for an hour or so... enough to convert anyone against medication all together ! xxx

[@JohnAdams-rm7zm]

@@ema_videochannel Right on Emma ❤️✊

[@jackiepowell7513]

Been on 20 yrs. More concerned about how do Ii sleep???? Geesh!

[@xy-qy2yg]

I have barely a doctor to monitor even my bloodwork. Belgium is insane in this.

[@kathis6840]

I've been tapering from 10 mg Ativan, I'm at 3.5 mg now and yes, it is hell.

[@EyeOnAntisemitism]

I’m going through this now

[@claireh.7605]

I was against taking antidepressants all my life having an intuition that anything changes my brain is inherently unpredictable and could affect other body systems as well. But I have in because of the social pressure. My sister took them and they did help her a lot and made her normal, but she respected my decision not to. My cousin was very pushy and kept saying I should take them over and over, so eventually I gave in and they made me spiral so I lost my job and ruined my reputation and career. I alienated and attacked my support network.

[@stardustring]

Same thing happened to me

[@stardustring]

But it was my husband insisting and insisting

[@claireh.7605]

@@stardustring the rascal said - go to the doc take a pill don’t think about it that’s what everyone does

[@stardustring]

@@claireh.7605 I actually had them in my room I never threw them away. It was paxil ssir. I had gone to hospital and was prescribed paxil, but I told Dr. That I wasn't sure if I would take them, because I felt maybe I just needed more sleep. Anyways I got sleep and called Dr. Told him I would not be taking medication what I truly needed was therapy. Drs said " that's fine don't them" I never threw them away. That when husband kept insisting and insisting I kept saying no no no because I had a bad feeling anyways like I said I gave in to my husband, 😭 I truly never needed to be medicated. I started to feel sick and they gave me Benzo . My life is ruined.😞🫂😭

[@waynegrow]

How are you Emma? Hows the tapering going

[@johnkelly1198]

I at one time was on 3 temazepam and 2 clonozapam in the late 90s because of severe anxiety at night. New doctor comes in and cuts temezapam and knocked me down to 1 clonazepam in the 2005 time. Know i am up to 2 clonazepam at night. I have no problems. It helps me. So all these winers are wining

[@ema_videochannel]

might you think that there is a chance many people suffer on these drugs... we are all very different, to some these drugs are Lethal.. by this message thread you can see its quite a few just here.. there's others things that can help anxiety, more natural things, that doesn't involve a dangerous pill.. we all want the instant fix but many pay the price.. to say people are wining is just rude, everyones entitled to share their experience, if it helps you it helps you, but to the people it doesn't help.. it not only doesn't help you its like being tortured in hell for months to years of your life.. so.. kinda hard not to wine about that

[@Tilr701]

Going through benzo withdrawals. It's been 9 months of being off and I am still in hell.

[@ema_videochannel]

sorry to hear that!

[@shelley7209]

How are you doing!

[@MysticFogGarden]

Stevie Nicks was given Clozipin, I dont know if thats like araxipan, but she told her doctor, I have to get off this drug, I gave some of it to my friend and he said it was awfull, and the doctor said, "Why did you do that, were you trying to kill him?". hahahaha she said, thats when I went to another doctor.

[@xXxeuthanasiaxXx]

benzos dont disolve in water though..you have to use ethanol or propylene glycol. still hope it works out for you tho ig, getting off benzos was like cutting off a ball and chain but without a proper taper withdrawls feel like swimming with a ball and chain

[@ema_videochannel]

hey many have dissolved in water with great results, I have had the smoothest taper so far doing it just with water, praying that continues.

[@judithwilliams3147]

Of course they do.

[@indochinapatriot435]

I had a girl friend who was a social worker, and a masters , in psychology. She diagnosed me with anxiety, and demanded that I see a psychiatrist, literally a Dr. Feel good to the stars. Anxiety in Hollywood………….. Ya Think!!!? Ooooh, clever girl that one. She wanted to “ fix “ me so I would marry her. I’m living in Malibu, extremely successful feature film career, so I have the show business Dr., and now I have the show business therapist. He put me on Xanax 4 mg / day. 30 years ago. I’m now retired in Thailand, I have a great Dr. here who is my savior. I had 2 seizures in Malibu, cold turkey. Now I’m on 3mg Atavan, and at 65, can’t be bothered to go through hell again. So……… my sweet la hearta …… well, she found someone with a house right on the sand in Malibu. The nominations and Oscar weren’t enough. May she choke on a chicken bone. A cautionary tale.

[@thevalkyrie8]

Who is he? A dr?

[@MrRockstar1968]

The world leaders in mental health in Finland and Lapland discovered over a decade ago that the medications are causing more harm than good and now used any medication at most minimal possible and now have a 85% full recovery rate without the need of any medication. The Netherlands have banned all such medications. I have many links to organisations and information if you need any?

[@josephcarioggia9506]

So my best friend is hooked on them and cant get them legally or on the street. She is suffering so bad and i dont know how to help her.

[@GCT1990]

She has to find a doctor or psychiatrist willing to write her a script. She'd have to taper slowly for up to 9 months. There's no way she could buy enough for a 9 month journey

[@Highlander9740]

Fifteen years on .5 mg Alprazplam. Been off for a while but the PAWS is hell to try to function with.

[@ema_videochannel]

sending healing your way x

[@jackiepowell7513]

Try 20 yrs. Ugh

[@masha1414k]

I've been like this for five years now..((

[@ema_videochannel]

im so sorry!

[@diefilmkitchenjohannessand2173]

How long did it took in General to heal from benzodiazepines?

[@ema_videochannel]

It’s hard to say as we are all so different! And each story so different 🙏🏼♥️

[@diefilmkitchenjohannessand2173]

@@ema_videochannel but you did?

[@diefilmkitchenjohannessand2173]

@@ema_videochannel are you still on the benzo?

[@janesimpson8590]

classic interdose tolerance at 4:30. Akathesia.

[@ema_videochannel]

horrible!

[@evaollie9208]

Do not have MSG foods….puts you right back

[@house684]

My Moroccan mother was subscribed diazepam after losing her youngest son in a drowning accident. This was back in 1992. The doctor just gave it to her and didn't follow up at all. So she thought she was cured from her depression after taking the diazepam. But then the week-long cure finished and she stopped taking the diazepam. The poor woman went ape-shit and ended up running down the street in the middle of the night, screaming her lungs out. The stuff turned her into a junkie after a week using it.

[@ema_videochannel]

poor thing!!!

[@3aeren]

Junkie? Wtf... people that get dependant on benzos are not junkies ya worm!!

[@MrRockstar1968]

You would not believe what happened to my brother who mental health services repeatedly wrestle to the ground and restrained him and forced antipsychotic medications where the medication made him worse, so they changed his brand of and dosage of prescription over 22 times during which they also had accidentally discovered they were poisoning him where they found over 3 to 4 times the expected dosage of medication in his blood which they by chance discovered was caused by a genetic liver digestive disorder. That despite this and his and my requests to ween him off all such medications, they continued to restrain him and force medications whilst increasing the dosages. My brother eventually dies on a mental health ward. The Health Ombudsman are not attempting to cover up the bad practice, abuse and negligence which I have on record through the complaints procedure. Psychiatry is a fraud a pseudo sciences based on a theoretical chemical imbalance of the brain which has zero scientific or medical evidence at all. This false claim of a chemical imbalance was created by big pharma to sell medications. Doctors get financial incentives for their prescriptions.

[@ema_videochannel]

im so sorry, I hear you! I saw such abuse and experienced it myself.. god knows how I didnt die! its why I choose to speak up about this!

[@MrRockstar1968]

@@ema_videochannel I'm sorry to hear about the abuse you experienced and I'm glad you're speaking up about it. It's good to see you have also recovered and become free of the abusive mental health system. I have been speaking up and challenging the health trusts and the legal system about the corrupt and fraudulent mental health system for many years. My self and my now deceased identical twin brother were also subjects of study at the London Institute of psychiatry alongside many other twin spanning over several years. Their tests found zero correlation or links to genetic factors or any evidence of a chemical imbalance of the brain. The mental health system is rigged and purposely so, it is far more sinister and insidious and most can imagine.

[@masha1414k]

What happened to your tinnitis? It probably seems like the smallest issue after all this you've been through right?

[@ema_videochannel]

yeah its still there its worse but like you say the smallest issue!

[@supunpetta2248]

Has anyone experienced swollen tongue? Making it feel difficult to talk?

[@kristensorensen2219]

#179👍🤔From tinnitus to the mental hospital via benzo heII. Lorazepam is not for temporary sleeplessness from tinnitis! Quack private physician is your worst nightmare🤷😤! It pays to study any Rx drug before taking it!!

[@BillyCrystal-hc5jp]

People that didn’t go schizophrenic with the withdrawal situation just have no clue how bad it can get. It’s terrifying. Like a bad trip that will not stop.

[@abcdefuxkk]

This guy and his mic ..

[@leenobody3249]

Saves him doing sit ups…

[@tricialewis8059]

Ps....drinking again, hmmmm, yeah

[@freddumee]

Has anyone experience with shaking legs and feet in benzo withdrawal?

[@freddumee]

@tyrel Now for 22 month's.! I am 8 month's off.

[@MakingItHappenMWC]

Yep. I hate when the shakes start cus it's hard to kick it. I usually just fill the tub up with hot water and relax for 10 minutes. It usually flushes out the anxiety.

[@JoJo65654]

Yes, akasthesia. It's horrid.

[@donnabittner69]

Definitely! It was my hands at 1st, but my husband noticed my feet and legs when I was sleeping.

[@leigh24]

What about dancing fingers? They kinda shake side to side.

[@stardustring]

😭😭😭

[@arthurv4401]

Guys for everybody here how i got rid of my extreme morning anxiety and depression and benzodiazepines withdrawal.Lithium oratate was a game changer. I tried everything for 8 months and this was the jackpot

[@cjw8817]

What's lithium oratate?

[@arthurv4401]

@@cjw8817 Here is the explanation from a mental health practitioner from London. kzbin.info/www/bejne/qXKbcqeJjLWhiNk

[@jackiepowell7513]

What is lithium oratate? The lithium for bi polar and one measures blood levels of it???

[@lohnro]

Hi Emma, thank you for telling your story....in a weird sense your story is very comforting. I mean its comforting to realise that I am not suffering alone. I live in Australia and the laws around GP's dispensing this medication has changed....from Feb this year Kalma (zanax can only br prescibed by a Psychiatrist) but Diazepam can still be prescribed by GP'S. I have been caught out by this change....i was prescribed Zanax over ten years ago for a panic attack and anxiety. My doctor told me to take it on a as need basis....i was taking .5 milligrams initially when needed. In the pursuing years I asked my doctor was this medication addictive? he would said its a very low dose and its helping you function. Well fast forward to the pandemic, I lost friends, experienced financial hardship, I was and still are being blamed for infecting my family with covid-19, my father was diagnosed with onset dementia. I went to my GP in early February this year...to get a script for Kalma and he was no longer able to prescribe it.....he said you have to see s psychiatrist to get it. I left that afternoon with nothing, went home starting ringing around for psychiatrists and the first 10 were not taking on any new patients.....well i started to stress. I went back to my GP and spoke to him about this. He showed no concern about me being unable be prescribed this medication.....i said well what am i supposed to do? He prescribed me 30 mg of Muralax to take of a night....I said this is not going to work, you know i currently take 2mg of Kalma which I split over the day as i work nights. I decided to take the 30 mg Muralax in the mornings....about a month after taking this i started to feel unwell, brain fog and i had the rocking sensation you described and my sleep was started deteriorate as well. The Tuesday after this started i called into my parents place to see if they needed anything, i arrived and my father was still asleep which was unusual. I tried to wake him but it was hard to rouse him and when i did he was rambling.....he was suffering from delirium and next thing i was in a ambulance accompanying him to hospital. My anxiety and stress had gone thru the roof and the symptoms i was having were getting worse thru the day. Initially i thought my symptoms were related to my anxiety but it turned out to be withdrawal from the Kalma. The Muralax dosage was not enough and it didnt have to same affect has the Kalma. The next day things hadn't gotten better so i rang my GP and said I was having severe dizziness, unable to focus, sweating, muscle spasms....he said to stop taking the Muralax he put me on in place of the Kalma drink plenty of water and should go away. By the end of that week i had enough, things where still the same....i called a ambulance and went to the ER....my dad was still in hospital recovering from delirium. In the ER they gave me 5mg of Valium twice, i had a ct scan, bloods etc and everything was normal.....but i still had the dizziness (swaying sensation) but the nursing staff couldn't see it. I had one doctor see me and she was going to send me home....i said how can you i can't even walk properly. I was admitted on the Saturday afternoon and was to have a MRI on the Monday....it never happened until the Thursday.....the whole time i was in there i had nothing for my anxiety, nothing for my dehydration.. all i was given was panadol. The MRI came back clear and they discharged me. I had a short visit from a psychiatrist while there, i explained what i have said here....he prescribed me 10mg of diazepam twice a day for 2 weeks and then to taper it off over about 6 weeks. They gave ten 5 mg tablets to cover me for the weekend until i saw my GP on the monday. I went to my GP and said whats this tapering business? He said that they want you to reduce the Diazepam and i said what about tapering off the original medication Kalma you prescribed me? He had no Fxxxking idea....I felt so betrayed, naive and angry....he had no idea about tapering, never heard of the Ashton Schedule and with tapering plan i was given neither did the hospital or the treating doctors. Anyway i sit hear tonight in readiness to see my first Psychiatrist that I arranged after being dropped like a spud back on early February. Im currently taking 2.5 mg of diazepam twice a day....no Kalma....i haven't worked since mid March. I have pushed thru a lot since then.....theoretically i have only been off benzo for those 3 days and the time i spent in hospital a total of 9 days. I discovered the Ashton Schedule online and i cant believe that the doctors don't know anything about this tapering schedule. When i found it i broke down and cried....how could my GP and treating doctors in hospital not know about this? Like you have empowered myself with information and will be my own advocate from here on in.....hoping tomorrow will be start of my recovery. Sorry for the long story but it irs good to get it out. God bless you and everyone going thru any of this. 🌻🙏

[@ema_videochannel]

hey thanks for your message, I totally get the confusion and anger towards the drs they can create a mess when it comes to tapering ... they dont seem to care to know? I mean you'd think they would care to take special care with medication that alters your brain! ... CRAZY! anyways.. good luck.. I think being your own advocate is really the way forward.. no Dr will help you, check out my site www.beatingthebenzo.com in the useful info page there are many links to places that will help you taper and the right info in how to do so! xx

[@lauriina85]

Hi, thank you. Did you feel your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? I call it brain lock. Did you feel horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this? I was prescriped a big amount of benzo and no warnings after trauma. Have beem suffering this hell 1,5 years because of one week taper and one ct that went badly wrong. Now tapering Ashton manual and tomorrow to 30 mg. I have at least seven months to taper and I'm exhausted. Feel depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones and feel like I'm in a different reality from other people. I can't see my partner or anyone but my mom when she helps me to get food from store. I was living a healthy active social life and now i'm alone mostly because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones. Please can you answer if you had any problems with brain function and similar problems? I can't do much. And am just at my home suffering. I have now good doctor who read the Ashton manual. But I feel I can't survive to zero and then heal. Thank you if you can answer. I have heavy sleep medication because I didn't sleep barely at all for over half years, 200 mg of quetapine and 20 mg of temazepam. And can't have those off until I get off this diazepam. I wake up every morning to hell and feel like I die and then have to end my life. I have to fight against suicidal thoughts everyday. Thank you if you can answer. I want my good life back.

[@ema_videochannel]

Hello! thanks for getting in touch x I totally hear you and I know what that suffering is like ! I'm so sorry this has happened to you. It needs to stop, so many like us injured by Drs, carelessness, I feel that with a slow taper listening to your body as you go, sleeping as much as you can, eating well, drinking lots of water, time can heal. I was in severe hell for a good year, I have no idea how I am here today, but something in my body must of healed, yes im on 3 drugs which is hell, but I managed to stabilise from a very very very bad place. Everyone is so different in all this, so its hard to really give someone advice, but I do truly believe with a slow taper, listening to your body, sleep as much as possible and time heals. I am on quetiapine and mirtazipine too, they are very hard to taper, but at the moment I remain functional, hoping this lasts, but I will remain tapering very slowly for years to come until I am free. God knows what's ahead. But for now this slowness seems to be doing the trick. xxxx

[@lauriina85]

@@ema_videochannel Hi, thank you for answering, I just left you a message again. I have now good doctor who understands. I had year ago that few weeks of stabilize but then doctor tapered me too quick, wish I had known that from ten it should be 0,5 mg not 2 mg per week. Since then I have had brain lock and not able to function. I have also that constant fight or flight state and terror and have to just taper with Ashton manual, today I came to 30 mg of diazepam. I was so close year ago. Now I have to do this feeling awful every minute but have to get rid off this drug. Did you have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like and then feel like you have to die? Sorry to ask. I have no power left but I want this drug off of me and have my good life back. I fear brain lock is permanent brain damage. I now sleep but o fear when the insomnia starts and I have so heavy sleep medication but doctor says first I have to get rid of diazepam and then temazepam. I can't go to hospital because they threated me that I have to go to mental treatment center home. I don't have any reliefs between dose drops. I have watched one guy who was at home isolated three years and tapered slow and was also having suicidal thoughts and survived. Thank you if you can answer if you felt your brain is totally damaged and if you had horror waking ups. Sorry to ask again.

[@ema_videochannel]

@@lauriina85 yes I had terror 24/7 my brain totally stopped working normally, I would wake up in terror, and be like that all day! its hard when your symptoms are so bad and you still have a lot of drug to taper. Its awful how they say for us to go to a mental ward.. I mean this must happen so much! How drs dont see it ... I dont get it! im so sorry your going through this. Keep your taper slow and maybe try surviving antidepressants they have lots of knowledge on there. Sending much love x

[@lauriina85]

@@ema_videochannel You are my angel. Thank you for saying that. I sleep now but when I wake up it is pure terror all day and fighting against suicidal thoughts. And then voice in your head tells even if somehow with a miracle I would survive to zero I won't heal. I was month off and brain lock stayed. But now i have a good doctor that is saying it is way too short time for brain to heal and at least 3-6 months when can even look how things are. I have lexapro (wich is very good depression medication for me, have always felt even flow feelings and deep happiness and sorrow, I had stopped it half year before the trauma, my 16 year old dalmatian boy had to put to sleep 9.6.2021, he had the best life and best medical care when needed, and I became to have multiple awful panic a day and didn't think crearly when doctor prescriped me a big amount of oxazepam) I had 1,5 year earlier that bad trauma that I survived quite quickly but it affected me when my dog died. Then I fought against normal depression even it was bad but survived starting lexapro (I never will stop it if I get through this, half year before my dog died we were planning with my partner to try a baby when my dog's time has been to go to heaven and I was suppose to grief in peace and then try) and having my old dose of quetapine 25 mg, then I didn't even touch to imovane or temazepam and now i am also hooked up with temazepam. Year ago when I was in bad withdrawl symptoms of oxazepam (one week taper and had 15 mg left, I was put in rehab even other doctor told I'm not an addict, I have dependency), almost in psychosis and brain totally shut down and doctor in hospital read Ashton manual (I had seen it but not read it, wish I had, because there is a mention that after 20 mg taper should be 1 mg per week or two, not 2 mg that he told me to do) when I had just 10 mg of diazepam my all witdrawl symptoms went away, brain started to function and I got to sleep, no morning terror and got good feeling after exercise, stopped 15 mg of oxazepam and had my relationships back. So that is one sign that my brain is not permanently crazy and damaged but still I believe I'm forever crazy and won't survive tapering and after with this condition. But I have to just push because there is no benzo or anything that would help, my doctor says when I had diazepam first time it took my withdrawl symptoms away and I got relief for few weeks and now the only way is get rid off totally from witdrawls. But I'm terrified from everything and can't understand normal life and like you said feel like I have been thown in hell and can't ever get out. I cry everyday that this can't be true. And fear for my indepent life. Can't go to hospital. It was totally just chemical lobotomy, meds after meds. I'm fighting every minute for my life. I have a beautiful home even I don't have much money and partner and mom and brothers and many friends and many dreams. I have been always grateful to God from many things. Thank you for saying you know brain lock and horror. I'm glad you are functioning. I pray that even I'm very sick I can get to zero and survive after then and heal. Lots of love to you ❤

[@germainedenon311]

​@@lauriina85 how are u now? I have flashbacks on these drugs. It's getting bad and I'm worried

[@psilocyborg4775]

I believe you, however this is an extreme case. I know people that take benzos for over 10 years and they're fine. I think it has a lot to do with individual body chemistry. Those other antipsychotics are worse. I have never felt so bad. Similar to what is described here, like a dream state. However Other people take them and it helps. Go figure. The big one I think is antidepressants. Doctors say they're not addictive and prescribe them too often. Technically they aren't but are extremely hard to come off. Ive had side effects ( which are effects in my book) that last years after stopping taking them taking them with no benefits.Doctors look at Google results as much as anybody else, after all they're only human.

[@ema_videochannel]

yeah Like you say we are all different.. that is why there's gotta be another way, as the suffering many go through/ the people who are disabled by these drugs.. seems inhumane..call I needed was some tinnitus sleep therapy! Drs are wayyy to pill happy.. I know though many take these meds and get off lightly... however like I say many dont!!

[@psilocyborg4775]

@@ema_videochannel You stay safe won't you? I'm sorry you had such a rough time and the fact you're here bringing awareness is inspiring. Much love and happiness always😊🇦🇺🙏

[@MrRockstar1968]

Two thirds of staff on the mental health wards are not medically qualified in mental health at all. They even employ foreign staff which some can barely even speak English. The mental health services are a disgrace.

[@ema_videochannel]

yes this is what I kept telling everyone .. but no one believes me... they are not nurses! they are SADISTS

[@allencollins6031]

Damage damage damage

[@ema_videochannel]

and more damage

[@allencollins6031]

@@ema_videochannel you ain't kiddin'

[@kolkeledstar2608]

Anyone alse get ácid reflux from this crap??

[@bobjary9382]

Its a real shame your dad left you in a spanish psych ward and turned off his phone . It must have been terrifying. Rotten drugs , ive had a lot of experience with different meds and bz are in my opinion amongst the worst

[@ema_videochannel]

Yeah they are! It’s hard to say now being on 3 which one is worst though!

[@bobjary9382]

@emma_saunders I dont think folk who havent had a bad bz experience or watched a loved one suffer have any idea of the terror and the really quite uniquely dreadful feelings and their unfathomable resistance to reasonsble attempts at mitigation . I was deep in drug addiction for years and then on methadone for too long. I was thoroughly sick of myself and the thought of quitting via a measured reduction under supervision dragging out over probably two years. I was on a big methadone script , really made me feel helpless. So I just stopped cold turkey . My thinking was to get it over with asap. That experience isnt one I would recommend to anyone, i was very ill but I knew I wasnt too unhealthy deep down and my body could take it ...and my mind recovered eventually. However that was a walk in the park in comparison to a slow taper off diazepam . I never ever want to see one of those pills again I thought i had lost my mind, my personality . I really thought for a long time I had permanent damage from the benzos. Symptoms out of nowhere for no reason . I felt like i had a mental illness of some sort . .... I think they are really so dangerous we should never be prescribed

[@jlappin6277]

It’s about the money, follow the money. I want to thank you for coming out and sharing such a hideous, horrible part of your life. I was myself put on Xanax back in 1994. Hooray sleep issue I was having. As you know the drug hi jacks, your mind making you feel so much better. As time went on for me throughout this process, I developed a tolerance, and every time I would go back to the doctors they were telling me, I was having rebound anxiety effects. I had told them I never had anxiety before this I had sleep issues that’s what I was put on the drug for. Back in the 90s and the early 2000s people were not out there with this knowledge in the states in 2009 . The year before 2009 my nephew at 16 years old had passed away from methadone and Xanax overdose. Then in 2009, Michael Jackson passed away from Benzos. At that point in 2009, I realized I was in trouble that I was dependent on a drug that they had of me up to 6 mg a day and had all these crazy side effects that I have never had before in my life. From 2009 to 2014 I was placed into three detox centers that I had electively put myself into one of them had cost me over $25,000 to stay. All these clinics took me off this drug in seven days after being on it for over 20 years. Just put this into this conversation I never smoked I never drank a day in my life like I said earlier in this conversation I was placed on this medication for sleep. every time they have taken me off this drug I felt like I was losing my mind. Everything that was described in this interview I have gone through. I am now 7 1/2 years off. This drug is still feeling the effects from this chemical Hara that this drug presents. I won’t go back on it. I’m gonna hope that I heal from this horrible drug. God bless you for going out of your way, and making this documentary for so many of us that have been injured by this horrible drug.

[@xy-qy2yg]

My dad still thinks it's 50/50 drug and me being crazy as the doctors even neurologists here say that it cannot be that bad 🙄 oh and that being on your phone is worse than being on benzos. Lol.

[@ema_videochannel]

wow its like everyones INSANE! in the medical world x

[@xy-qy2yg]

@@ema_videochannel I think they needed these drugs more than most of us.

[@michelebergman4336]

Tapering the Ativan is probably worse than tapering the other meds! I think u should just stay in the Ativan🙏 Tapering is what’s causing u all this wierd feelings!

[@wilfriedvanleer585]

I can’t agree with what she said about 8 months without sleep. This is just physically impossible. You’ll be dead or in a coma within a week. That’s just a scientific fact. When I hear people stating things that aren’t true, I start to doubts everything else they say.

[@ema_videochannel]

I’m afraid it actually is true… and the terrible thing was I was basically dead, I crossed over in my mind for sure, but my body was left still pacing the floor 24/7 I was barely standing verrryyyy underweight, in another reality, I was forced to hospital to be rehydrated and pumped full of food and meds, as I was very much on my death bed.. so 8 months is no exaggeration and it truly is a miracle I’m still here, I also have done extensive research on sleep and how is it possible not to sleep for that long.. I found one article of a guy feeling like he had died but he hadn’t… almost I guess like a coma state. What I experienced was totally other worldly and like I say god knows how I’m still here, but now that I am iv looked back iv calculated everything and yes it was 8 months, I would pace for hours not a wink ..

[@ema_videochannel]

But I understand your disbelief as it is shocking

[@wilfriedvanleer585]

@@ema_videochannel The longest recorded time without sleep is approximately 264 hours, or just over 11 consecutive days. Although it's unclear exactly how long humans can survive without sleep. Sleep deprived people (for whatever reason) often doze off for a couple of minutes and don’t remember it. These couple of minutes could be sufficient for the brain to regenerate itself to a functioning level. But I’m not a specialist. If I was a bit quick to judge, then I’m sorry. I know benzo withdrawal can be sheer horror. I’ve been through opioids withdrawal a couple of times. Every time I was about to fall asleep I felt a big electric ‘zap’ in my brain, often accompanied by an extremely loud ‘bang’. Wide awake again of course. I also remember the feeling of electric current in my legs. Eventually I did get some sleep out of sheer exhaustion and over time the symptoms became less, thank goodness. I also know what Dr. Peterson went through, trying to get off a benzodiazepine (clonazepam). Just like you he suffered from akathisia, walking 10 miles a day, because he just couldn’t sit still. He went to see dozens of doctors in Canada and the US, nobody could help him. Eventually he went to a clinic in Russia where he was put in a coma. Didn’t help much either. I think it was in Serbia (of all countries) where he eventually found a doctor that could help him getting off the benzo he was on. You can find his story on KZbin (an interview with his daughter, Mikhaila Peterson). Doctors here in Europe continue to prescribe benzo’s like candy, also Valium. I’ve heard and read about your current tapering method. Some go as slow as a few molecules less each month. I did enjoy your story. It was very interesting. I wish you luck and a lot of strength while getting off your medications.

[@poke_wounds9175]

You slept during those 8 months but it was probably mainly Micro sleep. You would not be here to tell this story if you didn't sleep for 8 months lol.

[@judithwilliams3147]

I slept like 2 hour's a night. Then it gradually got longer.

[@debbiemortinson]

I don't think the age of the doctor is relevant. Writing scripts for benzos and all psych drugs is really common by doctors of all ages and all over the world. Neither 'old' nor 'young' doctors receive much training on psych drug side effects, nor withdrawals or how to deprescribe. It is an industry and broader societal problem, not an age problem.

[@ema_videochannel]

Yeah I don’t think it is an age problem either.. but at the time it was shocking to me he gave it to me and all NHS Drs here in the UK.. younger in the system told me I should never of been given it.. he was an older private Dr clearly old fashioned and had been doing this since the 60s and thought it perfectly safe, however through my experience I have shockingly found it obviously happens more than you think especially over in the US, and like you say no matter what age of the Dr none of them are taught a thing about these drugs and have no idea about side effects or withdrawal and that’s is accross the world ! Worldwide severe issue!

[@markczarny7088]

Same old story .The doctor didn't take them you did it was your choice alot of drama about nothing.

[@Alan_Watkin]

so i think you said you took these for 6months through the last lockdown then when you returned from spain we was still in lockdown.... benzo's are f'in awful very few withdrawals can actually kill you but benzos are one, but if i heard right you said you didnt sleep at all for 8months..... come on,,, 8weeks i hope you said and even that would be extreme, i 100% know it likely felt like it, but though you don't know me hahaha your talking to me now, to not sleep at all that long, not a thing, disturbed sleep that feels like your getting f'all for sure thats the reality but not as long as 8month like i said i bet it might have felt like that but you will have been getting bits, shit bits but bits..., benzo's feel great and do wanders for people who have depressive type illness.... but they are not the answer, f'in devils drug, but all said an do well done for beating it, chin up head down no lookin back as they say

[@GCT1990]

You need to tighten up you're knowledge on things. 1) False all drugs/substances through withdraw has the potential to be fatal. Benzodiazepines and Alcohol just happen to be the only two that can kill you primarily, other substances can kill you by secondary circulation like over dose or if you have a heart condition. Secondly the reason benzos and Alcohol can be fatal on a primary degree is because both effect GABA, Benzos effects GabaA and Alcohol GabaB. GABA on top of producing a relaxed sensation also regulates a person's seizure threshold meaning the longer you take benzos/Alcohol, the more prone you become of uncontrollable seizures. However this is extremely rare. The sleep issue. You're completely wrong. According to the American academy of sleep medicine and American Neurological association (ANA), National institute of neurological disease and stroke (NINDS) and The American Association for Anatomy, Argosy Publishing, Inc. A person can actually survive without sleep for up to a year and a quarter Mind you they will be extremely messed up most likely permanently brain damaged but yes you can survive for months and months without sleep. What you're thinking of is the 11 day sleep experiment where a 17 year old named Randy Gardner was clocked st 264.4 Hours breaking the previous record of 260 hours. With this one case file came dozens of opinion based research, associations, observational,epidemiological and a hypothesis based articles flooded the market place. The American Sleep Association finally retracted this hypothesis in 2021 due to pure research For 1,this was a kid...at that time no adult has gone these lengths and his body at that age simply couldn't handle the rebound effects of sleep deprive. 2) the sample size wasn't big enough to announce a clear causation and conclusion, this was one kid we typically won't even bother with this case. 3) the kid was eating nothing but junk food and stimulating drinks which is known to cause a crash along with higher then normal blood glucose. The 11 days hypothesis has been debunked and retracted, this person claims 8 months without sleep... Yeah, benzos down regulates GABA which up regulates Glutamate and screws your melatonin production which leads to insomnia for years it's even documented in the FDA's Black box warning on Benzodiazepines published Sept 23rd/2020 which clearly shows 6,487 individuals who had gone 9-11 months without a wake of sleep so no she most likely did have sleep issues lasting a good 8 months.

[@christwisted]

Believing doctors know much about human health was the first mistake.... Sounds like you had some mineral deficiencies.

[@DanielWaples]

[@tricialewis8059]

Needles, my skin is crawling I got cut down n half, instead of 3, 1.5, I saw paych., tried ability saraquil risperdol welbutrin, trizodone, but delta 8 capes help me eat sleep draw I'm dying all the time I can't hide desperation, ppl. Know I'm frantic it's embarrassing, n if I ask 4 2 much help I get let down.

[@lauriina85]

Hi again, please did you have "brain lock" like your brain doesn't function normally and can't understand that people can do normal things and can't understand that people can live their lives normally and became overwhelmed of any normal things? And did you ever have horror waking ups like you feel you die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this? I have third taper, now with Ashton manual, no windows, and have at least seven months to taper. I have been in this hell 1,5 years because of one week taper and one ct that went badly wrong. I was living a healthy active social life and now i'm alone mostly because I tell my hell all the time to my loved ones and feel like I'm in a different reality from other people. I can't see anybody, even with my partner, just my mom when she helps me to get food at the store. I was year ago few weeks normal when I was on bad withdrawl symptoms of oxazepam and doctor did crossover to diazepam 10 mg and I got rid of oxazepam and brain lock went away and I got my normal sleep with 25 mg of quetapine and 7,5 mg of imovane and normal mornings in peace and got my depression symptoms off and could go anywhere and had my life back. But taper was too quick and went badly wrong. Since then I was again with brain lock. In spring I was one month without benzo, they ct, and rude doctor said I couldn't have any withdrawl symptoms and got home very sick and doctor prescriped me klonopin to get me relief for a while and then taper but it didn't help. After six months of klonopin and suffering I said to my doctor that I think I suffer withdrawl even don't taper and want to taper with Ashton manual and she was willing to read it and we few months ago. I was shocked when I realised the amount of diazepam is huge. I have come from klonopin and diazepam together 60 mg of diazepam to 30 mg of diazepam. I'm alone, loved to excersise and now i can't and fear even take the trash out. I go outside home just to get food. I have at least seven months to taper to zero. And 8 have 200 mg of quetapine and 20 mg of temazepam because o didn't sleep barely at all for half year. Now I sleep coma sleep and wake up in total hell and death and feel like I have to die and can't heal. My doctor says my brain lock will go away when I'm enough long time off of benzo. I'm exhausted and was also treated like trash in psych ward. I have lost my soul, heart and things that makes me me. I fear those horror waking ups all day and can't do much. I would have a great life ahead if I heal. Thank you if you can answer that brain lock and horror waking ups. Glad you survived. All the best.

[@donnabittner69]

You are on a lot of medication. Take things slowly.

[@ema_videochannel]

Im sorry to hear your suffering! DRs are so dangerous in this, they are not the people to go to for help, Benzo Warrior community on Facebook are lovely, and surviving antidepressants for proper tapering guidelines.

[@hank3541]

Yes I feel like I died as well so horrid ….I call it Hell 2 . When I originally thought of Hell in my regular life this is another level of regular Hell ……terrifying

[@lauriina85]

@@hank3541 It is pure hell. Did you feel also your brain is shut down and couldn't function and understand a simple thing and how people can live normal life? And did you have dr/dp and did you have to isolate? Thank you if you can answer. I'm homebound and now tapered from total 60 mg of diazepam to 22 mg in over four months. Was social and active person before I was prescriped a big amount benzo and no warnings after trauma.

[@SkoolNerds]

I’m in the same boat. 19 months since I stopped cold turkey. Seen 2 people in that time.

[@3aeren]

It doesnt dissolve in water! U need to use milk

[@ema_videochannel]

Its perfectly fine with water : )