音楽なんてやらなければよかった／初音ミク（If I didn't make music for you）

[@narucchidmp]

新たに出会えた幸せと苦しみへ、ハロー！ …………………………………………………………………… 歌詞概要欄にあります。音量もお好みでどうぞ。 Lyrics ★English translation ・If you find any inappropriate expressions, please let me know immediately. The imaginary scenery I had painted back then began to break apart, The night I wandered around aimlessly and collapsed. A town I don't know that is gradually approaching, The town that doesn't know me is gradually moving away from me. I've been going through some really horrible things lately. Lies piled on top of lies to self-haters, And pretending to understand it, I couldn't stop no matter what I did. Even the fun is so. I was tormented by the memory. I'm not exaggerating. Am I allowed to be me? On a dark landing with no light, I was just looking for the next treadmill. There was a reason and I couldn't figure out why all the time, My heart was empty when I laughed at the loneliness that fooled me. What if I had been born in a different city? I gently traced the withered flowers in the shade In the end, there's no way to know what's deep inside Then shut up already, We'll spend our time without questioning anything. And I don't need to be subjected to denial or ridicule. But I suddenly realized, To me, cursed by inconvenience. I put the righteousness that I was taught into it, The clichéd seed of hope, With a part of me that is cowardly, On the ground where there is no salvation, Have you not scattered them? Cry properly. Even if I can no longer go on like everyone else, That it is an anomaly, That can't be true. I'm still looking for a peaceful place to stay, I wish I could have said that. The song for me, for the one I lost, I've connected the gaps in my memory that keep piling up. It's embarrassingly poor, I painted a lot of gloomy things, But that would have been fine. I was just starting out. I'm really pathetic, aren't I? Hey, In retrospect, the hysteria that constantly strikes. The true feelings that remain after the importance is removed, Every time that song plays, my heart aches. Oh, really, I should have never done music. I was crying by the window that I wanted to die already. Let's run away, not knowing what life will be like tomorrow. I see a faint glimpse of happiness when I meditate, To the nearest me. Dear Sir or Madam, I hated being shunned as an oddball. I've denied myself anything and everything. But a bunch of faded memories, a rough aesthetic, Is now like a breeze caressing the body. The imaginary scenery I had painted back then began to break apart, The night I wandered around aimlessly and collapsed. A town I don't know that is gradually approaching, The town that doesn't know me is gradually moving away from me. I've been going through some really horrible things lately. Lies piled on top of lies to self-haters, And pretending to understand it, I couldn't stop no matter what I did. Even the fun is so. I was tormented by the memory. I'm not exaggerating. Am I allowed to be me? On a dark landing with no light, I was just looking for the next treadmill. There was a reason and I couldn't figure out why all the time, My heart was empty when I laughed at the loneliness that fooled me. What if I had been born in a different city? I gently traced the withered flowers in the shade In the end, there's no way to know what's deep inside Then shut up already, We'll spend our time without questioning anything. And I don't need to be subjected to denial or ridicule. But I suddenly realized, To me, cursed by inconvenience. I put the righteousness that I was taught into it, The clichéd seed of hope, With a part of me that is cowardly, On the ground where there is no salvation, Have you not scattered them? Cry properly. Even if I can no longer go on like everyone else, That it is an anomaly, That can't be true. I'm still looking for a peaceful place to stay, I wish I could have said that. The song for me, for the one I lost, I've connected the gaps in my memory that keep piling up. It's embarrassingly poor, I painted a lot of gloomy things, But that would have been fine. I was just starting out. I'm really pathetic, aren't I? Hey, In retrospect, the hysteria that constantly strikes. The true feelings that remain after the importance is removed, Every time that song plays, my heart aches. Oh, really, I should have never done music. I was crying by the window that I wanted to die already. Let's run away, not knowing what life will be like tomorrow. I see a faint glimpse of happiness when I meditate, To the nearest me. Dear me, I hated being shunned as an oddball. I've denied myself anything and everything. But a bunch of faded memories, a rough aesthetic, Is now like a breeze caressing the body. 가사 ★영어 번역 ・만약 부적절한 표현 등이 있으면 바로 알려주세요 그때 그렸던 가상의 풍경이 무너지기 시작했다, 정처 없이 방황하며 무너져내리던 밤. 점점 가까워지는 내가 모르는 도시, 점점 멀어지는 나를 모르는 도시. 요즘 정말 끔찍한 일들뿐이다. 자기혐오에 거짓말을 겹겹이 덧씌우고, 아는 척을 하고는, 어떻게 해도 멈출 수 없었다. 즐거운 일조차도 그렇다. 추억에 괴로워졌다. 과장된 게 아니니까. 나는 나로 있어도 되는 걸까, 빛이 없는 어두운 계단에서, 다음 발판을 찾고 있을 뿐이었다. 이유가 있는데 왜인지 계속 모르겠더라, 외로움을 속이고 웃고 나면 마음이 공허해졌다. 만약 다른 도시에서 태어났다면 어땠을까? 그늘에 핀 시든 꽃을 가만히 더듬어 보았다. 결국 마음 속 깊은 곳 따위는 알 수 없다. 그럼 이제 조용히 하자, 아무것도 의심하지 않고 지내자. 부정이나 조롱을 당하지 않아도 되니까. 하지만 문득 깨달았다, 장애를 가진 저주받은 나에게. 배운 옳음을 담았습니다, 진부한 희망의 씨앗은, 비겁한 나의 일부로, 구원이 없는 메마른 땅에, 뿌려 버린 것은 아닐까? 제대로 울어줘. 남들처럼 더 이상 나아갈 수 없게 되더라도, 그게 비정상이라니, 그럴 리가 없잖아요. 지금도 여전히 안식처를 찾고 있어요, 그렇게 말할 수 있었으면 좋았을 텐데. 잃어버린 것을 향한 나를 위한 노래는, 계속 쌓여가는 기억의 틈을 이어줬어. 부끄러울 정도로 서툴고, 어두운 말만 그려서, 하지만 그게 좋았어요. 처음 시작할 때만 해도 그랬다. 정말 내가 한심하잖아, 웃어줘. 이봐요, 돌이켜보면 끊임없이 찾아오는 히스테리. 소중함을 깎아내고 남는 진심과, 그 노래가 울릴 때마다 가슴이 아팠어. 아, 정말, 음악 따위 하지 말걸 그랬어. 이제 죽고 싶다고 창가에서 울고 있었다. 도망치자, 내일의 삶 따위는 모르는 채로. 눈을 감으면 희미하게 보이는 행복을, 가장 가까운 나에게. 안녕하십니까, 나는 괴짜라고 외면당하는 게 싫었습니다. 내 자신의 모든 것을 부정해 버렸어요. 하지만 빛바랜 기억의 뭉치, 거친 미학이, 지금은 몸을 어루만지는 바람과 같습니다.

[@sirobo02]

投稿お疲れ様でした。 丁寧な音の置き方が、素敵な歌詞をさらに引き立てる楽曲だと思いました。