you exist for a reason! (pt. 2) || a dreamcore/oddcore/internetcore/traumacore playlist

[@mxlion]

_Join the discord if you want to suggest songs!!_ discord.gg/2Cmw2Xt *vvv NOTE TO PEOPLE WHO STRUGGLE WITH DEREALIZATION vvv* _Someone in the comments on my last video has let me know that the title might be a little sensitive to people who have derealization problems. Thank you for letting me know! If you do struggle with this problem I want to let you know! YOU EXIST! Don’t let anyone tell you that you don’t because you do! And you are valid! I didn’t mean to offend anyone I apologize! I wish you the best!_ _TRAUMACORE IS NOT AN AESTHETIC! It’s a way of coping! Traumacore has no gate keepers anyone can use it to cope! But not to “show off”. Mental health problems in general are NOT an aesthetic, they are real problems that affect people every second of every day and can be life changing!_ Timestamps: yw! timestamps coming soon I hope this helps someone cope with stress or depression because that's why I made it! These are songs that help me. Also if you are seeing this it would mean the world to me if you could leave a comment! Even if it's just "first" it would be awesome lol.

[@shreveport3134]

Hello 👋

[@JadeTechna]

I made a time stamp- I guess my comment got deleted D’:

[@the-rickster]

Why was there a TW for The Caretaker? I’m just uneducated and a lil confused :)

[@ibinkyz]

hey dear can u naybe do a different font next time? im neurodivergentt and its hard to see that pink ones, even ik someone commented it.. thx for this list

[@andrewlauring4468]

@@vtp1223 my god you're over reacting to someone asking a question because the color makes it hard to see.

[@perilgaming8001]

"Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable"

[@verklemptt]

Is this why I'm not disturbed?

[@the-rickster]

Y e s

[@HikiOmo]

@@verklemptt most definitely.

[@Candy-un9ze]

this would not disturb anyone at all

[@Candy-un9ze]

@Lavender•Bubble chill out kid, it's not that deep.

[@bug2031]

new comfort playlist: unlocked

[@luzian364]

yes

[@kailynspam6331]

Same dude! Why does this playlist help me sleep and focus? Lol

[@lilygasanova9233]

Is this comfort for you? I realize that I'm listening this playlisit after a phycology session, but sometimes i feel that I'm scared of this songs.

[@bug2031]

@@lilygasanova9233 welp- it depends on how u interpret it or what mood u're in-

[@LuizaBarbosa-zw9iv]

i don't want to kill myself, but i don't want to live like this either. thx for this playlist, it helps me a lot. its such comforting know that im not the only one that feel this emptyness.

[@jacobmidnight1124]

I just want to let you know that I feel the same way as you do. Sometimes it helps to know that you're not going through this alone and you have someone sinking in the same boat as you. Right now I don't know how to help but I can wish that things get better for you. Have a good day/night friend!

[@skipscrop]

same..

[@junoismad]

another internet stranger feeling the same here, it's like my life is so incredibly wrong in so many ways that i want to escape. i really enjoy sleeping because then i can just not be here. i sometimes want to die, but im scared of dying so i dont want to do it. its like im to strong and weak at the same time lmao

[@aliminhas5981]

bro did u do yourself

[@Sir_Rat6225]

there was actually i video on that feeling, it was called ”the desire to not exist” where you dont want to kill yourself but you dont want to be alive

[@riiverstyxx]

dear reader, if you didnt exist, then you wouldnt be able to listen to this awesome playlist so dw :)

[@LexHex714]

needed this ngl :)

[@riiverstyxx]

@@LexHex714 :))

[@riotousfervor]

Thank you 😨

[@riiverstyxx]

@@riotousfervor 👋👋

[@shinmiepog]

Y'know people without disorders that make them have derealisation episodes dont understand how much comments like these help out.

[@errorgendernotfound]

This reminds me of a type of thing where it says "the demo has been completed, thanks for playing" as if life is just a dream that we all forget we are in...anyone else relate?

[@beeegman]

i feel like im in a dream since the age of five. the last thing i remember that felt like real life was me in a blue tshirt playing with my grandma at her house 5 mins beore my mom came to pick me up. I dont really think about it a lot but i never really felt lke i snapped out of it and i just ofrgot it over time.

[@ruffalo1643]

For me it like, each level gets harder the more you progress.

[@naztar4323]

for some resaon that seems just right

[@mjmayberry]

i exist to suffer. Somebody else could probably handle my life better than me, but its the fact that we all live that makes me sad. Plus, life is boring.

[@thabeaschattle278]

do you want to talk about it? i‘ll try to help

[@kastiyo8318]

We are in hardmode....

[@thabeaschattle278]

Lavender•Bubble oh. well i can’t really help but please try your best :). i‘m sure it will be better someday even if it doesn’t seem like it. you are a person who doesn‘t deserve feeling like this, please remember that you are loved. have a great day and take care :)

[@kastiyo8318]

@Aeva Shady i'm in Legendary mode

[@kastiyo8318]

@Aeva Shady i feel good...i'll just keep fighting every day

[@Mimi-sd6cn]

Time Stamps 0:00 - 2:58 Temporex "Nice Boys" 2:58 - 5:56 Jack Stauber "Two Time" 5:56 - 8:58 The Scary Jokes "Apple Pie" 8:58 - 12:22 Cavetown "Devil Town" 12:22 -14:15 Kero Kero Bonito "I'd rather sleep" 14:15 -17:06 Lincoln "Saint Bernard 2" 17:06 - 21:18 Penelope Scott "Feel Better" 21:18 -23:00 Possibly in Michigan "Animal Cannibal" 23:00 - 26:25 Strawberry Guy "Mrs Magic" 26:25 - 30:48 Diveo "Happily Alone" 30:48 - 34:17 The Caretaker "Libet's Delay"

[@mxlion]

Omg you are awesome!

[@sstrangerwithcandy]

Bro I was just watching art tiktoks and the first song was playing and I was wondering what song it was. I heard it in this playlist and thought I was in a simulator lol 😅😂😂

[@флешка-ф9д]

thx!

[@burrdid]

@@sstrangerwithcandy ew tiktok

[@sstrangerwithcandy]

@@burrdid ew you. That was unnecessary, random salty person

[@TheOakForest]

so i was in class while listening to this and the kahoot music with feel better by Penelope Scott is strange but really good.

[@maudi_uwu]

I am pleased to discover other people find Jack Stauber good for processing trauma in an undercurrent of an ocean of music.

[@angelvillarina293]

I love this playlist so much but you just had to pull out the caretaker PAIN

[@mxlion]

I’m sorry! I know a lot of people don’t like the caretaker I’m sorry.

[@sa-yo-na-ra6533]

What’s the caretaker?

[@liminalniko]

@@sa-yo-na-ra6533 its the last song in the playlist :)

[@sa-yo-na-ra6533]

@@liminalniko thank you but I meant like why don’t people like it lol sorry

[@cowsmoosic]

@@sa-yo-na-ra6533 go look up some videos about everywhere at the end of time :)

[@kawaiimeanscute1360]

Do you ever think that when you die, when we are buried, and years later when you are in your other life, you pass by your grave from your old life, not even knowing it? And the people there mourning your loss will look familiar but you wont remember who they are.. this keeps me up at night...

[@renzyyyx]

I'm going to vent a bit, is that okay? I love my parents, but it really seems like they don't love me the same. I've been scolded so many times for such tiny things, and because of that, I haven't felt at home lately. I've been going to a friend's place a lot more often, and it seems like he loves me way more than my parents ever could. He always listens to me and comforts me whenever I needed it. Every time I come back to my parents' place, they would dismiss me as if I wasn't a human. I tried to cope with it, saying that I had him there for me, but it was so difficult. The next thing I knew, my friend brought me to a therapist. I told my parents that I started going, and all they said was, "do we have to pay? If we don't, I don't care. Do whatever you want." I was so hurt. I told him. He told me he'd be there for me whenever I needed him, and I was so grateful. I love him. So, whoever is suffering from derealization, please, tell someone you trust and love. I'm sure that they'll listen to you. People love you, and you are real.

[@mochi-izu]

Listen, love, I don't know the severity of your situation but I want you to know that I care too, and I love you too. Please, stay alive, I'm sure your lovely friend would want that too. I hope everything is going better for you now.

[@Samuelnakano]

Why did it took me 3 years to find part 2!? Sobbing rn

[@Norius86]

At least you can cope with this

[@Luca-sr4gm]

Apple pie by the scary jokes is such a good song.

[@bandidocavalier]

YES i was looking for comments ab the scary jokes pls pls i love their music so much

[@isla3204]

Girly I listened to the first one of “you exist for a reason” and it made my life better, when I saw this one I immediately clicked it. so thank you

[@sadyeehaws4084]

I feel safe here but at the same time, I feel all my problems inside me (if that makes sense) and I don't like it....

[@meowman69420]

yo ik i just commented on your other video, but i just wanna thank you for this cool playlist. :)

[@mxlion]

No! Thank you for listening! I hope it helped!

[@akises]

programming while listening to this is like therapy, I recommend

[@mxlion]

niceee! what language?

[@Funkyskep]

Facts doing it rn as we speak

[@akises]

@@mxlion c# !!

[@akises]

@@Funkyskep yooo nice!

[@TheBased_Department]

I feel empty, not always, but quite often. I don't meet expectations of myself and already have accepted my hypocrisy to myself, there's a meat bag with some form of chemical reactions which define it's behaviour, and there is a "person" which is an abstract concept to define your behaviour, feelings are just another kind of thought with no language, much simpler. You can't think if you feel too much, and you don't feel if you think too much. I want to do the right things and i expect myself to do them, but sometimes i don't do them, even if i should, because i as "monkey" want to do nothing and i have no will to resist it. Once in a while i start to meet my expectations and I'm doing everything I want, or even more but after a few months i just quit, i want nothing but some food and sleep. I don't feel particularly bad and i can even "enjoy" that emptiness but the actual thing which makes me feel bad is that i don't do my job well even if i can, and i know that i can, but i don't do it.

[@Nunyuh346]

❤

[@dustronyt4565]

same here... sending the Hug of The Understanding

[@miss73percent]

people are using this to cope with stuff meanwhile im just chilling with the vibey music

[@PWNDON]

not really using this as a way to cope personally, i hope thats okay i just came to vibe to weirdcore/oddcore like i usually do edit: i think i worded it a bit wrong

[@mxlion]

Yeah dude! That’s all fine and dandy!! Thanks for listening!!!

[@_yourlocalcryptid_2744]

i’ve come to cope been through some shit the past couple months and i’m finally unpacking it mentally these playlists really help

[@PilotGuava]

Even Sisyphus found meaning in his meaningless existence.

[@GR4V3YRD]

I'ma vent rq: Ok so one time I was playing outside with a bunch of friends. And I remember laughing and running but all of a sudden everything went away and I blacked out for maybe a couple of seconds, but to me it felt like minutes and when I came back to reality I felt weird. I felt fake like everything I was doing wasn't real or like I was dreaming. I ran back to my house telling my parents what had happened and I was just crying so much. Sometimes I get that feeling that I'm not real and that I'm nothing. Another thing is that whenever I fall asleep I have these dreams that are very realistic, so it's like I can never tell if what I'm dreaming is actually happening to me in real life or not.

[@sophiescribbles8504]

THIS HAS DEVIL TOWN! I ALWAYS THOUGHT IT WOULD FIT PERFECTLY WITH THIS AESTHETIC :D

[@matuili2633]

I've been feeling very shitty these last months... Usually this is the part where people blame the pandemic as if it was a living, conscious thing, but really it's all my fault and at the same time I want to feel like it isn't. I've just had so much time to think about my future, and I started going to therapy and thinking about my career and stuff... but ultimately I'm realizing that I'm the opposite of who I want to be. I'm a prick. And I don't have any friends anymore, probably because of the things I do (and don't do). At the end of the day I wish I could stop torturing myself 24/7, but it just feels so hard... not to... I miss having people in my life. Enjoy the friends you have now. Call them. Try enjoying things they enjoy. Being selfish all the time will kill you, especially if you end up killing your self. It always starts with the selfishness.

[@bio8333]

another great mix

[@mxlion]

Tysm!

[@whitesunflower1346]

Was listening to the first part when I saw you’ve made another one ! Thank you for your work, it really helps a lot of people including me 😊 Wish you the best and take care ! 🌸

[@mxlion]

Tysm! If you ever need someone to talk to I can give you my discord! I’m in the same boat as most people so I love listening!

[@mxlion]

marley#8920

[@whitesunflower1346]

@@mxlion Ow, thank u you’re so sweet 🥺 my English is a bit broken but if u need someone too I’ll be glad to listen 🌸 I’ll add u next time I log in on discord 😊

[@HikiOmo]

This always heals just as much as it hurts to listen to.

[@suprick22]

*saves each of these songs*

[@Koaru-e6i]

I'm so tired of being tired...misunderstood...and called lazy for something I can't help It's not laziness, it's executive dysfunction...but you don't see that, do you?

[@Norius86]

To some it's laziness, to others it's depression, it's all a perspective

[@pagukun8351]

I cannot express how happy I am i found this, i have been listening to the first part for a while, ive probably listened to it like 30 times before and now i found a part 2, thanks for the good work!

[@mxlion]

No problem! Thanks for listening!

[@nagitointheds8298]

Lmao before the video started, i got an online therapy ad

[@qoph1988]

Does anybody not get those? Worthless therapy tbh

[@0r0ch12]

This is amaizing, i just go to another world with this, i feel the magic in my fingers, thank you

[@eternalylostone5046]

Music helps me live my life through this literal hell of a journey, thank you for it

[@Criticalc0llective]

I want to say I really like these playlists, they comfort me. Thanks so much!!!

[@vexcity9591]

I just want to say, Thank you for making these, I cope with music and distractions and these help a lot. You're amazing!

[@ki2348]

i especially like this playlist, i’ve listened to it over 3 times fully now, thank you.

[@cine-ma7930]

Man hearing this and doing homework just made me realize growing up is not that great as everyone thought but alas here we are contemplating life at the worst way possible with traumas, anxiety and depression some never asked for but here we are hoping we can get out of this bad way of living

[@cloud-hl1kt]

hi little angel, i came to remind you that you are special, enough and made with a lot of love, jesus loves you very much and waits for your voice and heart ^-^ he's coming back! :))

[@St0pLookingAtMyProfile]

Ehh.. I dunno..

[@ctp1998ctp]

This playlist is just my taste

[@AlecNormal]

Weird/Dreamcore music is my favourite genre, and what got me into making my own weirdcore music in the first place. Clearly a lot of people think it's creepy and disturbing, but to me, it's not only vent art to help cope with negative emotions but it's also fun and calming to create :)

[@GTCYTMC]

I falsified my recovery in Therapy, It didn't help. Every night I lie awake, restless, wondering "Should I keep going? Should I see another day? Am I worth something to someone?" Every time I see the sun rise, it reminds me that no matter what, the world keeps turning, people keep working, and I still exist. My parents don't know this, nor my siblings, but I've been starving myself, only eating one meal a day. I'm tired, hungry, and I don't know if I exist to my friends and family. I hope that if someone sees this and they've read all this... I hope they're loved. I hope you're cared for. I hope you have a wonderful life. Don't give up on what you dreamed about. Don't turn into me.

[@Norius86]

Talk to me about your problems, I can listen to you, your valuable, your not a bad example trust me, you matter, your loved you just don't know it!! And don't kys, please don't, don't listen to those thoughts

[@Karol_Redd]

I adore this very much, thank you :))

[@mxlion]

omg tysm!!! im in the act of making another one rn!!! help im addicted hahaha. it should be out later today or tmro!!! TYSM!!!

[@Karol_Redd]

WOAH I'LL BE WAITING

[@mxlion]

@@Karol_Redd AHHHHHH!!! ITS LIVE HEHHEHE

[@Karol_Redd]

@@mxlion I'm 🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️

[@jenna8459]

I listen to music during class 24/7 so thank you for these

[@pothack]

these songs actually make me see light in a dark room wtf

[@lily9413]

woah wait the song at the end is rlly good yay new comfort song ahahaha

[@akoi-on3oo]

Thanks for those playlist ! I love them, prefect for home work and late night walk ^^

[@mitchellgoodloe5262]

"I do not fear death for I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it." -Mark Twain.

[@TheCoolGuitarRiff]

-'Devil Town' is the made up place inside his head to comfort himself. He is safe here from all the things troubling him outside. -His dad buying new car might be hinting reason for his divorce or his dad is coping with divorce by mindlessly spending money. -His mother in the other hand takes her anger out on him, getting 'mad' in everything he says. -Also, 'that is what they say' might be hinting his father calls his mother crazy when they fight. -Two birthdays, with each of his parents seperated. Straight up telling they are getting a divorce. -'Devil Town is colder in summer time' In summer, there is no school. So he has to witness his parent's fighting all day. -Dressed in gowns, his one is white and stripey. Like a prisoner's outfit. So he sees himself as a prisoner in that home. -His friend's gown is green-brown. Like most military outfits. Might be implying his friend is being strictly disciplined by his parents. -He is dissociating so hard he forgets his name. And it happens multiple times. -His friend's shoe having spiders in it might be meaning they didn't leave the home for a long time, 'cause they are more scared of you' is generally said by parents to children. So his friend he sings to might be a sibling. Also, this song has other versions too. With more lyrics or different melody. So it is fitting for a song about divorce being split into 3 different but familiar versions. Also. If they are 3 siblings, one feeling like a prisoner, and the other -probably older sibling- forced to grow up like a soldier would be fitting. With more energetic version being younger sibling, middle child being the one with paralyzing anxiety and the older one with childish melody at the end implying he is the only one that remembers older days the best. -Other versions they mention 'pretty faces' flying around. It might be hinting at women their dad brings to home. It's only other version cause he is the sibling that stays with father. -'Everytime I close my eyes, sunshine get a little dimmer' might be implying both that sibling is feeling really hopeless or realizing days are shorter in new place they moved in. -Blood forming branches in the water might also be implying self harm as a coping method for one of the siblings. Reminds me of blood washing away under shower. -'How do you feel so proud' might be middle child, asking older one. Since he is the one most likely took the role of father figure now and keeping others spirits up by showing how far they come. -Hold my hand tight and falling not feeling so bad together makes sense more if they are siblings. Comforting each other throught divorce and holding hands at nights where most likely they listen their parent fighting as they go to sleep. Overanalyzing songs is easier than facing my thoughts and feelings.

[@Norius86]

Overanalyzing songs is definitely a top 5 in the good distractions tier list, pretty cool yapping bro

[@ItsMeFern2019]

I really appreciate these videos you make dude 💜 It's genuinely been helping me cope so much today

[@freakxd9847]

I love the second song... Two Time..!

[@Salmonid_Destroyer]

this playlist make me feel better of myself

[@DrownedRudy]

personally for me it is relaxing music :D

[@Ba77ery4c1d]

I stumbled upon these videos a hot while ago and. I cant stop listening, thank u for putting these 2gether!

[@DDavidD4A]

new dreams, unlocked

[@christy9948]

this makes me so happy ily

[@thabeaschattle278]

i just want to thank you for existing. you are loved. thank you :)

[@valeria.8727]

This is the only good way that I have to cope, thanks

[@chaingigan7545]

including Nice Boys without first giving it the build up of "Hi" is an absolute sin, but otherwise this is a really good mix.

[@bandidocavalier]

YES THE SCARY JOKES YES YES YES!! BTW REMEMBER LIZ (THE SINGER OF THE SCARU JOKES) USES THEY THEM AND REMEMBERTO GO SUPPORT THEM AND AAAAA I LOVERTHEIR MUSIC SO MUCH I LOOVE SEEING IT IN PLAYLIST I WILL CRYY

[@justjill.8965]

love how there's a trigger warning at the start about the Caretaker's Libet Delay being at the end ironically my favorite Caretaker song

[@AmaruMiguelDrobiniche]

Where is the pt. 1 of this playlist? I loved so much

[@mxlion]

I GOT IT BACK UP!

[@AmaruMiguelDrobiniche]

@@mxlion UHUUUUUUUUULLLLLL OHHH YESSSSS

[@AmaruMiguelDrobiniche]

@@mxlion thk u so much, this is the only traumacore playlist that i feel confortable to listen and chill, i've been listening since the first day it was uploaded, you're amazing

[@Iquey]

The song combination here is perfect! I put your playlist in my story playlist that will help me write a weird story so thank you so much for making this!

[@nekovannox]

Thanks for this playlist! It's helping me concentrate on college work!

[@GuiltyGearFan60000]

Thank you for making these, I use music to cope with my problems, I don't have anything diagnosed but I have many problems that I have to deal with and music has helped me through it. It helps me get away from all the bull for a while, so thank you. Have a nice day❤️❤️❤️

[@tecc9999]

making the leap and listening to the caretaker is going to be the end of me

[@matuili2633]

If you can, avoid it. It usually begins as something interesting, but with time you don't want to learn too much about it. It tends to destroy people.

[@tecc9999]

@@matuili2633 yeah, i figured that much. i’ll just leave it to be another internet phenomena and move on

[@tamikaa]

no dislikes so far! this is great after all

[@discipl1n3]

The song from 14:15 - 17:06 is actually "Saint Bernard 2" by Lincoln

[@rythewolf1505]

I honestly did NOT expect Animal Cannibal to pop up here. I’m pleasantly surprised

[@piss3272]

i just want to feel like i'm home. but home doesn't even feel like home

[@flanmadaramikejima]

i write a story to these songs, when its finished ill come back and share the link

[@mateo4508]

Hows to progress?

[@B_B_]

thank you for this playlist

[@snakebae6259]

smoking and getting a coffee at the empty company resting area at night shift 1am... goes hard.

[@applentee]

pt1 is more of my vibe. pt2 isnt hitting tthe same. but thats just my opinion. still u got a random person to listen to it. for some reason the songs played in the first one hurts my brain. like am i getting a headache or nah? leaving the first video, its just gone and when i go back to it and listen from the start it just hurts again. bruh... brain is weird.

[@Peyocore]

I can’t even cry when I want to even though I’m an incredibly sensitive person. The only times I can’t cry are because of emotional problems. I mainly just feel empty and tired and just want to fall asleep into nothingness forever.

[@eunoiamorosis]

I cry when my friends care about me "Why do you care about me?, I'm worthless, a piece of trash, you're too good for me..." Actual words I've said

[@felwinter2736]

Was really scared when I saw the caretaker, thought it would be everywhere at the end of time

[@kimanrena674]

Basically, I know why I exist. 1. Born 2. Enjoyed my childhood 3. Miss my childhood 4. Study 5. Lose attention 6. Care about other 7. get a job 8. Suffer 9. Get a kid 10. Smile 11. Died

[@uvuxy8389]

This playlist make me feel so calm!! ❤❤❤

[@hame9885]

This place seems comfortable. Might vibe in it and sub.

[@fallout3fan623]

I mostly just like weirdcore aesthetics and find both of these mixes really good, but I am depressed as well. Like if I'm getting music to disassociate to, it'll usually be the smiths or radiohead or something, I'm just here cause it's a nice sound

[@kailynspam6331]

This playlist is oddly calming for me. It also helps me sleep? And focus. But that's just me lol

[@amerthe26th]

I love your music taste it's pretty similar to mine , please keep on making more of these

[@davianlederdorfer6226]

I felt so safe and in comfort and then I heard Caretaker music... I'm crying so hard now.....

[@reclamaris]

I dont wanna exist anymore

[@weomxd]

Thanks for these mixes.

[@elyxrr]

Am I seriously the only one here who just likes these songs 😐 Like I understand wanting to vent but at the same time, some people are like writing diary entries in the comment section, you should probably go see a professional cause strangers replying "I'm sorry you're worth it" and likes won't help you much emotionally in the long run if it's serious

[@iitsToasted]

Love it but perhaps later make it a bit louder later on in the future, I'm a headphone user and it's really quiet '^^

[@writerwhohatescoffee957]

I hate how I feel bad about how this kind of playlists helps me processing things I don't even know I should call trauma because I have a hard time thinking that anything I went through should count as trauma with how stupid and predictable they sound.

[@das9572]

you really help me a lot ...

[@littlecake453]

I listened to this for my studies. I'm a little shocked by the comments.

[@hat7475]

can someone fill me in with why or how 'The Caretaker' triggers someone?

[@matuili2633]

Here's the thing. The Caretaker's "Everywhere at The End of Time" is a multiple part musical project that is supposed to simulate a person suffering from dementia. The first part introduces a bunch of old songs from a person's life and with time they start getting more and more corrupted and confusing, like that person doesn't remember them anymore. By the end of the whole thing there are multiple instances of straight up silence, until the last minutes, where a very eerie song, followed by what the caretaker confirmed is supposed to represent the person's brain death, finally happens. It's basically 6 hours of music that shows you how it feels to go insane, until you don't know who you are anymore, until you die. That's why so many people can't listen to it after learning what it is about.

[@2_EASY_4_ME]

When the Caretaker came on i lost my mind.

[@declan3115]

Girl's crying and 5.7k of you liked it!?!? Sickos.

[@Anna-gx8bc]

Thank you! 💚

[@manintheline5331]

I kind of miss the poka gif, she was the perfect image for this vibe

[@SoraKoudo]

a little bit of advice for, anyone just reading, it’s okay to not be sure of what you want to be around for- god knows I’ve had issues with that just.. It’s okay if your reason for being around changes over time? Because you can’t always live *just for yourself* all the time, because sometimes that’s not... quite good enough? Or this is from my own experience I mean just, It’s okay to be alive for other things... than just yourself? Because maybe... the reason you’re still around is you have I don’t know, friends that care, or a pet companion you need to care for or just, even more small things It’s okay not to know, just as long as you’re still around :’) What’s my reason for being alive still? To spite God. He gave me *so much mental illness* like if he knew I didn’t have issues I would have been far too powerful Simply he nerfed me Erm.. I hope you have a nice day, or night or, whatever time of day it is as you read this (This aesthetic always helps me go to sleep :’) )

[@reefjoubarani8535]

6 years ago, I was rolled into the hospital unconscious after attempting to hang myself from my ceiling fan. *Never Again.*

[@evaellora1466]

I want KZbin music just for your playlist 💞👌

[@Isakovsck]

when i heard this 30:46 , it was like having ptsd, i want to cry