Zayn crying while having an interview about the boys and leaving the band

[@tamara-ci2ko]

Just hearing his voice tremble kills me

[@ginko8725]

i'm the first to reply

[@bellaisaswan]

I'm crying just hearing his voice tremble

[@ge0rg1na88]

😭 bless him

[@h1ghf1v3s]

Gicole I can hear it in ur voice and how it trembles when u speak to me u don’t resemble

[@jessyzirwin1064]

Me too😭💔

[@brittneyherrly281]

He stayed for them, and thats kind of heartbreaking on its own. Like he really loved them, enough to put his wants and needs as an artist aside. You really can't say anything negative about him, for that sole reason.

[@hieronymousblack3364]

Well said.

[@itsmejunubasnet8126]

Yes

[@renugadevi777]

Yeah bt they all r jealous of him bcoz of his Appreance nd voice 💞

[@lynnsmithershubbard1896]

Maybe they were afraid management would break up the band if one broke contract...or maybe they were threatened it would happen if one did?

[@AmberUnavailable]

Dude c’mon- to make it seem like he was some sort of selfless martyr is ridiculous. He stayed with the band because it was in his benefit Financially to stay for as long as possible.

[@zoesalvador6305]

its okay if they don’t make a musical reunion, i just want them to be friends again and support each other :(

[@Emmy-nb5xp]

Exactly😔

[@BinhTran-yy4kh]

Ye

[@r.h.6249]

today i watched the one direction this is us movie and....wow there was so much there that i didnt see....i mean Zayn was barely in there...zayn was always left alone and i didnt see him having the fun with the boys...i mean i think other boys were extroverted outgoing personality and zayn was introverted and so polite and shy...they just didnt mesh up together and i do think harry and zayn werent close because sometimes friend groups are like that you get along as a group but if you leave two individuals together they just dont get along......i think louis and liam and niall were the good friends and harry and xayn were kinda the outsiders.......and dont even get me statrted on the management...these bys were 16 when they were picked up and went around the world for 2 freaking years without seeing their family....i cant imagine what zayn would have felt like knowing he felt like he didnt belong there.....i felt sad when in the movie he never got out of bed and slept and wanted tp be left alone because i think it was telltale signs of early depression...and you can see how they micromanaged everything from the way boys dressed,sang,danced etc...also i dont know why zayn smoking weed was such a big deal...zayn is muslim and he doesnt drinks alcohol like everyone else...the only other way to get kicks os to smoke weed...

[@whoatemynachos4993]

me too :')

[@kenzieslife5169]

they all support eachother but idk about zayn

[@g13-laugomariahfionac.52]

I felt a lot of pain in his voice. Hes trying to hold his tears so bad that it hurts.

[@parvathiiiiarun]

@ILovezaynandpayno andHazza🤧

[@aaishanaz5627]

*payne 😔

[@macieleigherwin7380]

My poor baby sounds like he’s ready to break down 😭🥺

[@namelesssloth429]

@@macieleigherwin7380 omg yes I thought I was the only one hearing his voice change into him breaking down :(

[@aarohi6381]

hes holding by a very thin thread

[@iscrookes]

people always say "theres no way he wasnt happy in the band". he was happy with THE BOYS, but he wasn't happy with being in a band.

[@reeseismynameonline5604]

He wasn’t happy with the Management

[@shreyasichatterjee1853]

Thats the difference ppl dont understand

[@minaljahangir1034]

I know it really annoys me when they say that because they have no idea what was going on

[@darknightemperor8174]

He wanted the band to have more creative control of the music and they weren’t allowed too

[@jessicaamil6240]

totally agree

[@shybunnyj]

"I've never wanted to be in the band." He broke my heart into pieces.

[@onedirectionforever1643]

Same😭😭

[@kb107]

He's lying

[@lanamegloba177]

Samee

[@ma-asumasounna1286]

💀💀

[@tam6213]

literally

[@alkiramalik6869]

He cried, i cried, everyone cried

[@ashleymoreno1136]

Felt that-

[@johaanjomy1822]

I didn't

[@ella_x_mckean]

Johaan Jomy ooo your tough😂

[@johaanjomy1822]

@@ella_x_mckean 😂😂

[@saidtxsx5411]

Wow lol I think I laughed tbh Bc this comment is so stupid

[@huevember]

1:44 “and i just, didn't wanna be like, the person to say that i was right, because who am i to say that?” He's a great human. We love you Zayn :)

[@niallerxlovers7538]

Bro I was reading this part while I was watching it

[@candyfloss16]

@@niallerxlovers7538 same

[@hrs3.59]

@@niallerxlovers7538 yeah same here too😂

[@dharini.s7615]

hey me tooo! 😅

[@harrysangels5857]

Their schedule was so messed up. It was all so toxic. I mean he never left because of the boys, they loved each other,.

[@isalilbella]

Harry’s Angels blame the management

[@ishitadubey3561]

ikr, the industry should change their management. they were just kids

[@ysvtan]

the management was one of the reasons he left because they were really complicated..

[@palitbr4552]

the management brainwashed them,i was too little to notice about that,now i’m older my heart breaks and i hope they are in a good management ,i really beg 4 that. so sad

[@kateohara7789]

All bands have toxic schedules it’s been normalized in music industry and it’s something they really need to change.

[@elaynarodriguez6360]

the way he calls them “the boys” makes my heart break

[@ellabruno7568]

lmao what is he supposed to call them

[@mysticalmaniac2]

hes always called them" the boys" even when he was in the band

[@0nlythebrave_98]

@@ellabruno7568 he could’ve said they or literally anything else?

[@chxrlxe3358]

@@0nlythebrave_98 bruh, saying "the boys" doesn't mean he didn't like them or anything, and he's always called them "the boys"

[@AbinSajiSebastian]

Then what should he call them?. The girls??

[@ellebelleby5109]

Give this man a hug, he’s been through shit

[@ryansmtih4917]

no

[@kawaiaesa]

why not? this video broke the heart in pieces to so many directioners

[@rey-vf8hu]

Guys zayn was happy with the boys, like he didn't hate the boys. The one thing he hated was the management and he didn't wanted to be part of the band.

[@FeelTheLack]

He really should have made that clear but oh well, it is what it is

[@Someone-zs5xr]

@@FeelTheLack When there are some huge people above you, you can't really announce them especially during those times Simon cowell especially during those times was hailed as god literally even if he did say his reason i don't think people would believe him everyone would still believe Simon either way. The only reason the hate calmed down abit was because liam spoke against the management thats it

[@FeelTheLack]

@@Someone-zs5xr he could have said that he was happy with and loved the boys but he didn't

[@kadence5849]

@@FeelTheLack yeah thats why they’re saying that he wouldn’t be able to say that, him saying he always wanted to leave but not because of them would’ve left room for assumption by management. besides i’m sure the boys know

[@FeelTheLack]

@@kadence5849 so what? I have had to sign non disclosure agreements before, there's nothing that says you can't imply that the management sucks, you just can't flat out say it.

[@wixuan]

Whole fandom was shaking like Zayn's voice when he left the band.

[@nelar860]

Satan HE IS NOT ACTUALLY FUCKING GONE YA ALL CRAZY im in this fandom too but shit man he is alive at least. Imagine how is it for people like me who love someone and that person their idol is really dead really gone FOREVER

[@hucklebrrys]

pft his music is killing it wdym

[@onedirectionforever1044]

Trinity Lawrence How do you say he was gone? Where was that rumor came out? What is that?

[@vimlatiwari51]

zAhRa we still do. And everytime I watch this I feel so bad that he did something he never wanted to do. Coz ik that feeling sucks

[@vkookstylinson3830]

Yes ikr 😢😢😢

[@rosemfountain]

I’ve seen this multiple times but it still makes me so sad. I’m honestly glad Zayn left, now he’s getting to do what he wants to do. He loved the boys, that’s obvious. They grew up together, but he needed to go his own way

[@BharatSingh-ei9gy]

Finally after reading your comment I can stop crying. I see something positive. Thank you

[@kimayoung81]

U could tell he had a hard time making that decision.

[@sharnayzeyfumpernickle8752]

Totally agree.

[@saksunflower]

It's like the adore you mv

[@abbigaylej9977]

what about us what about everything we’ve been through - Gabriella Montez

[@00cocoloco]

This poor man doesn’t deserve any of the hate he gets for leaving. Hearing his voice shake is making me tear up 🥺

[@katie-wz1xu]

i love ur pfp

[@00cocoloco]

@@katie-wz1xu ty (:

[@katie-wz1xu]

@@00cocoloco np, and we love the support for all of the boys. i wish i could do the same but i upload content so i probably shouldnt change it that often lol

[@zoryapolunochnaya]

@@katie-wz1xu idk why but even this little conversation made me cry. Yes ofc there are toxic ppl in this fandom as in every other fandom does. But man.. Directioners are really a family. Just want to say ily🥺💙💚

[@katie-wz1xu]

@@zoryapolunochnaya AWHHH ILY TOO 💕 we are a family, each of the boys is our dad/uncle- thats why i created a yt because the fandom is so kind to where the toxic portions are sooo hard to find

[@devlyndoster6803]

i feel like he enjoyed being with the boys, but didn’t enjoy being in one direction... if that makes sense

[@cherrylovespizzabro9452]

Yea

[@AqwDragulum]

He definitely didn’t like 1D, the brand.

[@imjj5826]

Yup, you can hate school, but love your friends there

[@anjalibanerjee6742]

Truee😢

[@nurzahirahhh1429]

@@imjj5826 you got a good point 😭👍🏻

[@RAEMUSE]

i can see the pain in his pretty eyes

[@melanienavor4910]

I think you mean payne

[@Riley-vz9ou]

Melanie Navor I love you😭😂

[@noorluhaib7783]

Same 😔

[@-avril2643]

Harry , zayn , Niall , Liam , Louis ONE DIRECTION FOREVER!! Btw lol it’s weird how Harry looked the straightest and is now the most “gay”!

[@satyasundardasdas7110]

Same

[@icarusflies9670]

He loved the boys, but that wasn't the one direction he was looking for. Mind the pun.

[@AqwDragulum]

ikkyu san “mind the pun” - zayn

[@nandaschneider53]

one direction > two directions > five directions (i'm sadd)

[@ingridtomski5503]

Nah he didn’t like the boys. They don’t even talk to each other anymore

[@IushIy]

@@nandaschneider53 He does love the boys, he has anxiety and depression which is most likely why he hasn't contacted them or he's like me, I have friends but I'm not good at communicating so I don't really contact them. I have some friends that I haven't spoke to over a year now but I text them every now and then. He's probably just bad at communicating like me.

[@nandaschneider53]

@@IushIy i hope so, cause their friendships looked so real, and then he said that he didn't really talk to harry, i didn't understand, but ok. i really hope he to get better (of his anxiety), he deserves the best ❤ (sorry for my bad english)

[@chloehumphries7909]

“I’m just a little boy from Bradford now look at me”

[@FirstNameLastName-jx9zq]

im smashin it 😭😭😭

[@kaylamatthews571]

IM SMASHIN IT!! I love that, and I also love you’re profile pic. 😍😍

[@chloehumphries7909]

kayla matthews thank youuu

[@silvahumaira307]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@grainnemarino6562]

Smashing it at msg 🥺

[@Erasureeraser]

You're a true directioner if you really understand Zayn's feelings. This man deserves better, he really enjoys spending time with Harry, Niall, Liam and Louis, but he didn't enjoyed being in One Direction. In my opinion, a musical reunion is truly unnessecary for them, all i want is them to be friends and support each other

[@chr_34]

If they reunion they'll have a new management which means they'll be free and happy...They can restart their band and forget everything that happend in the past 💔! They promised they'll be back they can't lie to directioners....This fandom is really strong but Imagine if they lie :(, million of people and kids will end up crying (I'm talking about real directioners 🥺🤍)

[@ilovelanadelrey2900]

Litterally people are saying that he’s lying like y’all not real fans

[@eliza957]

@@chr_34 I'm already crying 🤷‍♀️ it doesn't change anything I don't have any hope now...

[@whoru9256]

I will never ever blame Zayn for leaving the band...but I juz want to see these 5 together...like they aren't close to each other...even he's not following anyone of them in Instagram...same goes with others except Louis..as long they'll in a good relationship that's enough for me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 luv them forever

[@eliza957]

@@whoru9256 yessss same ! I just want them to be friends. Not necessarily reform the band because it's impossible but just friends plsss

[@jasminetiyasa1004]

They only thing I want right now is him and the lads in good terms.

[@nush8773]

Exactly me too

[@louisratatoulielinson]

Just that only That Whyy

[@jasminetiyasa1004]

@@louisratatoulielinson Zayn doesn't like to be in a band and the fact that modest won't allow the band to sing the sort of songs Zayn sings.

[@softsings9545]

They've always been on good terms

[@hannahwilliams9940]

@@softsings9545 him and Louis arnt rlly

[@dagmarmuniz1668]

the management really ruined everything & it makes my heart ache. i’m glad he made the decision that was best for him.

[@daniellaporturas4405]

right? if they came back but with a better management and with updated music everything would be better tbh

[@dagmarmuniz1668]

Daniella Porturas everything would be amazing, i really have a gaping hole in my heart bc i miss them so much

[@andreanaidoo5652]

Pls explain why the management was bad?

[@gauri7501]

I truly agree. The management was so unsupportive and controlling that it killed the lads.

[@MedicalMomentsOfficial]

True words

[@naxelw9029]

His voice is so shaky. I’m dying rn bc the 10 year anniversary

[@naxelw9029]

Zi Gi are YOU okay😭

[@naxelw9029]

Zi Gi great❤️✨

[@Soin1D]

He made me cry and I don’t tear up easily help me

[@nicole.24]

it’s been a month since the 10 year anniversary already omg :(

[@Justapersonwithaytaccount]

Same!!

[@aparnapraveenhere]

We love friends, but hate school.

[@Sadbirdsfly]

Huh

[@katie3911]

@@Sadbirdsfly I think they mean zayn loved the boys but hated the band

[@just_living_for_a_1D_reunion]

An underrated comment, this deserves better

[@sanjaychodhary7690]

This is so accurate

[@ayushihiwale6599]

this just stabbed me a million times in my heart

[@ele.rb7]

only true directioners are here watching this in 2020 oh you're here in 2021 too? woah um ok.. happy 2022 ig

[@monalisa5270]

I’m crying again and again ...

[@stilianayanakieva5968]

😪🤧

[@garagay9845]

True

[@idk-ef4og]

Yeah and this makes me cry so much🥺🥺

[@abbiedavies5180]

Yep

[@lm3165]

"I've never really wanted to be in the band" can anyone else hear pain in his voice expect me?

[@JSsquad-kz9tj]

Everyone heard it don't worry

[@BinhTran-yy4kh]

He didn't want to be in the band, he left the band. But he didn't leave the boys

[@tiana7522]

That was the moment my heart broke and the crying started

[@lm3165]

@@BinhTran-yy4kh now I'm crying even more lol

[@anoushkaaneesh1908]

i cried because of two thing: 1) zayn was crying 2) his engagement ring

[@nandaschneider53]

@@mariammohabbat he was trying not to cry

[@ingridtomski5503]

He wasn’t crying.

[@sinead8039]

@@mariammohabbat they're not being dramatic, a lot of ppl are commenting it, and I think he does sound like he is about to cry. He might not have tears but he definitely sounds like he was about to cry. That could be nerves but to me it's not

[@sinead8039]

@@ingridtomski5503 I think he was. Many others hear it too, his voice gets really shaky, like just before you cry shaky. To me it seems like he was about to cry. But that's just personally what I hear

[@hello-tb1cj]

He was about to cry but he is trying not to cry

[@kaillaw8961]

Louis: "...I'm a Bradford bad boy" Zayn: "I don't even say that anymore"

[@aaminamalik101]

when

[@narima2550]

It breaks my heart. I used to blame him for leaving, but NOW, as i get older i understand what he'd gone through. But i really hope someday he will fix things with the boys and be friends again. They used to be brothers and now they are like strangers. my heart aches tbh.

[@wipcreme]

True it'll be enough for me to see them together as friends even if they aren't in the band anymore

[@irinakantt]

Haz za yeah, how cool it’d be if they collabed as solo artists

[@usmanwadud8513]

Fr,its so heartbreaking

[@emerald442]

actually i'm not directioner and i dont understand why he left. what is the real conflict?

[@khloedelacruz8229]

calicocat their management was very forceful the boy’s couldn’t be who they wanted to be Zayn and Louis had eating disorders nails knee had problems and he wasn’t allowed to get surgery they also whitewashed Zayn because his skin was darker than the other boys they womanized Harry Liam had a drinking problem and Zayn also felt like he wasn’t giving any messages in the music they were making and felt like it wasn’t him

[@lindseeaa]

He's shaking and I think he's holding back tears.

[@harrystyles5527]

I think he still loves the boys but the band just wasn’t for him at the time which breaks my heart 💔

[@MyBloodline_ends.withme]

Me too😭😭😭😭

[@angeladonnelly2033]

I love One Direction and it broke my heart so much when Zayn Malik leave the band and I been crying so much because it hurt.💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

[@ahhaha9588]

My heart broke

[@directionerforever4505]

Jessie James I think his heart is broke too

[@shelinewidjaja3082]

Alaa Maher well where's 1d now when he's gone? Nowhere. Because they're not prepare either. They just released 1 album and POOF! every member part ways

[@Мария-АнтоанетаТрайкова]

Sheline Widjaja 😭😭😭😭😭That's so sad...I miss them so much😢😂😂😡😯😭😭😭😭

[@haeraianas9249]

Alaa Maher Perrie is the one truly heartbroken before but now shes happy and deseves other men than zayn

[@brittanydatqueenofficial9335]

911 what's your emergency Me: oh sorry is that you have 911 likes

[@susmitabasu1549]

Their schedule was so messed up. Even we could see Harry's voice was always damaged and he was always sick during the shows.

[@caitlinbrennan9039]

It was ludicrous that they played like 100 shows every year, released an album, had probably 200 interviews, meet and greets and that was constant too much for young people. Such a capitalist corporate machine.

[@AqwDragulum]

Simon only looked at them as money making machines, from the beginning til the end. Makes sense why they never thanked Simon on their social media posts

[@ewlulu]

@@aaishanaz5627 lmao i love you

[@superrandomuser]

you know you're mature when you don't blame him for leaving but instead, realise the actual reason behind that

[@dhritishukla9480]

What is the actual reason b

[@baneenrizzvi]

@@dhritishukla9480 management. That was the reason for him leaving and the hiatus. The amount of pressure management put on them was too much for them. They were releasing albums and touring at the same time

[@isabellasimball]

yes, i used to think that he was a bad person for doing that but now i know that he is so brave and what he did is admirable

[@mallory9289]

i blame s*mon

[@Protons12]

Its not about him leaving or not, I personally dont blame him for leaving, because he is also a human and feels things, what I am not okay with is him saying " that wasn't music" or " me and harry were never really close" its not about leaving or having a solo career its about respecting where you come from. I am very happy and proud of how far he has come but, that does not mean some of the words he said are okay or should be justified.

[@mahikashakya]

THE WAY HE'S TRYING TO HOLD BACK HIS TEARS😭😭

[@PeterChanMan]

But where

[@apramkaurbhatia6514]

@@PeterChanMan the entire interview honestly. His voice is quivering and shaking, He's evidently trying to not cry.

[@Annastylez]

😭😭😭

[@drummerboy9580]

If you search the whole interview he says it's chilly out so he wasn't on the verge of tears he was cold

[@hritikhans1948]

yessss he's reallyy crying.... his voice is shaking... he just lied at his interview that it was too cold

[@ishikagupta6647]

Hritik Hans i think i was the only one who noticed that his voice was shaking he was broken inside and wanted to cry

[@Stoichem]

Or maybe he was nervous because it was his first interview in like a year, I mean people's voice shake when they fucking talk in front of a class, plus he has anxiety.

[@alfandiridho1635]

1:15

[@jenp2901]

Hritik Hans he burped 😂

[@ruqayaali4966]

Hritik Hans Yes his voice has changed because he wanted to cry but he is in direct interview so must control his feelings💔💔

[@itskaiii28]

When he cried I cried. And his accent ahhhh!!!!

[@rabiaadawiah18]

He didn't crying. It just because his anxiety. i have too, if i am nervous i would saying words in shaking way like that.

[@itskaiii28]

rabia adawiah yeah ik but still he cried and I hate when anyone cries it just makes me want to cry.

[@hellbxbyy2702]

No it's because it was really cold

[@beautiful9512]

but wtf he didn't cry…

[@sarahstyles9253]

Harry's Bae yeahhh me tooo

[@librababyxo]

it always showed, honestly. from the beginning, you could tell zayn was the odd-one-out. we never really saw him as himself. he was quiet, sort of the “mysterious” one. he definitely opened up a little more once the band became as worldwide as it did, but this interview really just confirmed it all. compare the music one direction makes, to what zayn makes now. they aren’t similar at all. plus, speaking of comparing, compare this interview to the ones while he was in one direction. he’s so much more open, so raw with what he’s saying. i know there were 4 other boys he needed to share the interviews with, but when he got his turns to speak, it was always very vague. he wasn’t getting a say so in one direction at all- the other boys were putting up with it, but he obviously couldn’t. now, i love one direction with my whole heart. that’s why i’m here. but leaving the band was one of the best decisions he’s ever made- he is making music for himself. i will forever be proud of the little boy from bradford, for making the decision that is best for him. we also have to keep in mind that leaving wasn’t easy for him either! he was only 17 when one direction formed on the x-factor. he grew up with those boys. it wrenches my heart that he had to go a separate way, but i’m so happy the boys respected it. but- will i fight for that one direction reunion with all of those 5 boys who own my heart? yes, yes i will.

[@dinethfernando9786]

Well said👍👌❤

[@librababyxo]

Naomi Fasil ofc baby how would i not know that 🥺

[@meganjohnson5717]

Totally agree

[@SaraAli-vy7gg]

I just want them to be friends again

[@AnaHernandez-or5md]

You couldn't address it better, wow👏

[@1d_angelx463]

He built a friendship without realising he would.

[@coverella9897]

Zayn your still in the band in my heart!!!!!!!!!

[@khusharzahid5164]

Yh me too love zayn to bits

[@isratejahan326]

me too

[@aditiafzalpurkar1803]

Terom we all love you!!

[@khusharzahid5164]

Yip

[@alanmathewalanmathew6683]

Terom did zayn malik became a single singer after leaving the band some of my friend said that

[@hnnsmsdn2167]

five years.... hes stay in the band.. and doing something that he dont want to do. he doing that because of us!! because of one direction!!! OH MY GOD I love him

[@daizzahb]

it makes me sad tho, it was all a lie..

[@albatross.77]

Hnn Smsdn no. It was Ziam

[@oliveidayani7697]

But why he didn't say that at the beginning so he didn't make us down because we're spend 5 years with him! You don't know how it hurts

[@nupur6815]

Hnn Smsdn Just look at the way he's talking. He's been through so much. This is devastating

[@standreamcatcher6819]

Hnn Smsdn because he wouldn't be famous if he left in like 2011

[@kalysta823]

In my opinion he never left because of the boys. I think the boys were never the reason. I think it's just what he said, he didn't like how and what kind of music they made so he just made the decision to go. We all know and could see that they were good friends at some point. I know that people will say it could have all been for show but if so then the other members wouldn't have cared he left would they? I don't know what his relationship is with the boys but I hope, differences and past problems aside, they can all be friends and colleagues in their respective jobs. Maybe they'll collaborate or something in the future. Or at least friends because honestly those five years together shouldn't have been just in vain, Zayn shouldn't just leave them out of his life entirely since they were there for so long with him.

[@arianaloves1d676]

he has a pure heart and he'll never do it bc of the boyz💖💖💖💖💖

[@dinadina_tnss4901]

He left bcuz of the management, they didn't treat them right, they r Controlling them, they don't allow them to go out, they don't allow them to play, it'd just like they r in jail

[@fatimahsheikh4925]

Dina Dina_tnss did the boys dislike him for doing this?

[@dinadina_tnss4901]

@@fatimahsheikh4925 no, they never disliked him.

[@arianaloves1d676]

@@fatimahsheikh4925 nooooo no no they still love himmmm😭💖💖💖💖😢

[@sunardiwahyunin6241]

What hurts me the most is the fact that he stayed for the boys... you could see when they were doing the promo for the FOUR album, Zayn already looked like he wasn't himself... very different from the early days when he would be loud and make jokes all the time. He never hated the boys, he hated being in the band. He loves the boys so much and he even said it himself. There management was just too hard for him. Being in the band has affected his mental health and caused him eating disorders. Of course he hated the stress of it. None of his ideas also matched in the " 1D songs criteria" so he had to put his ego aside for YEARS and stayed in the band for the boys. He could've left earlier If he wanted to, he could finally express his own style of music that always got rejected by management. But he didn't. And the thing that hurts most on top of all of that is the fact that he hid his pain so well, the guys didn't even realize he hated being in the band that much. I quote Harry " I guess we didn't realize he hated being in the band that much." He's been through so much yet he's still so strong and he does not deserve the hate. People keep saying he isn't grateful to be apart of 1D but he really is. Infact, he has a special wall in his house... dedicated to all his 1D memories.

[@ewlulu]

Couldn't have said it better myself. Thank you for writing this🙏

[@karman4238]

i miss them.

[@AmetafJohora]

beautiful words

[@AmetafJohora]

i had no idea about the wall

[@Astayclown]

🥲💔😔

[@hanna4563]

Im so sad that he leaved 1D, but Im happy that hes happy now :,( Miss You!

[@mrracketymeteor]

left*

[@surjeetkaur813]

Hanna Malmberg he is not happy, he just pretend to be.... The truth is he is facing anxiety. I don't know why he left but in his heart he never wanted to. U should realise this if u r a true directioner 😭😭😭😭

[@hanna4563]

Surjeet Kaur I meant like he is now happy when he makes hes own songs :)

[@user-jg4bd2eb7h]

Aimee Whelan smh he didnt stay for the fame, he stayed for the fans

[@boomds5602]

Aimee Whelan what's wrong with that? I agree he should have handled the departure better. He should have say the boys down and let them know and then played out the tour. Who knows, maybe his depression was getting really bad. I don't think anyone should begrudge him leaving but he should have gone about it better. I just wish the other boys would get over it now and stop shutting him out. They were still successful as a band and they didn't suffer too much

[@aamnaadil8693]

"I just left" my heart is shattering💔💔💔

[@phoenyxbakerblount]

Directioner xx. 😢😢

[@sallychesters]

Anyone here in December 2020 hoping they all comeback and reunite

[@anindyadewi8858]

I'm sure they will. They will kept their promises🥺

[@youresogoldenn]

THEY Did

[@suditii]

this... did not age that well 😭

[@mirabroussard8167]

August

[@nicole.24]

here 🥺

[@oldtowngaming8047]

I hope they still have friendship cuz they were best boyband in the planet

[@fragmented3443]

Not They Were They Still Are

[@RegardedBee185]

They still are friends

[@kaeilaraine36]

I think it's because of the music production team. Zayn already said that the boys were trying to put Zayn's style in music but never really had a chance to let it out. I just want to say....... SIMON COWELL. WHAT. HAVE. YOU. DONE. WHY CANT ZAYN JUST LET HIS R&B STYLE PASS THROUGH THE ALBUMS OF 1D? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@babybubblekoo3012]

The best comment I think the management is responsible of Z left

[@azaka3720]

@@babybubblekoo3012 Modest management is the responsible one for zayn leaving thats true

[@poeticallychaotic1512]

Yes! The boyz were indeed trying to let Zayn express himself n this is what happened... The fucking management!!!

[@azaka3720]

@ just call us directioners not "one" directioners

[@iwontlikeyourcomment5487]

ᴄʜᴏᴘᴘᴀ sᴛʏʟᴇ we care about our idols that’s all. And plus this was serious. They were always going everywhere and had hardly any time for themselves and it was so bad that Zayn got an eating disorder. Not great

[@larriestylinson1137]

"I think I kinda always wanted to go" Wow. That fucking hurt. But u still love you.....💖

[@steffia.4253]

Niall and The Potatoes that hurt so much 😭

[@okaychloe2811]

Howlter Styles I know 🙀

[@samyapuranik2527]

Howlter Styles I know💔

[@fa-ls9jw]

comon his voice was breaking and his eyes were crystalized.

[@angelina-dh3re]

he has grown so much since this interview. he has a daughter now, a farm, lives in a place where he’s happy. i’m really proud of him.

[@mjay8607]

When he’s said he didn’t want to be in the band, he didn’t mean the boys...he loved those boys with all his heart, but the music the rules and the restrictions that comes with being in a boy and never appealed to him. He loves spending time with the boys, and I personally believe the only reason he said he never talked to Harry etc was because he needed to get rid of his boy band image. Cut off ties and the only way he knew how to do that was to anger the directioners and break their hearts all at once. Also because boy bands have certain images to uphold and a certain audience to cater to, he realized that his music the type he loved and wanted to share would never be accepted. And he was just tired. He never wanted to hurt the boys, but and I’m not trying to sound high and mighty or something, but I understand him. This was something he needed to do because he was slipping further into not his depression. Yes he is depressed. A depressed person never admits that they are depressed. But his eating order and attitude in general proved it. He realized his anxiety depression and eating order would become worse, and even though it broke his heart he realized this is what he had to do. And eventually did. Do even though she me directioners still have a grudge with him, be happy he is still giving you some type of music. Because ,and I study psychology , him being in the band much longer would have led to eventual suicide.

[@meganjohnson5717]

Well said! He had to do this for himself which probably wasn’t easy because he had no idea how everyone would react or what his future would look like from then on. This ended up being one of the best decisions for him at least in my eyes. even though it seemed sad at the time, he was struggling and he needed to do something before it got even worse.

[@boomds5602]

Please, Harry has not said one positive thing about zayn since he left the band.

[@kennedyfawn]

Boom ds hasn’t said anything negative either, they just aren’t in eachothers lives rn

[@haleyhutchinson9353]

Boom ds Harry was one of the ones that was really hurt by him leaving. The reason he stay in the band so long is because of his love for those boys. It always bothered me how people blamed him but never thought about how he felt emotionally and physically about everything from being in a band and then leaving. Harry just doesn’t like to talk about not because he still hates Zayn but because none of them ever talked about it together as a band. Simon included. If they all can get together one day and talk about everything from what Zayn was feeling through those years to how the boys felt after he left. Then, we could possibly start seeing them hangout together again.

[@mariamasad2183]

@@boomds5602 bec he was hurt

[@Z_manii]

1:18 🥺😟😰 The way your voice cracked made me cry inside. And that hurts 🙍🏻‍♂️

[@mychemicaldirection_trapho105]

Zi Gi I think he had to burp BUT STILLL IF IT WAS A VOICE CRACK 😭😭😭😭

[@Z_manii]

@@mychemicaldirection_trapho105 She's here❤️

[@nibeditasaikia4798]

I cried a little everytime I visit here

[@t4hs3enxo.sxg4r6]

omds yes it hurt me so muchh

[@ayaalioua2378]

He litteraly burped

[@alaadrafts]

Zayn: “Who am I to say that” Me: **you’re ZAYN MALIK!. What are you talking about?**

[@Nkaytebe]

I can hear his voice tremble, the amount of hate he received for doing what was best for him and literally saving himself from a living hell, I'm so proud of who he is now, and I hope he's okay

[@kuromilover4204]

"I Never Really Wanted to be in the Band" ^sees thousands of Pics where he is smiling, having Fun with the Boys and laughing...^ Me: "Thanks Bro. Why." (Edit: I now know why he left the band, I was just a salty little bitch back then✌🏻😗)

[@nixie._.x4986]

It's called faking it, I just love how honest he is

[@nhihoang9810]

When he mentioned the band he meant the music and the concept thing, not the boys.

[@jullietewarner8747]

He's talking about type of music that one direction sang... he's saying that he was always an R&B type of guy and wasn't satisfied by the type of music he was creating..

[@xbigsoup]

he just means he didn't want to necessarily be part of a group, he wanted to do his own thing. that doesn't mean he didn't enjoy it, he just wasn't enjoying it in the same way he would enjoy doing his own thing.

[@loveaubreyxo2357]

u literally didn’t watch any of the interview if u came up with that result

[@alinaholm5707]

the pain in his voice 😭😭

[@willie1212]

when I first saw this interview, I was flabbergasted, but then I saw they were sitting on like chairs, and I had a throwback moment of the video diaries. with the boy and kevin, and 99/100 things the boys do are never coincidences, and then I was found dead. smh

[@Anna-ko8hh]

Same here! :(

[@sansastark9883]

Willie kate wait i didn't get it can u explain?

[@rabailmakdoom5359]

Willie kate 😭😭😓

[@ivyvilleza4523]

😭😭😭😭😭

[@lojainsallman261]

and the energy drink omg tooooo many flashbacks

[@mads5354]

“i never really wanted to be in the band” the way my heart dropped.

[@elsychavez4485]

Zayn has one of the best souls ever and it saddens me how much hate he gets. He is so kind and gentle. I love him so much and I hope he knows that he has a very loyal and loving fan base.

[@queency3303]

aww he's about to cry

[@hellbxbyy2702]

No its just freezing cold

[@bertbert6940]

Queency Loyao AAAWH #IHOPEYOUDIE

[@queency3303]

Bert Bert what's your problem? I think you misunderstood my comment I'm a directioner and I love zayn

[@ilikestarbuckstissue6183]

He loved those boys , but he doesn't like when he's in the band , he's prefered to became solo artist . Trust me , he's happy with those boys and he loved them so much .

[@guntajd5558]

So do you think they all talk?

[@ilikestarbuckstissue6183]

@@guntajd5558 i'm not sure about that . But yeah , we don't know about their person life . Btw , i heard a rumor that their manager told Zayn to leave group .

[@guntajd5558]

@@ilikestarbuckstissue6183 yeah I was just reading the sample of his book. Btw I see you under every video of boys😂❤

[@ilikestarbuckstissue6183]

@@guntajd5558 HAHAHAHAH well , i love to watch their video and commenting 😂💗

[@guntajd5558]

@@ilikestarbuckstissue6183 ya i find you under so many videos well do u know the 1B project?

[@Jo-yc3lq]

I dont blame him for leaving, I think he actually saved the band. He knew that the management was terrible and he was the first one to leave and when the boys realized that they can leave, they did

[@raquelbiliran7693]

U can’t just leave cuz there’s a contract unless someone has to pay for it, when everyone finishes the contract someone was paying for that until this year....so, to that someone....I’m proud of U also hoping this time U will fly high .....

[@ninahagen8193]

are u for real? soon after Zayn left, the band went on a nonstop hiaturs!

[@cindyabeyewardene7283]

Remember when 1d was given 3rd place in x factor and zayn said " this isnt the end of one direction" 🤧🤧

[@FatimaKhan.31]

Dude ..... you just made me cry harder 💔

[@G.bandzzzzz]

O boy o boy it surreeeeeeew wasnt

[@MdAsad-th1ci]

He was like the guiding angel for them. He made them come together and then left in silence.

[@duraynayab8976]

@@MdAsad-th1ci why did you have to say that I'm- 😭😭😭😭

[@muhammadrafa7189]

f

[@samteugh8294]

2015: Zayn left the band 2019: ...

[@tam6213]

I'm a Directioner 2020: im waiting for the reunion but since liam said they're not speaking to each other anymore it probably won't happen🥺

[@blablablah803]

@@tam6213 when did he said that? Do you have a link?♥️

[@buckyslover8337]

when he said that?

[@blablablah803]

@@buckyslover8337 yeah I don't know too😥

[@Huzaifa5682]

2020: Zayn is one of the most influencial people on the planet, a model, one of the 6/8 men on the entire planet to be on the cover of Vogue, that too thrice. Has the biggest hit and most successful solo career without a single promo. This little boy from Bradford is really smashing it :')

[@cristinetopia2528]

ZAYN DOING GREAT NOW ON HIS OWN BUT I STILL MISSED ONE DIRECTION NOW.

[@shibeshmridha200]

Everyone does......that's why we are the Directioners dear....

[@Jasmine-cd4tu]

All I want is Zayn to be happy

[@selinah5876]

,,I..I just left" Well THAT HURTS

[@steffia.4253]

Selina Hindenberg true😭😭😭

[@fidaninthesoop7765]

It does yeah....

[@hnnsmsdn2167]

He miss one direction... I know

[@hilalbayram7837]

Hnn Smsdn I don't think so

[@archivedrina]

I don't think so

[@diegoandrade8109]

Hnn Smsdn probably but not the way the system works

[@hnnsmsdn2167]

Sarina Mahmood he miss the boys

[@hnnsmsdn2167]

Hilal xo he miss the boys

[@siennamonnier296]

who is watching this after the 10 year anniversary👁👄👁

[@Jana-os3ls]

🙋‍♀️🌚

[@anweshchatterjee7595]

11 year anniversary today :,)

[@aladdingamer00001]

It was sad to see zayn leaving the band but when we should thank him bcoz he gave all time masterpiece song Pillowtalk and dusk till dawn❤

[@caeee]

This is 2020, and will 1D be making a comeback?

[@marleneg1694]

Yesssssss!!

[@leviackermann3796]

Nope , atleast not with zayn

[@gamerlion472]

No.

[@esoy3303]

say yes dudeeee

[@amelieoliver7392]

Mortal funny cause they said they’re gonna but they just don’t kno wen yet but it’s gonna be soon, but zayn probably won’t be part of it, that’s wat Liam said

[@nikalei723]

When it’s 1 am and ur still crying abt this for 4 years straight

[@keena3070]

me rn :(

[@jissasusan]

He truly opened up and his voice is so shaky cuz he's sad and he was holding it in.. I feel bad for him ..but really hope he will make it to the reunion.

[@zk2523]

1:20 you can HEAR pain in his voice. My guy stuttering to contain his tears really sent me crying-

[@ellah517]

i have anxiety too and i really do understand him, like i feel like he wanted to be there, with the boy’s and stuff but i mean, it would be overwhelming and he wasn’t into the type of music they were making & if it was me i’d be so stressed all the time, i think we should be proud of zayn for pushing through it for those 4 years, and we should also be proud of him for leaving and moving on to something that he was more comfortable and happier doing, knowing that he might let down people but following his heart. i think we underestimate the amount of courage he has sometimes, i am so proud of him.

[@piscest8742]

omg how painful to see him in pain 😢 Dont give up zayn, keep rising and shining lika a star.your well wishers are still here for you :)

[@mel-uv8ux]

i’m honestly so proud of him. he knew what he wanted from the start and i’m so glad he was able to put his own music out. i dont listen to him, but dealing with depression (which we all know he had like cmon) is hard and this was definitely the best decision he could’ve made. mental health should always come first.

[@annaa.1060]

the fact that they didn’t talk him out of it shows that they just wanted him happy

[@mnrcsrz]

for me, he's still a part of One Direction. 😭💯

[@lucyzatzick715]

It’s 2019 and I’m watching this and crying

[@koralleyva9813]

Me too.... me too💔

[@Lena-pv7ll]

Me too 💔

[@jbmarie8888]

it’s 2020 and i’m crying

[@onedirectionforever1643]

@@jbmarie8888 mee 2

[@elianaw2583]

this makes me so sad, he was in pain and no one really noticed. i’m glad he did what’s best for him

[@avavampireskull]

His voice trembling makes my heart break every time

[@merliahsummers8539]

he's so handsome and attractive that I had to download this video

[@rufeaonding3644]

merliah summers 😂you make me laugh

[@RandomPerson-hj8fq]

merliah summers you are too

[@Thiccems69]

merliah summers true tho

[@edenstrausbaugh5594]

he spilled his deepest secrets and thats all you have to say..?

[@liftfreakzz]

Lol

[@thedailyratshow560]

People shouldn’t hate on Zayn if he wasn’t happy, even though it was sad when he left 1D, it’s his happiness and what he feels first

[@positiveheart7678]

Hearing him saying this and hearing his voice made me cry as well. He is so emotional and sensitive, love you Zayn may God bless you.

[@emilystorgaard7929]

They don’t need the band they need each other

[@giveyourlifeachance2203]

omg when he cried I cried too

[@jaymecolbert-williams6555]

where did he cry???????

[@anahiaguirre3081]

give your life a chance same here

[@thomaslang491]

where did he crie

[@ManishaTulaskar]

Thomas Lang at 1:25 his voice cracking n he kinda shakes.. u can see his eyes watery.. u can't see it properly.. but if u really r a true directioner.. u shud know.. just by his voice..

[@ieiri7766]

+Manisha Tulaskar :')

[@jr_Reddit]

2010: honestly I kinda noticed he would barely have any parts in songs, and the main ones were Harry and Liam. 2011: same thing, but I noticed he started to develop a better relationship with the other members in 1D 2012: this was probably a good year for zayn since he started being the lead singer in songs like Kiss You, and live while we’re young. 2013: this was when he started to gain a lot of fame, but I noticed he wasn’t always happy, and also this is when the band started to literally blow up! 2014: this is when I noticed he didn’t really want to be in the band anymore, and he would barely say anything 2015: .........

[@user-pd8zu6yj6l]

he was obviously holding back tears. he tried to cover it up by saying it was cold, but if it was that cold, why wouldn't the interviewer's voice also shake? the interviewer was perfectly fine.

[@saulgoodman8788]

time has passed and I already understand why he left and I could say that they're all better doing things on their own rather than in a group. I don't expect them to be back and do a song together because not everyone liked what they were doing as artists. Zayn in my opinion is the strongest member for being the first one to leave and step out of the band and I'm really proud of what he did. We all should learn from what he's done honestly. I just hope that there aren't any bad blood any more between the boys.

[@xo3672]

"I realized the direction we were going in.. mind the pun." Trying not to cry and making a joke. Every time I watch this video my heart breaks but I'm so glad he's happier.

[@10twilite]

i don’t think this is just sadness, this is definitely anxiety. i can relate. anxiety made being in the band miserable and then when he left he’s probably anxious that he made a mistake. this what a defining moment. i’m so proud of his progress.

[@alexandranelson611]

i agree. in the whole interview he lacked sm confidence in his new stage of music. but his outcoming single has 1 billion views now 🥲

[@lmaoookayy9109]

You can tell he suffered with anxiety by the way he’d perform

[@Lara-ng5gg]

he needed to stay in the band cause of the contract. guys so stop being selfish he did what he thought it was the best idea for him and he is making his own music now, which is amazing btw

[@sandeshsingh5243]

That's not true if he wanted to leave band he should had leave five yrs ago after gaining stardom from the band he quits saying he didn't even like their song you are selfish for betraying them and by the way he is stupid and self center

[@joysayad3143]

Eh personally I think Niall Horan has the BEST music out of ALL of them, he is better than Zayn too. I only have Niall's new debut cd I pre ordered I don't have any of the other lad's cd's especially NOT Zayn's. It is nice seeing Zayn being honest however, if he didn't like the music or 1D, he shouldn't have stayed so long in the band, should've left after the first year. Niall is still my fav hands down! Then Liam Payne.

[@sauravsharma8038]

voldemort agree

[@KhyyamK]

Go listen his new album "ICARUS FALLS" and then u will thank god that he left 1D at the right time.

[@farhanaaz6200]

@@KhyyamK yeah his two albums are masterpiece

[@ameliationang9605]

I quite frankly don't care if they get together as a band again, i just want them to be close again.

[@malouvends7443]

He Will Always be a part of the Family even if he isnt In the band he Will still be In our directioner hearts

[@vedharamakrishnan8403]

I support you Zayn!!!!!Always n Always!!!❤

[@mmkgamay5283]

I've watched this for over 20 times but I still can't stop crying every time I heard Zayn's shakey voice.

[@onesubtraction2360]

You can hear him shaking and his voice cracking. He was swallowing tears the whole time. I want to hug this man sooo badly. He needed a hug💛💛

[@Sbuwag-e5s]

When he said the band said that they didn’t want Zayn to leave that made my eyes tears 😭