Sending warmth and love to you, Son. You are a beautiful young man. Thank you, for Sharing your pain with those of us in similar circumstances. It is therapeutic to listen to your words of wisdom and serves as a solace and hope for a better life.

My favorite book is called Zhuangzi - the work of a Chinese philosopher. To me, that book has the peak of wisdom. You're clearly discovering a lot of things that resonates with a certain philosophy. I myself have found in that philosophy some good guidance for similar feelings when I was younger. I hoped to make some of that guidance available and accessible to Westerners in a series of books called Zen Buddhism for Anybody. You can find it for free online, as PDF, EPUB and MOBI if you have interest in it. I do believe you would enjoy some of those ancients texts about Zen and Daoism that I've translated and arranged.

"Pursuing knowledge, More activity everyday. Pursuing the Way, Less activity everyday. Less and less, Until it arrives at doing nothing. Nothing is done, And yet nothing is left undone." from the Dao De Jing

Honestly Im tired of talking to myself. 8.5 billion ppl on this planet and I gotta talk to myself 😞 thats shitty

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Thank you for your service. Purpose, Peace and blessings! It takes a lot of love and courage to open, honest and vulnerable. Keep going...

Hello ..been binge watching because of your transparency...your voicing for many who are feeling the very same way but haven't had the courage to tell anyone...until.they crash and burnout...Bravo...THIS is great REAL.LIFE sharing

The part where you were talking about her broke me. I was raised wihtout my father and was doing my best to be the best father possible for my son, and now he's across the globe in another continent. This made me want to work more and more and just grind myself to a paste just to get him back to me and you made me realize, it's about direction, and no loosing myself in the process, not about grinding and hustling, but about strategy. Stay Strong, and thank you.

I think about this every time I have to pay bills. EACH MONTH!

And yet…. Family constantly drilling the idea of family comes first, or blood thicker than water into your head

The “lock in” mentally pushed me to overwhelm myself with responsibilities that just ended up breaking me

Marine Corps? I spent many years in the United States Marine Corps. 2 tours to Iraq, successful Drill Instructor tour on Parris Island 2009 - 2012. The transition is not easy for many of us yet another learning experience that forces us to ask many questions and to deeply self evaluate.

My man good for you. I'm glad you made a massive change. Be blessed

Facts, thank you

Hey bro, I am with you. I am 22 years old. On wheelchair. And I have a stutter. Now I have luge chapter of loneliness. No beacause I have no people around me. Just beacuse I dont feel fullfilled inside. But guess what. I will fight. I will fight for my dreams. For my heart. For my soul. For people that love me instead. Keep fighting!! 🤝⚔️ You are not alone.

Beautiful!

Keep doing you! I'm subbing now..😊

Thank you for sharing brother. Much love and appreciation for your truth. ❤

One day at a time.

I have even been homeless. My parents were alcoholics too.

I did the same thing after I learned that people out for their self and have motives. When your mind is clear you have no thoughts.

Beautiful video. Besides, when We Know Who We Are in Essence as we look inwards (Going within), we will exude Love & Peace inside-out; our natural state of being. Much love.

Man it seems like you are a smart, decent guy to say the least, and life is torturing you just like me. This Hell realm will never break us

whats inspiring about you. is your honesty. I understand where you came from. I came from the same kind of world. im very proud of you. VERY. thanks for speaking truth to power!

ur not alone here in kenya..Africa . i click subcribe

This was so profound and exactly how I feel. I worry about getting by if I just do nothing though. The system is so f***ed up. Appreciate your honesty and sharing your thoughts. Take care.

we have beautiful plate in the country side , Catskills, NY , why don't you come live here bring your family is much cheaper

It is so clear to me what is the next stage of your life, and it's beautiful.

Do you believe in Jesus? I’m praying for you my friend.

Listen brother (6:32). I want to hug you. And secondo i want to share with you a lot of things i've learned, if you want let me know! i'm saying this because i know VERY VERY well what you are talking about.

Throughout my life, I endured bullying from various people-within my family, at school, and at work-though I wasn’t fully aware of it at the time. Now, at 32, after going through therapy for stress-related issues, I’ve come to the painful realization that I allowed others to mistreat me for far too long. This discovery left me in deep shock and trauma. I also understood that part of this was due to my parents’ negligence, which allowed others to take advantage of me. I’ve accepted that I didn’t have control over my upbringing, and that acceptance helps me move forward. Given the damage caused, I know I can only do so much to heal, but I’ve taken important steps by distancing myself from those who have bullied me over the years.

People be hustling straight to an early death... imagine making your whole personality around getting money which is simply just a piece of paper, what a god awful life to live

It feels like slavery. I lost pregnancy and two month later got redundant. This broke my trust to the fake security that employer provides. It is fake and there is no point to push yourself to edge and I find that you can be kicked out because you are not needed anymore. Still, I have tried again for best company BCorp to work full time, but I could not. I felt like stress going through my body hurting every cell. My body said no to this. I managed to find a much more balanced way of life - doing work I like from home for couple of days and studying. I felt that studies helped me to recover from stress and for brain function better. Each of us are very unique people with set of skills and experience that help this world to be a better place, And we don’t really Rolex watch to do that 😊

California is the worst place to live in my opinion, is beautiful but crazy expensive. come to NY. I move to CA years ago but thankfully I came back to NY. California is hard to survive. Come to NY and contact me

I am here my friend, I don't know were you live but I am here. I feel lonely too in NY. I love to be your friend,

Hey I had to figure it out on my own also. You have to love yourself first before you can truly love another. Otherwise you are just chasing after someone to fill that void and most times you get hurt in the process. Love yourself. Develop self respect and boundaries and then you will be able to maneuver through life whole and you will command respect along the way.

Thank you ! I feel this man

but you're not grinding your life away to make someone money? how unmanly.

You're right, brother. I kind of have the same past-with a mentally unstable father who never provided for us. My brothers each had their struggles: one was addicted to drugs, and the other drank heavily. Everyone seemed careless about the family. Luckily, I was the older brother who tried to help my family while keeping myself clean and maintaining a number one image. That helped my family stay on track. Our mother was abusive, especially toward me, bullying me since I was a kid. I thought that was normal. But my mind was strong, and i turn that to good energy to push myself forward, and even after getting high degree and diplomat and work hard i still getting bad behavior from my mother, so i decided to leave the country and seek a normal and safe life without the panic and fear and stress that made me loss my hair .

When you realise the miracle of your awareness everything changes.

Most people do nothing except work and waste time. Don't do nothing . . . do something positive.

Thank you for being here. We all have some sort of trauma and we are favored because God has given us a gift to see, realized and changed for the better. Awaken and follow the truth to live a more peaceful and meaningful life.

Thank you for being so real you are a true inspiration. I am going to be my big sister and best friend thank you.

Thanks for sharing you experience bro , keep living life with happiness you are not alone remember always. ❤

You didn’t let them take your mind and that makes you so powerful. Like in Victor Frankels book “man’s search for meaning”. They didn’t take his mind. That’s true freedom and power. You are amazing, worthy of love, beautiful, smart and you touched me so deeply with your story ❤

look at the river, does it want anything ? it seems the river is just flowing. no wants. but i might need to talk to the river to double check that 😊

Im sorry you had to go through so much as a child. And you put trauma how it is. Trauma doesn't happen to us but what happens inside of us from the traumatic event. Its a wound. I also have trauma that occurred when i was a child and it was in front of me but invincible for so many years. And thats how it is for many others. Anyone reading this, search Gabor Mate. He really is helping me understand trauma and for me to understand my own trauma. He is amazing and shows compassion. Thank you for this video❤.❤ ❤❤

Don’t forget that your wife and daughter are worth more then all the money in the world

My first time here on your channel. Thank you for sharing your journey. You are strong, resilient, brave,and vulnerable. I am so happy you are taking time to be with yourself, to peel back all those layers of your past trauma and learn how beautiful a soul you are. Take good care of yourself, be good to that child within you that needs your love, your hugs and the safety you can and do provide. Look forward to hearing from you again.