I'm pretty closed person, and finding some new friends takes me really lot of time. When I moved to another city in 2020 I lost everyone I used to know. That happened so quickly that we didn't even say farewell to each other. After I felt really depressed for about 5 years. Then I got used to the lonely life, but the depression still bothered me. This year I made my brain believe that in the nearest future I will find some good friends, and this manipulation somehow worked. These New Year holidays brang me a lot of free time, which I spent to fix the broken parts of my personality. This also worked. Then I made one main goal that I had to achieve: to get better aim accuracy and to recruit myself in some army division in Roblox to stop thinking about how bad I am. This stuff somehow works for me as well.

Life is boring without a little of trouble.

huh, it does suck doesnt it

i cant agree more, but im facing this at a young age. Its like i cant think straight, its always me thinking about what could happen, and when i do something i do it without thinking if its right or its wrong, every day throughout my summer break i tried to focus on relaxing, always being in bed but it was no help. Even with my classmates spreading lies about me, or telling other people things i dont want other people to know, i dont want to feel the pain that i could feel. I always try to not think about it, and overtime i think the bullying situation is good, but when it starts again, i feel like its worse. The pain also from derealization.. i just dont know what to do. Yeah i know, i need to focus on myself but, i dont know in which way. or possibly, how.

Why is it a kid game😂😂😂

I’m not giving any money because I can’t but I subbed and good luck with the fundraiser

Love you man You're taking a part of helping other its..you're a hero. you're gone in hell and came out a better person and helping others more then you....think you... Thanks for making this thanks for making this channel. Thank you doing this... Thank you Layla :3

So the past in these times year i didn't realize that i don't play my favorite game less smaller apatite and communicate less with my friends sometimes they call me and now i watch this video and i have most of them

Stay strong everyone, and if you can't, try.

Don't wanna sound disrespectful to those who are struggling, I sometimes get those kind of thoughts too, but, how come KZbin didn't add a "viewer discretion" warning or a phone number?

2:53 the door changed color.

did we all live the same life during covid

Thanks for this

I’m bullied and have low self worth, the loneliness is getting to me… I talk to myself too much…

this is super very good totoral ❤

guys is he ok ?

Thanks

I have been bullied in real life in school and online and I still find fun, and this video helps me find and help others.

sorry but i think your vid is out dated reason for: shortcuts are now differ tools gui are now differ pls may i ask you to make the same video for 2025 thank you i will sub and like this video! EDIT: I made sure to like and subscribe and turn on the notification all on!

The timing when this first got on my fyp was... weird. I'm not gonna say why but it doesn't have to do with my emotions it was someone else's. When I first got this on my fyp I didn't watch it but the timing was just weird to me.

3:04 is me sadly :(

love yah :)

this kinda sounds like my life ngl

Dont do suicide guys, I heard that stuff kills you. (Seriously tho don’t do it)

guys.. my k/d from discord dms is 3/0 is that bad

thank you. its good to know that im not alone. <3

Yo! I just wanted to say it's important you have someone to talk to if not a therapist. If you're going through something, try to use the comment section to add someone. stay safe, peace.

Thank you. This video really emphasised me not being alone because i almost went through the exact same thing (minus the relationship due to religious reasons), I have quit every social media (except yt which no one knows about) and cut contact with all online friends since and felt suicidal numerous times and always felt ashamed to be that disgusting and self deprecating at my age (im a pre-teen and the events are pretty recent, like 0-2 years ago.) I even started self harm and it numbed me, but I was already numbed so I drove myself insane with emptiness. I never really seeked help, I never properly vented to anyone irl and that sucks to keep it all in, let suicidality take over me. But I’ve learned to suck it up and I’m no longer a coward (you are strong either way, this is just a personal expression- I find suicide to be cowardly) , I’m even a month sober from self harm, so yes it does better. Give yourself a pat on the back , you deserve it<3

''theres always a reason why u live, or alive''

W vid

I Must say something. Me a 14 year old girl who has experienced a little to much in her life.. I have been SA’d and my parents @bus3 her. My life doesn’t seem as great as as it looks. At 10 she saw p🌽rn (really extreme), diagnosed with depression at the same age & and still has it. I gets 1-3 hours of sleep and study’s to much. (Even tho she still gets a D-). She cries. A lot. She does SH even tho she promised never ever to do it again. What is the point of life? Just to be born? And then die? I really don’t understand. Please what is the point?.

why did i get this in my recommended

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Thank you for helping people that is actually going thru depression.

horrible tutorial, thanks

When I learned to practice good self-talk, everything changed for me. Things became feasible, or at least that I was willing to try. If I messed up, I would be able to shrug it off and learn from it. When I treated myself poorly and terribly, with internal monologues only weighing down on me and criticizing me, I felt crushed and incapable. When I was younger, I got sent to a sleepaway camp and a counselor taught me something I will keep for the rest of my life, something I have passed down to others in need of help. There are three "voices" in your head, each representing an aspect of your person. There's the Kid, who wants to enjoy himself, have fun, play games, all that. There's the Adult, who keeps the Kid in-check, or at least tries. The Adult understands that he has responsibilities to fulfill before he can have fun, and has to make responsible decisions in situations rather than being careless like the Kid might. The last voice is the Critic. He's "Anti-You": A gaslighter, your self-hatred and regret. He feeds on negative energy, and will do anything to get it from you. Break you down, crush you beneath yourself, make you hurt and want to give up. The final lesson in all this? *Don't listen to the critic.* I never saw the man again, but I know he's out there somewhere. Maybe our paths will cross again, maybe not, but I will remember him, and what he taught me. Don't listen to the critic; silence him, don't listen to him. Then, you can live and spread your (metaphorical) wings, and take flight on your journey be the best person you can be. And, once you're in the sky, you can look down and tell yourself "I did it! I really did it! I made it!" and you'll be free of the struggle that tried to keep you down, and strip you of your wings, but they can't do that when you've already taken flight.

damn

i have attempted only once, it failed (obviously, as i wouldn’t be able to write this from heaven). the only reason i began healing is bc of of my best friend, who actually took his own life 2 weeks after my attempt. i suppose the fact he was a boy was a bit of a shock, where i come from it is not common for men to show much emotion at all. i’ve never even seen my dad tear up. although not the point. the best friend wrote me a note which says “i love you but i wish you would have come to me for help instead of trying to end it all, i couldn’t help but feel angry and guilty.” i’ll admit, when i read this my first thought was ‘why would he even say this? this is so awful to say to someone already in pain from your death’. i was angry, hurt, confused and overall ready to follow in his footsteps i suppose. i felt the same way i assume he did when i attempted. now i realise all he wanted by writing that was to show me just how big of an impact it had on not only himself but the people around me. for context this happened 3 years ago, time heals (most) wounds, yes, but do not let time do all the work, pls seek help from either a professional or a trusted adult ❤

doesn’t even say export to roblox

200 reasons why you should live 1. your family 2. your friends 3. the feeling you get when you’ve finished something 4. the feeling you get when you get a compliment 5. the feeling you get when you buy new clothes 6. the feeling you get when you try on new clothes 7. the feeling you get when your room is tidy 8. the feeling you get when you're laughing hesterically. 9. the feeling you get when you make a new friend 10. the feeling you get when you make someone smile 11. you’d have to watch your family and friends grieve. 12. you’ve never been to that place you always wanted to visit. 13. you’ve never been to disney world. 14. you’ve never been skinny dipping. 15. you’ve never swam in a lake. 16. you’ve never met your idol. 17. you haven’t gotten married. 18. you’ve never decorated your own house. 19. you’ve never saved someone’s life. 20. you haven’t learnt to drive. 21. there is music you haven’t listen too. 22. you have so many more people to meet. 23. everyone who thought you’d do well in life, would have been wrong. 24. the people who said you’d end up no where, would have been right. 25. all the fake people would pretend to like u and post u on their stories. 26. you would have been the best mom or dad. 27. you haven’t lived the ‘my funeral will be packed’ type of life. 28. your friends would suffer. 29. your mum would never be able to walk into your room. 30. you haven’t apologised to people you have hurt. 31. someone loves you. 32. you are not alone. 33. i’m here for you. 34. the clothes you’re buried in might be gross. 35. you haven’t truly loved yourself yet. 36. suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. 37. you haven’t watched your kids open their christmas presents. 38. you haven’t watched your kids grow older. 39. the pain you feel right now, isn’t forever. 40. there are so many foods you haven’t tried. 41. you’ll never get the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day. 42. finding your person. 43. really soft pillows. 44. eating pizza with your kids and partner. 45. you’ve never danced in the rain. 46. you’ve never kissed someone in the rain. 47. there are so many hobbies you haven’t tried. 48. you’ll never have a sleepover with your best friend again. 49. your friends would blame themselves. 50. your mom's smile. 51. your best friend's laugh. 52. your sister would lose her best friend. 53. your cousins that look up to you. 54. hot chocolate on cold days. 55. ice water on hot days. 56. getting a tan. 57. hearing ‘i love you’. 58. not being able to sleep the night before and exciting day. 59. your birthday. 60. you’ve never been to a nightclub. 61. long hot showers. 62. long steamy baths. 63. freshly shaved legs. 64. perfectly smooth hair. 65. watching people trip over small objects. 66. you could have a huge impact on someone’s life. 67. you would regret dying. 68. you can’t change your mind once you're gone. 69. you wake up everyday for a reason. 70. stars. 71. you will always be enough. 72. movies that make you feel warm when they’re over. 73. reading powerful quotes. 74. genuine smiles. 75. the crunch of autumn leaves. 76. christmas. 77. christmas eve. 78. decorating the tree. 79. long meaningful hugs. 80. sunsets. 81. ice cream. 82. you never got that puppy. 83. you are so brave, it would be a waste to let the fire go. 84. rainbows. 85. travelling to new places. 86. funny stories. 87. funny jokes. 88. inside jokes. 89. coffee. 90. your talents would go to waste. 91. the feeling you get when you’re truly happy. 92. all nighters with friends. 93. cuddling. 94. reconnecting with old friends and family. 95. smiling. 96. capturing perfect moments on camera. 97. swimming on a hot day. 98. feeling cozy in blankets. 99. helping other people with the same thing you got help with. 100! becoming successful. 101. cute babies. 102. cute old people. 103. love stories that make you jealous. 104. telling crazy stories. 105. watching lightning. 106. watching rain. 107. star gazing. 108. recovery. 109. melted chocolate. 110. freshly baked cookies. 111. late night adventures. 112. overcoming fears. 113. sunday mornings. 114. friday mornings. 115. you’ll be dead, forever. 116. you will make a difference to people. 117. picnics with friends. 118. waking up late. 119. waking up late and ending up being on time. 120. to prove them wrong. 121. to prove them you can. 122. to prove you're strong. 123. to love and be loved. 124. the ocean. 125. pets. 126. very loud music. 127. days out. 128. finishing a book. 129. conversations that just flow. 130. learning new things. 131. you are important. 132. you are wanted. 133. mistakes. 134. snow. 135. sun. 136. flowers. 137. flowers that look gorgeous but smell gross. 138. new bed sheets. 139. new home decor. 140. roller coasters. 141. theme parks. 142. smiling at strangers. 143. random acts of kindness. 144. the sound of water. 145. visiting a place from your childhood. 146. to look back on all the things you got yourself through on your own. 147. to feel proud. 148. reassurance. 149. cute nicknames. 150. long stares that make you feel loved. 151. meaningful gifts. 152. blowing out candles. 153. meeting online friends in real life. 154. success. 155. to work the job you always wanted. 156. the live the life you dreamt of. 157. babies smiling. 158. sleep. 159. slingshots. 160. breaking rules. 161. dreams. 162. the last day of school/work. 163. taking pictures. 164. brownies. 165. bubbles. 166. water slides. 167. holidays. 168. to fall asleep on someone. 169. to feel protected. 170. to grow taller. 171. to grow stronger. 172. to grow old. 173. to make memories you’ll cherish. 174. to laugh at old pictures. 175. to be loved by a pet. 176. the first signs of summer. 177. the first signs of autumn. 178. the first signs of winter. 179. the first signs of spring. 180. to binge watch a series. 181. to live independently. 182. to get somewhere in life all by yourself. 183. to not have broken any promises. 184. to fulfill your promises. 185. to breathe. 186. so you can tell your children stories of when you was there age. 187. so say you’re alive. 188. to know you’re stronger than you think. 189. falling in love. 190. you’ve never snuck out. 191. you’ve never not smashed your phone. 192. you’ve never stayed out all night. 193. you are a kind soul. 194. you have a warm heart. 195. you care for others. 196. the smell of pancakes. 197. when you walk over frosty grass. 198. you haven't truly apologized to all the people you've hurt 199. the rest of your life 200! to say you made it. get proper help if you're struggling. you're not alone 💙

5:16 - 5:24 ive had a very similiar experience (for context im a junior in high school, im american, i'm also on a mood stabilizer as well as overall ADHD medication) People usually say your junior year of high school will be your hardest, however I struggled most with my sophomore year. Year is mid-late 2023, early 2024, i had very easily graduated from my freshman year in high school, and things were going well, I was put on a new medication for the (rather common) mental disability I have (and have had since birth, it's hereditary), that of course, being ADHD and/or Autism (Inattentive ADHD). I also had (and still have) a pretty bad grasp on my anger management problems (this was a learned behavior), You'd think I was a pretty rowdy kid but no, I just kept to myself and did my own thing. My sophomore year was when my school district was cracking down on phone usage, saying it was a problem. Total bullshit, I know. During my freshman year (and before freshman year), I had gained a habit of listening to music while the teacher wasn't talking so I can focus on my work (thank the lord that my teachers don't care that I do this for as long as they can't see my phone). It worked wonders freshman year, so I thought it'd work sophomore year. It did, however I had larger issues, which is where the antagonist of my little story comes into play. You see I mentioned I was on medicine for my mental issues, I forgot to mention it wasn't JUST for the 'tism/adhd. It was also for my mood instability. The meds I was on for the mood stability caused some weird stuff to happen, but my mom brushed it under the rug. Year goes... okay, however my geometry class is giving me issues. Mainly how much stress it was putting on me mentally and psychologically. My geometry teacher would do this thing where he'd lecture for the ENTIRE class time, then give us an assignment to do afterschool, which I despised. He didn't let us do it in-class too, so I just... didn't do the work period. Not to mention I just didn't understand it at all, like I'm good with generalized math such as Algebra, but when the hell will I ever need to know the square root of a fucking triangle???? Anyways winter break 2023 rolls around, and I'm at my father's house (my parents got divorced a little while back, something I saw coming from miles away). We went to a trampoline park, and I ended up with a bunch of toddlers, maternal instincts kick in, and I let them overdramatically kick my ass in dodgeball, if you saw me you'd probably think I'd deserve an Oscar for how overdramatic I'd fall over dead. Anyways when they hit me, I did my thing and fell, but my legs ended up converging in at the knee, my left knee suddenly and inexplicably starts hurting horribly, a week or 2 later, I get back from dad's and get an MRI done to see what had happened. Turns out I tore my meniscus and shot a pothole in my kneecap, I had to have surgery done on it, since the piece of kneecap that was seeded in the pothole had completely gone to the OTHER SIDE of my knee (as in ~180 degrees of where it SHOULD'VE BEEN). I cannot emphasize how much that hurt. I was already struggling mentally and emotionally, not to mention I was also acting as a makeshift therapist for a friend of mine, letting them vent to me about their problems (which I won't be saying here, it's their problems, not mine), which also took a toll on me, since I let other people dump their trauma onto me all the time, I know how it feels to dump your trauma onto someone you can trust, it's amazing. Any who one event leads to the next, and I'm standing Infront of a bunch of knives. I've been going through so much that... I felt like I had to end it all there. I wanted to escape from all of it, leave it all behind. I wanted to take that weight-that burden-off my shoulders and just be free from this hell that I've made. But I didn't go through, thanks to my family, getting the knives away from me before I had grabbed one and getting me into my room. Fast-forward and I end up graduating from the hell that was sophomore year with solid grades, however if I'm to graduate from my junior year, I'm gonna need to re-take geometry I have since had a massive medication change, I'm seeing a therapist, a psychologist, and a psychiatrist, I love my family to death and would willingly prove it to them at any point in time. I didn't talk about any of these issues to anyone except for my mother and my therapist, but writing this comment out feels like a massive weight was lifted from my shoulders. Love all of you random internet people, I don't know any of you, but I'd gladly take a bullet for anyone.

yep.

It does

i’m trying to be serious here, but as soon as this part started, i heard police sirens, lol. 2:24

In all ways normally i just dont comment but honestly ive gone through so many things and i dont even know anymore yk? i used to think oh its fine oh it will get better but what if it doesnt or what if something worse happens, even simply something as messing up slightly ruined everything for me some how i never had those thoughts and im glad i didnt i have still made major improvements and im shocked that some of that stuff even happened, i was dumb, but even then it seems like theres always that lingering fear of oh what will happen next? but all that will be shown in time. Thank you for this video just hearing about ur story has helped quite a bit, it seems that honestly some of these even have let me reflect, again thank you sorry for the long comment

"You're a 1/1 wait there is no meme. You quite literally are a 1/1. Do you realize how crazy is that you're even ALIVE today? The probability of being born is 1 in 10 to the power of 2,685,000. so basically ZERO, do YOU realize how crazy that is? We are given the most insane opportunity to even be ALIVE, let alone chase our dreams. So go out there and do what you want to do. Be you're self." - Okcron.

Autism is basically terminal social anxiety. (Mostly)

as someone who has dealt with multiple attempts and psych admissions, i still haven't fully recovered. i appreciate everything you said in this video, and it makes me feel like i'm not alone. You're not alone, and we're all here for you, don't give up. I experienced an attempt after an online friend threatened to attempt, and it felt like i had been reset to where i was months before (I had been in and out of psych wards from march-->may) i felt like crying every day, and it sucked. but things do get better, and i don't regret making a path towards recovery

Im a sensitive person and my classmates laughs me being one. The just call me a ''cry baby''. it all happened because one of my best friend leaved me and I had no friends. But the 6 important people just randomly spawned inside my life and helped me get throught hard time.They helped me remember who I trully am and I feel like I owe them my whole life :). I am so thankfull that I am here right now and did not ended up being with them.