Damn, girl. You nail it

“You’re told to tone down the quirks.” This hit me so hard, I’ve moused myself into a corner so that people wouldn’t be offended by me being too weird, too “good” at doing certain things, too out there… I’m crying over this now. Thank you for the wake up call!!!

I’m only four minutes in but this is amazing. Thank you! Also, your shots of London make me miss it so much. I visited/briefly lived there four times in 2017 & 2018 and can’t quite believe it’s been six years since I’ve been back 😢

"It happens in the subtle moments" 💯

I just want someone to be curious enough to learn how my life works

Ok, I just found your channel yesterday - and I am obsessed - it’s like looking in the mirror - I subscribed to your channel with much delight and I have been sharing it with everyone too ✨✨♥️♥️

I’ve never met anyone that’s in a relationship that I envy. Modern relationships are completely overrated and romanticized by fiction. When society was a lot simpler 50-100 years ago it kind of made sense, but nowadays it just doesn’t.

I just got accepted into Architecture for university. But the closer the start of term gets the more I am dreading it. I haven't even started but I have no idea if it's the right descion. I don't know if I should change my degree or just keep going

I absolutely love your writing!

Been doing my life 45 years of my life. Never had any REAL Friends and when I did i was the one that reached out more...or I lost those friends to them passing early. One after 9th grade. I was bullied for being the quiet one and weird one..still am. Verbally abused by a stepfather. Mentally abused by the wrong wife...raising my autistic son on my own. I have my mother but while I love her , I never felt really there and she won't be around forever. No one really cares unless there is something in it for them

Considering the exponential double digit growth year on year of single person households at some point governments around the world, especially the first world western countries will need to acknowledge and support this trend as birth rates continue to fall and those living alone continues to increase. We might feel superfluous to some entrenched societal norm now, but numbers don’t lie.

Seriously, if this is where you’re at (and I have no context for your life outside of this one video) you need to start actively looking for a partner. If this move (I’m presuming you’ve moved to the UK) this voice maybe louder because you’ve made a life changing move. Perhaps find your groove and see if you still feel like there’s a gap in your life, but if this feeling persists then only you can make the change and open the door to “love”. At almost 20 years alone, I literally couldn’t think of anything worse, but that’s just me. You need to do you.

This feels like either the beginning or end of a movie where the main character is going to write a book

Living with somebody is not necessarily better than living alone, it's different. There are pros and cons to it. Many people who live alone is dreaming about having an idealized relationship. And many people tied in a mess of real relationship dream of living alone. Grass is always greener on the other side.

yep, i feel you, brother. maybe if someone appeared in my life earlier i'd grow as a person in and around them, intertwined, but i've been on my own long enough that i, so to say, filled the whole bottle with myself only. and even though i'm a lazy mut with a lot of free time, this time is not really free. can't imagine where'd i put another person, both in terms of time, and, well... in terms of needing to tolerate their way of life, which would be inherently different, in some ways, from my own. i like the idea of a relationship, i'm open to the possibility of it starting, even looking for it somewhat actively, but i feel that i wouldn't be able to jump into living together, ever. visiting each other from time to time, going on dates - sure. but occupy the same space, always? compromising on meticulously crafted comfort? i can't stand even the thought of it. and so (with a few other important but irrelevant factors at play), i fully prepared myself to spend the rest of my time on my own. open to unlikely surprises, but not waiting for them to happen. still wishing, though, but maybe that'll eventually pass too.

prayers for the future

thank you! this was gorgeous

What is that device you're typing into at the start of the short?

I am a 43yr. old female from MN. My life has been nothing but trauma since the day I was born. books saved me in elementary school and more so in high school. I fought the you will never be anything more than poor white trash from my family till I hit 35, and the blinders came off. Since then I have been working on writing my own fantasy novel. I spend a lot of time on KZbin looking at writing videos, this is how I saw yours. You have some serious talent. Everything about what you made here is pure storytelling genus. don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Thank you Ash for sharing your amazing gift with the world!

I am SO Happy that I stumbled across your channel! ❤❤❤

This video is so cozy I immediately decided to subscribe.

HOLY COW! I wasn't even actively looking for a video like this, it was a suggested video & By the title, I thought it was a song, but BOY, am I GLAD that I clicked on this video & listened & do I EVER Relate to everything you said & so thus this video deeply resonates with me. Everything you said applies to me & How I feel about love, & fitting in so to speak whether it be platonically speaking or romantically speaking. And this is coming from an almost 39 year old man that has done life entirely all by myself since I left the 'parents' house when I turned 19. Again Thank you!

“Two people who are already whole without shrinking themselves to fit.” This has been my mentality this year. I’m so glad I’m not flinging myself into love seeking completion. I’m learning to be content with waiting for another complete soul who will live alongside me, share with me as I share with them, and grow together.

"You want to change jobs, move to a little coastal town, or spend a year writing a novel? Do it" I don't know how to feel about content like this. It's well-intentioned, but the assumptions underlying it are utterly divorced from the lived reality of most people. Most of us don't have the luxury of feeling angst over whether we're following a well-worn path to closely. I'd love to see a version of this video for those of us who are living paycheck to paycheck and not in an unfulfilling relationship because we can't find anyone to love us at all. This just feels like you're giving comfort to those of us who are already exceedingly comfortable.

I like your cinematography and love the way you filmed my home (Paris). Well done.

So so so relatable.

as someone who's asexual and cupiormantic this really hits home.... I've never dated anyone. I've never been intimate with anyone. I've never felt a connection that deep or had a crush, or fallen in romantic love. It's lonely. But I am not incomplete without a partner. And I'm not broken.

you've expressed my sentiment so well. not only as a guy in his 20's whose going about it alone, i'm a London guy who also explores alone pretty much alot of the same places in this video! This isn't to say i've not got friends or have lots to do with them but sometimes people let you down and being independent without the expectation of deciding my plans around others. going at life solo is sometimes beautiful and i can't wait to meet that partner that see's the world with similar excitement and we can be independent together

Your thoughts in your 30's where similar to my own, I made the huge decision to live on the other side of the world, the love that brought me here has vanished overnight. I stand in grief, which is a painful door to reality, change is calling my name, I knew it would. Moving along the paths, I've taken many unusual ones, crossroads and forks including the one less travelled. I have decided to launch myself to another country, throw myself into a culture and language I know nothing about, become a compete beginner, once again. I'm in my mid 60's and still willing to learn more and to become who I always was. warm regards

she speaks like no body is listening

Hello from a Londoner currently living in Colombia and contemplating getting back to writing. Your writing is beautiful and very inspiring! I love the sense of nostalgia you convey through your words, images and those beautiful vintage typewriters! Thanks for sharing and packaging your experience in this way. While I think of it, there is a bar/pub I think you might like in an old post office in Borough - vintage vibes. They have a few different locations and have live music - jazz etc. I haven't been yet but it's on my to-do the next time I visit. It's called Cahoots London. I hope you get settled into your new London life! P.S - Apologising when someone bumps into you is a very British trait 😄

that's right... lower that bar.. shhh it's fine. In fact, maybe you deserve a prize for living, oooh.

This gives Harriet the Spy vibes and I am completely here for it

I freaking NEEDED THIS! And love it!

I am sorry to inform you but there is a timeline and it is not push to us by the society but by our bodies. You cannot wake up at the age of 50 and decide to have a child. Or change careers since no one is hiring people without experince and your age matters.

I like the idea of writing like no one will read it. I imagine my books would be so interesting for no one. So I don't expect people read it.

wow, this was so relatable...! especially the "reaching out for others part" . It's very tiring. I'm 30 and have been mostly single, and I used to be the one reaching out and planning everything in a friend group where I was the only single person. I stopped doing it, mostly because I was busy and tired, and I explained that to them, but no one stepped up to do the same and I kind of let go. I love them but I also stopped waiting to do things I want bc I didn't have company, or having to do all the work as if I was responsible for them. I always thought it was something singular to me, and even though it's sad it brings me comfort to know other people had the same experience. I rarely feel lonely as I've set my life to work for my goals, and even though I'm the one out of my friend group who is not only single but also doesn't have back up from my family (I help them, they never help me), I'm the one who had accomplished some of my dreams, be it a second degree, a trip, going to concerts, etc. However it offends me when people act like doing all that, especially doing it alone without any help, comes easy. It doesn't, and I guess, for myself, what bothered me the most was this lack of recognition. But now I feel someone really understands that standing on your own is very hard, bearing all the responsibility is both freeing and laborous. And I also feel the same about not having space for someone else. Most of my friends complain about their partners and I don't think it would be worth it, for me, having more work living with someone else, I already work enough. It's like what you said, I already crafted my life for me. And being a woman in a relationship most of the times means more work, be it housework, think work or emotional work, and I'm not really up to do that. Anyway, I digress. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

I've been watching this on loop while working ❤

write a book that you want to read

Maybe it’s the seemingly endless cliches.

this reminds me of the episode of bojack horseman where Diane goes to Vietnam. or just Diane in general

Wow i needed to hear this ❤

who sent you 😢😫

I understand the feeling of wanting to be alone or thinking your life can never change from the schedule youve made while solo. Love however gets so important to maintain as we get older. Without a super long explanation there is nothing like holding hands with someone you feel gets you. Even if you don't end up working out and your experiencing heartbreak like I am currently, the good memories outweigh the bad. Its things ill treasure forever.

I seem to have taken this path too but it's only happened in the last few years as a sort of reactive measure. Growing up there came a time in my mid-teens I had to be my own man because I had no truly present father figure in my life to teach me things. Everything I achieved when I did I was doing it through my own determination and grit and I think psychologically this has sort of reinforced this path I've taken. Internally, there's this fear that if I was in a situation where someone else became involved and had influence on me I would not achieve what I set out to do. Or they would tear me away from this path I'm on as they don't share the exact same values as I do. What I think I know is it's all a trauma response to protect my peace from where growing up where there was always trouble or something crazy happening that triggered my flight-or-flight. I also spent a lot of time in my younger years goofing off and achieved next to nothing which made me very insecure about my own intelligence later on as my academics were awful. Now It's only when I shut off the world and locked in where I truly achieved things. But with this, days turn into weeks, months etc. So... I don't know what to do about this really. I don't have any real connections in my life anymore, my 30s are getting closer, most of my peers have kids or a long term partner... and yet I'm afraid of changing where I'm at. Now I'm at a point where I sort of forget how to connect with people, I don't know how to go beyond small talk with someone or perhaps I'm just afraid to. Such a weird time in my life. I don't know if I'm sad about it or lonely or depressed, anxious or all of the above because of my choices or are my choices because of all the above? OR... am I simply yearning for what society deems as the norm which has been programmed into us? Who knows. Therapy isn't cheap! 😂 Wishing you all the best and hope you find your way. 🙏

5:40 Mumbo Jumbo reference

God I’ve been feeling this way. I keep doubting my story. Who is gonna read it? Am I doing this right? I know there’s potential but am I ever gonna live up to it? All these questions feel very draining. Especially since I know the first draft is gonna be messy but I keep going back to it.

New Subscriber here. I’m enjoying your film style. In most shots where lights are there’s a pulsing of the light. Maybe that’s an effect you want and if so, of course that’s perfectly your choice. Personally I find it takes me out of your story. I googled and found there’s a solution (as google usual offers!) To adjust your camera frequency, navigate to your camera settings menu, usually accessible through a dedicated button on your camera body, and look for an option labeled "power line frequency" or "system frequency" where you can select either 50Hz (PAL) for regions with 50Hz power or 60Hz (NTSC) for regions with 60Hz power; this setting helps prevent flickering in videos when filming under artificial lights. I believe in that region it’s 50Hz.

My goodness, but this fed my soul.

Beautiful video, nice writing and cinematography. I've just ended up alone and am always trying to fill a void with someone else, which is incredibly bad. I honesly wish i could be alone as you do and love myself in that way.