when life doesn't go as planned.

[@lemony7946]

My heart hurts so much, when I watch your videos and I have to admit that I'm crying while watching them. I feel so heard.

[@the.ashfiles]

I’m so glad to hear they resonate with you, thank you for being here ✨🫂

[@TheJoyfilledCreative]

Your words and thoughts reach into my timid mind and help me to make sense of it all. Grateful. Thank you.

[@the.ashfiles]

That is so kind of you to say, I’m so glad my words can resonate in that way. Thank you so much! 🥹🙏🏻✨

[@peakeruk]

Love the lyrical, nostalgic feel of this piece.

[@the.ashfiles]

@@peakeruk thank you so much ☺️✨

[@jwhep]

so happy to have found your diary. thank you for creating a space to feel like i'm not alone in this. lovely writing and cinematography :)

[@the.ashfiles]

thank you so much! So happy to have you here ✨

[@her30sdiary]

I fortunately discovered your videos a few weeks ago. I'm also closer to my mid-30s. I felt stuck my entire life, but oneday, I told myself ,I need to change or I'll never find what I need. I still don't know what that is, but working on self- discovery has helped a lot.I hope all of us who are trying to find that thing will eventually find it & if not, enjoying the journey :)❤

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you so much for sharing! I think social media is such a great tool for bringing us like minded people together we otherwise wouldn’t know. Wishing you the very best on your journey 🥰✨

[@kathrynjones4610]

Hey Kitten, you will be a finer person for all of your trials. You can still leap at 50, and still leap at 60 after leaping many times before that. Just declare yourself great, and the rest flows more easily. Think " Pearls before Swine" when it doesn't work out, park your doubts and suck the juice out of life in every way. When you reach my age, the woman that you dared to be is your greatest treasure.

[@Eleven-Seven]

I just turned 30, reflecting on my 20s. It feels like you crawled into my head for this video, well done.

[@the.ashfiles]

So glad to hear it resonated with you ☺️✨

[@julivorw7733]

Yeah, i feel this, a lot. My journey is quite similar, and i feel your prologue reverberating against my own. Its comforting to know we all go through this process, and to hear my reflecting thoughts on the process spoken by someone else who knows it too. I love how you said "it feels like my 20s were spent in the writing room". Yup, definitely.

[@the.ashfiles]

So glad to hear the piece resonated with you ✨☺️

[@anatolearakelian8454]

So happy I’ve found your content. I had similar thoughts a few years ago and decided to quit my job and spend some time traveling. I also came to stay some time in Ukraine- I country I grew up in. This gamble turned out to be a significant mistake as the war began and I became stuck here because of marital law and my Ukrainian passport. But my story is more unfortunate and rare, and I hope that your gamble pays off and you find what you’re looking for. Your videos also give me hope that even if I’ve partially lost more than two years of my life due to being trapped here, I can still get out of this situation, grow, and change in the future. Keep it up! Can’t wait to see more from you after I’m done watching all the existing videos 😊

[@the.ashfiles]

@@anatolearakelian8454 thank you for your kinds words 🙏🏻 I’m so sorry for what’s been happening in your beautiful country. I hope you’re safe and continue to be and soon you will be free to explore the world at your leisure. Just know it’s never too late to go after what you want. The world is waiting for you ✨

[@m.j.5869]

I’ve never related som much to anything before 😅 As a 30 something who spent most of my twenties crippled by anxiety I mourn the person I never got to be. Hoping my thirties will be different. Can’t wait to follow along on your journey.

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you so much and I’m so happy my words resonated with you. A lot of us are working off of societies timelines, and it’s hard to convince ourselves that things can be different for us. But they can be. They are. I hope your 30s are everything you want them to be as you take control of your life and forget about the noise from others. So happy to have you here ✨🥰

[@kathrynjones4610]

@@the.ashfiles I wish that all of you could connect with the older women who have cast fate to the wind, risked it, won it and lost it and who are still thriving. You have the power of youth that makes great things possible. Fart in the general direction (Monty Python) of fear and own the world you love.

[@FallenVidmaker]

Your videos are very eye opening for aspects of my life for sure I've been steadily growing since my other comment on a different video of yours I been living for me so much more even though I'm mostly alone these days I'm living life I'm so happy to have rn it ain't perfect but you bet your butt that I'm trying the hardest I've tried in life in the past couple years tbh this year feels like it's gonna be the year I finally get up and make this world better even if in small ways at first.

[@the.ashfiles]

I’m so happy to hear you’re making positive changes in your life. ✨🙏🏻

[@poojashetty9605]

So glad I was recommended your content on TikTok I absolutely adore the nostalgic aesthetic of your writings! Also I don’t know if you know this but your voice is really nice to listen to, I’d describe it like a warm hug from a friend you haven’t seen in a while. Can’t wait to see more of your content 😊

[@the.ashfiles]

@@poojashetty9605 oh wow! Thank you that is so so kind. I almost didn’t do this because I hate the sound of my voice so much, haha… but it’s been a nice surprise that it’s been bringing comfort to others. I appreciate you being here 🥰✨

[@ChineseKiwi]

@@the.ashfiles You shouldn't feel bad about your voice. Your voice is comforting.

[@bettyboohadapoo]

Your thoughts in your 30's where similar to my own, I made the huge decision to live on the other side of the world, the love that brought me here has vanished overnight. I stand in grief, which is a painful door to reality, change is calling my name, I knew it would. Moving along the paths, I've taken many unusual ones, crossroads and forks including the one less travelled. I have decided to launch myself to another country, throw myself into a culture and language I know nothing about, become a compete beginner, once again. I'm in my mid 60's and still willing to learn more and to become who I always was. warm regards

[@the.ashfiles]

Your journey is so inspiring-starting fresh, especially after such profound changes, takes so much courage. It sounds like you’ve embraced the idea of continual growth, even when it comes with grief and uncertainty. Launching yourself into a completely new culture and language is such a bold and beautiful way to rediscover yourself. Wishing you all the best as you navigate this next chapter-it sounds like an extraordinary adventure. Warm regards back to you!☺️✨ 🫂

[@bettyboohadapoo]

@ ❤️

[@evdavila1287]

Comforting and suffocating. The path we dare to take…✨ So good. 🙏🏽

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you 🙏🏻✨

[@ChineseKiwi]

You deserve more views. Also 4:23 to 5:23 - This is me and in my mid 30s as well I feel exactly the same as you. I moved countries to find myself and I am still trying to. However I'm hesitant to move away because of 'golden handcuffs'. My job pays well above average for the tasks I do (I took advantage that COVID job shortage period and I got a job offer at another place, but my current place counter offered and beat it) and well, 11.5% *on top* of wages towards your (American translated) '401k' isn't to be scoffed at. I'm life direction lost more than ever.

[@the.ashfiles]

Oh I understand that… I was in a similar position a few years ago but at a certain point the till took over and the money wasn’t enough anymore. It was hard but I’m grateful to have ended up where I am… which is the endless pursuit of ‘finding oneself’ 🙃

[@raineh4625]

Never felt at home in my hometown, but I am glad of this for it reminds me that I've remained true to myself.😊

[@the.ashfiles]

I’m so glad for you! ☺️✨

[@maramalkhlaifat8673]

Thank you! I love this analogy, I have been living abroad for 3 years now

[@esparda07]

Vancouverite spotted! Also moved away from Vancouver and moved back to the Philippines. Go where you're treated best! And that's dynamic. Keep it flowing!

[@the.ashfiles]

So happy to hear your story! I'm all about listening to our hearts and going where we feel most at home. ☺️✨

[@Oyuoyupui]

love your cinematography

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you so much! ✨☺️

[@michael.matarrese-cs5tw]

I think I’ve watched the motivational book in mind power, and every book about life etc., on KZbin nothing compares to your stuff I don’t think it’s even possible for someone to compare it

[@the.ashfiles]

That says a lot! Thank you for such a kind compliment ☺️✨

[@rialingat2869]

Soooo resonating - thank you 🙏

[@the.ashfiles]

So glad you liked it! ✨

[@eighteentw3lve]

Love these videos, such a vibe 💜✨ Feeling a lot of the same things.

[@the.ashfiles]

@@eighteentw3lve thank you so much! Hope they resonate with you ❤️✨

[@DrKatyaMay]

"Mistaking the devil you know, for a friend". Wow. 🤯 That was meaningful to me. Just thought I'd let you know that I'll be using that often in my conversations from now on. I'll be sure to give you credit 😂. I think it resonated with me because I recently moved back to Minnesota after living in Australia for 20 years. While I don't have one hometown--as I grew up in many cities & countries, by the time I graduated high school--tere has been this odd emotion I felt about moving 'back'. And yes, perhaps that emotion is a bit of my judgment. Regarding am I regressing? Instead of only mulling over that, I will also consider how I feel about this being a stopping point (for a while) on my way somewhere else. Thanks 🙏🏼 so much for your essay. I found it very helpful and I'm only at minute four 😊!

[@the.ashfiles]

Wow, thank you for this thoughtful comment! I’m so glad that line resonated with you-it’s such a complex feeling, isn’t it? Moving back after so long, especially to a place that doesn’t quite feel like ‘home,’ can stir up so many layers of emotion and self-reflection. Your outlook is so healthy and you have such an open way to look at it. Wishing you clarity and peace as you navigate this chapter, and I’m so glad the video is resonating with you 🥰✨🫂

[@marinaniscoveanu13]

Such great content🥰

[@the.ashfiles]

@@marinaniscoveanu13 thank you! ❤️✨

[@hugodamiao]

The perfect channel to watch when enjoying a meal. Been a fan on tiktok now here😊

[@the.ashfiles]

@@hugodamiao thank you! Appreciate you being here ☺️✨

[@acehoss1713]

amazing script

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you! 🙏🏻✨

[@narayanabadNARS3]

it was good a find your channel

[@the.ashfiles]

Thank you! ✨

[@sjoywilson]

What do you do for work? I’m assuming it’s something you can do remotely?! I’m wanting to make a change and move international…just not sure where yet.

[@the.ashfiles]

I’m a writer, so yes, definitely a remote job ✨

[@CGJ703]

What if you never had a plan and just now are realizing you should have?

[@the.ashfiles]

It’s never too late… I think it comes at different times of life for people, some earlier, some later, but there’s no place for regret 🫂✨

[@CGJ703]

Thank you for the reply. Your videos always put me in a good place after I’ve watched

[@ginagreninger]

Watching your videos is helping me to build perspective.. think about questions and life in a deeper way. Just want to say thank you again for being yourself and having the courage to share it. It’s helping me to do the same. 🫂

[@the.ashfiles]

Oh gosh, you’re too kind. But thank you! I’m so glad my videos have resonated with you in this way, it’s all I hope for in putting my work out there ☺️✨

[@remermita1910]

I’m excited to see your journey. I feel like I’m watching a slice of life genre. 🥹 it’s very relatable to 30 something like me.

[@the.ashfiles]

@@remermita1910 thank you so much! 🥰