18 things I learned in 2018. My worst year yet

[@daijoubu8904]

It’s so weird... no one around me has enjoyed 2018 ... it really has been the worst year for everyone i guess... I have been so lost and depressed the whole year idk why :/

[@karlal.2335]

Sameee

[@ksenia1016]

Diana same :(

[@PujaarchanaTalukdar]

Same

[@nobodyisrealman3300]

So true

[@shakirah.r]

Me too. I never felt super down in my whole life and this year has been rough.

[@dianachamomile]

watching this filled my heart with a sense of comfort. this year has been such a bitch but trulyyyyy I’ve been thinking it’s all a blessing in some ways. can’t wait to see this phase pass and turn into something happily beautiful. 🦋

[@tildamay]

i think 2018 has been a pretty awful year for most people i know. i hope things get better for everyone 💛🌻 so much love

[@lydiakrifka-dobes3710]

same.

[@nagini77]

It just got worse 😢

[@rosemery6891]

It's crazy that I'm watching this video in 2020 which is obviously the worst year ever and I'm remembering 2018 and how my life completely changed,in 2018 my life was soooo loud,I was into partying with people and talking to people that I didn't wanted to talk to but I did it only to be famous and stuff... anyway I use to have 3 beeest friends,we were friends for 5 years ,but now in 2020 I'm no longer friend with them and I'm not sad about it bcs I knew that they weren't loyal and the were very jealous of me ,and also in 2020 I learned to love myself the way I am ,and enjoying the fact that I'm on my own and alone, and I learned to paint and Express my feelings and emotions on my canvas,and it's all bcs of you freya thank you so much , love you to the moon and back♡

[@Runitax]

I like the trippy filter.

[@amberharrison317]

2018 has been such a huge year of loss in every single way imaginable. ive also been lost myself, have experienced loss in many forms, and have been alone and very lonely this past year. and i have and always had a fear of being on my own. so its been a struggle for me too. in all honesty im scared for 2019. i hope its better but if its not i dont know how much more i can take

[@kei7.1]

Find comfort and fulfillment within yourself, take care and treat you. It will get better believe it. :)

[@petiteearthling4324]

the beginning of my 2018 was dominated by struggle and growth but just because I went through that, the last months of 2018 were the most beautiful and magical I’ve ever experienced.

[@tahsina.c]

same 🌹

[@madelineceleste2410]

Couldn’t be more true.

[@ailisosborne5724]

i love that this isn't edited; as in you haven't cut out the bits that showed the pauses, the flies in your face, the typically not so perfect parts. it made it feel so much more real and watching this video was such a beneficial and eye opening experience, so thank you x

[@latham8640]

I see so much about this year being really difficult and hard for everyone, and I feel that and it was really painful, but it was also the most beautiful and enlightening year for me. The beginning of this decade, I watched my self worth and respect completely destroyed by people I cared for and loved and that being reinforced by my own beliefs and the people who surrounded me. And then I spent a few years in a lost and confusing depression, I couldn’t focus, just swirling around in negative thought patterns. The last two years, especially 2018, I rediscovered myself and my power. I connected. With help from videos like yours, the words of others. By listening to myself. And so despite all the heartbreak, the tears, and the pain and hurt that came up when I decided to live for myself, i found the strength to breathe through it and find a love that I could never find within me before. I show so much gratitude to myself and for this year. I hope in 2019 is beautiful for us all. and thank you freya. for being as honest as you have been. for showing the strength in vulnerability. you’ve helped me and so many others. only love💗💗

[@kxmelitx9475]

You're the first one I found who also says 2018 was a good year for them. I'm glad not everyone had a bad year.

[@DanaM18129]

Same here (:

[@thepurplepalace85]

Ugh you are an angel! 2019 will be way better babe 💕

[@leahbobeah13]

you’re so fucking inspiring. you were apart of my spiritual journey this year and i can’t thank you enough. you made me feel free and grounded and stable. i loved my body more because i saw how you loved your body. words can’t describe how grateful i am that i found you when i did. i love you! 🦋🧡🌻

[@autumnnana]

2018 is so depressing but im trying to stand up again. Youve helped me alot this year.

[@martabonora6174]

This year for my has been really weird, i've changed so much, I became vegan, and I decided to stop believing in christianity and starting to follow witchcraft and becoming a wiccan, I got into astrology and yoga.. So many people have been horrible with my for my decisions, but I understood that even when I have nobody to confess my feelings with I still have myself wich is the most important thing.But now, I'm ready to realise every energy of this year and be ready for all the new energies that are going to come in 2019. I'm so grateful to be alive.💫🌱

[@ladybirdkoo]

Wowow i had the exact same changes except the wiccan part wow, i became vegan this year and got into astrology and yoga I hope 2019 brings you all the happiness and joy 💕

[@martabonora6174]

@@ladybirdkoo thank you so much💟 I hope also that your 2019 is going to be full of joy😊

[@marippp7038]

Please do a video on relationships/love/partnership!

[@bloomin_eva3144]

You are an inspiration even when you are sad and vulnerable because to me the most inspiring part is that you are authentic! You never give up, you always keep going and you often make my day so much brighter just by sharing. By showing that it is possible to find your flow and to find a way back into it when you get distracted (which is something that i struggle with alot). Love and light to you !!

[@jordanw4511]

I’m in tears and beautiful shock. Everything you’ve listed I experienced and learned this year as well! I’m SO glad to see you’re doing better and you’re choosing gratitude❤️ well wishes for the new year💛💛💛

[@agatapuza3000]

2018 was so hard for me too. Dealing with toxic relationship, ocd and school left me feeling exhausted. But i survived, i survived toxic relationship which i cut off, i survived destroying myself, i survived insomnia, i survived car crash, i survived everthing i was afraid of by now. And trust me, you have no idea how strong you can be. If anyone want to talk, im all friendly

[@debsmasters6124]

Agata Płuza heyy just wanted to say that I’m so proud of u for surviving another year and your so so strong! if u ever need a friend u can always dm me @debs.masters xx I’m also struggling with ocd too so it would be great to talk to someone who understands xxxxx

[@agatapuza3000]

@@debsmasters6124 i actually found and dm u on Instagram!

[@marinacosialls2407]

this video came up just in the perfect moment. feeling so reflected on you

[@livharwood88]

Your always valued Freya, its been a tough transformative period for all of us. My heart is warm to hear everything you have been through this year, you have been a sunshine of inspiration and I can't thank you enough for being so real, genuine and a beautiful light for me. I wish you the best summer - you deserve to celebrate

[@chloeeeexx]

Loved this video filter so much, I found this very soothing

[@tsi4357]

I'm almost 10 years older than you and experienced nearly everything you've listed. All the same you spoke to me so deeply, I needed to hear all of this. And it's so funny that I'm watching this after having a releasing ceremony (during the lunar eclipse) and choosing to finally heal. I do believe in God so I chose to open up and really let God in, just connect and allow that love. I chose to be love, I chose to stop looking at life from my hurt and instead look at it from love, I chose to see the beauty in my brokenness, and it's helped me forgive so much. Including myself. I thank you for sharing your vulnerability, your testimony, your truth. I wish you so much love and growth this year, and many blessings.

[@gaiagabby420]

hi sweets! i am only on number 2 and 3 but relate to this SO much it’s crazy. i have been through similar situations and like you, 2018 has been my most transformational year full of healing and letting go of my trauma. you are full of light and potential, you bring this platform so much joy and groovy vibes and i am so happy i stumbled across your art on social media that lead me here. you are BEAUTIFUL💛

[@sineadbrassil1084]

Love you Frey, I love these raw & unedited videos, I feel like they speak to all of us on a deeper level. You are a truly beautiful soul and I, along with many others appreciate everything you put out into the world. Happy New year ✨

[@livtruesdale2625]

Thanks for all of the help you’ve given just by your videos in the past year. I’ve been watching since May and you have helped me so incredibly much with my confidence all due to your ‘self love’ videos. You will always have a special place in my heart!

[@maddieshelton6116]

i adore how completely real you are. your stories and videos are so inspirational. you never cease to help others nor do you ever stop making everyone feel loved! thank you for these absolutely heart warming and genuine videos. you deserve so so much happiness. xoxo♡

[@SageAlmaMusic]

2018 was so so so hard for me too... I understand and i'm here for you beautiful soul

[@JulietteEleonora]

so proud of you love!!! ♥️💗 2018 was a very tough year for me too, but i learned SO much. i learned so many of the same lessons you are describing in this video - thank you for reminding me of them and creating this video. much love ♥️✨

[@sofialamon4707]

Hai scaldato il mio cuore. Sei una persona molto forte, grazie♥️

[@softcorazon]

Your worst year is sometimes your best year and you’ll learn that sooner or later. You gain so much insight and understanding. Maybe it’s all just unwanted change but it’s oh so necessary. Everything happens for a reason🦋

[@AliceEleanor]

ohh freya this warms my heart so much. i relate to so much of what you spoke about within this video. this year has been beyond difficult, transformative and painful yet beautiful, loving and inspiring all the same. thank you 💛 your light reminds me to see my own

[@samanthathach9736]

2018 was the worst/best year because i learned so much from my pain. this video gave me so much hope and love for the years to come. we’re growing everyday by choosing love. i love you and i’m glad you are ok. 💕💕💕

[@klarahavlova876]

You carry much more wisdom than every person I've ever known. And I am so grateful for you wanting to spread your messages. They are more than you think. Thank you

[@liztrimbur4594]

you’re strength amazes me! you are one of my main outside influencers because you stay true to yourself and you are constantly evolving!

[@bruhyoufr]

Freya I love this video. I love your mindset and some things you said I can really connect with. This video instantly inspired me to think about what I learned this year. It's also been hard as hell for me. Mainly mentally. I too have been struggling with feelings of paranoia for a long time now. And I have to say, it's really fucking hard to think that everyone hates me and is out to get me. But although I've struggled a ton mentally, it's so refreshing to know that there are people like you getting through these things and taking them as a lesson. Love this video and it was very comforting to watch XX

[@katarinajakubcova3097]

Dearest Freya, I found you in 2018 which I am still very grateful for that. I've been trying to find positive people who grow and learn for every experience. Thank you. I really adore you

[@s.imonette]

oh my gosh freya, the whole thing you said about holding on to illusions is so true, I experienced the same thing. sending you love and happiness for 2019 x

[@isabellap.6041]

Love the video filter!

[@annamiller9898]

I have so much respect for you Freya. Its always so refreshing to hear your words and your pure honesty and openness. Your good vibes are contagious :)

[@chloewalker6623]

Thanks for being so open about your psychosis Freya. I too experienced it at your age and it’s a lonely, scary place to be. So glad you came out on top xx

[@Calemore2212]

This was beautiful to listen to. I hope your 2019 is great

[@violindacanal]

i relate so much w everything you said and experienced. thank you so much, i was needing so bad a video like this. 💫⚘

[@keylimekid6269]

we'll love you no matter who you are or who you will come to be, freya! keep doing you and i sincerely hope 2019 is kind to you.

[@kendallhenderson5020]

this is such a great video. you’re so candid, honest & well spoken. thanks for sharing your insights and inspiration 💕 we’re all learning and growing together

[@alicekelly5009]

Loved the video! Could you do a video explaining the steps you took to move from a state of living your life through fear and a star of paranoia and depression to the place you’re in now? It’s something I’m really struggling with atm x

[@alicekelly5009]

And a state of *

[@ar.3040]

this gave me so much hope. deep down i know i've learned some very similar lessons, of course completely different in my own way. this gave me hope to keep on going and the understanding that all the shit that happens is a part of my journey, i'm still continuing to learn that. thank you

[@Aibu-tp9gm]

Oh dear freya, thank you for this beautiful video. It's so great and so helpful that you share the experiences you make. the good ones and the bad ones, because this is what truth is, and truth is hard to find! There's so much of it (of truth) in what you say, so much love and honesty, that it brings a lot of healing energy to the mind. This clearitiy and wisdom is what I love about you and your channel, because we're all going through shit, and having someone talk about it in such a wise way is truly a gift and can all help us grow together. You are loved and valued for what you are, because you are this wonderful, loving, golden-hearted, brave and strong human being that is so kind to share her life and thoughts with other people. But let me add that (in my buddhist mind's opinion) the most important thing is to feel this love in your own heart, because the heart is the source of EVERYTHING (what we think, what we say, what we do - our life/perception of life), and I am so happy that you see it like this too. Keep loving, and as you said: change your heart, and you change your world. Fill it up with this loving kindness, generosity, inner joy, and everything will get better. I wish I could give back all the joy and happiness that you bring in my life - so please let me know if there`s any way to do so! If you want to talk about life, death, buddhism, nature, dogs or whatever in this (and other) world(s) - I am waiting for you ;) The best wishes, and sooo many THANKS to you, who made my 2018 so much better with your energy and wisdom, - Celina

[@opheliemaslinski8155]

I can ear my mind talking when i am listening to you everything you said in this video it’s like all the lessons I learned through this year. I would love to speak with you one day as you look like me in the inside I wish you all the best for 2019 Freya, still shine and be a Sun for all the people who are watching you

[@juliaburtonvlogs5535]

This honestly answered so many of my answers about my life. Thank you truly for that

[@kiraspielmann3281]

You are soo incredibly healing. Thank you. Thank you so so much.

[@ezzlouise9198]

I see myself in you so much and your videos always provoke so much emotion in me. Endless love to you ❤️

[@missfruity1611]

You made me cry, because your feelings are so relatable :) love you ❤️

[@cosima3374]

i am so grateful for your videos, thank you freya

[@bethjones12333]

2019 is already proving to be better, and I think that the most of that is because I'm determined that nothing will ever make me feel the way I did in 2018, I lost my dad, my mum and my home but I also found a new, happy life with a "new family" and I feel so proud of myself for surviving this shit like the badass woman I am😉❤️ may 2019 be a year of growth for all of us❤️

[@Obsessedandstuff]

thank you for making this video and just filling it with love, cant wait for us to have a wonderful 2019 ♥

[@phoebesayers7815]

this was so beautiful and pure and straight from the heart.. I admire your honesty and love your channel and will always support it no matter how you change 💘💘💘💘

[@DanaM18129]

2018 was the best and the worst year in my Life. Everything changed. But that is okay. Thanks for the Video. I needed that today

[@imaneelmohalil5335]

I love you ♡ you're strong! You're here and you're alive :))

[@ClaraClandestino]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us! Just wanted to let you know that I recently unfollowed lots of people but you are one of those I decided to „keep“ because I beliefe you will serve me on my way 💫🐛🦋🌞

[@ajagibbs6711]

you should really have your own podcast , love. i love your words of wisdom, my love goes out to you for 2019 🧡

[@zeliem3141]

That fly 😂 seriously, love you freya take care i hope 2019 is going to be better for you ✨❤

[@Amora986]

Yes that makes so much since that you didnt let yourself have yourself ,when your consumed with fear & anxiety & it feels like the on going dark night of the soul,how can you have yourself its so over shadowed with everything,Thank you for sharing this so much understanding & love for you & what you have said here 💝☮︎🕊

[@lowkey_grl]

Loved this video so much.. I feel like we’ve learned a lot of the same lessons and I’m so proud of you, Freya! 🕊❤️ I don’t know if anyone else wants to or if this is a thing, but I wanted to share one thing that I’ve learned in 2018, which is that to be yourself! I know that sounds so cliché, but I don’t think I really got it until recently when I realized that I was trying to fit myself into this box and be this one way and when another part of who I am didn’t fit into that box, I would reject that box (for a certain amount of time) and move to the next and it’s been a cycle for quite a while now. It’s okay to have all of these aspects to your personality, especially since we’re ever-changing and since growth isn’t something that ever stops. It’s so much easier to just be and stop thinking about what you’ve labeled yourself as because of what other people see you as and to just do whatever the heck you want lol. This was so winded, but I’m so curious to see what other people have learned in 2018 or want to learn in 2019! 💭💭

[@kikifuchshofer4621]

you‘re so beautiful freya and so is this video i can relate so much and you always inspire me and make me feel like my feelings are valid. thank you

[@soraya4591]

Thank you for such a beautiful video. I really felt the love after watching it, and it put me in such a peaceful and loving state of mind. ❤️

[@zuzatrelove]

I watched this video for the second time, I agree with everything you said and I can really find myself in what you said.

[@lotusgrace89]

2018 has definitely been my worst year mentally. the months of october and november were so incredibly anxiety-fueled and uncomfortable mentally. However, as the year comes to a close, i have been able to turn the suffering i have experienced into growth and have been able to learn from my experiences. when i am having a hard time, it can be so consuming and near impossible to see a positive way out, but somehow i have managed. things do get better eventually even if in the moment it seems unlikely. i know i will be going into 2019 expecting bad things to happen, it is inevitable, but i will find solace in knowing that there is a way out and that life, and the emotions that go with it, are never going to be linear.

[@itshannah8857]

Breathe. You must be tired. Let me kiss your hands. Your eyes. They must be wanting of something sweet. I am sending you all my sugar. Do you have any idea how much of a miracle you are. I am sending my love to your eyes. May they always see godness in people.

[@777Giuly]

Is this from milk and honey? :) I hug u♡

[@lunaschuddinck2134]

These are the most beautiful words, thank you and lots of love ❤️

[@itshannah8857]

it is.♡ hug you too@@777Giuly

[@itshannah8857]

It's from the book Milk and honey by Rupi Kaur. Her words make me feel worthy and good and alive. U should buy it, it's one of the best things I've ever bought and I read it every night. Lots of love back to u @@lunaschuddinck2134

[@chriswatchesyt]

This video was so pure, THANK YOU so much, I love you. And also, I would love to see you make an asmr energy healing type of video. Luv from France 💗

[@josephineeather9852]

Freyyyaaaa I've lovvveee seeing your content change and grow along with you! The videos you create are so beautiful 🦋🦋🦋✨✨✨

[@thisland1745]

Thank you so much. You have helped me so much. In honest, i have been in a lot of pain and doubt, but i’m just trying to find and recover and heal myself. Maybe it takes a lot of time, but I will try the best as I still can. Wish that 2019 is a nicer, more hope, miracle and love into my life, your life and everyone. Hope that ✨ I’m f*cking tired of these shits need some advice here

[@GlitteryLouise]

thank you so much for this video, and for everything else 💛 I'm sending you endless love

[@mollyw2578]

this relaxes me sm

[@cote8428]

YOU ARE AMAZING! your strength and vibes always inspire me a lot💕💫. it's been a tough year, but as you said, we have to let love come into our lives and reconnect with nature, after all... vicissitudes are nothing more than opportunities to change and grow 🌻🍃🌹

[@edwarwick123]

Thankyou Freya and Tremendous Love and Good Energy to you for 2019 X

[@helenacrowley1076]

im glad I found this video... it's so nice to relate to someoe else's experience. I also had a relationship this year that was realy hard to let go of. Thankfully I'm finally moving on, but that relationship took over mind and all my energy this year. Wish you the best and thank you for sharing! xx

[@lids2000]

This video was really helpful, thank you. I wish you a wonderful 2019 ❤️

[@danahofland7966]

i love this video, freya! it's as if we're in a support group together. you are strong and powerful and this world deserves a beautiful soul like yours

[@lindsayk5840]

Lots of love to you. I resonate with you so much. I honestly feel for you and you remind me of myself and my best girlfriend. Just so you know I am always here for you and I see you.. even if we are strangers our hearts beat as one.. all of us. Hugs and love!!!!

[@dandelionsandlace]

Thank you so so so much for this. Thank you for existing.

[@helloguyy]

Oh god every word you uttered touches my soul for some reason..

[@annabelferrier6227]

Thank you. I feel a lot better about leaving a toxic relationship after this. This was empowering 💗

[@sleepysaiii]

This is the best video I’ve seen this year and honestly related a lot to my year as well. It made me feel like we were on a phone call hahah I wish I knew you irl you seem chill x

[@zoeespinel]

Oh.. how much I love you Freya Haley! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and emotions... You have helped me so much. I am ready for 2019

[@laurangi]

Hi ! Just to letting you know that everytime I watch your videos, I feel amazing, relax, in peace 😌 I enjoy every of your KZbin videos ! Love ! Bye 💫😎

[@patriciaelysel]

Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom and for radiating so much positive, beautiful energy!! 💕🌼🦋

[@energyflow2735]

I just discovered your vlog yesterday. I looked at some of them and instagram. Your birthday I think I figured out. Love of nature, also nudism, moon and jupiter in pisces. Moon in pisces is this childlike innocence. That other personality for public you mentioned was probably sun conjunct pluto. I would bet that pluto causes the fear, paranoia and love, dreams comes from moon, jupiter in pisces. Mercury conjunct venus is then making you able to understand, express felings so readily. Happy new year.

[@alyssakilmister2977]

HOW DID YOU MAKE IT LOOK LIKE THAT???? All trippy and trail-ey??? Love this video btw💛

[@miriameulert2523]

thank you so much for sharing this. lets bring all this growth into 2019

[@justine8960]

This video literally just put me in such a good mood 😊 thx much love ❤️

[@lanapermal8749]

It was for me too.But all you can do is have faith and focus on yourself. Love from Mauritius

[@lolarug]

u’r an angel i love you sm 💓

[@zuzatrelove]

I really enjoy your videos...you are really wise for your age and you remind me how much I love nature

[@septimus_3000]

2018 was terrible for me as well. As I've got my issues with mental illness my best friend turned away from me. This really made it so much worse and I got to the point where I thought that there's nothing left for me in this life. Then I realised that first you have to become your best friend. It sounds weird but truly you can have loads of people around you, but what difference does it make when your inner self is ruled by self-hatred? Second, I realised (way too late) that I shouldn't always excuse myself, for my thoughts etc. I was always so ashamed of my emotions and was in this mindset that others feelings have to come first. That's why, at last, I was this source for toxic people. But I'll take 2019 as a chance to reveal myself more. I'm trying to look forward.

[@shotsndocs]

sending you so much love, freya.

[@baba2464]

Stay intuitive, sensitive, and tough as nails. Stay Awesome! =)

[@Wildstrawberries11]

Worst year for me also honey...love, hugs and positive vibes from Greece :)

[@wntervanilla7909]

What I learned this year: 1. You are the only person responsible for your happiness... BUT: the right people will NEVER ever make you feel insecure or unhappy or uncomfortable. The right people will challenge you to be your best self, hold you accountable for your bullshit, but be supportive, loving, and understanding. 2. Other people's perception of you is not always an accurate representation of who you are. They will try to tell you who you are, but YOU know yourself best. 3. There is an organic flow to how things play out, and you must trust it to bring you your highest good. 4. There is no point in living an inauthentic life. Follow your dharma. I'd rather live an imperfect but true life, than a perfect but inauthentic life. 5. At the end of the day, nobody really owes you anything, and you don't owe anybody anything. This is a new concept for all of us to wrap our head around. But it is here as part of the arrival of New Earth. We are the builders. 2018 might have been hard, but it was not just a dark year. It was an illuminating year on your shadows, and on deceptive/corrupt narratives keeping you disempowered and unaware. Your eyes have never been as wide open as they are now. You did not go through what you did just to be left with anger and a "why me poor me" mentality. Right now, there is a strong urge to be negative, ungrateful, and angry. Any remnants of our "lack" mentality and limiting beliefs are coming to the surface to be cleared. You either heal and rise, or suppress and continue the cycle. Let's rise, fam! Cheers to the the dawn of 2019!

[@surunlapsi3909]

Hi Freya. This comment is probably going to get lost in the comment section, but I want to thank you. I am deeply, utterly grateful for everything you have taught me. I am grateful for the kindness and compassion you have spread through this channel. 2018 was a hard year for me too, but thankfully we are all still here. Happy new year to you (and everyone reading this comment)!

[@ebonyjax2088]

Hey Freya, loved this video! Can you talk more on how your journey moved from the dark place you were in, into this reflective and enlightened state. Going through a really hard time lately and would love to know what helped with your depression Xx

[@tajashania]

You are beautiful inside and out, you’re so inspirational ✨☀️💛