19 WEEKS PREGNANT - TOUGH WEEK, SCAN WORRIES & STICKLER SYNDROME

Hi everyone? How are you this week? Well I hope? Let me know where you are up to if you are pregnant. I love reading your comments. I'm afraid 19 weeks pregnant has been a tough week for me. I am so nervous and anxious about our scan on Tuesday. And it's weighing heavy on my mind. I really hope this baby boy doesn't have Stickler Syndrome, but there isn't anything I can do but wait now. Keep your fingers crossed for him. Lots of love. xx
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WHO AM I?
I'm Charlotte.
I'm 28, love carbs, rubbish 90's music, Prosecco and baths without finding a bath toy stuck under my bum.
I have a little boy called Bill (born June 2012) and a little girl called Daisy (born April 2016).
I am, very recently, a full-time vlogger and blogger (the stuff dreams are made of), but I am also a trained journalist, former magazine editor, and content lead.
I'm also part of Channel Mum - which is really worth checking out if you're a mama like me and want to find videos to make you laugh, cry, nod, or get advice. / channelmum
I was a single mum, just me and Bill. But then I had a bit of a fairytale moment when I met Mark (he's a bit lovely) and things are better than I could have hoped for now. Daisy was born with Stickler Syndrome, and a cleft palate like me. Her start has been rocky but she'll be fine. She's got a family who adore her after all.
I know that all mums are different in their own way, but I hope you enjoy seeing snippets of my life, all the same.
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[@krityshrestha1602]

I feel you, whenever I voice my fears on the 20th week scan, everyone says I am overreacting, but its always on the back of my mind, I keep praying my baby is healthy in all ways, I am so in love with her/him, and the love increases by day! This is my first time, and I pray all is well!

[@evakoole376]

I know this is an older video, but I am binge watching your pregnancy updates and I really admire how open and real you are in your videos! You help so many people by being this honest, thank you so much for that

[@bethmccarthy5947]

I'm right with you on this!!! My son was diagnosed at our 20 week scan with a heart problem that means only half of his heart works. His first year was surgeries, ICU, tubes etc. I'm 20 weeks today with my 2nd baby, another boy. We found out at 16 weeks that his heart looks normal! It was the best feeling in the world and I'm praying harder than ever that you get good news next week! Us mamas of poorly babies totally deserve the chance of a normal experience. Sending lots of unicorn sprinkles and good luck dust your way and I look forward to seeing good news xxx

[@feliciabourque]

You baby boy and the rest of the family are always in my thoughts and prayers

[@flicturnspages]

My partner and I were in tears watching this video and we are both keeping you and bump in our prayers. 💙

[@klouplusthree1239]

Its heartbreaking watching this update 💔 I'm a NICU mum and I've been through it twice. My first son was full term, but due to 3rd degree cancerous cells at 19 I had to have a third of my cervix removed - it resulted in my second son being born at 30 weeks and my daighter at 28 weeks. I felt terrible, I'd blame myself and still do now. I understand you being anxious. I never thought I'd have to go through it once, never mind twice. Stay strong and remain positive 💖💖 No matter what you have an amazing support system.

[@natalievirtue3054]

Sending lots of love ❤️ I complete know how 'I don't want to do this again' feels. It's the reason I'm choosing to stop at just the 1 I've got. You are strong, your family is made of love, you can get through whatever, but I so hope you've got a healthy baby boy xx

[@lexdosch180]

You’re hair looks beautiful Charlotte! Prayers for your little baby ❤️

[@laurenshard5496]

Aww bless you Charlotte I really feel for you sending hugs and keeping everything crossed! ❤️❤️❤️

[@laurahouston5252]

I feel so much for you Charlotte but knowing either way will help you rather than the not knowing. I love all your updates. I'm 21 weeks myself and I'm with you x

[@CJDallimore]

You're doing great Charlotte and you are such a strong mummy. Keep it up! I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers when you have your scan. I'm 19 weeks on the day you posted this update. I love being able to watch your updates along with the progress of my own pregnancy. It's been a tough week for me too with symptoms of round ligament pain, nausea and digestion issues but on the upside my baby is very active and I can feel the little kicks! X

[@emmaslittleones7570]

I feel for you I really do! What ever the outcome is, your strong enough to deal with it. From experience, worry will cause you to not enjoy your pregnancy! I've been through NICU twice, the second time I worried constantly throughout my pregnancy to the point where I couldn't enjoy it. It's hard but you'll get through it x

[@emeraldrayne9518]

Good luck sweetie! ❤ I know what your feeling ands it's not easy. Hang in there and be positive!

[@gilliangrant7362]

Good luck at the scan charlotte. I am really really crossing my fingers for you that baby boy is healthy xxx

[@mrshudson9259]

Thanks so much for being so honest in this video, so refreshing to see the realities and anxieties we all go through and all the challenges we face! I'm watching week in week so don't know how things go but thanks again for being so honest and sharing x we need more videos like this!

[@tangelahawkins7403]

I'm 19 wks right now with my first baby. I was so sick in the beginning of my pregnancy. I have my scan on Tuesday. I finally have my appetite back which is nice. I'm a 6-8th grade teacher and I've been so exhausted at the end of the day. Hopefully my son comes on his due date during Christmas break. Love watching your videos!

[@katherinetraill6432]

Oh lovely 😊 I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼😘

[@ineslapaix]

I had that on my second trimester, I had to eat to keep my energy up constantly, I hope it gets better x

[@lisadixon8983]

Oh Charlotte, I am sending you a million hugs. Stop. Take a breath mama, do not stress over the things you cannot control or change. Also, don't apologise for how you are feeling, it is a natural process. Of course what you went through with Daisy Nelle, you don't want to go through again and that's okay. It's okay, to want a healthy baby and it's okay to talk about things, more than okay. You are looking blooming gorgeous, oh that baby belly 😍👶🏼 lots of love, I'll be with you in spirit on Tuesday xx

[@bonniepittock6754]

Watching this, knowing you probably have the results now! I have everything crossed for you lovely. Xxx

[@1mmcquade]

I'm sending you all the strength and luck for your scan and hoping like mad for positive news xxx

[@Unfilteredmummymakeup]

Sending lots of love girl you are so strong xxxxx

[@elises3600]

Best of luck with your ultrasound appointment. I know how it feels to have fear lurking in the background of a pregnancy. Throughout this pregnancy, I´ve been told I have a 50% chance of losing the baby due to a partial placental abruption that happened in the first trimester. I am so happy to have made it to 28 weeks (today!). Going for my ultrasound follow-up on Monday to find out if baby can stay put or not. Crossing fingers for the both of us!

[@meowlovesmakeup]

Iv got everything crossed for you charlotte! 🦄🦄🦄 your such a strong and amazing mummy! Xx

[@danielleburbery8082]

Your amazing and I admire your strength xx

[@inezasari]

Sending you lots of good wishes and prayers 💗 I have a genetic condition too so I truly sympathise, I’m very grateful that I didn’t pass it on to my baby girl but it was a constant worry in the back of my mind during pregnancy. Love x

[@rissarissaroo]

I really appreciate that you talk about your fears around the health of your baby. When my daughter was born she unexpectedly ended up in the NICU and has a slew of health issues from an undiagnosed genetic disorder. Now I'm pregnant again, and even though it was on purpose and we knew what we were risking, I'm still constantly worried about if this baby will have the same issues. Like you said, it's hard to talk about it with other people, so it's therapeutic to hear someone else talk about those same fears.

[@gurjeetdharni6271]

Good luck for tuesday charlotte. Stay positive dont stress or worry everything will be fine. Enjoy your weekend with the kids xx

[@bellescott2692]

Sending you & your precious little boy best wishes & thoughts always. 🦄

[@hayleyward7049]

I love watching your updates x

[@jaynelethbridge]

Oh sweetie, sending hugs and prayers to you and baby boy x

[@jaykay5541]

You're so brave to conceive again knowing there's this risk, but you must want this baby so much to put yourself through this. So no matter what, this baby is so wanted and loved. x

[@hattiel719]

Hey lovely. Praying for you and praying for Tuesday. God is good all the time, even when it doesn't feel that way x

[@hannahhhhhh564]

Hope it all goes okay! Sending healthy baby vibes your way 💕

[@ellasworld4290]

I hope everything goes well Charlotte and if there is a chance just think you've been through it before you're strong and can do this. The worry must be awful...im suffering the dizziness from my toes to my head is the only way I can describe it x

[@wendydietterle6313]

Thank you for sharing. Sending lots of positive thoughts. X

[@zoesmith2087]

My thoughts and prayers are with you Mark and baby boy bump xxx💙

[@rubysymonds59]

I hope your little boy is alright. Sending all my love x

[@Kali_laprade91]

I don’t know if anything I say would ease your mind, but just know you and baby boy have my love and prayers for a great scan next week!! 💙💙💙

[@MommaBladen]

Hi Charlotte from a nicu mum of 2. One born at 30 weeks, one at 33 weeks. I know babies born early are slightly different to those born at full term poorly as my sister had a lil boy born full term who needed ecmo to save his life. All nicu journeys are different but just as hard as each other. I have been in your situation, having gone through it once only to dread having to do it again. You are strong enough to get through anything if you have ridden the nicu rollercoaster. Lots of loving thoughts and encouragement coming your way hun. Try to stay positive. Xxxx

[@kimwilliams4659]

Hope everything goes well you deserve to have a healthy baby your such a lovely lady x

[@terrijones4670]

When I was pregnant with my second daughter last year, I lived in Seraphine leggings. They were the over the bump seamless leggings and oh my gosh, I recommend them for comfort. I wore them post pregnancy too ❤️ Congratulations too 😊 x

[@rachaelkp4272]

I really suffered with congestion with Lucy and feel I still do 20 months later it’s bizarre, I’m keeping everything crossed for your specialist scan but know either way your super strong and will get through it and we will all be sending so much love and support your way!! It’s crazy how you feel jealous of other people being pregnant and having no issues when there is a chance you may have, Lucy had to wear a pelvic harness for 4 months and at the time I was so jealous of people with babies who didn’t need a harness!! I used to feel so guilty feeling like that with babies going through a lot worse but it’s your baby who is, my baby!! And now she is running around and it seems like a distant memory! We all just want a happy and healthy baby don’t we! Now I’m off to find a unicorn 🦄 for you, 😂😂 Lots of love xxxx

[@erikpetru8643]

My dear, I watched the weekly volgs from other channel and I came to you again to remember and I'm staying in bed duzzy.. I was also cutting onion and I felt the need to lay down. Wow so it's normal. Yess. U helped me loads with my worries. Thank you darling

[@leannemarriott5266]

Sweet tooth means nothing. I'm having a girl and I LOVE garlic at the moment. Bread/ mushrooms/ kievs etc. I need them all. I'm 31 weeks now and so excited! Congratulations and good luck!! 🍀 x

[@Maison.de.boheme]

Although we’ve had Nicu experiences for different reasons, I can completely relate to how you are feeling. The waiting the not knowing the thoughts about breastfeeding and being a normal mum with a normal birth and a normal baby to take home and cuddle. It’s so hard and I’m doing the same at the moment, pushing down those feelings and just enjoying a normal pregnancy but I know as soon as I start having my extra tests and scans next week and as I move slowly towards the end of my second trimester I will be constantly fretting and worrying that this baby will be spending its third trimester in Nicu. Stay strong, I’ll be thinking of you Tuesday. Xxx

[@Madbbzxx]

I can relate to this video so much right now 😔 I am a carrier for Fanconi Anemia - a rare genetic disorder which affects male pregnancies. I have a healthy 5 year old boy but I've suffered 1, 5 month loss and 3 early misscariages due to the disorder and finally I am pregnant again with a healthy baby boy, but I had my 20 week scan yesterday and they found that he has clubfeet. It's an isolated issue which he will need physio, casting and possibly an opoeration done depending how severe it is. I just feel totally heartbroken, yes he's healthy but we've been through so much in 2 years and I just wanted to experience a normal pregnancy and first few months once he's born. I have very confused emotions and pregnancy really doesn't seem to be something I've been allowed to enjoy which feels so unfair as my first born everything went so well. I just feel we need a break from bad news, it's very overwhelming.

[@09ozdemir]

Im very very sorry that you have to go through this. But i know what you mean when you say you get jealous when you see other pregnant women. I do too. Im currently 16 weeks pregnant and my water broke at 13 weeks. Doctors are telling me to terminate but as long as my baby has a heartbeat i will not terminate. But i feel you. You want to get excited for your pregnany and buy all these clothes for your baby but theres always that stupid thought at the back of your mind and you just can enjoy it. Stay strong you are in my prayers xx

[@misslloyd8876]

MerveOz sorry to pry but i can see this comment was 6 months ago, how are you? How is baby? I really hope your pregnancy went well

[@Jamaican_Goddessss]

It's so heart breaking to watch you talk about this... But don't worry everything will be OK

[@hollyworld21]

Aw bless you. I often got dizzy & faint whilst pregnant . Have fruit chopped up and keep snacking on it through the day to keep your sugars at a stable level :)

[@samarhafeez]

Have faith 💝all will be well

[@theworldofannie]

I'm hoping and praying for the best possible news for you next week. Sending all the love and strength in the world xx

[@anasnur7219]

Annie Woodward w

[@munchkinmadness6144]

I got horrible dizziness whenever I stood up for more than a few minutes. I almost fainted in a queue at Primark once 😮 I was obsessed with jelly beans and white chocolate, they were practically the only things I could eat in larger amounts. Good luck for your scan, I hope all goes well

[@sarahrosandic8196]

Sending lots of love ❤️

[@jenniferwilkins8052]

How long did you have you sickness with your other two? I'm 19 weeks and still getting it intermittently, maybe 2 or 3 times a week. I love your pregnancy updates- you're so honest xx

[@jo27xxxxxx]

Sending you a big hug Charlotte. Jo 💕

[@Sandybeaches07]

Good luck for Tuesday fingers crossed for you , 👍🏻🙏🏻

[@TheKdizzle27]

Charlotte You are an absolute Doll!! Your beautiful baby boy is going to be a big, strapping, healthy lil man! I Just know it :) But either way, you hang in there and Im saying as many prayers as I can that all is well on Tuesday XOXOXO

[@morgannblairbrown4986]

New friend...,😔it's going to be ok..get the stuff you want to and if the results come back don't worry he will get to wear it..or bless someone else..I know it's 4 yrs ago but you've been so helpful during my first pregnancy and I hope you keep your spirits up! Your daughter is just fine and your husband sounds so wonderful and loving don't stress out and enjoy the sweet treats. Virtual hug 🫂 don't cry new friend..

[@Joanna-jt4le]

I'm just now seeing this so I know this has past but I've sent prayers for you and your son and family. I hope all is well ❤️

[@kellyparker4118]

I hope it goes well tomorrow lovely, sending you lots if love.

[@brittbby8710]

Hoping and praying for you❤️

[@suesharpe7049]

Charlotte, thank you. My first daughter Emily died at 3 weeks old after a very, very premature birth and almost no one is talking about the fear and worry that you’ve described in your blog today. Sometimes I don’t relate to stillborn mothers because their situation is different (not better or worse, just different) and that fear of the NICU, of expressing, of your body being responsible, of having an unhappy mystery over your head; these are things that other people struggle to relate to and I find so few references to these fears. I needed to hear these thoughts today as I head to another scan to see how soon this baby might come. Thank you.

[@leahfitzgerald3972]

I lost my second son , he had right isomerism and heterotaxy syndrome . I then fell pregnant again soon after and was worried the entire time if my daughter was going to be born with heart issues also .. she wasn't and she is now 2 . What helped me was to feel thankful always .. things are really hard for some parents and illness and disability fill their entire days .. best of luck for it all I'm sure everything will be okay xxx

[@princesskaideka]

Every thing will be fine you know this from daisy, us mums are designed to worry but try not too 💕

[@badgieboo66]

Wishing you a very healthy baby boy and a stress free birth! Take care and lots of luck. Xxx

[@lizbethsc69]

Make sure you’re not anaemic sweetpea. I had this with my first pregnancy, mentioned to the midwife I was dizzy and had a blood test and I was very anaemic so got super high doses of iron whilst pregnant. Felt so exhausted and dizzy though until that point. Knew what to look out for the second time around so was on iron pretty much from the start. Read your blog today, how you’re feeling is completely normal. You know you can deal with whatever life brings along with your littlest boy but truth is you’d rather not have to deal with any of it. Stay strong, all your babies are so lucky to have you as their Mumma. Sending you hugs hugs xxxxxx

[@lauraemma4402]

Oh gosh I hope you have people to talk to about all this and I get exactly where your coming from. You need to focus in the moment and not think ahead about what ifs you don't need to your a strong lady and I'm sending all my unicorn 🦄 dust to you 🙂xx

[@clarejaynefleet7694]

Sounds like you could be anemic with the light headedness...that happened to me in 2 of my pregnancies & I was anemic & had to take iron. Might be worth getting checked. Sending positive thoughts your way for your scan, will be thinking of you xx

[@kayewhitwell5621]

Watching these now, because I love your channel anyway and I’m 19 weeks so nice to follow along while it’s relevant to me 🥰 (one a week I’m not cheating 😂) And I feel a bit smug watching knowing little Stanley is perfect and all your hopes and wishes for him worked out! It’s quite lovely actually 💙

[@bernadettepierrenoel1678]

Be strong ❤

[@gmm9667]

Oh sweet heart God bless you

[@allaboutlove5726]

All is well....💛💛💛💛💛

[@kirstywilliams81]

Sending lots of love 💕🙏🏻🦄 I’ll be thinking of you on Tuesday and really hope it’s the best news for you all xxx 😘

[@tillyarchie3113]

All the warmest of wishes coming your way. Whatever the outcome know you are strong enough to deal with it. Please watch your dizzy spells. I had the I had in my first pregnancy and turned out I was anaemic xx

[@normaagnew214]

Hope all is ok for you all!saying lots of prayers for you.xx💝

[@susiesalter5290]

Keep the faith💚💚💚💚💜💜💜💜💙💙💙💙

[@hollyworld21]

You do not seem ungrateful for wanting a healthy baby. I honestly don't think you would offend anyone who has struggled with pregnancy or baby loss. You are so honest and open and I'm sure everyone can relate to that. Having a poorly baby is awful and ofcourse to wish that the next child doesn't have to go through the same is normal. Sorry I comment as I watch, but try not to over think about the situation xx

[@aoife5540]

Can TOTALLY relate. I'm very worried about my baby also.(long story)and also added worry about housing when baby is born. So I feel I can't get excited.its my third also and I'm 19 weeks tmoro xx

[@kemipue]

I have a dominant condition: Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome with secondary Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. High chance that future children will inherit. Everyone has different symptoms so they may be more or less affected than I am. At least having the same conditions mean I have the knowledge to make sure that they are managed with early physio etc that me and my family didn't get. (Lack of awareness so hard to get a diagnosis). Pregnancy could be hard on my body too. Hopefully we'll be okay as my sister's a midwife and I'm an Occupational Therapist! Sending fluffy unicorns your way stuffed full of best wishes to you and your family xxx

[@alibongoesbang]

kerry pueschel I was an OT and those skills have really helped me eg teaching my children how to dress etc. I also have EDS (another connective tissue disorder like Sticklers) and so too my two children - as you write, the support is out there now eg physio, OT, orthotics and so on. Having my two is the best thing ever.

[@lauslora6511]

its ok to be scared you are allowed. every other parent or mother would feel the same as you! x

[@brenditarojas3441]

Congratulations!!😇 and to all women's pregnant too!! And I'm 21 week🤰and it small and I'm size🥺 and not like your but I know many women🤰are differents and not all same

[@chrislanstelly7709]

Hope ur baby is doing well my son has something called unbalanced translocation of chromsome 3 and 5 and he is now 2 and it has been very hard and I am now 19 weeks pregnant and am so grateful because we lost our last baby but I am also so scared because I can't even imagine having 2 speacial needs children I will love and care for my child no matter what but I know it will be very hard we get our 20 week scan on April 10 and I am so anxious and ready for a look at baby we will also get a fetal echocardiogram and hopefully if something is wrong they will catch it I just pray all is okay

[@demonizedwow]

I found the Asda maternity leggings come up big so I got a 12 as it's my normal size and I had to get 10 instead and they fit much better

[@louisegooch443]

Totally had the same with my nose when I was pregnant with my girl '!!!

[@kellymoore9414]

❤️

[@lizrunge]

There's nothing anyone can say, including whoever does your ultrasound, that will help how you feel until you can hold your baby yourself. I've got an autosomal dominant disorder (NF, not that it matters) and spent my entire pregnancy worried about my baby. So far he's ok, but I'll always have that fear with me as symptoms don't always appear until later in life. I sometimes feel a bit selfish for wanting children, and worry that I might pass on my defective gene to any future pregnancies. Sorry, this isn't exactly helpful- just know that you're not alone, lots of us struggle, and whatever happens you and your family are strong and will get through. I'll be thinking of you until your scan.

[@ecstacyosunde7493]

Me too, I have pkd

[@traceymiddler2396]

💙💙💙

[@jsj231986]

😢hugs I know how you feel I go through this all the time.. my son is autistic and I had a miss carriage before this pregnancy so I’m super nervous about this pregnancy.

[@mikasame]

im 19 weeks and 1 day today too and my big scan is in 13 days. I am also very nervous... excited because its my first so its all new to me. But very nervous for any bad news nonetheless :/ im going on my own unfortunately because my bf and i havent been getting along and *sigh* i just hope my baby boy is healthy. I would also feel like its my fault if something were wrong

[@tasha-gayesamanthawillia-hd8zy]

Im 20 weeks pregnant. Terrible leg cramp in night it feels like my bones is eating out lol

[@lana1439]

Iam 19 weeks and felling so emotional as I am living away from my family god help us 🙏🙏

[@blondes5427]

What kind were u scared of at the scan?? Was it told by ur doctor that he or she could of had that before ur 20 weeks scan ? I'm sorry doll I'm 19 week 1 day with my second and I am sore and in pain this time and my son has to stay day extra even now since I'm on subutex for my back issue

[@bernadettemurphy8131]

Oh pet your a star, chin up you can do this.

[@hollyworld21]

Also your hair is sooooo nice darker!!

[@dlistey4923]