Kari Bryan - Columbine Survivor

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[@stormysmith9990]

I attended Columbine in 96 but due to financial issues my mother had us move to a different location. Very grateful for that.

[@hojaykajalwa9129]

Are u still in Littleton Colorado?

[@susanford2388]

Fate had other things in store for you, even though you may have been upset at leaving. Glad things turned out well for you.

[@Smoke.stardust]

Lying ass, you ain't no columbine survivor

[@AntiMasonic93]

The person never said anything about being a survivor.

[@susanford2388]

@@Smoke.stardust Goodness, really. Were you brought up in a barn? Why such vile choices of words? Horrible.

[@marnimatikka7833]

I understand this kind of grief. We don’t have to be at the scene to be traumatized. And because of this, its more confusing. Trauma is trauma. Much love

[@MG-jj3pn]

I’m a pediatric trauma nurse This kind of episode causes me to relive horrible incidents.

[@janesmith8676]

Trauma is a spectrum. Its interesting to see people on all points on the spectrum related to this tragedy.

[@karo.0373]

Honestly all the people saying she isn’t a “real survivor” are just rude and not emphatic at all. She went through some real shit as well as the ones who were in the school just different. Their stories shouldn’t just be unheard/untold. This woman is so so strong and she send some really important messages.

[@karo.0373]

GetYour Ass don’t know what else to say about this besides the fact that you’re not the brightest candle on the cake

[@princeofcamelot1487]

@@karo.0373 you're gorgeous

[@EmGames41]

@@karo.0373 Exactly. She was apart of that year in school. She COULDVE been there. Im sure it was triggering for her to watch it on the news and how she knew the people, knew the school and had to go back. Shame on the people who are saying shes not a survivor.

[@thegamingkitchen8429]

Ok, but to SURVIVE something

[@theneveristsofficial1732]

she isn't a survivor of the shooting, however she was deeply affected by the event and is a survivor in the sense that she could have been at the school, iit would have been far more traumatic for her if she was and I understand why some people would make the distinction.

[@niketapechan876]

Message from a psychotherapist: a criteria for PTSD is “if you knew someone who experienced a traumatic event”. So you can experience trauma by knowing someone who was a part of a traumatic event. So yes indirectly experiencing trauma counts. Good day.

[@DreamOn427]

Yes! Trauma is trauma. These comments just show the ignorance and how there is so much of a need for true understanding and empathy. These ignorant commenters are no better than the shooters with their thoughtlessness...to mock a victim... Sick!

[@jamiemcdonald5323]

Amen 🙏

[@bonnie3232]

Well said💜

[@breezeh1127]

Absolutely! It’s like ripples in a pond, and not just the victims of trauma suffer from the trauma. I have PTSD from my daughter almost dying. She was very little and does not remember the events and 10 years later, is doing great. I still get stopped in my tracks by certain triggers.

[@glorialegault6696]

Yes, R.N. THAT WORKED WITH TRAUMA.. PEOPLE THAT SURVIVED FEEL THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE AND THEY NEED COUNCILNG FOR HOW LONG DEPENDING ON THAT PERSON, SETRS A LIFE TIME. SHAME ON ANYONE WHO THINKS THAT IS DIFFERENT. THE WHOLE KILLING OF ALL THOSE CHILDREN AND ADULTS IS BEYOND UNDERSTANDING ESPECIALLY SINCE ITS STILL HAPPENING NO ITS NOT TAKE AWAY OUR GUN I DON'T OWN ONE BUT WE HAVE A RIGHT I DO THINK WHEN A 19 YEAR OLD BUYS 2 EXPENSIVE GUN, RIFLES ETC. THE ONE SELLI G SHOULD HAVE CALLED THE POLICE WONDERING WHERE HE GOT THE MONEY ALSO THE MOVIES ETC MORALS ETC. LIKE BEING ABLE IN CALF TO GO INTO A STORE AND STEAL UP TO 999.00 AND NOT BE CHARGED SOMETHING WRONG WITH SOCIETY PEROID THIS HAS TO STOP MY OPINION

[@daniellesjerven6593]

The columbine school shooting affects everyone. It was such a tragedy and sadly was the start of several school shootings since. Kari Bryan is a courageous woman for telling her story. Thank God she wasn’t at school that day. I absolutely believe that it affected her just the same as it did her school mates because she attended the school’s home study program and also attended the school and knew the shooters. She’s such a brave lady God bless her

[@clairey6407]

Sending so much love to all those closely affected by the shootings. Whether you would class Kari as a survivor or not, this was her school: her boyfriend and friends went there, she knew the perpetrators, she could potentially have been in the school. Call it what you like, this was deeply traumatic for her and others like her. I can remember it (I was 13 at the time, living in the UK) and I can remember being very affected by it, so heaven knows how traumatic it must have been for her. Big big love to you Kari! You expressed your feelings and experience really well.

[@shellybergel4274]

Why does the title of Columbine Survivor offend so many people? Kari obviously experienced very deep suffering from the Columbine shooting, and is simply sharing her personal experiences with the internet, for anyone who is interested to hear. There is no reason to criticize her for this. I personally found her account to be very thoughtful and enlightening, and am grateful that she shared her perspective.

[@lisausa1297]

I hurt for her. It’s so hard to be traumatized and no one thinks you should have been traumatized, not even yourself. I say this as someone who lived near NYC during the 9/11 attacks.

[@beauoneill7010]

Dear beautiful girl. Your insight into yourself and the need for help for trauma victims is outstanding. I'm so sorry for your losses, your experiences with damaging coping methods and for your continuing struggles with fear and triggers. I promise you that your beautiful honesty has greatly helped and touched me. Your eloquence took me with you on your journey. I could clearly see parallels with my own life's traumas and the changes in direction that my life took as a result of my brokenness. I understand the need to protect your children when you are driven by fear. Nobody understands, but you still have to feel that you are doing all that you can to protect them. My best form of defence is to renew my faith that God loves my children even more than I do. Your grace, your determination, your incredible insight, and your blossoming appreciation of yourself are all wonderful to observe

[@katherinerae521]

People who are saying she isn’t a survivor must have no empathy for any person affected by this senseless tragedy. Had she not been called into work that morning, she would have been at the school. She didn’t know her brother was okay at first, her boyfriend was locked in the choir room for hours before the police finally came in and cleared the scene. She knew the shooters and essentially grew up with them. When something happens so close to home and affects those you love and care for, it will affect you. This woman is surviving despite all of the trauma and emotional pain she has been put through. Shame on you.

[@VintageRose75]

Amen, sister!!

[@louisdnd934]

I'd be going crazy if two people I know well murder people in my school and not knowing if my sister and girlfriend are safe

[@hannahgodsey3657]

Amen!

[@desiertoscacti5388]

Many people do not realize you don't actually even have to be in a place to also be a survivor of such a tragedy. When you know that friends, family members, teachers, or any other people you feel protective to, get harmed, or even the agony when you don't know if they are hurt or not, this causes a trauma. Bless you all who dealt or are dealing with this trauma, may your path brings you into a place of peace and calm and safety.

[@Ичкерия90х]

Very inspiring story. I love how she speaks

[@bcc7777]

Kari, I can hear the strength in you. ❤️ Survivor's guilt is real and strong.

[@rhiannonbrookes928]

All of these accounts are just so moving. 😓 Must be incredibly hard for her given the fact that she knew Eric and Dylan. She must feel like she didn’t know them at all, given what they did.

[@dicknurchnews4017]

Dillon went on to play the part of Timothy Mcveigh

[@louiseschilt4050]

Are you serious this wasn't acting I was eleven when this happened I'm from the UK but no this was not a hoax.

[@xtina6569]

@@dicknurchnews4017 the guy who played eric in zero hour did yes

[@fairep8524]

I think her interview has been my favorite so far.

[@juicyjules7409]

Jus be kind to all

[@RapFanatic4ever]

I can’t even beg j to imagine the amount of PTSD her and the other survivors have after this .

[@creaturesofdarkness3365]

Ptsd is just another name for cowardice

[@patriciawalsh3241]

Thx kari for speaking up...u just helped me realize that my life right now is unbearable because of PTSD...although not part of Columbine I have other trauma and feel like the squirrel cage of a brain of mine leads my life..so often i think well, there are others that have been thru worse so I am not important enough to use help...u have given me a glimmer of hope...I hope. so much that changes how i feel.If u have any advice for me id appreciate it...

[@pasqalhuguet1226]

Praying for you and just a know that you are not alone in this ever

[@Lalala4whatever]

Omg, I cannot imagine what you have and are still going through. You are so brave and strong and resilient. I wish I can just give you a big hug.

[@creaturesofdarkness3365]

You're fine as hell, nice cat by the way lol

[@ymmatsamoht9829]

That was so sad for that community God Bless all the students and family

[@pianogal879]

Her story is full of survivor's guilt and trauma. Whether she was there or not, she was SUPPOSED to be and knew the people involved. It could have easily been her in that cafeteria, but wasn't and she can't come to terms with why she is traumatized but was lucky enough to not be there. I can't imagine what the scenarios her mind puts her through. I would imagine it would be very close to 9/11 survivors who were late for work that day. My heart goes out to her.

[@AntiMasonic93]

She's traumatized.

[@giannacosto9587]

You are brave for sharing. Praying for you

[@shanice_a]

How is she a Columbine Survivior ? She wasn't even at the High School or involved when it happened ? "We were at home so we were okay ." She and her family were safe ... Not trying to downplay her Trauma in any way, just trying to understand

[@DenaMarie90]

because she would've known the people who were there which makes her affected by what happened. These were her friends, her teachers, her school... whether she was there or not that day doesn't matter, she would've still been affected. Honestly, not being there probably created more guilt for her...

[@erindalke282]

If she hadn't worked that morning she would have been at the school. She was a student at Columbine, and so she is a survivor.

[@judithniles2827]

DRAMA QUEEN!

[@judithniles2827]

She's NOT a survivor, she wasn't in the school that day.

[@marikiemarie7622]

@@judithniles2827 well she didnt die there right? Dont read so much into...if you weren't at school one day and this happened...you would still feel connected right? Your friends, teachers etc...

[@toddgoogle4387]

Eric and Dylan messed up a lot of these people’s lives. I wasn’t there but I remember it vividly when I heard the news.

[@VintageRose75]

If a drunk driver were barrelling down the street headed my way, and I jumped or someone suddenly pulled me back...I would have just survived being hit and maybe killed. If someone were about to board the Titanic, but last minute didn't make it on before it set sail...they would have survived the sinking because they had every intention of being there, but weren't. She was planning to go to school that day, but her plans changed last minute because of her job. She IS a survivor. End of story.

[@jessicaallen901]

Yes like my son is a Boston marathon bombing survivor. He wasn't there the moment the bombs went off but he and his track team were there for fun ( his coach arranged it with the marathon to run in the area that day ) and they could have left any time they wanted to and they left the area just 10 minutes before the bombs went off so yes he us a survivor. Just like this lady us a survivor of the Columbine shooting

[@samd5259]

In one way yes but she never had to fear her life

[@williamoni5651]

You cannot be a survivor if you were not in/affected directly by something that could have killed you. If I woke up on 9/11 and decided to walk in the World Trade Center to visit, but eventually decided not to go, I AVOIDED the situation but I am not a survivor. Go check out the DEFINITION of the word “survivor”

[@crystalminder923]

If a therapist honestly told her "I don't know how to help you!"...that's shitty! Imagine being her, knowing she was supposed to be in that building, knowing she knew Eric and Dylan along with those killed.....the guilt she must carry day in and day is probably absolutely overwhelming!!! She turned to drugs, she was hospitalized for trying to commit suicide!!! The trauma spectrum is different in her case...but she was absolutely affected!! PTSD sounds real here! Hopefully she finds peace one day knowing that god had another plan for her! Bless her heart!

[@daniellesjerven6593]

Being a part of a school shooting is very traumatic. There different types of trauma. Just because you didn’t witness Dylan/Eric shooting your school mates doesn’t mean 😭 it didn’t effect you the same. It effected you psychologically and emotionally. PTSD effects people differently also. I hope you are getting the help you need to thrive as a woman, wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend.

[@xtina6569]

The thing that i usually think when seeing these vids is how eric and dylan in the basement tapes said they hope survivors have flashbacks. They succeeded there unfortunately.

[@creaturesofdarkness3365]

Smart and pretty 😍

[@elizabethw969]

Being homeschooled isn't bad I was homeschooled when Columbine happen

[@historyman4629]

"Happened," not "happen." So much for homeschooling!

[@Louisiana666]

History Man 😂

[@mrrah2509]

@@historyman4629 And ur the reason why people homeschool bullying

[@historyman4629]

@@mrrah2509. I notice that your comment is incomprehensible. I have no clue what you just tried to say. Thanks for proving my point!

[@mrrah2509]

@@historyman4629 Well where i live people do homeschool for bullying someone to the point where they start doing homeschool and ur making fun of this woman just have more sympathy

[@Flore-162]

I hope she is well and ok now.

[@lisausa1297]

Her humor about the ghetto made me realize how much more frequently people in ghettos experience trauma if hearing sirens so much frequently than non-ghetto areas is anything to go by.

[@loriann3723]

For all of those saying she isn't a survivor because she wasn't actually there, one of the Victims, Lance, who was shot 5 times, once in the face. Used to feel the same way until it all came crashing down on him in 2015 and he learned more about PTSD and how it can affect people, there or not and how it can be there and the person who has it not even notice. He nows says just because a student wasn't in the school or maybe wasn't injured, he doesn't judge them or "call bullshit" on their PTSD because he can understand them better, now facing his own PTSD. If a student who was shot 5 times in the face, can look at this woman and consider her a victim, I think we can as well. I can understand the other side, I find myself feeling or thinking the same sometimes.. you weren't there.. stop trying to get your five minutes of fame but I don't know how you would feel, in her situation or someone else's coming from being around something like this, so I don't know if I wouldn't be just like her if I was from that community during that time.

[@sweetassugar2076]

She is pretty

[@ariespretty1]

Her ghetto comment validate survivor Corrie Whitfields statement of how there was only 5 black children in the school and how they were subjected to racial slurs and behavior on a daily basis this is just sad prayers up to all the students and faculty and their families

[@AntiMasonic93]

She was pretty-looking in high school. Wow!

[@MM-km5zf]

i wonder how many of the students who survived follow through with their dreams after high school graduation or if they were derailed by addiction, depression, fear, anger, etc.

[@elizabethmarielunacordoba9956]

One of the survivors Austin eubanks died in 2019 due to addiction

[@mvf80]

I was living in Manhattan when 9/11 happened. That morning, I was supposed to have breakfast with a friend that morning who was an intern in an office in one of the towers. I ended up oversleeping. My brother shook me awake and turned on the news. Immediately, I thought of my friend who worked in one of the buildings that was on fire. I tried calling her and couldn’t get through. I tried calling her parents and couldn’t get through. It took 30 hours for me to find out that my close friend since 1st grade was all right and safely got out of the buildings. Do I call myself a survivor of 9/11? No! That would be a slap in the face to the people who lived through it. It would be a slap in the face to the firefighters and police who lost so many friends and coworkers. It would be a slap in the face to my friend who has had to go through years of nightmares because of what she went through. Even after she got out of the building she had to run to avoid the bodies of the people who jumped from the top floors to avoid being burned alive. She saw first hand what a fall like that does to a person. Lady you are connected to Columbine but you are not a survivor. Suck it up!

[@corianne2099]

This is no comparison. She was supposed to be in the cafeteria, but wasn't. You weren't supposed to be in the trade center you were meeting someone who worked there. Big difference

[@marikiemarie7622]

9th grade is Jr high in some areas? Weird?

[@MG-jj3pn]

❤️

[@virginia9887]

So you only hear Gun shots in the Ghetto? Smh

[@SaucyWench7]

That's what you got out of this entire testimony? ?Give me a freaking break. Go get offended with your shallow view someplace else.

[@DavieB220]

It’s not shallow it’s a ignorant stereotype

[@niketapechan876]

Btw I’m the psychotherapist 😂❤️🙌🏾

[@kingatheist7231]

You watched it on TV, and have the audacity to call yourself a survivor? Wow.

[@tylerstreacker2340]

I love how she said that homeschoolers would never learn anything. I’m not homeschooled but I have homeschooled friends and they have showed me their books and online stuff. It’s legit. I think they are smarter than me haha. I feel bad for her and her family. They are lucky that they all were not there that day. I can understand why she has PTSD and feels bad and stuff. I don’t really think that she is a survivor from it though. I mean she is but not...idk what I’m trying to say...

[@cheshirecat888]

I think she meant she didn't think she personally had the ability to effectively homeschool them. I feel the same.... I'd be rubbish at it 😂

[@clairey6407]

@@cheshirecat888 Yep, that's how I heard it too. I don't think she was bad-mouthing home-schooling, only her own ability to do it.

[@Malibustacy1982]

@@cheshirecat888 that's clearly not what she said or meant. Only someone who is homeschooled would be offended and not understand what she meant. I would never home school my child because I wouldn't have to patience to follow through with it. Doesn't mean anything negative about homeschooling at all. It's not always about you or who is homeschooled and who isn't. Get your head out of your homeschooled, too good for public school ass.

[@cheshirecat888]

@@Malibustacy1982 I'm going to assume to tagged the wrong person there....I said nothing negative about homeschooling, nothing negative about public school and wasn't offended by anything. Why would you assume I'm homeschooled 😂😂😂 especially from what I said. If you read my comment, you would see that I was pointing out that what the girl said was saying nothing negative about homeschooling. Soooo... Why so aggressive??

[@BIGGER_RED]

She said that if SHE home-schooled her kids they wouldn't have learned anything... The reason being is that she wasn't up for teaching them in the mental state that she was in

[@kelliea7451]

To all the people saying she's not a real survivor because she wasn't there, tell that to all the people who watched the towers fall live on TV. It effected ALL of us. Just like columbine. It effected the nation. Don't be willfully ignorant. Every student has a story. She is a survivor by chance. The emotional toll is still trauma.

[@ethandang212]

I have a serious question and I'm a know it's gonna come across as ignorant why would anybody who went through something like that why would you want children when it is so ingrained that this tromma is left lat. Has left a lasting indelible per impression on

[@MissHolly60]

👍👍👍👍👍👍👍💒

[@realFlanch]

So she's not really a survivor...she wasn't even in the school.

[@TheSoloAsylum]

She's not a survivor, she was not there. She knows a survivor.

[@thedarkkontroller8160]

Bro it was her school it doesnt matter if she wasnt there it was an high percent chance she could of been there and even get injured or killed bro so she is an survivor. Everyone that was going to colombine at the time is an survivor whether they were on their way or at home or at work or left early it was their school and at some point of time in a day or hours before the shooting something could of caused them to be in that school bro

[@asufootball1995]

What a joke... there’s people that are actually survivors of this tragedy and this clown has the audacity to be interviewed

[@saraschneider6781]

You suck

[@Labella_504]

Sirens=Ghetto? Yikes.

[@idontlikecops1]

This girl was messed up before the shooting

[@frederikdrescher6806]

stfu

[@BIGGER_RED]

Proof?

[@jennacasper4923]

She is not a survivor. It really is such a disgrace to people who were actually in the school and lived through it. People watched their friends and classmates get shot and die. She. Wasn't. There.

[@saraschneider6781]

You suck.

[@princeofcamelot1487]

Unremarkable story

[@judithniles2827]

How can she have PDSD? She wasn't even in school that day. How could she have survivor guilt, she wasn't even there to see people being shot and killed.

[@standup2982]

Judith, Judith, Judith...

[@desirehightower4537]

Just stupid ass fuck

[@oliviahu77]

Hi again, Judith. Back trying to invalidate the traumas of people who experienced horrible ordeals?

[@saraschneider6781]

You suck

[@earthbruja5268]

She isn't a survivor.. She wasn't even there.

[@lulu4christ]

Doesn't matter if she was or not she was a student there seeing it on the news,hearing the news about it its traumatic for anyone

[@missychelle33]

Lulu Reacts sure but actually being there is vastly different. I’m not saying she isn’t a survivor- but completely not being there for that day I’m not sure what category that falls into. I’m sure she was worried about her friends, teachers, what have you. However she wasn’t there. Those students who were all suffer from varying degrees of involvement- I guess she is just another tier.

[@RickyRandall]

missychelle33 if she did go to school after going to work would that have made her a survivor?

[@ilovesingers1975]

Earth Bruja the entire community, state, country are survivors of this horrific event. It affected my 4 year old son.....he asked me if I was afraid to go to work. He wasn’t there but it affected him

[@desirehightower4537]

Stupid ass comment

[@kalebvlogs4320]

Check him out😂

[@leahpaslawski4907]

she didnt do anything