2021 Is Already Awful

[@MrQuickshot117]

Someone is chronically ill in the United States Hospital: *Rubs hands greedily* But seriously Pax hope you get better, and everything goes well and I also hope no more hospital trips unless it's to get the testosterone shots

[@BandanaDrummer95]

Congrats on the testosterone. Also, I totally understand the fear about turning 26... as a 25 and 8 month old person FINALLY getting some of my medical issues sorted out. I've got 4 months to figure as much of this shit out before it gets more expensive

[@Vampiric_Goblin]

I feel you on the blood sugar thing I have to keep candy on me at all times to help with my chronic illness but more so I don't end up having a flare or an attack (I have Porphyria google it for those curious) 🖤🖤🖤

[@nintendoslesbiananti-pirat3922]

Dude, ulcerative colitis is hell. I'm sorry you have to deal with that Dude.

[@sketchystrawberry302]

haha my friend has type 1 diabetes and when i was younger i was jealous that she always took candy with her- but i get it now that it’s not anything to be jealous of

[@RadPaxOfficial]

yeah back in school kids got jealous I could keep snacks on me to eat in class or go to the nurse to eat snacks cause of my low blood sugar. Meanwhile I was trying not to throw up from being dizzy

[@soyboy6953]

Same here. My friend was also allowed to keep her phone on her during school.p time, something that was prohibited for the rest of us. Tons of people were jealous, and she did occasionally use it to blast music, but I’d see on occasion how shit she felt because of her diabetes.

[@rinlikesbeans7326]

I haven't even watched it yet and I completely agree lol

[@augustible9151]

Hope everything will be okay.

[@BernicePanders]

Dude. You're disabled. Get on Medicaid. And ya better start applying NOW, bcuz without a Disability lawyer it takes YEARS. But it also covers like 90% of my (non-MMJ) medical needs. Also, good vibes! 🌈💜✌🐼

[@RadPaxOfficial]

oh that's good advice! i'll look into it

[@BandanaDrummer95]

@@RadPaxOfficial Also, certain disability eligibility things change when you hit 25, so hopefully you can get your foot in the door soon enough to get things set in as the below 25 age

[@alexwallace3288]

@@RadPaxOfficial I can attest to that, without Medicaid I would have nothing. Depending on where you live like in blue states it will cover your medical transition among other things. Absolutely look into a disability lawyer. I hope your start with HRT will go smoothly and can continue to progress on that as time goes on :D

[@dengosodawg]

@@RadPaxOfficial go to the DSHS website for your state and see if you qualify. If you live with family members who work and make enough money you might not qualify (I don’t) but it’s still definitely worth a shot. You’ll need to know how much they make in a year or their monthly income but most other things about it are pretty easy. It shouldn’t take you very long. I hope you’re able to get on decent insurance by the time you turn 26. America is a shithole to put it nicely, if your chronically ill, disabled, and/or poor then it’s a lot harder, good luck dude.

[@MathAndComputers]

It's good that you have a diagnosis now. Hank Green (of vlogbrothers, Crash Course, SciShow, etc) has ulcerative colitis, and Hannah Witton had it, until she had her colon removed after a bad flare-up, and now she has a stoma, instead, so there are at least a few prominent KZbinrs out there with some advice on coping with it. Hang in there, Pax!

[@systemerror404notfound]

Congrats on starting T dude!!!!🎉🎉🎉

[@ryvenfox7728]

If your health issues are severe enough to be called a disability you can petition your parents insurance to let you stay on past 26, just have to call and see what they need for proof/what severity of issues the particular insurance counts. I found out probably too late lol I turn 26 in two weeks

[@RadPaxOfficial]

iirc that cost a ton of money to keep me on though.

[@lucitheunlucky]

I'm sorry to hear this. On the bright side, the thumbnail IS AMAZING. YOU'LL ALWAYS BE VALID AND AMAZING.

[@unknownmusic762]

stay strong

[@aktywnaminutetemu6638]

Wha- 15 minutes ago :00 I'm a 100 like >:333 Also- get better soon boi qwp

[@ccherry.berryy]

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been in so much pain but I’m glad to hear you might be getting a diagnosis that’s very good news. and also that you’ve started testosterone!! that’s v exiting

[@edgy_circles]

Congratulations on starting T! That's so exciting, and we're a here to support you :D

[@Chris_Tootoo]

Damn you are so much of a more man then I could ever be. I’m proud that your going through all of this crap and still keeping a chin up.

[@cristalat101]

As a trans person, please don't say that they were "born female". That makes people feel dysphoric dude!!

[@Chris_Tootoo]

@@cristalat101 oh crap, sorry. Edited it to take out that part, thanks for the info.

[@meh6720]

From the videos I've seen of you, you seem like a really nice and sweet dude, and I wanted to say that you deserve the happiest and most comfortable life you can get. I hope you get that in the future, and that the rest of 2021 treats you well ❤️ Oh, and congrats on starting T!

[@phantomXDopera]

I hope 2021 gets better soon for you, you definitely deserve the best❤️ Congrats for starting testosterone! I recently started being genderfluid after questioning my gender for over a year. Please take care!🌼

[@ambroseghost1351]

When I saw you upload I got so happy!! Thank you for making such amazing content

[@olived8620]

I hope you get better soon ♥️♥️♥️♥️ also congrats on starting testosterone!!

[@lalas181]

My mom and brother have Ulcerative Colitis, too! I'm glad you figured out what all was up with that, it's always nice to have that "oh, _that's_ what that is!" moment when you have no clue what's going on. Also congrats on the HRT!

[@_PrinceDionysus_]

My man has to go through so much. Good luck with all your stuff and recovery!

[@RadPaxOfficial]

thank youuu~

[@m1les_live899]

congrats on starting t! :) and ah yes i have pots too and it really really sucks

[@shreklover6932]

yeah this year fucking sucks already! feel bad for you :( my open heart operation keeps getting cancelled due Covid and the hospital not being able to cope aaaaaa I'm scared

[@nessa.m]

Were fine with you taking a break! Take all the time you need. If you need a year? We'll wait. Your health is much more important.

[@leilaniharbo6800]

awww, i hope you feel somewhat better, I hope you know we are all here for you!

[@ParkadeParade]

congrats on starting T my dude!! hope everything goes well

[@ellie8337]

I am so sorry to hear that you were back in the hospital but congrats on starting testosterone!!!!!

[@rowan-priince1860]

I'm glad you finally got a proper diagnosis, here's to hoping you'll be able to get something that helps, and the year gets better soon

[@jayfeather9348]

Congrats on T!!! My 2021 hasnt been so great either, around november - december I started getting unexplained pain and it's gotten way worse, at the point that it might either be multiple sclerosis or ehlers danlos syndrome, or some other thing

[@saltmuttz]

congrats on starting hrt!!

[@seed3540]

Good luck, man. Congratulations on starting T !! 😎👌🏻

[@nightly-ruse2925]

Hope you start feeling better and don’t have to go to the hospital so much!!

[@ace.archives]

Congrats on starting T! I hope things get better for you

[@percythetrain_13]

i hope your year gets better i could never be has strong and brave as u are just keep going

[@DavidRodriguez-uf4mq]

Sorry to hear how badly you've suffered, hopefully the testosterone can help. Best of luck to you and hopefully you get more love and support. I'm glad for the update, but if you need more time then take it. Rest well

[@pumpkin_bunniez]

Even if your body can't handle testosterone you are still valid and an amazing person so you should just be proud and happy of of how far you've gotten because so many people love you and care about you and you are valid.

[@WhimsicalBunn]

I remember back in November when I had an abdominal migraine mixed with a bad stomach virus I was admitted to the hospital for six days and it was NOT fun. The nurses were sweethearts and the best I've ever had but god was I sick. I took about a month to recover just cuz of how much liquid I lost and all that fun stuff yaaaaaaaaaaaay I am so happy you're on the T juice!!! I'm waiting a while before I start it to adjust to being trans without the chemical warfare it'll have on my body but goshhhhhh I am so excited for you. You helped me realize I was trans in the first place so I look forward to seeing your journey

[@RadPaxOfficial]

after a few months i'll do an update video and how my body is handling T~ so all my chronically ill viewers can see how it is being sick and on T. hopefully I can inspire others to start their journey too

[@kbunzzzz]

I recently gained some scary health issues the end of last year and I'm still struggling with them; although our experiences are not the same, I understand what you're going through. I hope everything improves soon!

[@stealyourheartz]

im late to the vid, so i hope everything has improved by now,,,, i had to google what pots was and realized that's not normal whoops also!!!!! super happy you started t!!! :D

[@isthataspider7410]

I'm so happy for you that you started T (and being careful about it) I wish you good health and good vibes.

[@nogadanon4108]

OMG congratulations on starting T! I really hope it goes well for you!

[@shiboumurasako8421]

I hope everything will get better! Stay strong Pax!

[@miss_daisy4925]

I've never seen you before but i hope you end up being ok

[@witchby9362]

Congratulations on starting testosterone! I'm sorry about everything going on, that sucks.

[@Foxy_Blitz]

Congrats on starting T! I hope the first few months aren’t too bad for you, even on a small dose. (.25 ml I’m guessing since I am on that starting dose too)

[@anarc0_arsonst67]

I'm really sorry for everything that's happening, my heart goes out to you. Congrats on starting T though that's big!

[@theosophicalwatermelons8181]

1: I noticed that the Lo-Fi in the background uses quintuplet swing. 2: 6:00 "Blakedown". 3: Mazel tov on starting testosterone.

[@RadPaxOfficial]

they aren't lo-fi. they're songs that youtube makes specifically to use for free haha

[@g00seness]

Hi! I missed you. I chatted with you on Twitch recently, but I had no clue this stuff was happening, I’m so sorry.

[@outpostorange9580]

Hope you feel better

[@AngieEnder]

So sorry about everything that's going on with, wish I could help in some way but I don't really have any advice so I'm just gonna like and comment because what else is there to do? Really happy for you about starting testosterone! That's a big achievement! Hope you get some help with this stuff and I really hope you only get better from this point on. I don't have any experience with any of this stuff so I basically have no idea how you're feeling, but let's hope you're feeling a lot better by 2022!

[@jackie.spice.lattee]

!!!! Yo Pax!!!! Apply for Medicaid!!!! My Mom works for them, and it sounds like you’d be eligible for it!!!! Best of luck 🥺💕✨🥰

[@azula292]

Bless you, not many people are as strong as you. We believe I you! I hope you feel better :> Medication is scary believe me I know, but you handle it like a boss! I pray to god for you, bless you and you will get out of this and we all love you! Keep going! :)

[@sho.thatsit]

Aaaaaa 2021 has been an awful year for me too, so I feel ya. Not as bad as your 2021, but still. I broke up with my boyfriend who I dated for 7 months, and I lost a close friend of mine (he didn't die or anything. He just didn't want to be around me anymore and it broke me.) Hahaha, I love 2021 /s

[@TheFactGiver]

stay strong because, I know you can get threw this

[@avthendiarie9955]

I hope things get better you are a strong person hugs

[@whoaminobodyknows2385]

Kinda late but best of luck with T!!!

[@doublecircus]

congrats on starting t!!

[@avthendiarie9955]

Hope you feel better hugs

[@Br44n5m]

Ey congrats on takin that boi juice! I hope it agrees with ya and goes well!

[@missscarlet1903]

Omg thank God I'm not the only one that dislikes 2021 and I hope you get better

[@spidev]

Congrats on starting HRT! I hope your body doesn't react badly to it ❤

[@thisurldoesnotexist]

Most people don't sub because of update videos but 2021 has been awful so I clicked and then I was like, "You're trans? I'm trans." So I subbed.

[@kylegates5547]

❤️❤️I wish you the best

[@leoproductions5014]

I hope you feel better soon but that’s easier said then done but also congratulations on starting testosterone my dude!!!! I want to say how happy I am to finding more transgender people on the internet and I’m so happy I found your channel because your incredible and your art style is beautiful and i can’t wait to see more from you

[@atti.00]

I've found liquids work so much better to get my blood sugar back up. I use juice because carbonation can be fucky with my stomach when I'm ike that.

[@AsterBeCastin]

CONGRATZ ON THE T BAYBEE,

[@Dodger1104]

I'm so sorry for everything! Luckily, (In the US) it's illegal to discriminate against gay and trans people again :>. Also, congrats for starting HRT! I hope everything goes smoothly. Stay safe.

[@ravnhaveland9594]

Good luck! You can make do it!

[@g9ir4p86]

1:49 cool

[@etibredips]

I agree, 2021 sucks I got the virus and I got a pretty not okie dokie cat scratch

[@katwood7120]

Heyyyy it's ya number one fannnn!!!!

[@bladefeather2293]

Yeah :( but take care

[@avthendiarie9955]

It sucks here pax don't lie it sucks here sorry

[@Akira_DewStar]

Rip

[@MC-tl5bf]

ur sona in this video: ⬆️↙️⤵️🔃↩⤴️↖️↪↕️↘️🔄⤵️↔️↪

[@sourdough6622]

Yo, when I got surgery on my spine, I had like- really good painkillers. Uh- that’s all- byeee

[@tripin_mel]

Hope everything gets better for you \(^o^)/

[@NekoPuddingDroid]

Finally someone agrees with me!

[@imdigruntled]

My parents said we would talk about my gender after Christmas It is now February, but after they made fun of Sam smith because they use they/them pronouns, I don’t think I want to talk to them about my gender unless they actually do the research (actually good research, instead of look at transphobic shit ya get me?) but yeah.

[@isabellasevillaaguilera9679]

It is

[@shakeymistakey3881]

Paxyyyy

[@lamplamp885]

Yo you is a kaleidoscope

[@AsterBeCastin]

Yeah, insulin sucks on god on main

[@AsterBeCastin]

There’s metformin tho

[@Someguysayingsomething]

Wow I am early

[@bwerrty]