3 MONTHS POSTPARTUM - MY BODY & EMOTIONS | Charlotte Taylor

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I end up getting quite upset in this video. I've not really spoken about how things have been since I've had Daisy. And it was quite hard to get into words. But hopefully I made some sense.
Please, as I say at the end, be sensitive about any breastfeeding and formula discussion. As I'm feeling really low about my situation. And I really don't think the judgement will help.
Lots of love as always xx
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I'm Charlotte and I am one of those mums just trying to make it all work, if you know what I mean.
I'm 27, love carbs, rubbish 90's music, Prosecco and baths without finding a bath toy stuck under my bum.
I have a little boy called Bill (born June 2012) and I am pregnant with baby number two who is due in April 2016.
I work full-time (which is bloomin' tiring sometimes). And I also blog and make these videos for fun, because I'm daft like that.
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I was a single mum, just me and Bill. But then I had a bit of a fairytale moment when I met Mark (he's a bit lovely) and things are better than I could have hoped for now. Especially now we're having a little baby of our own.
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[@katelivingit9766]

You've done the most fantastic job expressing for your daughter, she got exactly what she needed food-wise but now you both need to get the other things you need - emotionally etc. It's not even remotely selfish to stop now. Please go for it if you need to, massively cheering you on xx

[@AlexandraCaley]

Big hugs to you! I never normally comment on anything but I just had to! Your doing an amazing job, both Bill and Daisy are so lucky to have such a lovely mum like you. Do what's best for you and your family hun no one else's opinions matter let them think what they want. You've done so so well managing 3 months, I only managed a month with both of mine it's exhausting. I found it near enough impossible with my second baby, when you've got a toddler that you need to look after too it becomes a stress rather than something that makes you happy, and your happiness is important to both you and your babies! Your admired by so many, keep doing you! X

[@linseywright2494]

I'm crying watching this huni. I'm 6 weeks after having my daughter and I have an 18 month old. I was expressing for 4 weeks. I couldn't get my girl to latch on so I wanted to give her the best. You have done an amazing job. I had to stop too. I wasn't able to give anyone else my time and I was getting so stressed. I done the same as you. I felt enormous guilt having to give up but I needed to do it to give my 1st born daughter attention and be able to be out the house longer than 3 hours too. Sending you all my love huni xxx

[@tj97x]

You've gone through so much since she's been born, and that must be heartbreaking. You've pumped for 3 months.. 3 MONTHS! That's something to be proud of, its blimming hard. You've given her the best start! Hopefully you feel more yourself once you change to formula. Enjoy your babies and your family xx

[@tinafoley9494]

Aw I just want to give you a hug .. You have made all the right decisions for Daisy thus far so keep trusting your instincts about what to do .. You got this xx

[@charlottetapeworm]

Please don't feel guilty. I went through a similar thing with feeding issues and expressing and I felt so guilty. A colleague at work said to me 'charlotte my girls both went to Oxford on formula'. I bet it sounds so trivial but it was like a light bulb moment - I wasn't hurting my baby I was doing the right thing for her to have a happy mum who was struggling less xxx

[@rebeccamoss5750]

You've done a fab job so far! Do what is right for you and your family! It could be a type of post traumatic stress disorder that you have and it will be you coming to terms with the last 3 months! lots of hugs x

[@Kiki-gj9fq]

Don't you dare feel selfish, Daisy is such a lucky little baby girl to have had your milk and Bill has such an understanding heart he doesn't mind what he does to spend time with you whether it's playing on the iPad or building Lego. Remember a happy mumma means happy baby's, not only little Daisy but Bill too. If you haven't already maybe seeking some talking therapy for how your feeling about Daisy's first six weeks of life and the extreme pressure your feeling which is completely understandable. But please remember Charlotte your doing such an amazing job, I'm a recently new subscriber just before Daisy was born but your by far the most down to earth admirable woman. I watch your video because I'm hoping to become a foster carer and also a special education needs teacher so love seeing parents perspectives. But just remember your doing amazing, your beautiful, your children love you what ever you do with them.

[@charlottelouise9594]

You are doing amazing Charlotte! My little girl has just turned two months and we are exclusively expressing due to issues with her latch so I totally understand how exhausting it is! I just wanted to comment and say how amazing you are. Do not for one second feel guilty about changing over to formula..3 months of breastmilk is incredible! X

[@startleddeer100]

You are such an incredible mum, the way that Bill acts so maturely and sweetly is a testament to that and you have absolutely no reason to feel guilty! There is nothing wrong with formula and you will still raise Daisy with so much love, that won't change. What is best for you is best for Daisy right now, and medical professionals would agree. Don't let your concerns about what other people will think get you down, you know what's best for you and your family. You're doing SUCH an amazing job! And thank you for sharing your experiences, it must be hard putting yourself out there, but I love watching your videos (and now so does my fiance!), I find they are so helpful at preparing me for motherhood someday. x

[@kyms5993]

I can relate to this so much, my son was born 6 weeks premature and was tube fed. I found expressing so difficult and decided that mentally I couldn't deal with having a baby in NICU, me having to go home each night, the fact it was my first baby made it harder as I imagined this perfect birth and it just didn't happen and that was really hard to come to terms with. Then on top of all that I had a nurse in NICU make me feel so guilty about my decision but at the time it was right for me. I just stopped and found that warm baths were really the only thing that helped with the pain of boobs full of milk. Thank you for being so honest about how you are feeling, my son is now 5 and we are expecting our second baby in around 6 weeks and I'm terrified because of the birth I had with Harry. Fingers crossed things run a little more smoothly this time. Sending so much love to you and your little family ❤

[@holliejones6586]

First I just want to say, you really are amazing Charlotte!! I'm bottle feeding my 2 month old so 100% know what you are going through. You do what's best for yourself and what makes life EASIER!! YOU are the one to make the decision and only you!!! And no one should change your decision. Don't feel bad, of course you love your daughter and there's nothing wrong with feeling mentally drained. It's such hard work. It really is and my son hasn't been through all the stuff your little girl has. People don't get it. They probably never will. I simply just want to say if you ever need to talk, I'm here. Whenever you want ☺️ xx

[@LucyBishop]

You're doing amazingly!! And I so feel your pain, but seriously darling girl, you are awesome for expressing for 3 months, that's an insane achievement. I BF Connie for 4 days before I was a trembling wreck & had to "resort" to formula & it was the best decision I made. Turns out I had horrendous mastitis, hence why the feeding was so hard & painful. I was so low & lonely, it's hugely isolating & just engulfs you. You will feel a million times more yourself when you make the switch. Daisy & Bill need you strong, happy & healthy so just own your decision & start properly enjoying your children, because you so deserve to. Sending huge love mumma! XXXX

[@mrssmithx843]

daisy is one of the most beautiful babies ive ever seen. she has such an amazing smile and eyes to die for. I couldn't imagine anybody looking at her and not thinking the same. well done on your 3 months of breast feeding that is a massive achievement in itself. I breast fed for a week and decided to stop after getting mastitis due to him not feeding properly (yes you definately want to avoid getting that by the way I felt like death never felt so ill but I also had a womb infection at the same time) I cried so much when I stopped and it felt so Un natural putting a bottle in his mouth but it gave him a happier and healthier mum and that's just as if not more important than breast milk. I am 7 weeks post partum with my 3rd baby and I feel exactly like you in respect to not being able to be a mum to a newborn, mum to other children, wife, daughter, friend, ect ect all at once at the moment i find myself struggling to find any time for me amongst everything I have to do each day but I'm sure things will get easier for you and for me eventually. keep your chin up your doing brilliant xx

[@catherinephilipson7732]

Don't beat yourself up, you've done so well to supply her with your milk for 3 months! I remember expressing in special care I felt like I was never at my sons incubator, always in the 'dairy' room. My son was also fed through a tube, but it was a gastrostomy tube through his tummy. You've done so well with expressing, I lasted 9 weeks and I felt like I couldn't do it anymore. Your not a bad person at all, my son is 17 months now and he's thriving, even with his difficulties :) everything will get better! X

[@missmummylife3985]

Don't feel guilty and worry about being strong, from what I've seen you've been incredibly strong up to now. Don't see it as giving in - you do what's best for YOU and your baby! You really are amazing and an inspiration - keep going the way you are! I hope I'm as strong as you when I have my little one :) x

[@2010sheena2010]

Don't feel bad for giving up expressing if that's what you decide to do. Your a fab mum and you always do the best for your kiddies. You need to do something for yourself this time and if people want to express their opinion ignore them! No one should ever pass judgement on other peoples choices and if they do they're not worth worrying about.

[@KatiesGrazingPages]

You're incredible. I breastfed my first little boy for over a year and I'm hoping that I can do the same this time around but if I had to do what you've done then I definitely couldn't have lasted as long. I remember having to express for a week when my first was born and it was awful. I spent so much time crying because I was exhausted. You've got to do what's right for you and your family. You're so upset because of the judgement and those people just need to stop. It doesn't matter if a baby is breastfed or formula fed it only matters that baby is fed. You should be so proud of how well you've done and be so proud of what you're going to do. Get back some of your life and enjoy your mummy time. Take care sweetheart, and remember that you're amazing. xx

[@charlotteroe9886]

What a wonderful job you have done expressing for the past three months! I expressed for the end of our breastfeeding journey and it was SO much more effort! I couldn't have done it for three weeks, let alone three months. I struggled with multiple issues and stopped after three months. I was advised to go cold turkey. Although this did work and I did not get mastitis, it was one of the most painful things I have ever experienced (came close to the pain I experienced after my emergency c section- I know, that sounds ridiculous! ) So in terms of stopping, I would recommend anything but cold turkey- I am of course no expert! Thank you for sharing and I hope you start to feel better soon! xxx

[@kirstenmcilroy3564]

3 months is amazing!!! Don't you ever feel guilty! You need to do what's best for you and your family, and to hell with what everyone else says! As I said to my cousin yesterday (over weaning) if you asked 10 other mums their opinions you would probably get 10 very different replies, and it might be that none of them fit your circumstances! You are doing so amazingly, and if stopping expressing is what's needed then know that you've given Daisy a brilliant start in life and move on :) xxx

[@ellierobinson89]

Charlotte I don't know how I'd cope with all you have been through, your such a strong mama even if you don't feel like it sometimes. Do what you feel is right for your family, that will make you happy and forget the haters! Happy mama happy babies I say! All the love xx

[@gemmam714]

Don't be so hard on yourself. You have done amazing and given her the best start, somethings are more important and a happy mummy is the most important thing for Daisy. You look absolutely amazing, can you do a make up tutorial please? When you have more time obviously. X

[@caitlinmurray4757]

My son was born with a tongue tie which made feeding extremely painful so I converted to expressing after 3 days. I exclusively expressed for 8 weeks (I only ever managed to pump as much as I needed so very envious of your freezer stash!) then I introduced formula because he wasn't gaining enough weight and dropped two centiles. Between 8 and 12 weeks I started to replace his feeds one by one with formula, and my supply adjusted accordingly. In the beginning I would just get less in each pumping session then I reduced the sessions one at a time so that I had a longer time between for my boobs to fill again. Eventually I went down to pumping once a day and then stopping completely. As much as I, like you, resented expressing and all the rubbish that comes with it (sticky boobs is the main one I remember!) it still broke my heart to stop. You will always have Mum guilt but you have given her the best start and a brilliant contribution to her immune system. Keep your head up xx

[@AtHomeWithMeKellyLeigh]

Hiya, please be kind to yourself, you and your body have been through a big shock and there is no right or wrong way to how you are feeling, its kind of like a greiving process where by your coming to terms with everything thats happened, as for stopping expressing I personally think it will be a major turning point in getting back to feeling a bit like your old self I think you have done amazing to have done it up to now.xx

[@samantharowlands2609]

Please don't feel guilty about choosing formula. You can tell the love you have for both Daisy and Bill by the way you talk about them. You have done so well expressing until now, you really should be so proud. You will make the right choice for your family. Happy mum, happy baby! Lots of love xx

[@VicMooger]

You have given your daughter SO much of your breast milk for the past 3 months. You have done amazing! Its OK to stop now. She will be 100% fine on formula. Don't beat yourself up! You need to take something off your plate! Being the "best" mom, is also doing what is "best" for you, so you can be a happy mom. You have your hands full and pumping is just one thing that you can let go and everyone will be just fine :) I was only able to breastfeed my first baby for 6 weeks and then she was formula fed....she is a beautiful, healthy, thriving 5 yr old. My second child (my 2 yr old son), I was able to breastfeed and that was great, but I feel equally bonded to both of my children and both are equally healthy. I initially pumped with my son, for a month and it was HELL! Pumping is so much work!! You are doing amazing! Keep your chin up , mama and be proud of yourself at how far you've come. Love and hugs to you xoxoxo

[@VicMooger]

also, you look amazing!

[@Kate-hg6mg]

You shouldn't feel guilty! this makes me so sad to see you getting so upset, you are doing amazingly well. You are still incredibly strong!!

[@liasmummy04]

You're such an inspiration to everyone lovely!!! You've doing an amazing job as a mummy & an person. You're a lot stronger than you think honestly don't be so hard on yourself! I just wanted to give you a huge cuddle and tell you everything is going to be alright. My little girl is 6 months old now I started off expressing for her and managed for two months as I kept getting infections 😐. I managed to stop expressing for her as I slowly reduced the amount I was expressing so you just express the amount that makes you comfortable and so you're not empty if that makes sense? Then as time goes on you're milk should become less and less as you express. That worked for me though so just remember people's bodies are different. Also physically you look amazing even if you don't feel 100% just give yourself time cause you're still dealing with a lot as a lot has happened to you a family so the shocked factor is still there ( which is more than understandable). Xxx

[@emma-louisejansen1314]

You're amazing sweetheart!! Don't feel guilty and don't feel bad! You have been so so strong and it is more important for you to be happy so that you can look after your gorgeous daughter ❤️ She is so lucky to have you as her Mummy xoxo

[@korenr321]

you are so far from selfish. you have done amazing and given everything you have. no one could ask for better. please please dont beat yourself up. dont let anyone make you feel bad. it is a choice and its the one thats best for you. you are doing so well, you may not feel it but you really are xxxx

[@Courtney-zy3vv]

Don't beat yourself up if you stop breastfeeding, as long as you're happy and baby is happy then everyone else should be happy! Don't listen to what everyone else says you have done amazing so far having 2 kids with one needing extra care and then as you said trying to be a girlfriend, a daughter and sister etc you have far too much to think about you need to start thinking about yourself and taking care of yourself mentally especially as you don't want daisy and bill to grow up with a stressed/unhappy mum! Please start thinking about yourself you shouldn't feel selfish if your body/mind is telling you to stop/slow down then you listen to it because it's telling you for a reason! Am so proud of you, you're such an inspiration watching you through these past few months, you are someone to look up to whenever I become a mum for sure.... Take care and Lots of love xxxx

[@lauraknowles1004]

I can't believe you've lasted so long! I wish someone had told me to stop. I managed 10 days and couldn't do it. I felt like I had been feeding continually for 10 days with no sleep. I was exhausted and wanted to stop but the guilt was awful. Once I finally gave her formula (husband did whilst I slept) the relief was amazing. I hate to see mums made to feel bad for stopping breastfeeding. I really admire people who can continue because it's hard. Don't put yourself through this anymore. You've done your best. Don't feel guilty. I think you're making the right decision and I'm sure your family and friends will agree. Good Luck x

[@Aussiemumm]

Well done for making it this far! I went through the exact same thing with my son, I was feeding, pumping, feeding, pumping. I had to give up in the end because it was so hard. I know exactly how you feel! Thinking of you, I know it's a tough decision to make, but you'll feel so much more free

[@Loopylulu81]

Awwwww Charlotte.........I feel for you.......my baby girl couldn't have my breast milk because of my medication, and I wanted to breast feed so I understand. It's not about you being strong or not, it's about what works for all of you & if that's formula then that's ok. You give her everything. She will not notice! Your doing great! Much love xxx

[@ChrissyJohansen]

You are doing so well mumma. My girl went over to intensive care and I had a hard time with some complications after having her, my milk supply didnt come in well at all I could barely pump an ounce a session after 3 weeks. I had to try feed her and pump after every feeding as she didnt feed properly due to her issues but she needed more than she could drink on her own (A bit like Daisy I guess) I was really tough on myself as my whole pregnancy I'd sworn I wouldnt give up on making breast feeding work but what you dont imagine when you think of pumping unless youve previously done it is that you arent just pumping you are having to sterilize the whole thing, store everything away and the process is SO much longer than I'd imaged, especially two or three times a night. You kept up longer than I did, it broke me as a mum in the beginning, when she completely out grew my supply I had to face reality. It took alot to get my confidence back up aftwards. I dont think you see how well you're doing as a mum.

[@hottrampilyso]

I lasted 3 weeks! You've done wonderfully. The best thing you can give to your kids is a happy mummy. Please don't beat yourself up xx

[@jaydescott8737]

Charlotte - I know this video is from 2016 but I just want to say that I wish I could go back in time and give you a huge cuddle, or even just give you a huge cuddle now! You are a wonderful Mum, I can see and feel the love you have for your kids through your videos. YOU ARE AMAZING! I'm 37 weeks pregnant with my first baby, I hope I am an amazing Mum like you are xxx

[@alicekelly6558]

You have done fantastically expressing for three months! If the change to formula lets you feel more like yourself and get more sleep you will enjoy your little family more! Don't feel guilty. I had to stop bf my daughter due to her being lactose intolerant and now feel guilty that I'm managing to feed my son longer- but that's nothing compared to how you must feel. X

[@mrso8276]

You've done so so well breastfeeding daisy, she's beautiful and is thriving. I'm a big believer in happy mum is happy baby and you know she would want you to feel better more then anything. I only managed to breast feed my daughter for a few weeks and it was the most horrendous experience stopping as I felt like I'd failed so I know some the emotions your going through but she is also thriving. You need to do what's right for your family and try not to worry about others opinions. You are such a strong woman who has been through some awful things but wow how proud will your son and daughter be of you in the future for what you've done. Take time and go with your gut xxx

[@squirrelchicklet]

Aw Charlotte, I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a big hug. Re. Breastfeeding you need to do what is best for you, your own sanity and wellbeing. You do not need to explain your choices to anyone- the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter don't mind. X

[@alisescarberry7891]

And also if you do decide to switch to formula, my goodness mama get a Baby Breeza Formula Pro!! They are pricy but worth every penny. Especially those middle of the night feedings. No worries about measuring or water temperature. Such an amazing product. One of my definite mommy must haves for formula feeding.

[@katie_ellison]

You've done amazingly well lovely and you should be incredibly proud of yourself. Please don't feel guilty. I haven't had all the emotions, worries and fears you have with our baby boy and I've not started even thinking about myself or exercise yet. I had these plans to do these post partum videos and I've not even started to try and lose weight yet. Be kind to yourself. You look amazing and are amazing on the inside which is the most important thing by far. Xx

[@abigailo1000]

Oh love, I know 100% how you feel. I bf Theo until he was 18 months and so desperately wanted to again this time too. But as you know that didn't work for us either! I know how hard all the expressing and ng tube feeding is, and splitting your time between two children. I gave myself a goal of three months of expressing for Rohan, and we managed until about four months because of a supply we had frozen. But believe me I felt the same guilt and worry but (and I wouldn't say this lightly) if you feel ready to stop, then stop. It was honestly such a relief when I did. My supply had gone down anyway because I was finding it harder and harder to find time to do it and I just thought that actually things would be a lot better for us all if I wasn't. I know Rohan had the best start of four months of breast milk (and a little catch up formula) and for that I was happy. But honestly it was such a weight lifted and a relief to stop and we felt so much freer. You are doing an amazing job! Xxx

[@oliviaorellana7247]

do what is best for you! enjoy your baby, and give yourself some slack, you've done amazing

[@trudie_x]

Daisy is beautiful. You are amazing. Nobody can say any different. Make decisions for yourself and your family, don't worry what anyone else will think. xx

[@skeleanna4890]

You have nothing to be ashamed of, darling! As my best friend says to me, a fed baby is what matters.

[@choppaa89]

Awwwww sweeeetie :( I just cried along with you! You are only human, although your a supermum and you are such a strong inspirational woman, and you should never be made to feel bad by doing what's best for yourself aswel, I'm breastfeeding my 7 month old and breastfeeding not only comes with an amazing feeling it also comes with a lot of stress and hormones flying all over the place. Please, do what's best for you, Daisy will love you no matter what xxxxxx

[@daisyrobinson3465]

You are far far from selfish. You have done an amazing job!! Like u say your circumstances are so much different this time round. What advice would you give someone else in the same situation? Happy Moma = happy baby. I'm due in November and I'm too hoping to breastfeed however who knows how I will get on. Boob or bottle who cares. The most important thing is a healthy and happy baby and Moma. Xoxox

[@natsyp]

Charlotte you are anything but selfish! You are an amazing mummy, you've given her the best start in life & she will continue to thrive either way! Xxx

[@Emmag265]

I’m so behind watching this but my heart breaks seeing you struggling so much at that time and I have to say you were amazing through this 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@CharlotteLouiseTaylor]

Bless you Emma. Your comment made me look back on it and gosh, how far we have come! Thanks for such a lovely comment. xx

[@Emmag265]

Charlotte Louise Taylor 🥰🥰🥰

[@Workandplaynails]

It's a true thing to be relentless on your achievements, I hope you see this. Xx

[@alittlebitofme]

I've got a 3 yr old and a 4 month old that I'm breastfeeding (without issue) but I still debate EVERY day whether to stop bf or not. I'm only still doing it because I'm still so engorged (I have major oversupply!) that I'm fearful of developing mastitis. Please don't beat yourself up over it. All that matters is that you are feeding your child. End of. You look great btw! Xxx

[@4littletaylors556]

If anyone could dislike or hate on this then they have serious problems .. You have done amazing with daisy im so jealous as the most I ever breastfed for was 3 weeks 😢😢 keep going girlie with what whatever is best for you and your family. Daisy needs a happy content mummy and if that means changing to formula then do it.. You do not have to answer to anybody she is your baby and its a choice nothing wrong with formula at all ! X

[@HopelessromanticSD]

I ended up staying in the hospital a while after my daughter was born and in that time I discovered that I couldn't breastfeed, I tried expressing but I just was not producing enough. It was a really hard thing to hear and I had to make the decision to bottle feed her which I will admit broke my heart, but since doing that her health has drastically improved and she is a much happier baby. I feel that although we are given a choice we're not if that makes sense I think there is a very biased opinion on how we feed our babies which is completely wrong

[@Tammay09]

You are far from selfish. I honestly applaud you for expressing for so long despite going through everything you have. Breastfeeding is hard when you have two children, let alone pumping, tube feeding, sterilising etc on top of looking after your special little lady. I hate that society/people make mothers feel this way for choosing to swap or even choosing not to at all. A fed baby is best. breast, formula, bottles, tubes.. it doesn't matter at all. You have done amazingly to come this far but you need to think about yourself too. Like you say, you need to live too. It is hard, but you've fed her for three whole months and that is a huge achievement. Give yourself a massive pat on the back lovely. I would never ever comment on how you feed your child, no matter what your situation and definitely not in the circumstances you've been through. a happy mum is a happy baby. xxxxxxxx

[@Princesspops4588]

I definitely want to know about your story as it will help me with when i stop

[@NicolaLifeThroughMyEyes]

Charlotte you have done something so amazing for 3 months. I have no idea how you managed to pump, tube feed, look after both kiddos and other things on top. If you feel like it's too much and it's effecting you then stop. For you and Daisy!!! She needs a happy mummy too. Like you say you still have plenty of milk for her and she will do just as amazingly on formula. Do what's best for you and your family sweetie Xxx

[@alisescarberry7891]

I don't ever comment. But I read these beautiful comments and I hope you do to. From one mom to another, stopping breast feeding or pumping was the hardest thing ever. You remind me of myself when I was going thru my time. You don't feel like you, and it is such an emotional decision. I cried and cried and cried about it. You have to do what is rite for you. Just the fact that you are so upset and emotional over this decision just shows how much or a good mother you are. But you can't be the best if you don't feel your best. I'm not anyone to say, but if I were in your position I would stop. And I think if you were to watch a women and follow her pregnancy and life then see them so upset and struggling you would say stop to. My daughter is currently being formula feed, she is so healthy and chunky and beautiful!!! And she is getting all the nutrition and everything she needs from formula. Be happy and do what's rite for you and in your heart. She will be ok either way.

[@newzealand3822]

Way to go on expressing milk for three months! I did it three hourly for barely three weeks for my prem boy and by the end wanted to throw my pump out the window! The stress was awful. Don't feel bad about wanting to stop. You'll end up spending more time with your kids and be less stressed. I get it, I do. I'm battling with low supply with my three month old. Lots of love xx

[@Hannahcroft1984]

You are doing such a good job, Bill and Daisy are so lucky to have such a committed mummy. Have you thought about looking into any breastfeeding support to help you through this next bit? La leche league are an international organisation, who support women to meet their personal breastfeeding goals whatever they may be, you could speak to a BF counsellor about where to go from here. Whatever you decide will be the right decision for you and Daisy X

[@steph1490]

You have done amazing breastfeeding . My daughter is 3 months on the 27th and I also have a 4 year old and I'm breastfeeding and I feel like I have 0 time and I'm really struggling so I can't imagine how you feel but don't be sad do what's right for your family . You look amazing . *big hug*

[@isabelhomeandfamily9155]

You've given your baby the best start in life and that is what counts. Only you know when the time is right to move on. Only respect from me :) Also I think you look great, hope my tum will look that good in 3 months time!

[@sarahdeans8211]

You have done amazing well. I have no idea how u have done so well by just expressing. I have a little boy same age as bill ( month younger) and a baby boy ( 2 months older than daisy) and I expressed for two weeks then stopped as it made me mad I actually felt mad that I couldn't bf ( he had tongue tie really bad was snipped but he just wouldn't latch no matter who helped me) I was sad that it took time away from sitting and enjoying my children/husband. I was sat there expressing thinking of all the things I knew I had to do while just sat there expressing and as u say then sterilising etc. In a blog before u have a very impressive stock going on which will last her quite awhile. As u know happy mummy happy baby life is tough we are our own worse critic. However I just want to say just sit bk Mrs think of how u would feel if u was a friend looking in on ur life on how u have coped with everything that has been thrown at u. Praise urself u are amazing !!!!!

[@ElleSteer]

It's such a hard decision and you are bound to feel guilty, I think we all do but if you can accept the guilt and do what is right for you and for your family to make it work you know you will be doing your best. Guilt means you care, expressing for 3 months and forgoing sleep means you care and stopping to ensure you are there for your family also means you care. I found having two hard in that respects too. No one can make the decision for you of course but know I had the same feelings when I stopped breastfeeding my littlest at 6 months and my eldest at 6 weeks. I think it's part and parcel of this lovely mummy guilt we get handed when we get handed out beautiful babies. Be kind to yourself, you're doing great xx

[@Gem-wi1cy]

You are a wonderful mummy! The fact you are so upset and feeling guilty about it proves that you want the best for her. My little girl is 1 month and we have had s really tough time BF with a severe tongue- tie/ silent reflux and colic and wanted to feed constantly. She also isn't putting on weight so had to start supplementing with formula. For 2 weeks I have battled with what is best for her. & in tears constantlyThe guilt of not BF seemed to outweigh everything. Yesterday tho we had our 1st day of almost total FF & I actually felt so much calmer, more rested and importantly so did she. Happy mummy = happy baby, if that means switching to formula so be it. FED is best. I now plan to keep up BF 1st thing & bedtime. Maybe some form of combination feeding might work for you? I've reduced by one or two feeds a day - but I've never really had any problems with solid boobs! Whatever you choose to do will be the right decision for you and your family, it's nobody else's business.

[@HayleeLouise]

I'm really late watching this but my god you're amazing, please don't feel guilty xxx

[@lward4798]

Stop using the phrase giving up. You're not giving up you've just come to the end of your breastfeeding journey. And you are strong, there's so much strength in knowing your own limits, in knowing what's right for you and for your mental health even if it's different to what you would like to do in an ideal world. Knowing your limits and making sure that you are as happy as you can be at this point will make you a better mother and a better partner, you have to look after yourself to be able to look after others. xx

[@charlottehall7988]

Do what makes you happy darling xx your not good to your family when you're feeling shit! Do what you have to do for your own sanity and your family! Also I was wondering, when you express do you get the same contractions in your stomach muscles like you do when the baby is feeding from breast? X

[@kathleenkoegelenberg8612]

You should never feel guilty about stopping bf. Your children would much rather have a happy mum. You're doing wonderfully. When they get to 18 no one will care or know that you fed them differently! The most important thing at the moment is YOU as they both depend on you so much. 😘

[@margiebaby45]

give yourself a break honey. you really need to stop expressing, it is dragging you down. you have given daisy the best start in life by doing it for three months. formula milk these days is fine. you're an amazing mum and you need to start thinking more of yourself because if you're not happy then your beautiful baby will pick up on it. you're not wonder woman and no one expects you to be. you are a beautiful person inside and out and don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. keep your chin up honey and burst that bubble.xxx

[@rachaelwork]

Hunny, you aren't being selfish AT ALL!!! You were able to breast feed Bill under entirely different circumstances. You have to consider yourself and you need to be the best mum you can to Daisy and you cant do that when you're stressed out and putting yourself under undue pressure. Like so many people have said, Daisy will be totally fine on formula. She's got 3 months worth of milk at the most vital time of her life as a newborn. You are doing so amazingly well. Give yourself a break. When Daisy watches these back when she's older im sure she will be glad that you made the decision to do what is right for both of you :) xxx

[@salo81]

Aww, you do so amazing. I am so so pro breastfeeding, I breastfed all 3 of my children between 14 and 24 months. But Charlotte, you should quit. I didn´t manage that long expressing. That whould have used me up too (I hope thats proper english, I'm from Germany). You look great, you have such a pretty face, no wonder that Daisy is so cute. Greetings from Germany, Salo

[@amylewis4861]

You look fab :) x

[@nashie1990]

Amazing woman

[@libby4559]

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