3. S A D ⁄⁄ CatCreature

[@NarlyNarwhale]

I remember watching all of these December dailies last year- they really got me through some hard times at the end of my first semester of college. I'm honestly struggling even more now, but I'm so grateful that I get to watch these wonderful little videos... they really make my day. Thank you Annabelle

[@NarlyNarwhale]

Lisa Haberly thank you so much :)

[@artzyfartzy4926]

Amelia J I’m just ending my first sem of college and it has been a struggle too. But you know what, we made it, we did it. We’ve gotten this far.👍🏼💖

[@NarlyNarwhale]

Artzy Fartzy i’m so proud of us!! good luck in your next semester!

[@beautifuledie]

People rush to offer advice or solutions with good intent but they really do that because it uncomfortable to hold space just to witness someone you care about going through a hard moment. It can be frustrating for sure, when you just want someone to hear you and validate where you are and just let that be. On another note I thought it was so interesting about how most people it seems hate gloomy overcast weather but that’s when I’m the happiest hahaha. Too much sun actually makes me feel depressed!

[@kris7893]

hello! i usually don't comment but your feelings are so valid and perfectionism or disappointment is sooo relateable. i'm also trying to be more present moving though a nebulous gap year while waiting on grad school decisions. take care of yourself in the ways that you can, give yourself space to feel the entire range of emotions, thanks for earnestly sharing your thoughts with us!

[@tabbeyah5351]

Totall agree! Feel the same way

[@johannavansichem6536]

hi just wanted to let you know that you’re not the only one going through kind of a vague gap year while trying to decide what you want to do next :) lots of love and please don’t be so hard on yourself

[@juliaouyang2149]

omg i really needed that talk about disappointment

[@Thisworldisagoner]

Just finished my masters this year and I am unemployed, living with my parents and eating off my dad's pension. I topped the class, passed the National Eligibility Test, which happens here in India, so I can apply to be a lecturer in any college I want. But I am here, taking a break and just letting myself be somewhere I really am learning to not care about society and the expectations they have from me, which turn into me forcing myself to do things to make others shut up. I am learning in this time that its okay to be unsure about the future, to be unemployed yet be hopeful that you can have a great job if I just try hard, and that a job won't define me. Yes. Believing that gets hard sometimes when all your friends have internships and jobs or are freelancing. But I am just seeing more of what I want as everyday I learn to accept myself.

[@koushikinath6182]

All the best for ur future!! I am in my 3rd yr of college in India and fear unemployment a lot. Best of luck!

[@Thisworldisagoner]

@@koushikinath6182 best of luck to you too!! Its hard but lets work hard and make a good life for ourselves :)

[@na_ladyliz5055]

Hope you are doing well now, and got employment 🙂

[@Thisworldisagoner]

@@na_ladyliz5055 I haven't yet. But I am working for a PhD now 😅😅😅

[@aradhyanegi4897]

@@Thisworldisagoner hi I am in 12grade and I study pcm but I am thinking about studying eng honors in university. I am really afraid of being unemployed. Should I study eng honors(I am really interested in) or should I do btech. Plz give me some advice I am really confused.

[@joannah7133]

I was literally just thinking about you and then when i refreshed my youtube, this vid popped out and the timing couldn’t be more perfect.

[@hollyblack1034]

I suffer from seasonal depression bc I have bipolar disorder, and girl I feel you. You are an adorable, inspiring and beautiful human being, keep going ! You are allowed to be sad, to feel down, to slow down. Keep in mind all the precious things you have, I mean your family, friends and bf, your cats... And remember everything is temporary. You'll get through this ❤️

[@beachhouse1927]

the cinematography of the opening! amazing.

[@randomtrucks]

I'm so fascinated by your cats they are .. their own characters. They convey so much emotion and narrative the way they stare at you while you dance like "what is this weird human doing again?"

[@moonjellymae]

I love that even with seasonal depression, we can all try and see/feel joy with the little things. Life is full of rough patches but the fact that we can try and make the patch softer by putting a band-aid on it, or sanding it to be smooth (idk metaphors man), we can take the things that we enjoy doing and it helps, a lot. Thank you for making these

[@marievanderlinden6789]

that talk about disappointment actually really helped, thank you! i've been feeling very overwhelmed lately, but i always try to remember: this feeling is temporary, everything will be okay, it always eventually is.

[@mintcoffeeart825]

As an art student who graduated from art highschool and about to attend an art college, I completely understand and relate to everything you've spoken about. It's really hard but it's a learning process and there is always going to be work you're unhappy with but after many mistrials, it's all worth it in the end. I have many works I'm disappointed in but I know that I can be better next time, we all have our off days and that's completely okay. I hope you feel better soon and you're doing great, I love your videos and appreciate all the work you put into them.

[@laraamaee]

At the start you really spoke to my heart; I've been feeling so disappointed in myself recently so your words are what I needed to hear :') Thank you for your effort in making these videos every day !

[@Lilhippienerd]

I totally get you with this weather dragging the energy down. I’ve had no energy to do anything except nap. But you’ve got this and you are so loved. Your videos are so beautiful and inspiring. Thank you for sharing your world with us

[@sammyoneill7229]

i love how im legit having a mental breakdown and Annabelle uploads a video with the title S A D

[@水仙子-c4e]

These days I feel down too and I just need somebody who cares me enough to just be there and listen. I appreciate the try of help but somethings don't have to be okay all the time. Thanks for sharing your honest feelings, hearing that I'm not alone really helps me.

[@earthsfur]

I've been trying to rush & I've been thinking abt my future too much & stressing myself out. My friend reminded me, that everybody's different & that I don't have to reach my goals at the same time as everyone else. I don't have to set those standards on myself. If I rush myself & stress myself out, when I reach my goal I will just be tired. If I go at my own pace I'll be much more satisfied & happy for myself when I reach my goal. MYSELF not for others.

[@mariasalem2971]

This lol I actually needed someone to tell me this rn so I'm glad I saw your comment and your friends reminder to you. Thanks for passing it on hah :D

[@earthsfur]

@@mariasalem2971 I'm glad it helped someone else ❤❤ it's a very important reminder

[@dinidii6077]

I love the way Prairie and Bambi amazed by your dance. Thank you Annabelle for being you❤️

[@Rachswift222]

This is amazing. You really summed up what it feels like to be a creative student and person. I’m a graphic design major and I just feel soooo beaten down and burnt out all the time. Thank you for your thoughts, it makes me feel less crazy and less alone

[@ccadburys]

as a marine biologist, with a masters in ecology and environmental management i did my master thesis about the environmental hazards of plastics in marine environments, i can tell you (because i didn't knew it either) that there IS NOT sutch thing as "biodegradeble plastic" thats only "big" plastics that can break easyer and became microplastic faster than others. the plastic only turns smaller, they dont desaper ou compost.. sorry about all of that talk but is import to me that pleople that want to change their habits know the science for they own protection. Nice to see you better! university is hard so dont be hard on your self

[@noora4976]

oh my god i'm so glad you started uploading videos like these frequently- i've missed you so much as i took a break and you've grown a lot 🥺💖 i love your new hair and bambi's is so much more grown up! i love you so much, when i can i'll definitely support your shop! I hope you can get over the hardships you face- you're so inspiring to me and seeing you overcome it all makes me feel so comforted, please have an amazing weekend ✨

[@ijennamirabelosuji]

Noor A like you put down my exact thoughts

[@Minaainthere]

I would like to just say how much I appreciate not just you but your hard work on these videos. The videos you make are so beautifully shot and edited. Like the professional level of your videography is just so amazing and fantastic. The beginning of this video literally made me feel like I clicked on a short film. And your travel vlogs are so stunning. They feel so personal yet theatrical and immersive. I feel so honored that you allow us to take a look at your life. Thank you so much.

[@Universelovex]

I believe people like you, who are artists at heart and study/make a living of it, have the hardest work. The pressure of making something perfect is really heavy on you. And I think it's really important that you acknowledge the fact that you can be disappointed with your work, but not yourself or your art as a whole. And yeah, gloomy weather is always putting me down too. Its really cold and gloomy in my country too and I just want snow already :c hope you're having a great day!

[@kxthe]

Every video of urs is like a little movie. The way u film ur day is so beautiful and cinematic I could actually cry. Thank u so much for putting so much effort into this!

[@alysonskaterartist]

I think this video is so meaningful to me. I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety a few years back and this video makes me feel that i can be this way and it's ok to feel that way. So, thank you for making this. I hope you're having a wonderful day.

[@boredwithdeja1331]

It feels good to know there are other art majors feeling like this

[@Katinsky_Kat]

Thank you for being honest and bringing the topic of disappointment and stress of not being perfect in everything up. That is what I really needed to hear.

[@e.w8335]

Such relatable words Annabelle. I’ve been working on a write up for online,about the work I do....and I’ve been avoiding it lately.Every time I turn on my laptop,I keep thinking “I’ve got to write the whole essay”...but I don’t. Doing 20 minutes is okay. Doing 10 minutes is okay. It’s nice to hear someone else realize the same thoughts sorta..

[@LauraDuhLlama]

The bit at the beginning where you talk about reaching out to others really hit home! I've been having a tough time recently but haven't been sharing how I feel with family/friends because when I do they tend to give me advice/comforting words and I'm left just having to say thank you and that I will try it - and I do, but I ultimately just need time, but it's a harsh reality for people who love you to accept that you will be hurt for some time and that they can only do so much to help. It kind of feels like I have one 'please help me' token per person in my life, and because of this I try to 'save' my tokens up for when things are really bad. Like you said 'you want them to feel rewarded for helping you' - so we end up not sharing our feelings again so they feel comforted by being able to help. Anyway, I really hope you are looking after yourself, and thank you for sharing your feelings with us and being so vulnerable. Lots of love X

[@juliabrunsart9344]

crying watching this. thank u for making this. I've never been lower than I am right now. I needed to watch this.

[@nekoatsu8203]

Lately I've been feeling a lot of anxiety about the uncertainty of my postgrad plans, especially about leaving all my current friends behind when I move to another country at the end of next year. Your determination to stay present & thankful are so inspiring to deal with such a valid/relatable problem. Thank you so much for being honest, even when things stay difficult and unresolved sometimes. I leave your videos feeling encouraged to focus on the more important things in life. Sending only love 💛

[@Bamgeutcutiepie]

I just found this channel. this is the best video i have ever seen. So real and raw. I loved you dancing like no one's watching! you remind me of home for some reason. :)

[@luther00781]

This really resonated with me Annabelle. I can see in your eyes the disappointment and yet at the same time the passion you have for your art. I know what that feels like, and it’s truly brave of you to show that so rawly. I’m an art student as well in illustration, and even though I’m not interested in textile, I am really inspired by you, your work, your personality, aesthetic, etc. I see how you illustrate in your videos and artwork. Ive been following you for over a year now, and I’ve never commented on KZbin before. But as I was crying while watching this video in the midst of my own finals week at ArtCenter, I couldn’t help but feel that God put you and your videos in my life for a reason, and I’m thankful for that. Thank you Annabelle for being you.

[@usertams]

i honestly felt the worries that you were telling us during the first half of the video and i could really relate to it, especially when it comes to disappointment, thinking about the future and etc. next year, my contract from my first job will be done and i hv to think of a next step, i don’t hv a concrete plan yet but i do want to do masters but since my first job didn’t pay that much, i hv to get a job still so that i could sustain myself cos i don’t want to depend on my parents that much anymore and with just that, it rly bothers me a lot, worrying what to do next really made me exceptionally down but just like you said, a friend of mine also told me that it’s okay to enjoy and live the present time. tbh, i’ve been rly happy lately and i want to live that bc there’s no point of the future if we keep worrying about it. so, i totally get it. and with disappointments, your feelings are valid, it’s fine to not feel okay at all, grieving about some things, feeling melancholic about other things - those are real. just take your time, pace yourself well. all the negative things that happen around us are only temporary and there’s a much bigger picture right in front of us and i’m sure that it’s worth it :) i also want to thank you for being so transparent nowadays, sharing your thoughts about life, about sustainability, about vegetarianism and the like. i rly love watching your december daily videos, listening to you talk about life in general really soothes me so despite your busy schedule, i’m rly grateful that you take your time to film and edit. i hope that you are taking yourself well, please know that as your viewers, we are your friends too! so, i hope that you get to read this little message of mine. god bless with everything, annabelle! i’ll continue to root for you 🌸💫⭐️

[@lauraceli]

I really appreciate you sharing your struggles in your last year of college. I started watching your videos when I started college and I'm also now in my last year. As I'm catching up on your videos it's been comforting to see that I'm not the only one who's going through these struggles and disappointments with my own work. Your talks about how you're getting through it are really encouraging. Thanks for sharing! Also I'm the opposite in that I prefer actual lemons over lemon flavored things!

[@marmalademol]

I don’t know how to express my feelings, but I feel compelled to try and tell you how important these videos are to me. As soon as you started speaking, they way you talked about wanting to talk to people but not wanting to burden them or make them feel they have to “fix” your problems, I felt so much relief somehow that someone else can feel and perfectly describe the way I am feeling. You are the most authentic, articulate, and healing person, just being able to accept and talk about the way you feel and learning to live with discomfort or sadness, you are wise so far beyond your years and I really appreciate all that you do for your viewers- perhaps you don’t realise the impact you have!

[@marianacarvalho8884]

Your chat about disappointment and school struggles is exactly what I needed to hear! Sometimes, it helps to put things in perspective when you hear your thoughts spoken and shared by someone else. I completely agree with you! And I think my last year of university has been so stressful and the worst year for me in terms of mental health and stress because I put so much pressure on myself because it's my third year, and I should have everything figured out, I shouldn't be slacking or procrastinating, my essays should be amazing because I've been here for 3 years. But like you said, it's okay to be disappointed. We're not machines and it's impossible to create work constantly at a level which is deemed perfect because there are so many factors that play into everything! Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, and thank you for these videos, they always make my day. Take care and have a lovely weekend!! 💙

[@maddie4190]

When you think you have to top your last works and make the new ones better, just think of us and about how many people on here and in your life admire you. You do a gorgeous job on your videos. Each one is a real experience to get to watch. I always have to sit down and watch it: theyre too worth watching to not sit down. Keep your head up 🧤🧦🧣

[@soumyavats3848]

Hey Annabelle! Thanks for making these videos. The regular uploads must be super hectic and time-consuming with your busy schedule and I hope you know they're much appreciated. Seeing you talk about SAD made gave me validation for my own similar state of mind. I'm a final-year uni student too and the ongoing exams are gruelling. Videos like this make me feel understood and less like I'm confined. Lots of love!

[@jupitired777]

that talk about disappointment really hit home. unconsciously I try to one up my essays or stories at uni and sometimes people will go "but it's good" and I'm grateful but it makes me feel bad for feeling that way. The thing is it doesn't change how one feels at the end of day. you are not your work. I feel like, as artists, our work is so fundamentally connected to us but sometimes you just need to let go. easier said than done unfortunately. but thank you so much for sharing.

[@madelinemarkley4848]

as a fellow art-school kid, I can completely relate to your comments about your work. I agree that it's very liberating to be ok with disappointment and to realize that every project doesn't need to be a masterpiece. It's very difficult to separate our work from ourselves because we are often "known" for the kind of work that we produce. They seem so integrated yet are definitely separate things! Remembering that will allow us to understand that disappointment in our work doesn't correlate to disappointment in ourselves. We are so much more than that! :)

[@apple.cheeks]

Honestly, sometimes it's hard to differentiate yourself from your work. I struggle with this a lot as well! When my work is received positively, I feel good. When it's not, I feel like there is something wrong with me even though I know it's not. The part where you were talking about maybe you have to be disappointed in your work for it to improve, that really hit me. Sometimes you need to fall to improve and get better, but if you're stuck in that mindset all the time it really is mentally draining. I think there should be a good balance for it to work well. Sending you lots of love, take care of yourself!

[@thecat_iswatching]

Girl as a fellow creative field person, don't ever apologise for feeling things too deeply. If you're tired, sad, angry, feel it. You're a human being and you are sensitive to your surroundings including the weather, you deserve to have a reaction and acknowledge it. And as a creative soul you need to see your bad work and feel bad about it. People also tell me things like 'no it's good don't tell yourself otherwise' but frankly it's me acknowledging that I can do better, I'm capable, but I'm also capable to do bad work because I'm capable to do better. :) Feel deeply but also pick yourself up when you're ready.

[@yagurlsai988]

someone once told me that your best isn’t going to be the same everyday. i ain’t perfect but I try to remember that esp when I get disappointed.

[@belle2716]

Sai T thank you for this I really need to hear that right now

[@KeepingUpWithFizahK]

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing

[@bethiekart4317]

im currently a freshman in an art college, and this video genuinely spoke to me on a level that i didnt think a video could understand. i am constantly disappointed in my work, and with finals rolling around i feel as though it is so important for me to understand that theres is something to be proud of in getting the work done. thank you!!! thank you

[@DabDiichLiieb]

The dancing part put a big smile on my face. Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable, I‘m sure I‘m not the only one whose day you‘re making a little brighter by just being who you are🥰

[@PaulEcosse]

Oh my dear you are not responsible for anyone but yourself... and your cats. But you are allowed to feel that way too, if it helps you to be motivated, which is all anyone wants for you. No-one is going to be disappointed if you are not motivated, they will care for sure, but only that you come out the other end as happy as you hope to be. People want you to be happy but not force you to be be happy, to see you happy is a bonus point for us all.

[@katchen50]

Thank you for your vulnerability. It’s lovely to witness authentic expression in any form. It’s an icky feeling to be disappointed in your work - I had a depressed day with tears when I gave a presentation that I felt meh about, which still happened despite having the opposite happen only weeks before. I think of these low points as contrast in the great tapestry of life, and try to gracefully ride the waves much like you’re doing. I’ve been joyful this week. I’ve been bonding with colleagues and growing more passionate about my work each day. It’s been raining a lot, which I’m grateful for. Snuggling with my cats and sleeping feels the best this time of year with this type of weather.

[@ainasuna]

I'm having a tough week as well and seeing you talk about how you want to feel these feelings of disappointment made me feel a lot better. You're completely right, feelings other than happiness are often looked down upon and we often push others to be happy when they aren't. I completely understand what you mean by wanting to feel these feelings, I think it's better to feel them out/ride them out than just suppressing them and acting as if they don't exist. Thank you so much for being vulnerable to put yourself out in the media especially on hard days. Thank you for keeping me company on days where I don't necessarily feel the best. I hope you're completely recovered in the next video, can't wait for the next one.

[@sherrawed9050]

i have just started university and your videos help me so much with relaxing.. and also motivation! seeing you being so real was so relatable.. thank you Annabelle, i hope next days will bring you some calm and festive atmosphere ♥

[@jenk8385]

I am so glad I found your channel. I am going through this right now. I isolate myself a lot, and I've been trying to work on it. I realized I orient myself around how others will feel, and I never focus on my own feelings. Watching this video really helped me accept that I matter too. I can be dissapointed with the stuff I create, but I still created. thank you.

[@DA-jj6lz]

Thank you so much for sharing your feelings and what you're going through right now. It makes me feel heard and as if I'm not the only one going through the same kind of feelings. Please keep doing what you're doing, it honestly is so refreshing for me to watch your videos in the quiet times♡♡

[@Sewingstars]

SAD is real and it hard! I actually have SAD in the summer with the heat and the sunshine due to trauma I associate the weather with so I feel you! take the time you need! I hear from my friends in Seattle that a happy lamp helps a lot, and just think about how your season will come soon, that is how I deal with summer lol. I know my gloomy skies and little sunlight will come, and I hope your sunny skies come soon for you too!

[@joanamarcal502]

Dear Annabelle, I hope you are doing better today! I am a music student and i was going through a phase of desmotivation, where i just didn’t want to practice because i just didn’t see any progress with it. But then i found your channel and i started binge-watching your videos, cause they are so inspiring! You are so inspiring, always trying new things and always trying to be a better and more complete person! And i have been feeling so much more motivated and been so much more productive! And i know that you are one of the biggest reasons for my motivation! Thank you so much! 💛💛 also, i just wanted to say a little warning, i really hope i don’t scare you or make you feel guilty, because most people don’t know about this... it’s about playing with a laser light with your kitties! I once read that that is not very good for them, because, as they can’t never catch the little light, they get really stressed out and if you do it a lot with them they can start having raige attacks. I really don’t remember where i read or seen this but i think you might find this disclaimer very relevant and you might want to look for more about this. Anyway, i hope you don’t feel bad about yourself because of this, cause I know that you do it with the best intention possible. I hope you start feeling better as well! Kisses from Portugal! ❤️

[@malaykav]

I’m just glad I’m not the only one who dances/performs for my cat 😄

[@JordanPj]

i hope you know how powerful your voice is, your art & your content, you are building

[@sputnic9294]

i dont comment very much but i just wanted to tell you how much i appreciate your presence on this platform. this video in particular helped get me briefly out of my winter blues funk and go clean up my apartment and take a shower! it's strange what the shorter days do to us. thank you so much for sharing your life in such an honest way

[@ccII16angel]

Hey Annabelle it's one of your silent viewers XD just wanted to say I understand how you feel about your work and then also the tie in of seasonal depression. I actually just graduated from SVA also an college here in New York. I actually started watching your videos when you were a freshman and I was a sophomore xD so I relate so much there aren't a lot of art college people here on youtube. Definitely I've always battled even now working in my field about my work and being disappointed in it and not liking how its coming out, its such a large battle as an artist to accept and sometimes overcome. Also I feel like I went through more of seasonal depression in college because you feel like your in this massive bubble of just school and school work and you don't have time to be able to enjoy the holidays till you finally get to see your family so I relate a lot. I'm trying to really enjoy my first Christmas out of college and take in all the cheer and joy and whimsy. But anyway I've talked enough xD you'll get through it believe me and soon find your Christmas cheer!

[@sharonfung408]

As an art student, I feel like due to the nature of the institution, most of the work i've been making isn't really for myself, most of it is for everyone else to see, to criticise, and I try to do my best to make work that will receive the most positive response. This mindset has actually given me a lot of anxiety and has led me to become unmotivated because I am unable to enjoy my work whilst I am constantly comparing myself with my peers. I realised that the work I am making should be for myself, and that it is most important for me to be proud of my own work.

[@victoria4]

I completely agree with being disappointed in your work! I’m a full time employee and full time student and I’m get soo tired after work I don’t want to do homework! And that leads me to sometimes not give my all on assignments! Side note: I’m glad your sweatshirts are back!

[@youliahteit8350]

I have been stressed out for a week now and im feeling so down. Your videos really make me feel better and we will get through things and it’s OKAY to feel down sometimes. So thank you for that❤️

[@AwkTierra]

Thank you for sharing your struggles-I totally hear you and have faith in your abilities. I also think you’re an incredible person for being a student, a mother of two, vlogging, owning an online shop, and even more. You have our faith and support whenever you need it!! Can’t wait to hear some holiday tunes when your voice is better!!!

[@creamsicyeol5871]

This video and comment section is a godsend to me. As a first year art student I feel like I’m doing something wrong for being so stressed and depressed right now. It’s been affecting my work a lot and I feel like I should be doing well in something I love. It’s so hard not to stay in your own head but I’m doing my best to push through and have fun.

[@MariaSilva]

thank you so much for this Annabelle, love you so much

[@livinginadaydream1]

I'm glad you mentioned your mental health struggles. It helps make people like me who are also struggling feel less alone and more okay with where they're at

[@samanthathach9736]

you are strong, annabelle :) one second we can be crying and wanting to rip everything to shreds, and then the next we are putting on our shoes and stepping out the door. we are capable of so much even when we feel the worst

[@elmas1052]

thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. it’s important to open up about the crappy moments because you bring so many people together to connect through this commonality. life gets overwhelming and i can whole heartedly say that your snippet about your feelings made me feel much better about feeling down. thank you ❤️

[@cassandra.5231]

Your videos are what get me through the day! Since starting college I have definitely had many days where I feel sad and lonely and watching your videos have made me feel like I have a friend who I can listen to and spend time with. Everyone gets sad, and it’s really quite true how much of it is stigmatized. Just know there is such a following behind you and we’re all there for you! Hang in there, we

[@minmool5363]

I’m allowed to be disappointed with my work. that sentence made me literally cry.. As an art school student, I can really feel it and I realised that what you said, disappointment thing is what I really wanted to hear these days... thank you so much for sharing your thoughts ⭐️

[@madisyndannhauser8363]

right now I'm a high school senior in AP 2D design and my recent pieces have really disappointed me, so I know how you feel :( I'll say something I dislike about the piece, and everyone rushes to comfort me. Its weird, because this is something I feel like a lot of (esp creative) people need to go through in order to develop and learn what we'd like to be able to do, whether that is improving technique or being able to execute a desired vision/mood/whatever. And even if the conversation isn't about creativity, and simply self, than I think the same concept should be applied; we shouldn't feel restricted in our negative emotions. Anyway this was a long rant, but just know that everyone watching is here for you

[@arrozallyster]

"just because you're capable of making great work, doesn't mean you have to make 100% all the time great work..." thank you so much for this reminder. I've been very pressured to create videos lately in school and this video helped me feel accompanied, i luv u Ms. Catcreature 💓 thank you.

[@Gertyprunes69]

Aww it's alright you will feel better soon *gives big hug*❤️

[@marissam.2388]

Your talk about disappointment, especially with your personal work, was so much needed. As an artist (musician) I feel as if I have to be completely happy and satisfied with what I produce with any composition I write or piece I practice and perform and i always get remorseful comments or people saying “oh no I’m sure you did fine it’s totally fine!!”.... it can get a little frustrating. Sometimes it just doesn’t go as planned and that is OK! Any way.. thank you for being such a kind soul Annabelle 💖

[@LivT04]

Thank you for showing all the ups and downs of your fabulous life. I also get SAD around this time of year which happens to be my favorite time of year. Your authenticity is your most relatable and endearing quality besides being one of my favorite creative persons ever ❤️

[@sugargliderr]

I had months and months (probably a year I would say) where I struggled so much with creating art that I liked and I hated everything I did. I noticed that it was effecting my mental health so I took a break and after a while I went back to my sketchbook and drew totally different things from what I was months ago. I then realised that I had been stuck in the same process and mediums so I tried all sorts of paints, pastels, using graphite again, collageing and eventually I managed to get myself out of there. So all I wanted to say was that it will get better with your art and you are allowed to feel how you feel because its okay to feel that way 🎨

[@Forreminiscing]

I thank God for you man. One of the few content creators on this platform who is truly vulnerable and honest. Stay blessed and stay you ❤️ I love you

[@annabellegao]

😭❤️❤️❤️

[@alp4118]

I’ve been watching you for years and you never fail to fill me with so much comfort but also motivation ❤️ Your words about stigmatization surrounding disappointment & “negative” emotions were immaculate. Thank you for being so real xoxo

[@AuraoftheForest]

I just found your channel via this video and immediately subscribed. I love seeing real people sharing their true emotions, thank you for posting this, can’t wait to watch your other videos

[@tylerrose7277]

Started crying at 2:33 bc I knew exactly how you feel and even tho everyone goes through it differently, it’s still so painful to go through.

[@exoislifechanyeolisbae8275]

I cannot even begin to describe how relaxed and calm i feel after watching your videos. The stress and anger that i woke up with is literally gone. I absolutely love your videos. ❤️Thank you for opening up always about your feelings. I needed to hear all of it because on the inside, i think we can all relate to you~ Thank you, Annabelle

[@kemadu7381]

I’m in the middle of writing 3 ten page papers and this is the only thing that’s gonna get me through them (also gonna binge some of your previous videos) 💕😊❤️ ty for giving us a look in to your life, it makes me feel less alone when I see ppl going through a situation similar to mine

[@nicolesoominkim9114]

Thank you for sharing these thoughts and moments with us Annabelle

[@jonaa3398]

This video was so beautiful, I cried a little bit. The aesthetic hit me hard and I absolutely adore and support you. I think, the message you conveyed with this video is so important, eventhough it probably wasnn't planed, but thank god it was there.

[@gospelofdirt]

this video was so calming. ty for sharing your authentic self. you inspired me to go through my old jewelry and organize

[@chaoticneutralsheep]

That white kitty lily pad sketch could do well as a print. 😊

[@nancyfoster8338]

I love how real you are in this video. I appreciate how bold you are with your content. I am also in a creative rut right now with my art and this really helped me 💛🧡

[@alessandraross4220]

Hi Annabelle, I have watched your videos for so long and you are the only KZbinr I feel like I can fully connect with. You have a beautiful soul and I love you and your cats ❤️❤️

[@cranberrie16]

I always love when you talk about your creative processes or your relationship with the art you create. I am a musician in college rn and i find that while what I do is art in a different form, many of your insights and thoughts are still things that I very much relate to. I loved hearing you talk about how you separate your worth as a person and the quality of what you create... that's been something I've always struggled to do. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, I absolutely love your videos 💞💞

[@abigailchase9383]

This year's been tough for me, and I am quite apt to begin Christmas break in order to have a rest from school and work. I love your December Dailys last year and it has been very relatable for me as a viewer, I'm so happy with the videos I've been seeing from you this year as well. It is encouraging to see someone learning and growing through similar things! Love, and avid viewer

[@danielle.c]

annabelle, thank you so much for the videos you put out - especially your December Dailies. as a college student, late November and early December always seem to bring some feelings of depression, and these help tremendously. i have been watching these as my study breaks as i also have my finals/projects due this coming week! thank you for your motivation :')

[@kyleem.7300]

When life feels overwhelming I try to remember that now is all there is. Befriend the present moment ❤️

[@itsevatruong562]

thank you for this. I just changed my major to graphic design and having unrealistic expectations from myself and others in my studio arts classes have been so overwhelming and your words reminded me to be okay with taking things slow. love watching you always

[@cuttlefish6262]

i had a terrible day today, but your videos calm me down :) thank you for sharing them you have no idea how much they help me

[@Camila-lm3bc]

this idea of linear development where you must always top yourself really serves no one... and seasonal depression is tough and should not be brushed off as nothing. I have found that being brutally honest with how i feel when asked how i am doing makes me feel much better. Somehow being able to openly say "I am struggling, the short days are beating me up and i feel like i accomplish nothing" take a huge weight off my soul. I hope you can also find pleasurable ways to lift off some of your weight. I think your work is coming out really beautiful (makes me wanna reach out and touch it) and i love the concept and inspiration! So curious to see how it came out after the dryer! ❤

[@14xx07]

I love how down to earth you always are. Been here since before your acceptance into uni. Will love to see your current makeup routine talked through and also on how you go about your wardrobe! :)

[@Amuonie]

when you talked about being disappointed in your own work i really felt that , so yesterday i saw my grade in my graduation project and i really didn't like it like i was really down , my professor told me from the begging of this semester is that my graduation project is gonna be the worst project i would do in my entire academic career in uni and thats totally fun cause from that you would grow and make better one outside uni and you will be pro in doing it and even teaching about it , this is what what he told me . still , its 4AM in my country and i still got two FINAL finals to go and i did not study yet cause im really mad about my grade ! and at the end thank you for this lovely blog to make me forget about it

[@couturexcutiex3]

Thank you for always being so relatable and real. I recently rediscovered that it’s okay to feel each feeling, good or bad or neutral. Constantly tying to suppress these negative feelings makes us think we’re doing something wrong...but it’s part of the beauty of being human. Some of the greatest poems, novels, art pieces, etc. stemmed from these emotions, so maybe it’s really just a matter of what we manifest from these feelings. Love love love this video Annabelle 😭

[@aislinggilbert9660]

hi annabelle I feel this a lot too, around this time of year. Once the sky goes dark my ability to be productive shuts down and the thought of trying to work is overwhelming and oppressive. But like you, I find that it’s little things that can lift your spirits and bring warmth and joy to this cold season (your videos are definately one of those little things for me :) )

[@mayatarek9908]

i feel you so much cause this how i feel right now, i'm a graphic designer but this semester i have nothing in my mind to do it's feel like i lost my creativity or my passion but i still have a feeling that everything will be fine at the end so please don't give up on yourself stay strong and beautiful💙

[@electraeric7046]

I needed this so much, I am going through this right now and it’s terrible. I really appreciate this video and have watched it several times to reassure myself that I’m not the only one. I hope you feel better ♥️