6 months of depression later | episode five

[@ciriakshra2231]

I have commented on a video but then today all day long I couldn't pick myself todo anything or feel anything. I thought it was my breaking point and its all over but after looking at this vidoe today it made me simile gineuenly, i ll revisit this everytime i feel low. Thank you so much for making it.

[@3mo2k25]

You hit the nail on the when you said depression makes you think a future isn't even possible for you. Knowing that other people have gone through that exact same hell and made it through to the other side, gives me a little bit of hope for myself ♡

[@ondererkan3554]

Man, after a severe clinical depression now i look back at those days its scary to think i wish turn back those dark toughts. Its never completely gone. I was enjoying to think deep all i did overthink day to night it makes u feel intelligent and thinking the way out is death. I was suicidal and i think i kinda attempted. Slowly overcome, now i go gym train hard, study what i want to study. Still i don't get old enjoyments but we are strugglers we have to endure suffering and try to live, if u really have crappy life end of the day u can tell yourself despite all those pain i endured i keep trying to live. Thats badass to think.

[@domzz5083]

how are you feeling now can you enjoy things again?

[@biancamichelle11]

“Pride is a burden” Very well said! It’s a burden and a huge block to seeing ourselves and others accurately and with compassion.

[@brandalfghw]

Just found this. I was diagnosed with CPTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, persistent and major depressive disorder and sensory processing disorder. Not to mention slipped disks and sciatica and chronic pain. This is from lifelong abuse up until I was 22. These videos are very relatable and the way you talked to yourself and handled your depression was very inspiring and helped remind me of a lot of things I lose sight of often. I beat myself up for not being as able to do life as others and it is so hard to remember that other people not dealing with this don't understand that I'm doing really well if I even get out of bed. Your videos spread awareness and realistic healthy ways to deal with depression so thank you for being vulnerable.

[@oriandpea]

you're literally so real for this rn

[@veronicasmemories]

Sending you so much love 💕

[@AfitMaykal]

Just want to let you know, this video help me a lot ❤

[@poppycalliope]

Coming out of that low point where you thought you wouldn't make it is a big deal. Thank you for being so transparent with us Kaiti ❤

[@VickyCombs]

I was on Lexapro and Wellbutrin, I just got taken off lexapro and upped my Wellbutrin dose and I feel so much better. I feel amazing. Lexapro made me so foggy! I hope you find the right medication, whatever it may be.

[@ylcmoon]

There are some key points there where I can related to when I have my own depression, is you can't know what's going to happen in future. That is why for me to block that mindset, kept me going in present time. And I felt truly grateful and peaceful~

[@BelieveInJesus77774]

Wow. My story is so similar to yours. I also struggled/struggle with ED. I have had VERY severe depression where I would cry at night and just try to survive until the next day. I prayed to God and he has really helped me. Today my depression is a lot more mild. Do I still struggle? Yes, but it is a lot less. I hope you get better. Depression is absolutely horrible and can be hard for people who have never gone for it to understand ❤ God bless you and take care of you, in Jesus name, Amen.

[@emswildworld]

I really appreciate the emotional honesty. Depression is exhausting.

[@chlochae]

I love how openly you talk about your mental health and your faith, you’re such a blessing in many people’s lives

[@3mo2k25]

Truly, I'm so glad I rediscovered her

[@Sunnisided]

As someone who has struggled with depression on a consistent basis for a large portion of my life, I remember feeling so seen when you posted that first video. For the first time in my life I didn’t feel foreign or weird. Logically I know that thousands of people struggle with depression everyday but it was so different seeing someone I had found a light in also going through darkness. I am so incredibly grateful for you Kati, you have no idea. It takes great courage to bare your soul in this way, especially in this world that we live in. Thank you. Love you lots and keeping you in my prayers. ❤

[@ameliatahnia]

When I watched the first video, I sobbed so hard because I was experiencing exactly the same thing but I was in denial of my reality-that things are not okay, I’m not feeling okay and I can’t see a future where I could feel happy with myself. It would be beautiful to say that I’m okay now, but I’m not. I’m still feeling this and I genuinely don’t see a time where I can be better. Watching this video has given me a small hope that maybe it’ll be okay someday. ❤️

[@jammelymaryem7743]

It will definitely be okay someday(inshallah). Keep going, keep fighting you're worth it ❤❤❤

[@ameliatahnia]

@@jammelymaryem7743 Thank you so much. Inshallah (I'm Muslim too!) ❤

[@shamshadsora6360]

I'm just tired of being depressed and having anxiety for real....

[@tuinov6286]

Forget yourself and help others. If there is no you there is no anxiety and depression. In order to be able to help others you will improve naturally. But i know women don't really want solutions, they want some attention while they are crying.

[@janiyarenee9304]

Kaiti has always been my favorite KZbinr but with these videos, she has shot even higher. I love her so much❤️

[@Oreoluwa]

When you said suffering produces character, I remembered Romans 5:3-5 ‭Romans 5:3-5 NLT‬ [3] We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. [4] And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. [5] And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. ❤️ Thank you for sharing Kaits x

[@_xBrokenxDreamsx_]

it's pretty pricey but you should check out the amen clinics and maybe get a full workup and a brain scan just to make sure you're being diagnosed and prescribed properly.

[@christopherleubner6633]

Been struggling with depression for years. Found some things that help, but the reality we are living in surely doesn't help it get better.

[@whalium889]

I told a couple friends that I’ve been pretty depressed after I got laid off and being able to be open about it has made me feel better in the last week than the last few weeks

[@kawaiicharmworld]

Hi Kaiti! I'm a new viewer. First video I saw was your first depression video and it really helped me to put things into perspective as I grappled with my own recent depression diagnosis. Lately life has felt very bleak and I have felt so alone and unable to reach out to anyone around me for fear of being misunderstood but your videos make me feel less alone. Thank you so much ❤

[@The7Girlie]

going through depression right now and I used to dream about the future so much and now I can't imagine it at all...

[@golden22h8]

I promise you it does gets better 💗💗💗. don't lose hope!

[@Chloe-nu2hy]

are you feeling better now ?

[@The7Girlie]

@@Chloe-nu2hy yes I am, thanks for the reminder ❤️‍🩹 Not perfect but much better in some areas of my life, feeling more normal again

[@Chloe-nu2hy]

@@The7Girlie Thank you for your answer, it gives me hope ! I'm glad you are doing much better 🩷 And you don't have to answer, but at that time did you have dark thoughts or the impression that you would never get out of it ? Because that's what I feel now and it's very hard to live with

[@The7Girlie]

@@Chloe-nu2hyyes I felt that way too and honestly you asking me did trigger me a bit so I couldn’t answer before Sometimes the pain feels just as strong again and I think it will never get better But other times I feel much better and forget about it too

[@srkalski]

thank you for sharing kaiti💗 while I think you're impressive overall, I was most impressed by your willingness to admit you were wrong and prideful. that takes so mich strengthen and humility

[@akir4979]

I totally empathize with the concept of looking down on others. I looked down on people struggling with simple symptoms of a bad mental health especially if I thought they had no 'real problems'. Ultimately, it was my own experience with depression that taught me the empathy I needed to treat others with gentleness and kindness.

[@OLUWAFAYOKEMI]

Im so proud of you Kaiti

[@halfhawkhalfman]

Time is the stuff that life is made of, so value it, by never delaying discomfort. Meeting adversity head on lets you reap the benefits of your efforts for a much larger slice of the future. Sacrifice a few years of comfort for decades of freedom.

[@elizabethalarcon3505]

I have been loving this series for the realness of these struggles. I for sure feel less alone. But, I actually got a hair cut yesterday!

[@RussellSproutz1]

We're not alone and we're all in this together.

[@juliacastle2224]

Why is she so pretty? her channel really impacted me

[@samanthakim5035]

For 3 months, I also had a mix of both positive and negative. I said to myself that I don't want things in the past to burden me in the future. Fortunately, it unfold the problems I had. All its left is my present self, and I need to decide for the better.

[@Zualbawihi24]

love you kaiti ❤

[@Grace-ox6lh]

i had 7 years of depression i have no self esteem left

[@juliacastle2224]

and yeah this hits with all my depression lately. i want help guys

[@dearchew4822]

Cheering you on! Big hugs and remember that God is with you always!!

[@yeevang8751]

Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4

[@bigglesharrumpher4139]

Really glad you are on the mend, and you can stay on top of things. Thanks for sharing.

[@nataliew8529]

This is a great video. I hope you recover and live a happy life.

[@madilynn106]

ever since i started watching your very first fashion videos..i’ve loved watching you grow and change and i’ve related even though i’m at different stages. this year was the hardest year of my life so far too and i just think it’s so cool we’ve been coming out of all this hurt together. thanks kaiti for everything 💕

[@itskasey1839]

Thank you so much for being so open about your mental state! Im so glad im seeing more and more creators being open about the mental states theyre going through.

[@marccolomayt82094]

You’re not alone Kaiti, I’m always here to support you! ❤

[@slavvalb3933]

There are two types of depression: Situational vs Chronic. Situational depression is the set of circumstances that makes you depressed. ( Job loss, poverty, etc etc) no pills will help. You need to change the set of circumstances.Cbronic depression is something that u only pills can help, as it due to a chemical imbalance in your brain.

[@neemalore7967]

I didn't know that,that makes so much sense 😊

[@kelleyatkinson8195]

Yess church small groups!! I love you talking about your faith!

[@FelipeValdez-og2tg]

Would’ve never thought the Bible would’ve helped me at all. I was completely wrong, it was the one thing that I had been missing my whole life 🙏🏻 Best I’ve ever felt on my life, thanks to God 🙏🏻

[@IamLondonMikayla]

@@FelipeValdez-og2tgAmen! everyone needs God to help them

[@certifiedgreg_rose]

Can't wait to watch! Hope you can be in a better place emotionally. I will keep you in my prayers.💕

[@hsiehmay]

2024 isn't my year and Iit's to pretend I am okay and just lazy but in fact am secretly beating mild depression.

[@xia7010]

The thing is, worst might come, but hopefully you have better tools to deal with your hardships. That was my big take away from depression, it wasn't just the pills, it was also me, *I* worked very hard to get better, *I* developed tools to get through depression, and the tool box I worked so hard to fill is something I will carry through my life

[@3mo2k25]

I appreciate your ability to still make me laugh as you're discussing such a serious and important topic 😂 youre iconic

[@trangnguyen-tj7nb]

pain comes with depression is another level of pain, but necessary to our growth. I think. I hate being in it, it is a scary feelings but it comes back everytime...

[@jchborg90277]

How is your libido on Lex?

[@anja.e1101]

So real, I love this 🥹🖤

[@starryknight565]

I haven't gotten a haircut in forever.... But I did get started with BetterHelp because of you! This video really reminded me of myself and I'm really glad God brought it and you to me. Let's keep pushing forward together Kaiti!!

[@soundslikeviv]

im back

[@savesheikhjarrah1480]

You speak in poetry

[@rosiex1841]

I'm proud of you 💛

[@BelArtist]

Lexapro team over here too 💃🏻

[@Chan-lj5ih]

May I ask you which church you are attending? If this is a too personal question, I apologize.

[@hannahbocz3984]

Love you girl! ❤

[@kelb6073]

I've tried on my own for too long, and after the past year of really traumatic and awful things I've gone through, I decided I'm going to try medication. I believe I have a genetic predisposition to depression, so maybe meds are the only way.

[@alexandracedillo7891]

Lexapro twins👯‍♀️ but seriously I’ve been really appreciating this transparency and realness and I’ve sent your videos about these topics to people and literally have said “this is how I have feeling” thank you for putting into words

[@MayaEvan]

Hi ! How has lexapro helped you?Nay side effects long term? Thank u💓

[@Vbat11]

You should release a podcast, I would scramble to listen to it

[@AshleysCorner13]

Love the transparency and the last time I had a haircut was 5 years ago. Lol I’m way overdue, don’t judge me lol

[@rosky_m]

I don't remember when I last got a haircut yay.

[@lakshmi360]

Yes, depression has made so much more kind.

[@queenbluegaming9757]

The last time I got a haircut was in July and I had gotten bangs gone wrong 😅 But it’s all good now! Hope you feel better❤️

[@monica4158]

I hope this comment is not outta place but... the way you are still so FUNNY and make me laugh whilst being depressed is funny and sad at the same time😆😳. X ok back to the vid

[@mydogisbailey]

Real question, why does better help have such aggressive sponsorship marketing? Is it a business or a healthcare provider? Or… both? What exactly is their objective

[@whalium889]

I don’t think depression is one of the worst pains. It’s just additional pains on top of all the other life hardships. Not saying “other people have it worse, suck it up”. Im just saying depression and other life hardships and pain suckkk and having other life hardships just makes it so much worse

[@erikals]

Been there ❤You just got stronger Girl ⭐Life is a Strange Roller Coaster.

[@forlornsloth5769]

I got a haircut mid May for my graduation :)

[@icegelofficial]

🤍🤍🤍

[@gloweeya]

Loving this series so much! And love how you share about your faith. 🩷

[@renewashington791]

😂😂 I LOVEDDDD how Kaiti pronounced milligrams as milligrrrrrrrr grrrrr grrrrrr

[@vanelopeepop]

this made me look back last year (2022) it was a really hard year for me since i wasn't able to cope at the beginning of the year (lot's of heartbreak, crying, trauma healing) but God! (Won't He do it! 🙌) has really been my rock (devotions, bible studies) and lots of forgiving and healing and mending the heart that my current self is so grateful that I've gone through it all. I agree that It will NEVER make sense FOR NOW, but definitely you can see the difference in your character of how you deal with suffering/challenges/struggles in life. To those who are currently struggling right now. You'll be okay eventually. You don't have to understand it all right now, all you have to do is continue even when it's hard. God loves you so much! Don't give up! 🫶🏻

[@troyingram716]

Baby, you are cyc!ing between elevated thought to depression. This is a mood disorder, stay calm at all cost. Identify behavior that causes mood swings and abstain from them.

[@chloex7399]

I really do not understand why this has so many dislikes.

[@jg602_]

u not depressed fr

[@watsonmelon6575]

I don't remember the last time I had a haircut- I kinda just trim as I see fit 😅💛

[@ammolator]

The best anti-depressant is a dog. Get a dog y'all I promise you, you won't be depressed!

[@magiclovelinu7234]

Nope to betterhelp

[@mt_gox]

repulsive gen z

[@nebulaina508]

this will pass delete footage of you crying it doesn't help, you don't have to show everyone all stages of your depression you deal with it take time to yourself and learn to be happy on your own and continue to work on self, i said delete posts of crying videos in future because another girl did that and she realized recording herself sad and constantly talking about it and not fixing it wasn't helping and if your fixing it continue and don't document it for us to c everyone depressed and doing it behind closed doors helps you heal sit with yourself and post what has been helping and what you have been doing about it. Also, I was depressed, and pills don't solve everything you became depressed from thoughts not from you taking a pill so i think you should think your way to health by healing trauma with self or others and you won't need to pay for a chemical to help you. if people can't drink their way to happiness, then i don't think you should put chemicals, incents and teas to solve a MENTAL issue.e to be happy delete

[@cuzthatshoweyroll]

No i disagree. Old footage is super helpful to show how far you have come.

[@nebulaina508]

@@cuzthatshoweyroll true 👍

[@soez_strg6166]

I hate to say this, but depression in women is very overdiagnosed. Your brain chemistry is not the problem and neither is the neuroplasticity. You just need to fix your habits and lifestyle, women have a very resilient brain, in fact more resilient compared to males due to their higher estrogen levels. If you're on BC, thats likely causing your depression.

[@jannikapipkins]

Thank you for sharing your faith. God bless.

[@cruz7047]

👉 Promo sm

[@BetsysMama]

Literally the only way to freedom from depression and anxiety is Jesus Christ. He is the Saviour of the world! Seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened for you. Only Jesus can set you free.

[@mauriopiaatti8459]

start eating butter bobs diet

[@mauriopiaatti8459]

depression is often caused by poor diet. Simple vitamiin defiencies can wreak a havoc in body

[@troyingram716]

If listening to the Beatels gets you real excited don't do it.

[@mobilefreelancer3831]

u taking too much on hun u need to take a break!

[@HCvacations]

Then you just have to eat really good food

[@Dalia_Paints]

"Verily. With hardship comes ease." (Quran, 94:5) ❤️ don't give up Kaiti

[@ruth-uy9hb]

Milli grrr milli grrr 😭

[@maddrice]

Haven’t even watched, but love the blatant honesty of the title. Me too, girl. You’re not alone. 🤍

[@MichaelTurner856]

Same and I hope she has a great morning! ,🙂

[@lalaland7961]

I hope this doesn’t sound rude but if you had eyelid surgery , why are your eyes different sizes . I want to to get my own but I hope this doesn’t sound rude .

[@MountaintravelerEddie]

Kaiti, we should chat….hang out and get to know each other. I got your back.