Vulnerable conversation with TobyMac about grief and loss.

What does it feel like to lose someone close to you? TobyMac shares his experience in this vulnerable video.
If you are dealing with grief or loss, there is help and hope available at joyfmonline.or....

[@muhammaddaf2400]

I'm ex muslim. Even though my family left and hate me because i receive Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I believe God's word is my strenght. My heart full of peace

[@MamaGenn]

Good job Mohammed!!

[@CountryTenn1365]

God Bless you, Sir. Jesus Loves you so…..much!

[@joyjeffcoat8711]

Keep praying for your family

[@fouroaksfreedom1429]

Dear Mohammad, I am so thankful to see you here, I’m so thankful to the Lords hand on you. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless and hold you, all in Jesus name...

[@alivera8361]

Sorry about that,proud of you.

[@monikasimmonsrealestate]

I also lost my daughter to overdose at age 20. She left behind a baby boy, my first grandson who was almost 2 years old. I raise him now in my home. Toby you spoke the words of my heart also. I have clung onto God's promises ever since like a life preserver in a stormy sea of grief. I don't think I will ever be the same again but one thing that hasn't changed is God's promises and love for us. He is a promise maker and a promise keeper. I have been praying for your family. God comfort your hearts and give you strength like only He can give.

[@sandramartinez8105]

Sending you a huge hug 🤗🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️

[@brianr1165]

♥️

[@heathercloete7450]

Monika, sending ❤️ you will never be the same again. It's ok. You have a new normal now. A different way of thinking.

[@bahranghebrekidan1541]

True and amen sister Monika

[@vanessapsalm91]

@J C within Heavens Gates blessed me and helped me through grief after losing my little sister ❤️ today is the 5 year anniversary of her burial. #17 Victory over the Grave

[@Snjones777]

Hello Toby. After hearing about the passing of your son, Got me prepared. I lost my twin son Caleb age 26 as a passenger in a car accident June 21 2020.... he knew the Lord. I found his Bible as I was cleaning Caleb's room after his death and on the inside of the Bible cover, Caleb wrote his dedication of his life to Christ Jesus....Caleb gave his life to Christ Jesus! To God be the Glory.....Conformation from the Lord is a real thing... Thank you Jesus... Thank you Toby...

[@lilyw9324]

❤❤❤❤

[@beatriz7064]

Amen Glory to God! Love this. God is so good, that he gave you that confirmation and comfort. May God keep giving you strength and his Peace .❤

[@smokybearthebird8642]

Keep that chin up

[@jrob00]

I just prayed for you. May God bless you and keep you. Thank you Jesus for shepherding Caleb into your flock before he left this earth.

[@terem6822]

❤

[@NYKnicks33]

I lost my 30 year old son to fentanyl on Good Friday 2024…I will never be the same. God, please comfort me! This is a pain that I never wish on anyone!

[@chaosinorder9685]

I’m really sorry about your loss. I lost my 30-year-old sister to a car crash and my best friend to blood cancer in a four month span. We will definitely pray for you.

[@cam94keith96]

So very sorry for your loss. I lost my 30 yr old son to fentanyl OD last week.

[@NYKnicks33]

@@cam94keith96 you are in my prayers

[@NYKnicks33]

@@chaosinorder9685 as I will pray for you

[@bobjoy33]

"Leaving this earth early isn't necessarily a rip off" Truth!

[@erinwoempner1228]

Only in the Lord’s time. God bless you.

[@JESUSELCAMINOALPADRE]

I loved that line too.

[@ronaldrogers3566]

This earthly life is but a speck of time compared to eternity..it's our only opportunity to either receive God or reject him which will ultimately determine where we spend eternity.

[@stephtimms1776]

💖

[@lavenderandgold8588]

That’s one thing I’ve been realizing in my own grief. I’ll get sad thinking about my sister no longer being here but then I remember where she is. And I get a little envious of her 😂 I can’t imagine how amazing it is to marvel at God and Heaven where there’s no more sadness or pain. She’s living it up right now.

[@brandireed9406]

My husband and I lost our 3 children in a car accident 23yrs ago. It hurts every day but God is my comfort. Knowing they are with Him and they are experiencing joy I can’t even understand helps me every day. They were 5and 6yrs old. I still don’t understand but God doesn’t promise we will just that He will be there even when we don’t.

[@ThesoundofSilenceshh]

Wow, thank you for sharing. I can't imagine. I hope to meet you and see you rejoined to them in heaven

[@nohaste4me]

❤

[@brandireed9406]

This should say two children not three. I thank you for your kind words.

[@lancemaliksi]

I'm so sorry

[@MB-sg8dx]

You have my deepest sympathy. I cant even imagine your grief.. even as my own family is deeply broken over the recent loss of my sister’s son to c19 at age 41. He was a very admirable Christian man - a major in the army and the worship leader at their church. He leaves behind a wife and two young sons, 12 and 9. Today is the 4 month anniversary of his passing and ive been crying on and off all day. That said, a loss as devastating as yours is a reminder that Gods grace is sufficient through the deepest valleys imaginable. God bless.

[@LoBrookeMusic]

To anyone reading this: you are extremely loved, keep holding on ❤

[@gracechristoforo6722]

You too ❤️

[@vivianstidham9596]

What is so reassuring as a Christian is, It's not goodbye, it's see you later. Praying for you and your family. From Texas.

[@Snjones777]

Amen 🙏

[@angeleyes3386]

💞

[@hellohappyvegan]

That’s what my grandpa always said and today’s his birthday!! He left us for heaven a few years ago. Thank you. 🙏🏼❤️

[@jspyrogram]

Well, let’s pray they see each other again. Not EVERYbody chooses the narrow path. Some will hear ‘depart from me. I never knew you, you workers of lawlessness.’

[@kiki7507]

@@jspyrogram yes this! It’s comforting if you lost a close Christian friend, but even harder when if your friend didn’t choose Jesus

[@savage.indios]

My son was murdered last year April 23,2023. My faith is most definitely tested since then. Please pray my son gets justice. Thank you. Prayers and healing and comfort i pray finds you, my heart goes out to you

[@monicawashington5595]

My only son was just murdered 6/19/24 I pray both of our sons get justice

[@RedeemedbyHisLove]

I imagine so. Thats the worst sort of pain. I pray for strength in the battle, peace in the storm. God is holding on to you if you are His. Its not about how you feel but how you think that most matters. Our feelings a real and some or put on us by darkness. Believe God and doubt the devil. I tell myself this alot. Its a battle. God Bless you deeply.

[@Gett_Jones_Chosen1]

My son was murdered May 29,2024 my was tested I prayed while he was in ICU and when he coded I didn’t know how to approach God anymore. God is with me during the storms brings me out I still trust him no matter what even while having no understanding of the reason why? My faith is not shook my heart is broken and I’m standing in his presence cause I can’t do grief ALONE! God bless you mama! 🙏

[@johnnyschmidt6945]

Grief 😔....lost brother suicide Lost sister cancer ♋️ Lost daddy cancer Lost my wife divorce Be strong in the Lord

[@chichimars9986]

God bless you

[@anitarozendaal8812]

I'm so, so sorry.

[@lindsayr2853]

Wow :( Godspeed

[@richkurzweil6982]

Im very sorry for your losses.

[@janetteneufville3229]

So sorry about your losses.

[@RC-pf2qi]

I can totally relate, had a 6 month old son that died many years ago. Then, my husband died of ALS in 2015, my Mom who was my best friend died in 2017 and my Dad died in 2018. The only thing that got me through was reading the Bible and prayer.

[@mbwilson8592]

Wow. My goodness you have endured so much. I'm so sorry for all of your pain. What a testiment of your faith- pushing in and clinging to the word of God. Hang in there ❤

[@troyjhinkle]

Sending prayers and love your way. So sorry to hear of the many losses you have experienced. Praying God sends you a little more joy today.

[@virojansarvendran2541]

Amen!

[@brittdriver4453]

God Bless and Be with you!❤

[@theperfectimperfectfamily13]

Praying

[@dorajimenez8722]

Mr Mac, I'm sincerely sorry for the loss of your son. I lost my middle son at age 34, in 2017 leaving my only grandson. Then again lost my eldest son at age 39 in 2022. I'm super heart broken, tho my Jesus loves me so I know I am blessed. My heart is hurting but it have to keep moving forward. I have my only b grandson from my son that passed in 2017, he is now 13yrs. He's such a blessing.

[@janicedubose3055]

My oldest son William died on July 11th 5old of cancer,he was 35 year's old, and as Tony said the grief comes in waves,my son accepted Jesus over the phone,my last conversation with him.

[@Lizjemej]

what a wonderful comfort that he was born again. The worst pain would be losing a loved one who was not a follower of Christ.

[@katiecaldwell6457]

I go to church with a lady who lost her son about 8 months ago and she is so devastated. She can't speak of him without crying. I truly cannot imagine the pain of losing a child. It has to be unlike any other loss you could imagine. Prayers for peace for Toby Mac and his wife.

[@micheletjarks7380]

I lost my 21 year old son unexpectedly in 2015. Fairly early on in my grieving process God reminded me of Psalms 34:18: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." From that moment on I knew that God was by my side. Like you said, God doesn't save you from the cold, he is in the cold with you. It is somehow comforting to know that you have held on to the same promise that I have. Thank you for sharing! God bless you!

[@Bigglesworth9]

Thank you for sharing this. I needed to hear this today.

[@NancyIsha]

God's Love is real. He strengthens the broken hearts with His Love and care. We have eternal life with God.

[@minnettewalker2623]

The grief that you feel now can never touch the joy that you will feel when you reunite with your son in our father’s home.

[@renaebrown8897]

This person is not dismissing grief by any means. It sounds to me like they are saying that once he reunites with his son, there will be so much joy, and the grief at that time will be gone. The bible does say that there will be no sorrow or grief in heaven. As Toby says here, everyone goes through grief differently. So to someone, what this person said, it might help them through their grief. Please don't put others down. Try to lift them up. I have gone through and am still going through a lot of grief. Grief doesn't have to be just the death of someone you loved or knew, which I have had my fair share, but it can also be for other things. I pray that you are able to get through your grief as well as you can and that you lean not on your own understanding of things, but lean on God's! Love Always, Renae.

[@minnettewalker2623]

@@renaebrown8897 that is exactly what I'm saying. I lost the 2 closet people in my life within a year each other. By trusting and believing what the Lord says got me through and I am looking forward to reuniting with them.

[@angeleyes3386]

@@minnettewalker2623 💞

[@israel4971]

How this thing all works is well said. I agree. There is a master plan Help me God

[@JulieHighland]

@tahoe twilight please don’t make a loss of a loved one, make your heart bitter towards others. That’s not what your husband would have wanted from you.

[@musicjazzvez]

“God promised us never leave us or forsakes us…”♥️

[@deborahaustin3258]

I’ve lost my only child at sweet 16 to childhood cancer. Your words were a blessing to me and I’m sharing, knowing it may help others. God bless you always.

[@iamhis5580]

I’m so very sorry💔

[@pennylan6466]

You made me cry

[@brianr1165]

♥️

[@bruceowens7213]

Hi Deborah I lost my only child at 8 years old from cancer in 2010. She would be going on 20 years old how time flies . I'll probably never be the same person I was , but I can laugh and smile again . It is the worst feeling that I have ever had to go through. Only the ones that have witnessed this pain can honestly know how it feels. I couldn't get through this on my own. I had to beg God to help me get through this , and he did . He let me be able to talk and share with other people my loss and offer to help them by talking if they choose too. God and time is how I'm making it through this life . One day , one month , one year etc. Is the only way . Stay strong

[@bpowers31450]

My heart has a special place for childhood cancer moms/families. My cousin's son, Charlie, battled Stage 4 high-risk neuroblastoma at the age of 4. He's a survivor but will deal with the long-term side effects of his treatments all of his life. Another friend's son, Jake, battled the same cancer and passed away at the age of 6. It makes no sense. The families who have put their trust in the Lord have a faith that sustains them through their dark valleys. I can't even begin to imagine the struggle. My prayers are with you all.

[@ricksolomon9166]

While watching this I was overwhelmed with a voice that reminded me that our Lord grieves with us.

[@corriewalker6843]

I also lost my son. He was 27. He was beautiful. Reading all of these comments and seeing how many other parents out there went through what I did is heartbreaking. We will all rejoice in the Day we see them again. What a day that will be. I think about it all the time.

[@mjmh7050]

I lost my brother when he was 27..I was 25. It is so hard...4 years have gone by but my heart longs to see him. As life goes on, heaven is more appealing so I can be there with him! Yet I am still young and it's hard to be so joyful in being a mom while missing him.

[@mmommo-hx4dx]

you will see them whole again!

[@ellsmere58]

My daughter was 37, it will be 2 years this august. I think of her always but have difficulty talking about her, I avoid it, I don’t want to face it. I miss her, I miss me, heartbreak can be all consuming at times.

[@miriamLbuckley]

When my son was dying, you were kind enough to speak to him on the phone and he put it on KZbin 11/2011 conversation with Toby Mac and Mikie B. Thank You!

[@ifyouloveChristyouwillobeyhim]

Jesus thank you for what you did for M B and for their son and for Toby Mac and please help these broken hearts please help them Jesus we pray, have mercy and help. . .

[@desireea.thomas2419]

What a Huge surprise & Blessing to your son I bet. Big time hugs sending your way sweet child of God your🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@levernis5753]

Could you link it?

[@david443]

@@levernis5753 kzbin.info/www/bejne/goLHn4ZnpN-pb5I

[@thedangerousbeauty]

❤

[@rhondabaldwin3141]

Thank you for this! I lost my 20 yo son to Fentanyl poisoning in 2021. I believe that I will have joyful moments throughout the rest of my life but I will never again have a joyful life.

[@danettedennis4852]

😢 ❤ 🙏 🕊 prayers to every single one of you who have lost a child or children 🙏 ❤ 💙 😢 the stories 🙏 are abundant and he knows every single one of their names 🙌

[@angiethompson9549]

The day after Preston passed, my husband was awaken around 2am by my son and a Angel. He told my husband “this place is beautiful, I see fish and my dog and it’s just awesome Dad!!” Then he was gone.

[@mjmh7050]

Wow, reading that gives me a lot of hope.

[@lispan3768]

That is so beautiful

[@acpfeiffer6057]

I am praying that the God of all comfort will give you strength to continue in faith. I understand that in the loss of a child, the pain never truly goes away. But I caution you to test visions. Not all of them are of God. (1 Jn 4:1-3) I'm concerned because in your husband's there is no mention of the best thing about heaven: God's full, indescribable glory. I have watched family members abandon Christ himself to chase visions and dreams. Please be careful.

[@mmommo-hx4dx]

wow that's awesome thanks for encouragement

[@mytruthslays1303]

I had the exact same dream a week after my sister died. It was just as real as speaking to someone in person. It changed my life and my perspective of the afterlife from that moment.

[@thewheeldealstradingjournal]

My daughter committed suicide on September 5, 2019. It still hurts a lot, but God and time heals all wounds:) Let Go and Let God!

[@americasamericas5782]

Amen.

[@victorjohnson5766]

I understand the pain. My Son committed Suicide, January 7th 2022. He left a wife and 3 Children. GOD is seeing us through.

[@yobabybubba]

@@victorjohnson5766 so so sorry. God-bless you. So sorry for both of you.

[@susanmcguire4664]

I am very sorry for your loss. No parent should feel this devastation and pain xoxo

[@susanmcguire4664]

@@victorjohnson5766 I am very sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you xoxo

[@birgitdombrowski7119]

You are such an encouragement TobyMac. I lost my only son Aaron (24) just last year on April 29, 2021. I prayed for him daily. I prayed for the Prodigal to come home. …God heard my prayers. Your song 21 years. In the light means a lot. Aaron actually means “One of Light”Thank you!

[@SheResellsSeashells]

I prayed for my boy too...and God did the ultimate healing and took him home. His ways are not our ways. As hard as it is, I know that God loves my son more than I ever could. We will be reunited one day.

[@heatherm1385]

Toby thank you for recording this video. My family has been grieving since 5-23-20. Our son passed away while serving in the Marine Corps. He was raised a Christian. Loved America. He told us God wanted him to be a Marine. It was the safest place he could be because of it. He went to Christian school from 3-18yrs old. Enlisted and became a Marine. The first year he went through Reconnaissance training that was 5-6 months long. He made it to the last month. He was removed from the platoon. He never told us the whole story. He kept moving forward. Tried to do infantry. But it wasn't enough for him. He made sniper training team (only two men out of his group made the cut). He had just made it through the first phase. It was May of 2020 and we were planning to see him for 4th of July. He was going to Kuwait on deployment in Oct. We received a call May 23 (Memorial Day weekend) that our son died of a fetanyl overdose. Shocked with unbelief we could not breathe. His fiance (wedding date 9-18-21), her father, myself and my youngest waited until we could gather the rest of our family to break the news to them. Our lives have never been the same. One thing I do ask God to help me through is reaching the 4 men and 1 woman that are indicted for the crime of distributing to him (a case that has went on for 20 months). I want to give them the hope of salvation that Jesus wants us all to have. I want to let them know that whatever their past looks like they can have much better future IN HIM. He has been helping me pray but I want to meet them and give them that message. I pray that we see our sons very soon. I have the hope of our savior returning for us and I can't help but look forward to the catching up first of those that went before us. Receiving their glorious bodies. Then the church still residing on this earth to meet up with them and getting our glorified bodies. Heaven is my home. I just stay here listening to who God wants me to talk to about His love. It's the best kind of love. You have put into words what was in my heart. I could not get that out. You have really made it clear. There is no promise going on in life without anything tragic or challenging happening. But we do have a promise that He is right here with us through every single thing. Holding us. Love you and your family.

[@lorettamckey4481]

Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. People do not understand that God's ultimate victory is to rise above a situation, by His grace and strength and for that other guilty party to be saved and the victory and glory to go to God for His mercy to all of us! None of us "deserve" Heaven or God's mercy, but He chooses to give it because of His unconditional love! God bless you for being wise enough to recognize this and go on forgiving and loving in spite of your loss!

[@Hillside-Hive]

The never laughing as hard or smiling as big as before... that got me. Sweet Sam has been gone 5 years, 3 months and 2 days. Haven't been the same. I know where my son is and with his loss I lost the innocent part of myself that didn't "know" grief. I know it now. One day we'll reunite but until then, I'm a changed person. Thank you Toby, raised my kids on you (12 kids) and still to this day.

[@71nettie]

Truly sad..he is a wonderful performer..but on the other hand..grief is hard..I hope he can laugh really hard again someday..amen

[@irenedeleon1614]

I lost my grandchild his parents divorced n then my husband I show this video to my recently widower friend. yes! it's true he said we will never smile nor laugh fully again. My heart go to u Toby I'm very sorry. ur not alone can't stop my tears

[@OrondeB]

Woah!! 12 beautiful children! That’s a huge blessing. God bless you ma’am and may the rest of your days be strong in the Lord regardless what happens in life ❤️🙏🏾

[@aikensrus]

God bless you. Either your smile and laughter will return in glory, bigger and more joyful and more pure than in your "lost innocent" days; or it will be replaced by something even greater and more glorious. No eye has seen, no ear has heard, ...

[@elizabethl3323]

It changes you forever ❤

[@heidibey274]

I can't listen to this song without crying. I lost my son in 2007 there weeks before his nineteenth birthday. He passed after being hit by a car. He was my best friend my gift from God. Anyway, love you, your family all that ya'all stand for. God is good, we will see our boys again. Thank you, peace brother.❤️🙏👍

[@larrywalter6476]

Hello Heidi how are you doing?

[@joanmckeehan9735]

I lost my 21-year-old son to suicide in 2020, and I am grateful to this man for sharing his grief so openly with the public. We will see our boys again!! ❤🙏

[@jodiwitt-bailey1791]

God Father surround Joan and her family with YOUR peace.

[@nickbjones8833]

@@jodiwitt-bailey1791 amen..sad to hear what happened to joan..her son must have been in a lot pain..i say this sadly cause i stupidly tried to take myself out in oct last year...but the lord got me through it...stay strong all.

[@tathanbailey6225]

@@nickbjones8833 I'm here if you need any help brother.

[@nickbjones8833]

@Tathan Bailey thanks for your kind words. Got a lot going on but I know that the lord will get me through it

[@shellylewis6663]

I too lost my 21 year old son to suicide in 2021. My only child. Very painful. I hope to see him again some day, but maybe they are with us spiritually and I am learning to live with being ok with my loss or change in faith. I wish you the very best and so very sorry for your loss.

[@aprilc7039]

I resonate with the “I don’t know if I’ll ever laugh as deeply”.. I struggle with finding the same laughter I had before loss and grief.

[@davidpete5652]

That’s great

[@teresamiller7263]

I dont know that I will ever laugh as deeply. My grief raw, 11 days ago my son passed at 32 years old. It is a raging storm of pain, thank you for sharing your story. Noone should have to endure this.

[@carolynsprinkle3155]

My oldest son is homeless, addict, and schizophrenic. He started “acting out” age 12, using, running away from home. He is a believer! He accepted Christ age 5. This year he is in a mental hospital and on meds, more clear than he has been. He told me he will be with me in heaven because he knows Jesus. I am so grateful for this! I am sad about him but I love him and trust God. I’m sorry about your son. Thank you for sharing.

[@sharoncasados510]

I always think of the virgin Mary who lost her son, three days later, she was singing praises, because she knew he was still alive..and that's where your son is, with our savior, and that's where we all want to be.

[@Chickadee0421]

We lost a wonderful son in 2020. What you had to say resonated with me deeply, especially the comments about God truly being with us. Amazingly, Chris' death has made my faith much stronger, which has been surprising to me. Here's to laughing a little deeper and surviving the waves!

[@cindyreeves5048]

Yes….tsunamis. 💔

[@danielgo9456]

This weekend was the first anniversary of my my 20 year old son’s death from fentanyl poisoning. A close friend send me your song “21” to listen with my 16 yr old son. I’m overwhelmed and softened by your story, and stories of countless others in the comment section. Thank you for opening doors that afford me permission to feel and patiently heal. You are so courageous possessing the ability to talk and sing without choking up.

[@jennebeattie3168]

Thank you for being honest in saying it hurts every single day. Some days more than others. If you had said "the pain is not there every day" I would not have continued to listen. It's a loss you CANNOT recover from. Very inspiring at the end when you say you see your son saying "if only you could see how this whole thing works". All I can focus on, is MY SON IS NOT WITH ME!!!! WHERE IS HE?????? The pain feels unsurvivable. Yet, here I am. I am Christian but so angry at God that I cannot feel comfort. I feel robbed and forsaken. Every breath I take without Branson here, hurts. It's been two years. Thank you for sharing your story ❤. I'm so sorry for your loss 🕊️

[@beckyc811]

We lost our beautiful son, Michael, at the age of 14. That was 18 years ago. If it had not been for our relationship with Jesus Christ my husband and I never would have survived. Our church family was there for us. Our work families were there for us. I thank God for them. There are still days that my heart and my arms ache to hold my boy again. But I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I will see him again. I look forward to that day. We love you Toby Mac! You and your family are in our prayers.

[@laurachilongo3995]

Prayers to all you parents who have lost a child at any age. We lost our four year old son Israel September 19th 2020. It's been the worst pain and with God's help we are able to keep going for our other three kids. Each day brings so much pain. Biggest Hugs to all you parent's 🫂

[@kimberlyakers-tomanek5288]

I lost my son in October 18,2019 It certainly doesn’t get easier. Some days are just more tolerable. Stay close to Jesus he comforts. I miss Jordan so much. I know I’ll see him again. Praying for everyone!

[@globalwarclips6806]

Blessed are those who mourn,for they shall be comforted 🤗🤗❤

[@FaithfulxTweets]

you’ll see him again, that wasn’t goodbye! there will be a HUGE family reunion one day! hold on to Jesus, he will heal, restore & help you! stay strong! 💕 - Matthew 5:4 King James Version 4 Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. - Revelation 21:4 King James Version 4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

[@angeleyes3386]

💞

[@travismartinez30]

My fiance died in a car accident about a year n a bit ago, def miss her but I know God has a plan. It has been the craziest n darkest thing ever but I have learned so much about God in my time of hurting. Sorry for what a lot of you are going through and I will pray for ya'll may God continue to bring healing and remember it is okay to feel.

[@Lyndsay-jh2um]

I lost my son October 18, 2008. That day will always be filled with heart wrenching flashbacks and if I could have done something differently to know what was going to take place that morning. Even after all of the years passed I still have days where the heartache seems as fresh as the day it happened. Be it you have faith in your life or not...you're not supposed to leave this earth before your children, and in my case...such a young life taken before it even began.

[@donmcc6573]

Never think it can't happen to your child. That's what I thought, until I lost my son. Talk to your kids about the danger of drugs!

[@sebastianblackandwhitewatc2722]

I'm so sorry for your loss ❤ I'm glad that you're a great person and you keep going, and the same goes for anyone else in this situation ❤

[@traceyray6498]

Thank you, sadly I know this grief. My beautiful child departed 3-14-16 at age 33 the same age as Jesus. This is truth.

[@kimalonzo3363]

I am sure that is special to your heart ❤. Sorry for your loss.

[@missyainsworth4710]

My precious daughter died August 6th, 2021. She was 33 also. I had never thought about that before until reading your post

[@deborahfast4919]

I lost my 17-year-old daughter to a drug overdose in 2008. It has been a long road, but God's presence is all I could hang on to. He is enough.

[@sirissacnewton7193]

I lost my son to suicide 2/14/2019. The most terrible thing a parent can face is losing a child. The grief does come in waves. At work the other day a co-worker who does not even have kids told me that I’m stuck in grief and I have to let him go. It really made me angry because she’s got no idea of what it feels like. She didn’t know me before I lost my son, or when I lost him to see how far I’ve come since. She just wouldn’t shut up about it. Thank God the phone rang so the conversation would end. People who haven’t gone through this have no right to tell someone how to grieve and when to stop. I will never stop grieving for my child.

[@crazycrissy77]

I lost my daughter to suicide on 6/30/2022, just over a yr ago. And I feel every way you said. My grief comes in waves and has hit me like an avalanche the 3 months leading up to the 1 yr anniversary. Not to mention Mother's day just a couple months ago. I am now seeing a counselor because I finally realized I need someone outside my friends and family to talk to. They can't help me anymore thru this. I try to turn it over to God, but it is really harder than it sounds. It's almost like I've been keeping my grief all to myself like it's my little baby or something, I don't know. But, I am finally trying now to reach out beyond myself to get through this, as much as I can. Ik I am changed forever and will never go back to the person I once was. The journey of grief lasts forever when you've lost a part of yourself, your child. I hope we both can get to a place where we can find peace again in our "new normal" that we must live in now...

[@Dogsarefurbabies24]

Don't engage with to these insensitive people.

[@gingerbee6719]

How abhorrent of her to say that to you. I lost my Beloved son Erek 28 yr. I understand sadly & carry the same horrific Grief of losing my son. My sweet Erek I miss u.. Sending u light....🕯🕯

[@sirissacnewton7193]

@@gingerbee6719I am so sorry 😢. Nothing takes the pain away of losing a child.

[@vafamf]

I lost my oldest son in a car accident six years ago and not a day passes he’s not on my mind in someway. Sometimes as a quick memory when you get that deep ache again some days it just sits on you and weighs you down and it’s on those days that I reflect on the goodness of Jesus’ eternal promise that will re-unite us where death can no longer steal our loved ones away.

[@smokybearthebird8642]

Love to you ❤️

[@lisaburgess781]

Praying for you to feel God's love everyday as you recall all of those precious memories of your son. 🙏 God bless you and your family ❤️‍🩹💝

[@mtrac9786]

I have been lost for over three months now after the unexpectant passing of my 33 year old daughter. The grief and pain is overwhelming. I have been searching for answers, searching for an understanding, a perspective that I did not know or to validate what I now think and believe. This search has brought me here to listen to TobyMac's loss. I wept when I heard the words "God promised us that he would never leave us or forsake us." I truly believe that as I feel the strength given to me to overcome the grief when I pray and ask for strength. My thoughts are now cemented ... the Lord came to my daughter while she was peacefully asleep, smiled and filled her heart with overwhelming love. The Lord put his hand out and said "come with me" whereby she willingly took his hand and went with the Lord to Heaven. The only comfort I have is that I know she is there with the Lord and I will see her when my time comes...... Thank you TobyMac for sharing it meant a lot to hear what you had to say. Also, to all that have shared your loss, may you find peace through prayer.

[@TheTinkerersWife]

Lost my husband August 22,2019 to a massive heart attack. It was a brutal death, very traumatic for me. Holding on to the true promise that God will never leave me or forsake me. Toby is so very right in that. Grief took me to the depths of my faith and the forge was struck solidifying it as nothing else could.

[@paulineborquez4195]

My twin lost her ex-husband,, her son and then her daughter . Her whole family. I’ve never know someone as strong as her. She believes in God and lives everyday but isn’t as happy as she use to be. I love your music and shared it with her. 🙏🏽♥️

[@darleneachille491]

That’s really rough Pauline!!!! Im so very very sorry!!! Im glad that you are sharing with her!!!!!🥰🙏🏽❤️🙌

[@nicolettecoetzee7339]

So sorry for your loss. I lost my daughter to cancer 3 years ago. She was 37 but knew the Lord and was ready to go home. The missing ne’er goes. Sorrow and grief come in waves. I lost my husband in July last year and my sister in August. Only the Lord can give grace and comfort. But you stil miss them. My comfort is knowing that I will see them one dayGod bless you ?

[@Goddibaba]

You are very wise, Pauline

[@Bigglesworth9]

This shredded me… but in a healing way. I just lost my daughter. Thanks so much for this, thank you Toby for sharing your journey

[@melissac6774]

Sending you the biggest virtual hugs! I lost my son Sept 2019, so I understand your pain. Just keep hanging on to Jesus, read your Bible, especially Job and Psalms. 🙏🏻

[@wendysubject2061]

Your testimony has been a blessing, I lost my 21 year old son, and the shame I felt was unreal, I have listening to you for ever. I don't want people to ask me how he died. You talking openly with Christians has been such a blessing

[@mbwilson8592]

If someone is saved when they die in this life, they immediately go to be with our Lord. That's not a "rip off." We, as the loved ones who are left behind and grieving them- we can feel ripped off.

[@Jasminegonzlz]

Parents shouldn’t have to bury their children. 😭 Can’t stop crying.

[@americasamericas5782]

It's not promised

[@samanthafrancis8159]

My mom said the same thing when my youngest brother passed at 32 in 2020. My bro lost his battle with addiction and left behind two beautiful daughters. Grief comes in waves Toby. We’re continuing to pray for you and your family!

[@bruceowens7213]

No we shouldn't have to jasmine . I never thought I would ever even imagine something like this , and one day the phone rang . That was the beginning of a long confusing process that I still wonder WHY ? . . . This was happening to me . One day at a time .

[@THXx1138]

@@bruceowens7213 Tears reading your comment. Gentle hug to you Bruce

[@Lyndsay-jh2um]

@@bruceowens7213 I will never understand, ever. The heart ache you face can never be completely healed. My son was a baby and passed in 2008. Having to go through a photo book and pick out a two foot coffin is gut wrenching (I did not know they were even made this small until I was faced with no other choice but to find out). I hope time helps you with your loss, but after this many years I still have days where it feels the band aid was just torn off without the wound being healed 😭

[@conniedean3787]

Thank-you for sharing this, it will help all of us who have lost a child, I lost my son Michael at the age of 28 in 2013 (I donated a kidney) and my daughter at the age of 18 had a drug overdose and had a cardiac arrest - she did not get enough oxygen to the brain in time at the age of 18 in 1997 and could not talk, walk, was blind and on a feeding tube in a wheelchair for 20 years and died at the age of 38 in 2017, I visited her every day and took her home for visits, I spent 30 years in and out of hospitals, for the past 8 years I have been traveling now, I feel like it is a miracle from God and my children sent me to London, Paris, Switzerland, Italy, Ireland and Portugal and Israel the Holy Land, I did not go there to have fun IT WAS A HEALING experience, - that is what helps me. I have another son who is 40 now and misses his brother and sister.

[@emmaplatford4849]

I lost my only son October 13th, 2020. I never knew grief before this. I know my boy is home, but the pain that crushes me and leaves me hemorrhaging every single day is only survivable through the grace of God and my depth of belief that one day soon I will join my boy and that is eternal. My boy told me his last night that Jesus was his best friend and that in and of itself does give me peace, but the pain is always there. I thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and your loved ones.

[@Lifeisshortmakeitcount]

As someone who has lost a son as well, the pain is so deep. I understand what you are saying, I think about life after death like I never did before. I’m looking forward to seeing my son again more than I can begin to explain.

[@iamhis5580]

I am right there with you💔

[@swimmygo]

I never had children, but the happiest day of my life will be when I'm reunited with my loving parents. 💔

[@daniellebrouillette8135]

There is no pain like losing a child. Grief sits in the closet of your mind and is always there. 2 and a half years now. I used to cry every day for hours. I couldn't even say Jon's name without a long cry. I'm raising his two boys. One of them is a spitting image of him, not only in looks but in actions. What a lesson to see some things are born within. I beat myself up on the what-ifs forever. Then this boy is showing me it's just how it is. Yes, you could always have done something different. The wind blows the barn door open sometimes. He was 35 when he fell asleep. I played one of Toby's songs at his Memorial service. I will pray for you can be very cheap words but I do give a sincere prayer to those that are in grief.

[@idomagirlabahi7786]

So so sorry for your loss. ❤️❤️❤️

[@elises2074]

Brave interview. You can see there are still layers of grief he's going through. Praying he gets his biggest smile yet even while on earth, amidst the tragedy.

[@trinigal215]

Thank you for sharing your grief journey! I loss my daughter unexpectedly 11/4/22. My heart is broken in many pieces!💔 My faith was shaken but I know God is the only one I can put my trust in to bring me through this dark valley!😭💔

[@1LoveGod]

I lost my first born, son Christopher of 31 years on the 4th of July in 2020. Only 3 years after losing my first born Daughter from a previous marriage, Hailey at 20 years old. Only God alone, could get me through such a devastating time in my life, and He did. But I thank those who were by my side, even if for a moment, even if just passing by. And I Thank You Toby for your music relating to that grief, it has helped and lifted my spirit in times of need, even today. 🙏🏼✌🏼❤️

[@MX_236]

💔💙💔We miss our son everyday, looking forward to the day we can hold him in our arms again.

[@MaryElizabethEvents]

Toby, thank you for sharing. My son, Jack Lewis, went to heaven a year after your son. October 26, 2020 when he was 25 years old. I’m changed! FILLED WITH LOVE ❤️ for ALL! A student of everything heaven! ...and as much as I miss him, I don’t necessarily think he got a raw deal!!

[@larrywalter6476]

Hi Mary how are you doing?

[@butterfly23faith84]

I feel your pain 🦋💗going on 16 years losing my 15 year old daughter to a drunk driver 😢God was the only one that helped and love me through it !!

[@fowlkeskm]

I lost my youngest daughter on July 21. I wouldn’t wish this pain on anyone.

[@mauriceperez1479]

We love you brother. Praise the Lord for His never forsaking us.

[@sheilasmith9259]

May He continue to care for you and give you daily what He knows you need! Powerful testimony!

[@qqq1q1qqqqqqq]

Praise God, I've never lost a child. My cousin just lost her 26 year old son a week ago. I can see the unbelievable grief on her face and in her eyes. I can't imagine the grief a parent goes through losing their child. No matter the age. I lost my husband less than four months ago. As a mother seeing her children lose their father, that was tough. The aftermath -- a son trying to learn to be a father to his new son, without his father around...that's tough. This is a wonderful video. I just shared it with my son. He is struggling and needs something to hold on to. He is 36 but losing his dad is devastating to him. Especially only eight days after his newborn son came into the world. He never got to see his Grandpa. My husband never got to hold his only grandson. The pain, the grief, it isn't for just a day or a week. I love what he said about the grief coming in waves. Makes so much sense to me right now. I had a wave last night. So glad God showed me this today. It was definitely needed. Sorry if I'm all over the place. This rattled me a little. But what he said about community coming around you in your darkest hour is true. I saw that with my cousins this last week. They were totally surrounded by love and compassion. Sadly, my family did not do that for us when my husband passed away. We were left on our own. It has cost us relationships with those who should have been closest to us. That, I think, has been harder than losing my husband was. A friend and a couple of work family members stepped into fill that gap. They were solid when the blood family wasn't. It can make all the difference. Even if you don't know what to say, just be there. It helps more than you know!!!

[@larrywalter6476]

Hello Casey how are you doing?

[@carolinemanley9216]

I’m so so glad you’re letting yourself grieve in your own way and that you’re allowing yourself to heal even though it’s painful to. And thank you for being so vulnerable. People need this.

[@leighannlove9671]

My son was ran over 10/7/18he fought for his 4 boys and our family for 11 months before infection took him to heaven. He is whole and healed since 9/6/19. Grief is so hard. Thank you for sharing TonyMac.

[@brendynwallace]

“He knows what living is, He’s acquainted with our grief”

[@w.rivera6705]

Thank you Toby 💙 "The Heart of God yearns over His earthly children with a love stronger than death".

[@jennifersaladin2689]

Thank you man. I lost a close friend this morning, and I opened KZbin as a distraction when I saw this video. It's so true grief comes in waves. It's just so hard. But he was a stronger Christian than I, and I know I'll see him again someday. ❤️

[@luckydogx2]

Toby, sorry about the loss of your son. My wife and I have lost both of our sons. The first to a crib death many years ago, then our other son at 26, from an auto accident. I have learned a lot about grief, from our experiences. Far too much to go into in a youtube comment. The Bible speaks to this as the "Refiner's Fire". Our tests here on earth purify us as a refiner's fire purifies gold or silver.

[@gracel316]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I will for your family

[@ShannonAdams-sg6ev]

I fully understand the situation of a lose I was a drug addict for 25 years got clean 9 years ago and covid struck and swolled my daughter and she passed away I am still sober that's how I keep it with my daughter God is awesome because he showed me the way of soberness my daughter you to ask me was I ever going to get sober I am so thankful that she got to see me beat the addiction and stay sober and now she sees me still being sober and clean. I Miss you DeAna N Adams 03/20/98 09/11/21❤

[@terrimagnant6979]

Thank you for your openness! I lost my beautiful 18 year old daughter July 6, 2017. Everyday I miss her with every breath. But with every breath I am thankful for the Lord! Thank you for sharing

[@katyc.1969]

so very sorry to all who have lost a loved one, particularly a child. I lost my youngest to a motorcycle accident in 2017. the hardest part is learning to live in the world without them...I lost a chunk of my heart that day.

[@smokybearthebird8642]

Prayers , One day your heart will be whole again! Some bonds are never untethered

[@juliemannion6273]

My son went to heaven on 2/10/2021, everything that you said about grieving is how I feel, I'm broken and I will never be the same because a part of me is in heaven with my son, however I am so grateful for God's peace, I heard a saying a long time ago that I firmly believe, " God never promised us a rose garden He just promised to help us with the thorns" May God bless you and your family Toby and give you His peace!

[@CreAdjodi]

So true!

[@patmeyers693]

Toby, my (almost 11 yo) grandson has connected to your music in a special way. We have had custody of him for 3+ yrs and he is a gift. He is old enough now that he talks openly about his parents drug addiction and is growing his faith, thru his questioning. When he empties the dishwasher he tells Alexa to "play Toby Mac". He is rocking out, holding a spatula as a mike, and really gets into it. I thank you for your music. This child needs it, and he is embracing it. You are a blessing to all of us. I am so sorry for your loss of your son. Thank you for talking about your grief.

[@VickySunshine1]

When my Mom died. That was the hardest thing I went through. I'm physically disabled, and my Mom took care of me all my life. Well, when she got sick, it was my turn to take care of her. And I did it to the best of my ability. When she died, all I could do was grab on to Jesus' Cross with a death grip. My faith in Him grew even stronger.

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

Who is taking care of you now? I am sorry that you had to lose your Mom. I am disabled too and struggling so hard since my husband died. God bless you.

[@sandracarter7231]

God bless you Toby. I lost a son to suicide and my husband died of a bloodclot in the chest almost 6 months later. I understand these words you say

[@CountryTenn1365]

I’m so so sorry! God Bless You and comfort you always!

[@drchristineobrien9704]

I'm sure your husband died of a broken heart. Praying for you🙏

[@angelashrope5782]

Thank TobyMac for staying real in pain and humble in public. You are an example of a Christian I long to be.

[@larrywalter6476]

Hello Angela how are you doing?

[@janetbullas8821]

I lost my son and I feel your pain. My faith sustains me through it all 🙏🏼

[@jessebourneau6426]

Had my first dream last night about my 27 year old son who died of fentanyl 10 months ago. I was hugging him and I knew it was him because he was so big and solid. He didn’t squirm when I hugged him tight and apologized for not being there for him. Then he was gone and I was content. Beneath the addiction was his faith in Christ. I preached his funeral and prayed the best committal prayer I could muster.

[@ronlisa333]

I never listened to your music. I did not even know who you were... On FB your 21 years ,song has helped me every daym my 21 yr old son was murdered Nov 2nd. 2021. He was 21 years old....and it was not over a girl, drugs,etc. Shot in the face took 3 steps in and that was that. He left my house A MAN. He just wanted to WORK....save up and start his live. God put YOU in my life. 🙏You have helped me more than words can explain. Thank you. We are 4 months in and have a sister, father , mother and so many grieving . This was the WORST way to loose the unnatural...to loose your child. The way we did. Your brother ....the way she did. Again, I thank you for this song and many more. 💚💚💚

[@ronlisa333]

The way our son was taken.... What we will and will continue to deal with the unimaginable these past 4 months. In EVERY way. Financially, emotionally, physically. It has turned our world upside down.You sharing this... This song 21 years ...please know God brought you into my life in a way that I needed. I can only imagine that song ,so personal and to share and I NEED you to know the healing it has done for me and my husband. We listen to it almost every night.

[@MessageFromMarty]

4:32min "leaving this earth early isn't necessarily a rip-off"....TRUTH, albeit from the other side....i shared that same insight of eternity when my little girl passed Oct 15 2020. Respect Mr Mac. Gr8 conversation.

[@MessageFromMarty]

@J C will do...all i can say is 3 days after my daughter died, holding her in my arms one final time, praying for her resurrection, i got 'taken' to a meeting with my daughter and Jesus into what i can only describe as a 'foyer' to heaven :) and yes, the glimpse i got into heaven......wowsers. :)

[@Sandybags]

Reading all of these stories is somehow chillingly comforting. Grieving parents can feel so alone. Not even our own close family can understand how we’ve changed. It’s been almost 15 years since we lost our firstborn to crib death, and still today I’m sure our two girls are feeling the ripple effects. Like another poster said, you lose some of the carefreeness, and your every thought, action or inaction is much more measured.

[@staciepoole8161]

I lost my oldest, 21 year old son just a few months before Toby lost his son. His song 21 really helped me through some of the pain.

[@jacquelinemeier-boucher8192]

Tobbi,i am truly sorry for the loss of your precious son. Nothing can replace him. May God bless you with peace and grace in your dark moments. For me it was my 17 grandson. Love in Christ.....prayers Jackie

[@ladyfirst2797]

I truly can understand what you're saying, I just lost my 1st born, right after Thanksgiving. It's a grief process that most can't understand, only if they've been through it. Every day is a new challenge, but for God's grace and mercy.

[@chloelageaux769]

I CANNOT imagine!!!! Lord please continue to be with this family!!!

[@kathysmith3310]

I lost my son on March 17, 2019 to suicide. I felt your testimony Toby and I understand. I have felt our Father near to me in this valley. I feel His comfort, His love. I too imagine my loved ones there and it brings me such peace. Until we meet again in heaven I pray for us all. 🙏🏻

[@larrywalter6476]

Omg I’m so sorry about your son. How are you doing?

[@cheryllwoods-flowers8671]

Thank you so much for this...lost my first grandson at 19...my daughter/son-in-law's only child. I am where you are...I will never be the same.

[@gretchenguichard1623]

I love how GOD USE YOU Toby. I lost my son 2yrs ago May 19th, week of my birthday. I am so glad that I brought my kids to Christ, that's what gets me through. I miss Lyle soooo much as I know you miss your son too. Thank you for your testimony and your songs cause they make me happy, get up and dance and they speak to me and all of us out there!!!!! Every time I think of your son..... I think of him singing on your songs and hearing his little voice when you tell him your gonna pay him with a " Mac Donald's Happy Meal" lol. His little voice stuck in my head❤. GOD Bless you. Keep writing Toby, Keep singing!!!!!😊 GI GI

[@AintNoFool]

My younger daughter lost her beloved high school boyfriend from murder, then my older daughter, her sister, died. After that she learned her entire marriage was a lie as husband had been unfaithful the entire time. She was also fostering to adopt 2 babies she had since the day after they were born. They were ripped from her life, as toddlers, by a guardian ad litem who did not like her... that was like deaths of both her babies. Her life never seemed to improve. Her 2nd bio baby almost did not live and was born premature. She has fought years to keep that little girl alive. Then my husband died, and he was my daughters only dad, a stepdad. The losses and challenges just keep pounding at my remaining child. Loss is incredibly difficult.

[@christineperkins4987]

So sorry, 🙏🙏

[@ahhitskatie9094]

So sorry to hear of the pain and loss. I pray it draws you both closer to The Lord. For comfort, highly recommend reading Job and then John 1-3. ❤️

[@amynix690]

My sister and brother in law lost their son, their only child, in an ATV accident on 9/19/21. He was 26 years old and would have turned 27 on Dec. 15th. To say that the last several months have been devastating is an understatement. Thank you so much for your testimony and hope in Christ. I am so sorry for the loss of your son. What you say is so true. God NEVER leaves us during times of heartache. Many times we feel him most during these times. Thank you for being a source of encouragement and hope!

[@sarahpfeuffer1396]

I'm sorry to hear you lost your boy. I can tell it's really painful for you even though you don't directly describe it. God bless you. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us.

[@irenechavez3455]

Thank you for sharing "LOSING LOVED ONES, TRULY IS PAINFUL"😪💔 I'VE BEEN HOLDING ON TO GOD'S PROMISES SINCE 2011. 🙏📖💖⚓ WHEN THOSE I AM SURROUNDED BY HAVE KNOWN TRUTH🙏😪💖⚓

[@sondragonzalez6764]

I never knew grief until I lost my mama. Grief was the hardest emotion I have ever felt. Two years of waves. I would wright poetry that wouldn’t make sense to someone who hadn’t experienced it. Grief rocked my soul. I’m truly sorry for the loss of your son. May God give you His strength to see the humble grace grief brings. ❤💔💔

[@janbrowning9694]

I can't begin to imagine your pain and I'm so sorry that you are going through this. Praying for you, Amanda, and your family to find peace and a new normal.

[@larrywalter6476]

Hello Jan how are you doing?

[@hollysmithconklin847]

I understand the Grief Lost my son a year ago comes in waves. , but the Joy of the Lord my strength.

[@gloriagg1929]

Lost my son and I held God's hand tightly because I would never had made it! The most difficult time of my life. It's a pain that can not compare to anything and only another parent can understand. Wouldn't wish that heartache on anyone. I send my Love and compassion and God's loving arms for comfort to you and your family. You will laugh again it takes time! Love Gloria

[@ebonythomas7489]

Someone sent me here, I lost my 18 year old son last week to gun violence he was a innocent bystander trying to stop a fight & got killed, I can’t say wrong place wrong time cause he was at my moms visiting her so he actually got killed in front my mama house by a 15 year old kid & Lord I’m hurting he was truly a good kid & full time dad to a 2 year little girl trying to work & take care of her, I’m taking care of now & I can’t get pass the hurt & pain that he wasn’t doing anything wrong but this video helped me a lot but I am heart broken…thank you for this