A hard two years

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[@roryyoooo]

I've watched your videos for years and it's lovely to see this side of you. Relationships can change but you will always have yourself and people that love you. You don't need romance to live your life, it can be a luxury but also a torment. As long as you have love in the form of friendships and family, that's enough. Sending you love from a small island near the UK.

[@rics1883]

Agree wholeheartedly. Unless you have established connection with yourself (which can be hard but not impossible) others are there just to fill the void, I think that’s why most relationships don’t work.

[@hispersonalpage]

I just don't understand - friends and family are not sexual relationships. I'm not being negative at all, just have thought about it alot too. Love is love but romantic relationships are different than family

[@PostWarKids]

That marine would have made me gasp too

[@velocapistrano1163]

I know it’s been a hard two years. You’ve been drained mentally & emotionally but you’re here and you’ve weather the storm. Hugs 🤗

[@wolfgangromine8341]

My last breakup happened 5 years ago and I still think it lingers within me in some form. Breakups are really hard, it feels like it will never end, and then one day it dawns on you that it's been years and you're honestly feeling pretty ok. Moving on and growing into a new person happens so gradually it sneaks up on you, at least for me. Glad to hear you're doing well!

[@gusnguyen123]

I’m glad you’re doing better and I know it’s been a tough 2 years…. You got through and continue to get through it no matter what , we’re here for you and continue to love and support you ! Happy pride month , we all go through stuff but as long as we stick together 💙💙💙!

[@josephmillraney1061]

Mark, always love your videos. They always give a sense of the wonderful young man you are. And truly these videos are my week. Thank you!

[@KingShroomish]

Oh, Mark. I really appreciate this new project. It was so nice to see some responses at the end too. Just seeing everyone talk about themselves with dignity and positivity really pushes me to do the same, as often as possible. The more we're in love with, the less there is to worry about. ❤️✌🏼

[@nickb7228]

I have to say I never really comment on KZbin videos but this one got me. I also went through a hard breakup and it took nearly 3 years to get over. I definitely had some dark times and I could absolutely feel it all over again listening to you talk about it. Glad you are in a better place and managed to get through it!!!

[@dragonfly232010]

Thanks for being so raw and honest, needed to hear that. Your helping so many people by being this vulnerable. It helps to know we aren’t alone in this

[@G_frdablocck]

Thank you for sharing Mark. Your sharing a variety of content, the most personal and my favorite is you sharing vulnerability with us. You got this, time will heal and fill in the gaps that were once full.

[@andyweaver277]

You are inspiring! Keep pouring into the world and soak up the good that comes back at you.

[@kasparsmiezis5012]

I ended things with my ex boyfriend after he was being physically abusive in Aug 2019. Took me almost three years to deal with that and I can finally say that I'm healed and open to start a new chapter of my life. I went through multiple breakdowns, depression with suicidal thoughts and afterall I could describe that experience with your words as "dark but beautiful" so I found this video so relatable .. I'm happy we made it through!!!

[@LG141602]

My partner started abusing me physically too. I think that's the sign that there's too much frustration and anger instead of love.

[@BrandonSelby]

I'm glad you are sharing, It's not easy going through it, And I appreciate you being vocal about it

[@tonyanderson6235]

I agree 100% Mark. I am 60 and I am walking 5 miles a day and that is amazing.

[@miguelsarriamaldonad]

Dude I used to have a huge crush on you because you’re a very good looking guy but now watching you for so many years, the most attractive thing about you Mark is the type of person you’ve become and how connected with yourself you have become. It’s very attractive to take the time to know yourself and become a better version of it. Also showing emotion is so attractive on a guy. I always look for that now on others and also within myself. I guess what I’m trying to say is that your a Fxxing catch Mark 😂 . I’m sure you’ll find your person soon.

[@stars8924]

The way y’all be J/off this man in these comments are hilarious 😂😂😂 thirsty queens

[@derodmcelrath3599]

@@stars8924 he has a dope personality from what we know of him wouldn’t say thirsty queens we just like the vibe she gives off

[@stars8924]

@@derodmcelrath3599 His vibe is just an average W guy who has a lot of free time. Get real. I’m not even going in on him, it’s the way y’all thirst after him. Act like a fan, get treated like one

[@pjaybasmaignee]

@@stars8924 preach

[@regtopping1044]

You have shared some very difficult and painful moments from your past. Please know that it is deeply appreciated and touches many of us. Although not easy, the respectful manner in which you approach these sensitive pieces of your life will have an impact on someone who is dealing with similar struggles. These moments in your videos serve to remind us all of the delicate soul that rests inside each of us. Peace man.

[@gary123967]

I always look forward to watching your videos. So glad you’re on KZbin!

[@timfitzgerald6575]

Thanks for the inspiring video Mark. You’re journey is helping many people, myself included.

[@KamaMatt]

Some of your words really hit home for me. I'm glad you're in a better place man!

[@rojastashanae]

Thank you for making these kinds of vids 😊. And thank you sooo much for being so honest & vulnerable with us 🥲. Sooo many of us RELATE 💔💝

[@DavidGraham97]

I’m glad you’re here and you are someone who wants to put themselves out for the rest of us to see… you’ve been an inspiration and I’m happy to see you continue growing into yourself 🤍

[@ady8097]

Been watching you for years Mark. You’ve (we all) have grown so much over the years. Your postings have helped me enormously. I want you to know this. Much love to you. Keep on being you man. Hugs

[@courtneydunlop3118]

Thank you for sharing some of your struggles and your triumphs, Mark, I can't tell you how much this video impacted me. It helped me to realize that I'm not alone or wrong in going through a dark time in my life. Your videos have become my favorite source of joy on the internet, keep creating the way that you do and expressing yourself. I really appreciate your videos and the way you live your life

[@Lisa-vz8gg]

I always feel at peace after watching your videos. Love just the random scenery. Reminds me of the reason I fell in love with your videos way back when. And Olive :) and you’re alright to Mark. Please don’t minimize your struggles. You can complain/whine/talk about it (whatever ya wanna call it) as much as you want. It’s been a stepping stone in your journey and one you’ve learned so much from. You’re inspiring.

[@Yeicar06]

So happy to hear you’re doing so much better. Keep shining Mark. ❤️

[@yosuesoler6483]

Mark, continue to be the beacon of joy and light for many if us. While you are passing the stages after the break up, I am dealing the same thing. I’m following you for years and you always know what to say. How much I had wished to had met you when you visited Alaska. Healing takes time sharing it makes it easier. Thank you for being awesome. Continue to take care of you first, be yourself.

[@jbt6007]

Love you boo! You have taken such good care of yourself this past two years, your family is rock solid and love you so much. For a lot of people that first love and horrible break up is a milestone that you will look back on the rest of your life and always mark your growth by. You'll help others that are going through their own too! xoxo

[@Corri800]

There is nothing else to say other than I love every single one of your videos and they inspire me all the time. Thank youuu!

[@tuchehstone]

Dude! Your opening comments about the injured bike rider just made me feel good about watching this video. With so much bad news lately, that little slice of humanity brought a smile to my mostly serious Monday. Thank you, Mark!

[@rickycreed7453]

Thank you for sharing, these words have resonated with me through a similar journey its so easy to listen to you and engage with you when talking about these hearty topics 😊

[@Kulou8]

I appreciate you a lot!! ❤ that video in the middle was an awesome touch. We need more of that.

[@BillPritchard]

I am so proud of the human you are, and the one you are becoming, Mark! A longtime subscriber here, I can witness your growth, love, and maturity. Keep that authenticity up pal. It will take you far!

[@ap94131]

Great video, great advice, great insight...and just damn good! Thank you so much.

[@ziwshang4970]

Love you so much, I have been in pain for the past two years, and I once doubted whether I could live, but this pain can only think about some things by myself. You still make videos in very difficult times, and now your state has inspired me again and again,

[@DrJocsala]

Thank you for sharing positivity Mark! Greetings from Guatemala

[@chrisparry1192]

Love this guy ,watched him for years ,keep strong mate ,your doing great.

[@stevehofmaster4292]

I very much enjoyed this video Mark it gave a lot of insight into you.I strongly feel that you're in a good place right now and that gives me 😊joy.Thanks for being you and take care all the best my friend!

[@petertravis4048]

I’ve watched you for years. Your authentic self is refreshing,revitalizing,hopeful and happy energy to the world. Great job.

[@johnmoon2734]

Sooooo much LOVE to you, Mark! And sooooo many thank you'd!! 🌟💖

[@zhenyudong6628]

I am so glad to hear you are in a good place. You are enough! I can completely empathize with you regarding feeling trapped and believing you won’t make it. I still can’t say I’m in a good place yet, but like you said, I need to keep going and it will get better. Thank you for your openness and vulnerability! Always makes my day a little better.

[@christianhenrriquez1354]

I went through a really hard breakup basically at the same time as you. I’ve been struggling for years but I’m finally getting to a good place. Your videos were part of what has gotten me through it all. I appreciate you! So happy you’re in a good place

[@markw.ruhnke9067]

Tears of joy, my friend! You persevered! Enjoy the ride! ❤️🎶

[@thekingofbees3509]

Thank you for this video , love seeing you happy!

[@matthewradaszewski4176]

Keep it up Mark! You’re doing wonderful things👍🏼

[@kishoreningthoujam]

I love your emotional side. Congrats on coming out stronger and not letting the darkness win. You are an inspiration to me always. Love you.❤️

[@darinlegore284]

Thanks for sharing. We could tell those last 18 months you were hurting. Without taking any sides, I still like rewatching the old tapes & the new! A lot of people were hurt/disgruntled. COVID made us all a little more depressed.

[@jim9520]

Mark isn't it amazing that it takes so much time to working through an emotional problem. Believing you have it resolved it floods back into you mind when you remember the situation like it was yesterday.

[@TheGor800]

So enjoy your opening camera shots and other shots throughout your post. You are strong, you are smart, and you are creative. And you have a wonderful family who love you dearly. Thanks for your weekly post.

[@momokenzo8]

It's crazy how i've been following you since the beginning and everytime you go through something, i feel it deep because i always go through kinda similar shit at the same time. I used to hate the people who were telling me "It'll get better" because i definitely felt like it wouldn't and same, it was winning and i was loosing. I was loosing HARD and really felt like it was going to be it for me. But i stucked in, i started to write a screenplay because i didn't just want to write a journal and i fought those demons that were ruining my mental health in that script. I'm glad you're feeling better. Keep going!

[@merrionfisher7207]

Your videos have been a big part of my life since you first started them. I just passed my year mark of my breakup and just got out a psych ward for my mental health almost beating the battle. I finally am taking medicine and going to therapy and this video came to me at the right time, and thank you for what you’ve done for me for so many years.

[@thundermix100]

have always been by your side ! you are an extraordinary person and human being. LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED with your company - youtube etc. you have inspired so many of us !!!!! during through the years !!! LOVEEEEEE YOUUUUUU MARK

[@a.j.stauft1779]

Your amazing ..love your chatting to us as a real dude expressing a lot of our feelings, thoughts, struggles...and thoughts of what to try ...thanks my special friend..keep going..waiting for the next☺️🥰💯💪👍👊

[@jacobysjournal]

Sending you all the loves in all the lands my guy. Your dark night of the soul was something alot of us Watched you grow and evolve from. I Remember our photoshoot in LA a couple of years ago, I felt your pain but i also felt that essence of your glow simultaneously. And I knew THAT PART WOULD EVENTUALLY WIN again. Just know that you're protected and loved. Shine on baby boy!! 🤸🏾‍♂️

[@justinsiegfried188]

Love you Mark and so proud of you and amazed by your strength.

[@tenor714]

This is one of the best videos you’ve done in awhile. I really admire the courage it must have taken to be so vulnerable on camera and just want to let you know it was entirely worth it. I was very moved. As we talk about affirmations, one of the things I admire most about you and your videos is your openness and positivity. Looking at life positively has always been a huge challenge for me and I still struggle but your videos help remind me that I need to continue to work at looking at life more positively. Thank you.

[@sebastienacasuso4452]

Thank you for this upload Mark. I needed to see this today. To be reminded that I am doing the right things for me. I’ve been following since the beginning, and you have always created context that spoke to me. Keep On Keeping On. 💕 🎥 📸 🏳️‍🌈

[@belamoure]

Always a pleasure to watch your vlogs indeed healing comes always but a day at a time. have a great day and hug to Ms. Olive!

[@Light_Rider]

I love this video. I love your beer collection and the authentic style. Cool, sir!

[@ofga3]

Yours is the first KZbin channel I ever followed, I think since around 10 years. I am so happy to see that you’re doing so well, it gives me hope that at some point I will find my way. Thanks for being so honest.

[@jamesemmett516]

Don't think I will get married, but always thought a beach wedding would be great. Then, after the ceremony, everyone takes off their suits/dresses/etc. and have swimsuits underneath and dive into the ocean! Then a reception/bbq afterward with dancing on the beach as the sun sets.

[@libradragon934]

O.M.G This is exactly what my daughter has always said she would do! 😁

[@joancollins6207]

Hi Mark. Thank you for such an honest and authentic video. What do I like about myself? I like that every scar and mark on my body tells a story. Sometimes of pain (burn scars and abuse) and others of sheer joy (tattoos, and carrying babies). I like my empathy and compassion for others, and myself. I like that I schedule in self care many times a day. I like that I am organised, and enjoy cleaning. I like me. Most of the time. 🥰

[@michaelbrockman5742]

Mark, thank you for this video. Questioning yourself is always important. I try to be guided by the Zen perspective of “expect nothing; appreciate everything”. It helps me get over myself and feels like a healthy way of living. Just a thought.

[@vancechristian6844]

Keep growing into the best human being you can be mark! Time will heal all your wounds if you allow it to. ❤️❤️❤️ always sending love your way!

[@glennmac5694]

Another MarkE Miller vlog to put a smile on my face. I luv the clips you chose 😘.

[@thomasboetto6229]

Hi Mark, I just want to say how much I loved your video today. I think you are a great person and I hope you can find someone to make you happy. You are such a humble person. You certainly deserve it. I think you are so sweet. Have a great day!.

[@dans1234]

The journey of life, overcoming struggles that can hit us at the core of who we are, coming out of those struggles is a gift to grow and learn, to decide who we want to be in our life. On another note - Everyone can be 'Silly' at times, best to just be able to see how everyone can be silly and laugh it off, so just keep on swimming ...

[@josiemendozie]

Loved the video! Love how vulnerable the videos always are :) I’ve also been in a really not great place, waiting for that ‘better than it ever was’ :)

[@pantherdeville]

Mark has a way of reminding you that you are not alone in the shit you go through. And that is something to celebrate during Pride Month - the ability for the queer community to BE a community. Thank you Mark for your courage to share 💕

[@EdwardCulpepper]

Friend, we’re close in age and I feel you on a spiritual level. It’s been hard, but it has gotten better. In the moment what ever was getting me down SUCKED, but made me stronger and wiser. Glad to know I haven’t been the only one dealing with it. Be well ♥️

[@user-gd9rl8ec1v]

I'm really glad you feel better now 😊 the part where you shared about your inner life after break up and later was so touching. I can relate. My first grown up relationship ended, nobody to blame, but I was in such a dark place. I felt like my world turned upside down. And I spent almost three years to recover. And it was such a relief when once I stopped and realised I was my own person again. I can't describe it, it's like I dropped such a heavy baggage that almost broke my bones. I absolutely agree with you are your hardest critic. It's a blessing and a curse. I love it -- I get there when I get there Once I had to learn to be patient and this phrase helped me. You are who you are. I'm who I am. I'm doing what I'm doing and you're doing what you're doing. I'm here not to meet your expectations and you aren't either. If something doesn't happen it's not the right time yet.

[@belizeguy]

Mark, very glad to hear you say you are on the Other Side of the Bad Times for you. Adulting is difficult, and I have always been sure that in the long run, you will and are doing fine. Be Well!!

[@markanthonyboyd372]

Another therapy session down, these are the video that fuel the soul. Thanks again Mark

[@tmichael39]

I could feel your pain @ 8:55. I've been in a dark place before and it also was a 2 yr recovery for me. It's a process to get passed it. Just know that you have a reason to live. Your audience appreciates you sharing the ups and downs of your life with us. Deep down, we are all very similar human beings. I can definitely sense the change in you for the better. Much love!

[@visariosorino8034]

Sending you lots, of love your way. Also have been in a dark place before. Now I am thriving and in a very good place. I am a gay dude. ❤️😊

[@BrinkHouse]

This is a part of Mark I'd like to see more of. Zero fucks given, pure honesty. Thanks bro.

[@gabrielncali8999]

My husband and I did this! We got married (domestic partnership) in 2003 and had the whole 9-family, friends, colleagues. It wasn’t informal-black tie optional. It was a weekend! Rehearsal dinner Friday, Wedding Saturday, Brunch Sunday! Nice to hear you ~breath~ in this video. Do that more! I try to “be of service and love more” ❤️🙏

[@stefanying2228]

Just so glad that it’s getting better!

[@cristian2009videos]

You are a constant inspiration 🫶🏽

[@Super_Mario128]

10 years ago I went through a hard time mental health wise, however things eventually do and will get better for you.

[@matts_dreams]

I’m happy things got better, remember this moment and all the good moments. That’s the point of all this🙏🏼💕

[@JustSomebodyNew]

This was a great video Mark :)

[@alexjames54321]

sending love ur way mark ❣️ thanks for the video, i love the new project concept -- love urself babyyyyy 😌✨

[@vladav6549]

I love this video. Thanks.

[@gerardpritchard657]

I'm happy you're happy, Mark. You deserve it 👏

[@WhamBamDan]

My Brother's wedding was amazing. It was at his husband-to-be's childhood home on a large rural block. The wedding party each wore black and white with a splash of a colour of the rainbow. We each went up and tied a ribbon of our colour around their hands while a value that they loved about us and wanted to have in their marriage was read out. The reception was in the backyard and there was a winding path that all the family and friends surrounded. The Emcee introduced both Mums, who danced down the path while everyone threw rainbow pom poms at them that were made by one of the Grandmas. Then both Dads had their turn, then each of us in the wedding party one by one danced our way down, with my brother and brother in law at the end. Truly the most beautiful day and night.

[@coucou.marketing]

Good to see you Mark ) I have not been watching your videos for years and suddenly remembered you yesterday) so, good to see you 10 years after ) or around

[@AB-lw3gl]

been here for ya, will always be here for ya

[@ryke9610]

Mark i have been watching you for years. I have looked up to you and you have done so much to help me understand myself and my sexuality while also loving the outdoors and realizing you dont need to fit into a gay stereotype to be gay. i have always admired your realness and the way you handle yourself. I wish you all the best over the next 2 years so come and i hope to one day get the opportunity to go on a hike with you and make content like yours!

[@dustincv]

Always love for you Mark, keep on keeping on 💙💙💙💙💙

[@OLDS98]

The video was quite interesting. It gives you something to think about. I liked you went deep and shared. I hear on that rough season. I really do. I have been in mine the last few years and still going through it. I have hope every day things will get better and change. I also like you shared those gay people at the end also.

[@stevec404]

Interesting to see your visceral/emotional reaction. I spent this evening with a cousin who shares (separate yet equally traumatic issues) some of the same challenges as me. We agreed that, in the absence of a 'delete button' for our memories, once an issue is healed...it may still revisit us like a tsunami out of the blue. Yet we are no longer on the shore, where that horrible destructive wave does its worst. We are now on the ocean; gently riding the fleeting wave, as it passes beneath us, and does us no harm.

[@danielqcallahan]

In 2009, everything in my life fell apart in the course of about 2 months. It was a VERY dark time. Then I saw a FB post from a high school acquaintance that said, “sometimes everything falls apart so we can put the pieces back where they’re supposed to be.” For as bad as 2009-2011 was for me, I wouldn’t have the great life I have now if none of it had happened. It sucked at the time, but I’m so glad it happened. I feel like your pieces are starting to get where they’re supposed to be, and I’m excited for you.

[@Mattinspfldil]

I cried with you. Thank you for being you.

[@GrotrianSeiler]

So young, so wise. Mark has so many levels of beautiful. And he shares. Awesome.

[@abcasd8309]

One of your best videos yet.

[@dannysimion]

Theres just something I find comforting just watching the normalcy of other people's lives and how you just capture it in your video in your town. When I'm eating something in the morning and I need something to watch to pass the short time before or some errand, you're one of the videos I occasionally pop on and see whats going on and how you're doing. All the best from Guam, Mark. I like your "What do you like about yourself" project.

[@LG141602]

I miss my peaceful days when I was 22. Then I met someone, promised me that we would get merried and start business together, then I got cheated on. Second relationship similar results.

[@pg5470]

You are magic Mark. Pure magic 👍

[@shawng517]

Mark, you are a beautiful soul.

[@faiththompson1368]

Early! Thank you for the inspiration

[@Danzy241]

Thanks buddy. Needed this today. We got this.

[@EverydayOcurrences]

The dark night if the soul is a valuable yet disastrous moment in life. Last year was my moment of inspiration and deep despair. After breaking through it...I have never been happier. I've always loved your content and your continued persistence to keep your KZbin going. I wish you nothing but the best in life. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@EverydayOcurrences]

Also ideas on out if the box wedding ideas. I've imagined myself to have like a month long wedding celebration where I bought a piece of land here in Hawaiʻi. And the parties that could stay that long help us build a kauhale or a commune to live a sustainable lifestyle on the land. Have multiple structures for reliable friends and family with the same vision to create sustainable agriculture. Not only for the kauhale but for the community surrounding. I'll cook for wedding celebration. They just gotta byob.