A House in Nebraska (Official Visualizer) - Ethel Cain

[@LaurenParkerRulz]

After listening to this about 3847282 times over the past week, one of the most gutwrenching and painful things about it to me is how slow the beginning is, there aren't many lyrics, but then towards the end she says so much. It's like being in conversation and you're holding back, until finally you can't hold it in anymore, you break down and you say all of the things you need to say. And then she slows down again, and all she can say anymore is how alone she feels. This song is an entire experience

[@mellynn374]

I think that's part of why it's one of my favorites. And the lyrics just hit so hard. I cry every time during the second verse.

[@bradleyhiggins6292]

what she said ❤❤❤❤

[@ΓεώργιοςΤζωρτζουλάκης]

W

[@Vi0letRay]

Ever considered being a music journalist? Cus this is bloomin genius.

[@ashevillecomputer201]

@@Vi0letRayI know right? Fuck…..It’s they described this experience.

[@m4rttaaudio]

no one ever talks about "but its worse to know that im the reason you wont come home" THAT HITS HARD.

[@eicheltreterderril5109]

harder than my stepfather. Greetings from Germany

[@organicsludgeqt7037]

My favorite line amongst incredible lines.

[@simplyharkonnen]

That back vocal where she says “And I needed you/And I need you still” don’t fucking taLK TO ME

[@charlesgoodwin5016]

Indeed!! I also liked the blending vocal, of "And I die there under you..every night, all night." Just spectacular writing.

[@user-ri9lz8uz9d]

YES IT KILLS ME EVERYTIME

[@catradorasprmanager7728]

reading the comments of ethel's music is genuinely so funny because you'll find comments from old men talking about their past loves (grandpas4ethelcain) and then there's the teenage lesbians calling her mother like her music really unites everyone 😭

[@warhawk-l5r]

Это замечательно, не то что бы забавно

[@catradorasprmanager7728]

@@warhawk-l5r oh I agree I love it but sometimes reading the comments feels like whiplash the way the tone changes so suddenly. it's v entertaining and I'm happy everyone is connected by her songs

[@AngelinaDaRose]

​@@warhawk-l5rit's not funny it's beautiful.

[@MikeGathercole]

I'm an old man. I feel such sadness for having my 21 year old son shun me. I never wanted to be separated from people because of whatever generation we happened to have been born into. Youthful energy propels the world forward. I had my time.

[@chrissherman2713]

I'm sitting here, at 61, listening to this song, and I'm remembering what it was like to be in love. I have tears in my eyes.

[@thatcherblackwood]

i'm sorry man.

[@hello-ei8cb]

You are Loved. ❤️

[@mikenickerson9640]

You have much more life to live partner

[@federicojuarez4365]

Has someone ever scared you ? Someone you love like you feel like it can end bad

[@chrislake6001]

Love is a curse sometimes..especially if it isn't reciprocated by the one you love..I'm blessed but there was a time in my life when things weren't so simple. I feel your pain and can relate..

[@mback13]

The fact that even after she’s passed away, she still yearns for that house in Nebraska. “It’s all I know, and it’s all I want now.” I’m sobbing.

[@ReubenWalton]

Yes that part of Sun Bleached Flies hit me like a truck

[@Adaaree]

I don’t get it who passed and why, what’s going on😅😅

[@214MD]

@@Adaaree The entire album (Preacher's Daughter, where this song is on) has a narrative. The one who passed away is a character in the story.

[@skye_belle888]

​@@214MDthank you, I didn't understand it also

[@charlesgoodwin-k1x]

I wonder if the character is a ghost within that house? Seemed to mean a good bit to her.

[@PhotoLighthouse]

one of the best songs I have ever heard in my entire life. unbelievable.

[@jennifercesario9238]

Yes!!!!

[@prathami4282]

REAL

[@p25h76l]

100%

[@kayleighkane740]

🙌

[@МарияМихайлова-с3л]

You haven't listened to a lot of music I guess.

[@lunamoth6]

“These dirt roads are empty, the ones we paved ourselves” WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK

[@tysonkrehnke2835]

Listening from a house in Nebraska I can confirm this rocks.

[@perryjones7771]

Must be nice sis

[@xsugar-demonx]

♡ Lyrics: Labored breaths and bed sores Sing it to me all day long When the aching sound of silence Used to be our favorite song You and me against the world You were my man and I your girl We had nothing except each other You were my whole world Then the day came And you were up and gone I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours These dirt roads are empty The ones we paved ourselves Your mama calls me sometimes To see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home But I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor (Where I needed you, and I need you still) Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours (So I died there under you every night, all night) You know, I still wait (I still wait) at the edge of town Praying straight to God that maybe you'll come back around I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse 'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt And I found photographs of our school, on the day we met I thought that you were so beautiful, it was love, I guess And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here And I feel so alone without you, I'm so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone I'm so alone out here without you, baby

[@orlandooracle7008]

Thanks so very much 🙏💯

[@linagreta]

I can't this is so beautiful I'm in verge of tears

[@copperfoil8373]

+++

[@aaronbyrum5337]

Thank you for posting 🙏🙏🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙

[@I_S_Chew]

Lyrics don’t usually have a profound effect on me. Damn.

[@donotavius5915]

"'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt" is such a gut-wrenching line. Was on the verge of tears most of his song.

[@m3l0j1]

Rightt this whole song reminds me of my first love. As a woman, I fell in love with my girl best friend but during that time I was extremely depressed and suicidal, still I lived on for her.

[@Zori.Christian]

@@m3l0j1 big same

[@chocolatebeats8]

Why hasn’t anybody held me at gunpoint to listen to Ethel Cain because this is so beautiful

[@stanloona9811]

real

[@faerydwoll]

@@stanloona9811stan loona

[@anthonypanneton923]

"I feel so alone out here." I think it's one of the (more difficult) things we come into life on this planet in order to experience. We're not alone, but it sure feels that way.

[@softpawsasmr]

Yes😢

[@cheesybirdmess7349]

I feel like I just experienced a whole movie. And that guitar solo striked me like thunder. Masterpiece.

[@emomu]

flvmeed?

[@cheesybirdmess7349]

@@emomu yes lol I just copy pasted the comments from genius. Nice to meet you

[@cheesybirdmess7349]

@@emomu by your profile pic I see you have taste 🤌

[@emomu]

@@cheesybirdmess7349 lol nice to meet you too!

[@munnuXO]

Wow xo here?

[@corvidkid04]

I can get through most of the song without crying even though it's incredibly moving but when it hits the "and I feel so alone" it feels like a punch to the gut

[@TheJFinn]

This song is so hauntingly vivid I can’t even call it a song. It feels like a real life moment that I’m experiencing as it unfolds. Each word and change in instrumentals hits so hard and the entire piece leaves me feeling like I just lived an entirely separate life in a matter of minutes. Wow. Just wow.

[@orionsshoe2424]

Cool!

[@moodybassist]

An incredibly talented writer, I'm in awe of ethel 💫

[@puscifer10000]

It’s a wonderful way to experience music

[@p25h76l]

Ambiance before structure

[@kylebarnes4963]

I am going through losing my husband due to my own stupidity. I live in Nebraska and I am SOBBING!

[@staygold902]

Preacher's daughter has to be one of the best debut albums ever. This is high high level. You created something special, Hayden

[@charlesgoodwin-k1x]

I think it has been underrated as hell too! It is one of the most terrifying and beautiful concept albums I have ever heard.

[@xDPx-zh7vr]

As if this wasn't a sad enough song to begin with, then you see where it fits into the narrative of the album and it takes on such a deeper meaning. With the hypothetical what ifs we all deal with in life and love. Never realizing your own indifference towards someone could be so devastating to them. And what if you came back years later and realized your decisions sent someone down a path that eventually led to their death. This song is so heavy on an album that is pure genius in it's construction. Ethel Cain will now and forever be my sprit animal.

[@xDPx-zh7vr]

@Jeremie M ppl process pain differently. And when it comes to relationships that pain can be too much to cope with sometimes. And in most cases of suicide that person may not be the best communicator or even have a support system in place. I had an ex kill herself about 10 years after we broke up. It was a very brief relationship that ended amicably plus she suffered from severe bipolar disorder. But there's always that little voice in the back of my head that thinks maybe I contributed to the downward spiral. It's not a great feeling to be left with.

[@Numerial0.0]

When Ethel says "I'd kill myself to see you one more time," you can feel she's so far away, lost and honest. Devastating and beautiful song.

[@b0nesaww]

when i was in high school, there was a girl that was my best friend and who was the first time i ever fell in love with someone. i loved her so much and it was so painful because i knew she never felt the same about me. we would lay in the grass of my backyard every weekend and there was a little house that we always talked about buying and living in together once we graduated. i would dream about that house with her, imagine how it would look and just being able to see her beautiful face everyday. we started growing apart right before we graduated and she eventually moved out of state a year after and we haven’t talked since. i still love her and think about that house, the ‘what if’s and all. i hope that she’s happy and doing well in her life, but i’ll never forget about her.

[@tabathaletson5040]

🥹🩷

[@toriyoung7001]

My God I feel for you. I really wish you happiness and maybe a miracle. And if not a miracle, I hope that at least you'll meet in San junipero❤. Lots of Love❤❤❤

[@kate7152]

this song resonates with me so much. when i was 14 i met a boy at church who had just emigrated from guatemala. we became close friends and he was the first boy to treat me romantically. when i was 15 we started dating, but unfortunately when i was 16 he had to leave and go back to his home country. this song is exactly how i felt when he left. some lines are eerily similar, like his mom checking up on me and one of the lyrics being something i wrote to him in a letter. it’s hard to accept you’ll never see someone again, especially someone who you loved and was the first to love you.

[@kate7152]

@user-iv7nz2dr3y deep down i hope so too, but i try not to get my hopes up too much. i found out that we are going to go to college in the same state, (which is really random and weird because he has no ties to this state). the college i might go to will be about 20 min from the one he’s going to. plus his mom offered me a place to stay in guatemala and told me anytime i want to go i’ll have a “home away from home”, so i could see him then! who knows what life has in store.

[@sofialara297]

@@kate7152 would you mind giving updates? im rooting for you

[@TeeMcbee1]

GO TO HIM

[@kate7152]

@@TeeMcbee1 i wish i could

[@lewduhknee]

@@kate7152you stil haven’t met up now that he’s back in state? if you don’t mind me asking, why? also the fact that his mother still talks and offered you that..i hope you can reconnect.

[@meganmadson8588]

“where you told me even if we died tonight, that i’d die yours.” “when really i’d kill myself to hold you one more time” BRO THIS SHOULD BE ILLEGAL 😭

[@Shadowboxer5160]

THANK YOU BC SAME🙏🏽😭💯❤️‍🔥

[@charlesgoodwin5016]

"So I die there under you, every night, all night" That was felt right in the heart. Everybody has probably experienced this feeling. Such great lyrics

[@Brandon84J]

Someone just sent this to me... when she said "your momma calls me sometimes just to see if I'm doing well" I immediately had tears on my cheeks

[@solacevoid]

this song is so vividly painful… it’s hard to describe how it makes me feel, i just know i’m crying uncontrollably

[@tohumblyvogue]

my cats staring at me wondering why i'm belting this ballad on repeat full volume

[@Cl0ud3dDr34mz]

Realest thing I’ve heard

[@satarupagingerkolay]

Keep going. Do the full album. Your cat will be crying tears of joy by the time you reach Sun Bleached Flies.

[@brokengirlsrus]

I just discovered this album today and this song was like a stab to the heart. I lost my little brother to an overdose in 2020 and I have so much guilt towards myself that he didn't come to me for help during the last couple days of his life. Minus the romantic overtones, obviously, this song really captures the grief, guilt, love and loss that I feel since losing him. When I heard this part I just broke down crying: I say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home Ethel is an amazing songwriter and artist. Wow, I know what I'll have on repeat.

[@peachyclean93]

Oh don't beat yourself up there would have been no way to stop him I'm so sorry for your lost You hold on to those beautiful memories That's all you can do. Stay strong you are loved 🤗

[@p25h76l]

(Embrace it with all you have)

[@p25h76l]

He loves you for it

[@saphira601]

this. this comment is so beautiful, may your little brother rest in peace i’m so sorry for your loss and i hope you heal💗

[@iamtomatotato]

It's not your fault❤

[@tooncutter5805]

This damn song stops me in my tracks every time I hear it - just hypnotizes me when she sings, "You and me against the world, you were my man and I your girl."

[@themilkcartonangel]

im beyond amazed with how this track turned out,, the vocals, the layering, how that fucking guitar comes in at 3:25 . i love the raw vocals and stripped back feel of the beginning, before the cascade of emotions that is the end. she really fucking killed this one ♡

[@themilkcartonangel]

(so i died there under you, every night, all night)

[@user-im1xm4rs3o]

I love this comment ❤

[@nevergiveupbaby1720]

You sound very emo

[@Huangraisy]

It sounds like a country song

[@user-jc9iy2kl3u]

ok "Never give up baby 1720" @@nevergiveupbaby1720

[@voodoosleeper]

I'm from nowhere. Not far outside Nebraska. This visualization is like my childhood. This artist has captured something about my queer existence in the middle of nothing I haven't ever felt outside my own thoughts... Bless her.

[@nicos598]

That’s beautiful :’)

[@girlheav3n]

"AND I FOUND PHOTOGRAPHS OF OUR SCHOOL ON THE DAY WE MET. I THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE SO BEAUTIFUL, IT WAS LOVE I GUESS" *BRB I'M GONNA GO CRY*

[@michaelhancock9962]

You've tapped into something primordial here girl...dirt roads...dirty mattresses...I would die for you.

[@richybran3690]

Jesus, this is probably the most heartbreaking song I’ve ever heard

[@SammyASMR]

MY FAVORITE SONG IS BACK ON YT

[@jamonherman9364]

Right?? I've been jonesing...Thought it was lost forever.

[@evesalvagni926]

This version of one of my favorite songs is nothing short of brilliant! Gave me chills and tears. My songwriter kid found her through Wicca and we immediately listened to everything she's got including under White Silas. The lyrics, the music, that VOICE! I'm almost 60 and she is one of my all time favorite song writers. The WORLD needs to hear Ethel Cain!

[@Daniel11440]

What do you mean by “this version”? Is this not the original version?

[@sabrinaf506]

This is the original version though?

[@artpopsfreakshow6907]

@@sabrinaf506 actually before hayden was ethel cain her stage name was White Silas & on her 2nd album "Sad Music For Sad People" she released AHIN but a diff version, u can find the OG version with the White Silas MV / Performance on YT

[@hagridswagrid2643]

Why, over a year later, do I still feel just as much pain as I did then? Please, get out of my head.

[@alexcopley7212]

listening to this song after a breakup is absolutely soul destroying but it’s just in a world of its own in terms of beauty, an absolute unadultered masterpiece

[@jorgearce2148]

The end of the song, “I feel so alone” is like punch in my heart

[@OfEarthandSea]

This song probably pulled up deep rooted memories for me that should've probably stayed buried just a little bit longer. Amazing song. It genuinely sounds like the Nebraska sky.

[@catchafire221]

goosebumps when the guitar kicked in.

[@lipgloss9244]

This girl can write Poetry I'M OBSESSED

[@jakeclark66]

Note to self: stay single

[@inatheunhinged]

i needed this, thank you

[@Sapotequeen]

Hahahaha dammit I think you're right

[@lukaalves8416]

Do not be afraid to love

[@TheOutlierToday]

​@@lukaalves8416that thing is scary

[@eicheltreterderril5109]

Same here.... greetings from Germany.....🎉

[@mothgirl285]

her voice is seriously so beautiful

[@peludito555]

It's been a month since the guy I was going out with chose to isolate himself and end our relationship due to him not being emotionally available and it hurts me so much not been able to know anything from him, the whole "But God I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright" and "I feel so alone, so alone out here" hits so close to home, I miss him a lot and I've tried to get in contact with him but with no reply and it hurts me a lot. I love this song it relates to me in a complete way

[@naniwa_gusto]

In a similar situation rn.. I miss her more than anything and I think of her every night. I hope she’ll get help, love herself, and reconnect with me some day

[@RoastDOMINC]

What happened with the boy?

[@woohoogrrl]

i'm sitting in a coffee shop in asia using their wifi to watch news from back home and i just found Ethel Cain, bumbling around youtube and she snuck into my recs...I'm trying desperately to not cry, hiding behind my computer screen, freaking out all the people around me, feeling really lonely. this song effed me up

[@isadore7221]

There's something beyond captivating about Ethel's music. It truly moves you.

[@somber_salvatore]

I will say this with my entire chest, this is the most brilliant production I’ve ever heard on a song in my entire life. Everything about this track is an absolute masterpiece. The vocal layering, the instruments, the bitter melancholy in the lyrics. When you listen to this record, you live and breathe every single word, every single chord. I truly do not believe any sane person could produce something like this. Ethel Cain is a genius in every regard.

[@Bozrabee]

My brother just passed away. And "mama calls me sometimes to see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know"/"And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here" keeps looping through my head.

[@carolwilliams2609]

I would love to do a short film for this entire album.

[@jstnmrtz]

6:24 makes my heart melt … i‘ve never felt so much emotion, rawness and artistic transparency through an album as with preacher‘s daughter

[@wildflower514]

I was introduced to music sitting at my father's feet just mesmerized by him playing guitar. I remember him saying a lot of people make music but the secret is to reach in and make people feel. You quickly became one of my very favorite artists.

[@jamesduksta5595]

Though I've heard it a hundred times, listening to the "Preachers Daughter" version of this beautiful song, sent me into uncontrollable sobbing. A song that both hurts, but feels good at the same time. The guitar at 6:24 near killed me. 🤍 Edit: THIS is the best song on the album and her best song yet, period.

[@pineapplecircus]

I still love Crush, maybe for the awesome trailer park, crystal meth deep south look of it, but loved the song b4 seeing her hopping in the back of the pick up and riding round a 1 traffic light town. This is reality for our and our kids lost generation . Only we now can save ourselves and this planet. Everyone needs to look up from our phones and look more at each other and look around at what "they" have done to our homes, the supposed greatest country on Earth! Really? If this is the greatest country on Earth it's time to move! What the hell happened? Over $5 for a gallon of gas and people still won't buy a Tesla which like the cars of old that kept running so to does a Tesla, on zero gas, so the cars expensive BUT doesn't break down, u only need to buy the 1, then the money saved NOT spending over $5 a gallon on gas, just makes complete sense, if we don't need oil, gas there goes most of the reasons for our kids going off dying in wars, just another plus for the impact buying electric cars would have, the ripple effect would be unfathomable. Only we can change and save the world! Rumsfeld and Chaney have been pulling the strings behind the scenes since Nixon! They've never had to care who the President was cuz they've been running the show for decades. Wtf!?

[@ericharmon9025]

What about Western Nights, or God Conspiracy, or Inbred, or Powerline valley, or Crying During Sex, or Gibson Girl, or Michele Pfeiffer? Shall I go on?

[@jamesduksta5595]

@@ericharmon9025 Western Nights is my other favorite.

[@alicemarks7468]

Screaming and crying and throwing up and pissing this song is too good

[@jasonx-ray3921]

A House in Nebraska A song by Ethel Cain Labored breaths and bed sores Sing it to me all day long When the aching sound of silence Used to be our favorite song You and me against the world You were my man and I your girl We had nothing except each other You were my whole world Then the day came And you were up and gone I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours These dirt roads are empty The ones we paved ourselves Your mama calls me sometimes To see if I'm doing well And I'd lie to her and say that I'm doing fine When, really, I'd kill myself to hold you one more time And it hurts to miss you, but it's worse to know That I'm the reason you won't come home But I still call home that house in Nebraska Where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor (Where I needed you, and I need you still) Where the world was empty, save you and I Where you came and I laughed, and you left and I cried Where you told me even if we died tonight, that I'd die yours (So I died there under you every night, all night) You know, I still wait (I still wait) at the edge of town Praying straight to God that maybe you'll come back around I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse 'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt And I found photographs of our school, on the day we met I thought that you were so beautiful, it was love, I guess And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're alright And I feel so alone, and I feel so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone out here And I feel so alone without you, I'm so alone out here I feel so alone, I feel so alone I'm so alone out here without you, baby

[@aaronbyrum5337]

Thanks for posting 🙏🙏🙏🙏🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙🤙

[@realobiwan]

I just discovered her. What a masterpiece!

[@jilliandawson3740]

I don’t think I’ve ever been hit so hard by a song that’s so resonating. Like the lyrics, my boyfriend left suddenly without giving me closure. Telling me “I feel relieved when you’re gone, I hate this home, I don’t care about you anymore” after 16 months together…even though he said he loved me everyday. As a discreet trans woman, finding a partner that doesn’t treat me any different is incredibly difficult…and he was my only safe space. And now it’s gone. I’m so scared to face the world again with all the violence and rejection I’ve received. Two weeks later I very successfully bled myself out and didn’t expect to wake up, but I did. And this song was playing. Now here I am. This song feels like the only thing I have left

[@Bushidojihi]

It's a lot.

[@scooter2746]

i hope youre still here with us

[@AnaOliveira_1986]

One of the best songs ever written, no doubt. It will stand the test of time.

[@gooba2390]

My most favorite song. This song has gotten me through so much hardship in just these past few months. Growing up in the Midwest/Southwest/South really does a number on ya doesn’t it boys?

[@TempestuousTardigrade]

Tuning in from a little house in Nebraska 🥰❤️

[@Yourfeetarestinky155]

Off topic, Your profile picture is so adorable omfg

[@gioh1293]

this song means the world to me. its youth its the absolute crushing weight of love that you dont understand yet

[@damianwaithe8679]

This is one of the greatest songs ever written. I've never cried so much listening to music before. Damn

[@thomasavilla6438]

The chokehold this song has had on me for weeks is unreal.

[@marykatherinelento4444]

3 plus years listening to you. I thought i was sad at the time but now my mom and brother have cancer. your music has kept me afloat. i love you ethel

[@jeffreyletourneau299]

Just listened to the KEXP version, and this is one of the most touching songs I've heard in my 60 years.

[@fishchibo5539]

😢 im sitting in my car bawling I feel like this was my past life such an amazing experience and song

[@nikkilucchese777]

Shes definitely my new favorite artist,im fetting clean from heroin/fentanyl and this has been helpful to me every emotion and goosebumps i get its something magical

[@scooter2746]

im proud of you

[@rememberingparadise]

A lump the size of a softball in my throat the whole song. What a beautiful voice and story

[@Liquidgrin]

This is incredible.. I haven’t been moved by a piece of music like this in sooooo long. Hits me like a shockwave. I’m in awe.

[@livinglegend__]

THIS SONG IT'S JUST PERFECT. THANKS ETHEL FOR THIS MASTERPIECE

[@lindokuhlehlatshwayo6785]

A masterpiece indeed...

[@trishhill7563]

My son introduced me to this song. I cry every time I listen to it. Hauntingly beautiful ❤️

[@p25h76l]

Be lifted. This vid is a gift.

[@trishhill7563]

@@p25h76l it definitely is. It touches my heart so much that I can't help but cry. It's a beautiful song.

[@LaLaLaurino14]

God that guitar solo hits me every time, what a crescendo of emotions I go through with this song. This album is one of those albums that’s just sticks with you. Thank you for sharing this with the world.

[@RM-vz3ly]

This is such a masterpiece- it is art within itself, it sends me to deep places I didn’t know existed, it is amazing

[@marianletterio]

i'm going through a break up and this song just hits so hard, so haunting and beautiful.

[@shelzblack488]

What an absolutely breathtakingly beautiful song this is. I can't believe I've been sleeping on you Ethel, how did it take this long to find you? At last the algorithm got it right! Going to be replaying this whole album for some time now

[@lina-se2oc]

crying again to this song. i really do feel so alone despite being surrounded by good people. i just feel like i’m too much for everyone and no one really understands me.

[@vivifromloona192]

we need a 20 minute version

[@puscifer10000]

I don’t know if my mental health could survive that

[@derlis_whatever7033]

Vivi from Loona has taste

[@i2krhtd]

@@derlis_whatever7033 omg what does this have to do w vivi does she like ethel cain

[@derlis_whatever7033]

@@i2krhtd it's the person that commented this lmaoooooo

[@i2krhtd]

@@derlis_whatever7033 WKSHSHDHS I DIDNT NOTICE i was happy i thought vivi also liked ethel

[@jez2466]

I didn't think new music could still move me as much as this does.

[@koffinkat666]

I wonder how many people can relate to this song, Not just a breakup but a Lover Dying young never getting to know how that fairytale may have unfolded.

[@mikenickerson9640]

I think sometimes of past relationships and I feel so happy I don’t get intense feelings like this song but also fell parts of it like picturing the future and having a relationship with their family

[@alexablissfan1613]

It makes me cry every single time I listen, and that's why I continue to come back; it makes me feel alive 🤍

[@johnnyringo3171]

I find myself on the road late at night in a hotel room editing some black and white photographs of an abandoned tuberculosis sanatorium I explored earlier this evening, and have to say I find this and all your music inspirational - thanks

[@chloskyskies4399]

Do plan on posting them anywhere? That sounds really cool! (If you don’t mind me asking)

[@johnnyringo3171]

@@chloskyskies4399 Hi - I posted several on flickr

[@hazelblack4140]

I relate to this song too much. I still feel like our old apartment was home, despite what happened in it

[@mauriziolepiscopia1706]

Listening to this Song soul Is torn apart..and heart tears..and it's Amazing how much melancholy and sadnesd are poetry in music..

[@jamesbrousseau2159]

The production on her music is so pristine, so...immaculate A bloody masterpiece this is....!!@!! Ethel Cain, there's no one else that can do what you do, not even close Please, carry on.....🖤

[@Pawn_Shop_Blues]

You sound British

[@lanaandthediamonds3651]

@@Pawn_Shop_Blues 💀

[@nopapajones4254]

“and i lie to her saying i’m doing fine when really id kill myself to hold you one more time” this makes me cry so hard

[@horrorgardener]

There is a sadness in the world that can quite literally crush you to death. She made a song about it. 🖤

[@SamTemple]

I’ve had this album on repeat for days it’s like a movie I don’t want to end

[@sarodrilo4736]

It's far more than a masterpiece.. This tremor 3:22 is painful..

[@rayhall5280]

Wow! I have a wonderful life with a beautiful family and I am sitting in my awesome kitchen crying my eyes out. This Ethel is amazing.

[@Sharpasathistle]

So ethereal- this genuinely took me aback on first hearing it

[@lovetahera]

This whole album feels like it hurts but it's good at the same time

[@Ri_5475]

I loved this song so much probably my favourite off the whole album, I had it on repeat probably like 30 times

[@sapphirethedude2010]

There’s something that fucks me up especially hard about the lyric of “I’d kill myself to hold you one more time”. That teenage idea of mortality, that your life is not as meaningful as this pain. But as the album continues, Ethel comes face to face with that mortality. She dies so young and so tragically that I have to believe that line was intentionally there to juxtapose the rest of the album. Fuck. This album is a masterpiece.

[@Emilaria]

I can't get enough of this song.

[@salve_reginaaaa]

This song touches me like no other music has before 💜💜💜

[@robmrsh]

this track absolutely tears me apart and kills me!! yes ethel!

[@trinitysanjose1390]

The beginning feels like stepping into a hot bathtub while you’re weak and crying your eyes while your chest is in a sharp pain. Her voice feels like it how it sounds like to be entirely vulnerable, You’re speaking out everything you want to say to them …but only to yourself.

[@soryasferes3158]

Once I found this song my heart stopped. My recent past relationship was long distance but he was from Nebraska. We met and I stayed for a week but it felt like a lifetime. He was my best friend first but lover second. We would stay up and talk, we cherished every second. He’s deep in my veins, embedded in my soul. People can say anything they want but he is the main reason I stuck around in this life. I’m destroyed by his absence, though we still talk. I yearn to go back to Nebraska… to hold him one more time, to lay in bed with him and talk for hours. To see his face. Our love was the strongest relationship I’ve ever been in, the most genuine. He was my everything, he always will be. He still is.

[@luisenrriquecruzcarrasco4694]

Cómo está canción no tiene mas reconocimiento esta mujer es un astroo

[@jelicitymercado2882]

i cant even count how many times i’ve listened to this❤