Sun Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain (Official Visualizer)

[@squiishiie]

If you grew up Christian I don’t think it’s possible to hear the line, “God loves you, but not enough to save you,” without tearing up. Her songwriting is just unreal.

[@Patch.of.clover]

Didn’t tear up but it definitely drained every bit of energy out of me hearing that line. It’s a kick in the gut.

[@EmilyNelson-g6f]

yes a million times over

[@zakyadam2621]

im a muslim and i relate to yall, abrahamic religion be making us exhaustedd

[@Thenamesyunaaa]

he does love you enough to save you.

[@squiishiie]

@@Thenamesyunaaa preaching to the choir bud :)

[@lexiemcninch673]

fell to my knees in walgreens buying cough medicine because of this song

[@misogynbluu]

this is the best indicator of what her music does to people lmao

[@frankthecat]

😂

[@ginayoung130]

Yeah that seems fitting. The first time I heard the last lines of this song I felt like someone had just sucker punched me, like I'd had the air knocked out of me. It was a visceral reaction for sure.

[@NotALizardPerson81]

Reminds me of this one time about a year ago. I saw this crazy lady drop to her knees in front of the cough syrup at the local Walgreens. 😂

[@alptraum7644]

i was taking an early morning walk when i listened to this album for the first time, and that line hit me like a *truck.* literally walking along my town tearing up like "how the fuck am i supposed to be normal after listening to this?"

[@tendrilcat9149]

I once read a quote from someone that said this: “God made me trans for the same reason he made wheat but not bread, and grapes but not wine; so that we too can share in the joys of creation”. I cling to that quote because it’s the only thing that makes any sense in this poisoned jewel of a world. We may have been abandoned by the likes of humanity, but we are special because at the very least we have god

[@bunnyfrosting1744]

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing 💕

[@kingboo1764]

100% I'm a gay man and I know I have a purpose regardless of what people think 😊

[@jupiter-84]

Thank you

[@shenisee11]

This is beautiful sounds like it was from Paris is Burning but I could be wrong

[@tendrilcat9149]

@@shenisee11 thanks! It’s not from anything in particular, I just thought of it one night while I was eating dinner

[@ShadowIsStillAlive]

"I forgive it as it all comes back to me"... I'm gutted. I feel like that's the line we know for sure she has finally found true peace, where the weight of her trauma no longer bothers her.

[@mikaela70]

:(((((

[@sanaquadri2464]

Wow the way I interpreted it was really different, like she left religion and only like focused on the good when looking back so she went back and just kinda forgave it even though she knew it was horrible cuz thats what was familiar to her, and idk maybe cuz she really missed the whole community aspect of it and maybe if she went back and kept praying, this time things would turn out differently. like at the end she says she cant let go of something that's broken and that could mean her relationship as well as her relationship with god

[@bobnunyabiznz4917]

@@sanaquadri2464 That’s exactly what I got too

[@li_ryd]

As an older woman who has endured a lifetime of hurt from not only an alcoholic husband, but also neglect and emotional abuse from family... this line has a poisonous taste to it because it is that forgiveness that has been my own undoing.

[@annmariegomez6248]

@@sanaquadri2464 I think I got a combination of the two interpretations. Based on the idea that at this point the character is dead, and if she's having this rush of memory of all her life experiences as she goes, she's finally in a place where she can forgive it all without being hurt as a result of that forgiveness. I think it's a kind of sad but warm idea of just seeing one's whole life and being able to forgive each memory as it washes over you.

[@gooba2390]

The pain I feel listening to this song is indescribable. I’m not welcome in church because of factors I have no control over. Being trans and being faithful simply deem me unworthy of Gods love or respect from the church. Every time my mom makes me go to church, I sit there praising god and then it always hits me she brings me to try to fix me. That everyone sees me as a confused girl, at the most a homosexual woman. But if I’d been born cis, I would have kept singing on that podium. I could have been a pastor. I could have married my childhood love and raised our kids in the church. Strange how things always turn out. I knew God wouldn’t save me from the hell I’ve always been put through, but he was all I ever had. Now I have my freedom, and with time it’s going to make up for it. I am an orphan, navigating the world on my own where I am still miserable, but I’m miserable as ME. As the man I’ve always been, no longer rotting under a cupboard. If it’s meant to be then it will be

[@nishachoudhary2680]

Wow. These words❤

[@JM-qt5mg]

Man yall love to cry over nothing huh? Your fears are no ones but yours

[@gooba2390]

@@JM-qt5mg Don’t care didn’t ask + ratio

[@blueyellowpapaya]

A huge hug sent your way, dude. I am trans non-binary, and I felt these words. If you were my pastor, I would maybe rethink my opinion about the church which also rejected me because of my identity. More 👏 trans 👏 pastors!! 👏

[@longhairandgo_t2926]

Find a Metropolitan Community Church. You'll be welcome there.

[@eitopia]

god loves you but not enough to save you

[@ravvingar]

we all know how it goes, the more it hurts the less it shows

[@kylee2147]

I’m sorry if you’ve felt hurt by the church but that was humanity not god.

[@eitopia]

@@kylee2147 true

[@fieldt]

​@@kylee2147 wasn't humanity created in God's image? God created evil, and in doing so, failed to save underprivileged people.

[@motherknowsbest1192]

@@kylee2147Not the time or place

[@judahsocutah]

y’all talking about the god loves you line while i’m crying over the “what i wouldn’t give to be in church this sunday” 😭 it’s so beautiful in multiple ways and can be interpreted however you want it to

[@wwltrig3108]

😭😭

[@siriuslyginnychase3100]

im not religious but it's insanely powerful. it's like poetry and can be interrupted through the eyes of each listener... and having art that boundless with it's reach...is truly the mark of a real artist.

[@humanharddrive1]

same

[@zairefranklin122]

Fr same 😭 but I’m crying for both

[@erinantsh]

what does it mean? /gen

[@hennilanger6738]

"we all know how it goes, the more it hurts the less it shows. but i still feel like they all know" im sobbing

[@cryinggurl]

i'm getting it tatted

[@jamonherman9364]

We all have that "house in Nebraska." A time and a place with someone we'd give anything to relive again. When Ethel sings about hers, I'm always sent back to mine too. If things had just been different, but it's just not how life goes.

[@growing.flowers]

Found my house in nebraska 2 days ago :/

[@earlisonline]

you don’t have to hit me that hard

[@Sleepygraveyard]

that is exectaly how I feel about the line, her writing is so good

[@p.2859]

Her writing is really smart and it is beyond my intelligence, can someone dumb it down for me on what the house in Nebraska means here?

[@knives5150]

@@p.2859her house in nebraska was a house she imagined she would buy with her past boyfriend. kind of a metaphor for what could've been but never was

[@gagerucker9222]

im not a member of lgbt+. however it is one reason i am no longer christian. walking away from the church in a state where 80% attend once a month is the hardest, and most wildly misunderstood thing by those around me. the christians tell me that the pain i feel from stepping away is god calling me back. the atheists/agnostics tell me that it was a cult. neither will understand the pain, and appreciation i feel from having been raised in the church. its the reason i play guitar, love to sing, love to write, love to read. and yet its part of the reason i hated myself as a young man. ethel cain's expression for her gratefulness of the church, and simultaneous criticism is the first artform ive seen express such a contradictory experience. i would love to thank her one day for her unique music.

[@Bleukeet]

Beautifully said. I feel the same way as a lesbian raised Catholic.

[@jessicaschirle5974]

I'm a transgender Christian anarchist. Her music is so filled with spirit and brings me home ❤️✝️

[@jessicaschirle5974]

Something like 73% of LGBT ex-Christians wish they could go back to church, and it breaks my heart

[@ImAtYourMumsHouse]

Screenshotting your comment because it words my feelings perfectly

[@CurlieFries]

the mixing of reactions from both sides is what really got me. that’s the first time i’ve seen it put into words from someone else, that neither side will truly get it, and i appreciate its recognition and how beautifully you phrased it.

[@hrithikashetty6200]

the part where she sings about the house in Nebraska. that fucking broke me. i broke down crying. snots and bubbles.

[@hrithikashetty6200]

@@daroand9887 i heard the entire album. it is an reference to the song obviously. that is why it is so powerful.

[@lukaslourd]

The way this song and A House In Nebraska are my favorites:,)

[@zairefranklin122]

Fr

[@girlsnightgirIsnight]

i hope "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" is a line i can live up to someday. i want to move on

[@tommywilson9800]

Me too, friend. Me too I think we all Do. And I think we all can

[@flowernthevine]

It’s been a year, and I hope you are seeing sunnier skies 🤍

[@grapeflavoredchaos5736]

i just saw someone fall to their knees in a Walgreens with cough drops in their hands bc of this song

[@mashupotato_]

As a former devoted Christian whose faith was slowly challenged by the people of the church, this album felt like a warm hug. It's like someone who can't seem to escape from their religious trauma comforting you as they say, "I get you... I've been there... We'll be alright..." The lyric "God loves you, but not enough to save you" perfectly captured the feeling of growing out of church or religion for that matter. Thank you, Ethel. This is truly something encaptivating.

[@hellfeather2011]

Yes..The church is what killed my faith.

[@ericharmon9025]

All people have flaws, lots of them. Find a church with the fewest amount of people with the fewest flaws. Lots of strange interpretations of the bible out there. He does love you, no matter what any person says. But he can't save you, only you can save you. She's right. Good luck

[@hoosiermom73]

Perfectly said! I came out of the fog 3 years ago ❤️

[@BroJo676]

Hello, I don't wanna pretend I have knowledge of your trauma. I just would like to remind you that a believer's eyes should be on God and not on anybody else. Everyone in churches are flawed, me included. Some are genuinely loving people who couldn't care less of other people's imperfections, others are hypocrites more concerned with purity performance. All in all, just let a bit of room to God in your life: He's the most merciful and loving out there and the Only One who'll never forsake your in life.

[@usernamejesse]

@@BroJo676 i agree. i feel like most of people's problems with christianity is actually with the church or certain devotees. i used to thing god hated me because of the environment i lived in growing up, but as i matured i realized my relationship with god is private and sacred and there is no one else that can speak for my faith. we cannot speak over each other without denouncing god's will. "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" is one of my favorite lines in this song. i forgive everyone who has wronged me, everyone who uses the bible as a weapon, and i forgive god for the pain he has allowed me to experience as he forgives me unconditionally. everyone on this earth is blessed, and we all are on a different path of finding truth within.

[@kawaiiunicorn2830]

Sun-bleached flies sitting in the windowsill Waiting for the day they'll escape They talk all about their money and how their babies are always changing While they're breathing in the poison of the pain What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday Listening to the choir so heartfelt, all singing "God loves you, but not enough to save you "So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself" So I said fine, 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard But in the end, the fire bent under the weight that they gave me And his heart would break and fall as twice as far We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home And I spent my life Watching it go by from the sidelines And God, I've tried But I think it's about time I put up a fight But I don't mind 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard (hit 'em twice as hard) But I always knew that, in the end, no one was coming to save me So I just prayed, and I keep praying and praying and praying If it's meant to be, then it will be (oh-oh, oh-oh) So I met him there and told him I believe (oh-oh, oh-oh) Singing if it's meant to be, then it'll be (it'll be) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (back to me, oh) If it's meant to be, then it will be (oh, it will be, yeah) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be, then it will be" I forgive it all as it comes back to me (it all comes back to me) If it's meant to be, then it'll be (it'll be, it'll be, it'll be) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be, then it will be" And I forgive it all as it comes back to me I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska By the highway, out on the edge of town Dancing with the windows open I can't let go when something's broken It's all I know and it's all I wanna know

[@lilith6887]

wow.

[@johnberry9840]

Thank you for the lyrics

[@marchollis522]

Heartbreaking.

[@copperfoil8373]

++++

[@brianharnett2639]

"It's all I know and it's all I want now" is the last line to this great song.

[@tw1nkhater420]

Grew up Catholic and I eat up this entire album. No matter how much I’d like to hate the church, I feel a sense of nostalgia and familiarity whenever I’m reminded of it. There are some things we can’t change about ourselves and that includes how we were raised. I grieve the years where I suppressed who I was, but all you can do is accept how that was a part of you and move on.

[@kevinm7517]

As a fellow queer person who grew up Catholic, you summed up exactly how I feel too. I wanna hate the church (and to an extent I do) but I can never shake the feeling of familiarity and comfort that the routine of going to mass and worshipping gave me. You put it really beautifully -- all we can do now is accept who we truly are and move on!

[@elijahhewitt853]

I think something a lot of people don’t understand about growing up in the church but choosing to leave is that, it’s not that we don’t want to be a part of the church, the church doesn’t want us to be a part of it. At least, not the way we truly are. That feeling of longing, the need to be accepted and loved by “nice people” who, if you were born the “right” way, you could’ve been just like all the other kids growing up in that church. When all you wanted was for them to see you and love you as you are, because that’s what they told you church was about, only to find out that you would never be able to exist in the church as you are, truly. Thank you Ethel Cain for giving us your beautiful music ❤

[@finnithehulk]

Thank you for this comment. I cannot explain how much I felt that. All the guilt and anger because you “had to leave your second home”. Even when in reality this home was never meant to be yours

[@Roseshavethorns]

“I forgive it all as it comes back to me” she’s no longer violent. In strangers, she isn’t a vengeful ghost. She just watches herself get eaten, romanticizes it.

[@mel2834]

fuck😭

[@angelinao3916]

This song is the final stage of grief for me

[@jordanqualls97]

REAL

[@crazy_lol3111]

"god loves you, but not enough to save you" NAH CUZ THAT LINE FUCKED ME UPPPPP

[@fin7313]

'i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines' my favourite lyric of all time

[@stoleniguana2449]

I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness and this is just it. It’s so shame based I barely escaped with my life. “God loves you but not enough to save you”

[@chels_o5]

me too 😭 i’m trying to leave and i feel so lonely. none of my friends want to talk to me anymore and i keep fighting with my mum over it, losing jehovah too. i’m losing everyone i love and i’m just expected to be fine because “i chose this”

[@katerice3754]

@@chels_o5 Hang in there. It's a long process and takes a lot of work, but one day you'll have found many more good things than you've lost.

[@growing.flowers]

@@katerice3754 i agree! Hang in there it can only get better from now

[@AdamGYodaWars]

@@chels_o5good luck. Having to leave a vile cult is just unimaginable for me. Hang in there.

[@arthursamuel1747]

Can't believe I found someone who suffers the same situation as me that also listen to Ethel Cain 😭

[@Bolero451]

This song carried me away like a leaf set gently into a stream by a child on their summer break

[@growing.flowers]

Bolero..

[@littlerockyzen]

Beautiful

[@AustinAshburn]

this is one of the best songs of all time like i cannot physically handle the excellence of this song

[@adamjondo]

Hugely impressed that you've heard ALL the songs EVER written.

[@AustinAshburn]

@@adamjondo okay? yes i have. xoxo

[@corvoattano44]

@@AustinAshburn LMFAOOOO

[@sparrow_posts_stuff]

@@AustinAshburn iconic

[@pastelmin2366]

"God loves you but not enough to save you." Is the most fucking relatable line I've ever heard this album is truly beautiful.

[@anthonylanci2399]

This song takes me to church in a way I ain’t never been before.

[@strawberryflavoredvelcro3454]

that’s an interesting take

[@sharnamraj8712]

LMFAO​@@strawberryflavoredvelcro3454

[@robmrsh]

Ethel you’ve managed to speak to such a large group of disenfranchised people across the rural United States with your art in a way that nobody else has. Thank you.

[@hardcyd3r]

Ethel has easily become my favorite artist in a matter of months. The aesthetic, the music, lyrics, her photography... Absolutely talented and a huge inspiration for my art.

[@luckylucs95]

This songs makes me think of The Lovely Bones.

[@CoyoteMedicinebird]

this whole album reminds me of it

[@eighttrigramzz]

I forgive it all as it comes back to me

[@KaleabAbayneh]

[Verse 1] Sun bleached flies sitting in the windowsill Waiting for the day they escape They talk all about that money and how their babies are always changing while they're breathing in the poison of the paint What I wouldn't give to be in Church this Sunday Listening to the choir, so heartfelt, all singing God loves you, but not enough to save you So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself [Chorus] So I said fine, 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard But in the end, if I bend under the weight that they gave me Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far [Verse 2] We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know, and that's why I can never go back home And I spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines And God, I've tried, but I think it's about time I put up a fight [Chorus] But I don't mind 'cause that's how my daddy raised me (How my daddy raised me) If they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard But I always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me So I just prayed and I keep praying and praying and praying [Bridge] If it's meant to be then it will be So I met him there and told him I believe Singing if it's meant to be then it'll be I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Back to me) If it's meant to be then it will be So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing if it's meant to be then it will be (Oh, oh) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (It comes back to me) If it's meant to be then it'll be (It'll be, it'll be, it'll be) So I met him there and told him I believe (Yeah) Singing if it's meant to be then it will be I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Oh) [Outro] I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska By the highway, out on the edge of town Dancing with the windows open I can't let go when something's broken It's all I know and it's all I want now

[@DawnWisdom-h4c]

This was the last song my husband and I listened to before he passed away. He was a war Veteran and I love him so. I don't believe I'll ever be the same again. This one hurt God!!!!!! This one hurt bad !!!!!!!! God speed honey I love you forever . The tears just won't stop..... Please send me some good energy .

[@Dani-yn9kc]

“im still praying for that house in nebraska” is so beautiful, even in our lowest, most gut puching moments we still yearn for a moment in time and space where we were happy, to cherish all of that joy we felt that now we miss so much. we all have our own house in nebraska

[@ceci9051]

''and i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines and god, i've tried, but i think it's about time i put up a fight'' she really wrote that verse for me and i cry every time i listen her sing it...thank you for creating this song

[@LifeWithBrionnaGrace]

I don't think I've ever commented on yt, but this album made me want to. I am a Christian. If you look at me, you'd never place me as an Ethel Cain listener. I knew Preacher's Daughter was the fictional story of Ethel Cain, and that's what I came for, but I found the real, raw emotions of Hayden- and in a sense, myself. As someone raised in church, I've distanced myself from the version and vision I had of religion as a child. But no matter how far I've come and what I now believe, something about the traditional sermons and bright, out-of-tune piano will always feel warm and nostalgic. You can never truly go back to what you've left, but life was a hell of a lot simpler before you did. Wrapping this album up with "What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday" captures that feeling perfectly.

[@junfanman666]

This brings up so many memories of growing up in rural South Carolina. Feel like this song was a slice of my life.

[@Haydentrudyjones]

same… I felt like a part of my Indiana childhood came full circle when I discovered her music, it’s truly special stuff

[@theeverythinghorrorenthusiast]

I can find 50 roads down here in sc with that look exactly like this visualizer

[@NicoLs715]

The best song on the entire album, along with "Family Tree"

[@setoburu]

couldnt agree more

[@NicoLs715]

@@setoburu I literally felt like I was resurrecting when I first listened to both

[@lewiswoodhall]

love American Teenager, Thoroughfare and Strangers so much too

[@pixiestix__]

i hardly ever comment on videos but i feel the need to say something, because ethel's music has such an impact on me, especially this song. the lines "but i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me, so i kept praying, and praying, and praying" makes me sob so much. i've lived sheltered and only ever had my parents as some form of influence on me, even now. i've always watched people's lives before me and never had the chance to experience what they did. so when i had my worst depressive episode hit at age twelve, all i could do was pray until i lost my belief in religion, because god didn't save me when i needed him the most. my parents were so disappointed and i think that still sticks even after i realized that i still believe. but i knew that no one else helped me through my 4 year depression, even throughout their knowledge of it. no one helped but me, and i still haven't finished a life worth living. but listening to this song makes me feel like i'm not alone in this feeling, even if that's not the case. thank you ethel for creating such beautiful music with so much meaning and emotion behind them.

[@ImAtYourMumsHouse]

I resonate with this comment so deeply ❤

[@pixiestix__]

@@ImAtYourMumsHouse hope ur okay :( wishing good things for u 🫶🫶

[@lesaira1040]

I don't normally comment personal things (or at all...) but thank you so much for sharing your story. I went through something extremely similar and always felt alone with my past myself but reading this comment made that feeling even just a little lighter. I hope someday you'll be living the best life you could ask for, be wherever you want to be in the future, I promise you're not alone and I hope you stay strong ❤

[@pixiestix__]

@@lesaira1040 i kinda forgot about this comment and have been contemplating deleting it, but thank you so much for this response !! i'm so sorry that you went through what you did, and i truly hope things are at least somewhat better for you now 🫶

[@dp620]

"If it's meant to be then it will be..." I keep listening to this chorus. .. My brother n law passed away last week. This chorus brings me much sorrow and solace at the same time.

[@lynn9142]

Just broke down crying in the bathroom to this song, the only place I can express my feelings safely, I live in a religious family/country where I could get k word for being part of the lgbtq community, I used to be religious and find comfort in praying until It hit me the moment I discovered my sexuality and saw the horrible ways my religion thinks of me, since then I’ve been suffocating in silence not being able to live my true self.. I wish one day I make out of here alive and finally start living.

[@hubert1959]

We've got the same situation

[@sanaquadri2464]

so real :

[@Cl0ud3dDr34mz]

You will get out of there and be free one day. I promise you. Sending love to you 🤍

[@lynn9142]

@@Cl0ud3dDr34mz the universe works in a crazy way.. for the past few days i’ve been losing all hopes and i slept crying today and when i woke up i found your response, thank you so much for believing in me

[@Cl0ud3dDr34mz]

@@lynn9142 I’m happy to hear that. And ofc I may not know you, but I’ll always believe in you. If you need someone to talk to I’ll be here for you. Wish I could give you a hug thru the screen 🫂

[@ZacWalters]

every time I get to this song in the album I just burst into tears and it won’t stop for the whole song

[@phoenixgodfrey5084]

I couldn’t relate more 🥲

[@Threeofteeth]

jesus christ i’m miserable lmao

[@benjaminfazio7914]

🤣🤣🤣

[@p3xo]

real

[@heejinscementbrownies1385]

so real

[@stefaniereite8138]

"I always new that in the end, no one was coming to save me"

[@Artemis513]

"We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home" as a lesbian whos still a minor living in texas and whose entire family is so baptist christian theyre basically cult members this hits so hard. the first time i heard it i was completely floored. ethel thank you so much for this absolutely stunning and unfortunately very relatable album. finding someone whose music expresses things ive never been able to put into words is so amazing and i can tell this will still be a staple album ill look back on when im years past 16.

[@nicholascreechan7237]

good luck

[@figgletinkle]

I randomly thought of the phrase "God loves you but not enough to save you" and when looking it up it lead me here.

[@EdenJumanji]

That's so cool

[@grizzlyalmighty2]

that's beautiful i love moments like that, everything finds you exactly when it's supposed to

[@clixhe]

Not a christian But the line of god loves you but not enough to save u made me sob because my mother is someone who prays and cries towards the god everyday after waking up and before going to sleep she is someone who doesnt hurt anyone (maybe me but its for my own good.) Her entire life has been nothing but cruel to her She prays for a better life yet has been always tested ruthlessly It hurts to see her this way putting faith on someone that does this to her

[@brendongrota8184]

A House in Nebraska is my favourite song from Ethel and the fact that she sings about it again in this song is beautiful and so sad. Another reason why I love this album so much is the fact that all the songs are so beautifully woven into each other. This album is a masterpiece and Ethel should receive all the flowers for it!!

[@zoñani]

her outros hit like truck 🤧

[@tayler6281]

First time ever hearing this. In my kitchen rn threw my hands up like I’m worshipping

[@mrmugrat3424]

Who else is ugly crying to this song while processing their religious trauma?

[@madalitsomwanza2218]

me

[@mchpstudio4722]

me

[@ImAtYourMumsHouse]

me

[@catsinwonderland7473]

I have absolutely zero religious trauma, I'm an atheist, and I was never raised with any religious influence. but holy shit I am sobbing right now

[@ollieatom]

That Bridge evokes all the feels

[@joenalaska]

Fuck me this girl can write! How have I just now found this?? I grew up a thousand miles away from you, but I listen to this song and I grew up next door. The picture you created mirrors many of my own memories. I could be totally wrong, maybe my past experiences are tainting your music, I’m unable to see past myself. I don’t know, I think that might be even more impressive, creating something so personal yet so accessible that even someone the opposite of you in nearly every way can slip it on like an old coat. Thank you for creating and sharing! And I just gotta say, is this the decade of the trans girls? Because y’all are killing it. Swear I’m not a creep or a chaser, yet here I am crushing on another of you. Extraordinary talent is just so attractive! Wishing you the best, and all the success you deserve (or at least as much as you want).

[@davidunderwood4341]

Born a boy. This boy can write!

[@ROcraftable]

@@davidunderwood4341 lmao shut up

[@zadzko7988]

@@davidunderwood4341girl

[@no1u521]

@@davidunderwood4341 no

[@aquariussolaris2492]

​@davidunderwood4341 the daughters of cain will remember this. Im not above violence.

[@maejuvi7715]

What I would give to hear Ajay II's reaction to this😢

[@brandie9394]

Same omgggg

[@xydnl2449]

let's make it happen pls

[@maejuvi7715]

@@xydnl2449 we need to tell her that we want it in her comments, now that she is back ❤️

[@LDaver]

THIS is not a want, it's a NEED!!

[@MIYUH-FROMDABLOCC]

When she finally catches up with everything, we GOTTA spam her to react to this. Whenever that Lana reaction comes out I feel like this would be a good one to recommend as something similar bc I know she would BAWLLL

[@anthonypanneton923]

This is some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard, and I've been listening since the late '50s. Ethel's music is inspired. (look up the roots of the word - inspired). God isn't hard to find, but impossible to avoid. But God is not what we think, and certainly not what many churches teach.

[@siriuslyginnychase3100]

insanely unique, poetic and beautiful artist. recently been obsessed with this album and it's been on repeat.

[@MaggieRosethe6ix]

It saddens my heart to see how church (mosque, temple Kingdom Hall, etc) has done more to separate us than bring us closer to God. I always knew there were chapters missing from the bible. I knew this because we’re created in his image. I also knew that God was male/female because we bring forth life. I think the only chapter that truly truly matters to me is Luke. Something about Luke. The teaching of Jesus. To be kind. To never judge. To give with your heart in secret. To stand with the broken. To worry more about the log in your eyes so then you can help your brother remove the twig in his eyes❤🙏

[@tasia_7withyou958]

I think this is my most fav song by her. I don't have any personal problem with church (I'm asexual girl who identify herself as catholic but never go to church) but seeing the comment sections here really open your eyes about church's flaws.

[@LoverOfManTits]

Christianity is a broken religion. It's done very little good and a whole lot of damage.

[@AimashitaKarou]

I am born a moslem (Islam), i tell you now this song also hits true to my childhood and my history with religious institution.........

[@emilyjolly793]

I prayed so hard last night, something I do when I feel helpless because I was raised Catholic. “God loves you but not enough to save you” hits a bit different today. This song has given me much comfort

[@AdoraDystopia]

She has such a beautiful voice. I really like the background vocals and how they showcase her vocal range.

[@will-qb1sw]

In a week Ethel has become my #1 streamed artist this year

[@spicytuna62]

I grew up Christian, but slowly left religion over the course of ten years. Everyone around me used to always tell me about how God speaks to you, but I felt so ignored. I also grew up with horrendously abusive parents, including a father who would hurt you physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Of course, I realize now the man was insane and probably shouldn't be allowed in society. But I was told the whole time I was in that man's care that God loved me. So why didn't he save me? Why did I deserve to grow up the way I did? And I prayed _a lot_ for something - _anything_ to change. And I listened a lot. I was an _enthusiastic_ Christian for a long time. But he never spoke. And so I quit praying. And I quit attending services. And I quit religion altogether. No hate if you're religious. Do you. Whatever makes your life on this stupid blue rock better. Whatever makes you more connected to those around you. Life is hard enough without people telling you're wrong all the time. Power to you if being spiritual helps you carry on another day. Just sharing my perspective.

[@WhitneyElaineDickey]

This song is truly a work of art. I can't explain it, but it just touches something inside you. The first time I heard this I was a blubbering mess. I still am, but now I'm on the millionth time listening to it 😭😭😭

[@ericabeauchamp3157]

I went for a walk today. I walked to the corner of my suburbia where my first boyfriend lived when I was fourteen. The one who took the last piece of my childhood and shattered it. I’m almost twenty-five now. It’s been just over ten years. And I walked down that street for the first time in so long. It looked exactly how I left it, but I could tell time had passed. Trees and bushes and grass were overgrown. Fences that didn’t use to be around houses were in place and already worn from time. Children just four years old played with their dad. The sun shone through the trees just like it did when my heart was broken and my spirit beaten, still too young to understand that what happened to me didn’t make me any less who I always was. I had my earbuds in and this song played. I was imagining my young self that walked those streets a decade ago. And I wondered what I would tell her if I saw her. And then Ethel said “God loves you, but not enough to save you. So baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself.” And I realized I was truly on the other side of that trauma now. Because I now give myself full credit for being strong enough to get myself out of that deep, dark pit of nothingness and rising to where I stand now. “But I always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me. So I just prayed and I keep praying. And praying. And praying.” I didn’t know back then that it was true; that nobody was coming to save me. Not friends. Not family. And not God. But I do now. And I’m also beginning to forgive as it comes back to me. If it’s meant to be, then it will be. And I was meant to survive. So I did. Love you, Ethel ❤

[@elizabethkurth2069]

Your story is so beautiful and beautifully written, it made me tear up. I’m so sorry you went through that and I’m glad that you have found strength within yourself. You were meant not only to survive but also to live, to have the beautiful and happy life you deserve❤️❤️

[@Dvgteeth]

This made me cry. I know the exact feeling you’re describing. I wish I could take my younger self up in my arms and hug her tight.

[@theladymaddys]

I love this song and it has been on repeat for over a week and its amazing how "But I always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me" can just randomly sucker punch you in the chest.

[@jacktaylor7264]

The prismizer harmonies on the lyrics “God loves you, but not enough to save you.” Man.

[@wesleyfriday8204]

The fact that I’ve passed this exact church so many times

[@londonisvile]

SAME

[@music_and_other_random_thi1330]

Where is it? The name is super familiar.

[@londonisvile]

@@music_and_other_random_thi1330 it's in Alabama :)

[@music_and_other_random_thi1330]

@@londonisvile Thanks, I've never passed by it then. It looks like every church I've ever been to :/

[@sillysilly366]

“god loves you, but not enough to save you” makes me cry every time i hear it. it hits me like a truck every time. thank you so much for your art; ive never felt so seen. you deserve all the great things in the world🤍

[@orangechickengorl]

*if its meant to be, then it will be.*

[@Sxd212]

This song just hits so close…I wasn’t ready…

[@anna.elise.5]

there’s also something so healing and comforting about this song among all the grief and pain and I can’t listen to it enough

[@valerieparente3345]

This. This is the best songwriting I've heard in a long time. The lyrics are pure poetry and the combination of that poetry with the music building up and up and up is mind blowingly emotional. Wow. New favorite song hands down!

[@Jason-to5cs]

Absolutely one of the best songs that I’ve ever heard. Amazing.

[@pdylmur]

“God loves you but not enough to save you” damn. never has a lyric hit to the core this hard. living with domestic and religious trauma and with that Catholic foundation, even in the moments of desperation we pray to something that we’re told condemns us and calls us an abomination. being cast out of the religion because of my sexuality, it hurts so much more. this whole album is way so f*cking cathartic to LGBTQ+ southern youth…

[@dearcomrade2358]

10 years from now, maybe even 20, i’ll forgive it all as it comes back to me

[@NicoLs715]

Thank you for this absolute masterpiece of an album you've created. Honestly the best piece of work I've ever listened to in my whole life. I have never connected to music the way I did with yours. I've been trying to find music like this since I was like 9 years old and sometimes I think that the Southern part of the US looks no different than the rural side of Central Italy, an immense countryside where powerlines and abandoned houses reign. A place where the church unites everyone and makes (or should I say "made") us all feel part of a community. This album really feels like my life.

[@luancoelho7451]

ill never get over the fact that "it will be" sounds A LOT like Willoughby

[@NotALizardPerson81]

I absolutely love the layering of vocals.

[@peachypetals98]

I didnt know how much this song huts till i started to sing the part "and god, ive tried.." and my eyes just get crystalline and i cried a lot :/ and the end of the song just wow, "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" ugh

[@cyrus8913]

the last part about the house in nebraska kills me every time. just one final touch after getting gutted by the climax

[@pineapplecircus]

Best new artist AWARD goes to Ethel Caine , ppl are writing they're crying through this whole song, I have been crying through every song she's released. The lyrics constantly hit str8 to our hearts. She doesn't hold back anything, it's like hearing the words from the diary of someone whose finally found a way to release all the pain inflicted upon her for us to take away. She should start her own music festival w/ all the acts in a similar genre like Guardin and who she listens to and those who inspired her. Not Lillith Fair or Lallapallooza but something brand new, it is well needed I think. There's so many artists you won't ever hear until doing your own deep dive into KZbin, bandcamp,songcloud, etc

[@ariannasholler6286]

I like how the car that drives past at the 6:00 minute mark kind of matches up with the lyrics like shes thinking those lines as she drives past the church ! Very cool

[@iBolt07]

This album is a transcendent experience

[@oliverbereczki3003]

I think Dolores O’Riordan would have immensely enjoyed your style, as do I. It would be a real treat, to hear some of your work accompanied by an extraordinarily gifted cellist... Unpunishable is a masterpiece that sends shivers up and down my spine. I would love to trip out with you and create music that makes people feel, not just listen... ❤️

[@pineapplecircus]

Oh wow, yes cello accompanying her work would pair beautifully! I dunno where, what type of award show she would be asked to be nominated for best new artist but she would be a sure winner. I don't enjoy award shows but with all the amazing new artists and music coming along the past decade it's way past time for MTV to return to an all music video format. The fact artists are still spending alot of money to make great videos with the knowledge they're only going to get played here on KZbin is amazing and goes to show that artists still need to create in this format. Billie Eillish stated on her Netflix interview w Dave Letterman that after,during the making of her songs she will start seeing ideas for the accompanying video to go with her songs. Dave asked why ,with really no places the vids will be aired Billie said she just can't imagine not making great music videos and how it helps her get new film directors work along w work for dancers, camera persons, actors, just the massive amount of ppl who get to work on 1 music video feels great. If MTV won't return to their music format then another channel should be created, even a legit KZbin TV music video channel would been amazing as they already have all there content . We have all had our fill of Teen Moms 7. Its time to return to their original format , bring back yo MTV raps, 120 minutes and the MTV award shows !

[@dirtyx4241]

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve replayed this song

[@Coralphobia]

this song is so peaceful like right before dying you just relax because its over and its ok kind of?

[@user-on7et9ok6r]

One of the best songs ever written and produced… the middle/end has some sort of magical frequency to it i could feel it heal me and it made me cry

[@lisyinwonderland]

this song makes me feel like i’m floating it’s a feeling i can’t explain, i feel so powerful listening to it but also so so calm and like i could die peacefully

[@egodeathmaniac]

this album has been such a comfort for me as i move from my small hometown to a much bigger city. but this song just touches a nerve that i can’t describe, yet it details everything ive ever felt about leaving home. being outcast from your community due to things you can’t control. and when in general it’s time to move on to bigger and better things. i can’t help but feel bittersweet. thank you so much for creating such a beautiful album.

[@EGPOfficial373]

This is a beautiful heartwrenching song and it makes me sad to hear so many saying They lost their faith b/c of their church? God never gave up on you! You gave up on him due to the words/actions of others? We are all guilty of it maybe not at church but somewhere, at some point we have all been unaccepting and judgemental of others? I shall never leave nor forsake you" he exclaims ...how many have ever stopped to realize just what HE sacrificed for you? HIS ONLY SON...or what? you think its any less of a thing to the heart of God? And in the heart and the short life of His son? in whom a Father was well pleased? who never lied or sinned or said " I cant or won't do this or why should I ? NO , he went to that cross! His death was life to me (and not just life but life eternal) He suffered the shame, the cruelty the pain and agony and in his dying breath ....he didnt curse us? No he said Father forgive them they do not understand what they do? So, the line "God loves you but not enough to save you" ...really? What he went thru for you and me my friend is Love above and beyond everything Never forget that Our salvation came at a great cost to God himself. Blessed are those who put their trust in him.

[@alexisno1120]

Nothing destroys my soul like this song, damn

[@carlos_sftcb]

SINGING IF ITS MEANT TO BE THEN IT WILL BEEEEEE I FORGIVE ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO MEEE

[@ravvingar]

ILYSM, I'm willing only the best for you. Your music is so intensely incapsulating, it's entirely consuming...

[@Rin_28]

My father suffered so much from his life before he died so he started to pray for a better life and provided us the things as much as he could when he died from his sickness god was not there to save him. It's just devastating to think that he spent his life worshipping god just for a better life but he was not able to make it

[@girlheav3n]

That synth sax nearing the end of the song is sooooo beautiful.

[@shaunashipmans]

i love this song and album so much, i was walking home today on the train tracks (my favorite shortcut) just pondering and looking at the ducks in the water. i had this song playing in my earbuds as a train rushed past me, as ethel started singing “if it’s meant to be, then it will be” 4:16 with the cold wind hitting my face and the autumn leaves flying past me. everything felt truly connected in that moment, like the universe wanted me to understand that it loved me. i teared up, it truly felt like a moment out of a movie. this album is like no other, i’ve known about this album since it came out but i only really starting getting into her music this year. i’m so excited for her new project as well but preacher’s daughter will of course always hold a special place in mine and many others’ hearts 🤍🤍

[@rachelh3095]

over the course of this album i grew so attached to Ethel's character through how emotional and powerful her voice and lyrics are. it really felt like i was watching a movie, if not more personal, because instead of images i was connecting with her and her story through feelings, being taken through this journey with her almost like she was a friend. i love the whole album, can't stop listening to it at the moment but this song particularly messes me up. i feel like i've lost and am grieving Ethel. i'm begging for her to come back the way you do in your head when you lose someone dear to you. and with the gentle reflective sound of her voice making peace with everything she been through it's as if she's assuring me that it's okay, that she's not in pain anymore. i hope everyone i have ever loved and lost and will lose through death has sang to me like this from wherever they now are. absolutely beautiful work. thank you endlessly, Hayden.

[@naomicoady7350]

This song seeps into my blood like no other. The art of interpreting and aligning lyrics like these with your experiences is both comforting and soul destroying.

[@justalexjm]

Lyrics Sun-bleached flies sitting in the windowsill Waiting for the day they escape They talk all about their money and how their babies are always changing While they're breathing in the poison of the paint What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday Listening to the choir so heartfelt, all singing "God loves you, but not enough to save you" So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself So I said fine, 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard But in the end, if I bend under the weight that they gave me Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home And I spend my life Watching it go by from the sidelines And God, I've tried But I think it's about time I put up a fight But I don't mind 'cause that's how my daddy raised me (how my daddy raised me) If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard (hit 'em twice as hard) But I always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me So I just prayed, and I keep praying and praying and praying If it's meant to be then it will be (oh, oh) So I met him there and told him I believe (oh, oh) Singing, "If it's meant to be then it will be" (it'll be) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (back to me, oh) If it's meant to be then it will be (oh, it will be, yeah) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be then it will be" (oh) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (it all comes back to me) If it's meant to be then it will be (it will be, it will be, it will be) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be then it will be" (yeah) And I forgive it all as it comes back to me (oh) And I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska By the highway, out on the edge of town Dancing with the windows open I can't let go when something's broken It's all I know and it's all I want now

[@ElviraSaidman]

This is the most powerful music I have ever heard

[@koikun]

religion isn't the only thing killing me, it's myself and everything surrounding it. ethel, thank you for your art.