Sun Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain (Official Visualizer)

Official visualizer for "Sun Bleached Flies" by Ethel Cain.
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[@lexiemcninch673]

fell to my knees in walgreens buying cough medicine because of this song

[@misogynbluu]

this is the best indicator of what her music does to people lmao

[@frankthecat]

😂

[@ginayoung130]

Yeah that seems fitting. The first time I heard the last lines of this song I felt like someone had just sucker punched me, like I'd had the air knocked out of me. It was a visceral reaction for sure.

[@NotALizardPerson81]

Reminds me of this one time about a year ago. I saw this crazy lady drop to her knees in front of the cough syrup at the local Walgreens. 😂

[@alptraum7644]

i was taking an early morning walk when i listened to this album for the first time, and that line hit me like a *truck.* literally walking along my town tearing up like "how the fuck am i supposed to be normal after listening to this?"

[@judahsocutah]

y’all talking about the god loves you line while i’m crying over the “what i wouldn’t give to be in church this sunday” 😭 it’s so beautiful in multiple ways and can be interpreted however you want it to

[@wwltrig3108]

😭😭

[@siriuslyginnychase3100]

im not religious but it's insanely powerful. it's like poetry and can be interrupted through the eyes of each listener... and having art that boundless with it's reach...is truly the mark of a real artist.

[@humanharddrive1]

same

[@zairefranklin122]

Fr same 😭 but I’m crying for both

[@eri5092]

what does it mean? /gen

[@gooba2390]

The pain I feel listening to this song is indescribable. I’m not welcome in church because of factors I have no control over. Being trans and being faithful simply deem me unworthy of Gods love or respect from the church. Every time my mom makes me go to church, I sit there praising god and then it always hits me she brings me to try to fix me. That everyone sees me as a confused girl, at the most a homosexual woman. But if I’d been born cis, I would have kept singing on that podium. I could have been a pastor. I could have married my childhood love and raised our kids in the church. Strange how things always turn out. I knew God wouldn’t save me from the hell I’ve always been put through, but he was all I ever had. Now I have my freedom, and with time it’s going to make up for it. I am an orphan, navigating the world on my own where I am still miserable, but I’m miserable as ME. As the man I’ve always been, no longer rotting under a cupboard. If it’s meant to be then it will be

[@nishachoudhary2680]

Wow. These words❤

[@JM-qt5mg]

Man yall love to cry over nothing huh? Your fears are no ones but yours

[@gooba2390]

@@JM-qt5mg Don’t care didn’t ask + ratio

[@blueyellowpapaya]

A huge hug sent your way, dude. I am trans non-binary, and I felt these words. If you were my pastor, I would maybe rethink my opinion about the church which also rejected me because of my identity. More 👏 trans 👏 pastors!! 👏

[@Jwet1100]

Look up the roots of Judaism. The early Canaanite religion had a pantheon of many gods including yaweh. There’s nothing to fear it’s just pagan mythology. You are more forward thinking then them they’re just playing catch up. Get informed.

[@grapeflavoredchaos5736]

i just saw someone fall to their knees in a Walgreens with cough drops in their hands bc of this song

[@ShadowIsStillAlive]

"I forgive it as it all comes back to me"... I'm gutted. I feel like that's the line we know for sure she has finally found true peace, where the weight of her trauma no longer bothers her.

[@mikaela70]

:(((((

[@sanaquadri2464]

Wow the way I interpreted it was really different, like she left religion and only like focused on the good when looking back so she went back and just kinda forgave it even though she knew it was horrible cuz thats what was familiar to her, and idk maybe cuz she really missed the whole community aspect of it and maybe if she went back and kept praying, this time things would turn out differently. like at the end she says she cant let go of something that's broken and that could mean her relationship as well as her relationship with god

[@bobnunyabiznz4917]

@@sanaquadri2464 That’s exactly what I got too

[@hrithikashetty6200]

the part where she sings about the house in Nebraska. that fucking broke me. i broke down crying. snots and bubbles.

[@hrithikashetty6200]

@@daroand9887 i heard the entire album. it is an reference to the song obviously. that is why it is so powerful.

[@lukaslourd]

The way this song and A House In Nebraska are my favorites:,)

[@zairefranklin122]

Fr

[@eitopia]

god loves you but not enough to save you

[@ravvingar7328]

we all know how it goes, the more it hurts the less it shows

[@kylee2147]

I’m sorry if you’ve felt hurt by the church but that was humanity not god.

[@eitopia]

@@kylee2147 true

[@fieldt]

​@@kylee2147 wasn't humanity created in God's image? God created evil, and in doing so, failed to save underprivileged people.

[@motherknowsbest1192]

@@kylee2147Not the time or place

[@squiishiie]

If you grew up Christian I don’t think it’s possible to hear the line, “God loves you, but not enough to save you,” without tearing up. Her songwriting is just unreal.

[@Patch.of.clover]

Didn’t tear up but it definitely drained every bit of energy out of me hearing that line. It’s a kick in the gut.

[@EmilyNelson-g6f]

yes a million times over

[@zakyadam2621]

im a muslim and i relate to yall, abrahamic religion be making us exhaustedd

[@Rsloak]

he does love you enough to save you.

[@squiishiie]

@@Rsloak preaching to the choir bud :)

[@jamonherman9364]

We all have that "house in Nebraska." A time and a place with someone we'd give anything to relive again. When Ethel sings about hers, I'm always sent back to mine too. If things had just been different, but it's just not how life goes.

[@growing.flowers]

Found my house in nebraska 2 days ago :/

[@earlisonline]

you don’t have to hit me that hard

[@Sleepygraveyard]

that is exectaly how I feel about the line, her writing is so good

[@p.2859]

Her writing is really smart and it is beyond my intelligence, can someone dumb it down for me on what the house in Nebraska means here?

[@knives5150]

@@p.2859her house in nebraska was a house she imagined she would buy with her past boyfriend. kind of a metaphor for what could've been but never was

[@girlsnightgirIsnight]

i hope "i forgive it all as it comes back to me" is a line i can live up to someday. i want to move on

[@kawaiiunicorn2830]

Sun-bleached flies sitting in the windowsill Waiting for the day they'll escape They talk all about their money and how their babies are always changing While they're breathing in the poison of the pain What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday Listening to the choir so heartfelt, all singing "God loves you, but not enough to save you "So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself" So I said fine, 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard But in the end, the fire bent under the weight that they gave me And his heart would break and fall as twice as far We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home And I spent my life Watching it go by from the sidelines And God, I've tried But I think it's about time I put up a fight But I don't mind 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once, then you just hit 'em twice as hard (hit 'em twice as hard) But I always knew that, in the end, no one was coming to save me So I just prayed, and I keep praying and praying and praying If it's meant to be, then it will be (oh-oh, oh-oh) So I met him there and told him I believe (oh-oh, oh-oh) Singing if it's meant to be, then it'll be (it'll be) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (back to me, oh) If it's meant to be, then it will be (oh, it will be, yeah) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be, then it will be" I forgive it all as it comes back to me (it all comes back to me) If it's meant to be, then it'll be (it'll be, it'll be, it'll be) So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing, "If it's meant to be, then it will be" And I forgive it all as it comes back to me I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska By the highway, out on the edge of town Dancing with the windows open I can't let go when something's broken It's all I know and it's all I wanna know

[@lilith6887]

wow.

[@johnberry9840]

Thank you for the lyrics

[@marchollis522]

Heartbreaking.

[@copperfoil8373]

++++

[@brianharnett2639]

"It's all I know and it's all I want now" is the last line to this great song.

[@tw1nkhater420]

Grew up Catholic and I eat up this entire album. No matter how much I’d like to hate the church, I feel a sense of nostalgia and familiarity whenever I’m reminded of it. There are some things we can’t change about ourselves and that includes how we were raised. I grieve the years where I suppressed who I was, but all you can do is accept how that was a part of you and move on.

[@kevinm7517]

As a fellow queer person who grew up Catholic, you summed up exactly how I feel too. I wanna hate the church (and to an extent I do) but I can never shake the feeling of familiarity and comfort that the routine of going to mass and worshipping gave me. You put it really beautifully -- all we can do now is accept who we truly are and move on!

[@hennilanger6738]

"we all know how it goes, the more it hurts the less it shows. but i still feel like they all know" im sobbing

[@elijahhewitt853]

I think something a lot of people don’t understand about growing up in the church but choosing to leave is that, it’s not that we don’t want to be a part of the church, the church doesn’t want us to be a part of it. At least, not the way we truly are. That feeling of longing, the need to be accepted and loved by “nice people” who, if you were born the “right” way, you could’ve been just like all the other kids growing up in that church. When all you wanted was for them to see you and love you as you are, because that’s what they told you church was about, only to find out that you would never be able to exist in the church as you are, truly. Thank you Ethel Cain for giving us your beautiful music ❤

[@AustinAshburn]

this is one of the best songs of all time like i cannot physically handle the excellence of this song

[@adamjondo]

Hugely impressed that you've heard ALL the songs EVER written.

[@AustinAshburn]

@@adamjondo okay? yes i have. xoxo

[@corvoattano44]

@@AustinAshburn LMFAOOOO

[@sparrow_posts_stuff]

@@AustinAshburn iconic

[@angelinao3916]

This song is the final stage of grief for me

[@jordanqualls97]

REAL

[@fin7313]

'i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines' my favourite lyric of all time

[@Roseshavethorns]

“I forgive it all as it comes back to me” she’s no longer violent. In strangers, she isn’t a vengeful ghost. She just watches herself get eaten, romanticizes it.

[@mel2834]

fuck😭

[@robmrsh]

Ethel you’ve managed to speak to such a large group of disenfranchised people across the rural United States with your art in a way that nobody else has. Thank you.

[@hardcyd3r]

Ethel has easily become my favorite artist in a matter of months. The aesthetic, the music, lyrics, her photography... Absolutely talented and a huge inspiration for my art.

[@crazy_lol3111]

"god loves you, but not enough to save you" NAH CUZ THAT LINE FUCKED ME UPPPPP

[@Bolero451]

This song carried me away like a leaf set gently into a stream by a child on their summer break

[@growing.flowers]

Bolero..

[@stoleniguana2449]

I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness and this is just it. It’s so shame based I barely escaped with my life. “God loves you but not enough to save you”

[@chels_o5]

me too 😭 i’m trying to leave and i feel so lonely. none of my friends want to talk to me anymore and i keep fighting with my mum over it, losing jehovah too. i’m losing everyone i love and i’m just expected to be fine because “i chose this”

[@katerice3754]

@@chels_o5 Hang in there. It's a long process and takes a lot of work, but one day you'll have found many more good things than you've lost.

[@growing.flowers]

@@katerice3754 i agree! Hang in there it can only get better from now

[@AdamGYodaWars]

@@chels_o5good luck. Having to leave a vile cult is just unimaginable for me. Hang in there.

[@arthursamuel1747]

Can't believe I found someone who suffers the same situation as me that also listen to Ethel Cain 😭

[@pastelmin2366]

"God loves you but not enough to save you." Is the most fucking relatable line I've ever heard this album is truly beautiful.

[@Juneau04]

I'm Muslim so I can't say my religion had given me any trauma but instead the patriarchal system that dogmatized our religion did. In fact, I healed significantly from the mysogynist ways of religion I've learned growing up by simply learning about Islam myself and through the actual Quran. God is merciful.

[@SSilver_]

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[@monstrua-k4c]

omg you're so real because i feel the same

[@nayaabshah1155]

❤❤❤❤

[@thevillageofnod]

But I think you really love your moms. Guess it depends on the family but the idea is there

[@Juneau04]

@@thevillageofnod yes the importance of mothers are emphasized in Islam. But if things are toxic then it's advised to create some distance and live separately when able.

[@mrmugrat3424]

Who else is ugly crying to this song while processing their religious trauma?

[@madalitsomwanza2218]

me

[@mchpstudio4722]

me

[@ImAtYourMumsHouse]

me

[@ZacWalters]

every time I get to this song in the album I just burst into tears and it won’t stop for the whole song

[@phoenixgodfrey5084]

I couldn’t relate more 🥲

[@dp620]

"If it's meant to be then it will be..." I keep listening to this chorus. .. My brother n law passed away last week. This chorus brings me much sorrow and solace at the same time.

[@ceci9051]

''and i spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines and god, i've tried, but i think it's about time i put up a fight'' she really wrote that verse for me and i cry every time i listen her sing it...thank you for creating this song

[@junfanman666]

This brings up so many memories of growing up in rural South Carolina. Feel like this song was a slice of my life.

[@Haydentrudyjones]

same… I felt like a part of my Indiana childhood came full circle when I discovered her music, it’s truly special stuff

[@theeverythinghorrorenthusiast]

I can find 50 roads down here in sc with that look exactly like this visualizer

[@anthonylanci2427]

This song takes me to church in a way I ain’t never been before.

[@strawberryflavoredvelcro3454]

that’s an interesting take

[@NicoLs715]

The best song on the entire album, along with "Family Tree"

[@setoburu]

couldnt agree more

[@NicoLs715]

@@setoburu I literally felt like I was resurrecting when I first listened to both

[@lewiswoodhall]

love American Teenager, Thoroughfare and Strangers so much too

[@spicytuna62]

I grew up Christian, but slowly left religion over the course of ten years. Everyone around me used to always tell me about how God speaks to you, but I felt so ignored. I also grew up with horrendously abusive parents, including a father who would hurt you physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Of course, I realize now the man was insane and probably shouldn't be allowed in society. But I was told the whole time I was in that man's care that God loved me. So why didn't he save me? Why did I deserve to grow up the way I did? And I prayed _a lot_ for something - _anything_ to change. And I listened a lot. I was an _enthusiastic_ Christian for a long time. But he never spoke. And so I quit praying. And I quit attending services. And I quit religion altogether. No hate if you're religious. Do you. Whatever makes your life on this stupid blue rock better. Whatever makes you more connected to those around you. Life is hard enough without people telling you're wrong all the time. Power to you if being spiritual helps you carry on another day. Just sharing my perspective.

[@pixiestix__]

i hardly ever comment on videos but i feel the need to say something, because ethel's music has such an impact on me, especially this song. the lines "but i always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me, so i kept praying, and praying, and praying" makes me sob so much. i've lived sheltered and only ever had my parents as some form of influence on me, even now. i've always watched people's lives before me and never had the chance to experience what they did. so when i had my worst depressive episode hit at age twelve, all i could do was pray until i lost my belief in religion, because god didn't save me when i needed him the most. my parents were so disappointed and i think that still sticks even after i realized that i still believe. but i knew that no one else helped me through my 4 year depression, even throughout their knowledge of it. no one helped but me, and i still haven't finished a life worth living. but listening to this song makes me feel like i'm not alone in this feeling, even if that's not the case. thank you ethel for creating such beautiful music with so much meaning and emotion behind them.

[@ImAtYourMumsHouse]

I resonate with this comment so deeply ❤

[@pixiestix__]

@@ImAtYourMumsHouse hope ur okay :( wishing good things for u 🫶🫶

[@lesaira1040]

I don't normally comment personal things (or at all...) but thank you so much for sharing your story. I went through something extremely similar and always felt alone with my past myself but reading this comment made that feeling even just a little lighter. I hope someday you'll be living the best life you could ask for, be wherever you want to be in the future, I promise you're not alone and I hope you stay strong ❤

[@pixiestix__]

@@lesaira1040 i kinda forgot about this comment and have been contemplating deleting it, but thank you so much for this response !! i'm so sorry that you went through what you did, and i truly hope things are at least somewhat better for you now 🫶

[@ceaofteeth]

jesus christ i’m miserable lmao

[@benjaminfazio7914]

🤣🤣🤣

[@p3xo]

real

[@heejinscementbrownies1385]

so real

[@lynn9142]

Just broke down crying in the bathroom to this song, the only place I can express my feelings safely, I live in a religious family/country where I could get k word for being part of the lgbtq community, I used to be religious and find comfort in praying until It hit me the moment I discovered my sexuality and saw the horrible ways my religion thinks of me, since then I’ve been suffocating in silence not being able to live my true self.. I wish one day I make out of here alive and finally start living.

[@hubert1959]

We've got the same situation

[@sanaquadri2464]

so real :

[@Cl0ud3dDr34mz]

You will get out of there and be free one day. I promise you. Sending love to you 🤍

[@lynn9142]

@@Cl0ud3dDr34mz the universe works in a crazy way.. for the past few days i’ve been losing all hopes and i slept crying today and when i woke up i found your response, thank you so much for believing in me

[@Cl0ud3dDr34mz]

@@lynn9142 I’m happy to hear that. And ofc I may not know you, but I’ll always believe in you. If you need someone to talk to I’ll be here for you. Wish I could give you a hug thru the screen 🫂

[@Artemis513]

"We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know And that's why I could never go back home" as a lesbian whos still a minor living in texas and whose entire family is so baptist christian theyre basically cult members this hits so hard. the first time i heard it i was completely floored. ethel thank you so much for this absolutely stunning and unfortunately very relatable album. finding someone whose music expresses things ive never been able to put into words is so amazing and i can tell this will still be a staple album ill look back on when im years past 16.

[@nicholascreechan7237]

good luck

[@brendongrota8184]

A House in Nebraska is my favourite song from Ethel and the fact that she sings about it again in this song is beautiful and so sad. Another reason why I love this album so much is the fact that all the songs are so beautifully woven into each other. This album is a masterpiece and Ethel should receive all the flowers for it!!

[@undrvvorld]

This songs makes me think of The Lovely Bones.

[@CoyoteMedicinebird]

this whole album reminds me of it

[@anna.elise.5]

there’s also something so healing and comforting about this song among all the grief and pain and I can’t listen to it enough

[@maejuvi7715]

What I would give to hear Ajay II's reaction to this😢

[@brandie9394]

Same omgggg

[@xydnl2449]

let's make it happen pls

[@maejuvi7715]

@@xydnl2449 we need to tell her that we want it in her comments, now that she is back ❤️

[@LDaver]

THIS is not a want, it's a NEED!!

[@MIYUH-FROMDABLOCC]

When she finally catches up with everything, we GOTTA spam her to react to this. Whenever that Lana reaction comes out I feel like this would be a good one to recommend as something similar bc I know she would BAWLLL

[@eighttrigramzz]

I forgive it all as it comes back to me

[@ericabeauchamp3157]

I went for a walk today. I walked to the corner of my suburbia where my first boyfriend lived when I was fourteen. The one who took the last piece of my childhood and shattered it. I’m almost twenty-five now. It’s been just over ten years. And I walked down that street for the first time in so long. It looked exactly how I left it, but I could tell time had passed. Trees and bushes and grass were overgrown. Fences that didn’t use to be around houses were in place and already worn from time. Children just four years old played with their dad. The sun shone through the trees just like it did when my heart was broken and my spirit beaten, still too young to understand that what happened to me didn’t make me any less who I always was. I had my earbuds in and this song played. I was imagining my young self that walked those streets a decade ago. And I wondered what I would tell her if I saw her. And then Ethel said “God loves you, but not enough to save you. So baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself.” And I realized I was truly on the other side of that trauma now. Because I now give myself full credit for being strong enough to get myself out of that deep, dark pit of nothingness and rising to where I stand now. “But I always knew that in the end, no one was coming to save me. So I just prayed and I keep praying. And praying. And praying.” I didn’t know back then that it was true; that nobody was coming to save me. Not friends. Not family. And not God. But I do now. And I’m also beginning to forgive as it comes back to me. If it’s meant to be, then it will be. And I was meant to survive. So I did. Love you, Ethel ❤

[@elizabethkurth2069]

Your story is so beautiful and beautifully written, it made me tear up. I’m so sorry you went through that and I’m glad that you have found strength within yourself. You were meant not only to survive but also to live, to have the beautiful and happy life you deserve❤️❤️

[@zoñani]

her outros hit like truck 🤧

[@wesleyfriday8204]

The fact that I’ve passed this exact church so many times

[@londonisvile]

SAME

[@music_and_other_random_thi1330]

Where is it? The name is super familiar.

[@londonisvile]

@@music_and_other_random_thi1330 it's in Alabama :)

[@music_and_other_random_thi1330]

@@londonisvile Thanks, I've never passed by it then. It looks like every church I've ever been to :/

[@KaleabAbayneh]

[Verse 1] Sun bleached flies sitting in the windowsill Waiting for the day they escape They talk all about that money and how their babies are always changing while they're breathing in the poison of the paint What I wouldn't give to be in Church this Sunday Listening to the choir, so heartfelt, all singing God loves you, but not enough to save you So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself [Chorus] So I said fine, 'cause that's how my daddy raised me If they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard But in the end, if I bend under the weight that they gave me Then this heart would break and fall as twice as far [Verse 2] We all know how it goes The more it hurts, the less it shows But I still feel like they all know, and that's why I can never go back home And I spend my life watching it go by from the sidelines And God, I've tried, but I think it's about time I put up a fight [Chorus] But I don't mind 'cause that's how my daddy raised me (How my daddy raised me) If they strike once then you just hit 'em twice as hard But I always knew that in the end no one was coming to save me So I just prayed and I keep praying and praying and praying [Bridge] If it's meant to be then it will be So I met him there and told him I believe Singing if it's meant to be then it'll be I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Back to me) If it's meant to be then it will be So I met him there and told him I believe (I believe, yeah) Singing if it's meant to be then it will be (Oh, oh) I forgive it all as it comes back to me (It comes back to me) If it's meant to be then it'll be (It'll be, it'll be, it'll be) So I met him there and told him I believe (Yeah) Singing if it's meant to be then it will be I forgive it all as it comes back to me (Oh) [Outro] I'm still praying for that house in Nebraska By the highway, out on the edge of town Dancing with the windows open I can't let go when something's broken It's all I know and it's all I want now

[@Sxd212]

This song just hits so close…I wasn’t ready…

[@nabi_zzzs]

"I forgive it all as it comes back to me." is definitely something I live by the older I get, I find it harder to hold grudges over what happened to me when I was young even though it hurt and made it super difficult to go day to day. It was hard, very much so, but I feel somewhat of a weight off my shoulders now at least. Ethel Cain, you're a lyrical genius and I really hope more people find your music because you deserve it.

[@joenalaska]

Fuck me this girl can write! How have I just now found this?? I grew up a thousand miles away from you, but I listen to this song and I grew up next door. The picture you created mirrors many of my own memories. I could be totally wrong, maybe my past experiences are tainting your music, I’m unable to see past myself. I don’t know, I think that might be even more impressive, creating something so personal yet so accessible that even someone the opposite of you in nearly every way can slip it on like an old coat. Thank you for creating and sharing! And I just gotta say, is this the decade of the trans girls? Because y’all are killing it. Swear I’m not a creep or a chaser, yet here I am crushing on another of you. Extraordinary talent is just so attractive! Wishing you the best, and all the success you deserve (or at least as much as you want).

[@davidunderwood4341]

Born a boy. This boy can write!

[@ROcraftable]

@@davidunderwood4341 lmao shut up

[@zadzko7988]

@@davidunderwood4341girl

[@no1u521]

@@davidunderwood4341 no

[@aquariussolaris2492]

​@davidunderwood4341 the daughters of cain will remember this. Im not above violence.

[@WhitneyElaineDickey]

This song is truly a work of art. I can't explain it, but it just touches something inside you. The first time I heard this I was a blubbering mess. I still am, but now I'm on the millionth time listening to it 😭😭😭

[@anthonypanneton923]

This is some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard, and I've been listening since the late '50s. Ethel's music is inspired. (look up the roots of the word - inspired). God isn't hard to find, but impossible to avoid. But God is not what we think, and certainly not what many churches teach.

[@ollieatom]

That Bridge evokes all the feels

[@sillysilly366]

“god loves you, but not enough to save you” makes me cry every time i hear it. it hits me like a truck every time. thank you so much for your art; ive never felt so seen. you deserve all the great things in the world🤍

[@valerieparente3345]

This. This is the best songwriting I've heard in a long time. The lyrics are pure poetry and the combination of that poetry with the music building up and up and up is mind blowingly emotional. Wow. New favorite song hands down!

[@tayler6281]

First time ever hearing this. In my kitchen rn threw my hands up like I’m worshipping

[@tasia_7withyou958]

I think this is my most fav song by her. I don't have any personal problem with church (I'm asexual girl who identify herself as catholic but never go to church) but seeing the comment sections here really open your eyes about church's flaws.

[@LoverOfManTits]

Christianity is a broken religion. It's done very little good and a whole lot of damage.

[@AimashitaKarou]

I am born a moslem (Islam), i tell you now this song also hits true to my childhood and my history with religious institution.........

[@NicoLs715]

Thank you for this absolute masterpiece of an album you've created. Honestly the best piece of work I've ever listened to in my whole life. I have never connected to music the way I did with yours. I've been trying to find music like this since I was like 9 years old and sometimes I think that the Southern part of the US looks no different than the rural side of Central Italy, an immense countryside where powerlines and abandoned houses reign. A place where the church unites everyone and makes (or should I say "made") us all feel part of a community. This album really feels like my life.

[@Jason-to5cs]

Absolutely one of the best songs that I’ve ever heard. Amazing.

[@will-qb1sw]

In a week Ethel has become my #1 streamed artist this year

[@Dani-yn9kc]

“im still praying for that house in nebraska” is so beautiful, even in our lowest, most gut puching moments we still yearn for a moment in time and space where we were happy, to cherish all of that joy we felt that now we miss so much. we all have our own house in nebraska

[@NotALizardPerson81]

I absolutely love the layering of vocals.

[@pdylmur]

“God loves you but not enough to save you” damn. never has a lyric hit to the core this hard. living with domestic and religious trauma and with that Catholic foundation, even in the moments of desperation we pray to something that we’re told condemns us and calls us an abomination. being cast out of the religion because of my sexuality, it hurts so much more. this whole album is way so f*cking cathartic to LGBTQ+ southern youth…

[@jacktaylor7264]

The prismizer harmonies on the lyrics “God loves you, but not enough to save you.” Man.

[@siriuslyginnychase3100]

insanely unique, poetic and beautiful artist. recently been obsessed with this album and it's been on repeat.

[@luancoelho7451]

ill never get over the fact that "it will be" sounds A LOT like Willoughby

[@oliverbereczki3003]

I think Dolores O’Riordan would have immensely enjoyed your style, as do I. It would be a real treat, to hear some of your work accompanied by an extraordinarily gifted cellist... Unpunishable is a masterpiece that sends shivers up and down my spine. I would love to trip out with you and create music that makes people feel, not just listen... ❤️

[@pineapplecircus]

Oh wow, yes cello accompanying her work would pair beautifully! I dunno where, what type of award show she would be asked to be nominated for best new artist but she would be a sure winner. I don't enjoy award shows but with all the amazing new artists and music coming along the past decade it's way past time for MTV to return to an all music video format. The fact artists are still spending alot of money to make great videos with the knowledge they're only going to get played here on KZbin is amazing and goes to show that artists still need to create in this format. Billie Eillish stated on her Netflix interview w Dave Letterman that after,during the making of her songs she will start seeing ideas for the accompanying video to go with her songs. Dave asked why ,with really no places the vids will be aired Billie said she just can't imagine not making great music videos and how it helps her get new film directors work along w work for dancers, camera persons, actors, just the massive amount of ppl who get to work on 1 music video feels great. If MTV won't return to their music format then another channel should be created, even a legit KZbin TV music video channel would been amazing as they already have all there content . We have all had our fill of Teen Moms 7. Its time to return to their original format , bring back yo MTV raps, 120 minutes and the MTV award shows !

[@alexisno1120]

Nothing destroys my soul like this song, damn

[@lisyinwonderland]

this song makes me feel like i’m floating it’s a feeling i can’t explain, i feel so powerful listening to it but also so so calm and like i could die peacefully

[@drakeledger9766]

Im gay and went to a super Christian military school and this song makes me feel the same pain when I was there. The alienation, sadness, anger, and disillusionment I had with Christianity. Beautiful song though

[@Boredombyashlyn]

The way that church looks JUST like the one I was raised in.

[@iBolt07]

This album is a transcendent experience

[@donotavius5915]

what conservative could've predicted the best Christain-based faith song of the 21st century would be written by a trans woman?

[@theunbearablejuan]

Arguably the best film about Jesus was made by a gay communist. The Gospel According To St. Matthew from Pier Paolo Pasolini. Sometimes you need an outsider or a pariah of a community/belief system to make something great about it. And it can be positive or negative, but that distance can help you be critical. Why do you think most Christian films are just bland propaganda? They are mostly interested in coddling their rather close-minded audience. Art is meant to challenge.

[@cyrus8913]

the last part about the house in nebraska kills me every time. just one final touch after getting gutted by the climax

[@checkmate545]

How on earth is this not featured in a film???????? 💖

[@bdp8102]

Just wait 🥰

[@egodeathmaniac]

this album has been such a comfort for me as i move from my small hometown to a much bigger city. but this song just touches a nerve that i can’t describe, yet it details everything ive ever felt about leaving home. being outcast from your community due to things you can’t control. and when in general it’s time to move on to bigger and better things. i can’t help but feel bittersweet. thank you so much for creating such a beautiful album.

[@Coralphobia]

this song is so peaceful like right before dying you just relax because its over and its ok kind of?

[@pineapplecircus]

Best new artist AWARD goes to Ethel Caine , ppl are writing they're crying through this whole song, I have been crying through every song she's released. The lyrics constantly hit str8 to our hearts. She doesn't hold back anything, it's like hearing the words from the diary of someone whose finally found a way to release all the pain inflicted upon her for us to take away. She should start her own music festival w/ all the acts in a similar genre like Guardin and who she listens to and those who inspired her. Not Lillith Fair or Lallapallooza but something brand new, it is well needed I think. There's so many artists you won't ever hear until doing your own deep dive into KZbin, bandcamp,songcloud, etc

[@user-on7et9ok6r]

One of the best songs ever written and produced… the middle/end has some sort of magical frequency to it i could feel it heal me and it made me cry

[@user-on7et9ok6r]

I wish you all the success you want to receive. This entire album is a masterpiece. ❤

[@jasonelliott8068]

What a commitment instantly a chosen one 👏 🙌 👍🦋

[@clixhe]

Not a christian But the line of god loves you but not enough to save u made me sob because my mother is someone who prays and cries towards the god everyday after waking up and before going to sleep she is someone who doesnt hurt anyone (maybe me but its for my own good.) Her entire life has been nothing but cruel to her She prays for a better life yet has been always tested ruthlessly It hurts to see her this way putting faith on someone that does this to her

[@dirtyx4241]

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve replayed this song

[@psicosombra3715]

Ethel Cain touches my soul, touches my tears and touches my sadness like if it were corporeal.

[@carlos_sftcb]

SINGING IF ITS MEANT TO BE THEN IT WILL BEEEEEE I FORGIVE ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO MEEE

[@amber7705]

That synth sax nearing the end of the song is sooooo beautiful.

[@thisismerying111]

I forgive it all as it comes back to me.

[@recessedsubhuman]

I randomly thought of the phrase "God loves you but not enough to save you" and when looking it up it lead me here.

[@dearcomrade2358]

10 years from now, maybe even 20, i’ll forgive it all as it comes back to me

[@ElviraSaidman]

This is the most powerful music I have ever heard

[@naomicoady7350]

This song seeps into my blood like no other. The art of interpreting and aligning lyrics like these with your experiences is both comforting and soul destroying.

[@EGPOfficial373]

This is a beautiful heartwrenching song and it makes me sad to hear so many saying They lost their faith b/c of their church? God never gave up on you! You gave up on him due to the words/actions of others? We are all guilty of it maybe not at church but somewhere, at some point we have all been unaccepting and judgemental of others? I shall never leave nor forsake you" he exclaims ...how many have ever stopped to realize just what HE sacrificed for you? HIS ONLY SON...or what? you think its any less of a thing to the heart of God? And in the heart and the short life of His son? in whom a Father was well pleased? who never lied or sinned or said " I cant or won't do this or why should I ? NO , he went to that cross! His death was life to me (and not just life but life eternal) He suffered the shame, the cruelty the pain and agony and in his dying breath ....he didnt curse us? No he said Father forgive them they do not understand what they do? So, the line "God loves you but not enough to save you" ...really? What he went thru for you and me my friend is Love above and beyond everything Never forget that Our salvation came at a great cost to God himself. Blessed are those who put their trust in him.

[@humuhumunukunuku]

This song moves me to tears and I don’t even know why

[@naurastudies]

"if its meant to be, then it will be" keep repeating over and over again is such a magical experience i could say. its like that sentence is being imprinted in my mind. ethel cain, you are a lyrical genius.

[@ravvingar7328]

ILYSM, I'm willing only the best for you. Your music is so intensely incapsulating, it's entirely consuming...

[@Jwet1100]

Dear Ethel, I would love to hear a somber Gospel Choir backing your music in your next album release. That would be incredible. As an newly formed agnostic I miss the beautiful sounds of worship music that I can no longer enjoy them the same way. Your music feels like secular worship to me. Finding beauty in the empty spaces.

[@ryasa777]

album of the year

[@B4byB3lles]

She understands me

[@Colinchaplin07]

I’ve recently become obsessed with Hayden and her work

[@alicemarks7468]

I can’t let go when something’s broken It’s all I know and all I wanna know

[@thewolson220]

Jesus Christ, this is phenomenal.

[@ArwenA-j4j]

I'm a trans woman who grew up in the catholic church and is estranged from her family. I feel really lucky that someone reccomended Ethel Cain to me. This album has really hit me right at my core.