A MONTH IN MY LIFE - ANOREXIA RECOVERY

A vlog of what I did this month, not everythingggg but bits of life and some good food. Missing Alisha already, but still fully supplied with Satara's jokes and sarcasm!
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[@bifurcation1531]

Elzani, you know what, I am pregnant with my 3rd girl, and I hope they will be best sisters like you girls.

[@Suzanna0987]

Such a nice family. Brilliant parents. And can we take a moment to admire the hotness of the Dad. Haha.

[@junenovae]

"the final dinner" "the last brownie" ... it's ok Elzani, it's just uni haha she'll have some food there I promise

[@elzani6744]

June Novae I meant with us for a long time hahahahah 😂😂😂 it’s super weird without her because she’s always so loud and singing and now it’s like 🤨

[@juliaaleilaa]

June Novae Lol she means with her

[@kellyblack7033]

Elzani’s happiness T-shirt is iconic

[@elzani6744]

kelly Black H A P P I N E S S

[@thesunwillriseagaintomorro8278]

Elzani where is it from? 😅 I Love it soo much

[@espie5106]

I’m glad your back, I love your videos! It makes me so happy to see you having such a great time with your family! This is why recovery is worth it! Love you! ❤️

[@elzani6744]

Bella awww I am so glad you like the videos, it definitely is what recovery is worth it ❤️

[@EmmyElle.]

Your parents are so sweet! You can feel how much they love you guys, and it's just heartwarming as hell ❤️

[@kellyblack7033]

YAY ELZANI I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!! ❤️❤️❤️💕💕

[@maritvoogd1320]

kelly Black hope she will upload videos more frequently again

[@kaceycorless8914]

Makes my absolute day when you upload. Such a crappy few days and feeling so unmotivated and then the queen uploads! Yass feeling much more inspired now! Love your uploads! Your doing amazing Elzani keep going you warrior!👑🤞🏻😚

[@kellyblack7033]

I always drop everything else as soon as I see the notifications 🙌🏼🙌🏼💕💕

[@elzani6744]

kelly Black YAAAAY!!

[@westdelrey1755]

Recovering with you is the best thing eveeeeerrrr you gave me so much power

[@ashlynnflory2034]

You're so sweet and come a long way but I want a update on your recovery and how you felt when you started to now and if you're getting any better ♥️ good luck Elzani

[@susanjarrell1573]

I feel like I haven’t seen you in weeks 😂. Glad you posted a video, missed seeing your face 😊

[@thedrugthatkilled]

You seem to be more relaxed about food & eating 💖 excellent progress, Elzani!

[@erinnicole5348]

Your family warms my heart!! 🌈💕 Your dad is so funny and loving, I really hope he had a good day with his fave ladiesssssss. Sending you much love & happiness!

[@rb6006]

Omg I'm Italian and you and your family are the first british people I see that can make pasta properly!😂 Good job! ❤️

[@lia6840]

I've never been happier(: Another upload from you that I have been awaiting for a long time!! lovely video, love the radiating positivity, all the best to your sister Elzani^^

[@celestialudenberg6966]

I wish I had such a good relationship w my sister :(

[@AiiCii]

I feel like she might be thinking the same about you

[@kecrn4132]

Celestia Ludenberg - me too..... and same with my Mom

[@bbghoul_x]

Same :(

[@annelotkeizer2154]

Love to see how much you enjoy food with your family now! And everyone is always baking or cooking special things, you can be proud of yourself!

[@etta1024]

You've done an amazing job! I want to say you've inspired me. I do not have the same eating disorder, but I do suffer with one. I have seen your determination and know I can tackle mine!

[@saragill2720]

I know it must be lots to do, but I love your vids. I love knowing how you all are too!

[@elzani6744]

Sara Gill sooo glad you like them 😘❤️

[@whoisthisgalx]

Your Dad crying after saying goodbye to Alisha broke me!! 😭😭

[@naomibalzano1164]

Elzani, I admire you so, so much. You inspire me a lot in my journey of finding my way to recover. Keep going, we're all supporting you; You're an amazing young woman, thank you for everything you share

[@Simelation]

So glad to see you back Elzani! 🥰❤

[@hannahschluter6451]

You're channel brings me so much comfort and feels like home :)

[@modgygirl2569]

You help me so much! You are such an inspiration in your way to recovery and every new video you seem so much more healthy and happy xxx Thank you XOXO

[@susanjarrell1573]

You need to make a peanut butter and jelly (jam) sandwich. They are the best!

[@deyaniraramos1396]

First day-it does look cold, don't know why you guys decided to eat out there initially...lol. luckily you all went inside. You gals (you and your mom) are sharing queens hehehe... 2nd- that's a big jacket for your Pops, those pants look good what you talking about. Ooh brilliant dinner creation 👌 let chef. 3rd- it's great that you rested in those days...no walking but it's nice at thee same time. Oooh Satara is playing the iconic Titanic song lol. That's good. That's lovely that they are eating out together, date night! Both of your dinners are winners!!!!! Next time switch meal ideas with Satara. blazev is sooo adorable 💞 4rd-- brekky Sammy. Oooh wow, that looks like fun. Lol just like mez weak arms...for now. It is annoying, I get it. For some reason your filming looks much more real, real life...like I'm there. Oooh nice birthday roast, excellent. Happy belated birthday to your Dad. You always make perfect baked goods.wait why were you all laughing there? Lol, I don't think your Dad spit in the cake. 5th- Elzan's legendary Pizza bagel, excellent. 6th- oooh so proud of you that you are allowing yourself to try new goodies still, it's really inspiring. Loading up on them bagels and I saw those Biscoff jars. 7th- they look like the cinnamon toast crunch we have here(cereal). Proud of you. What the, peanut butter and broccoli? Interesting... 8th- Cheerios taste like Chinese...lol. your taste buds are wacked out hahaha..j/k. That's a crunchy chocolate bar. ASMR!!!! You seem Soo much happier with food now💕nice din din with family and silky ice cream dessert to top it off. Oooh so sad, she's leaving soon. 9th- perfect dinner (cottage pie and all). She's packing? Aaawww... tear. 10th- too early perhaps. Blaze is cute, 100 percent. Lol "don't put this on KZbin" lol.."get lost" lol...she's Soo annoyed lol, she loves you. They don't look bad. Blaze wants to play. Aaaww..she's missing her already but she's still here lol...aaaww... There will be walks with her again soon. Alisha's uni bad boi brownies cute lol. Aaaawww... your mommy is tearing up. Lol the muffins bounce? Lol. 11th- aaaw Alisha is leaving...aaaww..so sad but amazing. Ooh yeah Sammy for the queen. Lol grackles crisp triangle. 🍕!!!! 12th- well balanced brekky for you🤸😉💞 her last day!!! Aaaww it's Soo sad and cute to see them tear up like that. Aaaww..... Excellent meals that day Elzani. 13th- I like how you changed up your brekky, nice. Proud Soo very proud of you. Hope that hot chocolate was Devine. 14th- ooh changing it up on them bagels...damn yo loving them bagels...that's Soo incredible 👍👍🖤🦋🕊️ 15th- Blazy is in very days shot! Wow! Your first pb Sammy? What!!! Hope you loved it I hope it is one of your fav. Obsessions lol. Challenge spreads taste test! 👏 16th lol peanut butter train lol, you do love it.crunchy seems interesting and the deep roast. Ooh never seen those oat flips before. Devine ladies, on pizza night. 💕 17th- cereal is Soo Great!!! You do looove chocolate stuff. More toast with peanut butter, just perfect. Biscoff ice cream time after a great well balanced meal. Loved these combination of videos days..whatever you call it, it was excited to watch. I looove love love watching your vids, I love your family! Your interesting, incredible, inspiring, motivational, hilarious, beautiful, fun, lovely, caring, entertaining and simply Amazing 👏❤️ aaww..love you all. 👍💞🖤👏🤸🥣🍫🦋📚🤯🥜🥔🥐🍞🥪🥚🍕🍟🍝🍪☕🥂🛶🏫🏖️🎂🎁🎥🖼️🛍️🛋️🛏️🛒👑💜💙

[@hannahscanlon2455]

You are so amazing and you enjoy life so much more everyday. Quick question, do you have regular check ups with your Dr? Sending love from Australia 🌞😁❤

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

Your uploads always make me happy, thank you! I‘m hoping you are doing as good as it seems! You pepper-cashew sauce looks amazing! I‘m going to cook it as well. Did you soak the cashews before blending or did you use cashew butter for it?

[@milliebullock3584]

ive missed ur videos so much wow, an inspiration to me💞

[@aristahenriot7450]

Was thinking about you today and how far you have come this year. You are amazing ,just keep it up.All the hard work is and will pay of xxx

[@rebeccalouise4784]

I tried pizza bagels with a twist I stuck these toppings in a panini with pepperoni and it was sooo good you should try it elzani 💖 xx

[@hannahblack1140]

I was the exact same when my sister left for uni 😢

[@pinksloth7318]

YAYYYYYYYYY Elzani you are so great! I missed you and your videos xxx So glad you are back! By the way I shaved all my hair off because I had a mental breakdown incident lol XD Look like an egghead now xx I don't know why I wrote that I shaved my hair off tbh, I guess it is because I am going to placement tomorrow and everyone already thinks i am a nut case, BTW how ARE you doing?

[@thedrugthatkilled]

I bet you look punk-rock with a shaved head! 💖

[@robinlong1971]

You're doing amazing!! I wish I was as strong as you, and happy birthday to dad!!

[@Stella-gu5wf]

Blaze is the cutest thing ever

[@lea4385]

your videos always motivate me and reassure me that I can be free again like I used to be and be as free around food as my family is

[@fishcake5126]

love you Elzani! ❤️

[@elzani6744]

Jean-Marie Phang 😘❤️

[@MadisonTiahn]

Your house looks so beautiful. Always happy to see you upload. X

[@fayneerg7265]

Aw it’s so sad having to leave her behind! Where abouts has she gone for uni? That was a long car ride !! Xxxx

[@whitestardrop]

Fay neerg Durham

[@artemis___177]

Yayyy love you so much so strong And such a big inspiration of mine 💕💕Every time I see a video of yours I am more motivated than ever

[@danaklamecki8820]

So glad to see a video! Missed you! ❤️❤️

[@kikas666]

Elzani I hope u are eating as u show and that things have been going good as well, cuz it seems like u have lost a bit of weight, which seems weird cuz u seem to be doing things quite well xx hope for the besstt

[@talissa3093]

kikas666 if others can’t see this too they must be suffering from their own problems

[@quitadiva4235]

Im so proud of you darling!!

[@allysonroyston9671]

You are such a gd cook Elzani 😍 Your baking is wonderful.xx

[@Kay-ox8ci]

oh my gosh a LEMON CAKE those are so good!! I want to eat some again, eventually

[@genius2655]

1:48 That looks like it was crafted by the hands of God, damn

[@sophiemoran83]

You're doing really well - keep going - it will only get better !!

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

So happy you uploaded!

[@empoweringmindsets6667]

You are so strong and inspire me to keep going all the time!

[@hanni0134]

Love Ur Videos :) Can you please share the recipe for the roasted Pasta Sauce?

[@sylveemoonfaye8533]

Hope your dad had a good birthday! :)

[@emilysimmons1382]

your freckles are so cute!

[@demelzamay]

Crying when you guys are saying bye to lisha ❤️❤️❤️

[@Naphinel]

Last BBQ of the summer >>> ok, I see the datum: October. And WHAT? SUMMER? OMG :D Than Elzani: It's very cold outside. Yeah, I can't wonder.

[@healthylifestylerecovery]

Love how far you have come your amazing 💗

[@gerukatze]

Aww I know what you are gowing through. Last year my sister did a semester abroad that was sad the leaving.. part but yah uni lasts longer than 6 months. But visiting is always nice :)

[@axeniatamara2683]

I love that piano♥️

[@robynsinclair3317]

21.38 Alisha already living the student life dipping pasta into a jar of sauce

[@lea4385]

Ahhh do you have freckles? It looks so cute!! Suits you really well (if you have them and I‘m not stupid bc I‘m tired af right now)

[@carsmyth199410]

. Love curiously cinnamon. Hope you put a spoon of biscoff into your porridge with apple or banana(I know banana isn't your fav tho). And I know how much you like dark chocolate that in porridge melted also really good

[@its_msk]

I read a comment about Uni and though GOOD for YOU Elzani...then realized it's her sister going...I hope one day Elzani can branch out from the protection and comfort of her parents and her house.

[@elzani6744]

Dawny K I’ve done a year of uni already 😀

[@its_msk]

@@elzani6744 not recently though? Wasnt this before you're anorexia got really severe?

[@its_msk]

@heyyymengayyymen you're way off base and seriously projecting your issues into my comment. I said it will be good for her to branch out of her comfort zone from her parents house. That is all. Being anorexic, you tend to lose alot of your identity, your ambitions for anything else and become almost regressed emotionally. This may not be the case here, but it is very common. When she is ready to, it would be very healthy for her to spread her wings a bit. That was my point.

[@elifaydn5771]

I LOVE YOUR WHAT I EAT İN A Week 😍😍please share more what ı eat in a week

[@junenovae]

the angles of this video are... interesting hahaha

[@Brokendreams77]

I’ve missed your videos!

[@endenseowns7681]

Soooo proud of you!!!❤️❤️

[@elzani6744]

Enden Seowns 😘❤️

[@joslyn9834]

*Could someone help me?* So, I've been in self recovery for around 3 weeks. I've gained 7 lbs, and I terrified to gain anymore. I feel like I'm starting to slip back in to my ed ways... I want to keep recovering but I'm so scared of gaining anymore weight. In fact, I feel the need to LOSE weight. I thought gaining weight in recovery would take a long time and it would he hard, but I'm gaining so fast! Btw, my BMI is still technically underweight. Please help!

[@user-mn3tq1sv3n]

Joslyn Lilly you should eat, and gaining weight because you still underweight. Don’t listen to you ed, because it’s your ed wants to lose weight, not you. I know it scary, sometimes REALLY scary, but it worth it. If you feel anxiety or your ed you should distract yourself. Hope you will keep recovering! good luck, warrior)

[@ashlynnflory2034]

If you're underweight then stop worrying, when you're healthy your metabolism will become normal again.

[@ashlynnflory2034]

At least I'm guessing cause I'm severely underweight but when I was healthy my metabolism was faster.

[@genius2655]

The more you eat, the more the voice disappears. Get rid of the scale. I find my ED is quiet until I weigh myself. If you keep eating, and surrounding yourself with good people, you’ll improve

[@graceless8575]

In recovery Tabitha farrar helps me

[@junenovae]

What suject is Alisha studying?

[@ElzGamez]

So proud of you ❤️

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

Try the pip and nut pumpkin spice almond butter 😍😍

[@rainyday65]

you are incredible ❤️

[@saragill2720]

I wish I could be free with food like you.

[@elzani6744]

Sara Gill you can be!!! Don’t wait, you can do anything, I never thought it would be any different but don’t ever think you can’t get to wherever you want to be ❤️

[@its_msk]

She is still struggling with it. It's a mental disorder and you can tell she still has alot of thoughts surround food including anxiety about food. It can take years to get over even the thoughts, planning meals, thinking about what to eat...you're not truly free of the disorder until you arent mentally consumed with these thoughts

[@ashlynnflory2034]

Lol she literally started off as 70lbs like obviously she's not as free even now she's in recovery she's not fully recovered from eating. 😐

[@samanthabirnie4619]

Love you and your videos. Always believe in yourself. Peanut butter forever. Xx

[@haileyvivlemore]

yessss ily

[@ha-kyeongjeon8568]

Amazing video! thank you elzani

[@phiaellie1747]

How do you eat when you are not hungry

[@mvp2883]

Yeah baby

[@AngelDustSho]

U look so good omg 😘

[@MariaPerez-qx8qr]

Another video❤️

[@elzani6744]

Maria Perez DJ khaled

[@MariaPerez-qx8qr]

Elzani Another One😂

[@bigkahunaburger1782]

would you look at you just enjoying lifeeeeee!!!

[@ambrerobelin9514]

Hi I am fisrt love u elzani❤️

[@elzani6744]

Ambre Robelin I am 2nd x

[@ambrerobelin9514]

Omg😍

[@andrinejohansen5006]

Try Peanut butter and honey. Its amaziiiiing!

[@lauterbath22]

I wish America had quality baked goods in grocery stores...

[@rashellexo4470]

We do.

[@lauterbath22]

Not where I live.

[@MamaRoseto8]

You must have terrible grocery stores Taylor! Lol! I've lived in seven different states and have always found amazing baked goods, just not at the super cheap grocery stores.

[@lauterbath22]

That's what I'm saying. In general, America has terrible baked goods in grocery stores. I gave lived in 5 states and been to most in most grocery stores have terrible products. Usually have to go to a designated bakery for anything good

[@MamaRoseto8]

Well, I suppose the problem is, we are debating a matter of opinion as if we are speaking about something that can be proven. I have a grocery store chain in my area that has one of the most beautiful bakery sections I have ever seen, anywhere. It's bursting with fresh breads, cakes, pies, muffins, bagels, gourmet chocolate covered pretzels, scones, donuts, and more. But it's pretty silly to say an entire country is devoid of "good grocery store bakeries" that's far too broad of a statement for only having lived in five states. ;)

[@kmd10533]

Creamy peanut butter is the best

[@scarlettbond9212]

was that gloucester services?

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

Btw it’s pray-Leen not prah-line

[@georgieroberts8697]

I’ve heard both

[@princessladytanya]

Ottavia Zwillenberg It's actually pronounced praline, not prayleen.

[@emmalemasurier2860]

Uve actually got nails yay!

[@faithwoodsford8330]

Hey x I'm stuck in in patient right now struggling with the gain..... are u at a healthy BMI now? You look beautiful and still skinny but not as bad as before no offence your so mucky to have family I got no one and I'm gunns be hear a year :(

[@mariec6056]

Faith Woodsford how are u doing xx

[@faithwoodsford8330]

@@mariec6056 I'm out of hospital I managed to go to 7 stone bout 7 week ago and now I'm Back to 6.3.... it's just never gonna end they've decided I'm just going to have to live with it now it's always gunna get me one way or another. Thanks for asking x

[@mariec6056]

Faith Woodsford well done you can do this one day at a time one minute off a time here if need some to talk too my ed was 15 years ago 5 stone don’t know what happened lol have u any support from family now lovely things will get easier chick xxx

[@marciabbey]

it looks like aleesha has the master bedroom

[@JoshLaF]

I feel like I’m too prepared for recovery and it makes me a fake anorexic and that I eat too much to be considered anorexic (900cals a day if I push myself 600 normal)

[@ruthking2563]

Hey there Lovely, I saw your comment and just had to respond. You are eating a dangerously low amount of food. Your body is suffering and you need to recover. Your willingness to recover is fantastic! I don’t intend to scare you but perhaps you need to hear this. I suffer from a health condition that caused me to have a severe loss of appetite. I’m not anorexic but the effect on my body was the same. I often ate more than you are eating but I was not eating enough to fuel my body. This meant that when I got really unwell, my body couldn’t fight anymore and I was told that I may not survive to see the coming Christmas. I was very very lucky! Please don’t put yourself in that position. What will happen to you if you get sick? Your body needs those reserves to fight and survive and to function in the right way. You need that energy to smile, laugh, love and live life in all of its fullness. I know that it’s hard to push through the pain. My pain is physical but mental pain can be just as challenging to endure. You will not be ‘giving in’ or ‘failing’ when you make that brave choice to recover! You WILL be giving in if you choose to submit to your ED. That voice in your head that tells you to starve yourself is NOT your friend. That voice may sound sweet or comfortable or give you a sense of satisfaction but that voice has only one motive. It is trying to kill you! That voice will tell you that you are fine, that you aren’t in danger if you continue to eat too little but that voice is lying! This is extremely serious! Please choose recovery. You are so very loved. You are God’s masterpiece and part of the beauty of our world. Please be strong. Your story isn’t over yet.

[@JoshLaF]

Thank you so much 😭I just need to make it to Monday and then I meet my dietician I’ve been turned away by multiple GP’s because of my normal BMI despite my undereating for the last year and it makes me so much more demoralized

[@JoshLaF]

Elzani is my reason to recover I miss being a foodie

[@lia-vg7wq]

There is no such thing as "too prepared". Whether you're not prepared, a little, or too prepared, it's STILL a huge step forward & it's STILL recovery. Remember that anorexia isn't a specific body type or the amount you eat. Anorexia is anorexia. I was still anorexic when I ate 1,500 calories as I was when I ate 400. Your recovery is valid no matter what, how much you eat, if you relapse, etc etc.

[@Snickerdoods.x]

I have anorexia and I eat "enough" every day. More than you lol. Restriction is subjective. Well I'm recovering now so I eat a lot more but in my disorder, I was still eating enough that people thought I was fine. You're "sick enough" to deserve help.

[@susieleyens3641]

Sorry but so irritating...your parents deserve a medal! - yeah baby argh I could scream

[@laurakate4489]

A month of uncomfortably high hair 😖