A (much needed) LIFE UPDATE: My Mental Health, What I'm Doing When I Graduate + No More Vlogs.

[@dan5721]

You look more “sparky”, I don’t know if that is the word, you just look like you are smiling more easily, and it’s really great to see.

[@RevisionWithEve]

aw thank you so much! xx

[@issyg9370]

Also the disassociation thing too! I find grounding yourself in your environment is really good. Finding one sensory thing to focus on and going through all your senses and reassuring yourself works pretty well. It’s usually the result of uni stress and too much time online for me so whenever it happens I will just shut off for a while, ring home and do something I know I enjoy.

[@adriennesamantha]

I can notice that your confidence when speaking has improved so much xx

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you! x

[@amandamakesstuff1383]

Adrienne Samantha agreed!!

[@sophiecronin8154]

AlWAYS! remember to put your mental and physical health first! I think one of the most amazing aspects of your channel is your honesty and videos like this are so important not just for you but for your subs because it reinforces the message that it is OKAY not to be OKAY! I have just recently had to ask for two extensions on essays and I felt like such a failure especially when people around me seemed to be coping so well and this video has helped me reinforce the importance of putting my health first! I'm sending so much love and support your way!! and Thank you so much for allowing yourself; and in turn allowing others to be human! SO much love Eve xxxxxxx

[@JosueLucasMitte]

This was really nice to watch as it made me feel like I’m not alone and somewhat helpful at the same time. This has been one the worst terms in my life, and with my A-levels fast approaching I just got so worried, as with you, my diet got bad and I basically went on a downward spiral, feeling tired everyday and not getting much done. At the same time, your optimism of moving forward, recognising what you must stop doing along the acknowledgment of perfectionism just also automatically helps me reflect on my life itself. Now that my halfterm has started I plan on getting my life back together. A-levels have and my tiredness have kept me busy so haven’t seen much of your videos recently, but I hope everything goes well in your exams and you keep enjoying your time at Oxford.

[@laurenwhite7961]

So glad you're feeling better Eve! You definitely look better! Keep focusing on feeling better and remember your channel doesn't need to be perfect or updated all the time for us to love you.

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you so much! x

[@i.8231]

so happy that you’re feeling a bit better. journalism would be a great career choice for you eve!! your skin looks amazing btw defo drop a routine.

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you! x

[@megwilliamson3617]

Could you maybe do a chatty style vid about dealing with mental health at Uni specifically? - I relate A LOT and would love to know your thoughts/advice etc. xx

[@user-ub8oi7oh3r]

Please could you post some videos about revision techniques you found most useful in your actual exam? Like reviewing your alevel revision techniques in hindsight?

[@RevisionWithEve]

omgggg this is such a good idea i can do!

[@user-ub8oi7oh3r]

Eve Bennett yay Thankyou so much, everything I’m doing right now seems futile and I feel like I’m not revising in a good way

[@fatma-zahra]

I would love to see revision techniques you now see as futile/didn’t find so useful?

[@RevisionWithEve]

yes good idea i can do!

[@MayMay-jy9mr]

I could so see you doing like stacey-dooley-style documentaries too

[@RevisionWithEve]

omg that would be so fun!

[@megan82345]

really appreciate how honest you were about everything in this video! and so glad that you're feeling a little bit better. hoping everything continues to go well and get better for you xx

[@brogantatexo]

It was so nice to see you on Tuesday! You are just like me in terms of trying to ‘do it all’ and caring too much about what people think...can relate a lot, especially with KZbin etc. So glad you’re finding your feet and recognising what takes priority, the Journalism route sounds exciting! Good luck with your exams m’love, until the next event! (Maybe SitC?) xxx

[@RevisionWithEve]

Brogan Tate lovely to see you too! Big love - yes sitc! X

[@vicgreer5561]

hearing you talk about dissociation is honestly the craziest thing cause that’s exactly how i feel- i’ve realised recently that i must have always experienced it but once you’ve noticed it, it takes over your entire headspace idk xo

[@adria439]

So glad you're feeling better!! I would love some posts on finding motivation, I struggle with depression so finding motivation to study is super hard for me

[@oliviamacrobbie9444]

I’m so glad you’re feeling better! What you’re going through is definitely normal for first year uni students. It takes a while to find a good balance between study/life, and everyone looks like they have it figured out, but really no one does haha

[@StarGazingify]

Olivia Mafloy I’m in my 3rd year and still haven’t quite figured out any sort of balance 🤣

[@elizabethdale9018]

so happy to hear you're feeling better!!

[@turnerrebeccaa]

So glad you’ve started to feel better and taken time to look after yourself. Your goals for the future sound so great and something I could see you doing, Eve x

[@LittleArtisticNook]

Love the update, you are such a real, down-to-earth person and share life as it happens! So awesome you’re thinking about journalism, there’s so much you can do in that field, especially with your studying other languages, you could travel and report the news or even be a translator! I hope they figure out what’s making you ill, being physically ill, whether an allergy or something else can really weigh on your mental health and it’s understandable you had a bit of a low time! I know it’s not easy as a KZbinr putting ourselves out there but try to not let the negative folks get to you, keep strong and take care of you for that’s who matters most, not the negative folks! You’re amazing and just so inspirational! Hang in there, Eve! 💛

[@Mark-xg1if]

Honestly your KZbin would be an amazing resume for being a Journalist I mean 1) you have the younger audience’s attention which is huge today 2) your a very confident person on camera and 3) your Skilled in several areas due to having to make thumbnails, Record, write and edit yourself

[@TPerry2828]

You're absolutely right to put your health first, you look and sound much chirpier!

[@martynasragauskaite8504]

Been watching you for ages!!! It’s been incredible seeing your progress since your GCSE days and I absolutely loved this inspiring video.

[@RevisionWithEve]

thanks so much !

[@LeighAnneMarie]

Journalism sounds like a great fit for you! Love your honest reflection on how filming every day affected you. Glad you were able to adjust and prioritize your mental health!

[@GlamBySam]

great you're being so honest Eve! 💓

[@RevisionWithEve]

:) x

[@adriennesamantha]

You have become so much more like an adult since going to Oxford!! You seem so mature now xx

[@RevisionWithEve]

ahhh that means a lot!

[@sophy_lophy]

Absolutely brilliant to see you feeling and doing better. You've got to prioritise your own well being and do what's right for you, keeping shining queen

[@alexisd8190]

I am so glad that you are focusing more on your well-being Eve. You definitely seem more upbeat and happy lately!

[@user-jc1is9eq7u]

I'm glad to see you're doing better! If it's any consolation, the first year of uni in general was very disorienting and unhealthy for a lot of people I knew too - it is definitely a lot calmer and more stable in second year when everybody understands more how to balance their life etc.

[@mochijimin4895]

I totally relate to the giving up thing! I'm in year 13 currently and up until a month ago i was doing biology, chemistry, physics and maths a-levels, but i decided to drop physics. It honestly crushed me to drop physics because I had worked so hard to get a half decent grade thus far, and i was so convinced that i was going to do 4 alevels, and all in all it felt like dropping it was giving up and i simply dont like giving up. It honestly made me feel so sick inside that i was even considering dropping and i had numerous breakdowns during the process (in front of my parents, my physics teacher, head of sixth form, all on different occassions). But now i know it was the best decision i could have made because having to do so much work was stressing me out beyond compare, especially when i could see my friends who were only doing 3 subjects having time to do extra revision and such whereas i was barely keeping afloat. A few weeks prior to dropping i had got an offer from cambridge, which has been my dream for years, and because of the high grades i needed to get in every subject but physics, it felt stressful and unnecessary. I feel much more secure and less stressed now, even though i realistically know i could have done 4 a-levels. I'm glad youre feeling better now! I'm looking forward to revision videos and i hope everything goes well in your prelims! 💙

[@elenabonacini9267]

So happy to see your genuine smile back, Eve! Looking forward to more videos (not vlogs) about your Oxford life during Trinity. I am holding a conditional offer to study at Ox next year and it feels like catching a glimpse of my future life watching your videos! Thank you for the energy and time that goes into this!

[@robertamcdonnell3205]

Eve, you’re a very inspiring girl and I wish you all the best. Well done on managing all those pressures. With dissociation May I mention a few tips? No need to fight it, it’s a mechanism just trying to protect you. Let it flow in and away, it lessens in time; meanwhile direct your attention onto stuff you love and that ‘lights you up’ (there’s a book by an inspirational woman whose name escapes me at the moment). I can testify this works. Thanks again for all your efforts 🙂🙏

[@maddie_644]

Aw Eve, you are doing so much better than you think. Even if you are struggling a bit, things will improve. Stress is a crazy thing and you can only do as much as you can. Best of luck for exams. Xx

[@Laura-bk6es]

I was worried about you eve! you have a light in your eyes again and I'm so happy to see you that ! Take care of yourself!

[@BethanieJohnsonTV]

Hope you work out what’s going on with your physical health! Also it sounds like a great idea to stick to sit down videos rather than vlogs, your updates are my favourite videos anyway! I’m in my first year at uni too and I have NO idea how you managed to vlog everyday. Have a great Easter break x

[@Maryyyyannee]

I loved this video because it's rare to see youtubers being so real, especially study youtubers! And there were so many relatable bits there as well. And I think that doing what's best for you is undoubtly the right choice! xx

[@jessflynn2444]

Eve!! I’m honestly so proud of you it’s crazy. You look amazing and I’m so happy that you realised you needed that break because you look like a different person. It’s so great to see you smiling and having that spark back in your eyes!💓 love you xxx

[@davidhill8163]

you are doing so well and Uni is a major life change.

[@shreya5301]

Wonderful, I'm really happy that your mental health has improved. Your videos are inspiring for loads of high achievers/young people struggling with mental health too :)

[@sandrex1978]

Hi Eve. Your vlogs were great and maybe too real for some. Don't worry about about carrying about what people commented all of do and the negative ones tend to stick. A lot of student life is about exploring, maybe drinking bit much and eating poorly or not sleeping much. Now you know it doesn't work for you will adapt. Keep your post, I loved them and I felt connected with you. Because didn't hide what wasn't perfect I watched without getting bored. Good luck with your revision

[@sophiehowarth8540]

You look sooooo much better! It’s so great to see! It’s like old happy Eve is back! Focus on you, you are more important than uni, KZbin etc. If vloging makes you feel pants then don’t do it! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[@AmberWoodMusicx]

I'm really glad you're taking care of yourself and taking a step back from vlogging completely! I have derealisation constantly and it's not easy x

[@sophiej4345]

I never really comment but I just want to know that I adore your channel, you as a person and relate to you so much. I'm so happy you're feeling a bit better. Please carry on taking time for yourself and doing what's best for YOU x

[@tgwtg9428]

I haven't been watching a lot of you lately (or any other youtubers, uni has gotten me so busy!) but I follow you on Twitter and I'm so happy to see that you're feeling much better! Sending you love x

[@bunstiftno1]

it is really good to see that you are feeling better! I totally get how documenting your life everyday can be very stressful.. I really liked the vlogs, but I also like chilled study or sit down videos as well. I will just look forward to whatever you upload, whatever makes you feel comfortable and good I will enjoy! I hope you have a great rest of the holiday and hopefully a not too stressful exam season!

[@LilyMaus98]

Even through I‘m a bit sad that there will be no more daily vlogs I can totally relate! Just do what makes you happy and what helps you to have less stress! 😊

[@crisscross897]

Girl you are so suited for journalism. Literally couldn't think of anything better now you've said that.

[@emilyg2]

So glad you’re feeling better Eve. Can’t wait for more study content! Hope you continue to feel better xxx

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you! xxx

[@louisebewick8608]

So glad you're feeling better. I struggle with caring too much about what other people think too. X

[@annikaa.3854]

I would love to see more uni related study videos because I'm sure that you also have a lot of watchers who already go to uni! xx

[@Ams_lee]

Hi Eve I love these chatty , catch up videos and I’m glad your doing better 🙂 , good luck with everything you will do well no matter what - Amy

[@Eliza-anisiltireach]

I’m glad you’re feeling somewhat better! Don’t worry too much about your life habits and whatnot that went wrong last term. You (we, I’m only a 25 yo postgrad myself) are so young and just looking for ways to live life in a way that balances everything, and suits you. I haven’t had as many issues with time management (although the perfectionist in me always thinks I could have studied more), because I’m not much of a party-goer (which made me judge you, but as soon as I had those judgy thoughts I felt guilty; sorry for even thinking them), but I’ve struggled in other parts, e.g. spending money wisely. We all struggle :) anyway, I did want to say: you be you, just go on your intuition and feeling. It might still be a good idea to look for the Oxford uni counselling service. Not because you’re that bad mentally, but because just a few sessions can make you feel a 100 times better, I say that from experience! Chin up and onwards!

[@floraice11]

Journalism is perfect for you! I totally agree with your decision to stop the vlogs, social media is a powerful tool but it can also be so insidious at the same time. I deleted Instagram six months ago and haven’t looked back since, I can’t imagine what it’s been like for you being in the public eye basically 7 days a week. Honestly if there’s one good thing out of the vlogs it’s that it’s made me get over my own Oxford rejection, irony of ironies. I definitely couldn’t function under the pressure you describe in your vlogs, I’m always marveling at how you’ve made it through the week at the end of it and I’m always throughly glad that I didn’t get in. I really do think Oxford are insane, trying to shorten their terms like that’ll increase their rep while killing their students to do it. Keep doing what you’re doing Eve, it definitely sounds like you’re headed in the right direction ❤️❤️❤️

[@laurashaze]

love seeing this smile on your face

[@Sabrina-le6we]

Your skin is glowing omg especially on your cheeks 😍

[@beckytodd2991]

can you do a video on how to get work experience positions. getting itv and sky news in one summer is honestly incredible

[@d_a7476]

I loved this video it was so honest and i love that about you .You're quite honest with your subscribers !! . . . . The thing is that people need to understand and it's not just with you Eve, it's with any other youtuber tbh that , if you really like the youtuber you wouldn't do the thing's that makes them uncomfortable especially when they've opened up about it . e.g you said people criticising your life choices gets to you ... so why are people doing it ?? i really don't understand ... i'm not talking about haters .. i'm taking about people who consider themselves real followers or fans etc .... why do that? The message is THINK BEFORE YOU TYPE people!!

[@timtim2247]

I'm happy you're feeling better I love you girl ♡

[@maisie2827]

glad you're feeling better eve! I know starting uni is definitely a difficult transition for most people xx

[@MsBlue68]

Take care of yourself and your health. You'll be great at whatever you choose to do in life. Don't worry about other people. Focus on yourself. X

[@xanthe5103]

So glad you're feeling better Eve, you look it too! Hope your exams and work experience go well, good luck! Enjoy your Billy Joel concert and Easter break, love you! xxxxxxx

[@davidsweeney111]

Eve, When experience no longer has the power to overwhelm you then you can say you have control over your mental health, best wishes :)

[@3Chloeee]

Glad you're feeling lots better. I am doing a similar course and its' absolutely intense and I have had similar terms. Take lots of self-care lovely x

[@nancystitt1364]

Wow I think you would be such an amazing journalist!! So glad you are feeling better xxx

[@arifathawer8262]

Eve!! It is so nice to see you are getting better 😊❤️ No matter what happens I will always support you and I just want the best for you. Good luck for exams 🍀

[@philippaettrick7012]

It would be great to have a revision video for the last few weeks of A levels...what you did, how you coped with stress etc! ❤️❤️Also, so happy that you're in a better way than you were last term!!!

[@elenahouston3628]

so glad you're doing better eve!!

[@miriamnc429]

It's true, Eve, you look so much better! I hope that everything keeps going well ❤ Tu acento español ha mejorado mucho 😍

[@sophiehutchins]

Eve, you have really changed for the better. I’m so proud that you have realised that you had a problem and are track with solutions to the problems. I’m also kind of glad that you no longer daily vlog, specifically on nights out, because of the flashing lights (I have photosensitive epilepsy) and because I have C-PTSD and a huge part of that is because of pubs etc. I’m glad that you no longer do them so much 🙈😂

[@Laureo262]

I love your complaining, shows you're still human Eve

[@bethanyleigh9691]

Glad you are on the road to recovery Eve ! Xx

[@kimtassen4938]

I'm so glad you're fine again!You're only human Eve you're doing great (and you don't need me or anyone else to tell you so I'll stop) and I'm looking forward to your next videos ❤❤🌹

[@roshnisundar5036]

May I just say....your skin is GLOWING 🤩Beautiful inside and out! ❤️❤️❤️been supporting u since 2016 🌸🌸

[@user-by2bu3pv4e]

Just as I was needing something to watch...perfect timing

[@RevisionWithEve]

woop!

[@user-by2bu3pv4e]

@@RevisionWithEve shook

[@sanavalli4299]

Love you evereee ur amazing dobt worry about us do what’s best for you xxxx

[@RitaSilva-mc2yh]

My request is for you to be happy!! that's the most important thing

[@lucyc7066]

I’m a young leader at Brownies and a member of the senior section/ rangers and was so happy when I found out u used to be part of it too!

[@ainsley5468]

im glad you are doing better, good luck on your exams and i cant wait for your new videos!

[@oneirataxia]

i can’t watch the video rn bc i’m busy but i hope you’re doing well! 💗

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you! x

[@kelseythompson2417]

Honestly those vlogs were hard to watch we care about u eve let KZbin take a back seat and upload when u can 💗💗💗

[@haidian1322]

I can see you being a great journalist! It actually does fit you very well (well, at least for the little we know about you, it looks like it does)

[@issykite1965]

Love your videos and glad to see you looking happier and healthier ❤️❤️

[@aliciaraybould6891]

Glad you had a good night last night eve! Can’t wait to watch this update x

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you! x

[@aliciaraybould6891]

Eve Bennett 💓💓

[@kellydavies2499]

Would love to know more about what doing two languages at oxford is like, what kind of stuff you do and what you think about it x

[@sofiaolivia8676]

Glad you're doing well! I'm not sure if this helps you but it hope it does! You may be having a bad day, but not a bad life. ❤️

[@Ruby-jm4no]

you're looking reallly good eve x

[@adriennesamantha]

Yaaaaayy. Didn't realise I needed this video until now. Hope all is well Eve!! 💖💖💜💜 Please do a video about your routine for revising A Level Languages xx

[@ellienixon8971]

So pleased you loved the work experience! I've been trying to get work experience with sky - I've been there a couple of times to see what goes on for like day things but I would love to go into their coding / tech stuff. Would a real time study with me be possible as I find those really help when I don't have much motivation. It's good that you took some time for yourself though. I'm going through a similar thing health wise and I would be the same with not wanting to cancel anything! ❤️

[@tilly6995]

I’m so glad to see you feeling happier and better and more YOU x

[@pollydowdlepolly]

You seem so much more yourself in this video! Do what's best for you :)

[@MizzSparkle90]

Don’t worry what people think! It’s on THEM, not you 💕

[@jadelauren2269]

As a journalism graduate I majorly approve of your desired career path! Best of luck for the future ❤️

[@shash1331]

thank u eve, for everything

[@kensey5133]

uni really f*ks us all up tbh. but bedsides that you look so great!

[@chillithestew1084]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ You Eve........... WE are always with you!!!!

[@sadiecharmaine2582]

I love your daily vlogs I hope you bring them back maybe just ever so often

[@oliviamoynihan3185]

Think I'm watching the next Laura kuenssburg😉 Can't wait to see where your career takes you xx

[@euge9330]

I´m glad you are feeling better :3

[@lottesmed3683]

The bottle of wine on your night stand is definitely a mood

[@ellacohen4300]

I love this video and how honest you are xx

[@RevisionWithEve]

thank you so much!

[@AddittiAgrawal]

yes! loving this update :)