So... Where Have I Been? An Honest Chat.

[@uaimen3990]

one like is one hug for Eve! xxx *sending hugs*

[@Andrea-mu8ee]

How can I like unlimited times??? 😢😢😢

[@charlesblack1213]

I will get back to you

[@laurenpreston9702]

“Someone who drowns in 7 feet of water is just as dead as someone who drowns in 20 feet of water” One of the hardest parts for me with my mental health was comparing myself to others and feeling like I’m not ill enough to receive help but I promise you, that’s far from true. Mental health has been the hardest thing I’ve been through and will probably be the hardest thing I will ever have to go through. I’ve been diagnosed with BPD, OCD, depression and adjustment disorder. It’s so difficult because the one thing that makes us humans (our mind, personality and consciousness etc) is what mental illness takes away. I was barely recognisable at my worst, almost a shell of a person. In terms of education, it’s cliché but mental health comes first. By the time I finish university I will be 2 years behind my year group. And that was hard to deal with considering the first thing people saw me for was my academic ability. I’ve just finished sixth form after 3 years and to be honest I never thought I would have been able to get to this point. My mental health has been at its worst throughout my time at sixth form: I had 2 admissions to a psychiatric unit and my mental illnesses quite frankly almost killed me on multiple occasions. And coming to the end I am so glad I still fought to get my a levels despite everything. Sure I’m only going to have 2 and the grades are nowhere near what my past self would have been capable of but now I know that that’s irrelevant because I survived and that’s all that matters. Wow this comment turned into an essay and a half. I do apologise!! You’re so brave for posting this and I really hope things get easier for you. Just know that things can and will get better, I’m living proof of that x

[@aishahsiddeeqa8311]

Lauren Preston I use the exact same quote to remind myself not to minimise my own struggles

[@savannahstanislaus3441]

Keep shinning 💜💜💜

[@vishtandel9734]

❤️❤️❤️

[@booluther]

As someone whose struggled with their mental health for years, including having to drop out of university because of it, my biggest advice to everyone is going to see the GP. It took me years to finally admit to myself that I needed medication. Having now been on it for several years I wish I’d done it sooner! The stigma around anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication sucks.

[@AmberWoodMusicx]

I tried sertraline during uni and now have Tourettes :) always worth trying but can be traumatising. I agree that lots of people need it to keep safe and function but also it can make you not function and things aren't always fully tackled. but I am all for trying it

[@ChocolateKittenx]

Amber Wood I’m sorry to hear that! x But people do try medication if you think you need it! xxxx

[@stella9caro7]

Amber Wood Yeah right. I would much rather try therapy than medication. I know so many people who take anti-depressants and the only thing that it's done is make their life miserable. If you don't change your mindset and coping mechanisms, etc. medication cannot save you.

[@LiveFreeAndLoveNSN]

@@stella9caro7mental health issues are sometimes so bad that you can't 'just change your mindset'. I study psychology and from what I've learnt about treatments for mental illnesses is that yes, medication can be the easiest and sometimes best form of treatment. But it is a combination of cognitive behavioural therapy as well as medication! Certain treatments work better for others and affect us differently!

[@YouTubechannel-fb9yd]

booluther my GP is useless so...

[@hhughes9465]

I think your hair looks really pretty!! I wouldn't worry about it too much :)

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank u x

[@MollyThompsonx_]

Proud of you always & love you so much💗

[@bobf1267]

I don't think you should feel like you owe us anything. The majority of your viewers understand the difficulty of life, and whilst it's appreciated, you shouldn't feel pressure to say anything because ultimately everyone wants what's best for you. It's very sad to hear what happened to you but I'm glad you're on track to getting better.

[@daisuki_coco]

lol are u a boy

[@elsamaunganidze]

@@daisuki_cocowho cares if they're a boy or a girl??

[@caitparker1603]

@@daisuki_coco what does that comment even mean? What's the point LOL

[@blackcats2003]

It is sad that there is a stigma around mental health and talking about mental health, especially when talking about it is more of a thing that girls/women do it more then boys/men do

[@slickjumpedoverthelazydog]

Yes I understand Eve

[@biancagillam8945]

As a former Oxford student, I really really sympathise. I'd never really struggled with my mental health to the extent that I did when I was there. The combination of constant deadlines, constant pressure to do well, and constant criticism if you don't, is very very difficult to deal with for a young person, especially when none of that gives you time to relax and de-stress. I used to feel guilty even taking half a day off because it would put me so behind on my work. The mentality there of 'unless you're actually dying, you must do your work' is so so unhealthy, and I think it's one of the biggest reasons why students there have bigger problems with mental health issues than any other university in the UK. It made me feel like I had to somehow glue myself together and get through even at my absolute worst moments, because I wasn't allowed to fall apart. I had a very similar journey to you with mental health in my first year and my heart goes out to you. There are lots of support groups for women at the university on facebook -- if you want me to add you to any of them let me know :).

[@charlottehardman3669]

I’m having to hold back tears watching this, because I know exactly how you feel Eve. I also started at Oxford in October (I actually saw you on matriculation day, but I didn’t have the guts to say hi!)- I was doing English at Wadham, and found the whole experience to be utterly horrific. My mental health declined so severely over the first 6 weeks of Michaelmas, to the point where I wasn’t sleeping, wasn’t eating, and I was barely leaving my room, crying all the time and feeling constantly anxious. In the end, I decided to leave Oxford as it wasn’t the right place for me to be, and it wasn’t worth putting myself through all of that for the sake of a degree that my heart wasn’t in to begin with. I know how unbelievably tough an environment the Oxford sphere can be Eve, I hope you’re doing better now xx

[@elliecassidy9496]

Look after yourself this summer, Eve. You are so wonderful for carrying on through such a tough year. Lots of love xx

[@erinh1513]

This feels like an OG Eve Bennett style video sat in your bedroom and I am here for it!💗 Hope your ok Eve, we all support you

[@RevisionWithEve]

It’s nice to be back! X

[@maiakershaw7324]

Girl no!! Your hair looks lovely there’s no need to apologise💕

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you!! X

[@maneskinnnnn7190]

all she said in this video, and all people comment on is her hair?!

[@ALice-mp4rp]

@@maneskinnnnn7190 truuueeee, this is how my fake friends act like when I am trying to explain them sth.

[@hhughes9465]

Any video of yours is a blessing, but your mental health should always take priority over youtube and your subscribers 💕 don't ever hesitate to take a break from yt if that's what you need x

[@RevisionWithEve]

Big love x

[@mayas6574]

Definetly maybe she can get counselling or therapy at Oxford, I hope she is okay uni is stresffull

[@user-ub8oi7oh3r]

I’ve basically been live commenting but hearing you say “I’m gonna be proud of my results no matter what” makes me so so happy, I know you’re still struggling but this just is showing how much you’re grown and that you have many happy days ahead!

[@jessicalauren4953]

Honestly one of the hardest things about mental health is realising that even though people may have it “harder” than you, doesn’t mean that your problems or issues have any less value ❤️ it has taken me a while to come to that realisation and honestly hands up to you for posting this raw and honest video, sending love

[@whitewinewiththefish6306]

Danke für das ehrliche Video! Diese Ehrlichkeit in Bezug auf psychische Probleme ist so wichtig! Werde gesund, kümmere Dich um Dich und genieße den Sommer. Ich wünsche Dir alles gute für Deinen Weg! Du schaffst das und ich hoffe Du fühlst Dich bald besser!

[@tahanimyra3588]

1. Your hair looks beautiful and so do you and those eyebrows are PENG. 2. Don’t ever feel like you have to be tell us why you took a break. It’s your channel, and whatever you do we’re here to support you. 3. Your mental health comes first ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is ask for help and acknowledge that you’re not ok. And leaving school makes you realise who’s gonna actually be there for you in the long-run. But there’s also people who will be there for you and want the best for you who make those other people don’t matter. Ive lost people from school and that I’ve known for YEARS.....but I also gained the most supportive people during that time. We all go through difficult points in our life and it’s all about how to cope with it. You’re doing amazing Eve, thank you for being honest with us and congrats on completing your exams!❤️ Enjoy your holidays! You deserve it. From a fellow worrier/warrior.

[@Faith-sr8zw]

Taking control of your mental health is different for everyone but at the end of the day it comes from within and that's the most painful but STRENGTHENING thing I promise you. Love you girl x

[@RosieCrawford]

I'm so proud of you for getting help and also for sharing this and showing people that it's okay not to be okay. I wish I could hug you rn and I'm so sorry I couldn't give you my time in Trinity bc I was my own stress ball ❤❤❤

[@RevisionWithEve]

Big love x

[@laurenwhite7961]

Thank you so much for sharing this Eve, this couldn’t have been easy to talk about. Please don’t compare your struggle to others by the way! You are allowed to have lows and feel awful without having to justify it as “other people have it worse.” You are amazing and I’m so happy to see you on the mend. Hope you have an amazing summer 💛

[@katemorrison1944]

Hey Eve You are so brave for posting this video- I admire you for being able to admit that you don’t have to be perfect as that takes some serious strength. Keep on going- I know how harsh mental health can be when it gets to you. You’ve got this girl ❤️

[@ameena6485]

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[@coreyiscursed]

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[@kourtneykindle661]

So happy you're back!! and your hair looks fab tbh! xxx

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you!

[@rose_b2938]

So proud of you for getting through these tough times, we support you whatever you choose to do. It is so hard to admit things to ourselves sometimes but you are so strong. Have an amazing holiday x

[@itsjustem8227]

Thank you so much for sharing- I am about to start year 13 and have been watching your videos for a while, and not that I would want you to ever feel lo this, but it’s reassuring to know that even the strongest people can struggle and it’s not a weakness. I hope you have an awesome summer and break, v well earned, and year 2 isn’t ready for the come back of Eve! 💛

[@corincan2098]

Appreciate you being so honest. On a lighter note - you hair and skin are glowingggg🤩xx

[@lydiavioleta_]

So much love 💞

[@hannahm5572]

It takes so much strength to ask for help when you’re struggling, and I’m honesty incredibly proud of you for doing so. Sending you lots of love and I hope you have the fantastic summer that you deserve! 💕

[@katgerasimenko8800]

I also relate to university friends being really there for you. In my experience, my university friends SAVED me and were so supportive and there for me in more ways than I can count. I'm so glad you had that support as well.

[@gracewaterlilly8023]

It feels so unreal to watch this video and feeling like you're telling MY story. I am going thrugh similar things from what I can take from the video. Thank you for sharing, I hope you will find strenght to hold on and get better. Love

[@katherinesmith5534]

I just wanted to take the time to say I am so proud of you for reaching out and getting the help, the most difficult stage of recovery is admitting you need help! It's onwards and upwards from here Eve

[@hannahcaitriley]

Eve, I completely understand you. I just finished my GCSEs and revision didn’t feel possible because my mental health was so low. I have anxiety and I know that my exams have not gone as well as my parents want but I could only do what was good for me. Try to stay smiling because it will get better and grades don’t define you xx

[@aoife7025]

Thank you for sharing it and no matter what happens you’ll always be an incredible role model. Especially after this video where you have showed that nobody is perfect and everybody goes through problems and struggles, it’s just about how you penultimately deal with them.

[@hannahmae6535]

You are so so strong. Take each day as it comes, I completely understand what it feels like, keep going, you’ve got this girl 💛

[@chloestanfield8736]

I admire your bravery to share this online, Eve. I went through a similar situation with my mental health during A Level exams last year. I relate to you a lot as I have always been academic and had high expectations for myself, so I understand how it comes as a shock to people around you. I'm pleased to hear that you're receiving help and I'm looking forward to see all your exciting holiday photos/videos! xxx

[@KalishkaRuby]

I’ve only recently come across your channel and this video has resonated with me so much. I have had a lot of problems this year as well and it was only when I double failed an exam (having never failed anything before) that I finally asked for help. It’s a long slow journey but I feel so much better already and although nothing is fixed yet I’m working on it and taking time for myself. My biggest thing is trying not to feel selfish for needing to take time out for some self-care and recharge but we’re all working on ourselves together and I am so glad that you are on a more positive journey now

[@rachelhill7486]

This was so brave of u to post. I really relate to the struggles you mentioned in its video and hope you're OK xx

[@immyc4417]

This is so brave of you! You should be SO incredibly proud of yourself! You owe no one an explanation but it is inspirational that you have done this! I hope you are ok and you are getting in control we are all here for you!

[@meaganharrington8287]

i love you you're a true inspiration. not academically - you're the kind of person i aspire to be. smile kiddo, you're doing fab

[@heatherflorence124]

You’re doing so well- hearing you discuss mental health makes me feel better and less alone with my own anxiety which is so important. You’re probably one of the realest influencers i follow and I’m so grateful that you’re willing to take care of yourself through breaks when you need them ❤️ I’m starting A-levels in September so I obviously don’t know that much about uni but please please please take time for you and relax this summer! Xx

[@k__d1682]

I’ve been in a very similar situation this year... Started uni in September and I’ve just felt like crap since, constantly wanted to just drop out, ive struggled with my mental health, struggled to make friends and literally cried every night at uni, it’s awful. I seriously struggled during exams.. and failed one, something I’ve never done before as I’ve always been an academic person, so that wasn’t easy. I’ve realized my home “friends” aren’t really my friends and yea.. just hoping this years uni goes better

[@Em-jn2ky]

I've had a similar experience of first year. It's hard when everyone says uni will be your best days but your experience is so far from that. Hope second year goes better for you!

[@isobelwood9340]

Hi! I had the same, I struggled so much when I went to uni in September and it never really got better for me. I was on medication and was coming home all the time, and eventually just at Easter I decided I needed to commute as if got so bad and I wasnt looking after myself at all. It was definitely the best for me but it is hard when it didnt go the way you expected and you dont make as many friends. But I promise it will get better, whatever way it happens for you. Do what is right for you, it is so so liberating. And in a few years, will you regret it? If no, then go for it! Weigh up the pros and cons and do what is right for you. The fact that you think next year will be better is so amazing and shows you have hope! Keep going!

[@WeepingWill0w]

I truly hope you’re in a happier and healthier situation just now, whether you’re at university or not. Your health comes first, even if people all around you are very skeptical or judgemental of mental illness. That’s THEIR problem, not yours! You know that mental illness is as real and as debilitating as any physical illness, so please believe in yourself and your own self worth, and seek help. If you don’t get adequate help from the first person you speak to, please please keep on asking for help. This applies to anyone reading this comment. Don’t give up on getting help - it’s the most important thing you’ll ever do. Sending love, x

[@em8842]

Wow, what you just described is exactly how I've been feeling and how I always start feeling when I'm in a bad place. I've never heard anyone describe it so spot on: The constant extreme worrying, trying to talk about it but also trying to not admit (to other people or yourself) that you aren't on top of it, feeling annoying and overly dramatic, feeling like you're not in control, being scared of how you're feeling, inability to concentrate, feeling like you should be happy but you're not, your brain feeling loud somehow, beating yourself up about everything all the time, all of those things. My brain feels weirdly itchy or like it's filled with static and I can't turn it off. In the past, these feelings were what made me self harm to try to feel in control and to silence all the noise etc. Thankfully I've got better coping mechanisms to turn to now.

[@daniellaageh1428]

Literally feel the same way right now. My mental health has been a huge problem for me this whole year and it has caused bad outcomes. Knowing this makes me feel less alone. Thank you for this 💕💕

[@hollyplater3215]

Hi Eve, As someone who has experienced something similar in the past, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I have always felt that my identity is one defined by grades and academia as it is my clearest "talent" and a topic that I could easily channel all of my energies into. For so long, I worked myself into the ground for the same reasons as you - the desire for control and a feeling of being ungrateful and wasting an education that so many people are deprived of. I couldn't understand why I was stuck in a rut that was too deep to climb out of when I should have all the resources I needed. I remember feeling so powerless to almost feel robbed of my brain, the one asset I was defined by. And of course, each person is independent but one of the things that have helped me most was hypnotherapy. My mind kept wavering but this was the one thing my brain could centre on and feel some sense of achievement from doing very little. Also, I constantly felt like I was wasting time by being down but from my experiences, and seemingly yours also, you find your closest friends and a far greater understanding of what's important. You are so strong and such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story: not only to educate us about mental health but to normalise and allow others to accept and come to terms with the same issues. You are never alone. Love, Holly.

[@aimeecochrane2256]

I'm also studying in Oxford and honestly the way you explained this is so so accurate. It's amazing that you've actually shown that things in Oxford aren't always so easy. People allude to the fact that the workload is hard but it's more the fact that you can't afford to struggle in any other aspect of life because term just keeps moving on. I'm so glad LMH have such an amazing welfare system (Pembroke probably could learn a lot from you guys, and I was welfare rep last year). Just watching this video made me feel so much better because I had such a similar experience with not being able to properly work for exams due to personal circumstances and the temptation to suspend is so much. Am really glad that you are coming out of the worst of it and I really hope your second year is fantastic !

[@RevisionWithEve]

I hope you’re doing better now! And thank you x

[@Erin-lc4zm]

I can resonate to so many of the thing you've said, thank you for doing this. I reached out a year and a half ago now and like you said it is the most freeing thing. What you said about ppl waiting for u and being like I knew, I specifically remember when I first did talk to someone (a counsellor at school) she was like its pretty apparent that at this point you've admitted there is a problem and you need help telling people and i vividly remember her saying that 'the people at home will be relieved because they will know somethings been wrong and they'll just be happy your getting help' and i had a conversation with my mom that night after she'd called her and she was like i knew something was wrong but couldn't help if you werent open to admitting it. Its really helped me to hear you say these things, you're so brave. Thank you

[@onlinebels]

taking life at a pace that is suitable for you is not failing, it'll save you in the long run removing the pressure of feeling like everything must be taken on at once and completed at once. you've got this

[@Courtney-gq6so]

Thank you so much for sharing this. You don't understand how many people this will help. And you will get better Eve, well done for getting help. I've gone through something similar this year and all of those realisations are hard but you're going to be okay ❤

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you! X

[@RC-vb7by]

I know it’s in you to be a revising machine, but honestly I’ve just done my a levels and revised an average amount, I think I have met my target grades and my mental health is good. Just remember that grades and academic performance aren’t the end of the world

[@sy8112]

Do you have any tips for a level I'm kinda like Eve in the sense of being a revising machine and I really wanna find a balance

[@rachaelmcc3945]

awe thatscute if you can start early that’s helpful! Make a realistic timetable but make sure that it is as flexible as possible to avoid putting loads of pressure on yourself. Go to bed at your usual time and try to avoid late night revision or all nighters, they’re not helpful in the long run. Make sure to take regular breaks (I did the 20 mins ten min break method) and leave time for doing nothing. Little and often is key. If you feel yourself getting stressed remove yourself from your work space for as long as it takes for you to calm down. Don’t compare yourself and never revise in an anxious headspace. Know that it will be over soon and you’ll be completely fine whatever happens! Good luck and enjoy your last year xxx

[@sy8112]

@@rachaelmcc3945 thank you so much!

[@josephw8662]

@@sy8112 I've just finished mine and honestly it's much more about mindset rather than quantity of revision. Stay positive, believe in yourself and never overthink it - worst case scenario it's a setback of a year or so which is negligible when you look at a whole lifetime ahead. It's not a dead end so to speak if you don't get your goal - it's just a new pathway.

[@rachael5651]

LFC 2001 set a time in the evening based on when you go to bed, to just stop work. For me, I don’t go to bed until early hours of the morning so after 9pm, no matter how much work is done that day, I would stop all work and just chill that evening. Don’t worry about any hours you think you’ve wasted, there’s nothing you can do, you can’t look back, just focus on what you can do. Good luck xx

[@emmahibberd294]

Aww Eve, I relate to this so much!. I’ve just finished my degree and I didn’t enjoy it to the fullest. It’s great that someone has been honest about the effects that doing a degree has on you. I also have felt let down by the friends that say they are always there for you and then never show it. I think I am so career focused because of the lack of friends I have now. Hope things get better for you soon, and you get the help and support that you need xxx

[@ilikeavocados6636]

Ok now I'm watching the video, eve honestly I know this is really hard to hear, but it will get better. As you were talking I literally felt like you were telling my past two years. For me, things that helped (because I don't like asking for help, I prefer self healing) were meditation (my favourite app is stop, breathe, think), bullet journaling and with anxiety and worrying (which I have seriously struggled with) it helps to run or exercise to get rid of unnecessary energy. Obviously these things don't help when you're at your lowest but on the road to recovery these helped me. Just remember for everyone that everything, even the worst things, happen for a reason. God has a plan for everyone. Things have to get worse before they get better. Everything will be okay in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end. ❤️

[@neurodivergentdawn]

You are amazing Eve. You are an inspiration to so many people, and even more so after this video. I have mental health issues and I had an interruption from university between my first and second year. I have still yet to make progress and even get a diagnosis so I am not sure what to do next year i.e. take another interruption, study part time, or full time again. You aren't alone in juggling university with mental health issues, and sometimes time off is what is needed so don't be ashamed to slow things down if that would be the best thing for your mental health. Mental health can impact so many things in your life, including your physical health, so it should be high in your priority list. I was very high achieving and a perfectionist years ago at school and at the start of university but I am learning to accept that what is best for me may not be the best for someone else, and that I will get to where I want to be in time. There is no rush and life is not all about achievements - learning to enjoy the little things in life and appreciating what you have can work wonders and bring light back into life again. Sometimes slowing down is what is needed to see the light again.

[@daisyjacq9043]

First of all I just want to mention how utterly gorgeous you look! Secondly from being a long-time subscriber I have even noticed the changes myself. Although it has always been clear to see you fighting to be the bubbly and motivational Eve that you are known for, it was never right. Watching your uni vlogs this year was so clear that something was just not right. Im honestly so glad you have reached out for help as that is the hardest thing to do. Being someone (similar to me) that fights being perfect and controlling, constantly putting effort in, for you to admit you need help it just so powerful and brave. I wish you all the best with your future as you've worked so hard for it and your health is a priority know. Good luck and I cannot wait to see more YOU again :)

[@dominik6375]

This is so so so brave of you Eve! During my whole A-Levels I learnt that mental health is not granted and that to be in a bad state of mind is nothing unusual or nothing uncommon. I always thought that to be ill mentally is the same as being crazy and I would have never imagined it to be so easy to loose control over that part of your body, but it is. Therefore I understand all your hesitation and worries before you’ve admitted it to anyone. I never did and I don’t know if I ever will be able to speak out loud, so I think it is so brave of you that you did and I am glad to see that the response it not like you’d imagine it beforehand. I just feel like my problems are minor and that there are people with real mental health issues so I somehow don’t have the right to question my own mental health as well. I always thought that it is stupid of me to feel so low when everything was perfectly fine but it’s like a basement in your brain that you’re trapped in and can’t find the stairs to come back up again... mental health is way more complex than physical health I think..

[@sophbooks2]

Your hair makes you look so mature but in like a good way hahaha ! It looks amazing and you look like a cool young adult x

[@emilywilliams2426]

thank you for being so honest eve, i went through a stage in school where i can really relate to how you are feeling (blaming myself, feeling down and not keeping on top of things) it took me a while to get help but i promise it gets better. As someone i look up to you’ve made me feel so much more less alone xxx

[@user-ub8oi7oh3r]

But have you thought about taking a gap year(medical leave)?I feel like you really really need it, it is what I’m doing for my mental health and I know it’s possible at university. It’s just better to fix it before it gets really bad.

[@kyrajade1765]

you can’t take gap years at oxford

[@user-ub8oi7oh3r]

Kyra Jade yes you can, I’ve seen a KZbinr do it. You can take a medical leave.

[@sarlamurray1909]

Kyra Jade yeah you can my cousin did it

[@lenberry6721]

You can intermit I believe

[@kyrajade1765]

Aaliyah Nashwa not at Oxford they don’t keep your place

[@whoisthisgalx]

I am so proud of you!!! I am so proud that you sat your exams with all of this going on! You are so strong and inspiring, thank you so much for sharing, I relate to a lot of it and you are making a lot of people feel like they're not alone xxx

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you x

[@BorStudios]

A very brave video, Eve. I'm studying law at a university far from Oxbridge level, but the alarming statistics of mental health for university students is ever increasing internationally. I know exactly how you feel about some long-term friends basically abandoning you when something goes terribly wrong. It's also great to hear about the mechanisms in place within your College to deal with these situations, as I've seen many band-aid or 'lip service' solutions. It's important that instead of making mental health and 'wellness' buzzwords, that we actually do something to tackle the issues. PS - your hair looks amazing!

[@RevisionWithEve]

I agree and thank you!

[@abracadabra8501]

I am so glad you are getting help and it's getting better. It's so hard to admit to yourself that not everything is ok, especially if you're used to everything being great. Oxford is a very intense uni, and you may have been putting pressure on yourself to do as well as you did in your GCSEs and A levels. I had similar pressure problems with the jump from GCSE to A level and these last two years for me have been hard as I beat myself up about not being able to be as good as I was at GCSE. The grades I get in August are going to be the ones I get, and I can't change that. Like you, I didn't even think I was able to sit my exams this year and I just felt like a failure. But we, and many other people made it. Keep working at getting better, I spent some months talking with my school counsellor which helped, and now I'm much better. I hope your personal situations resole soon, you have a lovely summer, and have a much more enjoyable second year! lots of love xx

[@roxyb17]

You’re so brave to be doing this Eve, everyone has a time in their life where they struggle with mental health. Your doing insanely well and I wish you all the best 💗

[@slickjumpedoverthelazydog]

Yep Eve is brave to ask for professional help

[@pippa1515]

alles alles gute meine liebe Eve❤️ i really respect you so much for this, you are such a genuine person, and being someone that worries far too much too, this makes me feel I am not alone in this. You already seem to have grown so much! Du bist ein Herzensmensch, ich fühle mit dir xxx

[@sillygoosegoose]

i really feel for you in your struggles this term. uni can be so so tough and reaching out was the best thing. i just got alarm bells as soon as you mentioned volunteering abroad with children. i really hope you’ve done some research into whether your programme in peru is voluntourism, but work with children, particularly in the short term, is usually a massive red flag. i’d really encourage you to research the negative effects of voluntourism on the children involved if you haven’t already done so and really consider if it’s something you want to contribute to. really hope you’re on the up after what sounds like such an tough time and the summer will be restorative for you.

[@zackareigh]

eve, you are so brave. to come out and tell us that youre struggling is a very big deal and its hard but im so glad youre getting help and that you have a good support system now. youre such an inspiration. to do a lengthy video like this and just be so raw and human is so relatable. theres so many of us students that are struggling emotionally, and i really want to thank you for using your platform like you do. youre potentially opening up so many conversations and helping so many people. it really is admirable. thank you for this xx

[@isabellatroy6048]

I’ve had a similar situation in my second year of university. I struggled throughout my first year but in second year everything was so much harder and there was so much more work I couldn’t cope. It took me having a full mental break down to admit I wasn’t ok but I eventually sought help, got a diagnosis, got medication and put myself on a waiting list for therapy. It’s been a few months now and I’m doing so much better. It’s still hard sometimes and sometimes things will build up again but struggling does offer perspective and things will get easier as time passes.

[@lilybarry1991]

I'm so proud of you, Eve! I have watched your channel now for many years and have always looked up to you because of your honesty in situations such as this. I, myself, have struggled in a battle with poor mental health for many years and completely understand how hard it is to finally admit you need help to get better. You are so brave for talking about it (when in reality, you shouldn't have to share these private aspects of your life with the internet but you choose to anyway, which is amazing). Through you doing this, you have again shown how strong you truly are and I'm so glad to hear you are getting help - nobody should go through this alone. You are such an inspiration person and you should be so proud of yourself ❤️

[@rhiannajanepike]

We’re always going to be proud of you Eve. Take some time away - as much as you need - if you feel you should. Don’t put yourself down and disregard your feelings because other people have it worse than you. You’re valid and so are your struggles. 💜

[@sofiamoss473]

I'm so happy to hear your horizon is looking brighter and that you got through such a tough period! I can't wait for you to have a brilliant summer and relax:) You should be so proud of yourself for having the strength to admit you weren't ok. Onwards and Upwards

[@graciecw6263]

Well done for getting the help you needed! That's super brave! You're hair is looking stunning and I'm looking forward to your videos over the summer xx

[@katgerasimenko8800]

Thank you so much for opening up, I know when I was struggling with mental health before like getting diagnosed or getting medication these types of videos really made me feel a lot better to know I wasn't alone, so I bet that this video is helping so many people

[@Rmm99726]

Honestly it’s so refreshing to see someone like Eve talk about mental health that students struggle with during their studies. I really wanted someone to upload a video about this matter so thank you eve 😭❤️❤️

[@imanebenali4321]

Hello dear Eve. You are a great person and no matter what ordeal you have been through you will always be great and unique. I have been through the same mental crisis while I was studying at uni and it took me a lot of time to accept the fact that I was not okay as I've always tried to cheer my self up and fight my internal demons. I reached to a point in my second year where I could not stand it anymore and started to beat my self up for not being able to be happy and enjoy life. I became numb to everything; unable to experience any feeling except emptiness and agony of mind. This hellish mental condition had a terrible effect on my physical health especially on my stomach, and I started to have panic attacks. Those who have never experienced a panic attack will never be able to perceive the amount of pain and torture they create. However there was a weak voice inside me that was begging me to get out of this mental prison; a voice that called me to start living. I decided to listen to this voice and started to look for a solution not from outside ( I did it before but in vain) but from the inside. I followed coaches on KZbin, I started reading about mental health and tried to find out the roots that gave life to this emptiness, and most importantly I listened to my self: what could be the message that the universe is sending me through this ordeal? I ended up after a long period (more than 9 months) discovering that the whole thing is just a wake up call that saved me from an unhealthy mode of life as I was disconnected from my inner self and was oppressing my feelings ever since I was a child. I made changes to my lifestyle: sleep early, eat healthy, and dance. I started therapeutic writing and scrap booking in addition to mandalas. I am also trying to learn more about life and the universe and find out what is my message on Earth. Today, I feel a whole lot better and started to feel that I am on my way to achieving balance. The main point of my story is that mental health matters immensely. Whatever mental crisis you are going through you should seek help and not let dark ideas conquer your mind, for life is worth living.

[@sachabrady8263]

Don't worry about uploading regularly, take a break if you need ♥️♥️ :) your health should come first!

[@jadelauren2269]

Wow, thank you so much for sharing your experience. I feel like you being so honest about it will help a lot of people out there. I much appreciate you always being so real 💖good to have you back.

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you for watching! X

[@studywithanna]

I hope the summer is a nice little break for you. I myself have also had a tragic first year experience, I could relate to so much of what you were saying 😔 I wish I could make all the bad stuff disappear for you, (from what I was feeling the first year, I wouldn’t want anyone to ever feel that, so I hope things will start looking up for you) 💗

[@lil_swarlette]

Thanks so much for this Eve - I had a tough year at uni too. I'm in my second year and I lost a friend of a friend to a tragic mountaineering accident in January which completely rocked my worldview, and then during my exams I lost my grandma to cancer. Its been shit, but I've learned so much - that I'm stronger than I thought, and that looking after myself is far more important than anything else. I actually managed to do okay in my exams, which I think was because I was acutely aware that if I pushed myself I would burn out. I did less work but my mental health was all right and thats what's important. It's tough in academically oriented universities to stand up for yourself - massive well done for getting through it and enjoy your summer!

[@michellemei7667]

thank you for this, 💛 i felt/still feel these things, glad to know I'm not alone . Take care of yourself Eve!

[@clairemurphy2068]

So much respect for you to be able to open up to such a big audience. I’m sure this video will spur others on to speak more openly about mental health, especially young adults x

[@RevisionWithEve]

I really really hope so! X

[@kimtassen4938]

This genuinely broke my heart! Thank you for sharing this video, I hope you don't regret it, and I hope you have a wonderful summer and that you'll never have to go through this again. Your positivity was very inspiring. Also, if you've watched JK Rowling's speech, I always suggest everyone to remember that, because I love it :)

[@eceokur9864]

Kim Tassen which speech of her?

[@kimtassen4938]

@@eceokur9864 oh her commencement address (?) at Harvard, about the benefits of success and the importance of imagination

[@eceokur9864]

Kim Tassen oh okay I will watch it thanks!

[@094Abi]

Eve, Thank you for sharing. You are brave, intelligent and strong. Have a brilliant summer, and although it is difficult, look after yourself before anyone else. Sending lots of love :) xx

[@amyd7301]

This one hurt to watch, but it’s good to see that you’ve surrounded yourself with good friends 💗 P.s your summer makes mine look beyond depressing, just working 24/7 😭

[@annaclared_]

Its so so important and great that you’re posted this and shared your experience, please know that. It’s so important we all talk about mental health and know that anyone from anywhere can experience mental health problems. You’ve helped so many people by highlighting this.

[@elfemmypubgm300]

Eve friends wise I feel the EXACT same. I have just finished my a-levels and throughout year 13 I’ve felt I can no longer trust even my closest friends, my very best friend since year 7 left me for another group and heart broken isn’t even tho word. I keep asking myself why me? But as much as I don’t want it to happen to you, I am so glad we share similar experiences. I’m feeling super lonely so far this summer, so if you ever need anyone to talk to, I know I’m just a random fan out there, but I believe talking to someone going through similar things is a great way to let things off of your chest. I’m sorry this is so long but writing this I feel is the only way to let my feelings out there 💫 Sending my love xxx

[@melissagrindon9074]

You are clearly a bright, talented and grounded young woman. Be so proud of yourself for overcoming this bump in the road. Your future is so bright, Eve 💜

[@emmaknight336]

I'm going to Uni this September, could you do a first year advice video? Maybe explain how you dealt with leaving home and living alone? Also maybe some dorm tips? Only if you have time X

[@evies-jones4046]

Thank you so much for taking the time and energy to make this video. It came at exactly the right time! X

[@geetha8778]

Always seek medical help as soon as you can eve. So glad you finally have in the end. I hope you get well soon and get back to normal. I hope your exams went really well. Enjoy your summer and hope you get well girlie ❤❤❤

[@HannahMullins14]

Thank you so much for posting this video and being so honest. Basically massively relating to your situation right now and it’s been really hard to deal with but we will get through it! Asking for help is one of the hardest and scariest things I’ve done but it‘s so worth it because my mindset is already way better than it was a month ago. Big love to you Eve x

[@emilylacey7838]

So proud of you eve!! Your mental heath is the most important thing and should always come first x

[@rozgibson]

this is such an important video eve. I've known so many people who have found university so so difficult and their mental health has really suffered throughout it. I know things will get better for you. keep talking and take things slow xxx

[@maishaislam7476]

Awww, eve I'm so proud of u and when u cried I started to cry, I'm just glad ur getting help and that u have freinds and family who are supporting ull We all understand and I'm just glad ur ok xx I love the person you've become xx

[@camilabarbozaperi8408]

I've been there and luckily like you got a family and friends support to get out of that place in my head.. it takes so much of you to fight it and sit to your exams at the same time, you are such an inspiration! Hope you get better and happier xx

[@chloehampson864]

I am sooo proud of you and your strength for reaching out. I wish I had you beautiful, gorgeous hair.

[@rachelgrace7002]

It is just amazing how people can be going through something and you would never know from just looking at their social media. It is so important that people with a platform like you speak out about things like this so thank you. Hope everything goes well and that things start to improve for you!! ♡

[@RevisionWithEve]

Thank you x

[@hayleyandherbooks]

you're such an inspiration, thank you so much for everything. i hope you feel better soon x

[@emilyvanilla89]

Hey Eve :) Thank you for uploading this really honest video explaining what it can be like to be a student whilst other personal things are going on and mental health is difficult. As a second year uni student myself and someone who has depression and anxiety, I really related to this video and it was so refreshing to hear someone else talk about their struggles. You should be so proud of yourself for opening up about this and for seeking help because that can be so hard to do. You are such an inspiration. I'm so sorry that some of this year has been so rubbish for you but I'm excited for all your holiday plans and I hope you take the time and rest you need to start healing. Sending hugs xxxx

[@tiannah7049]

You remind me so much of myself...I'm 15 and my teachers always tell me that if I dont fix this problem then i might drive myself crazy, but sometimes i just dont even know how to cope. Thanks for sharing.

[@i.8231]

i’m so happy that you’re doing better and i hope it stays that way. this video literally reduced me to tears. sending so much love.

[@rubiebarker5152]

First thing I thought when I clicked on the video was how lovely your hair looked!

[@RevisionWithEve]

ah thank you!

[@jusdorange4720]

mindfulness. meditation. music. sleep. health. you are strong Eve, we love you xo always remember that you're so amazing, smart, sweet and resilient! Mental health is nothing to be ashamed about and i am so proud of you for making the decision to open up about your own health! Reaching out is always important x find your therapy -- for me it's my friends, meditation, sleep and music :)))

[@sammyvalentine3311]

Few things. Firstly, stop apologising for your appearance. You're so stunning, both done up and bare faced/messy hair. Secondly, thank you so much for sharing this. I have also been feeling not right even though everything is fine. I went on holiday with my boyfriend and spent the whole time feeling guilty for seeming down. Hearing you talk about your experiences being similar to mine (especially throughout my A-levels) helps me feel less alone. We're all here to support you, but you owe us nothing. Take care of yourself, we all love you!

[@miti203]

It's so lovely to see your face again Eve. Aw I just wish I could jump through the phone and give you hug! (if that doesn't sound too weird lol) but I absolutely know how hard it is to be there for people and then when you finally ask for help realise they won't do the same for you. It really sucks but it's all a learning experience and you can take from that, that you can look after yourself a bit more 😘. If you are still seeking help maybe look into codependency (it sounds like it may resonate with you) that may answer some of your questions and help you figure out how to feel better. Loving your glow up! Xxx