A NEW CHAPTER. || weigh in vlog

[@sophomoric1605]

It is not the most frustrating thing about you, it is the most positive thing about you. So many people get knocked down and refuse to get back up. You are overwhelmingly willing to work on yourself over and over again. We love you and you are constantly encouraging us to work on the things we don't like about ourselves, while also being honest about the setbacks.

[@christykoury8136]

Yes. This.

[@avril.227]

And when you accept yourself as uniquely you, you are setting the example for others to be uniquely themselves as well.

[@beekeeper2036]

🌟❤

[@lunatic5162]

The best comment

[@staceyweber7641]

1:08

[@whatthehellbob]

I love the direction your channel has gone Bea. Your approach to health and weight loss has helped me a lot. It’s not a “punish my body” journey, which some channels tend to be. And even though we aren’t entitled to it, I appreciate that you show us your struggle and what’s going on. It’s good to see a real human experiencing real human things, and not just struggling but still trying to thrive in the meantime! Thank you for being here!

[@MarfMerf]

The reply below is a scammer (just fyi) But yes! THIS! Healing and health is never linear. Her comments on finding these themes in her journalling are spot on too. So often I journaled about I need to leave this job, I need to lose weight, I need to leave my relationship, all of these things I kept cycling through but never taking action on. I divorced my ex, finally quit my horrible underpaid teaching job, and now I'm on a health and declutter journey. It's really hard to restart your life, but then realizing these things I was writing about was the central game plan all along, and the resistance I put up and just life happening made it a much longer journey than anticipated. The struggle is real, but feeling like you aren't alone is amazing and empowering.

[@unowen7416]

And that's exactly the reason why people like this channel, because she's "human" and can't commit or stick to anything. The day Bea decides to buckle down and get serious about weight loss, all of you hangers on will be outta here, because then you will no longer feel you can relate to her,

[@MrsFord2009]

Who agrees Bea needs to create a gratitude journal filled with her artwork?! I'd buy that in a heartbeat! Thanks for always being authenticly you

[@christineschmidutz5057]

literally the perfect merch

[@wh0aheavy]

As a recovering addict, something that seems kind of cliché but is actually helpful is that you have to take things one day at a time. It's hard to do things like break the cycle because it feels so big and impossible. You kind of just have to keep doing the thing every day, and try not to get discouraged if you slip up sometimes. I think you're doing great. All we can do is keep trying. Much love Bea 💙

[@mopeppermomoney]

As a (former) addict, I agree 100%. I was telling myself "let's go 10min without then I'll partake"... The next day it was "let's go 15min without then I'll partake" etc. I eventually worked into "just one day without then partake." One day, I just threw it all away and said "if I need it again, I know where to find everything I need but let's see how long I can go without it." It's been 7years since that day. Some days are HARD and I tell those who keep me accountable in life, "man, I sure could go for it right now" because life was not easy before, during, or after addiction. They love me through it. I don't think I'll ever truly recover and in a way, considering myself a clean addict helps me stay cautious about things I can become addicted to. I allow only one addiction in my life and it's coffee. I have a 0 no coffee tolerance because the little addictive side of me needs to need something. I love me 100%.

[@dees3179]

Well done both of you. Sometimes it feels like one breath at a time.

[@KK-hc5oo]

former addict or what

[@MostlyCloudy]

This is the way.

[@kirstypollock6811]

Well done! I quit drinking one day and just never did it again. Nearly 18 yrs now and I never think about it or want it at all. Not at any point. The thing with food is it's so much harder because you can't just "quit", you do need to eat to live, which makes it so much harder. I could never do moderation with anything, but I can quit like a champ because it's WAY easier. Food is the hardest, I think.

[@loissage3630]

I watch because you are the most “human” creative soul on the internet! Just keep being Bea.

[@sarah-ot9oe]

The advice your therapist gave you is in your atomic habits book! I know you are an expert on the first two chapters. I think they go over this is chapter 3 😁 The example it gave was someone trying to quit smoking. It Basically says when someone offers you a cigarette, saying "I'm not a smoker" versus "in trying to quit" may seem like a small difference, but it's a more powerful statement and puts you in the mindset of the person who you now are. And how you are making choices a non smoker would choose. You have this. You may not always feel like it, but you can achieve your goals. ❤️

[@kirstypollock6811]

When I gave up drinking that was me. I gave up cold and it was - "I don't drink" and that's all I ever say and all I ever thought. It was actually zero effort after that decision, and has continued to be zero to this day (18 yrs)..

[@norabrower118]

😊 😊😢5aa

[@lenora22]

During your fast forwards, Dougie's tail wagging speeds up, and he goes from happy Doug to SUPER HAPPY DOUGIE POO. ❤️

[@kss8866]

Still sad, she rehomed her cat. He was so so living and she keot Dougie who. came later.

[@wildgeese5707]

I love you. The body is not a goal. The body is an unending process. There is no end to caring for ourselves and hence nowhere to “get to”. Giving that up is all so hard. Please be compassionate with you, and be gentle. You are a wonderful, funny, creative and talented being. And you deserve good things.

[@debbiedrawsfunny]

You’re 100% main character energy, come on, you even live in a movie trailer😅 For real tho, I think the reason we all love and support you is because you are so damn REAL. And it’s takes a hell of a lot of guts to keep going in spite of setbacks, in spite of struggles, and doing it in front of a big audience. There’s a lot of influencer/vlogger types that all of the sudden just fade away when the shit hits the fan. But you show up and I think you should be proud of that, Bea❤🎉

[@donnatalley144]

I just want to say that I think people would love to hear more of your struggles than a weight loss subject. So many many MANY people have the same struggles that you’re not experiencing without weight loss challenges. Maybe it’s not smoking challenges or just whatever. I love this video because for one, I didn’t know you were such a talented artist and two, you got out in public for a coffee realized coffee was freaking expensive! But mainly because you had this idea about being the main character in your story. Kudos to you!! Give us more of that. You’re a beautiful woman, and very funny. Girl, I’m 62 and still struggle with being my story’s main character for the good and not just self loathing.

[@mirandadashut7423]

Yoga with Doug is main character energy too! 🐶💕

[@kristycargile6917]

I just love how much Dougie loves you! He just makes me happy! ❤️

[@readiculousreads4164]

Yes, the Doug yoga part was my favorite! 🥰

[@joannerudolph5028]

Doug is the best and an accurate reflection of bea:)

[@samatiesse]

"Become the person who runs" this was one of the most striking line of Atomic Habits which I listened too this weekend. Love the energy of starting a new journal too.

[@tarahartman]

I was dying when you were doing yoga and Doug was "helping". I literally had the exact same thing happen to me the other day, exact same yoga video too! And a big dog trying his best to get all up in my business with every move 😂

[@readiculousreads4164]

My journal had a quote on the front "Change doesn't come from comfort", which is so important to remember as a person who lets the desire for peace overrule her feelings. I also placed a sticker underneath it that says "f*ck", though, because I'm also realistic! 🤣🤣🤣

[@Locou]

A movie I loved said something like “it will all turn out well in the end, and if it doesn’t turn out well, it means that it is not yet the end”. It gives me strength to think of this when things aren’t going as I wish them to. It is not yet the end.

[@wh0aheavy]

I'm so jealous of your artistic and creative abilities! Much love girl! Take care 💜

[@jennaleigh1853]

I know you were using becoming someone who runs as an example, but I suggest doing it!!! Becoming a runner has transformed my life. I’m 31 now and have had ebbs and flows with the activity since I was 14. I picked it up because I HATEDDDD the mile in high school and I didn’t want it to have so much power over my mood! So I ran around my block once every day. Soon, that didn’t seem to suck so I went a little further and a little further. Soon, I signed up for a 5k, 10k, half and eventually a full marathon. This was all before college. Then I stopped running throughout college, gained weight, found “the one” Who then broke my heart 🤦🏻‍♀️I felt like I lost sight of who I was but I knew there was one thing I (and my body) could fall back into and that was running. Yes, it sucked SO much in the beginning but seeing my improvements in distance and pace was (and always will be) so empowering. I’m still me even without running but I feel like a better me with it. And the community is the warmest, most sincere group of people I’ve met. Give it a shot! I love the Nike Run Club app for some guided runs and instructions.

[@sareyjane3381]

How can I become a runner and not hurt my shins because I want to so bad 😂 I don’t know if it’s my technique or my shoes? Maybe the surface I’m running on I’m not sure

[@jennaleigh1853]

@@sareyjane3381 this is definitely a problem for so many runners and each person usually has something different that helps them. Some people swear by changing their running form (becoming a “mid foot striker” rather than “heel striker”). Others say going to their local running store and getting their running gait analyzed and finding the proper shoe is key. Others swear by calf and shin-muscle strengthening exercises or going to a PT. It’s definitely trial and error!! The first thing I would do if I’m suffering from shin splints is REST. Don’t run or do high impact exercises for a couple weeks. Bike, swim, etc. instead. Then I would EASE my way back into running for short, slow distances and pay attention to how I’m landing on my feet. If I’m an obvious heel striker, I’d play around with landing closer to my mid foot. If I had money in the budget, I’d for sure go get fitted for new shoes at the running store, too. You need to protect your body from the impact of running with properly fitted and cushioned shoes. If those two things don’t help, then I’d consider PT with a running-focused therapist!

[@bethanthomas293]

Just because you have an audience, it doesn’t make you less human. The reason why most of us watch you is because you’re REAL. You’ve shown us your ups and downs, highs and lows because that’s part of life. You’ve been my fave since day 1 and I STAN ❤️

[@duttondavid]

Hello Bethan can I ask you a question?

[@smm855]

I'm so amazed how you feel like you're repeating the same cycles. For the past two years you've been working toward eating healthier (there have been detours, but what's life without occasionally taking the scenic route?!), you've been steadily getting control of your weight, you've consistently posted videos, you've been seeing a therapist and growing as a person. It sounds like you're in the process of making a new healthy cycle and occasionally the old cycle slips in. The best part is that now when you notice the old cycle slip in, you have the tools to get yourself moving back toward your healthy cycle. You're therapist is smart to suggest giving yourself value based 'goals'. I think since you're so goal driven, you might want to give yourself mini-goals where everyday there is a tiny goal to hit (same goal every day). So instead of 'run a 5k' as a goal, the daily goal is: 'run half a mile'. If you do extra, great! If you do just enough, GREAT! The point was the meet the goal and since you have a reoccurring goal, even if you reach it today...tomorrow's goal is still there. Basically think about it like: you want to be the type of person who runs, therefore you need to set goals toward making yourself that person. You're an artist and I'm sure you realized that you have to practice sketching to get good. You didn't just decide: "I drew a koi fish, so therefore I never need to draw again." Instead you know to be able to draw a koi fish you have to practice drawing. Daily goals are just practicing being the person you want to be. (just don't make too many daily goals or make the goals too big, you'll get burnt out) I highly suggest the book Mini Habits by Stephen Guise, his book is better than Atomic habits and it's half the length.

[@Alinaaaaa212]

Hey maybe this helps someone ☺️ when I was struggling with binge eating, I found an article about a book (I don’t remember the title) it said that binge eating is a not just a habit you picked up or a coping mechanism but also a decision. So if you start to learn how to believe that you are always in control of you thoughts and actions, you can learn how to decide to not binge in situations you feel you need to. It helped me to think about it. I hope it helps someone as well. Always remember: you are strong enough! ❤

[@KB-hs7vh]

Thanks for sharing! 💖

[@lovefaith6285]

You are such an amazing talent Bea and I think you're not even aware of it. The angles you shoot and the way you edit it all together is really creative, your sketching/doodling and paintings....girl!! Your artistic talents are IMPRESSIVE!! I loved Doug rolling in the grass in the corner frame of your meal shot, too cute!! I resonate with all the challenges you are going through and I'm also throwing out all that no longer serves me so I can create a new routine and much more beneficial habits. It's ok to fall down/off, just don't stay down. Keep on getting up and going in the direction of the life you are wanting and you'll get there.✌💜🐕🎨🖌💪

[@Ani87407]

Bea I don’t think you realize how amazing you are!! You have been doing so awesome on your health journey!! I’ve been watching you for two years ( I think lol) and I see how far you have come Your mental health seems better also! Keep growing and keep trying because it’s really working!!❤

[@dammitjanet3841]

I love yoga with Doug! So cute, he's such a good boi. Congrats on the weight loss. That's great. Also, you are such an amazing artist. I do wish I could draw. All my art therapy looks like a 1st grader did it. Ugh. Keep up the strong work

[@josymarie4327]

You can. You don‘t have to be good to enjoy it, and if you hang on, you will improve for sure.

[@klyons8897]

you are so relatable because EVERYONE goes in cycles and falls in and out of habits. it's incredibly hard to make habits stick and as much as it looks like many people have their lives together, no one actually does. i once heard someone say that our life doesn't go in circles, it's more like an upwards spiral. So maybe you feel like you're at the same place you've been before, but you're there with more experience and you're more prepared to handle that part of the cycle than you were last time. keep it up you're doing amazing!!!

[@toolsoffantasy]

Hi Bea! I've been watching for a while, and just wanted to say that your willingness to keep trying despite setbacks is super inspirational to me, in addition to your work on advocating for yourself and your courage in sharing your journey on the internet. When you first talked about having been diagnosed with ADHD, I was struck with how similar a lot of the symptoms that you described felt to my own experience. I was interested in exploring the possibility of testing and diagnosis for myself, but was almost immediately shot down by my psych. You've helped give me the courage to advocate for myself, and I truly appreciate that. I was prescribed adderall by my PCP to try, and I feel so much more clear headed and able to just...do things than I literally ever have in my life. None of this would have happened without your videos, and especially the honesty and vulnerability that you have shown the entire time I've been watching you. Thank you for helping me be the best version of myself.

[@dees3179]

Well done on advocating. You did really well. I have a year at least still to go on the waiting list for formal final assessment. It’s forever……..

[@chabelis429]

To be honest this is why you’re so relatable! Girl I’m there I went from being a gym rat for months to now just catching myself overeating and not working out at all! I used to be super hard on myself but I’m trying to be patient like you!

[@bloodorangemoon]

I'm in that slump too, I went from exercise fiend/gym rat for the last couple years to can't barely motivate myself to walk....my best exercise lately is my home sauna. I sit there and sweat cause I can't bring myself to move. Depression just walloped me and weirdly seemed to coincide with Bea, like we're all feeling some funky world energy at the same time

[@a.sydney5036]

She's way too "patient". This channel and the money she makes from it, and being the "relatable" girl... there's no incentive to lose weight. I went back to a video from march 2021...she weighed 223. She literally has lost no weight. In more than a year! That was the whole point of this channel. Instead she exploits your need to identify with someone on the internet. She's no better than people who do celebrity fad diets for a week but never lose any weight in the long, or do "lose 15 lbs in a week", only to gain it all back and rinse and repeat 50 times. The whole thing is so ew, and scammy to me. She never intends on losing weight.

[@JD-qr5ez]

You and Dougie have come so far since you first got him. He loves and is so grateful for you ❤️🐶❤️

[@jesuslovesyou9151]

This is a scam, J D. I got the same thing and I don't even think she has a giveaway...smh

[@HelixHex]

@@jesuslovesyou9151 I got the same message. Where can we report this? Maybe Beatrice should report it, as it is using her picture.

[@jesuslovesyou9151]

@@HelixHex I agree these people are just getting more conniving by the day. Hopefully Beatrice will see her thread. I have a feeling many had this message...smh.

[@HelixHex]

@@jesuslovesyou9151 it is a shame, that youtube has no option for us to alert the conent creator about thesr things. She is not the first creator where I get the same message 😔

[@JD-qr5ez]

@@jesuslovesyou9151 Thank you. I never win anything,therefore knew it had to be a scummy scam! Lol

[@jswizz43]

I find myself in the same mindset with journaling and rereading my journals. I finally realized that I don’t ever journal when things are going well, so reading it is Depression Chronicles. It’s a relief to realize that those are the lows, not the standard. ❤️

[@duttondavid]

Hello Jswizz can I ask you a question?

[@HappyTailsandHappyTrails]

Girl I get you! I hate feeling in limbo...it triggers my anxiety which triggers my binging. Keep up the awesome videos. You are an inspiration to me to keep trying.

[@kelseyclare222]

Really love your videos. Hope the new journal starts a great new chapter for you!

[@duttondavid]

Hello Kelsey can I ask you a question?

[@cosplaylover0826]

I was just about to go to sleep but forget sleeping right now... Bea just posted a video!!! Love your videos! Thank you for making Monday so much better for all of us!!

[@duttondavid]

Hello Cosplay can I ask you a question?

[@jessicaschmid6173]

I literally DIED laughing when you said you can't afford to have the main character coffee shop scene!!! I FEEL this in my soul! Thank you for sharing your journey. Your story is inspiring more people than you realize!

[@bethlovesthings]

Girl SAME! I have always kept diaries and journals/planners in one way or another and I have had two major weight loss arcs in my life (so onto my third). It was only after I recently reviewed my weightloss journey that I realised I did *better* in 2017/18 than I did in 2012/13 - but for some reason I had convinced myself that I never got near my earlier results. It would really demotivate me and it turned out not to be true 🤦‍♀️ Now facing 2023 and after turning 30 this year, I realise that the time is now - there just isn't any better time than right now, today. Every day. Onwards and upwards everyone. One day at a time 💖💖💖

[@natashamia7]

Agh, just what I needed! 😊 thank you for your videos and your vulnerability. As I move through my own recovery and healing journey with health and wellness , I appreciate your videos (and you!) so much because I don’t feel like I’m alone! Thank you for being a part of my own mental health and self-care!

[@ajennl]

For sure I can only afford main character energy once a week but it’s worth it. I’m going to movies by myself this week and I’m very excited about it

[@Allisonsavage94]

B WHERE ARE UUUU!?! You haven’t posted this week!!! 😢😢😢

[@ivylovesrunning]

I love periwinkle. The green really pops with your hair colour

[@godsgrace-thegatheringplac7280]

Periwinkle is the best! Last week I met with a dietician she suggested that I journal. We set some goals and have a plan. A few days later I felt so excited because I am becoming Bea! ☺

[@lavendertownvip1908]

I don't even come here for your WL content I come for you, it feels like catching up with a friend watching your content. I could literally watch you do anything and be entertained.

[@atinycupofpositivitea8745]

I love this new chapter energy, I feel the same in my life. About the latte for main character energy: consider going to the local library to do stuff, and get yourself home-made coffee in a travel mug or some tea in a bottle. You can be cheap and main character at the same time, in the right places!

[@duttondavid]

Hello Positivitea can I ask you a question?

[@Missbayka]

I love your videos ❤️ the realest person I have found. No matter where you are in life you share and are as honest as you can be. I appreciate that! I too struggle with binging etc. I am currently 238lbs was down to 220 and was so proud and then life happened and I started emotional eating and binge eating again 😪

[@lizardstew]

Yes! It is so incredibly human to fail so many times. But you got past your 230lb threshold! My journal is very similar in that I have destructive patterns I fall into that keep me down. You have no idea how inspiring it is to watch someone work through it! I hope one day you will end up looking back at the change you’re currently making and see your growth!

[@angifortman4638]

You are so relatable for me. My new journey involves me being more disciplined and building a routine versus make it step a goal. Wish you all the luck bestie!

[@ankhera]

If you want to be a main character in public, without the price tag, you could bring a keep-cup from home, and sit in a park or public square and sketch and people watch. Also, what you might not be seeing from your journal is how far you've actually come. You own two houses, a successful YT channel, you quit a toxic job, you made new old friends, you got Doug. Maybe the takeaway from the journal should be that "the weight" is more of a societal pressure, and less of an issue than you really think. Sometimes acceptance is the hardest thing. Much love from a chunky gal who is still trying to embrace acceptance. 💗

[@christyramosortiz]

I am going to support you because we could all use support these days. So proud of you! Keep it up Bea!!! ❤

[@lacymade]

Girl I think you are just the bees knees! I enjoy watching you and Dougie Beans! I miss me some Chetty but hopefully your grandma will let you have him back when the new place is ready for you! I totally feel that struggle of just continuing to do the same thing over and over and never really changing. And the proverb thing just was like YEP that is totally me. My desk and house are a hot unorganized mess and so is my headspace! A couple of weeks ago you did that whole video on meditating and how it is helpful and I think I am going to take a note from you and give that a shot. See if it helps the chaos that is me. Anyway you are super fun to watch and I enjoy your videos so much! Keep up the greatness that is you!

[@TexasGirl1633]

You are so wise for your young age. You are never a failure as long as you keep getting back up…. My reoccurring theme over the past 20 years was always wanting to lose weight and get in shape. I am 62 and finally conquered this 6 years ago when I retired at 56. I finally had the time to destress, workout everyday and eat right. I lived in a yo-yo weight loss/gain pattern all of my life. During my first year in retirement I lost 35 pounds and have been that weight now for about 5 years. This past week we had family pictures taken and I realized driving home that I didn’t worry about being (or looking) fat!!!!! This was a first!!!!!! Enjoy the holidays! Love your channel!

[@jodieeining1917]

Love you Bea! Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours!

[@lavendertownvip1908]

I saw a video the other day that described these cycles not at a infinite circle but an upward spiral. You are always growing and learning. Starting fresh is amazing to keep going up the spiral. Your self awareness is on point.

[@stowie7733]

You and Douglas doing yoga…brought a much needed laugh to me. I’m sure you both walked away more relaxed. Keep up the good spirits, even on the stormy days…they will pass! You inspire us more than you would ever know. Your insight, determination and sense of humor reminds us that we will have some difficult moments but our entire lives are ahead of us so keep moving forward!

[@duttondavid]

Hello Stowie can I ask you a question?

[@TreyMcDonaldAnimator]

Lol can I just say this channel popped into my feed one random night and I've been marathoning a lot of it. Props on that journal artwork.

[@ericajackss]

I love using a value mindset to help create realistic goals, or even adding a fun challenge to keep things interesting! It seems like you kinda do that already, even if you lean more on the goal-oriented side

[@chernandez2132]

Grief alert, so this comment might not be for everyone: My cat Buster took his last sleep last week, and I have to say that watching Douglas snuggle up to you while you were yoga-ing - just loving being near you - made me think "awww, just like my Buster," and it was I think the first time in 5 days that I've been able to think of or be reminded of him without just immediately bursting into a mess of tears. So, IDK, thanks for having such an adorable dog?

[@duttondavid]

Hello Cynthia can I ask you a question?

[@alexzandriaart]

I haven’t watched the whole video yet (in the process of it) but something I super recommend for anyone, is also keeping track of WHEN you have those good and bad moments, and seeing if there’s any trends there. Are you having more bad moments around a certain time of the month, or year? Is there a trend with how many you might have in a month or a year? Etc etc etc. This helped me SO MUCH because I can prepare better for those lows and I can remind myself that there are cycles and work on fixing them being -as- low. If that makes sense? Just wanted to mention in case it helped anyone!

[@donnabursey1457]

I'm curious about the new house layout-are all the bedrooms going to be in the basement? Are you going to rent them out? Are your friends going to continue renting your old house? All these questions occur to me on the tour! Interesting about the repeating cycle-but, now you're hyper-aware of it. Step 1 to break that cycle is to choose a different path, no matter how small a divergence. I think you're doing that successfully! It's not fast, making lasting change. It's just steady work. Keep going! You're doing great!

[@helenscruggs6263]

I am so glad you posted your thoughts, I am in the same boat. So your videos lately have helped me realize change can happen. Thanks

[@duttondavid]

Hello Helen can I ask you a question?

[@Cas612]

Glad to see you are journaling and including your art in it. Art is a great therapy. I think a lot of people would like to see more of your art too.

[@duttondavid]

Hello Carol can I ask you a question?

[@kikimoore8087]

Nothing like a new journal to make you feel like a new bish 🎉

[@milkydropz]

I wonder if this is why I have a billion empty journals 😅🤣

[@andianderson3017]

Love having hot beverages in public by myself!! Might be my single most favorite hobby😂 I had never thought of it as a main character thing. For me it just feels like a way to not sick my needy over social energy on my friends and family all the time. I used to nap in public because I just felt better around people. (Like a living room. Park benches only occasionally and with a friend). It’s funny because I’m an ENFJ in MBTI and if you’re an INFP we’re each other’s shadow. It’s probably why I make friends with so many. I need a little LESS main character energy.

[@duttondavid]

Hello Andi can I ask you a question?

[@celie1121]

Bea you're making incredible progress! And you are staying consistent which is what counts! Progress is not linear

[@a.sydney5036]

She's literally making zero progress? She weighed less in March 2021. What's the point of this channel again? She just uses you for views and rakes in the cash, whilst giving you a reason to cheat on your diet, "Bea failed, it's okay if I failed to". SMH.

[@magnificentmarbles]

I think one of the reasons your channel has really succeeded is your willingness to try new things and get excited over new goals, I don’t think you should view that as a weakness!

[@vikigee2790]

I just find your inner musings entertaining, reflective and funny. Reminds me of myself 😂

[@kbarb1000]

I start a fresh journal every month, i love it, its like new years eve every month. "New Month's Eve" - another chance to get it right .

[@PurpleSkykt]

I have to share this with you. I used to go to Barnes & Nobles being there was a Starbucks upstairs. I would bring my journal and switch with me. I did this for a while until the lockdown of 2020. I did miss doing it during the lockdown, however, to my surprise, after the lockdown was lifted, my desire to be the main character in my story at Starbucks, being surrounded by books while sitting at a window seat, vanquished! I used to reread my journal entries as well, but it was more of a few days after writing the entry. One of the things that annoyed me about journaling was my own repetition, writing out things I wanted to do yet doing nothing to concur them. I believe it was in year 2019 when I started to be less repetitive. I started to write in my journal like I was talking to someone in person, answering questions no one but I asked myself yet wondered why no one asked these same questions about my choices and junk. This year, I stopped rereading my entries all together. My writing is focused on the night before or what I discovered about myself, how a choice I made in my past created the present me. Now, when I write, it feels like I'm letting go of so much misunderstanding, allowing myself to admit that there are levels of reasons why I do the things I've done or believed the things I've once or still believe. it's rather outstanding. However, though I still aim to publish a book in the future, i have requested those I am close with to burn all my journals if i die before they do. I don't need all my dirt in these streets! Kudos to u for connecting the dots to, well. what u feel is a fault. You'll get better, I believe u will

[@jonap5740]

Wow, Bea, that weight loss is really great. But even more, you seem calm, focused and determined, with your great sense of humour. Good to see Douglas. I love that boi. You inspire me.

[@duttondavid]

Hello Jona can I ask you a question?

[@kerrylawrence4005]

I'm like 3 years invested in you 🤣😂 and probably one of the few guys in this rabbit hole!! If you ever did a meet n greet you would get so much love!! Monday's with Bea!!

[@rhondabozeman7089]

Great job on the journal!!! Lo love your sketches. Douglas is so sweet sticking right by you side at all times 💕

[@susanw9443]

I’ve said it before.. you are the master of resiliency! This is life and you are living it! Go Bea and the rest of us, too!

[@agustinamariabogliano5451]

Watching your content makes me feel understood. I deal with anxiety, has been worst since my mom passed this year... and I'm struggling to have a "normal" life again. Thanks for being you, B!

[@lizy4898]

I am re-reading my old journals, too. Crazy perspective on what I was going through and the patterns I'm seeing. 🤯

[@duttondavid]

Hello Liz can I ask you a question?

[@lailatarek6881]

I think you severely underestimate how your journey resonates with almost everyone watching you grow. I am always inspired by you and you are one of those little rare warm spots on the internet where I walk in and engage in watching someone else's life and leave feeling more compassion and patience towards myself. There is a tendency on social media to constantly compare yourself to someone else's perceived reality and when I watch you exist in your highs and lows it reminds me how worthy I am of patience and love and compassion. You are a constant gentle reminder in my (and Im sure others') lives that we are a constant work in progress and we can be fabulous and creative and joyful during that work!

[@duttondavid]

Hello Laila can I ask you a question?

[@thesaucystingray2542]

Just to add to that quote you said in your Journaling. Something that I heard a few years ago at a convention was "if you always do what you've always done, you'll always have what you've already got" And that helped me to realize that, I'm not going to make any progress I want to see, if I don't truly make a change. I have the same problem of the up and down cycles. Getting really hyped and ready to "lose weight" "save money" "reading""cleaning" etc and then falling off after a few weeks.

[@ashleydamico111]

I once learned that the cycles I run through are a trauma response. Often ppl who have trama can go hard for a while and then crash. It’s called swinging on the pendulum in life. I’ll go 110% for like 17 -20 days then I crash for 3 and this kept happening and happening until I learned to live in the 80%. There’s times I go 110% but then I check myself and have to practice just giving myself grace if I need to rest a few hours and then those 3 hours don’t end up being 3 days. Because I can practice living in the 80%. I’ve been doing this for 3 years now and I’m getting so much better. My bandwidth is longer and I’m healthier over all. Mindset and feeding myself and enjoying my space and trying things again without hyper focusing.

[@kathrynkleiner594]

You reminded me yoga might help. I've been stressed out the last 2 weeks and it really helped. Thanks!

[@themessthatismylife]

I've been following you for a while now and you really inspired me to start my own channel to track progress :) Just look at how far you've come from your older videos. We're all proud of you :)

[@marinaridley4186]

@beatricecaruso Happy Thanksgiving to you, Elmo, and your family. Grateful for your posts, and witty banter. Big hugs

[@duttondavid]

Hello Marine can I ask you a question?

[@Idontwantachann]

I love watching your moving in videos. It’s a process to live in the space before finding where things go. And in your last house you did a great job finding places for things. Also, I remember some of your first cooking videos and girl, you have come a long way in your techniques and confidence n food prep. You have grown so much and I am so proud of you and excited to see your continued growth on your journey of life. ❤

[@torifielding2008]

Mondays are my favorite day of the week because you post!! Thank you for the viiiiibes 🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@1Hawting]

I also have a journal/diary that I've been writing in sporadically for the last twelve years (since I was twelve so like half my life now that I think about it) and it's always lovely to read through the old entries even if some of them are sad.

[@thefriendlyghostbyAna]

Honestly, I dont watch the videos for the weight loss journey.... I watch the videos for you... you keep it real girl!! Lots of love from Portugal

[@AnqaOdyssey]

I went to the gym today after a months long break. I hope I can get out of bed tomorrow 😅

[@Peacheys2]

I look forward to these Monday updates! Doug having to touch you while you did yoga was adorable!

[@kalliste01]

The mindset you mentioned is in Atomic Habits, it's probably the only chapter that I thought was helpful 😅 You can have that mindset and also have goals e.g. "I am a person who runs" and your how is "I am going to run a 5k" or "I am going to run 3 times a week" so you have some way in place of becoming the person who runs.

[@rocioroeder7866]

I watch you because you’re sooooo relatable. I love your realness and honesty and I appreciate you so much ❤

[@kerrilynnnichols6932]

You can only fail if you stop trying or give up. Everything you are doing is working towards figuring it out. We’ve repeated these patterns for years and it takes time to heal. Micro goals done consistently build your confidence and trust in yourself. Example: “Today whenever I eat, I will leave one bite on the plate and put it in a freezer bag in the fridge.” All week you do this, you will have a full bag of food that is not in your hips.

[@christyjones7308]

Every Sunday morning I treat myself to a fancy coffee and bookstore browse. It keeps the coffee affordable and is something to look forward to when I’m down. Keep up the hunt for a coffee spot!

[@alexabyronfujino8320]

You've accomplished a lot, it's important to remember that. I look up to you as the kind of person who preserves, gets stuff done and is a successful youtuber. Even if you don't achieve all the goals you set out, it doesn't diminish the success of this youtube channel and how much it helps people like me who struggle with life too. The raw honesty and your creative playfulness is why I keep watching.

[@duttondavid]

Hello Alexa can I ask you a question?

[@LexiDarcel]

The tip from your therapist is also what’s mentioned in Atomic Habits. The idea of first determining the person you want to be as the first step to changing your habits. When we choose what we’d like to identify with, it becomes easier to embody that. So changing the mindset first is key, not necessarily easy but in the long term it’s the most effective way to build habits that will change your life.

[@sillyramenturtle9703]

9:54: SpongeBob getting ready to play Squidward's clarinet

[@lindahoney808]

Ok Bea look at you throwing down in the kitchen! You continue to be such an inspiration to me. Thank you for your vulnerability and courage 💜

[@duttondavid]

Hello Lindsay can I ask you a question?

[@ellet2151]

Hiya! Sending love and good vibes from SoCal. I LOVE all things cafe culture and I absolutely agree that it can get expensive very quickly. I'm also on a recovery path but didn't want to give up treating myself to cafes entirely. So once a month a choose a new cafe and take myself on a little date. I usually go work out or read at a park nearby and take my goodies (mostly a new latte or tea and a pastry or sandwich) along with me. It's been a great way to give myself something to look forward to that I love and doesn't break the bank. Thanks for another great vid! 😁

[@wolflikeyou]

Adopting a "value" mindset has pretty much changed my life. I just think about the ideal person I would want to be and then I model that behaviour. I've lost 60lbs+ in the past year, rediscovered my creative hobbies, started running almost everyday . It helps keep you disciplined in moments where it's easy to slip, so I just ask myself - "would the person I want to be do this/say this/eat this?" and that helps a lot. But it also works both ways, when there is an opportunity to indulge I ask myself the same thing because I also want to be the person who can have drinks and pizza with friends without feeling guilty, or eat an icecream on a hot day. It's taken the shame out of indulging myself, giving myself rest and having boundaries. That's not to say I am perfect and it works 100% of the time. I still slip up and binge occasionally but I always tell myself that it's okay and "don't let this slip be a slide".

[@emilyestelle7471]

You know what main character energy is? Agency. Is the main character making choices, doing things, and working through problems instead of just being swept along with the currents. You've got that. You are making big changes, sometimes they are messy and terrifying, and they don't work out the way you want, but that just makes for a relatable person. And another big aspect is character development. You've got that, too. Progress is NOT linear, but you have goals, and you're struggling toward them. You're already main character material; you just don't see yourself that way yet. (I write fiction when I have time, and I've put a lot of work into studying character arcs and development, and you would actually be a GREAT main character in a story. You're so relatable that readers (and your watchers) are emotionally invested in your triumphs and failures.

[@sharon268]

I wish I could find a therapist that actually had and gave suggestions instead of letting me just vent , you are so genuine and inspirational, I started back on IF 16/8 low carb apple cider vinegar in the morning and bedtime definitely drinking more water my weigh in is Sunday

[@adorfaru]

While I cannot implement it myself, I have definitely heard from other places like the Huberman podcast and such, that focusing on the goal is bad for your brain, but focusing on the process is much better at rewarding your brain for your achievements. Good reminder!

[@emilylawlor4570]

I have been looking more into 'Sensory Seeking' behaviors that I do and what prompts me to do them. binge eating is sensory seeking as well as a whole slew of other things!

[@kmsevero1]

Awww. I want a dog to snuggle with me while I do yoga. Doug is like your very own comfort, yoga pillow.

[@lanvui]

I've never seen you fail. I've seen you trying to achieve your goal in different ways. Keep doing your thing 😉 love your vlogs.

[@Vountanyfe]

Concerning breaking the cycle, I try to remind myself that it truly is one day at a time. Every damn day we gotta do the things that help us and move us forward. And it's not gonne be a big life-changing moment that brings transformation, but all those little steps that move us further onto the path we chose is best for ourselves 💕