A Week In My Life With PMDD // Living With PMDD

[@elliemandeville]

Do you find that caffeine makes your anxiety/anger worse?? I get SO beyond exhausted that I can’t get out of bed for the whole week before my period, and I need caffeine to even function on a somewhat normal level.. But I also find that I get anxious easily during this time, so I’m not sure how to combat both. I take Calm and things for stress, but it doesn’t help much during this time

[@alexirossi]

Yes! Sometimes it does have an effect. Not always, though. Usually I will switch to decaf until after my period if I am having a difficult time with it. That doesn't help much with the need for energy. But honestly, I think during that time when we are tired, it is important to listen to and honor our bodies. Allowing that time of rest and not pushing ourselves can really aide in easing those difficult symptoms. The truth is that during this time we aren't meant to function on a "normal level." Which, I believe, is why so many women struggle with PMS and PMDD. This society is built for men by men and is intended to be productive as possible. Leaning into and learning more about my feminine nature has helped me so much on this healing journey!

[@ptlovelight2971]

Sometimes coffee actually makes me feel better during some episodes. Currently having a bad flare up, 2 days away from my bleed. I experienced SO MUCH PAIN and inflammation and insomnia and anxiety this past week. I was doing a coffee fast (no caffeine for 2 weeks) but I caved and had a cup yesterday and felt INSTANT RELIEF from my symptoms. My headaches went away, the brain fog lifted, the muscle and joint pain disappeared. Even the anxiety went away, it was weird....apparently caffeine has some anti inflammatory/pain relief properties. But I do try to be careful with it

[@bbloni6767]

Have you tried taking L-Theanine and Ashwaghanda? It might help.

[@RoseAnna-ty6ps]

The level of fatique, is almost inhuman. I Extreme exhausted, i cant get out of bed, im even to tired to go pee, or make a sandwich. Also my eyes are so heavy , and my body to.

[@maribelgavina]

@@RoseAnna-ty6ps me too. Thanks for validating my experience. Sending hugs ❤❤❤

[@jessamaegaspar132]

When you said " I am one of the most positive people that I know, but when It's bad it's so bad" I can totally relate🥺🥺

[@alexirossi]

Sending you love!

[@kat420365]

I completely felt the same way.

[@melindameaney363]

Me too...

[@candice446]

As soon as my period ends, I feel AMAZING! I feel like conquering the world.

[@tina.263]

Any emotional or mental stress will trigger or make worse your pmdd like any other mental disorder. The solution is that you take some extra care of yourself in days before your period like relaxation and breathing techiques, watch what you eat and drink, do activities that make you happy and calm, avoid arguing with people. It is a constant effort and struggle like with anything hard in life.

[@alexirossi]

Yeah I think the stress the past couple weeks are the reason it’s so hard this time around. Definitely doing my best to take care of myself today. Thank you ❤️❤️

[@GeminiGlitters]

I have pmdd and didn't know up until like 3 years ago (I'm 23 ) & it is tough like as soon as my period is like 2 weeks away my mood just shifts, I'll do teas , comfy warm showers , and try to ignore it but it's my body & I've came to conclusion I can't control it fully. It's even worse when people around you tell you its all in your head or over exaggerating . I send so much love to all that go through this , I totally am with you & you are not alone ❤

[@missjessyannew889]

I'm 47, and I have just been diagnosed. In the last few years, it has all but destroyed my life. Getting a diagnosis is the lifeline I have been hoping for, and this video has been immensely helpful to me. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️

[@alexirossi]

I can’t imagine living so much life without having an answer for why you feel the way you do. I’m so glad you’ve started your journey toward healing ❤️❤️

[@taramarshall3545]

I get so afraid when the mood gets dark and hopeless. I don’t understand how it can happen and no option to control it so far.. praying for you .. this is me sales they have to be able to fix this for us

[@Onlinepiesandcakes]

OMG I have PMDD and it’s purely awful. I feel like no one understands me and EVERYTHING you said resonates with me and my experience. You understand, you get it, you described perfectly. The emotional part is so random when it comes to how hard it hits before your period starts. The first day of my period feels amazing! I feel like myself, almost euphoric. I hate how we know NOTHING about the healthcare for our cycles.

[@Ry-fw6or]

My PMDD is severe. I just learned about it the last three years . I quit my job without having a job lined up during my PMDD, I’ve done some crazy and bad things to my one family. Period really ruined my life. Thanks for sharing your experience.

[@nevakis]

I am 35 years old and I have realized just yesterday that I am definitely suffering from PMDD. I learned that my mom had it too. My first period came when I was 9 yo, at 12 I attempted suicide. Now I see how PMDD did a lot of damage to my family and me. Thank you for your video, It really made me feel less alone in this. I love you.

[@MeliLeani]

I always knew I had PMDD but finally got formally diagnosed this past November(I’m 39!). I was actually put on 150mg of Zoloft & it has helped me SO MUCH. I tried birth control before that & it made me feel insane!!! But my PMDD was wayyyyy worse in my 30’s, I was so riddled with anxiety I’d have constant panic attacks, I’d throw up, faint constantly from my blood pressure dropping, I couldn’t eat or work & I felt like I was going to unalive myself 24/7. I couldn’t take the mental anguish on top of the physical symptoms any longer! I admitted myself to a psychiatric hospital & it saved my life! Even my own OBGYN was no help, but when I went to the Institute of Living, I got a full medical work up & we got my symptoms under control. I still feel pretty tired & I can get a little irritable but it is leaps and bounds from where I was 2 months ago!!! I truly hope you’ve found some relief, but if you haven’t I would seek a psychiatrist who specializes in PMDD or Anxiety! It changed my life 🙌🏼

[@Iznessmaurer]

Thank you. That’s what we need. Exposure on how hellish this disorder is. Seeing you so upset… I just want to hug you, though I don’t know you. I can relate totally and completely, honestly. I go through this 10 to 12 days before and four to five days into each period. I’m so proud of you that you have the strength and sheer bravery to share your monthly downfall, so to speak, so openly. The world needs to know how so many women are so terribly affected by this so that more can be offered in terms of treatments. If only we had a non-invasive, affordable, safe and very highly effective treatment option with minimal side effects, I think I’d actually feel closer to happy about living my life

[@reginamills6137]

Progesterone helps. But not a cure.

[@NicoleMurphy621]

Hello! Totally agree, it’s amazing she was able to share this & be so vulnerable. Coming here from a neurophysiology research background & personal experience, I’ve found Sertraline (SSRI) taken 10 days before the start of the cycle to REALLY help. In short, serotonin converts progesterone to Allopregnanolone more quickly. Allopregnanolone is a neurosteroid w/ antidepressant& emotional regulation effects. I’ve struggled w/ PMDD since I was 21 & I’m now 30. I devoted me research thesis in my masters program to PMDD & it’s heartbreaking how overlooked the disorder is. Other supporting research shows when estrogen & progesterone drop leading up to your cycle, serotonin diminishes. Low levels of progesterone, cause low levels of serotonin. The SSRIs help to leave “free-floating” (if you will) serotonin in your brain by inhibiting the post-synaptic cell from receiving the serotonin. More floating serotonin = leveled moods, less pain. Thank you again for sharing this video! I really hope you find the right doc & get help soon- your life doesn’t have to be like this! Sending love 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@kat420365]

I’m 48yrs old and was diagnosed w/pmdd 7yrs ago. I just got thru crying for 3hrs in my bed, yelling and screaming at the top of my lungs how I hate everything and everybody. I knew I was abt to start(started abt an hour ago) and I knew it was my pmdd kicking in full force, but I still couldn’t force the emotional roller coaster away this week. I found your video after honestly just becoming so exhausted from crying and had to look for something to help level me out. I have no kids, no man(bcuz I told him to “F” off yesterday) and my beautiful baby girl Bullmastiff of 15yrs passed away a month ago…..I feel like I should have been better prepared for this episode😢😢 Please keep making videos if you’re not. This helped me today….thank you!

[@elizabethmarievalentine9575]

I have this. We stand together ❤️ We are not alone. ❤️ It affects my relationship, my job and school. My dad NEVER validated me and always said it was in my head (single father). I seriously thought panic attacks every month were normal and feeling extremely suicidal. Thanks for making this video. Please share any self care ideas :(

[@alexirossi]

It can be so hard for men to really understand how hormones impact us and trying to explain it to them has always made me feel so much more alone. But you are NOT alone. So many more women experience this than we realize and it's important to be there for each other. I am here for you in any way I can be!

[@kat420365]

My dad told me when I was 19, a year after my mom died, that he couldn’t “handle” all the emotional crap I was throwing at him(I wrote a letter expressing how I needed him to see me) Yeah, it didn’t go over well lol

[@martinminahan]

We are sharing the same struggles

[@susie2157]

Well thank you for your honest video and for sharing! I am now in my 60s but when I was much younger and having periods I had all of the symptoms and all of the ups and downs and depression and inability to function sometimes and everything you describe. But back in the '70s and '80s there wasn't a label of pmdd. And yes I was given antidepressants and basically told I was nuts and I needed to buck up and stop being a baby. Thank you for bringing light to the fact that women's health still isn't where it should be in 2022. You are brave in bringing light to a subject that I am sure so many women can relate to. And it's hard for our partners because they don't understand... they sometimes just think we are in a dark place and we need to try harder. You are a beautiful soul and I so appreciate your channel! Thank you and I hope you're having a better week. When the symptoms come on take it one day at a time and know that you are not alone. You are normal and you will be okay. Try to self soothe when those dark days come. It's hard to see the color around you and everything feels grey...but the clouds will lift and the color will come back!

[@alexirossi]

I can’t imagine dealing with something like this back then! It’s so hard to be taken seriously by doctors even today. And you’re so right about partners not understanding. Tanner was so supportive last night and I am so lucky to have someone who does their best to understand when they know they never fully will. Thank you for all these kind words. I’m taking it easy and just trying to remember what the color looks like ❤️

[@kathleenyoung8826]

Pmdd...it has destroyed relationships, burned down careers, and led to the soul level desire to be alone for the rest of my life so that the people I love don't have to deal with me. I spent my entire ovulating life being told to get over it. Not one person ever asked me if I was okay. They approached the moods, ups and downs, the anger, the disassociation as something I chose to do. I'm approaching the age of menopause, and I tell you what...if I could convince a doctor to pull my ovaries and be done with it I would. I'm lucky to have a partner that understands, but he's tired too. It's hard for the people around you to even fathom what happens to you during this time. And, like you, I am one of the most positive people people know. I too see the wonder and beauty of the world we live in. But when it's dark, it's black. I won't be medicated. I need to figure this out.

[@alexirossi]

I hope you find a way to cope that works for you ❤️

[@Gauri2827]

I just got diagnosed with pmdd..and i can’t believe my eyes rn….this is exactly how i feel…i start to harm myself usually when i’m 2 days closer to my periods…i know how hard it is to share about this…because no one understands….how brutal pmdd can be…but thank you for doing this…thank you for letting me know that i’m not alone in this..sending you love and power. You are very strong. And i am so proud of you!

[@sabrinadawoud5088]

“This is beautiful but it’s grey” omg exactly how I feel 😢

[@2chishanelyftlyfffee609]

I can so relate i suffer with this 3 weeks of every single month. With only one week of normality. I am currently in my good week and I am thankful to feel feel so good but there's still that reminder that the nightmare that is pmdd is just around the corner. It has completely taken over my life. I can only hope and pray that one day they will find something that will help us gain back control of our life. Thank you so much for sharing, because it really makes you feel like you are at war with yourself, unarmed and without any backup.

[@alexirossi]

Sending you so much love ❤️❤️

[@reginamills6137]

Mine is 2 weeks a month. 3 weeks damn hun, even worse! I'm so sorry. I relate completely.

[@je4164]

I feel your pain. I feel like I only get a week of feeling normal😢

[@jennifer.palmer]

Brought me to tears. This came on suddenly after my second child. Or maybe I was suddenly aware of the pattern. Now that I have a family of my own, compared to my adolescent years my family life and situation is beautiful. Situationally we’re doing fine, but these hormones give me that shadow for the week ESPECIALLY first few days before my period. I completely “disconnect” I need to keep my mouth shut or I’ll probably speak negatively/over react. It’s chronic depression. I am so thankful for this video, I’m that “somebody out there”. Im on day one and felt the release. I’m ok, the cloud went away.. thankful that at least I can see it on the calendar and take precautions. Ordered some vitamins in hopes they will help ease whatever my brain is doing, it’s like me serotonin is switched to OFF. Im fine situationally but my brain thinks utterly depressed and angry thoughts. They aren’t even intelligible words, just a cloud over literally everything. 0 logic 100% emotion.

[@zoerene1032]

I’m suffering really badly right now. I was supposed to have a doctors appointment yesterday and was 4 minutes late and they said they couldn’t see me even though I called. I just started my period after not having it for 2-3 months and I’ve been suffering the entire time. No motivation, nothing everything you said made me tear up because I FELT your emotion through the screen as my own. I suffer every month and have since I started my period. I get 1-2 weeks a month feeling somewhat normal and the rest of my time is miserable. I have been inpatient for suicide attempts when I was 15, I tried committing suicide almost monthly I just felt so hopeless. I don’t act on those thoughts anymore but every month for me is so miserable. I’m so tired of hating myself and just feeling like you said, like I’m constantly dissociated and watching myself. Not only that I get so sick, like last night I vomited. I get fevers, and literally like I have the flu. My mom said she had PMDD when she was young (she’s kinda menopausal now though). I’m already on birth control and can’t take any with estrogen because I have migraines, which puts me at a higher risk of stroke. What stuck out to me the most was when you said you disconnect from your partner, it shocked me because I feel like that more often than I’d like not knowing why and to hear someone else say it makes me know I’m not crazy or selfish. I just want help I can’t take this anymore

[@reginaritter4486]

That sounds so hard. I’m sorry your having to experience so much pain right now. Know that you aren’t alone, and there are other women out there who understand what your going through. It will be okay, even when it seems grey right now. You are not alone. I know watching videos like these make me feel better and remind me that it will be okay. I wish you all the best ❤❤❤

[@zephyrrrrrrrrrrr]

I just found out about PMDD today,, i feel depressed and hopeless. 😭 two days ago, i felt like i wanted to cheat on my partner😣, last night i wanted to break up with him,, It gets so bad to a point where i just feel like cutting everybody off, including God,, i be telling him that i don’t wanna believe in him no more because i’m tired of living like this.😭 I’m glad i found out about it,, perhaps i’ll be able to deal with it better from today😔😭

[@alexirossi]

Just knowing what’s going on makes so much difference ❤️❤️

[@zephyrrrrrrrrrrr]

@@alexirossi yes.. thank you for speaking about this❤️

[@WizPUGBM]

I thought i was the only one that just wants to break up with my partner when im suffering from pmdd

[@krasav_chick]

Same girl. The part where you said that you see so much beauty and love in this world NORMALLY... oh boy, it hurts when I suddenly lose all of it and the world is just gray and hopeless 😢

[@lakritzeslena]

Oh my, poor you. I felt like hugging you. Thanks for making this video. I also have pmdd (and ADHD). And it's just so destructive, I feel like, I constantly have to rebuild what goes to shambles in thar times. I can not build a stable plan, I again and again am thrown around by my hormones. Feel you.

[@piek359]

I have bpd and i suspect PMDD what breaks my heart for all of u (myself included) is how similar this sounds to the pain and reactions of untreated bpd, only it makes me sad for bpd sufferers because they get so much hate for it when they behave v similarly (eg. Breaking up or wanting to break up with someone out of the pain in that moment and just the rage and emotions). Basically the ramped up emotions that come with pmdd is what bpd is 24/7 for some. Having both, but been treated for bpd for years and honestly pmdd is ruining my months/relationship more at the moment and this video along with others is helping me understand it really is as bad as it feels, that its not in my head, (has been massively understated/invalidated in my family as older generations just didnt “do” hormones/moods/womens health) and I’m not alone. So thank you for sharing ❤️

[@cams819]

Thank you. I am 38 and was diagnosed with this disorder by my gynecologist a few years ago. Everything you said is spot on. I started tracking my symptoms a few years ago and found that, like clockwork, they happened about 5 days before my cycle; the irrational anxiety, feelings of doom, excessive worry, crying jags for no reason, feeling disconnected from myself and inability to concentrate. It is a WILD disorder. What has helped me for a few years is Serenol, prescribed by my gynecologist. It tames the emotional symptoms of PMS but doesn't make them disappear. I do combine that with Zoloft, but this week, I had an episode where I was crying for no reason, feeling hopeless for no reason. Im 2 days out from my period. Thank you for sharing your story to bring more awareness.

[@alfsmom8025]

I was almost shocked to see you do and hear you say exact things I have. I can't believe how different I become, how much I externalized onto my partner. I swore I would write down the PMDD days this month and plan my schedule accordingly, but of course I forgot and while you're in it, it's so hard to remember you are not yourself. Switching to Yaz helped, but next month I am making sure my week is light and as chill as possible!! I *have* to lounge for five days so I don't set myself up for a shitty other three-ish weeks every month. It's hard to think that way, but with every horrible episode, I am getting a lot more serious about taking care of myself

[@alexirossi]

It’s a process, but the more we are open to learning about ourselves and accepting ourselves the easier it can become. ❤️❤️

[@buzzblaze1998]

I’m going through the exact same thing. You literally explained everything that I experienced last week. I’m on my day 2 of my period today and I feel like myself again, hopeful, happy and mostly relieved that the worst days are over. Thank you for being so brave and sharing this with us ♥️

[@allierachel]

Hi! I have this and when I first got it I was scared to be alone and thought I was dying. My mom did some deep dive research for me because I kept crying and telling her that something wasn’t right and she found me some vitamins. I think the brand is Flo, and they help keep your hormones on track and they really helped me. I hope you can try them and maybe help you too.

[@carinamoszek7482]

I started suffering with this 3 years ago. It has destroyed relationships and brought me to such low places that, even as a person with some history of depression, didn't know existed. I am just a different person 10-14 days out of the month. Your video was so helpful, even if it's just to say we're in this together. I was diagnosed and prescribed prozac today. Hopefully in the future there will be more options.

[@sarahmcdonald6980]

So glad to not feel alone. Going through a bad PMDD week and been screaming at my partner. It feels like watching this demon unleash out of my body with no control. I know it’s wrong but can’t control

[@KatKnwsBest]

I love the redirection of self talk. Fake it till you feel it 🤮🤢. It’s so dark for those 10 days. This was so relatable 🫂 thank you for sharing this. I needed this.

[@meghanbe]

Thank you so much for making and posting this video. This is probably the most honest representation of PMDD I've ever watched--like looking in a mirror at times, unfortunately (for both of us). I just sent a link to my best friend, who is only now coming to the realization that there's a reason she falls apart every month... Sharing yourself in this way is both brave and genuinely helpful. I appreciate people like you more than a KZbin comment can adequately express.

[@LJG81]

I honestly thought I was going insane until I was diagnosed with PMDD. My mum suffered from PMDD (undiagnosed) all her life. After the menopause, she was like a completely different person, we actually get on now and I understand why she was the way she was. I’m on treatment now and it does help to a degree. Mirena coil, hormone balancers and 4000iu vitamin D3 and 100g K2MK7. It’s the best I’ve felt in years.

[@nuravoid7096]

I have ptsd, bpd and pmdd. It honestly is so hard living like this but you got this! DBT skills have helped me a lot and I have meds in case of emergency.

[@MamaGG16]

When you tried to convince yourself that you’re happy, I totally relate to this even though it never works 😢

[@nelsie2909]

I’ve been feeling this way for the longest time ever. A week or so prior to my period I’ll feel extra emotional, have mood swings, multiple breakdowns and even cases of paranoia.. and for the longest time I’ve blamed myself, my personality and my characteristic traits and hated myself for it. Its honestly made me feel like I am crazy and alone and always self-sabotaging. But this video made me feel alittle less alone 🙁♥️

[@genemarini5253]

this made me realize something, we do have to fight for women’s health, we need to fight to let our voices be heard! I haven’t been diagnosed with PMDD (yet) but I do get a lot of symptoms of this. one day, one day we will find a way to get out!

[@sable4492]

I am so glad you made this video. I was diagnosed with PMDD recently and just hate the comments I get when I feel I am being so much stronger than I feel. Momming it up while working. I have even had women make comments like Get over it thats life. And I feel like they dont understand at all.

[@kristenberg4906]

Omg thank you for making yourself so vulnerable. U are NOT alone. I’m a nurse, a nurse Educator at that and I still can’t find a gynecologist that REALLY addresses this issue. I’m already on medication and birth control and it doesn’t make the PMDD any less tolerable. We both know some months are easier than others. I feel less alone in tbis after watching your video. Thank you ❤

[@jessamaegaspar132]

Thank you for showing this, you are very brave 💗 sending hugs to all girls out there who have PMDD🥺

[@shanlouise7634]

Thankyou for sharing your story , im In tears watching this video. PMDD is so real and it's not talked about enough and it's so hard to get people to understand how debilitating it is. I'm sorry your feeling so bad with it. Sending hugs xx

[@reginamills6137]

It truly is not talked about enough. People think we just wanna act like this.

[@ninagolubovic1230]

I am really struggling and frightened , I can't find joy in anything right now , like you I also feel hopeless , and severely body dysmorphic specifically facial dysmorphia . This is so hard , this is so painful , I am so unbelivebly frightened , love to all the other ladies with this also ❤

[@nataliapiechowiak9442]

Thank you for sharing this so vulnerably. I'm 36 and I experience PMDD too and go through it in pretty much the same way as you showed. Some months very severe, like this time around, other months less. Since I became aware of it and addressed it through food and natural ways I learned to manage it better which is huge. I used to have the most severe symptoms (physical and emotional) start roughly around two weeks prior to my next cycle but over the past three years since I started working on my menstrual health properly with a functional medicine specialist the symptoms started to show less. Some months I get them a week prior but most of the time I get them between 2-4 days prior to my period starting; on occasion I had no major symptoms at all which is a huge progress for me and gives me hope that I have a chance to fully overcome it with the right lifestyle choices. I'm still trying to figure out how to support the loss of focus because this affects me at work big time. Sending you so much love and to all the women here. It is a big deal that we finally talk about it more openly. Thank you

[@emilypatterson3314]

I am pretty sure I have this. It’s so incredibly intense. It’s made me hopeless, paranoid, extremely anxious and even question my perfect relationship with my boyfriend who I love very much. It gets worse in the winter, it feels much longer and, of course, I’m sure seasonal depression does not help either. Thank you for making this video! It is good to know we are not alone ❤️ Women need to stick together! We have such a unique life experience . Much love❤️❤️❤️

[@josefiensmits9282]

I just want to say thank you SO MUCH for making this video. I have been struggling with this (apparently) for a very long time and felt so unsure of who I was and why I was having those feelings. I just watched your video and everything feels like it’s fallen in place… and it’s just SO NICE to know that I am not the only one. So just thank you so much. you are amazing for daring to say this and share your feelings in this way. ❤

[@alexandrialee_]

You are so strong for making this video, thank you. I’ve struggled with PMDD most of my life as well. Also not having a strong female figures in my life makes it extra hard at times. Men can only understand so much.

[@somewhatlittle379]

Thank you for being real, and showing us what your struggle with pmdd is like for you. I only just realised with my last cycle that I've had pmdd for a long as i can remember. I had a bad 'episode' last month, to the point of dissociation much like yourself, but i was driving, and nearly had a car accident. I've never in my life experienced something like that before. To be fair I've had a difficult year, and i hasn't been doing well before that hell week started. But I'm terrified for what comes this month.. You're really brave for showing us the reality. You're right, it needs to be spoken about. I'd never heard of it until i google my symptoms..

[@aleshabegley9534]

Thank you, for a very honest and raw video. I am 47 and have been struggling with Pmdd for years now. It’s been a very tough week to say the least. I think I’m premenopausal on top of everything. When I’m in the “pit” I have no hope, I have no self esteem and want to leave my husband of almost 30 years. On my good weeks, we are very happy. I usually have great hope and a good prayer life but when it hits, I can’t pray… I just want to roll up in a ball. I have finally decided to ask my doctor for help. I tend to try to fix things my self or think next month will be different, but not this time. I hope you have found some help. I appreciate your video so much.

[@Robertadylan1]

You are beautiful and thank you for sharing this. My marriage of 30 years has been devastated by pmdd. My husband has suffered because of this and i am 49 and just learning about what was happening. I thought i could handle it each month and then it won every time. I really related to how you described feeling distanced from your partner. This hursts them too. Thank you for sharing

[@desireerondeau8781]

Thanks for sharing this is so difficult, I feel like nobody i know really believes how intense it all is. I know this will all be fine in a week but then in another three it will be back. Its so hard to stay positive and not feel hopeless during this dark time.

[@maribelgavina]

Thanks for that last part. You’re right, better days will come. Just do our best and be gentle with ourselves during the bad days. Don’t give in to our minds tricks. We all have worth. ❤❤❤

[@parkersoulsoundz]

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience. I think I may have pmdd, I just discovered pmdd maybe 3 years ago on KZbin. I have been going through some tough times with my partner and we are both in our late 30's, well rounded and hard working women. The past few months have been extremely hard and exhausting. 4 months ago I quit a job that I initially Co-founded. The business was going great, however my mental and emotional health was declining day by day and I began coping more and more with Alcohol. When decided to be blunt with myself and say "hey girl, your drinking before noon and nearly hammered when leave work.". I knew that something was going on because I would rather wake up and start drinking just so I didn't have to feel so shitty mentally... I know, I know alcohol doesn't help a dang thing. But I quit the job, I cut waayyy back on my alcohol consumption. 2 months ago, I got into an argument with my landlord and he called the cops on me and gave me an eviction notice. Luckily he and I sorted out differences. The past 2 months all I'vedone is fight with my partner about the insurmountable list of bullshit that I have to focus on fixing because of my emotional outbursts and lack of energy and motivation to get a job... Ohhh yeah, the month of July I landed a great job with FedEx and 2 weeks into the job I severly injured my dominant hand and arm.... I'm working on getting workers comp. But my financial situation sucks, my emotional state and outbursts suck.. i know that this overwhelming feeling is not like me .. I'm a go getter, not a quitter and a very loving and caring person. Ugggg sucks.... the emotional of it all. Each month seems harder. 😢

[@Ioviliusx99]

Seriously, thank you for this video. Wish I had discovered it a few hours ago! I just realized I had all those symptoms for some time now (I'm 23). I am already used to depression but a few weeks ago, I discovered, that like 5-7 days before my period, I feel horrible. More than usual. Seriously never felt as much dysphoria for 'no reason'. I thought about PMS but took it lightly because I thought that it'd be 'nothing'. When I had a breakdown after work crying for hours I searched KZbin and discovered PMDD in a short clip video. Helped me out of my state of mind because there was some answer to my behaviour. Next videos I could relate so much and finally could laugh again watching a video comparing PMDD to "PMS on Steroids". Haha. Anyway, this is important to talk about and I really appreciate the courage to share this wonderful content. Seeing someone experience similar sht like me somehow made me feel a lot better. Will definitely talk about this, it's a shame that word isn't spread! Now we can at least look forward to get our period. LMAO

[@jadiegroebli541]

Found you in my darkest episode. Thank you for sharing. You are such a light, even if you don’t feel like it. ❤️ You truly are. You radiate love even when you’re feeling low. Praying for ease on your heart, & mine

[@kaylastewart2396]

I’ve been recognizing that my attitude towards life changes and I’m easily emotionally triggered a week before my period starts for some months now. It always goes away like nothing happened and I can think clearly when my period starts. I’m not certain if it’s pmdd as I’m not diagnosed but oh man.. do all the symptoms feel accurate. I’m so grateful you shared your experience. You’re very strong and wonderful.

[@FlopTheNarrator]

Thank you for sharing. It’s helpful to see someone else who struggles with this. ❤

[@MaeJovovich]

I am currently going through this. It’s one of the most difficult things and it’s so hard to explain to people when it’s happening. When you mentioned the issues with your relationships and feeling disconnected that resonated with me so much. You feel so alone almost and question things. It’s honestly something I don’t wish upon anyone especially the hopelessness and feeling like you’re incapable of functioning through the day. Thank you so much for showing your transparency but also expressing your emotional experience through your week. It makes me feel less alone and like I’m not crazy. 🥺♥️

[@alexirossi]

I’m so so glad I can help you feel less alone! You are absolutely not crazy and the fog will lift soon ❤️❤️

[@jessamaegaspar132]

Yesterday, I'm fine. I'm on 13th day before my period, and all I did today is cry on my bed and I can't stop.

[@catelizabeth]

I love you❤️be gentle with yourself and have patience. When you feel more like yourself, I would love to hear more about this. Talk about it when you're in a space where you can look at it with some clarity. Hope you feel better soon❤️

[@alexirossi]

Thank you ❤️❤️ I can definitely talk more about this in a future video. I’ve gotten a lot of people tell me they haven’t ever even heard of it so I’d love to help spread some more awareness!

[@lucindavieira-martins646]

So relatable and thank you so much for explaining so clearly what you are going through. I dissociate and when i first started to experience it i thought i was losing my mind and I was so unbelievably scared. Im so comforted to know that i am not alone and that there are others out there who also know what im experiencing, even though the thought of that in itself makes me sad because its such a traumatic thing to go through, near on every single month. Thinking of you all

[@sadieegbert2621]

Thank you for being vulnerable and honest. Just about everything you said resonated with me. And I feel less alone while dealing with my PMDD this month (I just want to start bleeding already haha!). Bless you.💛

[@Pilotte00]

Thank you so much for this. I am struggling with PMDD as well (I am not diagnosed yet, I didn’t even know this was a thing before going though a terrible episode the past weeks) and I am going to watch the last part in which you say that it’s going to be better in a week every time I feel low because of it. This was truly eye opening for me.

[@angelgaudet3697]

Try keeping a journal. That’s what I did. I looked back in my journal months later and saw a pattern! Then take your journal to your dr.

[@Rebeccaluvxoxo]

Watching this and crying with you ☹️😞I can’t even function right now, it’s SO hard.😢

[@Yas.min3000]

Me neither. I'm in college for electrical engineering and I feel like PMDD will ruin this path..

[@Slowlivinggirl89]

Girly it’s ok! We love you for who you are!!! This shit sucks! Hugs sweetie I’m always here for you!!!!

[@alexirossi]

Thank you!! ❤️❤️

[@Slowlivinggirl89]

@@alexirossi ♥️♥️♥️

[@alara102]

Thank you! I needed it! Also, we need it (pmdd) to be more known, seen and acknowledged. It’s maybe difficult to put everything open online...I feel less alone and it gives me a courage. *virtual hugs*

[@nellieworld8909]

Ik this video is old but thank you so much for uploading this ! I have been struggling with PMDD my entire adolescence and young adulthood and I am glad that there’s more content and a growing online community for us. Having such a rare disorder is so isolating but these videos make me feel less alone💙

[@ttul]

I’m so glad you shared this. Thank you so so much.

[@Bizarrebarbie]

I really do appreciate your transparency and your story so much. Thank you

[@sasmac8287]

Thank you for sharing ur truth, the brutal awful reality of how PMDD makes me feel every month. Im now about to start my journey into being properly diagnosed, and its through videos like urs that I am able to relate to and see I’m not a crazy person ❤️ big love

[@viktoriam8977]

Thank you for sharing this!! I relate so much to your experience, makes me feel less alone.

[@c.1523]

Thanks for sharing, this is very enlightening. I am also 28 and only in the past few years have heard much about pmdd. Having suffered from postpartum depression multiple times I started doing more research about hormone related depression and I now suspect that I likely have had pmdd since I was a teen without having any idea that my symptoms weren't entirely "normal." Stay strong! ❤

[@alexirossi]

I’ve always wondered if there was a connection with PMDD and postpartum depression!

[@keerthanadileep4248]

Thanks for sharing your experience. And hugs to all other struggling women out there. I lost a good friendship due to pmdd. Since there is no permanent relief from this, I think everyone should learn somehow to deal with it on their own....It will at least save relationships then. It's really scary to think that I have to live with this my whole life. I'm worried about the nights I can't stop crying, the relationship that's going to get destroyed, the anxiety that's going to hit hard and the depressive episodes. All the best to me and all others struggling with pmdd.

[@launacasey6513]

I appreciate the insight about feeling distant from your partner. For me it felt like it came out of nowhere a few days ago. I feel your pain. I brought up the possibility that I had PMDD to my doctor and it felt like it was ignored. I found some good info from Elizabeth Ferreira on KZbin, it might be worth checking out if you haven't. What I appreciate about people's personal KZbin channels is that it allows us to feel like we are not alone in our suffering. Take care ❤

[@justleanintoit9053]

Totally resonate, cryin along with you babes x

[@eileencrane1125]

Thank you for posting this video on such a debilitating hormonal issue. Yes my mom gave it to me lol so we both share stories about it but I was at my wits end with this curse and I did a ton of research on holistic modalities and supplements to at least bring it down a notch with symptoms. I started taking evening primrose oil, omega-3 fish oil, terry naturally Tri-Iodine, Now brand DIM 200 and infra red sauna, dandelion tea 1x daily for 2 weeks prior to bleeding. I have been doing this for 3 months straight and proudly can say I feel 50% better NOT perfect but I feel hell a lot better than all these years suffering. I wish you all luck and your not alone!

[@fredhan7845]

thank you for sharing this and being so transparent i think many women feel the same as you just they hold in all the feelings and never even get diagnosed with PMDD thank you for giving me a new perspective on the human condition

[@johanssenn]

Tbh holding in your feelings when you have pmdd is like eating a huge platter of blue cheese when you have an extreme lactose intolerance😂

[@neko_neko9]

My periods had stopped for 3 years once and came back at a painfully slow pace. Before that they were also irregular, so it's only been a year since I've had regular periods (thanks psychotherapy, I feel like that unblocked something). And now I finally have my period I seem to have PMDD as part of the package. Great..

[@shaliejenkins6021]

I cried while you cried. This IS worth sharing and I thank you. I missed my period this month and I feel incredibly hopeless and don’t think I can make it to the next presumed period. I hate this. I’m So sorry you’re going through it. Sending love. And a hug. You’re fkn strong.

[@BetweenHereAndThereWithDALiLA]

Alexi thanks for sharing this with the world. You are a goddess and a very brave one. Not everyone has the courage to expose herself and her vulnerabilities in front of the world like you do. I really appreciate you and sending you all the positive vibes and better days ahead. Not everyone knows about this and there's so many woman's and people out there suffering in silence. And in ignorance for the lack of support towards this condition. I deal with it for my whole entire life since I have my first period at 11 year's old. I finally found relief at my 39 years old. When I have to go in a emergency hysterectomy. I pass out in the bathroom, my kids found me, call 911, the hospital has to put me in a pint of blood transfusion and they also discovered that I have some huge cysts in my ovaries. But for years I suffer in silence. In my case, no medical medicines, pills, therapy and "natural hormones" help me out. Unfortunately because of lack of information in my generation time and the scare of talking about it. I suffer in silence for decades. Unfortunately my ADHD, childhood traumas, my depression, my anxiety doesn't help with the condition. And when I have my kids very unfortunately make me worse and Postpartum Depression come into the equation. My family, my marriage, my kids and everything around me was affected constantly in my life for years. Unfortunately my ex-husband and father of my kids wasn't understandable and caring like your Tanner. I'm so happy to know that he supports you and try he's best to be there for you. That is very important. I can't tell you that is going to magically dissolve and gets better. But just like the comments I read in here. Definitely meditation, self time, diet and family support is very important to make you feel better. And have better days. Again thanks for sharing this with us. Please be sure that you are not alone in all the emotional, mental and physical feelings you are having. Please don't hesitate to call, text, email or whatever works for you to have some emotional support from me or anyone that you feel safe and good. I'm here, we are here, all together to support each other's back. We love you, keep looking at the beautiful sky and shining bright! 💪🌳🙏🧘🛀💃😸🕉️☮️🥰💚

[@alexirossi]

Thank you for sharing this ❤️❤️

[@nowwhat1434]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@spicycashewfam]

Thank you for making this video. You have put words to things I could not bring myself to say when I am going through a PMDD episode. I've known for a few years that I have it (realized I always have). I found some supplements that have made a night-and-day difference for me in the past, but I haven't been able to take them recently. I don't realize how much they help until I'm not taking them. If you haven't found anything that helps you, I am willing to share what helps me. I truly hope that you know it doesn't have to be like this for you every month. I don't know you at all but I immediately connected with everything you were saying. Your video has spurred me to start trying to fight my way back out of the darkness again. Thank you.

[@inBeccasEyes]

Thank you for sharing this. This past month was the worst Ive experienced in almost a year. I disassociate too and felt life shaking lows. The clouds parted today when I started to bleed after a 38 day cycle. Spreading awareness on this is so important. Your vulnerability is honorable. I see you

[@vivi7624]

It's so hard . And the closer you get to your period the worse it gets. You just anxiously wait for that feeling of relief when it finally comes. It makes me feel crazy and out of control, it's a rollercoaster,and not a fun one:/

[@loulouisastar6719]

I feel the exact way. its the second day not going to school and I just feel so guilty. PMDD makes me so broken inside and hopeless. This is so debilitating and I really suffer from it. Something that makes me really angry is that my gyno didn't take me seriously at all. I am now almost 15 y/o and I always hear that it only gets worse when you get older. I am really scared of the future and just want it to stop.

[@herhomemakingheart]

Oh my goodness this is so relatable. The week before my period and during is awful and the rest of the time I'm normal.. hmm. I will have to look more into this. Praying for you and hoping you will have a better month next month. ❤ Thank you for bringing this to light because I've never heard of it before this!

[@alexirossi]

This is exactly why I made this video. So many women don’t even know this is a thing and knowing about it can make all the difference when managing symptoms ❤️❤️

[@herhomemakingheart]

@@alexirossi Yes I'm definitely going to look more into it! Thank you for sharing even though it is a vulnerable thing to film real, genuine and raw emotions and mental health struggles. Hugs.

[@tarantulabunnydog]

I completely relate to this video - I don’t know if this is what I have, but it makes me feel better to know that I am not alone in the confusion about why I feel so Incredibly low and hopeless when my life on the surface should be something to be celebrated.

[@bonjourbonjourcommentallez3126]

Thank you so much for posting this 💛 i have PMDD and i'm french so we have zero info on the subject. I went to doctors, therapists that couldn't help me (my doctor didn't ever heard about PMS and she is a woman lol). I found some info only in english on Google 😵‍💫 but i felt so alone and ashamed of my own feelings. And i'm queer, i hate having my period because it's a "woman thing" and i don't feel like a woman. My PMDD makes me do SH and drink too much, i really struggle each month and can't find help. So thanks for filming this, making me know i'm not alone ❤️‍🩹

[@k.a.1760]

Thank you for talking about this, thank you for actually showing yourself in the middle of it. That's brave and as someone who knows exactly what you are feeling, it's so amazing!

[@salonisharma4152]

Thank you SO SO much for being so brave and honest in sharing your experience! I definitely needed to see this today. I cried with you the whole video because I’m in this exact state today. And this video is the only thing that finally calmed me down. I’m sending you so much love and sunshine 💕💕💕

[@alexirossi]

I’m so glad this video was helpful for you. I’m sending you love as well. The clouds will lift ❤️ take care of yourself today. Take care of your heart.

[@MysticMiss]

I needed to hear this 💕 feel better

[@alexirossi]

I’m so glad!! ❤️ thank you 🥰

[@amyw6824]

I just want to give you a hug. I relate so much to everything you've said in this video. I've struggled with PMDD since I was a teen though was only recently diagnosed. Some months are harder than others and I related to you when you said you thought you had been "cured" when you didn't have a PMDD episode for a month or two. I also have that out of body experience you described when I'm severely anxious and restless. I feel like I can't control myself, my thoughts, or my actions. I'm remaining hopeful and continuing to search for a treatment that works. I just joined a DBT skills group and will have an individual therapist soon. I'm also trying different medications, currently lamotrigine and chasteberry. Thanks for sharing your experience. ❤

[@lindsaypeek63]

Ugh the part where you said I don’t see a good bright future. I totally relate. Usually i feel I feel hopeful but during those times everything seems dark hopeless and doomed. It’s awful

[@OneBoot333]

I needed this. This is what I got dealt too. I also deal with a whiplash injury that's sends chronic pain down my neck, dominant hand & my diaphragm. Hasn't really been good to me lately. If I start to feel hopeless, it's scary because I can hurt myself if I cry too hard & the pain will get worse for months. I get so many headaches too... 😩

[@alicegoldenvalley]

Thank you so much for this!!❤

[@beeathome1064]

This is so relatable. Thank you for doing this! It took me so long (mid thirties) to finally realize what was wrong and get treated for it ❤

[@jenny86516]

Lots and lots of love to you ❤

[@starlite2222]

Me crying because I feel you 😢💓✨

[@Ohitsandii]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I go through the same thing and it’s such a struggle. It’s nice to know that I don’t have to struggle alone ❤️

[@AliVanSickle]

My mom often says "we can't talk" or "we can't be around each other" when I'm about to start my period because I get such bad emotions that it starts a lot of issues. Not blaming myself at all, I know I can't help it. But it makes relationships so hard. I too often think about running away or "not being here" during this hard time. I'm not diagnosed but I've wondered for a few years if I have this. I also eat like a monster, and then as SOON as i start my period, those feelings subside drastically. and I also tend to kind of lose that appetite i had before.

[@chrissy2755]

8 months post making this video and I’m here watching this. I’m struggling so bad right now with my PMDD. Made me tear up because it’s so darn relatable. Would love an update. I hope you’re okay xx

[@allierachel]

Hi! I have this and when I first got it I was scared to be alone and thought I was dying. My mom did some deep dive research for me because I kept crying and telling her that something wasn’t right and she found me some vitamins. I think the brand is Flo, and they help keep your hormones on track and they really helped me. I hope you can try them and maybe help you too.

[@biankamittermaier7031]

I feel you! Having a hard time at the moment, too.

[@spookykiki]

I NEEDED to hear this 🧡 thank you.