[🌹] abnormality dancing girl. || TWs in video!

uhh it’s kinda hard to explain what the purpose of this video is lol 😞 it started out as stress relief but i ended up having some fun with it, so…. feel free to consider this part of aisling’s (my persona’s) backstory!
the girl in the yellow sweater represents my irl self, but within aisling’s backstory she represents her younger self as well! real confusing i know. lol.

[@aiislxnq]

KZbin STOP ABSOLUTELY BUTCHERING MY VIDEOS’ QUALITY WHEN I UPLOAD THEM. AAAAAAAA

[@-ToriLovesHerself-]

You earned my sub great work ❤

[@Jemmitza]

Yes! I stumbled on another underrated gachatuber!

[@Fredboyos]

Damn, really gives off a vibe "Murdered my own self just to become something else and better" I go through this state at least ten times per month It's always something along lines "Forget it, forget it, forget it" or "Get out of my head, get out of my head" But it's just a temporarily effect that wears off the next day Though it makes me realize how crazy I can get and how I drive myself insane just to feel somewhat sane Btw, even if it does seem like a vent, it's nothing I'm sensitive about, so to whoever reads it, dw, guys

[@aiislxnq]

yeah, i suppose that me having those feelings were a part of why i made this video ,, i can more or less understand how u feel 😞 i’m awfully sorry, i know that experiencing that disconnection between two parts of urself can rlly, rlly suck,, but those different little parts of u, while they might not all be perfect, are all deserving of validation and care ^^

[@Fredboyos]

@@aiislxnq Thanks a lot, but that's just the way I interpret that video because I do have a puppeteer of my own that takes hold of me whenever I get weak and extremely angered. And people could call it anger issues, but it's not something along lines "I'll say it cause I can", I say it cause something forces me to speak. Though even if I can't stop it, I'm learning to keep myself together much better. I know there are more parts of me and I imagine them. Most of the times whenever I listen to music on my way to school and back, I think of them. I'm picturing them better and the images have been switching. I guess it's a coping mechanism that lets me understand parts of me better even though I don't have any official papers about having a DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), I think it may have something to do with how I act. I've also developed my own theory about what happens after death which helps me cope with life. I don't believe in any religions but that's what they are, beliefs, not all appear right to you so you sometimes think on your own. That's what religions are about anyway, an answer to humanity's questions. But yeah, I don't think I need to say anything more. Everything is self-explanatory. Edit: A fun fact, I have huge gaps in my past and I can only remember a couple situations. It's like something's stealing the memories from me.

[@aiislxnq]

yeah, i can at least somewhat relate to that 💔.. ig my situation is more… metaphorical? like the me that i show to other people online, during conversations, etc., is so wildly different from what i feel is my real “true” self that they’ve almost,, completely separated? like what i thought were two halves of the same whole have become two entirely different people, and now i rlly have no idea which one is which - which one is real, and which one is the facade. dramatics aside, our situations might b pretty different, but i’m glad we were able 2 find some common ground, even if it was on some random silly gacha animation thingy aha ^^ it’s nice 2 know ur not completely alone in the world. i wish you nothing but the best in whatever happens next in life :>

[@Fredboyos]

@@aiislxnq Hmm, well, I have the same problem when it comes to my online and irl personality. I am quite different when it comes to how I act here and there. I've come to conclusion there are four sides of me that I've separated into: A wimpy child who's got nothing but trauma on his back that he tries to keep behind. An egoistic and sadistic tormentor who'd love to see a little pain in people's eyes. A crazy yet sane alternative which adores manipulation and destroying me entirely. A contained yet anxious teenager which is stuck in puberty and is easily manipulated. Basically, the first one is my irl trauma combined with my online trauma, the second is the aftermath of all the negative emotions and memories in my life, the third feels like a near yet far away future that keeps backing away - basically there are too many times I remember feeling like I'll lose it at that exact moment yet it never happened, and the last one is simply a mix of me and the past life me. But I really hope the best for you too! The videos that you unintentionally vent in may have been made a few months ago, but I still do hope the best for you regardless!

[@luizgaming2322]

After reading all of this this is literally what I'm going through today not 100% tho after streaming in twitch someone literally calls me, annoying, unfunny and retarted and that hit me so hard.... especially of who i am after seeing what that person says i literally feel like i want to give up being me or waybe life in the future remembering others memories i regret in my past and want to change my personality and become someone else who has respect and gives joy to peoples not hated, suffering and being annoying my brain literally getting taken over/corrupted by that person's message and i just, trying to hold in my tears and fighting it and keep saying to myself... if you can't accept of who i am then you can leave and never come back i won't change who i am... no matter what, i will fight it.. this is who i am and deal with it i am not gonna abandon all the stuff i did that brings me joy in my life it very rare for me to get sad/emotional but if it does happen it feels like i'm not myself... and for me i hate being sad/emotional, it's just not me but it happens sometimes and I feel like, i want to regret it and every time i either sad or anger i feel like something fouce me to let it out anger : i just want to break something very hard and let it out and say... Why? sad : i just want to regret what i have done but probably won't be forgiven and be forgotten... but like i said before in the past or from other people's Everyone gets through some hard times but remember ... we will get through it as long as we don't give up hope is somewhere

[@wilted.]

I swear the good ones are always hella underrated!

[@iswaytoosillyhelp]

YOOOOO-✨ NAH I'M SOO GLAD KZbin RECOMMEND ME YOUR VIDEO>:00 the editing is everythinggg😩✨✨ But may I askk? What apps do you use? :0

[@aiislxnq]

im so glad you liked the video :DDD!! as for your question, i use capcut for all of my editing, and ibispaint for the art!

[@theendofitalll]

THIS IS SO COOL ????? WHY DONT YOU HAVE MORE ATTENTION AISY WAISY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺☹️

[@gakukaiyaoi]

WAAAAA THIS IS LITERALLY SO COOL AISY WAISY‼️‼️‼️

[@jedemysurban3470]

I literally love this video 🤩

[@juneishbug]

WAHHH AISLY THIS IS AMAZING 💔‼‼‼‼/VVPOS/GEN

[@aiislxnq]

ASGDGF THANK UUU

[@zyuukiraa]

Amazing too underrated 😘💗

[@swirlzeon]

THIS IS SO COOL OH MY GOD. I LOVE THIS

[@feralbreadx.]

WOAH yiur so undeatted wtf the editing and the characters ?1!?2?2 i love it

[@aiislxnq]

ASDFJGHFGG THANK UU IM VERY FLATTERED!! 💖 i’m glad you enjoyed the video :D !!

[@feralbreadx.]

@@aiislxnq YWWWW

[@kagechrisjackfan3955]

What programs do you use? This work is amazing AF

[@aiislxnq]

i am. *horrifically* sorry for the incredibly late reply 😦 but i use capcut for the editing and text!!

[@alan_not_here]

​@@aiislxnqdo you use ibis paint for the art? (blood tears and other)

[@_athi_444]

I looove it+ new sub❤️‍🔥🫶🏻

[@yourfriendosky]

New subbie :)

[@oxygenate]

damn this is super good u deserve way more attention then this

[@shina931]

Another great videos, great job

[@Tombstonefvcko]

This is very cool!