Adam T - NA Speaker - 12-Step Recovery - Drug addiction - NA Speakers - Narcotics Anonymous

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[@alexanderorourke123]

I've been going in and out of ca for 4 years and had 9 relapses in treatment 8 times and I'm 38 days clean and this is the best share I've ever heard thanks I was feeling really low today and this has gave me Hope 💯❤🙏🙏🙏

[@julieann4616]

How are you??

[@poetryjones7946]

Please stay clean. I need that hope. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@garlandowen9369]

I live in a group home with active addicts. I listen to NA on KZbin and haven't used illicit dope in years

[@t-bonewhufc6429]

It’s not a relapse and calling it that is a disservice to the program it a resumption not a relapse !!

[@kimberlymorris9107]

Hi im 5 days clean. Finally off methadone, just got out of detox on tuesday. Im having a hard time sleeping, im lucky to get an hour a night.... I feel like complete shit and these na speaker videos are giving me a lot of strength and hope. I appreciate it so much! :)

[@riceflatpicking4954]

How you doing now?

[@kimberlymorris9107]

@@riceflatpicking4954 wow!! That was a long time ago! I’m not even gonna explain too much, you know how Covid went for a lot of us! It was a huge struggle when the meetings shut down and I relapsed, I lost the only support I’ve known. That’s just a page in my story. I just celebrated 19 months!! I appreciate you getting back to me!! I hope all is well!!! 🥰🥰

[@julieann4616]

@@kimberlymorris9107 wow you just responded to that other person, I was going to ask the same. I’m so happy to know you’re here & you’re doing well!❤❤

[@iam_Klaus]

​@@kimberlymorris9107much love from Sydney Australia. I really dig your taste in music. Before COVID came to town, I used to photograph many of the artists you listen to. Anyway. Jussayin. Much love and respect.

[@chantezscott1776]

Keep up the good work. 💪🏾 One minute at a time.

[@felixcobos33]

17 years of in and out of treatment and the rooms today 3yrs 9months and 5 days clean thank you Adam yes we do Recover

[@nicolewilliams9243]

because of narcotics anonymous I will be 7 months clean on Thursday February 18th..I truly thank God for this simple program that's changed my life..

[@j.ramone4116]

5months 9days here

[@eddieprice7237]

How are you today?

[@Controllerbreaker]

​@@eddieprice7237drunk and stoned

[@esink46]

i was too scared to attend my first meeting tonight, so I listened to this instead once someone asked if I went. I actually feel excited to attend a meeting now.

[@speaklife9176]

20 years sober. I don’t think the cravings ever disappear. Meetings are a must.

[@billeianastatia]

Im sooo happy that i am NA member, today i have 132 clean day, and i never thought that i could have this, bc i was a Russian drug addict 14 years old child, who want to be killed by overdose, and now i have you guys, the WORLDS community, and finally i can live, without taking drugs. It's a miracle

[@JoyDavidson]

Hi. Are you still sober today? If you aren't, that's OK! Just keep coming back.

[@robbelt]

I have never heard a better speaker. Adam, GOD bless you my friend.

[@jeremyprice88]

This tape helped push me back into NA 4mos ago.... i made it 2mos, and fell back off, been stuck there since... came back to try and recapture that feeling. Pray for me guys, im powerless over this

[@stevelegault8666]

Jeremy Price, I get it, I’m on and off the roller coaster and wanna be clean but can’t, I pray for you

[@benhaad4sho]

Been around since 85. Never heard this guy before. Laughed my ass off. Just got back from world convention in Orlando FL. It was awesome. It's good to be clean.

[@lindsaymccallister8768]

I absolutely love this message! This is my third time listening to it in the last few months I was feeling like I needed a meeting so I turned this on. I'm so grateful today for narcotics anonymous and those who were here before me that carry the message. My favorite part is when Adam says, if your sitting here thinking about using it beats the hell out of sitting in a dope house thinking about getting clean. God bless.

[@aprilsmith6759]

WOW.....I am listening and he didn't even get to that part yet but what a WONDERFUL way to look at Thinking about using!

[@missjudy7188]

He reads the book 👍🙏📖

[@awf80]

These speaker tapes are great , but they are not substitutes for meetings

[@livingstone8347]

​@@awf80I agree. The tapes are brilliant, and definitely needed. Also, like the online meetings, no substitute for actual meetings. We need the connection and to meet others going through it.

[@KenR-6262]

Not to mention that we only have one thing to do and that’s carrying the message to the addict who still suffers. This is hard to do from home. There’s no way better for me than to go to the meetings.

[@GoodgirlzrockNone-e7x]

Hi my name is Christina D an im an addict,im clean and sober today so todays my start of my sobriety date. Thank you for you support,its my first official date.❤

[@BigFaceLowcutt313]

one of the best talks i've ever heard.

[@katiekat8438]

Absolutely great message! Today I have 5 months clean. I was listening to this message while getting ready for work this morning and it was truly a message that touched me, very inspirational. Thank you for your service.

[@daisyedde5952]

i have 30 days clean its grate i see this guy helping me a lot

[@virgosoul]

Come coming back!!

[@SteveTumelty]

❤ Adam. Best speaker. I'm Steve . I'm sorry for all I have hurt. God is love❤😊. Been in n.a 20 years. Made lots of mistakes I'm clean today. My kids I'm so sorry I love❤ use so much . Steve.

[@queenluv3301]

Hands down one of the best leads I've ever heard. Thanks Adam T. for sharing the humour, the humility and the honesty of your journey with all of us. You are truly an inspiration! Keep on keepin' on my recovery brother. Prayers & Blessings!🎖🎗🎁🏅🏆 #WeDoRecover #SobrietySociety (Aug. 23rd, 2013 = 5 Years Sober!)

[@brokenchains8100]

he is even more amazing in person!!! what a beautiful soul!! his kindness will stay with me forever! 💜

[@happymommywatson]

99 days clean from 16 years Iv drugs

[@msreb2700]

HappyMommy watson well done lady. Keep up the good work xx

[@happymommywatson]

Rebel 153 days clean now

[@mrnice5227]

HappyMommy watson well done

[@BradSperry]

still going strong?

[@naussicalove7963]

HappyMommy watson how are you doing now? Hope still good that's amazing! I'm five months for like the fifth time hope this is it xo

[@jonathancultee6837]

20th day back in the program....2016 i was able to stay sober 9 months working a program then relapsed and went on a run for 9 months and I got my ass kicked by my addiction for that 9 months i was runnin and gunnin but on 9/1/17 I made the choice of checking back into a detox and thank god for the program because i knew that no matter how bad things were i knew i had a place i could go and people would understand my pain and hurt ....Heroin was my drug of choice i thank my higher power every chance i get for guiding me back to the rooms.No matter how broken i am the rooms and the steps give me the tools to slowly put my self back together one day at a time.Thanks you Adam for the truth you speak i listen to this every chance i get .

[@Hamsterliciousness]

Adam really speaks to me. I've had a really rough past couple of days and he's really hitting home.

[@sunin-aquarius8584]

Im just now (tonight feb 27 2016) realizing or thought to check & c if n.a. is on line. Im glad it is & this guy Adam t really brought it home to me Cuz if been thinkn of using & im only 1month & 15days away from 7yrs clean

[@chrysbreer3361]

Was feeling lost, scared and out of sorts. Still feeling the same way but am now reminded that I am not alone. Thanks Adam T.

[@mushyythevamp]

Day 61. So glad I found this

[@ivisburris705]

So glad ur here KCB

[@griffinsdad9820]

You deserve to clean n free. Strength n Love

[@meghankathleen4474]

These speaker tapes have been keeping me clean on my way home from work. It kept me clean today, maybe I do the same thing tomorrow. And maybe call someone. That's where I'm at. I had 3 years at one point and I was rhe most happy joyous and free I'd ever been, I want that life back

[@davidbridgeman8855]

my name is David I'm grateful recovering addict this is a great meeting love to hearing it Narcotics Anonymous is a great group keep coming back because it does work my name is David and I'm an addict

[@honeybeeresting7958]

This is one of the best messages I've heard in NA. Thanks for sharing!

[@kylemedeiros6907]

I remember listening to this while using. I have been clean 5 years. I still reference many of these lines in my shares.

[@crock2434]

On my road to recovery. thank you so much. sitting here listening to this wanting to get bent is so much better than being bent staring at my self in the mirror, and wanting to get clean! thanks Adam it stuck like honey. 15 years on . 3 months off. baby steps, toddler steps, working to be an adult again.

[@engineerhealthyself]

This is the one I keep coming back to. Thanks.

[@darkstardru8424]

One of the realist,most honest speakers I’ve heard so far. Love this guy.

[@patrickwillis5339]

This is one of the best speakers I have ever heard. Brought tears to my eyes. God bless you Adam, I needed this today.

[@katiekat8438]

Best NA speaker I have heard so far... very powerful and keeps me doing the right things for my recovery. Thanks Adam!

[@CejiRodriquez84]

I agree.. very well spoken and a great understanding.

[@nwocollapse6532]

7 years & 7 months here.

[@deegookin6878]

NWO COLLAP

[@sjjahoda5622]

wow life changing speaker. damn. wish I could have been at that workshop. im blessed to have heard this. and most definitely a grateful recovering addict Peace&Love push and shove

[@lopezcarlo10]

This convinces me to join my first meeting

[@aprilsmith6759]

Good idea and if that is what it did for YOU then he did his job that day! GOD BLESS YOU!

[@eeen99]

Thank you, Adam T. I totally relate. Ten times in rehab where I spent from a month to a 24 months locked up in the course of more than 20 years. I finally did just for today. 13 years clean. Guys, you can do it. Thank you, Adam T, love your humor, your honesty. From a Venezuelan living in Spain. You're heard everywhere. Great message!!!

[@lonniewhatley5147]

I'm in recovery CA, this speaker blew my mind and reminded me to give myself to others in order to make he 12 steps work!

[@paderriclewis3774]

He says separating from NA is like unplugging a refrigerator with food,looks good for awhile. ...listen an you'll here the rest..

[@BJ-xh8tg]

Thankyou for having open meetings so that we can all learn to help ourselves as well as one another.

[@ivisburris705]

Getting ready 2 Celebrate my 9th yr my Anniversary date: 12/12/09 & My Celebration date: 12/15/18 & I'm on Step 6 again, "We Are Entirely Ready 4 God 2 Remove All These DEFECTS of Characters" D - Defects: Shortcomings O - Of: Belonging to C - Character: Mental or Moral qualities distinctive 2 an individual U mentioned SURRENDER several times I kno I'm RITE where I need 2 b. I'm READY 4 spiritual surgery. Thanks Adam!

[@veronicaponce6451]

47 day clean and sober and loving it

[@lizamarie2351]

I genuinely enjoyed this! Amazing. Not too serious, humorous, and some real stuff in there that I relate to. To those out there struggling, stand strong and hold fast!

[@caitlynm9885]

Sober for 57 months now and this is one of the best speakers I've herd. Thanks adam. Maybe one day I'll hear you at a convention. ♡ a grateful recoverey addict from seaside ca.

[@IbnBailey]

I just love how blunt he is .. it’s just excellent and the humor just eases out the embarrassment like GOD BLESS THIS GUY!!

[@latonyaelkins1119]

My name is tonya and im an addict. Im working on getting myself clean. Im gonna take it 1 day at a time. It will be hard but i wanna get and stay clean

[@sierraaxmaker3819]

one day at a time

[@griffinsdad9820]

@Book Worm strength n love

[@Matt-eb5bj]

I don't think I've ever really got honest w myself and actually took it serious. I am 28 years old and I have been using drugs on and off since 11.- I am going to try

[@VanessaOliveira-nd7yh]

how has that been going?

[@kingfan1601]

The doors of NA are always open buddy..sending strength and hope 👍🏻

[@kathleenb1947]

Hope to see you at a NA meeting. It works.

[@bryantalbott2116]

Being honest with myself was the BIGGEST THING that I did that got me sober. I wasn’t honest with myself or anyone else. When I got real I was able to get sober. It was my first step. I tried it before, but wasn’t honest and didn’t give myself to the process of getting clean. Getting honest, surrendering and listening to those who got sober was what worked for me. As well as meetings, reading literature and listening to things like this.

[@authordocbbringittothetabl4571]

OMG I’m a Substance Abuse Therapist and today I let my clients hear it. When I tell you at least 10 of them had so many positive things to say.

[@Matt-eb5bj]

this weekend was very tough for me....I got out of control and so lost. my addiction got away from me and I really need help. I am going to a meeting tonight and I'll take it from there. I never took it serious before but I don't have a choice now....I'm going to die if I don't stop......

[@jamienoren6907]

Hi did u get clean? Hope u dnt mind me asking

[@angelad.ebanks4028]

You can do this....you CAN....41 days for me. If I can do it, so can you. Blessings.

[@jamesballard7025]

Sup Matt, hope everything is okay , I understand this post is 5 years, but the thing is I can remember saying things like , my addiction got away from me, truth is it’s always there below the surface, it’s our recovery that can get away from us, recovery and relapse for me really was a revolving door in the beginning, well to be honest more like 25 years and to keep it real there really wasn’t much recovery there, for me it seemed like after a few months clean and sober, I would realize just how sick , fucked up I was, so I would use that as an excuse not to do step work,and feeling sorry for myself is always a good excuse to get even more fucked up,so instead I thought I would figure it out somehow, the only thing I knew, was how to get loaded, but I couldn’t wish it away, I couldn’t move away from myself, I could go on and on about all the Methods that didn’t work, no I had to go back and get more and more pain before I was ready to look at me , and work on me ,selfishness and self centeredness in the extreme,all driven by fear ,I don’t like the saying once an addict always an addict, we do recover ,and for a lot of us recovering addicts ,or like my sponsor says recovered addict, relapse has been a part of the process, well if we survive , must keep that in mind, the thing is we shouldn’t look at recovery as complete success neither should we look at a relapse as complete failure, beating yourself up after a relapse does no one any good, and recovery isn’t all rainbows and balloons ,just like the book says, I do know quite a few in the rooms with 10+years clean, but don’t work steps it’s seems the only thing that’s changed is that I would agree it’s better than but sadly their dishonesty keeps them from enjoying the life only working on recovery can bring, once we strengthen out physically and mentally we strengthen out spiritually,balance is everything and if we do feel way to Busy and over worked and something has to give , better to let everything else go then to give up on your recovery, because if you’re an addict like me, and give up on the spiritual program of action , I will surely use and I will surely die.

[@todddeckard7771]

This guys share is great. Grateful.

[@denisedavis8197]

Thank you Adam, until I listened to you I had no intention of going back to NA/AA . I did not realize how dishonest I have been with people in the program, and myself, I have ask God time and time again to take this desire away, I am not really even sure that I understand complete surrender?? I hate meetings, I don't want to be there, I have been one of those ones who come late and leave early I've seen the miracles happen in people, but I always looked for the differences and not the similarities , being in so many treatments I have lost faith that I can ever get clean, but you given me some hope! I have been walking that walk of shame for 30 years now, I am now 50 now. I have prayed for death , I can quote the big book and have always told you what you want to hear, so you would accept me, If I am not honest with you all then how can I be honest with myself. I have never told you all that I don't want to be there and you made me realize that most people really feel like I did, when I walked into those rooms and consistently watched the clock. Thank you for being so honest I feel like you are telling my story, You

[@benhaad4sho]

Big book ?

[@GBHsect18]

Im 28 days in and for the last 20 odd years been trying to get better on my own, my second attempt at 12 step is more real than my first, no fluffy cloud but the reality of my situation, done the jails and institues so whats left, someone told me who would you rather have looking after your worldly goods you or the undertaker? this was a great share, I have a nagging fear of failure but also in the recess of my mind I know that by keeping on with NA this wont happen and for me this is hope.

[@nohumancandrown]

What's the difference between a codependent and a toilet seat. The toilet seat don't follow you around after you shit all over it. Great Message, Loved the stories and analogies and I loved how forward you are, and the humor was wonderful.

[@angelapalliser4812]

I'm a weel clean and doing na meeting every nite, put this on to listen, fucking love him xx

[@franciscamorales9079]

Grateful for the message, listen to meetings on my way to class 1/10/16

[@pamelascaife3532]

I am clean for 11 days

[@ivisburris705]

Pamela Scaife "Keep Coming Bk" Be encouraged

[@gregoryroseboro3792]

Pamela Scaife.. keep coming back! it works if you work it.

[@gjjgb]

10 days clean for me!

[@lakenjackson9121]

10 for me.. I hospital detoxing. :(

[@ABDULKHAN-gj6rr]

I hope ur still living sober

[@LANDIN4DEWIN]

Prayers and blessing and woe begone. I had the most extreme of addiction due to ptsd. I survived what I ended up being addicted to was performance enhancers. & my doctor still to this day has faith in my trying one to help learn Spanish. If you have shame burry it deep write the word shame down stare at it only barely next to ever. Move on it might be time to just focus on today. Muxh love.

[@krishnathapamagar9706]

Listening again today.....thank you for your experiences, strength and hope.🙂

[@seanrainey8206]

I am one day clean the newcomer great message we keep what have by giving it away

[@skole03]

Hopefully you got 5 years now.

[@kellschapman1501]

Hopefully you have 8yrs now 😊

[@seanrainey8206]

@@kellschapman1501 I do

[@matthewnardoza8595]

I'm 61 days .. grateful todayt

[@Matt-eb5bj]

I do not want to be the person I have become

[@jdriscbriscollent.7669]

Matt u might of just changed my life with that statement. 12 days completely sober for me today .

[@mobiuspantherao2784]

Jdrisc Briscoll ENT. I got 3 days...

[@jdriscbriscollent.7669]

TheWereW0lfWere 2 good for U brotha ! Do it with no meds like suboxone etc because technically ur not sober if u r . Just another drug u have to withdrawal from . I was on opiates for a couple years using this everyday except a day here and there wen it was dry . Very happy for u bro . The worst of my symptoms for me passed a little over 2 weeks but it took about a month for all of the symptoms to go away . The only nine that lingered was fatigue. Stay strong brother ! Eat healthy , drink a lot of water and try to be active bro trust me 👍🙏

[@kellyannearcher968]

Same.

[@kellyannearcher968]

Jdrisc Briscoll ENT. Will apply these tips. Thanks for sharing!!!:)

[@soulgainzfreendly1206]

Adam T. Is such inspiring individual. I'm in struggle of addiction myself and only way I found to overcome it is to accept myself as I am and to serve people, God and universe.

[@estherhawthorne2207]

Great share. So much identification

[@jrromy1]

I get this speaker. What a great message. Maybe even I as bad as I may be, maybe I too, maybe I can also recover.

[@cynlovespugs]

Hi Jeffery. I hope you are doing okay. Your comment moved me and I can relate.

[@ScentsationalKYproud]

This guy needs to make his own NA Channel meetings on KZbin. I would subscribe. You don't hear talent that good very often.

[@BFloOnTop]

Amazing, thank you for the message.

[@mayanblood3057]

Thank you for your message Adam..much love

[@canejo6]

Thank you Adam- I love the refrigeration analogy!

[@sachingulung1791]

Adam u r great an ur sharing give a courage an hope to stay clean.....so so great man

[@piper307]

we do recover

[@blindwatchmaker2345]

One year clean today, and these kinda shares gonna keep me clean today too! 🙏🔷💙👍❤️🙏

[@blindwatchmaker2345]

A Grateful recovering addict since 30th aug 2018... needed this today

[@trentg.7180]

Listened to this just laying in bed w eyes closed. Many of these speaker tapes are life saving. Thank you N.A.

[@hg2339]

I listen to this often. Adam T is an amazing speaker! Funny yet his message is 🔥!!!

[@rebekahbourdon3939]

Over a year clean. I made so much progress and feel like I've fallen back into my old thinking pattern. My husband left me. I know I'm gonna get thru this one say at a time but I'm ina lot of paiin right now. This speaker change my life.

[@memexthegreatauditorydisco883]

This is brilliant. He's a really good speaker.

[@kellyannearcher968]

He’s hilarious

[@Malroin]

Great stuff.

[@Erin-cw4ct]

Don't diss AA it's what got us NA. Amen for AA

[@jamesharbin11]

this guy is awesome

[@nova-leetaylorerose8229]

I can listen to this guy speak forever thank you Adam T.

[@nikoparris5416]

Same here you listen and the more more do you gravitate towards his words he's great!

[@mikehorne5429]

Adam , Very Incredible ! Ive listened to you multilple times . I really wish I could get you to the other coast to share for us ! , but in the mean time I will continue to listen to your message over and over !, " Sponser says I have a built in forgetter ! ", and I will let as many as I can hear this message, Mike H

[@caitlynaliano8260]

So funny. Haha love this share. It's just so nice to be able to have enough patience to sit and listen to the message and laugh and be happy today. I love narcotics anonymous and I'm happy I'm fiNAlly free from active addiction one day at a time if I work my program. 6-5-14 Monterey county addict♡

[@cleanandserene8463]

The 2nd share I've listened to and I really should listen to more online,only decided to listen to 1 because i too have just been asked to do a main share,and I so nervous and I havnt even been given a date yet..I'm not mr NA but I have so much gratitude because when I found the rooms I havnt used since and that was 16 months ago today,that's the power of NA 1 word - Magic happens once we feel a part of,bless u all

[@anold21]

I’m a member of Clancy’s Crew. The best NA talk I’ve ever heard.

[@synthescribe]

think of negative stuffs effect on Drug. LOVE YOURSELF AND STICK TOGETHER AS A GROUP!

[@david1969ist]

THANKS A LOT ADAM FOR ALLOWING YOURSELF BECOME A TOOL OF MY HIGHER POWER,,TO BRING THIS MESSAGE,,,,

[@themidwestmystic3684]

it takes others stories other peoples experience strength and hope to get all of us through. Love you brothers and sisters around table. only thing you gotta do is turn that door handle freedom is on the other side

[@estherhawthorne2207]

sarah miller. Beautiful message. X

[@michaeldaywalt1966]

He spoke my story. Absolutely so accurate about how an addict thinks and behaves. Can't live with or without it. I've been there it's horrible. Thanks Adam T

[@barbaradalzell2597]

Thank you.

[@kellyannearcher968]

Here here thank you for sharing and posting this Adam!

[@nallyphelan2812]

your words!!!, no treatment centre could ever give me the insight into recovery than you. from the bottom of my heart and my family's I thank you. keep doing what your doing my friend

[@barbaradalzell2597]

10/21/14 And I wanted to hide away from the world too! 💖

[@robertdevries1049]

My name is Bob, I surrender to NA, I give up all the shitty sedatives my old shrink used to prescribe.

[@jds9328]

This the ONE! Thank you so F***** much!

[@sunlightofspirt]

The disease Killed me everyday but it wouldn’t bury me ..... wow.....

[@ivisburris705]

Talk about it Adam that fridge looks really good 4 a while then the stuff Starts hitting the fans

[@jrulon11]

I listen to this speaker tape every single week on my way to H and I. Such an amazing speaker.

[@ivisburris705]

"Don't unplug that refrigerator"

[@mountainrescue777]

1yr sober tomorrow, service is the gift that truly blesses the giver.

[@armandonavarro4470]

I met him in Yuma a few years ago..great inspirational share must love..keep coming back.

[@bethanyevans4725]

How did you meet him? I must meet him!!

[@HDfromNJ]

I need this right now 💯💯

[@sendmoreparamedics0]

Been randomly listening to this since I got clean in 2010. Really enjoy coming back and reliving those early years. Thanks for uploading.

[@BurgermanForever-nh2vp]

It's alarming, horrifying, and depressing that so many people find abuse like this helpful. We've been trained to see our own mistreatment as something we need or deserve. There was no need to hurt people like he did in this talk: he did it for fun.

[@rebecca4867]

This is the best speaker I have ever heard in my life. I am so blessed to have heard this ❤️

[@mohsinkazi1531]

I wanna meet this guy

[@davidm1282]

Mohsin Kazi me too !!

[@lewisburke5449]

ive been sober 90 days an been a addict for 30yrs at this point i want to find a sponser an info on how to become a peer for treatment an recovery i believe digging deeper an connecting with addicts an hopen i can change someones life if anyone can help with any info heres my email [e-mail] thank u

[@mohsinkazi1531]

@@lewisburke5449 Hi Lewis, how are you now?