Mitski Live: "I Bet on Losing Dogs" - The AEA Sessions | Aearibbonmics.com

[@arachnidsgrip7255]

mistki i literally cannot do this tonight

[@clo7135]

i think ab this comment a lot LMAO

[@idkman861]

No. You definitely can. Listen to it again man

[@yumemour544]

@@clo7135 same

[@matottomatto5674]

nice profile picture

[@Green-fg4ng]

I know it’s been 6 months, but I hope your doing ok

[@terror7858]

Mitski I am so stoned and crying

[@messengermage3962]

hannah bjorkman I literally felt this in my soul

[@edwardr6067]

god i hope she reads this

[@mrd4518]

wow actually same

[@justiniantbh]

I am so gay and crying What the fuck

[@gracefarah4253]

miss bjorkman do you know youre tumblr famous..

[@b6thhh879]

“I always want you when I’m finally fine”that always gets me:(

[@tahaaltamro4622]

Fr😢

[@drinkingtea67]

What does it mean?

[@BeccahHowell143]

@@drinkingtea67 In my personal opinion it’s someone who keeps coming back to the same peron who hurt them when they are finally okay again and getting out of that bad mental state they were in. Which causes them to go in a vicious cycle of healing only to be hurt again.

[@user-cp2eq1uq9g]

I know this is old, but the full line is “I always want you when I’m finally fine how you’d be over me looking in my eyes when I come.” It’s an expression of being witnessed by someone in your most vulnerable state. The front half of your brain momentarily stops working during an orgasm (which is what “come” refers to in this lyric), and that is when you’re in the least amount of control over yourself and your reactions. It’s likely why we truly enjoy sex with people that appreciate us in our entirety. Mitski is professing that she only wants her partner when she feels comfortable enough with herself to be so erratic and carefree and vulnerable.

[@Laila_Laila444]

And then it all goes backwards and you end up regretting it

[@Kaunoe]

This song is so, defeated. It’s like the haze after crying for hours.

[@SaweetnSaowerrr]

your not wrong.

[@ashwillows4567]

THIS

[@Emocat3000]

YES OMG

[@kanyon6859]

i have been crying all day , this comment makes me feel better

[@MrKvs]

Mannnn it's not related to what u said but I had an online friend named haze he was dying from cancer, last time we heard a word from him was back in december. Your commented reminded me of him and out good memories so thank you :(

[@emilyjones9787]

This feels like bursting into tears after someone sincerely asks " _Are you okay?_ "

[@Kaunoe]

Damn, I’ve been afraid this might happen to me lately. You’re so right

[@lina-se2oc]

oh god oh fuck

[@025mrci]

happened to me one time at a checkup lmao

[@janmortue]

NOW IM TERAING UP

[@janmortue]

I MEANT TEARING UP-

[@ari-os1gy]

this version feels like wanting to cry but your body not letting you, watching everyone around you fall in love while your alone, having a bunch of friends but not having a best friend, waking up the morning after crying yourself to sleep, and all the emotions in your heart being blocked out by your brain’s numbness

[@KimGhidorah]

This comment hits way too close to home 💔

[@noelleangelicag]

how'd u know me this is exactly how I feel always

[@josephine2321]

ouch

[@finnicklaverly1479]

why am i at this stage of life this is so jflsjfiowjflkdjfk

[@homienathanial4002]

bruh fr

[@glitteringdystop1a]

Her vocal control is... immaculate. Her playing is so so good. This song is understated and absolutely gripping. I love Mitski so much

[@seanjohnson7367]

She's slowly strumming 8th downnotes. What are you talking about? She has her guitar tuned open, so she's not even making chord shapes. The playing is almost nonexistent here.

[@Liv-dv3cf]

Sean Johnson shut the fuck up mate. it’s a beautiful song so let him enjoy it or kindly clear off.

[@flower.twilight]

Sean Johnson It’s impressive she doesn’t need autotune and is completely in-tune with astonishing phrasing! Not only that, this is only with a the open/basic notes and not even chords. Maybe it’s not playing, but she performs even with the bare pieces.

[@anshuuu9708]

She deserves all followers of billie ellish

[@eloisemae1325]

@@anshuuu9708 YESIR- she’s so underrated and her music is A M A Z I N G≈ her lyrics and voice are so full of emotion and it kills me every time

[@zeldablaise9610]

It sounds like hugging someone you’ve pushed away when you shouldn’t have

[@user-zm7fu4sl4s]

Literally what i was thinking about

[@cyropuncher]

This

[@karinash4564]

EXACTLY

[@no_peace]

Man it sounds to me like hugging someone even though you shouldn't

[@donniedarko7383]

I didn’t know how to explain it but that’s so right

[@deadbutter_2117]

"someone to watch me die" i can't-

[@evaharbor1199]

she seems so numb, yet so emotional. this song captures every emotion but also the feeling of nothingness at the same time. I'm obsessed.

[@lucia-n6g]

Oh you just described me lol

[@jeanclaudevandamage]

please I thought this said she seems so dumb

[@katchike]

@@jeanclaudevandamage I know you meant numb but your comment took me out 😂

[@bubblegumbxtchh]

@@katchike they meant to say that ‘cause they’re saying they misread it.

[@myselfme7945]

It's emotional, but in a very controlled way I think

[@cezinpeperuze]

Why am I remembering the rare moments my mother would be a mom

[@dawgaholics8111]

samee this is manifesting my mommy issues

[@abbypfau8898]

my mother still sometimes acts like a mom, but its never the same anymore.. i miss being little

[@shigarakistightbussy2730]

My mom acts like a mom too late now, it's already ruined...

[@sadmango250]

@@abbypfau8898 I feel this exact same way and it has me crying so hard

[@grassgeckoz9623]

same. i wish she didn’t leave.

[@zoecarder5687]

I just lost my cat, and the whole time I was holding his little body I had this song in my head on repeat. Harrowing beauty.

[@Js4ytmusic]

i’m so sorry for your loss. js know he’s in a better place now n he’s happy. i’m sure you were such a great pet owner.

[@Shannonshoes]

This comment broke me. I’m so sorry

[@dyingrat3197]

so we’re all crying over the “my baby, my baby” bit aren’t we

[@luadonasolo8648]

yes lol

[@devsunilgupta6749]

Yesss we r we r crying

[@hiidkwhyimhere2597]

Y e p

[@ximenaa_hammu]

Yes 😳

[@fxtma1717]

Yes full on sobbing

[@crow_your_beloved]

This song feels like sobbing in a hug from someone you dont wanna be hugged by but theres nobody else to hug or anyone else that will let you cry into their chest. That was weird and wordy but I guess you get what I mean lmao

[@yumbeo]

oh my god you put it into the perfect words

[@jonathanjoestar478]

Oh my god

[@jonathanjoestar478]

This is so scary accurate

[@leeloo8501]

THATS IT!!! THATS WHAT THE FEELING IS!!! (story ahead sorry in advance) my mom used to be a very abusive alcoholic, and one night I was having a breakdown at her house and she walked in tipsy. Not fully drunk, she asked me what was wrong, I couldn't speak. She grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of my room, into the hallway and hugged me. My stepmom(drunk) came up and hugged me as well, I was scared. I was so scared. So I just cried into her, for like 10 minutes. It was the most horrifyingly comforting thing she had done for me at the time. (I was probably about 15-16)

[@stargazin695]

I started crying out “mom” since I haven’t hugged my mom in a few years and I haven’t talked with her because of conflicts , I just want to cry in her arms as she ruffles my hair again. Please.

[@unathikhumalo7886]

it’s actually kinda sad how often i come back here

[@ilovecatsmorethanilovemylife]

Yeah

[@3daydream]

Yo

[@gabrielledennis549]

"I wanna feel it" "I always want you when I'm *finally* fine" "Someone to watch me die"

[@rvh9876]

I can't think of a single song that shift moments as sharply as this. Sex and dying. Each one by his hand. That is completely leaving out the first three lines. It's completely hopeless from birth to life. A conveyor belt of failure and helplessness. It's moving and beautiful and completely untrue. Acknowledge that certain moments feel intractable. But try. Then try. Try again. Things will be unstuck. The world is hard but magical moments await. Persevere.

[@redwolftrash]

@@rvh9876 on genius the folks there actually think that "someone to watch me die" refers to her lover watching her org@sm -- org@sms are referred to as "la petite morte" ("little death") in french.

[@MarisBelen]

me tooooo ur a mood

[@wompwompbum]

Awh no :( bubba you okay?

[@breb9966]

I love you I hope you’re doing better

[@nomoremori]

this song feels like when you're done crying for hours and you realize that the things that hurt you have not gone away, you are still grieving just with a wet face now

[@cidd4398]

false I'm absolutely still crying

[@lecy1075]

too accurate

[@heyhey7781]

Do you have cameras in my house

[@ih3artmiagoth]

this explains it so well

[@hannahmacey]

sobbing at this

[@gray181]

i would do horrendous things for this to be put on spotify

[@Raskolnikov1996]

Link ​@fyp_4_uuuu

[@Ravi01i]

I’ll see if I can make it into an episode until she does

[@dopyday402]

@@Ravi01iupdatesss

[@eeveet5034]

PLEASE ITS A MUST 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@kyah_offline]

Ohh please please do A burning hill 🙏

[@志保-l6f]

i feel like she's singing about the state of knowing that you're making a wrong choice yet still chose it. like picking up a poisonous flower even though you know it can kill you. like in an relationship. where you know it's not healthy and gonna end up badly but you're stuck in how much you love them too deep, and let yourself get hurt. like you can't let go even though it's ruining you. does it make sense ?

[@Favgemini111]

Perfect explanation

[@erinmairead4460]

hey bestie!! i cant do this today!!

[@karla3287]

@@erinmairead4460 god me too 💀

[@graciejoy2474]

Makes a little too much sense 😭😭

[@lavender1767]

yeah me and him cus I was the toxic one and he still wanted more and I was trying to fix myself more, he was so desperate to keep this even though this was toxic and he would end up getting hurt and I had to let him go to make sure he doesn’t get hurt anymore

[@carmen4942]

the normal version doenst make me that sad BUT THIS SPECIFIC VERSION OF THE SONG MAKES ME WANNA CURL UP AND CRY

[@necromaniaa]

i think its the subtle pain in her voice

[@JuunooBuunoo]

Dude, same!!

[@mynameisskylerwhiteyo383]

same i always watch this whenever i needed to cry

[@lunaluna7285]

literally

[@esme_melody]

i’m curled up and crying literally right now nice

[@TheHotSauceReviewChannel]

I lost my daughter and every now and then I come here and think about the cries I never got to hear. I don’t know why I feel the need to share this but it helps a little.

[@Noco_0]

Im sorry for your lost.. I hope youre alright ❤🕊

[@paranoidmoonpie]

It's okay, love. There's nothing wrong with sharing this. I hope your heart is at ease very soon. ❤

[@insan8ty]

What happened to your daughter, if I may ask?

[@eunji_teahouse4891]

This song genuinely feels like it's being sung by someone who's at the end of their road, there's nothing waiting in front of them anymore

[@ari-os1gy]

THIS.

[@kawaiigirl6281]

Don’t lose hope. These feelings are real, but don’t let them become your reality. You just keep moving forward, don’t look back. No matter what, you move forward.

[@Sijdwnkzdkdk]

@@kawaiigirl6281 thank you. i needed to hear that

[@yourmother12403]

meeeee

[@hisfavworstnightmare]

sounds like me atm

[@crisptomato9495]

The “I WANNA FEEL IT” part is so visceral it makes me tear up and gives me chills every time I hear it.

[@electronickitten02]

YESSS it gets me every time

[@nicekittysara3560]

my fucking baby ur my fucking baby i bet on losing fucking dogs

[@angelinaav3213]

NO SERIOUSLYYYY

[@aquafaunaa]

me. too. chills every. time.

[@nikkisweezey-bh9ce]

same

[@Morbid-k8b]

I remember crying my eyes out one night to this song while laying in bed, five months ago. I cried for my past self, a traumatised child who was lonely, depressed and suicidal. I cried for all the times I didn’t allow myself to, I cried for all the times where I sucked in my tears to appear “strong” in front of the faces of my past abusers and bully’s. I cried for all the days where I felt I wasn’t supposed to be alive or that no one loved me. I cried for myself and the pain and trauma I went through- but now I don’t need to cry anymore, I happy. Finally truely happy

[@mangoesyum]

i’m so happy for you and i hope you’re doing good ❤️

[@isabelle9812]

I really feel you, I remember crying to this song in the middle of 6th grade thinking I was going to end up no where in life. I'm SO proud of you, I am proud you made it through and did NOT give up, I am so proud of you because you got the courage to stand up. I am so happy for you and I feel like you deserve the world.

[@ethancannaert1973]

W

[@DFWNites]

Hooray! Glad you made it out :)

[@pazidawson2178]

I'm so happy you held on and kept going, and I'm so happy your happy now💗💗💗

[@mell5707]

Am I the only person who doesn’t feel comforted by the “my baby” verse? That part sounds like loving someone who could never love you back.

[@electronickitten02]

same

[@nabs5239]

right

[@trinateeduhart8993]

That is exactly what I felt it meant. Although, it makes it all the more real because sometimes we purposely love someone that can't love us back. That or we don't choose to love them but we do and they never will reciprocate it. That line gives that "feeling" an odd acceptance.

[@er1kameow]

Exactlyyyy it just sounds like ur imploring them to love you, like ur just running but it doesn't matter cuz they'll never love u back, and it hurts

[@ari-os1gy]

frrr

[@Otra_Chica_de_Internet]

I can't explain it but this song sounds like how a hug feels

[@user-wi4zt9ij5g]

for me a hug you’ve long since accepted you won’t receive but, still yearn for desperately

[@Komobear]

A hug shared by two who are comfortable with each other and don’t mind the silence. They just want to comfort each other

[@elsavass-de-zomba]

to me this song sounds like the kind of hug my closeted girlfriend would give me when we were finally alone, so enveloping and safe but so, so bittersweet because it was the only time i wasn’t alone. it was a very unhealthy relationship because i needed her so much, and those hugs were our only moments of closeness

[@yoonie3263]

LITERALLY

[@mrblue1145]

@@meowzer2375 how you know I need a hug...

[@lemonroses]

Her voice sounds like a mother singing to her child but also like she's going through a lot of pain. I love her voice. She sounds so comforting yet so sad.

[@fiaczek]

mitski is quite possibly the most beautiful person in the world i'm crying..... what i would give to meet her once

[@xx69xx93]

the things i would do to get over my trauma

[@yasm1na_l]

Time to use this song as a coping method for my mommy and daddy issues

[@arsonthepan4802]

Same here 😌

[@hatsunememe3131]

😔✌

[@lexiim4500]

yup

[@ctrlrev]

im using this to cope with my crush rejecting me on valentines day

[@dayana-oc6gx]

Mhm 😔

[@fl0w3r_P4rKss]

i come back to this every once and while to just cry my eyes out

[@yoruuluv]

literally me

[@marygraceldc]

u and me both

[@kayleighscuderi7867]

this version just hurts so much more than the original

[@maxandcheese2468]

fr

[@tuttiboi]

ongg and i keep coming back to it

[@bulletsolar_]

I am crying to this on a school night

[@idk6576]

@@bulletsolar_samesies 🤪

[@victoriacarneiro5435]

My baby, my baby You're my baby, say it to me Baby, my baby Tell your baby that I'm your baby I bet on losing dogs I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place By the ring Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down I'll be there on their side I'm losing by their side Will you let me, baby, lose On losing dogs I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place By the ring Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down I wanna feel it I bet on losing dogs I always want you when I'm finally fine How you kneel over me looking in my eyes when I come Someone to watch me die Someone to watch me die I bet on losing dogs

[@senmaria.]

can you explain me the meaning of ''I bet on losing dogs'' phrase? my english is not that good:)

[@thursday7682]

@@senmaria. It’s a very broad phrase and hasn’t got one specific meaning, however it could be interpreted as gambling on a losing side on purpose as a metaphor for going into a toxic relationship!

[@Olivia-wq6xq]

@@senmaria. For me I see it as being a huge people pleaser and feeling bad for standing up to people that treat me crappy

[@luise3334]

@@senmaria. For some background info, she is referencing dog fights that are common among the world. During these fights, dogs are put up against each other in a pit, and onlookers can “bet”(or put your money towards) which dog will win during the fight. If that specific dog wins, you get extra money. In mitski’s sense, she is using this as a symbol! “Betting on losing dogs” is her way of saying that she’s giving in to a lost cause. She sees the “dog”(again, the dog is a symbol) is failing, and stays with it. I hope this helps! ❤️ Sorry if the way I worded this was confusing

[@lexiim4500]

@@luise3334 thank you

[@sinonslife4812]

this song is like someone begging for the affection they know they wont recieve, the most unsatisfying feeling, heart wrenching yet bottomless and empty

[@affiahramadhitaputri9474]

"Mom, why my cousins named Diamond" "Cause your aunt likes Diamond" "And what about me?" "Enough question, Mitski | I Bet on Losing Dogs | AEA Sessions"

[@Hhibiscusxx]

no replies? I’m fixing that because of how much I love this comment.

[@andifyouwantmetoidlovetoru4870]

You made me smile while crying maaan

[@missaylet2143]

🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@El_iz]

LMAOOO😭

[@lake5435]

I was deadass sobbing to this song and this made me cheer up tysm 😭

[@spvrkly_]

i miss when i was happy. i miss not worrying about grades. i miss being smart. i miss how easy everything was.i miss the way my mom would hug me. i miss my mom, but i know that if i came out, she would hate me.

[@kimyadawsonlover]

Sweetheart, I get you. I’ve been struggling with my grades this year and it getting progressively worse and I’ve struggled opening up to my mom a lot, she even confronted me today that we got into a heated argument. Trust me, it’ll all be over soon, stay for a little longer for me and others. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you.

[@layla-q6t]

Felt this one

[@aymanelgaout9497]

Hun,imma be real with u. Nothings the same anymore and we should learn to grow with it. Think about where you are rn and about your struggles . Also why do you want peoples affection if they never loved you anyway

[@ari-fx4kv]

i feel u this is exactly the why im feeling ik she doesnt love me nor anyone ik. they'll never will.

[@nikitaashok3818]

Hey, I feel you, especially on the if I came out she would hate me part, it’s such a specific and sad and scary situation knowing that you want your parents’ validation and you just want to be loved for who you are but you can never fully be yourself and be cherished for it anyway? I’m so sorry it’s like this. And you have all my love and support, I’m not in a great place about it myself but I guess we’ll just find friends to love us for who we are and fill that hole somehow? Some people eventually reach like a place of compromise w their parents after years where it’s not full acceptance but it’s better than before? I don’t know, man. The grades thing and feeling smart and being able to manage life too, you’ve got a friend in me (and several others) and like. We’ll feel better some days I guess. Not every day will be this bad. Hope you’re doing okay stranger ツ

[@ilv_sm]

2:05 “I wanna feel it” I felt that.

[@rosequartz3673]

My baby doesn’t even sound sexual, it sounds like how a mother is humming to a newborn baby. I wish that my mom could do that I wish I could cry into her arms and tell her how I actually feel but no.

[@evadavis4369]

I hope you find a love that lets you cry into its arms xoxo

[@cereal1548]

.

[@neole05]

i wish my mom helps me when i struggle she never does, all she does is complain about how she has it worse and says that i’m the one that has to get better at that thing, not even advice..

[@watabikis]

@@neole05 i know exactly how you feel :( mine does the same thing and its awful. i hope things get better for you mentally

[@neole05]

@@watabikis thank you so much!

[@mitskisuperfan]

i am so mesmerized by her. she sounds so angelic but her voice and lyrics pierce through me like a knife while somehow also comfort me. she's subdued yet explosive, vulnerable yet full strength, beautiful yet haunting. it's a punch and a hug. what a wonderful woman full of dazzling contradictions.

[@elsavass-de-zomba]

this was lovely to read, thank you

[@rebecademelo-lima3811]

"a punch and a hug" that's it, this is her!

[@J.T.Milich]

Exactly

[@DragosDomnara]

I get the feeling of a mother holding her dead child and finally being able to accept that their gone

[@hisu7555]

having to hold a dead child is so rough for a mother, they will never get a life the mother wanted them to grow up to.

[@roxthesomething9841]

this song feels like finding someone when you're in such a bad spot. such a low place and you find that one person thats a beacon of hope. they do whatever they can to comfort you.

[@abbypfau8898]

i really hope im that person to him. hes said that i have some sort of effect on him and when hes around me he feels relieved. hes getting bad again, everything is stressful for him, and i have been trying to do all i can to help. i dont want him to have to go through this again, i hate seeing him upset. this is the first time ive truly loved someone in two years and i wish i could help more. sorry for ranting in your replys, i just feel like i needed to tell someone. we r both named abby btw

[@redwolftrash]

@@abbypfau8898 in the same boat -- just realized he has untreated borderline personality disorder (i have it too, but i learned how to manage it by myself) and that throughout everything, i was his favorite person.

[@talormeadors6821]

i’m that beacon of hope for everyone, especially my boyfriend, he never asks if i’m ok or how my day was, and he never gives me attention, he is always playing fortnite with his friends and ik he doesn’t want to talk to me. i give everyone hope even tho i’m at my lowest point. sorry just needed to let it out

[@blehhggg]

also feels like after they leave u

[@עבודתהאלייעשה]

I found my girlfriend like that I was on the verge of committing suicide on the freeway before doing so I wrote a post on Instagram as a goodbye in my own words and as I was near the freeway something had told me to look at my notifications and there I seen her empathetic words filled with nothing but love I thought to myself why would a stranger like her care ever since then we’ve been together.

[@bloobgore4581]

This song reminds me of when i used to crawl in bed with my mom even after she wasn't ever home but out with her friends all week drinking. Even though i resented her i would sleep next to her like nothing ever happened. Wish i could cry into her arms one more time.

[@bloobgore4581]

This is like a hug my mom never gave me but i still got it through this song

[@rosequartz3673]

This is exactly how my mom was she never took care of me and my bro

[@the-lost-latibule-music]

this sounds like the ache in the psych ward nurse's eyes as she pulled me into a hug the first night and called me "sweet baby". i was a week past 18 and put in the adults ward, but i'll never forget how small i felt

[@myakiley8526]

My grandma just died and she sounds just like mitski, she was the only person to ever show me respect and love I feel so lonely now

[@dynamopirate470]

I think you would like Miya Folick.

[@shrimspit21]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@0sugarultra]

i know you commented this awhile ago, but i hope you are okay

[@elifyuksel5684]

❤️ I hope you’re okay

[@ella-lz4mo]

i hope you’re doing better now.

[@MrSHINEYMAN22]

Mitsuki has an uncanny ability to make me cry anywhere at any time.

[@sandycakes5650]

true

[@marianaferreira6764]

this song feels like a hug from someone who doesn’t exist. it’s a defeat, it’s the calming moment after you gave up after trying so hard. “someone too watch me die” the feeling that you just need someone, no matter who, no matter where. it’s the feeling of tiredness. “i wanna feel it” i want to feel, not just anger, just feel i want to feel but i’m so tired

[@Alex-oc7ck]

I was hugging my sister while listening to this now it shade me more tears..

[@Danixo02]

This song hits harder when you have a narcissist parent and absolutely hate them for all the things they’ve done to you but you also want to keep lying to yourself and be held by them and be loved by them, even if it’s a lie, even if it’s a fantasy, you want something, anything, from them.

[@samantha8449]

yo bro ok i didnt ask to cry rn howd u know

[@aburninghil113]

i just want them to love me

[@hwimilk]

hey;; i just want to let all of you know that you deserve love. you deserve all of the love in the world. you deserved to have a parent to love you and hold you and care for you, to value you, to make you feel safe and happy and at home. and that hurting, it doesn't ever really go away, and sometimes you might feel like that's all there is. but it's not. it's not. and it'll get better, i promise. there are people in the world who will do that for you. they'll hold you, and love you, and you won't have to feel so alone again. i promise. one day you'll feel like you have a home. the hurting never ever really goes away, but i promise it gets better. i promise. okay? and: you deserve *love* because you are *alive* you *deserve* food because you are *alive* you deserve to be held because you are *alive* you don't have to do anything to be enough, because you already are, i promise you. you don't have to pay anything for love or affection. cause it's their fault, not yours, that they aren't there for you. you didn't do anything wrong, ever, to deserve that. and;; no love will ever really replace theirs that wasn't there. i know that. i'm so so sorry that you have to go through that, and i do, too, actually. but i'm always here if you need anything at all.okay? *much hugs*

[@everaced]

i feel guilty for thinking mine is narcissistic, but i feel like i'm living their dream and not my own. growing up they told me i was a genius and there was gonna be a lot of amazing things in store. now i'm an adult and the opposite has happened. now there's nothing to show that i am in their eyes anymore. i was nurtured to adopt their views, that arrogant outlook, so much to the point where i've had to vomit it from my system. now i'm constantly switching between an extremely low self-esteem and overly inflated & delusional ego. it sucks being this unstable and i don't want to blame it on someone else but it feels like they're a huge reason why i'm struggling so much with life. and the moment i try to bring this up to them, they won't listen. the one time i tried to critique them they yelled my face off and i got scared, so scared. i don't know... but maybe one day i will know. one day it'll come to me and i'll be free at last thanks for reading a random stranger's vent. and thank you for inspiring me to write out some much-needed words of truth

[@normanteio]

Oh, same here. You're not alone (sending a hug to u)

[@gabbsando]

this song feels like a hug from a parent that I’ve never had

[@neole05]

i wish i had parent that helped me in my tough times and struggles

[@ahira-marie0716]

When she sings "my baby, my baby" it feels like a warm hug after going through a really bad day

[@joemamacool]

really? it reminds me how much I want to feel loved and it makes me sad lmao, I envy you

[@ahira-marie0716]

@@joemamacool nah, it also makes me feel like that too😃

[@sinonslife4812]

sounds incredibly wanting, like a pleading to someone to hear you to believe you

[@laughingvoids]

The concept of this song is so heartbreaking. Investing in a relationship that's doomed from the start, but you do it just to have someone ("paying for your place by the ring") maybe just to not be alone, or to fit in.

[@lovely-vk9ho]

I just wanna know how it feels to be loved by someone that won't go away

[@neole05]

i wanna feel that too lovely.

[@EllisJ16]

real

[@bobblehead7002]

This song is just 50x sadder in this version ;n:

[@camelialilia1421]

Oh to be the losing dog that finally has someone to watch me die

[@másalládelalineademeta]

THIS

[@KimGhidorah]

I can't listen to this without crying my eyes out. Everyone's talking about how comforting the first verse is and how it reminds them of their parents, but for me that moment is in 1:10. It feels like Mitski is personally comforting me in my parents' stead, because they don't even know or care about how severely unhappy I am.

[@rsmcleary]

“My baby, my baby. You’re my baby” oh what I would give to genuinely feel that way again

[@delaneyhogue]

god i’m so empty

[@elsavass-de-zomba]

oh. relating hard

[@zakochanawmalfoyu21]

same here

[@freekmol7484]

matching! 😜✌️

[@BK-nd7ky]

Its okay to feel like this. Things will be better.

[@delaneyhogue]

@@BK-nd7ky thank you

[@kitty-rf9zu]

this song hurts more than any song ever could, it perfectly encapsulates the pain that comes with the human experience

[@anaa5425]

i’m crying because this reminds me so much of how my mom doesn’t even know how to give me a good childhood because she didn’t have a good one either

[@ItsNotKur]

:(

[@epipremnum_.aureum]

this makes me feel like watching myself in a mirror, seeing my mental health deteriorate and not feeling as though i am able to do anything about it

[@savanna9762]

the line “i always want you when im finally fine” is absolutely heartbreaking. i was in a toxic/abusive friendship for YEARS and i couldn’t bring myself to cut her of completely until a few months ago. it was a cycle of arguing, cutting each other off, id feel happier because i wasn’t constantly walking on eggshells anymore, id start feeling empty because i missed the feeling of being needed even though she only wanted me there to manipulate, and id come running back to her. it was exhausting and lasted for like 3 years. though she got better and stopped doing things to me she started never talking to me instead. i still miss her and care about her but i know that cutting her off was for the better

[@firenote21]

you were dealing with a narcissist..you ve been used..i know the feeling ..stay strong... its a blessing in disquise but you just cant grasp it yet..

[@MadMax-fg4cc]

New Year’s Eve 2020, just before the clock struck midnight this song came on as I cried in my bedroom in the dark. I remember looking up through tears and as mitski sang “I want to feel it” a firework misfired and shot out sideways in direct view of my bedroom window, it was a big, expensive firework too. So I spent the first minute of 2021 crying out the stress of the year before, listening to mitski and watching gold sparkles rain from the sky over my back garden. If I can ever upload memories to the internet in a video format, that will be the first one I would want to share.

[@isabellahoy-nielsen1614]

bro thats so beautiful i'm so glad u experienced that

[@octaviodiaz7277]

you need to make a youtube video about that and talk about your story!

[@leeloo8501]

I wish to see this, it sounds...perfect for this song.

[@izzie2171]

DUDE SOMEONE SHOULD ANIMATE THIS

[@elsavass-de-zomba]

@@izzie2171 please!! anyone!!

[@finch6412]

all i wanted was for my parents to be proud of me and tell me they love me. i hate being the oldest and i hate having to carry the world on my shoulders i’m so tired i just want to die i really just want to give up they never loved me it was always fake. anyways it’s my birthday in 11 days so happy early birthday to me

[@rue7943]

happy early birthday. i know im not your parents, but i am proud of you and i love you. keep on fighting. you've got this

[@soobjn]

a week till your birthday :) ill be sure to come back on the day of it

[@elsavass-de-zomba]

happy early birthday you sweetheart. you’re doing so well and I’m so, so proud of you dear :)

[@abbymiller]

being the eldest sibling is literally a curse, i hope things are getting better and happy late birthday!!

[@adoredspace]

Being the eldest sibling can be so tough I'm proud of you for trying ur absolute hardest. Happy late birthday!

[@arelyflorida682]

ill never forgive mitski for this 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@thikenicki2296]

“My baby, my baby. You’re my baby” insert sobbing

[@axolotlplaysgamestoo5522]

IK! I have had so many mental breakdown with this song

[@amymoondarling4019]

mitskis songs make you a masochist for heartbreak. do anything for these depths !

[@lil-c6y]

this is the biggest masterpiece known to man

[@inkyfruit]

maybe i'm the losing dog.

[@n1ghtmare_eyes07]

me too.

[@copper1206]

i bet you are

[@cassidy1589]

No.

[@pastelpepe]

@@copper1206 shut it, don’t tear them down

[@copper1206]

@@pastelpepe ??? i waa just making a joke... because she bets on losing dogs...

[@YUNGLEANLOVER922]

this is oddly comforting,, it especially hits hard when you just got back from a mental breakdown or you're still having it and just needed to be comforted by the queen mitski.

[@YUNGLEANLOVER922]

scroll if you dont wanan see vrnt shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutup stop asssumign sbit please just stop i cant deal with this today pease stop already stop stop stop stop shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutup i dont feel like speaking up today or ever pleaee just sotp pelase you're making the pain worse, i love you but plrase just stkp olease i csnt tske it pleasepleaseplease i dont even know whsy i did srong yesterday why did you get mad at me why are you mad at me plese where did i go wrong.

[@hildaguadalupegonzalezgayt8245]

They say a song that describes you and this is the song where we all describe ourselves

[@benzophrenic]

Listening to this whilst sitting across from two “parental” figures who ruined my mental state of mind for 18 years. It’s so comforting yet devastating, how two people can become strangers after you’ve known them for all your life. I sit and silently mourn the child who lacked parental figures, support and care. For so long I needed someone to tell me “ I’m proud of you” for any task I’ve completed. It’s so solemn to hear that in my house, as if success is an expectation whilst I’m not perfect. I rely on drugs and alcohol to help push my mood up and gain some sense of freedom. It’s so sad to see your childhood crumble. I resent my relatives, I wish I could drain my blood from my wicked veins, I’m not related to them, I’ll never be related to them. Edit: Life currently is a shitshow, it’s been so fucking rough but seeing these comments makes it a little bit better... thank you. Edit 2: Honestly, life has been a bit of a rocky road with relapse, and to see such kind people on here and coming back to this really warms up my heart. I thank you precious souls, I love you.

[@beepboopbop6147]

im so so so proud of how far you've come.

[@rvbcca8561]

I’m note sure if this would help you out a bit but I’m so proud of you and all your accomplishments and I’m sorry this is happening to you.

[@benzophrenic]

@@rvbcca8561 thank you so much... with such a rough week coming to an end, it’s nice to see this message.

[@rvbcca8561]

@@benzophrenic np! I’m just happy to see I made someone feel better

[@nourhany1425]

i love you so so much and i'm incredibly proud of you and how far you've come, 18 years is a lot and i'm so happy you made it through even though it can be tough a lot of times, know you are so loved and strong and worthy and you're never alone.

[@marisma.884]

her saying “baby” is the most comforting thing ever

[@pllanb-j8i]

"my baby my baby, ur my baby say it to me." is one of the most relatable words ive heard this year.

[@aj-jy2mh]

I miss being small. I miss the way my mom would treat me like her only baby, all I want is a hug from her. A hug that actually means something a hug that I can tell she’s showing emotion

[@ratb4st4rd30]

i feel that, sorry to hear it

[@noodle8454]

real

[@nerdbites2212]

Same here :(

[@ashg6141]

Are the comments okay? Like seriously.. Im so sorry. Im sorry we are all hurt. But i promise it gets better. It may not look like it will but it will. You may struggle but thats okay. I love you and i know youre trying. Edit: omg thank you for 500+ likes i love you guys Edit 2: 800+?! OMG ILY

[@marianaferreira6764]

i needed this, thank you, i’m really f*ing trying

[@Corinnelizee]

Thank you so much..

[@mushgloom_3387]

thank you sm, i really needed to hear this rn

[@zuleimysilva2053]

it never gets better but thank you love.

[@mechanicalthephantomonial7757]

thank you

[@valentinamendez5953]

This Felt like my mom cuddling me when i was going through the worst depresive episode and i was hiding it, it was as she knew my pain, my thoughts on a sleepless nights, my tears. This song sums it all

[@labyrinth2008]

"I had a dream my mother bought me a dress, It was cheap and more of a costume then a pretty ballroom gown with yellow folds and vibrant packaging, it was belle's dress. I felt honored for a moment, how she thought id look pretty in it. I always loved Belle, I always thought me and her were most alike. But I realized this dress wasn't just a dress to make me look pretty, it was a symbol of her love and her wanting a mothers wanting to make her child happy the sincerity and meaning behind the fabric the promise that dress held. and as tears pull from my eyes and fall like strings and soak the wrapping I cry and refuse to look at her, smiling from the stairs I am happy to finally be graced with her promise, her love I cannot look at her in fear she may take this promise away and as I sob in both joy and utter gratefulness as my breath looses control and I turn to look at her, I wake up."

[@koobyn]

where is this from?

[@solkai7575]

.

[@labyrinth2008]

@@koobyn oh i wrote it haha

[@julietojedaa]

this is incredible

[@labyrinth2008]

@@julietojedaa thank you so much!❤️

[@MaryWimpey]

this melody grabs you from the first notes, hauls you close by your shirt collar and whispers in your face, "gonna cry? you gonna cry?"

[@32.saibahelal21]

Oh my God :(

[@AudioAlure]

Fucking honestly 😭

[@wha.t]

this song feels too much like the comfort of my own mental illness, there’s nowhere left to go other than another usual mental breakdown. every time someone tries to help me, it just doesn’t work out because being depressed and unlovable is my comfort zone. being not okay is how i’ve felt for so long so the warmth of my own clothes is better than my parents since they don’t understand. ok enough being poetic

[@gjhartist3685]

its weird how depression sometimes saves me from my worst moments. Its like my body says, "okay guy, it's time for you to take a depression nap," I feel like if this wasn't my natural reaction to upsetting stimuli than i would have far more breakdowns than i have had currently

[@mickeynucci]

Her songs sound like what my depression feels like. The comfort of the numbness. Mitskis talent is unmatched

[@singsonalexandradavid5957]

“My baby, my baby..” it hits different when you’ve never had a mother/parent figure to be there for you when you needed it the most.

[@isabelle9812]

THIS IS WHAT I FEEL OMG

[@momo.431]

My mom took her life just roughly 2 years ago. Our relationship was very turbulent. Just as someone above mentioned this gives off the vibe of rooting for a relationship that was destined to fail. I tried to help her but she didn't want help. I couldn't save her from herself and now im saving myself from her echos. Everytime I hear the intro, I associate it with feeling like I was the parent and just wishing she was mine.

[@alphawolfvlogs]

i’m so sorry, dear stranger

[@tahaaltamro4622]

So sorry to hear that she is in a much better place

[@nidie8277]

this song makes me sob uncontrollably i just wanna hug somebody already.

[@veneredinsta3304]

I'm with you, I know it's not that much but I send you a virtual hug

[@geeklette99]

This perfectly captures when loneliness finally turns desperate, finding affection and love in places where it's not appropriate or its an illusion. Hooking up just to feel something close to intimacy, even if it hurts.

[@Huansy]

The 2:00 mark makes me feel so many emotions. Anger, sadness, happiness.

[@Unruly8_8]

The tremble in her voice makes it sound like she is crying.

[@司寧々]

1:38 THIS PART IS SOF UCKIG COMFOEUNG IDK WHY???? THE TONE IN HER VOICE JUST AMKES ME AJSJSHWAHDIWHAHSHHS

[@司寧々]

the sheer rise in her voice means so much to me she could hum lullabies to me and id fall asleep in an instant

[@mscoolchik]

got stoned for the first time specifically to come recreate the iconic "mitski i am so stoned and crying" comment and they were right. i AM so stoned and crying

[@waterlemon9838]

Such a clear voice and a solemn performance...quite sorrowful like the song itself. She emanates such a dramatic soulful vibe through her facial expressions. I LOVE MY PRINCESS MITSKI

[@RubenCastan]

This melody has been in my head all day, this is what it sounds like when absolutely no one congratulates you on your birthday. I feel so irrelevant

[@Jerwin-rm2xw]

when is your birthday?

[@anglix8407]

When i become a mother one day i will sing this to them when they fall asleep or is feeling upset.

[@m__rym1]

same

[@soniatello4556]

i sang this to my sleeping puppy :)

[@addi7511]

I sing this to my toddler every time he falls asleep 😭

[@c.taylorb.1612]

@@addi7511 I really hope you leave out that one line 🤨

[@addi7511]

@@c.taylorb.1612 I think that's kind of obvious

[@demidevildonnie]

this song really does feel like putting all your hope into something fully knowing its going to backfire.

[@raylol4291]

she is so insanely beautiful

[@apu2458]

I love mitski 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@maisa96]

There's a velvety element in her voice that's just so lovely. It reminds you a little of Alanis Morissette.

[@anellypanelly9618]

The first part when she says "my baby my baby you're my baby say it to me" makes my guts wrench. I recently was forced to break up with my girlfriend I've been dating for 1 year and a half. Her parents didn't approve of our relationship due to the fact that they felt like I wasn't the right person for her. I've been trying not to blame myself for her ending up in the psychiatric in a hospital bed but her family has pushed me away and hurt me with every word they said to me, I'm starting to think it was my fault. I know she will get better, I know and I'll wait an eternity for her. I just wish things hadn't turned out this way. And I do not know how to express how much love I have for her. I've been loved, felt loved before but with her...I feel safe and everything all at once. I love you Kyylee and I'll do anything in my power to make you happy. Little pookie

[@yumemour544]

this will always and forever be my favourite version of

[@faerna6700]

she looks so...... ethereal in this video, her voice soothes me right down to the soul. thank you mitski for my life

[@beeandco.5772]

this song feels like to me,,,that your hugging a parental figure that you have resented for 16 years-- and idk,,this song reminds me of how i used to,,,hug my dad when i was a kid,,, when he would feel sad i would hug him, but after many mixed feelings about him and like,,,my resentment towards him, well- its just kinda hard to explain and just,,hes hurt me so much,,

[@lisbaby4091]

does it ever get easier? in the same boat rn

[@beeandco.5772]

@@lisbaby4091 yes and, i'm not sure at the same time if that makes sense

[@ziggy6191]

It also reminds me of my dad, I keep giving him more chances, hoping this time he changed, remembering when he used to play with me when I was small and wondering if that person could come back to me one day, but they never do and I keep getting hurt. Guess we're all betting on losing dogs

[@beeandco.5772]

@@ziggy6191 yeah. i guess we are huh

[@realnepeta]

ive always read the song as watching your relationship fail and desperately trying to save it, blaming yourself for not doing enough. mitski is for those who have felt emotions so deeply that the feeling can’t be erased. those who cry loud and ugly, those scream and those who yell, those who feel violently,

[@spookyscaryskelies]

I want this on spotify, like now, no like yesterday edit: I am officially obsessed with this song edit (3 yrs later): I still need this on spotify.

[@leeloo8501]

RIIGGHTTT?? I need this on Spotify so badly 😭

[@whateverjami]

mitski is possibly the most beautiful person in the world, her music is out of this world and i’m in love. the elements of sorrow and yearning. she’s so versatile, the best part is that she gets it. her music is so heartfelt for me and i bet many more. i’m crying 😀

[@paupau6121]

"i always want you when i'm finally fine" i rlly feel that

[@joemamacool]

same