Am I Going Crazy?

[@faisalqureshi8637]

Your right sir it's really defecult to except the unexpected

[@ji5055]

☺ Jesus loves all of us I just watched Jesus of Nazareth movie. I didn't used to believe in him but I feel him in my life. People are put in my path that say things to me that only God knows. Dr. Chuck Missler proving the Bible taught me a lot. We can have Supernatural power. We have nothing to lose by praying I pray God takes away anybody's sadness that is on this channel. I pray that everybody can sleep okay and eat okay. And when we feel sad we should do something nice for someone else. We can't keep crying I feel like my heart is change its shape and it aches me. I never heard of broken heart syndrome but I guess it's true. I have too much loving me to be sad and stay in. I want to hide from the world because without my father and soon without my mother oh, I hope not for a while. I tell myself no family is perfect and I should be thankful even if my childhood was not good. Without them I don't know how I will do it. I will be so lost. I'm not the same anymore since 2016 October 5th

[@upstatenewyork]

You are so on target. Right on! God bless you and thank you for your videos. They have been a huge source of support for me as I have and still do lack having the support in person.

[@noreensakala1429]

Its extremely difficult.

[@ji5055]

I Die daily. I don't know how anything like death can make a person stronger. I feel weak

[@nancywhite4397]

I thought i was going crazy until i started listening to you. I miss him so

[@brendadrumm9708]

Yes it's grief I've lost my daughter and son it's a wonder my brain hasn't exploded some days I hate the world I feel I've got nothing to live for this has been going on for seven yrs I've lost my sense of smell and taste my life has ended to see me you wouldn't know it I go through the motions of life and I also look after my other son who has brain damage

[@ji5055]

Awe.. I'm going to pray for you Brenda. For strength for you. I'm going to send you a hug from Rochester New York. XO

[@ji5055]

second message do you have help taking care of your other son Brenda? Is anyone living with you to help

[@brendadrumm9708]

@@ji5055 no I'm old school I keep everything to myself my son lives four doors away but I'm running two houses seeing to him etc going out paying my bills etc and paying his of cause he gets his own money but it's getting hard for me I'm seventy my other two adult children are dead through addiction drink.too long a story I was born in the back room a couple of doors away from where I live we were all ways a good family I was all ways there for my kids my son lives in my. Aunt Maud's house she lived there over fifty yrs I've had no help about loosing my two kids don't want it I.dont live I just exist no one can help me

[@tadilatha]

I can understand what you are going through, I am so sorry please be strong lots of hugs take care, my husband died due to covid, i cant beat the pain, i throat is pain so much because of my crying.

[@angiesandovalzuniga7220]

Again I completely agree and feel the same way. It’s so hard to accept that it is real. It’s only been 1 month.

[@jchambers5668]

I love listening to Dr Bill Webster! He talks about hard issues, but always ends with Hope, Empowerment and the Resilience of the human mind and spirit. If you are someone out there struggling with any form of grief, large or small, watch all his videos.... Give them a chance!! You will experience healing and moments of surprise, touchpoints of healing along your journey of accepting, then releasing pain! You are on a new road. Embrace hope!

[@tadilatha]

its been 8 weeks i lost my husband due to covid, i still cant believe he is not there, i wis.h and wish it's just a dream, when i woke up he will be with me, pain is too much to take

[@DayaAsha]

How long does it take? I am wondering.. For I am going through exactly what you said and its been 22months since I lost my husband suddenly in a stroke. I am wandering.. Not able to go to an empty home.

[@upstatenewyork]

A year later…normal!

[@ji5055]

My father died in 2016. He was abusive. My mother didn't care about her many end and she tried to make his last days miserable. I had to guard my father and protect him. She gets mad when I talk about him or if I want to put a memory in the newspaper for his birthday or Christmas. The day after he died he got rid of all his stuff and took over his part of her bedroom. When I caught her doing things she didn't like that so now for 4 years she tries to make my relatives think I'm crazy. She's 89 and I do as much as I can for her my brother lives in California he's 9 years older than me . because my father was so mean to him my mother is good to him. Just him no not me. I cry all the time I have dreams of my dead father constantly. Where I'm telling him things that I did. Even dreams where there is hell that I can see from afar off. I dream my dead relatives grandma grandpa Aunts uncles the dreams are a beautiful place where I don't want to wake up. We have great times together. They feel so real and they make me feel so good and I tell them that I used to dream about them and then I'm glad that it's not a dream. But then I wake up and I cry because it wasn't real. To dream of hell was two times and very brief but those weren't happy times of course. My mother treats me like a stranger I'm not allowed to have any privileges but she lets my brother do everything. I will take care of my mother on her deathbed and treat her very good regardless. Because I know what forgiving means. And mercy. God's grace is unmerited favor and mercy is not getting what we deserve. I know that in a hundred years from now the places we live in will be occupied by others. Where our body is gone our spirit that makes us to talk and do things will still be alive. Dr. Chuck Missler did an excellent study on when we die. But he did it with the Bible. I love my mother and father and my brother even though my mother tries to get me mad at him. Both of them play games with me. Hurtful games that make me want to die. I couldn't even go to my father's funeral and I won't be able to go to my mothers. I don't know why they hate me so much. It's hatred. My brother still has his bedroom and he's 67 my room was gone the next day after I moved when I was 18. I wasn't even allowed at my father's will reading and I got nothing except for the outfit he died in the hospital with. I get them out every year and I cry and wear them. Time doesn't heal all wounds not for me. I thought they were being mean to me because when my mother dies she would have to give me things and she doesn't want to do that and neither does my brother that's the motive possibly for them being mean. So I signed a piece of paper saying I didn't want anything from my mother's will. Funny, they're nicer to me. It could have been because of money. she gives my brother everything even a car. It makes me think of my father because even though he was mean he was kind to. He would let me sleep over if there was a snowstorm or tell me to do some laundry. No way now. I don't know what to do because I'm haunted every night with sad memories soon as I start feeling better my mother starts. She's mean to me when we are alone and when people are around she acts real mechanical fake. Her favorite subject is herself. If I do something she doesn't like it and dismisses any feelings or any accomplishments of mine. She knows my father's death kills me. It's almost like he's happy

[@yogafan4185]

Thank you

[@donnamarrillo4234]

Thankyou

[@ji5055]

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