Am I The Only One That Feels This Way? 😫

It's embarrassing to admit that I'm feeling this way....
I've been struggling with holding it together in so many areas of my life & it's time to get honest about it.
Im praying I'm not the only person who's feeling like this! Sometimes it's just scary to share what's truly on your heart.
Hopefully someone will relate to what I'm saying today....It's no fun doing life alone 🥹.
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[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

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[@JoanWasQuizzical1]

We do not walk according to how we feel. We walk by faith. Faith means we believe God has a plan for us and that He is a good God who will reveal His good will to us once we ask. He is a gentleman. He will not come into our lives unless we invite Him in. "We walk by faith NOT by sight" or what we see or feel.

[@JudisticaLoca3rdaccount]

Thank you Chynna! God bless you and keep you! Your videos have been soo edifying to me! I'm interested in the bible study as well.

[@terryfischer1070]

I am feeling the same way. I am surviving each day and not really enjoying anything. I am feeling quite overwhelmed and burned out. Love and peace for all of us.

[@jennersnene]

Same ! I needed to hear this . I need to take time for God and myself. Give him more of me , so he will heal me . Praying for us all that is feeling the same . Love you Chynna and thank you for your ministry, you are rocking it girl friend ❤

[@professorlib]

Find joy in something every day. That’s what gets me through the tough times. There’s always something no matter how small that can bring joy. Please look for that.

[@davisworth5114]

Go find a Catholic Church and start going to Saturday night Mass. What you are needing is within you.

[@Rebel-2024]

Chynna, volunteer! Serve! Help others! Get out of your head. Put other people’s needs in your head! You will be amazed how your life will change! I volunteer in our church’s nursery. I volunteer in our food pantry. Those are the BEST hours of my days! Don’t Over Think it! God wants you to be happy! Be YOU!!! God loves YOU!

[@linak7155]

Hello! My mother has always said that the antidote for chasing the blues is by serving others. Doing acts of service is tantamount to serving Jesus Himself (the secularist might call it philanthrophy; for a person of faith, it is service to God's children). Doing good unto others with the right motivation pleases Him💞 When it comes to finding happiness, though, it is often elusive n fleeting. Happiness is determined more by feelings (and feelings often lie) than by an act of the will. I aspire to function in the purpose Yehovah has assigned for me. Some days, it may look like extending my arms upward in intercession for someone in need. At others, it may mean making a phone call, acting kindly toward someone who may not be deserving. We may not be able to serve in the same capacity, but we could try to invest in ppl's lives. Joy is a by-product of functioning in our God-given purpose. I truly appreciate ur thoughts🙏

[@cindyweir9645]

It sounds like Chynna needs a closer connection to her creator. She’ll find it because she wants it. Love and peace.♥️☮️

[@teresahill14]

I am 56 years old, my children are all out of the home raising their own family. I can so relate as I feel my relationship with God is stagnant; however I know it is just a lie from the enemy. Thank you for your encouragement. I need restoration in my spirit, this too shall pass. God bless you and Billy.

[@HopeLaFleur1975]

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[@bradyjohnson310]

Thank you for your ministry, I love that you are transparent. I start my day by short prayer before I even get out of bed. "For in Him we live and move and have our being". ♥♥♥

[@Shelly-in-Tampa]

I am so thankful for my family. My husband and I have been married 25 years 3 kids. Youngest is 14. Beautiful successful. I am in a good place. I used to have trouble with seasons but I accept them and trust God with my salad. He knows what I do not need and what I need. I need you! Thank you for being a channel my life. God brought you to me. I am having sleepless nights because of my son in the second strike group. I trust God to keep him safe and to succeed with what they are trying to do for Israel.

[@dawn2508]

Chynna, i can’t believe you posted this today. I came home from work so depressed and feeling exactly this way. Struggling isn’t the word. I feel so different than when I first became a Christian over 20 years ago. I feel depressed, anxious, bitter, cynical, unloving which also makes me feel self hate and that God is done with me for my wicked thoughts. I know the devil is loving this too. Your talk made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I always thought that statement was so cliché but it’s true. I feel like a giant failure. In my walk with Christ and in my life period. It lightened the load to hear you were feeling some of those things too. I’m trying to remember God loves me and can lift me out of this. Your video was right on time.

[@jenacacruz]

Lifting you up in prayer. ❤❤❤

[@davisworth5114]

Be still and know that I am God. Life is Crucifixion and Resurrection, Offer your suffering to the Lord as reparation for your failings and He will make it right.

[@marilynpeppers1356]

I like to park myself in the Psalms when my life cycles to this stagnant place. Because David wrote his Psalms when he was in all the cycles! Psalms either wake me up and lead me to praise or minister to me in my sluggish state.💜

[@myheartwaves]

Yes, I hate when my joy in the Lord feels like a stagnant river I can't get flowing again! Life's about highs & lows, it will be that way in our walk with Him too, sadly, like every other relationship we have... but one day our flesh will no longer get in the way and our joy in Him will know no bounds! ❤️

[@marilynpeppers1356]

Well said.💜

[@julielimbert3728]

Couldn't be more true!

[@brianszeszol4699]

they should have never told people that they have anxiety or fear lile never made a name for it haha

[@dianaveloz5341]

Don't over think it honey, keep it simple saint. ❤

[@misstramaine1981]

Praise God for this video. Lately, I have been in my prayer closet for at least 20 minutes just about everyday, which is something I'd never done in the past. There's no way I can take on this dark, heavy world with just a 5 min prayer--or no prayer at all! We constantly need to ask God to strengthen our spiritual armor. Got to stay fasted and prayed up because we are constantly being tested. Test, test, test! God bless you all!

[@elizab.7428]

Preaching from your heart is where you really shine Chyna. You are a poet of pure love. Love hearing you talk about what you do best.

[@gnelu1961]

The Lord said it will never be easy but worth it!

[@gnelu1961]

I Have felt this to. i feel angry for no reason and I just don't want to deal with people.

[@dianaveloz5341]

Worship, daughter😅 His joy is your strength!!!

[@susishearer9531]

Chynna, you are such an inspiration to me. I so needed to hear your message right here, right now. You speak so eloquently and you have given me some new thoughts and tactics to put in to place as I deal with two specific unsettling issues. Let us sisters-in-Christ stick together so we can continue to shine God's light in this dark world. Peace, love, and prayers are sent your way from Indiana.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

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[@librariangal]

This is what happens Chynna as we grow older. Things fade into the background while other things come to the forefront. Like you said, Jesus wants us to enjoy the "abundance". But remember, we need to be the light of Christ to others. There are some days that keep us from serving others.....yet, you have the key. Stay with scripture, know that God loves us like no other and that "fire" will be rekindled. Love you.

[@amyyoshikawa7698]

Hi Chynna you are not alone. It’s not easy to get thru depression from financial stress. You are a wonderful wife, mother, preacher, and beautiful inside and out. Yes Iife is hard. Wish you well 🙏🦋💗👍✌️

[@professorlib]

How is her life hard?

[@user-gy6fn5fk9q]

Remember All The Victory’s that Jesus Brought you Through Sister 💯❤️🙏

[@christinemack2153]

Thank you for bringing me closer to God today! We are in this together. xo

[@armandoucles5346]

I'm going through a lot financially, personally and emotionally and this Cal Preach is what I needed. Thanks Chynna for your words and from this video, I'm giving my fears, anxieties and negative thoughts up to the Lord. That's the devil interfering in my life and the devil needs to answer to God.

[@charlieaccola5180]

Hi Chynna. I just watched you with Becket and one of your utube segments. So appreciate your spirit! I'm the "dancing pastor" who just came backto the Lord after 15 years backslid in the gay world. It's a tough transition so relate to your fear flight struggles. Really need to get in His presence praise Him. Then comes the joy! Praying for you and appreciate your prayers! Ephesians 6.

[@Mary_Ann_Mast]

Hang in there, Chynna! Your a great mother and wife. You’re also honest and encouraging. You’ve helped many people through your channel (by just being YOU); many who will never comment or like, but just watch and learn and appreciate. You are not alone in the struggle. Not everyday is amazing, and that’s ok🙂 You are appreciated!

[@MaryM-zr4xc]

I’m Catholic and just went to confession. I feel much better. But I know I still need to practice my faith in all the other ways: going to church everyday, Bible reading praying more and trying to practice giving and love and being more and more present with everyone. Thank you🙏 Don’t know if I mentioned this before but yours and Becket’s Channel have really helped me stay on course with my faith.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

Amen 🌸🌸🌸🌸

[@suestephan3255]

Dear Mary @MaryM-zr4xc Don’t worry about going to a building Mary, we are The Church. Be present with people go to worship the Lord. When we serve others we serve Him! I know when I am off track I took my eyes off the Lord. He is our life, our Counselor, our Shepherd, our Rock & Redeemer. He is our all in all❣️

[@MaryM-zr4xc]

Thank you:)

[@virnagalli2164]

You are special, making a difference. Grew up in an industry that spits you out when their done with you. Yet, you found christ. I would say, I am going through the same struggles, especially when you see the darkness encompassing,, remember Christ lives in you and his power is real. Put your trust in him, not in this world, for we were plucked from this world sanctified by his blood. My joy comes from sharing the word that saves, that is the works that manifests by faith in him. For what we do in this life matters to God forever. Keep in constant prayer, for satans arrows are sharp, and his target is through false religion and covetness, wealth and riches, the temptations are always there, and the flesh is weak. Come to me all you who labour and are heavy burdened and I will give rest for your soul. These words give me great confort, to know that he was victorious on the cross, so having been baptized, we emerge, cleansed, and he gives us a new heart. God Bless. Maranatha Lord Jesus.

[@elizabethann8228]

❤ Good response Sister.

[@callonthenameofjesus1459]

Amen! Thank you for this word

[@marieldavison5121]

I think everyone is struggling Chyna ~ I try and think in terms of marginal improvements and not beat myself up about things I have no control of. Thanks for making me feel a little less abnormal.

[@Tawadeb]

The Psalms are so uplifting

[@michelepeters5196]

Chynna your words spoke to me so loudly!!!! I am a caretaker to my mother who is 80 and I am doing it all alone. I provide for her in every way including financially and I am spent!!! I have thought of all the things that you are saying but then life takes a hold and another crisis happens and I going in a million different directions . I will probably have to watch this a few times to let it all sink in. Thank you and God bless.

[@Maria-bs1ds]

I so relate to you. I’m taking care of my 93 year old mum who has dementia. I’m doing it alone as I have no other close family. It’s overwhelming! I become resentful and feel trapped and then my heart breaks for my mum. Can’t do this without my Saviour. I pray you will have a tangible sense of his presence when you most need it. As Chynna says “peace of Christ”. Bless you for honouring your mum.❤️

[@michelepeters5196]

Thank you for your prayers as I really do need them and I will be praying for you and you mother as well. It's a hard road and no one really prepares you for this but God is good and will lead us through it. When times are tough and I am breaking down I picture God saying to me "I know your heart" this for some reason bring me to my knees and tears follow. If you need support I am here for you. My God bless you and your mum.@@Maria-bs1ds

[@findingjoy1878]

I get it totally. I'm there. Been thinking about you & your Mom. I was taking a road trip thru hills of Arkansas & California Dreaming came on the college radio station. Leaves were falling, Sky was gray-it was a moment. Tell your Mom thanks for still making it happen. Love you.

[@michelewise1571]

Oh my gosh, Chynna! This resonates in me just the same! 😔I am 51 and children are grown and have their own lives & I’m like “what now?” I need to find what the Lord’s purpose is for my life. I love Him and want Him to work in me so bad. But that joy is missing…praying for you & everyone struggling with this.🙏🏻

[@jude1515]

I had that feeling years ago. The good news is that kids always come back. Now with internet communication it is easier or if they live close it could be an occasional dinner or visit. You could take up a hobby maybe art or writing. I hope you find comfort. 🙏🏼❤️

[@yvonnemiles7433]

I’m the same. I retired at 55 three yrs ago because of the stress load at work and family relationships. I hit a wall, burn out and now I’m seeking Gods will. I have anxiety and it’s awful. But God!… always there and He will bring me through this season. Trusting Him is so important ❤

[@trujustice8628]

Don't over think. Look up at the sky every day. Puts a whole lot of peace.

[@imthemilwaukeekid]

Your joy is still there, Chynna. It's just that your happiness has momentarily taken a nosedove into the crapper. Happiness is situational and something that you do have some amount of control over. From where I'm standing, I see a girl who is experiencing exhaustion. You have too many irons in the fire right now, Girlfriend. Take a step back. I know that Cal Heal is your baby, but maybe you need to step away from it for a little bit - a sabbatical. Good grief, when I hear you speak about all that's going on in Cal Heal apart from your weekly meetings, I even get tired just listening. The ladies will get by just fine if you take a break for a while. Trust God. Take the time away to relax, reflect and renew. Put down that book you're reading. Stop listening to someone else's opinion about what God wants or desires for you and dig back into God's Word and find out what God says Himself. Take your walks and pray - and not in front of the camera for all of us, just to have you and God time. Your peace will come back. Maybe not all at once, but little by little it will. Tune out the noise and find God's voice again.

[@elizabethann8228]

Agree. ❤

[@reallycaroline]

THIS!

[@Readingthebibletocats]

I totally feel the same way. You’re not alone. When I think and pray for you, though, I see you as someone who really does serve others-through your videos, through your messages, through implementing your CalHeal dream. That’s huge! I think to myself “How does Chy do it all?” I’ve been praying you’re able to rest and rejuvenate because you have a full plate!

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

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[@kimkrueger3620]

I am right there with you. The only thing I don't relate to is being married and children but financial stress, I can relate too. All I can do is imagine what I would do if I was married or with children. I send you a virtual hug. You are beautiful and a an inspiration. At work I heard the song "Hold on" by you and the Wilson girls. I tell you when I hear that song it is helping me to keep holding on. Keep persevering and know that no matter what goes on in life, God is helping me get through the storms. That is great advise that you give too. Love ya Chynna. I love your mom too. We are all in the boat of life together. ❤

[@Mariposa62196]

Hello Chynna,you are not alone. For me,it helped to know that I'm not alone. I never said never enough is enough,until I rapidly been stopped by getting sick. Since I'm not a bad person, since I take care of myself. Without doing well,I couldn't help anybody. God showed me the way. Give yourself the permission,to take care. The

[@ladyesther]

Are. you talking to me? I feel like I'm really connecting to this Chynna. I am really struggling. Tomorrow I go to my first therapy appointment with a new therapist. They are so hard to find nowadays and they don't seem to want to take insurance anymore. I think the thing that would help me the most right now is to be able to connect with God's love and presence so I know that no matter how hard it is I am not alone.

[@viviangoff8214]

. Thank you Chynna. I really needed this encouragement today. Reading my Bible right now 😘

[@jayniekinser7029]

I used to feel that way, Christian but not giddy happy. You’re doing all the right things as far as I can see. I had to learn to ask God to direct my every breath, every moment. It involved a lot of prayer but also, an anointed minister led of spirit prayed over me not even knowing what zi was experiencing.

[@karlam.8206]

Thank you for putting into words exactly how I’m feeling lately. Your spirit is beautiful and it shines through✨🙏✌️

[@elizabethann8228]

Dear Chynna. Thank you for this. I understand. I’m about a decade ahead of you in this. I’ve learned there will be days like this, maybe even seasons. We can’t stay at the mountaintop experiences at all times. It’s exhausting. I know you have Fibromyalgia ( so do I ) and that in itself is exhausting. I’m at a place in life, where I beat myself up less about the very things you described. I remind myself that God KNOWS how empty our service bowl is, and He isn’t requiring us to do more than we can. Other Christians can be well meaning, and tell us to get up and SERVE SERVE SERVE. Service is wonderful. But so is rest. Resting ( IN HIM ) actually allows what we really need… for our bodies, mind and soul to be recharged. It’s OKAY to not “ be on fire” 24/7. You’ve been through a lot Chynna. PTSD ( I have that too ) is exhausting. We may not have the same energy as people who had easier childhoods, and had supportive strong families. God wouldn’t expect you or me to give what we haven’t got. I used to be extremely active in my church. I gave and gave and gave of myself, running off of fumes. My health suffered. I can no longer serve like I would love to be able to. But that’s just it, I’m just not able to anymore and that’s okay. God isn’t beating me up over it. I’m at peace, accepting that not everyday is going to feel a great joy in the Lord. I find the joy in micro ways. Appreciating that I have breath today. That God loves me. That He is still at work in me. That I have a roof over my head again today. Fundamental stuff. I don’t have everything I want, but I do pray for what I want. God answers prayer in His own way which is always best for us. Sometimes the blessings come through the hardships themselves. I will pray for you peace in your heart, restoration, that He will remind you you’re okay even when things don’t feel so good. That you don’t have to work for His love or acceptance, or anyone else’s for that matter. With God you are enough. I pray you can get deep rest Chynna and allow yourself to be okay with the * feeling * of failure, because I believe it’s a lie from the Enemy that tells us if we’re not ON and GOING, and mass producing RESULTS, that we’re somehow failing God. I’m hard on myself too, so I get you. I’m praying for you and thank you for praying for us. Remember, now is not forever! Love you. ❤✝️

[@reallycaroline]

So beautifully said - and true! 🙌💕

[@dianaveloz5341]

Give yourself grace❤

[@jtaimeish]

Zephaniah 3:17 - The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. Thinking of you, Chynna! ❤

[@ElizabethPoet]

Your best sermon yet.

[@kaylamcdaniel6957]

You described exactly where I have been in my life the last 6 years! I’m 55. Have three grown children and 4 grandchildren! Yet I feel so disheartened in life!

[@vickirhonemus4944]

Can you possibly give some comforting words for loss ? Losing my husband of 44 years is taking a toll on me. With the holidays around the corner it’s been really dragging me to a dark place. I believe in Jesus. I know God is with me through this journey but I am so lost and so lonely and so broken. I miss my soul mates presence 😢. Thank you @chy

[@dawn2508]

Aw, I feel for you, that has to be rough! I will pray that God will heal your broken heart and that you can enjoy the holiday season in spite of your situation. I pray for strength and comfort for you.

[@sarahlaslett3279]

From my own experience, grief is the worst kind of suffering which cannot really be described. It can only be understood by those who have experienced it and even then there are different levels of grief I am writing your name down in my prayer book and will be praying for you. Please look after yourself. Eat healthily even though you may not have much of an appetite. Be gentle with yourself. Please, please read some scripture daily even though it may mean nothing to you it will still feed your spirit, even if you can only manage a few verses from a psalm. God may seem a million miles away. He isn't God bless you. I will be praying for you.

[@janetjinkens9636]

I am praying for you Chynna. I am not in a good place with my family. I have been praying for years for them. I struggle so much some days. I am married for the 2nd time and I have no children. I made so many mistakes when I was young. I was extremely selfish. But I have 2 nieces and 6 great nieces and nephews. I want to be close to all of them, but I don't know how. Thank you so much for your prayers. I know the Lord put you in front of me on KZbin and I am so grateful. You speak from the heart. I may check out your Saturday class. Thank you and I love you.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

Thank you for your interest in California Healin'! Peace of Christ! 🤍

[@trudyramgren8817]

Wow Chynna, did I need to see this video. Praise God , for he wanted me to see this. I can relate to what you are saying !!!! I was saved years and years ago and I remember exactly when I was on fire. I left my church because of hypocrisy ( that's a good one isn't it?)and haven't found a church since. I still like to think I'm a Christian. I always go to him, I have long talks with him but I know I'm a slacker. I'm lazy, I have to remind myself of all the blessings he's given me. All the times he's got me out of bad situations. I feel like you. I feel that I'm just holding on as well. I think I need to surrender. Really surrender. I need to really feel him. Know that he's working for me. Get out of my own head and let him lead. I hope I've made sense here. I'm sooo happy to see you tonight. Many prayers for you dear one. Hugs and ❤

[@christiepfisterer7948]

I had a homeless woman tell me all about your podcast and tell me I needed to watch and listen and learn. This has been very uplifting. Thank you for sharing. Information I needed.

[@nancyanders9174]

Thank you for this and opening up ur heart. We all need this one day or another. May u enJOY the abundant life God gives us! Those down days are brutal. Ur videos bring so much to us and I know many pray for you as you walk through ur hard days. Thank you again for ur ministry to all of us🙌❤️✝️🙏❤️

[@melissameyer9981]

Well , I dont feel alone! I feel the very same way and I feel like I'm not who I need to be. I'm so very sad about that. Truly I am. I don't see you that way Chynna at all. I see the beauty in you.❤

[@EphemeralProductions]

I needed to hear some stuff you said in this. A LOT! Thanks so so much Chynna!

[@YodaMama777]

Totally relating to everything you are saying. I know age, kids becoming adults and the reality that I have not done everything perfectly is a twirling negative in my mind. I know God is not judging me and is grateful to me for everything I sacrificed for my children/husband but I am struggling with my own hopes, desires, and dreams of the life I see for myself and my family. God is our hope and time with him is crucial to living a life of joy and fulfillment.

[@jade-nd2nh]

Focusing on self will always bring dissatisfaction.

[@sherrislocumb9244]

Chynna, Thank you so much! For your words of wisdom. ❤

[@currylover0]

Chynna, most of us eventually need to do this at some point during life. Just as you said, "Jesus is the only answer to this world, and its problems." Yes, I think you should take inventory, but I also think you should not be so rough on yourself. Just like someone going through any type of recovery, take it one step at a time. Yes, I have struggled with depression, and at times I have felt distance from the Lord. I am not saying I have the answer, but I know who is still on the throne and still answers prayers and performs miracles. What I have learned is to find joy in small things in life. The enemy is excited when we do not enjoy life, or creates chaos to disrupt our fellowship with the Lord or other believers. Peace of Christ.

[@teresahall7781]

Chynna, I Identify with what your talking about, I not only feel that way today, but have felt like this for awhile. Need those prayers too. I want that Peace and Joy and life of abundance God wants us all to have , and I plan to work on it ,,and i know Jesus is going to be with me all the way . Im keeping you in my prayers, you and the Lord got this. Peace Of Christ 🌻💖 😊🙏 🙌 ✨️✌️.

[@nancylawson3991]

I have been feeling the same way too Dear Chynna, I am burned out, You are always in my Prayers Dear Chynna, Please keep me in Your Prayers, too, I know we will be alright and Jesus will carry us through this storm, one day at a time, We Are Victors and Winners in Him Always 😍😍😍😍😍 We Will Make It Through With His Love and His Strength, I just Pray "You take it all and give me Peace" and He does, Thank You Very Very Much for This Beautiful Lesson Too Chynna, God Bless You Always Dear Sister, Your Lesson Helped me Greatly 😍😍😍😍😍🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@tanyawood275]

Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. I know God wants us to be joyful but sometimes in this fallen world we live in Satan is going to rear his ugly head if he sees a crack in our armor. I try to start my day with a devotion and Bible reading, but I am not perfect....some days I don't do it. I used to beat myself up because of it but I try not to do that. I just pick up where I left off and praise God for all of my blessings!! POC

[@jackierose4876]

Thank you always being so honest and helping everyone know that we are not alone. We are all in this together and we usually are all experiencing similar problems, emotions, and challenges. With the grace of God we will all make it through! Keep California preaching!!!

[@jam1369]

God bless. I find the battle to be in our minds. God is able and willing. He is with you Chynna. May the Lord restore and refresh every area of your life. 💯

[@sharoncrawford7192]

Stay in the Word, that renews your mind!

[@sarabeck-counard3897]

There are days that the words you are speaking fit me to a T. Other days I’m so focused on God and feel unstoppable. You are certainly not alone Chynna in how you’re feeling. God loves you my dear and he’s proud of the work you’re doing. Thanks for keeping it real. Peace of Christ!

[@donnarakitzis2719]

The state of the world especially what is going on in America has me struggling. I hear you. Keep the Faith

[@maureenharrah931]

MY book arrived today.... I can't wait for the quiet time tonight to start it. I might have to totally call in a demo crew...... I don't think this is easy for ANY of us. I have had a GOD vibe all day telling me to halt a plan. Hard stop. It took many things, and then He brought in a weather front to keep me from getting in the vehicle and taking on a drive. I am struggling with you, I truly am.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

Please do read it!!!! What a blessing it is 🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌

[@52579PeteJr]

I’m right there with you…I always feel like I’m on the outside looking in! 😢 I thank God for you-you are speaking right to me! Thank you for being real. I agree with you-daily I feel I am dog paddling, straining to keep my head above water.

[@bethburton1260]

Oh how I needed this!! I am right there with you!! Feeling so lost! I am 63 and just hanging on. I feel so much sadness. I am so blessed I have no reason to feel like this!! Praying for you!!

[@shutterbug_713]

I love your blonde hair, Chynna. 😍

[@justAmy51]

Thank you for your rawness and vulnerability! You have given much to me. God has used your ministry to confirm some things in my own walk with Him. When I am taking inventory of my own life, I ask the Lord to “weed it or feed it”. He is faithful and a wonderful gardener❤ Thank you dear one. Be kind to yourself…

[@marthaspence4167]

Hi Chynna, in case this is a blessing to you: I saw one of Jonathan Cahn's short KZbin videos (part of a sermon) about joy recently. If you go to his channel, a couple of them are right at the top of the list. Sorry, I don't remember which one I saw, but it was good. God bless, and thanks for sharing! (By the way, I get very sidetracked easily in my life, maybe similar to what you're saying, and I need to quit watching SO many videos online. I am drawn into all the real-life murder mysteries, FOR ONE.)

[@bethwarddesigns]

Sometimes joy does allude me, but other times God overwhelms me. It literally brings me to tears when I think of His love. Maybe I need to redefine what I think joy is. I can't rely that it's a happy feeling. Satan wants us to believe that. Joy is bigger than our feelings.

[@janetcarroll8863]

Chynna, you ARE serving! ⚘️

[@lizadivine3785]

I love you Chynna. You always inspire and you always make me think. Thank you so much and happy thanksgiving early.

[@annettefamulari7549]

I love and want my Saviour to love me. Yet I am a sinner. I have given myself to Jesus, but my biggest problem is feeling that I am not worthy. I've done things in my past that I am not proud of. I have spoken these truths to Jesus and I know he forgives me, and yet...I don't feel his love sometimes. This video at this time has brought me to sobs and I will be working on the things you have spoken about. Thank you and my God Bless you on your journey as well. Peace of Christ.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

You are so worthy. God Cherishes you! 🤍🤍

[@redheadedandblessed8061]

Remember our Faith is in Him and who He is...He is Good, He is Consitent, and from the beginning He had a plan of redeeming us to Him. So chose to walk in Faith Hebrews Ch 11:6 "...earnestly and diligently see Him [out]". Keep your focus on Him and choose Faith and faith will give you Confidence to receive the gifts of the Holy Spirit - love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Pray for me too, I am praying for you.

[@hollylanevintagetreasures]

Dear sweet Chynna I am praying for you this evening. Was dropping my kids off at youth group and just prayed for you on the way home. I can totally relate to lacking joy and being cynical. It's almost like you were describing how I have been lately. I hope you find peace and rest in Jesus this week. Lots of love!! Peace of Christ.

[@kelliquinn1342]

You've been on my heart❤ pretty heavy this week😊 and so many of us can identify with where you're at😊 I just wanted to remind you that it was an honor for us and I'm thankful to God to be able to walk in this journey and have you be a part of it I would be lying if I didn't say I was worried when you started your California healing that you might be stretching yourself a little bit then, your heart is so big. This particular video reminded me of the old California healings it was so raw and so beautiful gave us a lot to pray for. Something has come to my heart and I was thinking revivals are so important the world needs more of them. When is so cool if somebody would go to the beach and do baptisms and then also the other day I I had gone to the grocery store and met a couple of guys who were playing the electric violin and worshiping it was one of the coolest things I've ever ever seen and I just got to thinking flash mobs that are worshiping God are so cool and so full of the Holy Spirit. Be kind of cool if somebody started a bigger Trend in that direction okay now that I said I was worried about you not having enough on your plate I'll leave you with those thoughts Show Yourself Grace as you show all of us❤❤❤ may the good Lord hold you tight😇

[@michaelrochester48]

I’ll support you every step of the journey you’re one of my favorite people in the world❤

[@carolferrara4704]

Thank you, 😅been feeling like this for awhile,glad I’m not alone

[@lisacarnevale7232]

praying for joy to surround you Chynna~Thank you for praying for the same for me~

[@thegoodfight426]

It's like we grow up in this world and are programmed to have a Charlie Brown mentality, like we always get the short end of the stick, which is why we have to renew our minds to the truth. We are the head and not the tail, above only and not beneath, blessed coming and blessed going, blessed in the city and blessed in the country!!!! We shall overcome!!! ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

[@noble604]

AMEN and AMEN

[@dianaveloz5341]

Now your back on track. More like you and who God has made you to be!❤

[@JudisticaLoca3rdaccount]

Oh my goodness a friend of mine reached out to me asking if I met Wilson Phillips which I have. I told her the story and how kind Chynna was to me. During the conversation my friend led me to this KZbin channel. This very topic is EXACTLY what I'm going through!! Thank you Jesus for using my friend to help me to lead me here for nourishment and support. I've been dying inside and so alone but I know now I'm not alone.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

You're not alone my sweet friend 😊 we're all just walking each other home here on Cal Preach 🏡

[@JudisticaLoca3rdaccount]

@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin amen!! You probably don't remember but I met you in Lakeland Florida in 2017( Jesse James Decker opened for you guys). I gave you the Forgiven card and told you about how I give that to all the celebrities I meet. You and I spoke about how Jesus is amazing and about praying for others. We spoke for a while and you took my setlist for Wendy and Carnie to sign. We took a picture but I can't find it. I think this is soo amazing that almost 8 years later and I was introduced to your channel by my friend! You are still radiating the love of Christ as you did that night I met you!! God bless you and may your ministry continue to be fruitful and multiply!!

[@rhondagf1455]

I have been there. For me I allow things to interfere with my walk and love with the Lord. I try to make a point to spend more time alone with the Lord. Thank you for being so open. We need to see that we are not going through this alone. God bless you and will keep all in prayer!!!🙏

[@sallyjaynes2433]

Confide, comfort & confession .... The (3) three big C's from the heart 💗 & keeping it together, mindset, with no regrets ☮️✌️

[@htwhosoever6226]

All of this...wow, wow. Soooo real &resonates deeeeep - same same here. Lord Jesus, please help us do serious inventory of heart, mind, soul. Mentally & emotionally is challenge to keep up each day too. After so many yrs of Jesus &Therapy- the past few yrs was mostly processing one unexpected loss after another. so painful.. So many twists, turns, painful losses in life, (not to mention a flippin pandemic &aging...and now I'm late 50s- ugh) all have definitely taken a toll on us & our world. Prayin hard & working on health too. That was a major reality check & surrender of so many things. I've had to take serious steps to get to better, stronger, more resilient places. We so need Jesus &Holy Spirit help, hope & healing in these times. Lord, galvanize our faith,so that we may run our race well & finish strong for Jesus!! God Bless you, Chy &all the amazing ladies who share on your channel. Incredible blessing beyond words!! Much Love from WI.

[@telmizabenvenuti9806]

You are an anointed teacher. You always bless me. Specially, when I’m down. Thank you, the Lord richly bless you and your loved ones.🙏❤️

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

Wow, thank you 🙏

[@alicesings1971]

I always learn something from your experiences. I really needed to hear this today. Thank you. I’m hoping after the first of the year I can join one of your groups. ❤

[@professorlib]

You have been given so much in life. How can you be in so much pain? I wish I had half of what you do. That being said, I hope you are able to see how lucky you really are and find the joy you need and deserve. Getting older is tough. Especially for women. But life is all we’ve got.

[@elizabethann8228]

Sister, you haven’t walked in her shoes. Please don’t dismiss her pain. If you’ve followed Chynna for long, you would know she has been through much significant emotional and physical pain. Part of it was brought on by her own parents. Divorce , drug abuse, all kind of dysfunction have all been a part of her early childhood. She found ways to cope that weren’t necessarily the best ways, but she did what most girls would, given what she was dealing with. Unstable families bring on so much pain. She was very much alone at an early age. My heart goes out to her, because it is very difficult to recover from the kind of difficulties she has had to walk through. Celebrities have trauma and the same feelings we do.

[@professorlib]

Where did I dismiss her pain. Get over yourself.

[@dawn2508]

@@professorlibby asking how she can be in so much pain just because she has material things and celebrity, those mean nothing, pain and trauma is pain and trauma no matter what we “have”

[@professorlib]

@@dawn2508 I have just as much pain and trauma as she does. But I try to look at all the things I have, and I wasn't talking money and celebrity. She has 3 healthy children, a husband who loves her and a mother who loves her, and she has her religion. She can travel wherever and whenever she wants and doesn't have to worry about how she'll pay for medical bills. I'd say she's pretty lucky.

[@dawn2508]

@@professorlibI’m sorry about your own pain. One thing I can share with you is there is no such thing as luck. There is only God. He is sovereign, in control and put us with the parents we have. He has a plan and purpose for each of our lives and that plan starts with coming to know about Jesus coming to earth to die for our sin that keeps us separated from God , taking the punishment we all deserve on Himself so we wouldn’t have to suffer that punishment, God loves us but hates sin. We just have believe in Jesus and His sacrifice and trust in Him for our salvation we cannot save ourselves. He loves you. He died for you. He wants a relationship with you. He wants you to trust Him and humble yourself receive His forgiveness for the sins you commit against Him. That being said I understand your feelings of what is she complaining about with all she has. I think if we’re honest we have all had those feelings at least once in our lives. Before we come to Christ and are filled with the Holy Spirit who changes our thinking to be able now to see things the way God does we see those thoughts as justified. After coming to Christ He lovingly opens our eyes to the fact that kind of thinking is wrong because it does not trust Him or His plan for OUR lives. He doesn’t want us to be concerned with what others have, that’s called coveting, and it’s a sin. He wants us to focus on Him and promises to supply all our needs, not our wants. I will pray for you. I pray that God draws you to Him and that you open your heart to Him. That you receive His loving, saving grace. I pray for all your ailments, personal problems too that the Lord will help you with those. Life is short, turn to Him. God bless. If you need prayer for anything specific let me know I will be happy to pray. If you’re from the US as I am have a great Thanksgiving!

[@elizabethmoulinie4006]

... bringing myself to the present moment halts the train of no joy and the present moment brings me back to joy ... every time!

[@suejeffrey6943]

I let the Holy Spirit give me checks when something needs to change. We are to run the race with endurance, fixing our eyes on Jesus. Things in life can be wings or weights. Just abide...the branch doesn't work to produce fruit...if it abides, fruit will grow. Get our eyes off ourselves and get them on Jesus. Besides reading my Bible daily, I love Oswald Chambers, "My Utmost for His Highest.."

[@suejeffrey6943]

Not that we haven't had some really tough times. We have raised 7 kids and been married 51 years. But all by the grace of God. 3 yrs into my marriage my husband got saved. His changed life was a powerful witness to me. Took me longer cause I had more "church" background.

[@kathyarmstrong8644]

Oh my look at ur #s!! We were at less than 2000 when ur ministry started..blessings keep going.. precious one!!! You have blessed my life.. I’m ur mother’s vintage.. may U revive JOY!! My challenges have broken my heart.. ur ministry has been a part of the “ mending”in my life I agree our lives are our ministry.. May the evil one stop impeding the joy & love u deserve!! Xooo

[@leek7987]

You are not the only one who feels joyless all the while knowing I should be joyful. I have to constantly remind myself to know the joy of the Lord. This world just sucks the joy from us. You are so right, it is Satan that steals joy from us. Satan makes me so mad. The Bible is our hope, prayer is our hope, holding the hand of Jesus every minute of the day. Look up for joy!

[@kathyarmstrong8644]

Good evening dear one!! Help us Lord!!!

[@clarissadane]

And I need to start literally on my knees. PS- California healing has been beyond anything I could have imagined. So grateful!!!!

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

I love thee ❤

[@LeolaHulet02]

I'm surviving as well. I was with my ex-husband from 1999 until the end of 2021. And he left me for a person who is not a Christian. And he just abandoned me and threw me away For this other person, I've been alone for the last 2 years. I have no children. I have no grandchildren. It's just me and my 2 cats. It's very lonely and it's sad that the person that I loved so much would turn their back on you. And be with someone so jealous and hateful. I just don't understand why he did this to me. And I've asked God every day to help me survive this. But it just seems like every day. Things just get worse and worse every day. And I pray every day. But it just seems like it doesn't work. Every night I cry from being alone. Wondering Every day why this happened.

[@SmoBoo]

Service requires great faith. When you have faith and you are serving the broken, God gives you joy to sustain you...the joy comes also because your faith gives you hope for those you are helping.

[@deniseadams8109]

You are on the verge of a breakthrough, yay!!!!Speak Life not death over your circumstances❤️❤️❤️Katherine Ruonala’s book “Speak Life” and Andrew Womacks book”A Believers Authority, what you didn’t learn at church” There is so much revelation. They are also on KZbin ❤️❤️❤️❤️Love in Christ💕

[@Vinkalu21]

David Diga Hernandez has a few videos on strongholds. I recommend them for every Christian. If you’re feeling fear, worry, depression, lack of peace/calm, etc….most likely you’re dealing with a stronghold (a lie from the enemy). This sermon/study was such a breakthrough for me. We’re called to be triumphant and in peace in Christ. If you’re not feeling that…most likely you’re in spiritual oppression, under a stronghold. You have to get to the root of the lie. You have to get back into His word and get back to putting Him first. Spend time in prayer. “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, an all these thing will be added onto you.” We battle the lies with the truth (bible).

[@TheUkulelegal]

What's helped me stay close to Christ is the daily "word feast" (Bible reading out loud) and Prayer Tag with my Cal Heal Bible Babes. At noon I stop everything and read the Bible and pray with them. It changes everything.

[@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin]

The fasting has changed my whole life!!!!! 🎉😊

[@Crocs_in_the_gym]

Wow. This is the high of my day. It brought me peace. No Christian KZbinr ever talks about it. Of anyone reading this would pray for me. I’m in a dark season. I am not feeling the joy of the lord for a long time. Last month I had a dream that I was carried by a being called moloch to the bottom of the sea where he hid me. I felt powerless. He kinda owned me in the dream. Did God give up on me? I gave my life to Jesus at 12 and now I’m 44. I’m very sad because of that dream.

[@lisamichelle2596]

I just heard Pastor John MacArthur say yesterday when someone asked about a dream they had, “Don’t overthink your dreams”. It didn’t mean much to me when I heard it but now I think I was meant to pass it on to you. Just keep going and praise Him despite your dreams or your feelings and I bet, in time, some of the joy will return. He hasn’t left your side. 🥰

[@taralilarose1]

Great message Chy! Lots of love❤

[@daphnerogozinski1810]

Yes!!!! All of this!! I am right there too ♥️♥️♥️