living alone diaries: the root of it all is your childhood trauma

[@muffymariah2889]

I have realized that my family has made me so anxious when being around them. Growing up I was teased and bullied, so as I got older I have set boundaries with them and realized I carried that resentment as an adult.

[@Brwniee95]

I find this to be true for some part of my family 😮‍💨🥴 I gotta work thru it

[@Shay4Short94]

You have highlighted a piece of childhood for so many with this. People really underestimate the teasing/bullying by family members and how it impacts relationships going into adulthood- You simply do not desire to be around or limit your exposure to them.

[@princesswilliamsmommyof5]

Love love this video. I 💯 agree. Thank you for sharing stay blessed

[@shenaytp01]

💙🙏🏾💙

[@crysiiheart]

@@Shay4Short94very true

[@tidari]

come on black family ❤ thank you so much for including us on your trip. it brought me so much joy to see you have those moments, and i wish you all the healing love!

[@deetheseamstress]

Yea Baltimore music 🔥

[@MrsMarco69]

At 42, I am very impressed at how introspective you are at 27. If only I could have been that in tuned with my emotions and how people/situations impacted my life at your age. But as the saying goes... "You live and you learn". So, at this big age of mine (lol), I am learning to do the work and allow myself some grace. Thanks for the invite into your family weekend 😍

[@LuvYaya24]

same at 36 😂😊

[@poet82n]

​@@LuvYaya24Same at 41.

[@dewanajohnson6028]

Happy Birthday to your grandma. She looks so freaking good. 70 WHERE??? 💐🌹🙏🏽💎

[@Kpshawtii]

I love your videos! I'm a mom and wife but in another lifetime if I lived alone this is what I would imagine it to be!

[@LadyAndrews1]

Hellooo.. I am a new subscriber and this is the third video I watched from your channel today. I was like I feel connected to this sista and couldn't pinpoint the connection.... Untilll I saw this episode. I too am from Miami and live in Atlanta alone learning about myself. My daughter left home to go to college, I lost both of my parents recently, and had a bad break up. Through counseling I am learning that the grief/mourning is important to feel on your healing journey, and these things must be unpacked and explored. I say all of this to say Thank you for sharing your story. I look forward to watching more.💜💜 #MuchNeeded

[@CheerfulPopcorn-ym5ub]

This video was great. I totally understand the Mother Wound. My daughter and I have a total disconnect. I pray that God heals that wound because it’s so painful. I pray that you have a wonderful and amazing Sunday. 🙏🔐

[@theedeevaplus]

Same. Will be praying for yall. It's so rough. 😢

[@CheerfulPopcorn-ym5ub]

@@theedeevaplus praying for you as well!! Thanks so much!🙏

[@mschellylove3588]

I have an anxious attachment style as well. I struggle with codependency in relationships. I have been seen by a psychologist. I can see my improvement. Your vlogs are realistic and real. Love your channel

[@jae-annedanae4512]

If you don’t mind sharing, what tips have you found to be helpful?

[@mschellylove3588]

@@jae-annedanae4512 the most major tip was setting self-emotional boundaries for myself and fighting those needy urges. I had started creating some values and morals for myself and sticking to them which I had never done before. I can go on and on ☺️. I love talking about this lol

[@ChanteMoore23]

You introducing/making matcha for your family was so special. I love the opportunities we get to share pieces of our evolved selves with our family, especially those we rarely get to see. Something as simple as them watching you prepare your morning matcha made me a little teary eyed 🥺 Cheers to healing our inner children 🥂

[@mrod87]

As a matcha lover, it’s such a vibe to share your personal practice or help someone find there’s. I do mine totally different than hers, but i love sharing with others.❤😊

[@bril5018]

Your videos are SUCH a breath of fresh air! Keep pushing girl! The only life that’s short is the one that causes us heartache. We have a wonderful future set out for us that involves none of the trauma and painful conditions we face today! Revelation 21:4 says it best! Keep pushing! 🤗

[@AliciaMitchell]

These vlogs have been giving PRODUCTION. Your hard-work doesn't go unnoticed Amani, keep it up, I'm loving it!

[@nikipete8553]

Your grandmother is so precious.

[@OldSusy-rc7dh]

I'm neither young (73) nor black (if that even bears mentioning), but I so love watching how you are managing your life. I too suffer from childhood trauma, managing it now more or less, but you have achieved at wisdom at your age that I only achieved recently. Life is crazy. Well done, you.

[@whyty227]

Your blog is one of the highs of my day

[@AmaniRakeia]

awww, this makes me so so happy!!! 🥹💗

[@emilykhoza6193]

I just found and i am so happy sis. Thank you for the wholesome and healing content😘

[@ANN-ri8zp]

Sending you NOTHING BUT POWERFUL POSITIVE VIBES... You're all I wanted to be in my 20's... Such an inspiration... PRAYING for you always...💚🙏🏾💛🫶🏾🙌🏾💪🏾🩷

[@elizabethl.1143]

Hey Amani!!!! Help all is well with you, you are certainly missed, can’t wait to have you back!!!!

[@telsanot_tesla]

This brought tears to my eyes, I relate to the disconnect all too well !

[@mrod87]

Ur unmatched!

[@kennedydigitals]

I literally get so excited when you post😭🤎 you’re so inspiring have a great Sunday beautiful!🫶🏾💌

[@AmaniRakeia]

hey boookieeee!! thank you so much! i hope you enjoy!! 🥹💗

[@trulyshare1955]

I felt this on a soul level😢❤

[@chichiemeka4667]

Wow, Amani. This video was everything, the quality 10/10. Thank you for sharing your family's joy with us. Loved every it of it. Happy birthday to your Grandmother .

[@OfficiallyBOBBiDEAN]

Guuuuurrrlll you and your Dad are twins! lol Happy Bday to your GMA 🥳🥳🥳. What a blessing to celebrate all together 🫶🏼💖

[@magneticunicorn]

Wow, your granny looks amazing ! Her energy is everything!

[@sequoiaday6410]

Wow ! It’s so beautiful to see your parents together and you so happy with your family ! Your family is so beautiful ❤. Yo parent look young ok ! Cmon black don’t crack. This was beautiful…. I wish i could have this with my family. God bless you guys

[@poet82n]

I could be wrong but I think that's her stepmother. Her birth mom is in New York with the maternal side of her family. I think that's who's she's referring to with the "mother womb".

[@theshaesthetic]

lol I loveddddd this. When the kids like it, it’s a winner! They don’t be playing

[@EfeitoPositivo]

OMG please don't stop making videos! I've watched them all! I identified so much with his way and his moment in life and it helped me heal in so many places

[@miksriri5353]

We love and miss you amani take your time we will be here when you come back for now just rewatching all your videos love you sis from Cape Town South Africa

[@MsBNYC1986]

That was a very nice father's day weekend. You look so much like your mom. You have your dad's smile.

[@Nanny4b]

You look like both of your parents- you have your dads smile. What a blessing to turn 70🎉 she’s grateful I can tell. You are so blessed. Seems as if you brought the matcha to those who weren’t familiar with matcha🎉- your vlogs never fail❤🎉

[@asapjacy]

we miss you!!!

[@nevi.nextdoor]

you insipre me so much as a young girl learning life with you, Im excited to tune into your next episode of life. thank you.

[@Kawaiicutiebaby]

Have belated birthday to your grandmother 🥳🫶🏾🙏🏾🎂and happy belated Father’s Day to your dad🎉🎊. I love you seeing you and your family ❤😊. Yes I agree with you with the insight shared.💚

[@MaggieMagnoli]

your family's vibe is just 10/10!!! Thanks for bringing us with you

[@dewanajohnson6028]

Thanks for taking us with you to visit and celebrate with family. The yacht day was so nice and relaxing. Glad you made it back home safe. My mom loves her some Aretha Franklin. She's her favorite singer. See you next Sunday. Take care.

[@michellejohnson341]

I haven't seen any new content from you are you okay ❤❤❤

[@JalissaMichelle]

now I can meal prep and watch my girlllll 💕

[@AmaniRakeia]

oh my girrrrlll! yes!! i'm looking forward to meal prepping this week too!! go us!! 💗

[@delyoung1282]

Beautiful FAMILY it was nice to see you enjoying your bloodline and them you.🙏 Thnx 4 sharing another piece of you. Blessings on your journey.🙏

[@curlyque4866]

Thank you for bringing us along. You are the perfect combination of Dad and Mom. I chuckled when I saw how you and the handsome tall gentleman had matching Boy Braids. Glad to know you will bring back the roller set because it’s GORGEOUS on you!! Sending you good energy that you soon will heal and no longer need to revisit the past traumas. Peace, Prosperity, and Solace are yours❤

[@NalaLatrice]

I'm like seriously fan girling everytime you post😂 you're such an inspiration to us all Amani. Thank you for showing up❤

[@mrod87]

Isn’t she so unique and REAL! I heal a little every time she posts.

[@bjmiller9759]

I am being a pillow princess enjoying the vlog. May peace be with you.

[@shermaine7579]

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜, Sending love, prayers for you, and your family. Loved the trip. And I feel ya with the braids, our hair needs a break every now, and then.

[@Reviewsbycheekarrr]

I’m so glad I found you

[@janirav3454]

details on how you manage it alll ❤

[@janetgriffin7779]

Seeing all those phones during the concert is wild. I hope you had a great time!

[@braggz.]

lovedddd the vlog it was short yet so wholesome that you were with your family thx beautiful babe love from south africa! 💖💖💗💗💞💞

[@AmaniRakeia]

thank you so much my love!! i wish i could give y’all longer vlogs, but i need to find a video editor to help with that 😅❤❤ so happy you enjoyed!

[@talkswithtaty8595]

Your blogs are always warming to my heart, btw love the idea of mirror next to your bed & the type of mirror you chose🫶🏾

[@Lifegoals4me]

You have a beautiful family! I have a similar situation but with me it was a disconnect with my dad. Sending hugs, Beautiful!

[@Teegirl1339]

Love your content!

[@whoissydthekid]

girl the music in your vlogs is always giving but I'm already 3 minutes into this one and it's BUMPIN!

[@Hestia134]

I love to witness your growth 💚

[@majesticnfree]

As a supporter from Baltimore that’s been with you for a while, the Teck part WARMED MY HEART ALOT!🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😂😂😂😂😂

[@chinasdoll444]

as always, this was SUCH an enjoyable watch. your last bit the mother/ daughter relationship is relatable, but remember that love exists because you exist❤️

[@jamilahhendricks7681]

Hey Amani girllll 👋🏾 It’s so good to see you vlog sis 💕 I really enjoy your content and I just love your personality. You always keep it real 💯 and it’s always so refreshing to see you as a smart, beautiful inside and out 😍 independent Black woman in her 20’s living your best life, balancing work, hobbies and your family and friends and always making time for the things that matter to you. Healing your inner child can be hard sometimes but best believe you’re doing great and the outcome is going to be worth it. From one Scorpio sister to another 🥰♏️❤️ Your support is right here 🫶🏾 Love you ♥️

[@khanarimusic]

Loved this ❤

[@nomasontomthethwa8526]

Thank you, Amani. This was beautiful❤. As you work on your healing, you are helping some of us to heal as well.

[@JenniTulls]

I’m late to the party but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDMA & MANY MOOORE!!! 🎂 ☺️💕

[@raerae9930]

Happy beautiful Sunday!! Love your videos and the brand Fre is so good. I love wine however I try not to drink Sunday thru Thursday so when I saw your videos a few months back and started to follow you, I wanted to see about noon alcoholic wine and you are on to something. Thank you! ❤

[@greenteamoton3274]

Great commentary, beautiful family and I gotta have the green glasses!!!

[@miksriri5353]

I love and appreciate your channel. I can relate to you so much! With love from Cape Town South Africa

[@latoyaspears2401]

Love love your content and single lovely life…beautiful capture

[@azaleageorge]

Hey gurrrrl. I wanted to ask what font do you use for your intro. I love how aesthetic it is ❤❤

[@Lawtoya]

Loved this video! I am so inspired by your editing style! How did you learn to edit so well?

[@heyfrenchieb2185]

Amani I loved this vlog it definitely had a different feel from your others I loved that you touched on the subject of the mother wound I look forward to hearing more about your healing journey and how it shapes you today ❤thank you for sharing

[@jojobean2845]

Love the pre-wash hair. It's giving Donna Summer. 😍

[@ButterfliesandSangrias]

I loved this blog! I loved all the drinks. They looked so good and we see your arms girlll💪🏾

[@chaoticbrittbudgets5070]

Hope you’re doing well. Been some weeks since you’ve popped up on my suggestions

[@Shay4Short94]

One of thee best vlogs to date! I loved the family time segment the most! Keep going 🫶🏾

[@NicoleHarris-ik5sj]

what song was that in the beginning?

[@MirleneFevrier]

I enjoyed this vlog! Good one. ❤❤❤

[@jessicafianko]

Hiii Amani Happy Sunday How was your week? Yippee for today's vlog 😊👏🏾 ☺️💕

[@AmaniRakeia]

hi my love!! my week was pretty good!! getting back into the flow now that i'm back from hanging with the family

[@flycoffeedude]

Love this so much. Amazing vlog sis

[@talkswithtaty8595]

Happy bearthday to ur grandma 🧡

[@tiffanys4971]

Beautiful vlog. Thank you for sharing with us. ❤you’re so inspiring! I am going through it right now, and I saw you posted and I was so happy. Take care!❤❤❤

[@tidari]

❤

[@Choklatekisses1]

Such a good vlog! Thank you for sharing your beautiful family with us. ❤❤

[@jessmruth]

Thank you for taking us along for the ride. I really love your vlogs!

[@c.nicole.n]

I hope y’all had a wonderful time. Cheers to your grandmother!!! Your parents are too cute, and the family. I had to check the deets for your luggage. I’ll be checking the Away website. 🙏🏾😍❤️‍🩹

[@EricaJ.]

Such a beautiful video! So in love with your authenticity ❤

[@MorgannFlowers]

This was too cute, loved!!

[@OlubukolaSogbolu]

Love your edits so engaging and fun 👍🏽fab job 🫶

[@thehannahlp]

Girl, can I just say: your ARMS THOUGH 😱💪🏼🤎 *edit: also loved seeing the family vibes, loved the video 🙇🏽‍♀

[@Bfree4ver]

Thank you for sharing family time!!

[@talkswithtaty8595]

Your mom and pops >>>

[@marij3583]

❤Love the vibes 🎉Happy Birthday to grandma 👑…

[@CrivinaB]

Hi Amani, hope you are well! Looking forward to today’s vlog! 😊

[@AmaniRakeia]

hi my love!! all is very well :) i hope you are doing amazing ❤

[@lelethugam7913]

The way I screamed like I was at the concert 😭🩷🎉

[@ItsMiR314]

Just found you on TikTok and had to subscribe immediately, ❤ love your vlogs currently binging ! Also what font do you use for your main text ?

[@AmaniRakeia]

hey my girrrrlllll!!! thank you so much for being here!! i use 'perfectly nineties' from Jen Wagner!

[@Silvergoldandglitter]

Please link the orange purse /bag in the beginning of the vlog, thank you ❤

[@helenawooden-aguilar1587]

Thank you for sharing your family. ❤

[@AliceMoyo-r6z]

We missed you girl 😊

[@dshine2020]

Happy Sunday pray this week is better than last week for you can’t wait to watch this Vlog

[@AmaniRakeia]

hi love!! thank you so so much!! i hope you enjoy ❤

[@GulfCoastLady]

I enjoyed this vlog so much. Your family is LIT. Even your grandmother. ❤ Girl, your parents are so cute. I thought they were your cousins or something 😅 They must have had you when they were in middle school 😂❤

[@ayeshaDavenport1207]

Such a beautiful family ❤

[@MarcieColeman]

Love the video so happy you had a great time 🙏🏼❤

[@luticia23]

Thanks for sharing your family time with us. Y'all look like y'all had a blast. My client used to play miss Aretha all the time. Now I about to order some damn Matcha. 🤣

[@tinawicks-jones4640]

I needed this today!! Thank you😘😘😘😘

[@candikisses225]

😂Matcha Mamiiiii puttin everybody on! Your parents are fineeeeee girl!

[@alainacommander2657]

I enjoyed the full video.😁

[@mrod87]

I saw someone post something like “bryson tiller is my favorite artist, i been to four Bryson tiller concerts and i still can’t tell what he look like.” I see how that happens now. Haha.

[@manythingsmona]

What was the song for the boat trip on the “ happy fathers day”part…