Angels of Porn II - Nicole Dollanganger (Official Video)

lyrics:
my bedroom smells like rotten food
and i guess so do i
it’s harder to be good in here
than it is to starve and die
i’d give my body to satan
if i could only keep my soul
but i can’t seem to find the split
between them anymore
my hair is falling out again
and i don’t really care
i try to stir my conscience
it was never really there
your fingers up inside of me
feel like fingers down my throat
everything is fine in heaven
but i’ll never get to know
make sacrifice in bathtubs
and stained bed covers
soak all of my clothes in holy water
and drown them like a crying son
drown them like a crying daughter
praying in the night to the angels of porn
nails in their wrists, knees on the floor
great lakes full of cum extracted from everyone
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Directed by: Nicole Dollanganger, Kevin Jenkins, Matt Tomasi / Shot by: Nicole Dollanganger / Additional Shots: Kevin Jenkins
HUGE THANK U TO: Matt, Kevin, Tyler, Ben, Travis, Terrence, Alan, Isaac, Brendan & Natalya. U guys are the real deal.

[@Liv43vr]

not a lot of people write songs about eating disorders that truly capture the hell of being stuck in the middle of one, but she sure does

[@lovettdeleted]

I'm sure this song is about prostitution... and the starving is reference to their lack of access to food / their declining health

[@wr3ck3dd10]

It’s written like that because Nicole went through it, she’s probably one of the best writers out there

[@jamessunderland8360]

@@cocainesuperstar2972 it is

[@lovettdeleted]

@nabokov orbust the lyrics really don't point to that tho

[@InebriatedImbecile]

@@lovettdeleted certain lines point to not-so-well-known eating disorder quirks, like hiding and hoarding of food (such as in one's bedroom) or having a distorted view of the separation of body and "soul" ("if my body is 'bad', then that must mean that I AM bad"). plus, pornography in general can be a goldmine in self-triggering body dysmorphia, so "praying" to them is a fun way to phrase the glorification of petite bodies seen there. restrictive food behavior can also be a response to trauma, so that doesn't discount the sexual abuse interpretations. it's just easy for restrictive ED sufferers to point at certain lyrics and go "haha i do that"

[@odalys3273]

Saw her live when she opened up for Grimes...I was blown away. I was so surprised that her voice sounds exactly like the studio versions. Her voice was just as a sweet

[@wr3ck3dd10]

I’m so exited, I’m seeing her soon

[@rin111dd8]

YO, she opened for grimes!? That must've been so epic, I love both of them

[@odalys3273]

@@rin111dd8 yes it was a concert I'll never forget!!

[@beckyruggiero8721]

That’s so weird because before I saw this comment, I just had thought to myself that her voice sounds a little like Grimes then BAM, I see this 5 seconds after 😐 it’s the elves!

[@MK-wc7sy]

Which concert was it?

[@kkarma211]

I think this isnt just about just anorexia. To me its about rape, an eating disorder, and the mental health issues that come from those. Thats just my interpretation of course. As someone who has an ED- this sure as hell depicts what its like

[@cruzgomes5660]

She's all one great big ball of fucked up and baggage so makes sense

[@babefr0mtoyland]

real

[@criddir]

I honestly didn't think you could make this song better and yet here we are.

[@helterskelter2323]

Tru

[@benp4954]

The most perfect thing about this version, amongst all of its beauty, is an incredibly subtle change from the original: She actually includes "the split" (literally) between her "body" and "soul" that she "can't find". Have another listen; it's the only truly split syllable (rather than note change) in the entire song...

[@ravn340]

Ok this is officially my aesthetic. Biker dudes eating sweets and makin out

[@BonoLightier]

+Helene raven SAME!

[@suicidesucks08]

+Helene raven These look like biker dudes?

[@ravn340]

suicidesucks08 ur right im uneducated when it comes to generally ppl. Pls tell me what kind of subculture these gents belong to.

[@ravn340]

suicidesucks08 wha

[@ravn340]

suicidesucks08 are you tellin me biker dudes wouldnt eat sweets and make out like that

[@mariobriontoucedo1244]

this is one of the greatest pieces of art that I seen in my entire life

[@eudaldvidalcodony7089]

Me with every Nicole Dollanganger song

[@aydenbrown4654]

biker dudes eating ice cream with a badass aesthetic feel is now my religion goodbye

[@Lee-qw2qf]

lol..would like to be friends with you

[@shroomsforbreakfast]

you can really hear the desperation in her voice, she perfectly captures how eating disorders feel

[@drewinsects]

squad goals

[@jasperj.d.g.4147]

Deadass

[@UberEpicGirl]

I guess everyone has their own interpretation of the song. I personally don't think of sex workers when I listen to it... Did you know that anorexia makes you lose all libido? That's what I think about when I hear this song

[@getting-on-my-nirvana]

well said

[@user-kx7dq2vx1e]

but why she did video like that? isn't normal

[@jermainecrawford2883]

No wonder ppl say chubby dudes last longer in bed

[@machinegurlll]

Not every anorexic person can't have sex. I was 82lbs and still being fucked by assholes. That's what she's talking about here. Hollowed out and used by uncaring men.

[@foreversui]

nicole had anorexia b/p subtype and thats why the video depicts eating like this. it’s not only about starving she specifically talks about purging in the song and her room smelling like rotten food it wasnt purely restrictive. and you can still have a high libido as an anorexic it really all depends person to person, people with sexual trauma that causes them to be hypersexual are more at risk for anorexia which explains the lack of a loss of libido in those cases

[@poppylagoon1097]

that was a religious experience

[@BigBootyLittleHole]

I cant believe Nicole invented homosexuality

[@alanghannoum3029]

it's funny because 3 of the guys in this video are actually homosexuals

[@alanghannoum3029]

@@eriklrdp yea i'm the gay feeding matt ice cream through the fence lmao

[@CodyDTD]

@@alanghannoum3029 "I'm the gay" 😂

[@drolucard]

@@alanghannoum3029 is really you at 1:27 jsjsjsjsjsjshjsjsjs

[@kuromi3z]

this had me rolling omfg

[@gabrielpeza404]

there's a Gummo-like vibe to this vid that i rly luv ^__^

[@rubysouth-moffat1033]

+Gabriel Peza was gonna say the exact same thing

[@navecamnedia]

this has such a nostalgic feel to it

[@Heartpadlockk]

The years are passing by and this is still being wronged, one of her best songs :( lvv you Nicole

[@CreepyEyes04]

This song never fails to make me cry

[@Umbrey_Dunctum]

Even if one is not aware of the lyrical content, this song is so moody and musically just a simple gothic joy to listen to.

[@Bernardo_st]

this song makes me cry every single time

[@vineboomsound1127]

Why do Nicole's songs give me tingles all over my body?..

[@tatiana2513]

my hair is falling out again and i don’t really care i try to stir my conscience it was never really there

[@kezlyy]

8000 of these views are probably me replaying this omg

[@PasteyAnimates]

i’d give my body to satan if i could only keep my soul but i can’t seem to find the split between them anymore.

[@santiblueboy]

Nicole a think i saw u at at the end nicole, is that u nicole? Oh i lov you nicole i really do lov you Nicole

[@fuegovioleta]

+Santiago Ogarrio yes its her

[@invariantalchemist8183]

I can't stop laughing at this comment

[@daddyslittlefemboy3659]

invariantAlchemist three years later and I'm still laughing my ass off

[@marriedinmountairy]

@@invariantalchemist8183 5 years now and same, every time i see this comment i hear tommy wiseau reading it in my mind

[@katzonkandi]

why is this so funny

[@terencehollows6618]

I want this to be the song playing on my funeral.

[@alexispc7628]

me 2

[@social0inertia]

I didn't think it was possible but this is actually better than the original - and the video is just A+ I'm aching for the album release, I feel like the whole world is going to collapse

[@jaydenmontoya5521]

what kind of biker gang is this and how do i join

[@maiksonstrife]

I read a document released this month in Brazil about pornstars in a research, 80% kills himself, usually they live until 35 years, this music is about porn industry, is sad, I think I don't need to write more than this, just listen.

[@uwumaster3272]

maikson mendes no she’s speaking of her eating disorder in the form of porn

[@palomagallegos155]

What was the documentary called?

[@wr3ck3dd10]

1967 Chevy Impala it’s the other way around

[@sirvladharkonen6200]

bitches get no love

[@anti_fragile]

people can see the song in different ways u guys know? u don't have to go "nO iTs PrOsTiTuTiOn"

[@netheritetanto]

This music video is literally art.

[@amandaw7360]

this song makes me feel so fucking weird I love it

[@ariannaishappy2281]

Haha I love ice cream and biker dudes

[@safirzz]

i feel like shit

[@clo_rad1]

same

[@katzonkandi]

same

[@shroomsforbreakfast]

oh my god this is my number one song this year on spotify😭

[@LokiPii]

I LOVE your music! I actually have a dairy sharing phobia which is hilarious because I was so squeamish through this entire video but the song made it so worth it.

[@geekyogurtcup]

LokiPii wow haha what a coincidence! That's such a specific phobia om

[@SmoogieEnforcementDroid]

So, you don’t mind sharing other foods?

[@trollfunk]

This is so breathtaking. You and your boys are so beautiful.

[@TheJasmineLilly]

Oh my god you just made my day

[@impishexe]

i hope i get to see her live one day. her music has helped me through some really rough times, and continues to do so.

[@k-3833]

i swear every song of hers is god tier. its like she could never disappoint i love her

[@anarkitty000]

Desde Colombia quiero decirte que esto me llego al alma

[@giovannybedoya4133]

🇨🇴🇨🇴

[@mitrigash3519]

@@giovannybedoya4133 coco

[@lenuniakarb]

there is not a song in the world that means more to me than angels of porn does. i love you so much nicole your songs are everything to me ive been listening to every single one ofyour songs since 2019 and i will never stop. your music has helped me get through so much

[@rainabaileyyy]

i have been reborn

[@cnidariel7402]

+raina b. I FEEL THE SAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@heroinasytumbas3346]

+raina b. same

[@eileenhawthorne8707]

same🌹

[@flxsheatrrrr]

Everyone's chillen eating sweets, and what I see? Someone is eating dirt. I don't understand a lot of your music, but, It has a nice sound, and the music is nice, and your voice is like an angel. We love you Nicole!! You need to be more famous

[@yagamilight5146]

This song makes me feel alive

[@feralhog6350]

LMAO ALL THE BOTS IN THIS COMMENT SECTION CAUSE OF THE TITLE VFGCCCCBHJ

[@lovelylolaunicorn]

I cannot believe I’ve been listening to this song for so long and I didn’t even know there was a music video and that it was this good!!

[@flowerfield3468]

This girl has been THROUGH IT godamnn

[@drolucard]

Essa música envelheceu tão bem♡ Obrigado Nicole por essa obra prima

[@2002bones]

sim

[@michellebastiani6470]

I wish she was in more of her vids i love her so much tho and i believe its her artistry in the videos so I'll take it. lol.

[@sadcat2684]

I need more songs that sound like this!

[@ROXIO7]

Homoerotic version of Black Circle Boys, some Twin Peaks, and ice-cream.

[@marsasaboy5833]

I love everything about this

[@cannibalcorpse912]

Her best song im in love with her i can't discribe my feelings thank u for exicisting gurl

[@tacochapo876]

Obsessed with this song

[@Ciel-sp4lg]

I just got into her very recently and this is definitely my favorite of her songs. I’m in love 💖

[@jacknoble2076]

literally listened to this like 20 times today, LOVE THIS

[@NightmareCryptid]

this song. so beautiful. perfect video.

[@missmaryypotter]

Not many people have the experience or artistry to make music about childhood sexual abuse so I’m glad Nicole could do it so well.

[@getting-on-my-nirvana]

it’s about eating disorders

[@xaire3684]

@@getting-on-my-nirvana "your fingers up inside of me feel like fingers down my throat" it's not just about eating disorders?? edit: nvm idk what im saying

[@realfrankiegrande]

@@xaire3684 nicole never experienced CSA

[@katek9864]

@xaire that phrase is how making yourself vomit after eating is as pleasurable as sex because you release the “ fat” and guilt.

[@cyberangelito]

maybe it's not about csa but i can be interpreted like that. Eating disorders as a result of csa?? could be

[@Xxpavement_angelxX]

Comfort songg and video ly Nicole

[@iwant2rob]

i love this song so much

[@dangerboyantics]

I love it so much

[@sinxincarnate]

pure poetry.

[@samanthamartins990]

This song brings me back so much. I love this video and song with all of my heart

[@cocopadilla2791]

i'm so madly in love with this

[@dylansaunders7112]

This is incredible! angels of porn was so perfect and it's been made even better (how that is possible I don't know)! I am so proud of Nicole for this and I'm unbelievably excited for Natural Born Losers.

[@Pinstripe_King]

This is pure art

[@nomomono8199]

Esto es arte ❤❤

[@peachpitz7228]

this makes me cry

[@oogerbooger3798]

So glad i found your music

[@Newdisaster]

She’s so cute I love her and her song writing

[@josilynfreund7918]

this video makes me feel disgustinly sick, but i love the song

[@berlansantos6352]

I love your musics so much❤❤❤

[@doeeyed7498]

Girll you are my fav musician

[@cnidariel7402]

THIS IS THE BEST FUCKINGN SONG AND VIDEO I HAVE EVER HEARD AND SEEN I LOVE IT SO MUCH I WANNA CRY IT TEARS MY SOUL INTO PIECES I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT IT IS EVERYTHING IT FUCKS ME UP ITS SO GOOD I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

[@jaaydeedubyaa]

Damn nigga did you catch your breath?

[@beautifulprincessoftheworld]

real

[@cottontail5109]

Albert Camus would've written an essay about this song

[@cyberangelito]

TE AMO NICOLE DOLLANGANGER, desde MX. Me iré de mojado para ir a uno de tus conciertos luv you this song makes me feel so fucking electric

[@Namimp3]

Love this

[@stickyfr0gz]

EVERYTHING I'VE EVER WANTED

[@katya4383]

happy four twenty u guys i fucking love this song/video

[@GenF91]

Just got into her a few months ago. Wish I would’ve gotten into her sooner. First song I heard was Mean. She’s amazing! ❤️

[@shroomsforbreakfast]

welcome! there’s no turning back 🩵 hehehe

[@eddie.crybaby]

Amo essa musica e esse videoclipe ❤❤❤

[@Vivi-gu5yl]

this is so gorgeous

[@FeralCreatureOfIncredibleRoses]

oh ok, so she's the blueprint.

[@softgrlx5137]

I LOVE IT

[@miguelbarbosa8547]

best monday of my life

[@rosie6]

She is so underrated wtf

[@sgreechie]

This is absolutely haunting dude I love it

[@Paper88Moon]

i am so proud of her

[@alliebarnum5948]

Aaaahhhh, Nicole you are so incredibly talented! Love this video and this new version of one of my favorite songs you've done. The ending is so cute too !!

[@pallasa]

this is beautiful

[@daveplath1183]

Such a beautiful song.

[@scaaaarlett]

hottest music video

[@bigbadwolfflurryface3246]

nicole Needs more recognition

[@internationalwinners]

this is insanely great, thanks for making it...

[@cameronburns6924]

felt this in my soul

[@kenapolo8367]

I loved this!

[@solomiito]

this changed my life in 2017

[@magnoarcadio8937]

mine in 2018:(((

[@solomiito]

@@magnoarcadio8937 time is an illusion!!! this song doesnot exist yet

[@nelilr6824]

I really like this, the original is great but this ahh

[@mikealvarez9185]

still cry to this mya

[@suicidesucks08]

Simply love it...

[@KonohanaSakyuka]

love this song!

[@amani7753]

AMAZING NICOLE YOU ARE A FUCKING QUEEN LOVE U SM

[@CamilaLee_]

you are pure rock girl