August - Pretentious Monthly Scrapbook 2017

In which August is a bit on the down side.
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[@frostedjosieos3193]

I love how Dodie and Sammy are best of fucking friends.

[@CupofStea]

josie o all their videos together are truly wonderful. I love it 😃

[@raysplaceinspace]

No fucking, just friends

[@mbgisleena]

They are bff goals :)

[@mayajoy7248]

I love how genuine you kept this. It wasn't framed as an unrealistically positive month of laughter and friendship, but it wasn't framed as a month completely filled with sadness and overthinking and wishing to feel something more. You showed us the real ups and downs, and honestly that in itself has made me more comfortable in being myself because I relate to so much of what you said about being able to find joy but still feeling empty and down.

[@cheyennebarton]

i actually sat back and applauded at the end of this - how you've felt for the past month is how my brain feels 80% of the time, and it's so easy to just exist in this dark terrible space that takes up so much room inside me, but there are caverns of light to be found and, as you said, i won't find them by completely checking out and scrolling mindlessly on the internet. you're a very good egg, dan.

[@AnnaWoods]

Genuinely appreciate your honesty, i know you're as peppy as you can muster in your vids. Really hope you feel as cool and important as you are because boi. You're golden. (Also it's Anna from nandos lol hi)

[@InfiniteIzzy]

I don't know why but this might be my favourite PMS video yet. I don't know if it's the positive memories bought back by SiTC, the small moments of comedy or even the talking I can relate to, but I really enjoyed this :)

[@matildabatess]

thanks for signing hannahs book at sitc it was kind of surreal when you started filming haha sorry i was so awkward on camera

[@Sarahhiltonwatts]

I relate in a big way to your description of not being great but not being depressed as such. Being distant from it all, like there's a pane of glass between you and everything. Honesty appreciated, keep calm and carry on

[@SuperSamStuff]

thanks for keeping the us all going. couldn't have done it without you

[@DanLayton]

SuperSamStuff

[@layoverbear]

My brain has been like that for a few years, major depressive disorder my therapist calls it, and your videos are one of the things i find beauty & serenity in. Its alright to feel a bit shit sometimes xx

[@cecilsol2166]

i hope you feel will better and still sometimes see the beauty and clairty of things, in the midst of all the chaos.

[@sophiarichmond5052]

Hey Dan! I met you this year at SitC - you signed Dracula for me and Clash of Kings for my friend - and you were incredibly lovely as ever. I'm so sorry to hear you've had a low month but I hope September is treating you far better. This format was beautifully effective - the monologue of your internal feelings interspaced with the moments that you found joy in was just a lovely way to put it. Up is the only way to go and I hope that you can find your 'safe place' in your new home soon.

[@mollyluckett5315]

Omg! If the girls who you filmed at the beginning, talking about signing books see this, hi!! I'm the younger girl that was behind you while queueing to meet Luke. If you see this comment please say, because I really want to talk to you again, you seemed so great!! 💛💛

[@mollyluckett5315]

Sorry this isn't really relevant to the video but I've been waiting for this video to come out for weeks so that I could try and find these two. If you see this and need a reminder of who I am, my names Molly, I'm 14 have just above shoulder length hair, and was wearing dungarees over the same top as Tilly was wearing. There was an older girl with me called Sarah who I'd also met in the queue, she was 26 but shorter than me. We talked about Hamilton, school (GCSEs and such) and how we had no idea what we were going to say to Luke! We also mentioned KZbinrs we like such as Emma Blackery, Daniel and said how gorgeous Hazel looked (we could see her at her meet and greet line). So yeah, please get in touch!

[@drumsofautumn]

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[@matildabatess]

hi !! message me on instagram @tilly.bates

[@robert.1674]

You should voice a audio book

[@isabelchmontuenga]

Its slightly hearth wrenching how much our head can change the reality that we live in. How by itself it able to torment our very existence. Thank you for your honesty.

[@maisied]

that was my frame 😂 thankyou so much this is so funny

[@maisied]

also i hope you're doing better this month!

[@floralspectre]

maisie394 Great frame!!

[@daniquedijk7989]

I kinda felt like that for a very long time. I would feel sad or empty but sometimes i would smile at something or laugh but my heart wasnt really in it. I have pictures of me in London and at the Harry Potter studios where you can see that I'm smiling but that smile isn't reaching my eyes. And when I was there I would ask myself why I didn't feel excited and happy because I'm a massive hp fan and I wanted to go there for a long time. A few months ago I was driving on a long road with a lot of trees, they were even bending over the road, so much so that it became very dark and I just saw darkness at the distance. but the sun was shining and would project light true the trees and on the road. And that's how I felt. Driving in the dark and sometimes hitting a beam of light but it was too short to really enjoy that light and not knowing when the trees would make way for grass so I could fully enjoy that sunshine. But now the end of the road isn't as dark anymore and there are a lot less trees standing and I feel a lot better :) Wow this was way too long and a crappy explanation but oh well. X

[@shonabeswick]

two things I took from this video. 1. PMS vids can still make me teary.(Dan, I hope you feel better in September. Sometimes brains brain weirdly and all you can do is ride it out. But you got this) 2. Countries that aren't Australia give you two year rent leases. two years!! What would I do with all that housing security?!!??!

[@gabbyorslene3829]

This month I moved back to school and felt a lot of what you described. Going from home to place that has sort of but not quite become home shook me. I felt like I didn't fit into my own skin, nothing that I normally enjoyed could cheer me up. This is my third year at college and every year I forget how to deal with it. I forget that I have gotten over it. I often feel like I'm two different people at home and at college, and this year when I got back I couldn't quite remember who I used to be here, even though it had only been a few months since I left. So this year I just let it happen, knowing in the back of my head that the sun would come out again and suddenly this not quite home would be home. I let myself be miserable and then went to bed and woke up the next day knowing I was one day closer to happiness. I would never say I'm glad you have been feeling this way, but it does give me strength to know that someone understands how I feel. Wishing you the best!

[@LikeIt4Ever]

something about this month's PMS stuck with me... I watched it and wanted to move on but I had to come back to watch it again and again and again and now I feel the urge to comment Dan, I obviously have no idea how exactly you feel but the feelings you decribe feel scarily familiar. My August was extremely similar in a sense that at the beginning of the month I felt like I was living my dream but then was confronted with reality and the existential question you were evidently asking yourself... I allowed myself to feel just I was feeling for a while but now it's difficult to move on, even though I can find small pieces of happiness in my daily life like a letter someone sent me or rain after a hot summer day, although overall I'm not enthused by life even though everyone around me seems to be. Seeing it being put into words or into a kind of contemplation struck a cord with me and makes me feel something, the very last sentence is like a slap in the face, a reality check if you will. Of course that could just be me trying to fit a version of your video into my world view and my struggles, since that I something we tend to do in order to relate to the 'story arch' but this is very obviously not a story arch but your life, still we are only on the outside looking in. Anyway, what I'm trying to say so very ineloquently is, that I feel like I'm feeling similar. I really like your realistic and existentialist perspectiv on your situation and it makes me feel like I'm not alone experiencing these things. The editing really emphasizes the motion throughout, kudos this feels like art to me. Thank you for sharing this and putting yourself out there. Sorry, for the long and not very helpful comment, I guess. Cheers x

[@ruth-qf9od]

do you remember your halfway VEDA q&a when someone (me) asked if you would judge me if i cried while meeting you and you replied "a bit. mainly because i'm not worth that" ? because to me that was a downright lie- you are worth that you're worth so much more than that. at around half past 2 on the saturday of sitc me and my two friends were waiting in the queue for Sammy's merch table and you walked over and stayed for about a minute, then when you started walking away i jokingly called out your name and when you turned around, and looked at me i was shocked. i wasn't expecting you to hear it and you waved and told us you were going back to your table. i was speechless and when you'd gone i did in fact cry a little bit. you were honestly one of the people i wanted to meet most at sitc and i did in the end managed to meet you and utter a coherent sentence to you after baking with layton live. thank you, you were the only person who was able to get that reaction out of me by simply waving. i love you

[@teatea2113]

I love the way you do your monthly vlogs it feels really professional but also super casual

[@morganzola]

christ i relate. i think i've felt like this for a year. i have certain friends who never fail to make me laugh until my breath is shaking and there are tears coming from my eyes! but i know what you mean when you say it doesn't last. when i'm empty i'll want to fill my brain physically, with people or music or conversation or the outside word or a good tv show. when i'm full, i'll want to empty my brain emotionally, to dump my embarrassment or anger or confusion or panic or stress into a vacuum and watch it die away. i constantly want to be the half-full glass and i struggle to do that, but we all do because that's why we have emotions. i hate emotions, but i love what you said about letting yourself experience them and then letting it go. i think i could use that from now on. thanks, dan.

[@xxBecauseicanxx]

Hey Dan! The feeling of your brain being too small and your thoughts fighting at 1000 mph to be the next thought thunk - that describes EXACTLY how I feel sometimes, and it kinda peaked last year. I have a locked twitter where I'd spill my thoughts out at random, which helped silence my head enough to sleep. An empty document also works. Now I have a journal where I just throw words into - sometimes it's literally just 3 words and an ugly doodle, sometimes it's 4 pages of everything that's on my mind. It's cliché but it helps SO MUCH because it just lets you think your thoughts through, and kinda organise them (I'm guessing you also feel like your brain is trying to think 3 thoughts at once?) but when writing, you're forced to think one thing at a time. You really should try it out. It's the only thing that shuts up my mind enough to sleep :-) Hope you feel better soon!!

[@caoimhe1764]

I literally love these so much, you made my august absolutely amazing when I met you at summer in the city, thank you Daniel x

[@ingedenouden3628]

Honestly, same. Because of some very shitty conditions I can no longer live in my parent's house. I had a room I could rent for a month, but that month is over and I now live with my brother who I barely know. My brain is a mess and I can't proces any of it. Mostly I even forget i'm allowed to exist. Strangely, your last sentence, 'But i'm not gonna find the answers to those quetions laying in bed endlessly scrolling', made me feel a bit alive again. Thanks and hang in there

[@yousuzers565]

It's weirdly comforting to hear someone describe how you're feeling, putting that state of being into words, ideas, something tangible. I feel you Dan. I hope you get out of this funk soon.

[@HC-pq1wx]

"my anchor had slipped" - nothing has ever described a mood I've felt better than this describes my life right now. I never normally comment, but this really spoke to me. H x

[@eladicocco]

It's so weird to see someone else put into words what you've been feeling like. I hate the word "relatable" but I will have to use it, I couldn't possibly relate more to what you went through this past month. Sometimes I feel like I'm going mad because I go from one thing to another and end up finishing none. It's just really interesting to have someone else say it. I hope you find your focus again. Thanks for the honesty ♡

[@vickey111]

That shot of Jack annoyed at Dodie and Sammy messing around almost looked like I was watching a episode of The Office.

[@gc.w4304]

Dan, you made me cry again. I think you need a hug too so *Hug*

[@Mettelicious]

I love and appreciate you, Dan.

[@nuttmeg20]

Wow. I can't tell you how often, almost regularly, I feel this way. Sometimes I feel great for weeks at a time, like I know exactly what i'm doing and where I'm going and everything is fine. And then sometimes the smallest stress tips me over into feeling almost exactly the way you described often for a entire day if not, at it's worse, days at a time. The bit about being unable to settle on any one movie, or book really resounded with me - that feeling that none of them feel quite right, but if you could just find the 'right' film, or the 'right' song then everything would somehow be better. I'll feel like my mind is constantly racing and spinning round, spiralling to the point where it really does feel like I'm having some kind of breakdown. I just wanted to say that I've felt the same way, and I've never heard anyone describe that feeling in a way that is quite so similar to the way I've felt. So thank you. I suppose just for making me feel like I'm not the only one. I honestly think you are wonderful.

[@colecerys123]

I know you felt shit this month but i really love this style of PMS. The honesty is much appreciated and sometimes i think it makes for better content and you channeling those thoughts into this worked and it was creative. I hope you feel just a smidge better xx

[@slowdancers]

sitting down in my living room with a cup of coffee while its raining really is the best setting for me to watch your pms videos. keep working as hard as you can dan, we'll be here waiting and supporting you on whatever you want to do with your life (its okay to not really know Exactly what you want! we've all been there!)

[@FuzzyWuzzyBumbleBear]

I wonder what Hazel's reaction was to the photo. Or has she still not noticed it? 😂

[@DanLayton]

It was STRESSFULLY underwhelming.

[@HoneyDaengdej]

I wish there was a 'love' button too.. not just like or dislike- because this PMS is so great that I don't feel like just a like is enough to show you how much I appreciated it... and I don't have anything original enough to say in the comments apart from "I hope you know how much good- videos like these do for people who are in the same position... because feeling as if you are going through it all alone is the worst part.."

[@ellenowlin]

When I was in my senior year of high school (which was seven years ago now, wtf), there was a period of a few months where I felt exactly as you described. I even remember thinking something along the lines of "I'm not depressed, because obviously I can still see the beauty in the world." Looking back on it now, it's so clear that I was depressed. A couple years ago I fell into depression really hard again for honestly over half a year. When I was able to finally make the connection that how I was feeling then was the same as how I was feeling when I was in my senior year, it really brought it into focus that Yes, this is depression, and it made it so much easier for me to decide that I needed to talk to someone. I would really encourage you to talk to a professional, and to stay away from thinking that just because you feel alright sometimes that that means you can't be depressed. Don't discount how you're feeling just because it hasn't been everlasting. I would also encourage you to remember that you don't have to be depressed to talk to a professional, and that SO many people have therapists and counselors for a myriad of things that they want to work on. It's just another way of working on improving yourself and your life, like going to the gym or taking a class in something.

[@TheChangeMyLife]

I love this. I love your videos. And I almost love that you upload so rarely compared to other youtubers because this is like a chat with a friend rather than an episode of a show.

[@TheRainydayvideo]

I have had a day exactly like this, feeling a bit lost. I really appreciate this video, good timing.

[@suzirobinson1038]

i love these, it's such an interesting way to document a period of time! it's such a ride of emotion too, it goes from laughing to serious to calm so quickly. and i have no clue how you manage to make your thoughts sound so poetic?! love ya 💗

[@evaharris2396]

Dan I met you at comic con and I genuinely appreciated the chance to say thank you for always making me smile even when I feel so low and I hope that you also have your own people who you can turn to like so many do with your videos we all love you so much ❤️

[@bea-hd6sc]

I love how you plan and edit these videos. You have all this footage of your month, and then you reflect on what happened with such honesty and wisdom, and it's such a wonderful balance. Thank you. And I hope September is kinder :)

[@janusclaymore]

I was very kind and brave of you to release this PMS Daniel. I remember my most recent semester of college I was in the same position. As you said, I was reticent to use the "D" word (as I still am). But videos of honestly...knowing that someone I look up to as a human also has their dark days reminds me that their is light at the end of the hallway. Thank you for the lovely video, much love from Texas. xx

[@TheEmmadee30]

itsnotperry iI'm

[@bethanwonderley6513]

And this is why I appreciate you so much as a genuine person, not just a KZbinr!

[@arunimagahlot8781]

It's very refreshing to see such amount of honesty from youtubers, the good times and the bad(and not some unnecessary drama that's just scripted for the sake of entertainment) because that is what helps us connect more. Keep up the good work and I hope things work out!

[@juliafrancesca6054]

This video captures my feelings at the moment so well. The way you talk about your feelings and the bad brain episodes is exactly how I felt the past few weeks, but then those happy and content videos of small things in between show how it's not always like that and that things just go downhill sometimes but if they do, we always have our loved ones right around the corner and things will be fine again. My, I love this video and you are one special human, Dan. I hope you feel better soon and I hope you'll find yourself in a place where you can answer those questions. Xx

[@mollypettitt5122]

Pms is my all time favourite series, mentally I can relate to being in a slump, I've been ill this month and since then I just can't get back to being myself, I have no way of preoccupying myself, I need a hobby or something but idk what, however seeing myself in pms at baking with Layton live has made me so happy and it was amazing talking to you at sitc, you were still so cheerful and happy Dan, but it's okay not to be okay that's just reality sadly 💛

[@gabriellaarntz821]

Oh boy, I definitely had a period like this last year. Cheers to you for sharing it and being strong to realise you need to keep some movement in your life. I sunk a bit deeper, but a moment of genuine reflection sent me on my way again as well. And additional moments of reflection when I could feel it creeping up again. You're a strong soul, Dan, in the dark and in the light.

[@jamyjewelify]

your videos always bring me so much joy when I can't find any in my day to day❤️ thank you!

[@lottethys6853]

I'm speechless. This is such a good video!

[@elliekeene8344]

"there just didn't feel like there was enough space for everything that was going on in there" i absolutely know how that feels. that's one of the few ways i think it's possible to put anxiety into words, especially that tired late night anxiety. it can also be hard to explain that at a time when you're not feeling it. i'm really sorry you felt that and wish i had any helpful advice, but i can only offer my support as a fan and tell you that i appreciate everything you do :)

[@elleanne3410]

Oh, this was wonderful. You (and your videos) are always refreshingly honest, and I really enjoy your combination of humour with more serious subject matter, and you have such a lovely way with words. I hope September is going better for you x

[@Mariam-bf8gt]

I'm trying to think of a good way to express all the thoughts and feelings i'm having because of this PMS but i cant quiet put it into words. So i'll make it very simple. Thank you, Daniel. You truly inspire me. I hope you can sit through an entire movie soon.

[@elieska]

I've been watching your videos every now and then for the past months. But this video might be, really caught me. You might not expect this video to be one which will lead to more subscribers. But for me it does. After typing this reaction I'm gonna hit that subscribe button. I really value this kind of honest, open and realistic kind of content ❤

[@abbydinger5834]

I have been feeling that way for the past few weeks and didn't know how to describe it. It makes me feel so much better to know that is a thing that happens to other people. Thank you

[@dominiquegaston1759]

Daniel, I appreciate you so much. Thank you.

[@smilespoonskelton]

I really love this PMS because the way you've edited it means the video totally encapsulates how you described feeling this month. All the short clips of good times you had with people shows that there were short bursts of happiness and good time for you this month; But the way they interupt and break up you talking about feeling so down showed that they were just that: Short bursts. But you had an underlying sadness through the month, just like the video has an underlying tone of sadness. Basically the video made me feel how you felt all August. Totally masterful, Dan! X (Also im really sad you're having a bad time i hope you feel better soon x)

[@msfearliss]

Really love the honesty and genuineness (is that even a word?) of this video, and all of your PMS videos if I'm being frank. You've really found your style, your voice this year through these videos, as difficult as I'm sure it's been. I'm sorry you've had such a difficult month, but as many have expressed, a lot of your viewers (myself included) can relate to some of your experiences, and I really appreciate how you lay it all out, the good and the bad, for everyone to see. It's because of videos like these that I always look forward to whatever you post next. Out of the over a hundred channels I'm subscribed to, you're one of the few content creators who I'm genuinely excited to see pop up in my subscription feed. So thank you x

[@leexbea3959]

I almost cried while watching this. Really resonated with me for some reason. Beautifully simple and comforting Dan. Loved it

[@beanhope8739]

I really appreciate you being so open and honest with us Dan about how August was for you, and honestly I can relate to a lot of what you were feeling because I thankfully have that mindset too of seeing the hope or victories in the little things that come up in life, but also get those times where it's absolutely down. But I hope you're safe space is starting to feel more and more comfortable and like a sanctuary for you. You deserve that. Have a lovely day, Dan!

[@cecilsol2166]

this was really lovely and something so many people can relate to - those moments of just feeling down. the end of the video gave me so much hope in a time where i, myself, am coming back from something terrible. i can finally feel myself again, emotions, joy, clarity. thank you so much, daniel

[@bellabozied7303]

May I say that the words you say in between the video clips are pure gold. You make the simplest of words sound like they mean so much more. I don't now if you have a script you read off of or if you just wing it, but either way it's beautiful. I hope you feel better and your videos are always so inspiring and never fail to put a smile on my face (:

[@BringOnTheRainxx3]

Dan, you could write a book and i wouldnt even be annoyed. Your words are so well put together, even while talking about something so hard. Sorry friend. Feel better.

[@ByJuliah]

I honestly hope things will get better. August felt the same for me, so I can relate to this a lot. I have to tell you though, your videos always makes me feel something special and it's always very warm and fuzzy, so thank you

[@alicecairn4836]

Thanks for your honesty mate. Really appreciate the way you articulate how you feel, and in turn, sometimes how I feel.

[@samfry6258]

This was really well done Dan, very thoughtful, vunerable, and self-reflective. Being in the head space you were in absolutly sucks and I feel for you as someone who also felt that way for a long time. I just want to say that I think you are brilliant and despite your struggles in August you put out a great video.

[@isabelletaylor3726]

Something so wonderful about this honest video that felt kind of poetic. Thank you for this and I hope you can make your way towards making your house feel more like home.

[@geenarobles6578]

This is gorgeously poetic and I am in love with it. I love the cuts from you speaking of your sadness then cutting to a moment of happy; it's a representation of life in a way. Honestly, right now in my life I feel stuck, everything around me is moving and happy and I am stuck in the road while tons of people pass by me. The people I once cared for pass me by and I wonder if it was ever truly going to last, if I could really keep walking without getting stuck in a pothole. I still wonder that. And even though I'm stuck here right now, in this gaping pothole thats refuses to release me and let me keep walking, I know that in the back of my mind this pothole will eventually let me go and I'll move along again. I know it, and the little things that keep me happy and hopeful will help me eventually come out. We all get stuck sometimes Dan; but it's the choice to keep moving, it's the thought to keep moving, that is what moves us. Thanks for sharing. 💛

[@mollyridley1531]

Thank you for keeping this genuine, and sharing how you've felt without any bullshit but also keeping it positive. It's a hard balance to achieve, and what you've described for this month is how I feel a lot, though I never seem to express it quite so eloquently. I hope September finds you in a better head space x

[@kaitim817]

This was amazing. There are so many monthly video series on KZbin, and most all of them only depict the fun and interesting parts of the creators life. More so, they show the creator as this perfect person with a perfect life, even though their life away from the camera may not be that way. I love to see the other side. The part of people's lives that isn't so glamorous. While seeing every part of someone's life is not okay, being able to get a look at the rough patches is nice. It is almost inspiring to see that these perfect people on KZbin are just regular people too.

[@becky7866]

Hope you feel better because you deserve so much happiness. Thank you for this video. It was amazing as always

[@jadelawson9384]

Thanks Dan, in the nicest way this can be a thank you. Sometimes I find myself falling in and out of moments where i lose my sense of self and direction, in fact I'm there right now, and even watching a video of someone going through something similar has brought me a certain amount of comfort. I always feel as if it's human nature to go through slumps, and as you said as much as you'd like to lay down and just laze about, you can't, that's not the way to get things done and doing nothing is just staying in the muddle in which you've found yourself.

[@TheTeo102]

I loved loved the ending and the honesty that you show in these. I can tell you that you are an inspiration and a ray of sunshine in my days, but I don't know if it'll help so you have all my well wishes and I can't wait for the moment when I will see you again

[@emmadalby3638]

Thank you for your honesty in this. I know how hard it is to feel your safe place and your sense of balance slip away from you. I've had a particularly hard summer this year for a whole host of reasons and a lot of what you experienced in august resonated with me. It's not fun, it's not pleasant, but believe me when you come out the other side of it, life seems even sweeter

[@maisiejean9966]

That last bit really helped me. I'm out of school and haven't got any work and I'm slumping. I need to remember that I can't learn anything about myself by just sitting around. Thank you 😊

[@tombrent8013]

Really loved this video, hope you feel better soon!

[@aliceashwell6520]

Thank you, I needed this today. Those last three sentences pretty much gave me an epiphany. I've just got back from travelling, moved back in with my parents, unemployed and 23. I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going or why and I've been finding it really difficult to get up and find out and do something about it. But watching this video has really inspired me to get the hell up and sort myself out. Binging tv shows in bed all day isn't helping anyone, especially not me. So thanks for being so honest about how you're feeling and making another amazing PMS

[@thepurpleninja6738]

Just the artistic contrast between the vlog footage and the raw thoughts you spoke made me just stop everything I was doing and stare at my tablet in awe but yet with a hint of sadness. In creating this you have accurately summed up the lives of so many where though happiness surrounds you and even your external voice reflects that your internal thoughts will completely contrast it, telling you everything that's wrong. It's saddening but at least from these experiences you have created something just so fucking beautiful and grounding which will hit close to home for many and for that we thank you but remember that sometimes it's ok to feel down because there will always be pick ups along the way x

[@izzbizz989]

dude I think the fact that you can look objectively at your feelings and almost analyse them can be a really positive thing because you can understand where it's all coming from! Look after yourself x

[@flynnsparrow]

Dan... Just, thank you for sharing something so real and personal. And common. It's comforting to know our experiences are shared by others. I don't know, that sounds generic and stuff but really. I've been feeling this way on and off for a year now. Knowing logically that a million others must be feeling this way at some point is so underwhelming compared to hearing about it from one person. I appreciate it a lot. Thanks, take care

[@AmeliaWilds]

thank you for this, dan! i have been in a bit of a similar place recently, for a while now actually. but it helps hearing someone else sum it up so eloquently. i hope you can keep seeing the beauty in life! love you! xxx

[@MKJwhoa]

Sorry to hear that your August was tough. But goddamn, this PMS was a masterpiece. Very well done. Wonderful job, Dan.

[@wiebki]

Hope you are feeling better ❤ Thank you for being honest and brave!

[@Kuropenin]

Thank you for the heartly and genuine vlog you made for August. I send you the best wishes and Hula Hoops to last a life time :) for you to make it through. I can speak from experience that moving places and losing that safe space you had before really takes time. I moved placed this summer and it took me about 1 1/2 months to accept my new flat and to start to relax there. (3 1/2 months now and it gets better each time I return). It might be okay by now, it might be okay in a few weeks for you, but know that you are not alone going through this.

[@teekoike]

This has made me feel a lot better, because I've been feeling exactly the same this month. It's nice to know I'm not alone

[@georgia4201]

Daniel J, im so glad you explained your brain like that because I honestly thought that I was the only one who's brain is wired this way I cannot thank you enough ! x

[@teatea2113]

My brain feels so cluttered too, I can't process what I'm feeling but it's nice to know that there is someone else feeling the same way x

[@SeraEllis]

I've spent so much time thinking about what I feel and want to say and can't find the right words, but thank you for sharing this, I hope September has been a time to nest and find your safe space at home, and that your mind has settled a bit too x

[@elena_designs]

Best outro ever! My whole summer was like your August. I feel you. This sucks

[@haleyyarborough6694]

I can't get over how accurate of a way this is to describe depression. You have reality and your outward self with friends or at events littered in with your raw and honest feelings of just not feeling great and not necessarily understanding why. At first it didn't feel right but that makes complete sense and then felt almost TOO right. I'm sorry you're feeling crappy and I hope those two sides merge once again.

[@jamimarj5253]

"There were nights where my mind was chaos- where there just didn’t feel like there was enough space for everything that was going up in there and all of my musings were colliding into each other, crashing into each other, clambering into the final think that I thunk before I went to sleep. And I would lie there staring at the ceiling, body exhausted, eyes dropping just desperate to find a way to put my brain into storage for 8 hours, just 8 hours" I needed words to express it, what I felt, I guess I've found them

[@amandamakesstuff1383]

My entire autumn 2016 felt like this, like nothing fit and that i was in the wrong place for everything although on paper it all seemed perfect. Thank you for posting this

[@freyab5066]

Wow. I have had a shitty august, my mental health has been up and down for the past couple years but really fell down hill and I have just started taking some antidepressants. This video, I don't know what it is, the genuine honesty, the lightness mixed in with really raw emotion??? but it has officially made my day. I hope your September is much more positive!!!!

[@juutjejb]

thank you so much for this. i haven't been feeling very well all day and although this one wasn't your best, it helped me a lot. i hope you'll soon feel better

[@genziewenzie]

You are genuinely one of the most intriguing people I've ever had to encounter

[@ZetaDellSmithMusic]

I've just moved as well and despite being here for around 3 weeks I still haven't finished unpacking! I understand not having a space of your own and how draining it can be. Thanks for being so honest and letting others know that it's ok not to be able to just jump into something new straight away 😊 you've really helped me relax about it all x

[@ryuichi32]

I know exactly the feeling you're describing and I hope you feel better.

[@JumpinJaxs470748]

I know exactly how you feel. The last few weeks I've not felt "depressed" but something hasn't been right. I haven't felt myself, normal day to day things have been effort to do for no particular reason. It's hard to get yourself out of the state of mind, and it's so hard to tell people, because people need a reason as to why you feel that way. I think you're doing the right thing though and it's amazing the despite how you feel you can still see the joy in things. I hope September is better for you, you never know maybe the change of season will bring a change in state of mind :) x

[@Eden.H]

Genuinely appreciates the honesty in this... It's OK to not feel OK sometimes, and it's ok to take a mental break to care for yourself

[@sakzitime]

I'm sorry you're dealing with this and i hope you find yourself in comfort's embrace x

[@yeetorbeyeeted5777]

I love this video! And I love you sooo much! Hope you feel better! 😍