Back After 2 Years in Survival Mode | Life, Loss, & Healing

Well, I'm finally back!
It's been almost 2 full years since I've posted anything on my channel. Lots has happened and I'm hoping that my story, along with my journey, will bring some healing for me and maybe some of you as well. This is a super vulnerable video for me to make and put out there, but I feel it is necessary for growth.
Much love!
Cat
P.S. This video has zero editing. I don't have the energy for that right now. Thanks for your patience.

[@mama_keikei8081]

Just like these others I have no idea why your video popped up in my feed. I listened to all of it and I’m so sorry you had to go through that and watch your parents go through all that. You’re very strong and I will be waiting for more videos ❤

[@sreidy96]

Oh, how I recognize that look on your face... it's one I look for as I make my way through a similar situation, on the faces I see when I infrequently make it out into the world. I look for it because I wonder if anyone else is able to put one foot in front of the other and accomplish all of the things that need to be done but completely overwhelm me now. It's the look that says, "I have so much to do and so many people that I feel responsible for and my reserves are about empty." I sincerely wish for you the peace and calmness you are striving for in your home and your life and will follow along cheering from the sidelines.

[@leannearthur292]

You are amazing helping your parents and your sister

[@ElaineSharon358]

Praying for some comfort for you and your family…❤

[@rdixauthor]

I'm so glad to see you back!

[@9384cows]

I'm so sorry that you have had to go thru so much in the last 2 years. We are the sandwich generation taking care of our kids and parents at the same time. It's so much work and incredible stress to deal with. We went thru something similar with my in-laws for the last several years. They are both gone now. It takes a lot out of you. You look so tired and burned out. Hang in there. I'm glad to hear that you have some new in your life for you. I wish you peace and happiness.

[@fcatarina]

Your video just came up on my feed. I don't think I saw any of your videos before. I can see you've been throught a lot, but it seems to me you are about to turn things around! I wish you the best of luck going forward. I'll be here for the series 😊

[@kellybeachler4177]

Thank you for sharing. You sound like you know right where you are at which is always right where you need to be. Survival mode for years is relatable and where I’m coming out of right now as well. Moving forward can feel overwhelming and working the energy of my physical space is deep work that I’m learning to balance with soul nourishment of mind and body. Blessings to both of us as we move forward.

[@breakingthesinglemomstigma5339]

Thank you for sharing as well. That balancing act is where it's at, but man it can be tough sometimes. Glad we're both on the road towards wholeness once more!

[@isagoldfield7393]

I’m sending my hugs, peace & prayers to you and your family🙏🏼♥️⭐️

[@rubypham452]

You are a good daughter, I am pretty sure your parents appreciate your help.

[@tinacollins2055]

Bless your heart! For the last two years you have not had a life of your own. No wonder you've hit the "depression wall" several times. Isn't you sister doing her part to help you keep the house clean and organized? If not, maybe she needs to find her own place. Here is a trick a wonderful psychiatrist taught me many years ago: Don't try to do too much at one time. Do one thing, set a timer for one hour and take a break maybe just lay on your couch or bed. When the timer goes off, do one more thing, set the timer for one hour and take another break. Do this all day. By the end of the day you've accomplished a bunch of thigs and had a goo amount of time to do nothing at all. You will find that some time during this process, when you set out to do the "one" thing you will see others things that need doing and you'll do them too. Best of luck to you.

[@ianhenderson589]

Be well my dear.

[@kamblai]

Oh I will be praying for you this is alot

[@tom_2ndlife]

Not sure why this video showed up I heard what happened to you dad. You spent 2 years in survival mode. I spent 2 years in survival mode. I spent 5 years there. But it did amazing things for me. Oh you about your dad. Half side paralyzed is bad. Try both sides paralyzed and both hands to boot. I recovered from even that and only 5 months ago I retired my wheelchair for good after almost 8 years. He can get his limbs back! And don't worry no BS supplements to buy or any experimental surgery. Just a ton of hard hard work. How old is he? I can show him how to do it..what people don't realise is stroke is a mental challenge.. people fail when they try to attack it from as a physical issue. There are videos on my channel about how I broke free from quadriplegia. Part 1-10

[@ReinVintage]

I’m so glad this just showed up in my recommended feed. I found your videos 2 years ago right around the time I think you started posting and I had just started homeschooling my kids. I was also caring for my medically complex disabled child. I was ALREADY living in survival mode and had been for years due to caring for a child that was in poor health and needed so much care and attention. And I just wasn’t even aware. Around June 2022 my entire life emploded. My marriage was ending and then my son passed away unexpectedly on January 28, 2023. Listening to you talk just now, your emotional journey just reminded me so much of my own. Thank you for being open and sharing and I hope you continue posting videos because I will be a dedicated watcher 😊. I’m still in the process of attempting to put the pieces of myself and my life back together and would love following along in someone else’s journey doing the same. 🫶🏻

[@breakingthesinglemomstigma5339]

Oh my gosh. I had so many different feelings reading this comment. First of all, thank you for watching and for sharing your own story. Our stories can be so powerful. Second, I felt so much heartache for you, while simultaneously feeling seen and understood as I read it. I haven't had a medically complex child myself, but I used to be a caretaker for a couple for many years. That job was one of the hardest and most rewarding I've ever had. Such beautiful souls. I know being the parent is above and beyond what I experienced in that time and I just want to say, you're amazing and I'm so sorry for your loss. As for putting the pieces back together, I feel that. I think what I'm learning is that the pieces are now shaped differently, so putting them "back together" isn't going to look the same as it did before, but that's part of the beauty of going through really hard things - we also get to experience something really unique and beautiful at the end of putting it together, piece by piece. Thank you for sharing and I do intend to keep posting. ❤