The Diagnosis...

[@peggyolson5616]

"Being overwhelmed by just existing." Never heard anything more relatable in my life.

[@avril.227]

A-M-E-N!!!

[@neya88]

Every morning having this thougths 😑

[@lenakataeva7525]

I can relate to this so much. It's paralyzing me

[@jessicahaha9]

Ugh, same 😪

[@claregemma1]

Same

[@fishymonstur]

Oh sweet Bea, please get rid of the lillies! Most people dont know this (I didn't for the longest time), but all parts of lillies are lethally poisenous to cats. If that is what the yellow on cheddy was you may have saved him by rubbing it off with a wipey however since his fur still is stained there might still be pollen for him to ingest if that's what is in his fur. I really don't want to scare you, but please look it up and keep an eye on Cheddy. You might want to pre-emptively have him checked by a vet and the yellow shaven off or something.

[@carlafoley3342]

I was just about to say the same thing, I have lilys but I keep them high and remove the pollen covered stamen. Hope you removed the residue off him x

[@angelaricciardi9784]

I was about to say the same! I hope she sees this!

[@Linaraynecreations]

My cat ate an entire tiger lily that my kids picked outside and brought in without me knowing and then he threw it up and I freaked out. Took him to the vet a few days later and his blood work was fine 🤷‍♀️ So maybe some cats are not as sensitive? I dunno.

[@gabrielleg.1347]

Yes my friends cat spent 4 days in the vet hospital from eating just the decorative grass that was in a Lilly bouquet! It’s so dangerous to animals.

[@georgias9153]

Commenting to boost for the algorithm because I also came here to say this!

[@looli1327]

"Why can't I be normal?" The theme of my negative self talk for most of my life. I'm 31 and I've had a recent ADHD diagnosis as well. And it is so helpful. Congratulations 🥳

[@checkitoutlove]

Lol been diagnosed since 7. Growing up being told I was adhd made it just a norm and part of life… what no one tells you is when you reach adult hood and don’t have a bunch of teachers and parents organizing your life anymore and your like man…. Why do I suck at everything 😝 I feel like a early Alzheimer’s patient just trying to remember things and get stuff done

[@cls3282]

I'm also 31 and just got diagnosed! It was a huge relief to finally understand things tbh

[@abigailroberts425]

I'm 31 and also just got diagnosed with inattentive ADHD. It's nice to know there's a reason behind the struggle.

[@hyperfocus6910]

Ditto, congrats!

[@brookemace7578]

The fact that you got thru high school and college and have a great job, speaks volumes about your drive! I said from the moment I watched you that you were ADHD. I’m almost 50 and FINALLY got a dr to truly listen to me and help me. I have ADHD and wish I could have accomplished half of what you’ve done. Kudos to you Bea!!! Don’t be ashamed, Be Proud!!

[@Grem-g9i]

“I’m overwhelmed just by existing” that hit home hard for me. I have felt like I was drowning here lately. Thank you for sharing your heart.

[@AmethystMtzE]

Same girl same!!

[@bestintentions4249]

That survival voice over was perfection.

[@krisrose219]

I laughed out loud!

[@ashleyb9261]

Reading all of the comments about other women, like myself, who were recently diagnosed with ADHD in adulthood warms me up, thank you for sharing.

[@brynb1325]

Honestly never occurred to me that you hadn’t already been diagnosed. I think it is always so funny how others can see things in you that you don’t even know about yourself. I hope having the diagnosis helps you feel like you aren’t ever “wrong” in your reactions…just reacting to the best of your ability

[@Msmichiganpeach]

Bea, we are enduring a pandemic. Please be kind to yourself. You're doing so well from when you first started. Being more self aware is a total win!!! Congrats on your diagnosis and use your Thrive membership to try organic and healthier food and snacks. Take care of yourself and we will be here whenever u choose to drop in😉💕💕💕

[@butterflyzero23]

It warms my heart seeing Doug bond with you over time. When you first got him, he seemed pretty content, but a little shy. Now he seems to light up when you talk to him.

[@JessieW6776]

Shortly before the panini started, we began the process of having my 7yo daughter diagnosed with adhd and “high functioning” autism. This sent me down a rabbit hole to learn more, particularly about how it presents in females and this is when I realized that *I* am most likely on the spectrum too. I am a 33yo mom of 2 and suddenly my whole life made sense. It’s shocking that I made it this far without anyone ever mentioning it because now that I know, it seems so blindingly obvious! ♥️ you Bea!!

[@BubbaYak]

Is this pandemic? The topic of your comment is very serious but I'm tired and weird so I laughed more than I should've about the panini starting

[@lifesonrepeat]

Similar situation here. My daughter was diagnosed at age 4, almost 5. Might have happened sooner but my whole family kept telling me she was fine because I was the same as a child. The more the husband and I researched autism the more we realized…..it was me! I remember when I was a child I would always look to everyone else to figure out what I was supposed to do and act like, I also had an older brother that I copied too. I masked well.

[@borntobenoticed]

Literally one day last year I was freaking out about my sensory overload and my mom was like …you’re probably on the spectrum you know. …I’m literally 35, married, 3 kids and I’m like oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh. That makes a LOT of sense

[@kimmer1535]

B, as someone who weighs the same as you, has PCOS, struggles with depression and has been wondering if I may have ADHD (the likelihood is pretty high😅) ... it's so nice to be able to relate to someone with similar issues because I now know I am not struggling alone. I've been watching you since you started this channel and I just want you to know you're helping others like me and that we appreciate you 😁💛

[@april4282002]

I second this comment!

[@Lcruz16]

Me too

[@defectivethreads]

i know...as she was going thru the list of symptoms she basically read me😳

[@giinnnaaaak]

Cosigning.

[@junes7255]

Fifth(?) this! i love how much i can relate to her!

[@avacanaahrs]

Btw get ready to possibly experience a lot of grief while you reflect and reframe your life through the lens your new knowledge. Not easy, but well worth it for the clarity!

[@sarah.bea.]

Oh, the anger you feel when your meds kick in for the first time and you wonder if that is how other people can function all the time.

[@avacanaahrs]

@@sarah.bea. I’m still on the waiting list for meds unfortunately (uk nhs process), but been going through the diagnosis grief process all year... will look out for that anger when I finally get my meds! 😅 kinda feels like I’ve been gaslit my whole life, and I can imagine that will only be confirmed by meds 😬

[@PlumbobPanda]

@@sarah.bea. this 🤬 my exact feeling day 3 after I got over the imposter syndrome

[@Jme_eighty3]

@@sarah.bea. YES! After 2 days on my meds, I remember my husband asking me how I felt and losing it. Not at him, but just screaming "is this how normal people feel?" That for the last 24 years I could have felt like this rather than the constant chaotic rat race that is my brain. I was so mad that I struggled for so long when there was a solution to my "issue" and could have not felt the way I had for so long.

[@sarah.bea.]

@@avacanaahrs I hope you get your meds soon! And I feel you about that gaslighting. Learning about ADHD and the realisation I might be affected came as a real shock to me (also positive because so much suddenly made sense) but talking to my family and friends everyone was like “nah, we all have those situations sometimes”. Lost over a year because others told me I was wrong 😑

[@joannainperth]

“Mental prison” is totally relatable. I FEEL that. Also, you’re way too hard on yourself. I am too, that’s why I can see it in you. Also can totally relate to how wonderful professional validation feels. It’s like, oh, my experience/self is atypical, and I have plenty of reason for not coping the same way other people do. I’m glad you got answers and validation. 😊

[@hannahthompson4109]

Bea, this video brought tears to my eyes! I got diagnosed with ADHD - primarily inattentive type last year at the age of 26. So many things make so much sense to me now about myself. I am so excited for you. Medication literally changed my life. I saw someone say once re: medication - it itself doesn't make you happier, but joy is so much easier to reach. And I find that to be so true. Good luck with your treatment!

[@env6909]

Hey Bea, I can't tell very well from the close up but it looks like that flower was a lily, which is actually SUPER toxic to cats, especially the pollen. If it is a lily, please get it out of your house! I don't want to scare you, but I also don't want anything bad to happen to your cat. I also agree with what someone else commented that you may want to shave that area of Cheddy's fur that was stained and also keep a close eye on him. I don't know how long ago this video was recorded, but I would keep a close eye on him for a while and maybe even call your vet to see if he needs to have a checkup to be safe!

[@eatketchup]

As a heads up, those lilies that Chetty rubbed up against are toxic to cats :(

[@miriamkline5549]

Yes! I paused the video to say the same thing.

[@fishymonstur]

Yes I just commented the same, all parts are lethally toxic to cats. So few people know this :( I've had cats all my life and only found out last year or so that this was a thing. Luckily never been fond of cut flowers so never endangered my own cats..

[@hannahmitchell87]

I've just commented that too before seeing yours!

[@Hedgehog_Bouquet]

Even the pollen can cause organ failure. Please get them out of your house!

[@SophieOGara]

This!! They're EXTREMELY toxic!!

[@cwadethewriter]

To echo the comments, I just got diagnosed with ADHD AND Bipolar so no wonder my doctor/therapists couldn't/didn't know how to help me for a really long time. Now at 28, I actually feel clear headed and I am able to do the things. I only hope the same for you!

[@BeatriceCaruso]

That’s wonderful Savannah! That gives me a lot of hope💛🦕💛🦕

[@theeternalseason3890]

I’m 23 and was finally diagnosed with ADHD last year. I’ve struggled with severe procrastination since elementary school onwards and never knew why. I constantly skipped classes in high school because of missing homework assignments. My stress levels were through the roof all throughout my life. No one including myself understood why I struggled so much. I only found out the symptoms of ADHD when I was looking up procrastination for the thousandth time. It was a godsend to finally know why simple chores felt like mountains to me and why I seemingly couldn’t function like other people.

[@Mary-dr6kh]

Sounds like me, but I don't know where to start.

[@theeternalseason3890]

I would start by first talking to your doctor and getting a referral for a psychiatrist. That’s what I did.

[@kelsey3503]

I’m so so so proud of you for taking the steps to understand yourself! I was diagnosed adhd last year at age 29, after living my life with a brother who also had adhd but mine went unnoticed. I know the feeling of finally having validation of alll the things in your life you didn’t understand coming to the surface can be both overwhelming but also add a sense of relief. Sending positive thoughts as you continue on this journey! :)

[@jenmckinney7887]

I have always been called spacey, dreamy, weird, antisocial. My dad said recently “you never stick to anything” I have been managing, adhd, depression and anxiety for most of my life. Honestly the covid quarantine helped me to stop and focus on my mental and physical health in a different way. Scared about big changes coming up in a few weeks, hoping I can continue my healthier habits even as life gets busy. Thanks for continuing to share your journey, I know so many can relate! 🌈

[@beenspired]

I was just recently diagnosed with ADHD at 40 yrs old. It all makes sense. I’m learning so much. It’s hard to lose weight with ADHD too. I’ve been reading articles about the connection. Thanks for sharing!

[@VKill89]

Green bananas are all I eat. 🙃

[@kerrydavison2702]

Bea! So glad you're back! If that pollen is from a lily, it's suuuuuper poisonous to cats (like, fatally so). I'd wash it off ASAP (heck, if it was me, I'd cut that bit of fur off and get rid of the flower). If it isn't a lily, please ignore 😊 Xxx

[@ashleighshannon5235]

If your plants get lopsided you can rotate them so that the “sad” side faces the sun and it will help stimulate growth on that side.

[@ot7bg]

yes! they actually reach for the sun, it's one of the coolest things i learnt in bio hahaha

[@Americus1019]

When you were sanding and sweeping up the dust from the chair it reminded me of all the times when I was younger and my grandpa would make so many things out of wood and I would beg to sweep up the shavings because I found it satisfying and I liked to spend time with him- so thanks for bringing those memories to the front of my mind❤️

[@soapstuff6212]

Bea, I have always felt that we shared more than just our weight history. Much love from a fellow neurodiverse woman xx from a supportive place, aspergers is no longer a diagnosis, it is seen as ableist by the autistic community. Know that this diagnosis is just a prism to know, accept and love yourself. It will help you to find your tribe. You are so welcome xxx

[@erica_rz]

i came to the comments to mention this about aspergers as well! xx

[@TurtleMyrtle12]

Could you explain what you mean by the term aspergers being albeist? I have a friend who's an Aspie and I've never heard this before.

[@Amanda.aka.Megan.Shines]

@@TurtleMyrtle12 I don't have ASD but Asperger's was done away with diagnostically and considered a part of the ASD umbrella in 2013. My understanding is it's ablist because it was treated like ASD lite, where you aren't truly autistic, you just have Asperger's. Like it's "better" than "true" autism since you're "high functioning."

[@brinosaurier6058]

@@TurtleMyrtle12 I understand it's not the term asperger's that's ableist, but treating asperger's as an illness, a disease or disability. Neurodiverse people aren't ill, they're just different from what most neurotypical people consider normal. Doesn't mean they need fixing.

[@tuttiFrutiikawaii]

@@TurtleMyrtle12 it might also have to do with Hans Asperger, who described the condition and gave its name, being a Nazi. He defended that children with Asperger's were worth saving because they were capable of inteligence, while other disabled children weren't. And Nazis had this thing with "cleaning" the word of undesirable people... So you can imagine why the community doesn't like it.

[@historylass83]

I went to the hardware store a lot as a child, and those paint chip samples were very useful as film awards for Barbie dolls. A lot of the color names made reasonably good film titles. #weirdchildhoodstories

[@celestedemure9800]

Not weird. Barbies helped me mentally deal and survive. I love having my own unique household items made into something new and always have 💗

[@puppylovexo]

Lmbo!

[@eliseb6315]

I just got to the part where your kitty got stained yellow from a plant, if this is a lily or anything that grows from a bulb, please toss those since cats are severely susceptible to the toxins in the plant. My cat got into lilies once, and I really recommend checking with a vet if you see him feeling sick ❤️

[@isaugh8784]

I went YEARS, struggling through life, knowing something was wrong, and just dealing. My mom and grand mother were both diagnosed with Bipolar, and the older I got, the more aware I got of my own symptoms. I could see it in me, and how it affected my life, and I continued to put off seeing a doctor even after I basically came to terms with the diagnosis myself. Self diagnose can be a very dangerous thing, but I’m a strong believer that if you feel something within, mentally or physically, is off, you should trust yourself. Surprising to no one, I was diagnosed almost immediately and have been on meds since thank god

[@JulietteVeronica1201]

You hit me with the "when you get your ADHD in control, a lot of symptoms that ADHD causes have the potential to lesson," because when I started meds for my ADHD my mood vastly improved and I was much energetic and the urge to binge dropped rapidly. I still deal with anxiety because that's personally the most detrimental on me physically/mentally, but ,my therapist putting me on my meds were a miracle.

[@tieiatalks]

I was diagnosed with ADHD last week and I’m almost 48!

[@tansysilva8594]

ME TOO!!! It makes so much sense!

[@paigeturner1124]

I’m 47 and my nephew was diagnosed with ADHD at 20. He came home and said I think you and mom have it too. Guess what?? Lol I’m still in the process but the dr is leaning toward agreement.

[@staceywood4369]

Realize that “normal” is a construct. It’s our perception of ourselves vs. our perception of others. You are normal, just the way you are!! What’s unusual is the gracious and relatable manner in which you share your experiences! You’re actually quite extraordinary! Thanks for sharing- love your videos!

[@brneyestx]

Well said @stacey. B you are extraordinary!! I mean you have Muppet family!! {{hugs}}

[@CarJul666]

Normal to me means being boring. I'd rather be my self and goof around. 🥳

[@isals8498]

The problem with introverts is I could use a friend like you who I connect with, but we would never become friends because we would be at home by ourselves drawing. So thank you KZbin! 😂

[@jeng151]

Oh this is so true. I’ve been living that life all of my 51 years, and now I am watching my teen daughter live it too- which is painful because she is so lonely & unable to communicate with her people. She’s found them in the art room, but yes, all they all do is sit in their silent bubbles and draw. Such a difficult existence to crave human contact, but also be exhausted by it. We often talk about how we wish we could find friends who “got it” & wouldn’t be offended by us needing 2-3weeks in-between social get-togethers so we can recuperate & have enough time to pursue our internal interests. It doesn’t mean I don’t love you- I’m just TIRED! ;)

[@zazelda]

1. I am so PROUD of you for going to your appointment. Don't be afraid of the meds, just be aware. Watch for the way you feel, weight gain or loss, change in sleep pattern, etc. 2. The plant could go in a larger plot, but even more than that, I'd rotate it every week. It's leaning towards the sun. Maybe put your Christmas cacti in a cactus medium, not regular soil. Or at least water it less. 3. My cat got a yellow nose from stopping and smelling the flowers too! So funny! I got a picture of her and she looked guilty as sin. 4. Green chair. Didn't you want a green sofa too? When does your sofa come in? 5. Could you do a review/worth the $ or not on your humongous beanbag chair? I've seen them on youtube before and I'm curious one your thoughts. 6. The brown spotted bananas are sweeter! Not as firm, but they're good in smoothies and protein shakes. 8. Have a suer week. We love you and appreciate you opening up to us. You are touching so many peoples' lives and helping people figure out life. You rock!!!

[@anaarias8211]

I was one of those who mentioned that you may be on the spectrum ! The more I watched you the more I realized we were so very similar. I’m glad you were able to seek out some answers. It’s absolutely frustrating to realize how little is known about how autism and ADHD present in women. Thank you for sharing this! As for me, realizing at almost 42 that a life time of struggles and mental illness were finally explained by an autism diagnosis has been so empowering. It has been such a life changing realization to finally know THAT I AM NOT A FAILURE AT LIFE, I AM JUST AUTISTIC! ADHD and autism present very similar in women and often crossover. I knew you were part of this amazing world of neuro diversity! Soooo, sit back and realize that nothing about you is a “failure”, nothing about you is wrong or broken…you are just a neuro diverse woman and the society around failed. You are pretty damn amazing!!!💜

[@wildgeese5707]

This whole time I’ve wanted to say to you that I thought you had adhd but I didn’t want to offend. You are so much like my daughter and I, who have inattentive type adhd. Mine was missed until I was 40, and I suffered a great deal as a child in school because of it. My daughter wasn’t diagnosed until the 7th grade! Profoundly impacted her self esteem. The lack of dopamine or dopamine uptake that is a known factor in adhd is a likely factor in why I was a binge eater as well. Fatty, salty, sugary, greasy foods cause a release of dopamine. Hello?! We are not medicated, each by our own choice. But I am a successful adult and learned how to manage all my own symptoms without medication. My daughter likes how she is and doesn’t feel she needs to change anything to make her brain more like a neurotypical one. She accepts that there will sometimes be a mismatch between her environment and her mind. It all comes down to what will work for YOU! Support. You got this girl! There’s a great How To ADHD channel. Check it out. Love you girl! You are only labeled as not neuro-atypical because the linear thinkers wrote the DSM. There is nothing “wrong” with you, your brain or your emotions. Don’t bother reading books that tell you you are fucked up and have to fit in with the linear society. I recommend Lynn Weiss book “attention deficits disorder in adults”. We are with you! All emotions are welcome here!

[@LoseWeightSara]

Mental health is such a journey in and of its own. It's really encouraging to see you prioritizing yours and continuing to discover ways to help yourself, even when it's scary or overwhelming. 💜 Keep going strong, Bea!

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Thank you Sara! I appreciate you💛🦕💛🦕

[@LoseWeightSara]

@@BeatriceCaruso always cheering for you to be the best you can be. 💜💜💜

[@MadAboutBrows]

@@BeatriceCaruso hey there's a whole thread below about how lillies are toxic to cattos!!

[@anavalenciarubio1119]

About the meds, we all need the same substances to be ok, some of us just have to get them from outside sources ❤️ good luck and I’m so glad you got this validation. You’re doing great!

[@carriecarrie5285]

You changed my life with this video. I have been watching your videos for a while and saw a lot of myself in you. You are about 15 years younger but I could relate to most of your experience. I always knew there was something different about me that made life difficult but I couldn’t figure it out, even with professional help. After you talked about ADHD, I started researching and I had every symptom. Long story short, I was diagnosed with ADHD at 43 and now my life makes sense. I’m sure you don’t know how much your openness and honesty is helping people. You may have saved my life or at least given me glasses when I couldn’t see. Thank you!

[@fiddlephine]

Just wanted to pop on here and say I got diagnosed with adhd at 34 (this spring). My main symptom is impulse control, I have serious binging issues and just about killed myself this spring drinking till I couldn't talk over and over. I'm on an anti depressant and my therapist has said it's possible that I'm not really "depressed" I'm just dealing with the fall out from my impulsiveness and extra energy. I'm a performer (country fiddle) by trade and in many ways my big personality has helped me, but it also brings me a lot of shame, regret and embarrassment. Understanding that there's nothing wrong me, I'm just built a little different has helped me accept and love myself which has helped me understand my limitations and work around them. I'm a work in progress, but aren't we all? Anyway, I just wanted to say I'm really happy for you that you are finding a new understanding of your behavior. That has been very liberating for me. I love watching your videos and honestly they have helped me be kinder to myself. So thank you for being your neuro divergent self, its nice to feel represented by another arty, adhd woman around my age!

[@pinky567]

Just like a good mom would say” I was worried about you, no phone call, no text.what’s a mom to do! I’m totally with you on a little bit of green on the bananas

[@BeatriceCaruso]

Lol I’m sorry💛🦕💛🦕😅

[@mariannabivens2092]

I feel this lol 😂😂

[@RisaBeesa]

I love this comment. 💚🐝

[@emtee3098]

@@BeatriceCaruso What brand of jeans were you wearing in the beginning? They look amazing on you.

[@MyEu4ia]

About the monstera! The like to be snug in their pot so only change if it's like "bursting out" of the pot. They like a bit of shade. My monsteras are also always thriving ^^

[@roseface]

If those are lilies, they’re highly toxic to cats! We have four cats (#crazycatlady) and I won’t let a single lily into the house because I’m so scared 😨

[@ReptarIsStraightEdge]

So is the Monstera! Please look up your plants and put them out of Cetty's reach.

[@heathercolon2673]

Exactly!! Same!! Not to mention (#allergies) lol

[@erinschultz1953]

OMG!!! You are an incredible, courageous, and beautiful woman! I’m so proud of you for being brave and going to explore your mental health! I hope that you can find a medication that will help you thrive. My son is ADHD and ASD. There is a huge difference in him now that we found a medication that works for him. It’s taken a few years, but don’t give up. Be sure to advocate for yourself. Oh and I would recommend getting some plastic plant saucers to save your surfaces.

[@danielandbriahna2597]

I just wanted to add a comment to say, you’re not alone. I’m a 26 year old woman, who got diagnosed with ADHD and OCD yesterday, and it just kinda added clarity to my life. It was a huge relief to just have answers to questions I asked about myself about why I do things the way I do. I will say though, that aspects of your life and how you react to things will slightly unravel a bit. You have a whole new mindset about yourself, and being in certain situations will make you process things differently. For me at least, since my diagnosis, I’ve been unpacking a LOT about who I am. Like why I get overwhelmed sometimes, what causes me to get overwhelmed, why I feel like completing a task sometimes is so daunting, EVEN THOUGH I know it’s a simple task!! Everyone is different obviously, but I wanted to lend some words. This will be the beginning of a new journey for you. A journey that will help you be more in touch with who you are, how you handle things, and just how you live your life in general. I will say though, take this as a gift of forgiveness to yourself. Everything that you have ever doubted about yourself, everything that you’ve thought was different or abnormal, isn’t your fault. Our brains simply work differently than others. And honestly, diving deeper into adult adhd, it kinda just makes me love my brain so much more. Something that people view as a disorder, is actually something that also sets me apart from others. In my professional life, my relationships with people, my personality, they all are the way the are, cause of my ADHD. And for those reasons, I think it’s rather beautiful. Just the way we process things, I find it fascinating. Anywho, I was all over the place with this comment. I mean nothing but good intentions with it. I’m gonna be honest, I find myself watching your videos, because you remind me a lot about myself. Like we are VERY similar in a lot of ways. Which makes me genuinely excited for this journey for you. I hope that through this diagnosis, you are able to start finding yourself a bit more, and being in tune with who you are. And like I said, more forgiving. I’m excited to see where this takes you. 💕

[@Jme_eighty3]

Honey, I am so happy for you. I was just diagnosed 3 months ago at 35 years old with ADHD. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since I was at least 14, but since I did good in school and was not hyper doctors never took anything seriously. I finally reached a breaking point this year and reached out for help because I was so tired of feeling like I was failing at just basic human activities. After being diagnosed I felt a sense of validation. Whatever was going on inside me had a name and I could look into it more and really understand myself better. It also gave me a community of similar people that I could talk to and laugh with about all my "craziness". That I no longer had to mask who I really was and understand why I think, feel, and process things the way that I do. Once I started Vyvanse for ADHD, my anxiety and depression have gotten so much better. I sleep better, eat better, and can actually make and stick to a schedule without derailing 20 minutes in. I rarely get stuck in those all-or-nothing modes and therapy has helped me developed ways to adapt to my diagnoses and work with myself rather than against myself.

[@susanhildreth1531]

I got prescribed Vyvanse on Friday and picked it up yesterday. I will start with 20mg. How have the side effects been for you? I'm afraid I will wig out on it but I know I need to try it. It's all I can do to function and get through the day. I get hardly anything done at work. I ignore calls, can't complete tasks, even ones I've started, and I find myself napping during the day to avoid work. So sick of this life!!! (I'm 50, I don't want another 30 years of this crap)

[@Jme_eighty3]

@@susanhildreth1531 honestly, I have not had any side effects. The first few days that I took it I felt like there was something slowing down the squirrels running through my head, but not in a bad way. If that makes any sense. After the first week, I felt like I could think more clearly, I didn't struggle to get words out of mouth one at a time rather than one big word blob. I could actually feel the stress that I held in my body start to ease up and my body start to relax and not be sore all the time. Sometimes I think it hinders my creativity, but that is only because I do not have 501 thoughts bouncing around in there at one time. I really wish I had gotten help sooner rather than feel the way I did for so long.

[@messy678]

Oh Bea, i just want to hug you. My son was diagnosed with combined ADHD when he was 10. There have been countless moments of both of us sitting on the floor in tears. It breaks my heart to hear him ask why isn’t he normal, what’s wrong with him? Getting his diagnosis helped so much. We were able to get him help and support but most importantly, it gave us a clear answer. We like to say that his brain isn’t broken, it’s just different, and wow isn’t that neat? Hugs to yiu, Bea. ❤️

[@pamiam9017]

My son had a friend on the spectrum, I esplained to him that his friends brain just had a different operating system - eg was Apple instead of Windows.

[@JH-iy7eu]

How old is your son? Has the medication helped, is he able to have a normal life, im in the same situation with my child.

[@messy678]

@@JH-iy7eu my son is almost 12. We are doing medication free- he sees a therapist and has 3x a week sessions with his schools special needs counselor to talk, help with assignments and learn school coping skills. It’s all a learning experience and at times it’s incredibly hard but we’re getting better at understanding and helping him. My advice would be to ask questions, advocate for your child, and to try to be as patient as you can. Good luck to y’all!

[@zuzuspetals9281]

@@JH-iy7eu As a former teacher and someone who has been close with kids with autism they may not have a “normal” life but a differently successful life. They can learn to adjust and adapt so they control behavior responses, understand how and why they feel like they do, and know what their needs are. We’re all different and have needs we have to adjust for and don’t realize no one really has a “normal” life. Teach him all he is able to learn on his own and don’t shelter him, he has more courage than you realize.

[@marisolschielke5210]

I cried so much when I was diagnosed with ADHD because it was such a relief. I was diagnosed about 5 years ago and the medication was like flipping a switch, getting myself out of prison. Amazing! My relationships have improved because my family has given me a little more grace. I am not being a jerk, I am just trying my best! Sending you love 💗 and hugs 🤗

[@zuzuspetals9281]

A diagnosis also allows you to give yourself grace and knowledge gives you the power to overcome any unknown factors had in holding you back. Keep moving forward.

[@Lupehkun]

I was diagnosed this year at the cusp of 27 with ADHD. My brother received his diagnosis as a child because he did have the hyperactivity, but they never suspected their procrastinator gifted kid daughter was also neurodivergent. I was unemployed for 8 months during the pandemic and my executive function was zero. I could only focus on my anxiety from being able to do nothing productive and I was constantly doing nothing for weeks because of the depression that resulted from feeling helpless. Talking with someone and getting that diagnosis and prescription for Concerta put me on the path for getting out of that depression funk. I started making connections in my earlier years where the signs were so obvious and it’s offered some clarity. Btw, Concerta did stabilize my mood a lot more so my anxiety baseline came down a lot- from what I understand, stimulants produce the dopamine neurodivergent brains don’t make enough of, and anxiety can be very tied in dopamine insufficiency.

[@junipajen]

Woohoo! Finally! I was one of those people who mentioned it (a few times) and emailed you a long letter! hehe! Congratulations! The 4 stages of ADHD diagnosis later in life... 1. Relief, this explains everything! 2. Anger. How did no one else notice this( especially when I was younger)? 3. Grief. My life could have been so much improved if I'd of had earlier support! 4. Acceptance. My brain has a lot to offer and going forward my successes will overcome my struggles! Bea fabulous Bea!

[@ashtree68]

It was really interesting when you mentioned about how you get really easily overwhelmed by just existing and especially in social situations. My partner has Aspergers and this is something that he struggles with a lot as well. I know that it can be very difficult, but just know that you’re not alone. 💜

[@ZMihu]

Can I just say how nice is to see you act with Douglas!! He is really loved. I can't have pets, but seeing you is soothing 😌 💕

[@Breathlless]

I HAD A STRONG FEELING. Your symptoms were so similar to mine and I wanted to say that maybe you had it but didn't want to make assumptions. The struggle with maintaining friendships, the lack of motivation sometimes, the anxiety, it's a looong journey. I'm so glad you got diagnosed!!

[@cierraaaaaaaas]

I was just diagnosed!! I’m 28 and wow am I happy to have a diagnosis. Now I know where to start. I’m excited to finally find some peace. I was diagnosed with hyperactive and inattention but mostly inattention.

[@AngelaCharron]

I was just diagnosed with ADHD too! I started on medication (Dexedrine SR) 2 weeks ago, and my goodness! My mind is calm! I can focus on one thing at a time! I don't get stuck with transitions anymore! I'm not eating as much! It's been so so so good! Since I started talking a probiotic with my medication in the morning, I don't have the nausea (not like I'm going to vomit, but just a little upset stomach) anymore. I LOVE how I'm finally getting control over the amount of food I'm eating, and I'm generally much more outgoing and happier! I'm so happy for you too!

[@jamiehoggard6357]

I have adhd and asperger's as well. It really makes life make more sense when we finally know why we are the way we are. Sending you lots of hugs and support ❤

[@JuliaCantley]

My son has this same dx. He was dx'ed at 5.5 and now 12. Although, I had a lady attack me bc I said he was asperger's. We aren't suppose to use that name anymore :/ It was horrible.

[@sirenamber]

@@JuliaCantley I'm so sorry someone was cruel to you about that! It's true that we dont use that term because its named after a nazi, but we can educate people kindly. There is sadly a lot of toxicity in the autism community. People are damaged everywhere you go, and hurt people hurt people. I'm sorry that happened to you.

[@sharroon7574]

What are we supposed to call it?

[@jessicaraine8403]

@@sharroon7574 it's more just grouped under autism spectrum disorder in the DSM, which the psychiatrist should have known when they were telling Bea... But some are old fashioned and still use outdated terms.

[@WonderfullyWendy]

In 2013 Aspergers was placed on the Autism Spectrum according to the DSM-5. I feel a lot of people diagnosed pre-2013 still identify as Aspergers or Aspies. However in light of Hans Asperger’s unpleasant affiliation with the Nazis, I feel that his name has been negatively stigmatized and therefore became disliked by a large portion of the autistic community. I have autism and having the knowledge of my neurodivergent brain and how I’ve used this knowledge to redesign my life for the better, is more important to me than the label; just my opinion. Also, the ICD10 still recognizes Aspergers as a legitimate diagnosis. Just as an FYI.

[@kelley4086]

Meds have been life changing for me. I had no idea that things could be better. It was amazing! Also, my daughter used to walk around with a yellow nose from smelling flowers when she was a toddler. It was a funny time.

[@kimgrandy_art_]

Once, my coworkers sang happy birthday to me in the cafeteria. I stood up and left the room in total humiliation. I am so happy you got your official diagnosis. It is fantastic to just have the validation. I was 57 when I was officially diagnosed.

[@kimm100]

I’m starting out on my weight loss journey and finding you has been a blessing. I love your realness. I’m a binge eater and I feel I always cheat on myself, so it’s time to take a stand!! I can’t keep going like this. Otherwise it’s gonna get way out of hand. I’ve gained 28lb since lockdown!

[@susanhildreth1531]

Same as me.

[@mawiahz9177]

Just want to say thanks I’m a 22 Yr old woman and last year I almost gave up on testing after it took 6-8 months to get an appointment and then I was accidentally taken off the list… I was just going to give up on it but I watched one of your videos where you mentioned your symptoms and your concerns and I started pushing again! I’ve been diagnosed for a month now!

[@jamiesbooksandstuff]

Welcome to the ADHD club! My psychiatrist also told me that when your ADHD is treated, your anxiety and depression can also get better, simply because you’re more focused, more organized, and more confident. Adderall comin in clutch! It actually has improved my quality of life too. Not completely, but it made it better. I didn’t think I needed to get treated because I wasn’t in school anymore, but when she told me that ADHD also affects executive functioning, I was like “oh….THATS why I need 3 days off in a row to do my laundry.” Bea, I swear to you, my first week on adderall, I cleaned out and organized my entire kitchen, meal planned, grocery shopped, and prepped in 2 days. I also had a crockpot meal going for dinner. And still had time to sit down and watch the new Game Grumps episodes, have dinner, and shower before bed. Before, that would’ve taken me at least 2 weeks to do. I will say though, at least with me, while I may be focused and I want to do something, I have to have a plan for that day, otherwise I’ll kinda sit in jumpiness, not knowing what to do. So I make to-do lists, they really help.

[@jenniboye]

The Game Grumps are so wholesome :-))

[@jamiesbooksandstuff]

@@jenniboye how I know you read that whole thing lol

[@TurtleMyrtle12]

Wahoo! I am loving seeing these comments from people who were properly diagnosed and are rocking it! Ritalin makes my life 100% better.

[@jessicak8292]

I'm taking Vyvanse and honestly I completely agree that it has greatly improved my quality of life! Glad to see others with similar outcomes!

[@jmalette907]

I'm a list fanatic because, well, I can't function without one and routines and constant structure to my days. Makes me controlling almost but it's how I keep myself in check.

[@justahumanbeing4547]

I appreciate that no matter how much struggle you are going through you always make an effort to post ❤ Love you from south Africa ❤❤🇿🇦

[@fernebrown8083]

Woo a fellow saffa! 😁

[@JennLeeFoster]

My husband has ADD. He got back on medication to help him manage for a while but I think he’s back off of them again. I’m so proud of him of how he copes. I’ve learned how to communicate with him. I love him for him. All in. 19 years and counting. Hubby is not a social butterfly, but yet he is a team lead for his job. I’m sure it wears him out. BEA, I’m so proud of you. Keep up your hard work. I am with you for the long haul. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@TheKjoens4]

I'm fairly new to your channel, but know that you're not alone in the late diagnosis of neurodiversity, me being 45. I was feeling those tears with you, as I wonder what parts of my life could have been less traumatic had my parents known when I was younger. It was really different 40 years ago, so it maybe wouldn't have made a difference- I try to focus on the future, and have found nothing but good things as I learn about myself. The How To ADHD channel is great. Here's to continually growing as humans. You are a beautiful and brave one❤

[@carolbeard3024]

My teenage daughter has the same diagnosis as you. Thank you for sharing your story. I've dealt with these issues with my kid her whole life. You are describing it exactly as it is. And we say in our house that "normal" is boring and doesn't exist. Rock your not normal! You rock.

[@carollice]

Oh yeah, the familiar feeling of crying in a parking lot. I'm so glad you got some answers and now can work towards improving your quality of life. Always rooting for you all the way from Brazil, Bea 💚💛

[@staceysmith3617]

I recently was diagnosed and went on medication for OCD. for a long time i avoided the situation because i didn't want to be on medication every day. but now that i am on it, i can see how bad things really were. for the first time in a long time, i can see how bad things had gotten. the side effects do suck but im grateful every day for not... crying in a lowe's parking lot. love you, love your videos.

[@rachaelmaclean4698]

You are so cool. I felt exactly the same way about getting an anxiety diagnosis and getting on SSRIs. I'd had multiple therapists gently suggest them to me for years and was so nervous to take the plunge, but when I finally did they helped so much and I felt silly for avoiding it for so long. I really hope your medication journey is as positive as mine! Honestly, a diagnosis can be such a validating relief. Thanks for your honest content. It really helps me feel so much less alone in all this

[@kalenanichol8375]

SO much less alone in all this.

[@CarlyCravesChaos]

Bea I am so glad you were able to see a psychiatrist and that they spent an ample amount of time with you. I am really proud of you for continuing to explore what will be best for you and your mental health. I too received an ADHD diagnosis as a young adult this year and decided to try medication. It may not be the best option for everyone, but I am grateful that I gave it a chance because it has really worked for me in ways I never thought possible. I still struggle with ADHD "imposter syndrome" so I completely hear your on your hesitance to be seen in the first place. I hope you discuss your visit with your therapist. It may be of benefit to meet with a therapist who specializes in treating adults with ADHD, as it really is so intertwined with depression, anxiety, motivation, and self-esteem. Best of luck to you Bea, much love!

[@lux3370]

You are so lucky that you got your diagnosis on one appointment! I had to go 4 times and one of them was a interview with my mother and another one was a 3 freackin hour testing with computers and stuff...i hated it so much. Aaand i have to go again because i couldn't get officially diagnosed (even tough the results were 99%) due to my PTSD. I'm so glad you finally got your diagnosis! They say that medication changes the life of many people

[@madelynkeslar5638]

I was also diagnosed with adhd this year. It's wild to learn more about it and realize all of the parts of your life that adhd was a major factor. For me it was such a relief to realize there's a reason behind all of the things I had felt shame about. Medication (and therapy) have been life-changing for me!

[@koraXro]

Aww, Dougie's little paws during the walk... tippy taps 🥰

[@Maalin.]

I have ADD and never had any treatment, just for the other disorders I have and I’m 32yo.. But about two months ago I started my journey on finding a ADHD medication that works for me, and even if the first one didn’t work great I definitely felt how alot of symptoms pretty much disappeared! And now I’m on a different one and still feel the same but in a different way, a better way. Really hope it stays this way when we increase the dose. So happy you got help ❤️ just getting a diagnosis makes such a difference and your whole life makes more sense with an explanation to why you don’t react and do things like a “normal” person.. You are awesome! And you got this! ❤️❤️

[@stellistin]

Everytime you show any little bit of your drawings/ water colour art I always wish you put it on merch or prints. You are so talented! Just love how you combine colours. And thank you so much for sharing your mental health diagnosis. I never thought depression and procrastinating or even being overwhelmed could have anything to do with adhd. Might sent me on my own journey. Until now I just thought I was depressed and hyper sensitive. Sending you a big hug from Germany

[@beachesbonfires2536]

Getting diagnosed is such a huge relief knowing your not alone. And you get answers so your life starts to make sense. I didn't get diagnosed till I was 37! I wish it were sooner as it could have saved me years of misery and feeling alone and wasted time. Glad you got help and can finally get the relief you deserve.

[@heidiv5720]

My heart goes out to you. I can relate to your struggles SO MUCH. It's a lonely feeling, dealing with all those shitty feelings. I'm proud of you for taking that step to see a doctor... I am so hopeful you are on a solid path of healing and wholeness. But to be sure, it's a journey (not a destination - to be cliche. But it's so damn true!!) To maybe add some hope to your day: my dad has dealt with undiagnosed severe depression and anxiety for YEARS. I have tried to convince him to see a doctor for 20 years, no joke. This past spring, he started getting horrible panic attacks and finally went to the doctor. At 70 years old, my dad started medication to treat anxiety/depression. Yesterday, he told me about his follow up appointment and then told me, "My quality of life has improved so dramatically. I had no idea how bad I actually felt. I regret not getting help sooner, but I'm so glad to be feeling so good." I cried with joy that he's found some relief. It's there for all of us - we just have to be our own best advocate for our health and happiness!

[@Zghuck]

I appreciate you Bea. It's not easy dealing with anxiety and depression. It's an everyday struggle for many of us including myself. You putting yourself out there and being so vulnerable sharing your story really helps me feel not so alone. I'm rooting for ya from Denver. Spread your wings like a goose honk honk lol

[@immunity_berry]

I love that this is now Bee's "Working on the House" channel! So here for it! I love seeing all your projects!!!

[@tesiemarie8942]

I have had anxiety and depression the last week and a half.. it’s been so bad. I don’t want to be on meds but, I don’t know anything else at this point.. I pray for you .. Keep us posted on this..

[@ionuinchristine]

I would cry every year when people would sing “happy birthday” up untill my 15th birthday, just got diagnosed this year (at 31 years young) with ADHD. Glad I’m not alone because I always felt like the biggest asshole! Meds and therapy are a game changer 💙

[@katieswanson4496]

I am SO happy that you feel like this diagnosis is lifting a weight off of your shoulders. The relief is visible & if nothing else, I hope the knowledge gives you some grace for yourself when you're comparing your reactions to other people's. Someone close to me also made the choice to try medication after their similar diagnosis and it has been awesome for them. I wish the same for you. Thank you for sharing your content when you do, I drop everything to watch your videos as soon as I get a notification! ❤️

[@nanstagramm]

Hey Bea, I’m really happy you’ve been able to find answers that help you understand yourself better! Wishing you all the best and hugs from Germany 😊

[@Meepsalot933]

I'm glad you now have a diagnosis and now not feel like you're struggling against some unknown force. My boyfriend has ADHD and I know he gets so frustrated when he forgets to take his meds and cannot seem to focus on or start anything. Also your hair looks so pretty today!

[@ashd2799]

I resonate with so much of what you've said in this video...the binge eating, the not being able to simply start, the anxiety and depression. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to be this way forever, because I'm 35 this year and I'm absolutely exhausted by it. I'm so glad you have some answers and some relief. I hope life gets easier for you. You've prompted me to see someone to talk about the things I'm struggling with, so thank you. The only thing I don't agree with is green bananas, girl of course I eat the speckled ones...I'm not a monster!

[@briannascavo9915]

Bea! I just turned 30, i recently got diagnosed with extreme inattentive ADHD and autism. It’s an emotional roller coaster from here on out but its validating and the Medes are the best decision I’ve ever made for myself! It’s not drastic or extreme, its not a cure but its just. Better.

[@SimoraCheeks1]

I was missing you Bea! Thank you for the upload!

[@moon-rj2wj]

Douglas and Bea are truly made for each other

[@innnak1]

I've been medicated for ADHD for about a year now and my depressive episodes have almost disappeared. I used to go through a continuous cycle of a week of two of good vibes only!!! only to sink into exhausted depression for a few weeks. I hope so much you find medication that suits you and helps you. ❤️ There's hope for us little losers in life 😄 and you are definitely not alone.

[@cameronshaw599]

YES YES YES! My depression and anxiety almost completely disappeared once I was appropriately medicated to support executive functioning. What a night and day change.

[@beautyhound2]

I was diagnosed with adhd at 21 and they didn’t pick up on it when I was in school because I was “gifted” and female. Getting the diagnosis is the first step and usually the hardest. You’re doing great!

[@ProjectsHalfDone]

I got diagnosed at 36 with ADHD. I didn’t want medication at first but HOLY CRAP it helped me and the only side effect I have is that I’m thirsty a lot. But just knowing the diagnosis helped me as well. It was a relief. Also check out Reddit’s women with ADHD forum. It was helpful for me. I’m so happy you have answers and can make informed choices. You are doing great!!!

[@Alero228]

You are absolutely amazing. We all love you and support you! Always! Good for you.

[@BeatriceCaruso]

I appreciate you, Anna!💛🦕💛🦕

[@Alero228]

You don’t even know how much I appreciate you ✌️💙✌️💙

[@mindakochis]

Omg, I was getting emotional too, because I could just see that weight being lifted off of you! I know that was probably not a comfortable situation, but I’m so happy that you went to see the psychiatrist and that he gave you a diagnosis. So much love you and I wish you the best in this new step in life! 🖤🖤🖤

[@cathyl3526]

I was diagnosed a couple of months ago at the age of 59. I have actually lost a small amount of weight (4 pounds in 6 weeks) because medication eliminated my compulsive snacking.

[@susanhildreth1531]

I'm 50 and have depression, anxiety, ptsd, binge eating disorder and cannot focus, at all. I am going to look into this inattentive adhd. I thought you had to be diagnosed at a young age.

[@SG-wu8eh]

Girl! I’ve thrown up before every major event in my life. Formal, prom, my wedding, travel, first day of school, first day at a new job. I almost eloped because I couldn’t stand the thought of being the center of attention. It was a small wedding but I didn’t really enjoy it because of the social anxiety aspect of my ADHD. Don’t feel bad about your birthday party. and you ARE normal. There are a lot of us out there. You’re just not typical. Don’t be afraid of medication. It’s the best thing you can do for yourself. 🖤🖤🖤 Congratulations on being you!!! 🥳🎉🎈

[@Catherine.Hodges]

I just got my diagnosis a few days ago. I am someone who constantly feels overwhelmed and I’m sure even getting the appointment was overwhelming to you. But we did it!! Yay

[@tessar.p453]

AHHHH thanks for the upload Bea, missed you! Seeing you an Doug makes me so happy! Love you both so much 💛💛💛💛

[@valerie4918]

So happy for you to be so relieved after the diagnosis! I felt the same about my diagnosis of depression and anxiety and getting help through medication. Hope you'll feel better soon! ❤️❤️❤️

[@echoktty]

Bea!!! Lillies are super dangerous around cats. Please do what you can to actually wash that off his fur and get the lily out of the house. Keep an eye on him and get him to a vet if you see anything out of the ordinary.

[@hakudoushinumbernine]

Yep. I have started on an adhd med. I was diagnosed as a kid, but unrelated anxiety and depression made me feel like the med wasnt working so i stopped ten years ago. Since covid i noticed alot more things about myself and i went to a doctor for it. I found that im severely deficient in vitamin B12 and D. Which helped with some of the depression and anxiety motivation but the bulk of it was mental health. Difference is immense im slowly pulling together. The struggle is real but manageable.

[@thequietwoman1366]

Another recently diagnosed, fully grown woman here. Methylphenidate has been incredible so far and with every day that passes I learn new things about my ADHD and how it has affected my life (binge eating included). So pleased you feel relief from your diagnosis.