Body Changes And Clothing Throw Out (2019)

[@jdugan97]

The little reddish orange tank top with flowers was mine I sent to you a while back! (I think January 2018). It was mentioned in your last post office box video. I'm happy you got some use out of it even for a small amount of time, it never quite fit me correctly either. I wore it a bunch in high school and now I've just graduated college! I just figured you'd like to know the small bit of backstory and now it can go onto a new home! It probably cost no more than $10 from forever 21 and I'm so happy it's living a completely new life over in the UK. Best of luck with your weight journey Becky! xx

[@beckiejbrown]

HEEYYYY!!!! Oh I did! Ellie's actually said she'd love it (don't know if she's tried it yet). It was really lovely and the photo I put over the video whas when I started work in April - someone in the office complimented it! I couldn't remember who bought it for me, but new it came in the pO Box! Thank you!

[@jdugan97]

@@beckiejbrown I'm so glad you liked it! I think I remember you saying you didn't own a bunch of red so I'm happy it was a tad unique. I hope it fits Ellie but if not then it's destined to be with a new home!

[@beckiejbrown]

@@jdugan97 Red is definately on the increase in my life! And thank you once again hun

[@mangaandboba]

Honestly having followed you for years I am so so proud of you for decluttering. I can only imagine how hard this was for you 💖

[@ArtBySilver]

I'm always amazed at how immediate your memory comes back for each piece of clothing... your descriptions of how your life has transformed in many different ways is so interesting to me as someone who is looking at a lifestyle of constant change. Gives me hope

[@kaatjekh]

Must admit I've put my foot through more 'ripped' jeans than I would like :(

[@prolly537]

Have you tried the ripped underwears.......reallllly fashnable.....

[@inderesis]

You are doing so well recently! You look so happy, it's amazing, I hope things will stay this way.

[@GotDaFunk12]

Your memory for when you wore specific items of clothing never ceases to amaze me! It's truly remarkable :'D

[@bettyk33]

I am so happy for you! The fact that it's getting easier for you to part with your possessions! I am the exact opposite when an item reminds me of a difficult time in my life I usually donate it right away or put in the back of my closet to never be seen again

[@nessbailey7931]

“200-400 pounds” I thought “there’s no way that bag weighs that much,” but no you meant pounds as in currency.

[@mileswilliams4010]

I thought the same thing XD

[@beckiejbrown]

Currency! I'd love to be that strong!

[@RhoadesLessTraveled]

This is a huge motivator to get me moving on getting rid of all my old things too. The past 5 years or so have been really tough on my anxiety/depression and I let my room in my parents house get horrendous. I had so many bags of trash and just so many things I didnt need to keep. Thank you for sharing thins journey with us. I cant even remember how long ago I started watching but its been years and I love seeing your progress. I truly hope you are doing well. I hope your family and boyfriend are well too. (: Sending so much love your way. Im proud you are able to do these videos. Thank you. 💛

[@havatron3526]

I love these videos. I'm glad they help you, and I'm so happy to see someone with hoarding disorder working towards some kind of equilibrium. I know a lot of hoarders and all of them truly struggle. Seeing these videos gives me hope for them and helps me to better understand what they go through.

[@Snowdragon.]

Beckie; you are a very brave lady to let us strangers into your home and learn so much about you. Thank you for making us all laugh with you. Stay Safe!

[@VicMorrowsGhost]

"I'm fitter" I was just thinking your arms looked killer in this video. Those guns are LOADED! :P

[@altycoggydeer]

It`s great to see every new video from you, Beckie! I`ve been inspired by you for a few years now. It`s great to see how you always continue getting up despite all the mental things in your life (trichotillomania, anxiety). I feel like by parting with this teenage stuff you`re giving yourself space for a person you`ve become. Thank you for your videos! You give me hope that someday my mental stuff will get better, and my perspective will change.

[@IzzyOnTheMove]

It's so interesting to hear the backstory behind each piece. I need to do something like that when I get back home (presently on my annual 4 month trip to BC). I regularly purge but am a big thrift shopper, sometimes having to buy extra suitcases or ship stuff home in boxes from travelling. Some clothes just seem impossible to get rid of because of the symbolic or emotional value but maybe using the fabric for crafts could act as some sort of beneficial catharsis.

[@DreamyLele]

you're so brave and I'm incredibly proud of seeing you bloom like you have! I remember watching you when you were in college and struggeling so much and I'm so happy that you're doing so much better. At the time that I watched you I was also in a very dark place and I think in a way they helped me cope with the things I was dealing with. Thank you so much

[@jcb24146]

DreamyLele same!! to all of this!!!

[@M30wserz]

I so get the Jane Norman thing! I was only ever able to buy one dress when I was 15 and I wore the dress as much as possible and I still have the bag in my wardrobe which stores my hangers, I can’t get rid because of the nostalgia!

[@moniqueharding4872]

I’m glad you’re able to open up a little about things like body issues and also being able to let go of clothes. Also bless you

[@stephaniescott7809]

Over the last couple of years I’ve lost a lot of weight (which in my case is a GOOD thing). Yes, it can be hard getting rid of old clothes; items with good memories attached, that were bought on overseas trips or that I just like! Good on you for parting with so much! And yes, it is very weird when old stuff fits again (e.g. I now fit in a T-shirt I got at Disneyland when I was 8!).

[@chrissycopeland8064]

I love these videos! I like seeing how you mentally process getting rid of items which are important to you. It does not matter if they are important to anyone else, if they are important to you that is all that matters. Good luck in moving forward. We are all constantly moving, and if we can say we are moving forward, we are blessed.

[@peachyfemininity]

I find your videos so therapeutic 💖 Thank you so much for everything you do 💖

[@historywept8290]

Something about you just inspires me. From a 16 yr old in Australia, thank you for being so real

[@tudormiller8898]

Hi Beckie! Love this video, I've had a lot of time on my hands recently so I've been going through all my old clothes and stuff. Yes, most of the clothes I hardly wear, some of them I've bought from various charity and second hand shops through the years. Unfortunately I'm a brand obsessive, not as much I used to be, but I still have clothes from 10 years ago that are still in mint condition. My Van's T shirts and Levi's jeans are I'll keep forever. Watching from London.

[@enduringbird]

I can relate to how you feel a little bit. I recently gained a bunch of weight after getting depression and having to quit my job. I've always been thin and I'm still considered thin now, but I'm 15-20 lbs larger than I've been for the last 10 years of my life. Most people don't get it because to them I still look thin, but when I walk past a mirror I'm surprised every time. I just don't look like what my mind expects. It's really disheartening so sending you love and support through the internet. People are saying in the comments that you look great, and you do, but sometimes it doesn't help to hear it. For me, it wasn't just that I didn't look as good as before. It's that I looked different than my internal image.

[@jessrosex]

So proud of you Beckie, it’s good to see that smile❤️💕

[@drwhoswifeforever]

I put my clothes into different sections when I sort through them [Doesn't Fit; Unsure; Get Rid; Don't Get Rid] the ones I find very difficult to depart with or sort are my TV/Film Themed Shirts, I love anything TV or Film related, so I find it very hard to depart with them and next thing I know, I have an entire wardrobe just full of them and I can't buy any more unless I make space.

[@19Fenja89]

Good to see you doing well and being in a great place. I'm happy for you! 💙

[@Linxwearingeyeliner]

I always appreciate your throw out videos! I personally have just done 4 huge garbage bags worth of hoarding recovery, and I find your videos very encouraging.

[@leplum2001]

Your body shape/size looked fine before and still looks fine now. As long as you are happy in your skin that's all that matters.

[@beckiejbrown]

It truly wasn't... though I'm aware that as a vlogger, you don't tend to see the full of me. Comparing the above with this, you can see it crystal clear: kzbin.info/www/bejne/lWnNl4CMjtimlZI - Happier. Though finding it harder at times, especially in clothes that used to be too big. It's a good thing though. The Doctor is happy for once!

[@AmandaSoonToBe]

I found you from another youtube video and I wanna say that rn Im struggling with my hair pulling so bad and it brings me so much joy but at the same time so much pain to know someone else is dealing with it...No one understands when I say I cant control it and I get ridiculed constantly for it...Im here to cheer you on and let you know you arent alone either

[@miafine2584]

I adore the pants! I live in funky pants like that, but boy they’re cute! Lace top is adorable too. The human they’re on is even better 💕

[@gilmoregrl775]

I so enjoy these types of videos from you. I can relate to a lot of the things you've said throughout the video!

[@jwinkies3011]

Good for you for sorting through so much! I often keep things that don't fit with the logic that my shape may change in the future (which I know isn't necessary, as my shape doesn't usually change that much)

[@ChaoticallyMe]

You've done wonderfully Beckie, I can definitely relate to experiencing body changes in your mid-20s. I'm in my mid-30s now and it still throws me....but has gotten a lot easier :) Yay on the new floors!!

[@TheMulle999]

So I've gained a bit of weight since last summer, which means I'll have to sort through my clothes and see what fits and what doesn't. It's terrifying for me, as I haven't really had this problem since I went into puberty. I've never gained this amount within this short of a time period. But this video has really helped me. Thank you!

[@tuide9771]

Your videos are really pleasant to watch! Truly enjoying everything you post!

[@jeremiahbok9028]

Gaining weight can be a good thing. And I'd say with you, it is. Especially, I'm so glad you're fitter and stronger. Though when that happens, I absolutely connect with your feelings for clothes. Clothes you thought you'd left behind popping back into your life and identity in the now. Being I, like so many, struggle with body image, you reassured me. It's generally reassuring when you talk about things, partially because you emphasize that this stuff is a big deal. Congrats on getting rid of so much stuff. Hugs, Beckie.

[@jetnight88]

Be ruthless girl get rid of things you don’t wear

[@beckiejbrown]

Wish I could!

[@meganduckett4372]

Your memory to clothing always baffles me. A lot of thing I can remember where I bought them, but definitely not when

[@RehmanKhan4u]

When u did that video with molly? Can u plz link it?

[@beckiejbrown]

In 2016! :D. kzbin.info/www/bejne/n6enY4iqrMmfnqM xx

[@Laurenvassy]

Omg Jane Norman 🙈 I too only had the plastic bags for P.E kit 😂 such a blast from the past....time flies 🤦‍♀️

[@beckiejbrown]

EXACTLY. The plastic one for PE and the normal bag for school. TIME REALLY DOES FLY!

[@Kayokak]

I'm glad you're taking time and processing things. Hopefully you begin to feel more comfortable in your own skin again quickly. :D

[@BlackIDove]

In regards to body size - We as women spend so much time looking at numbers on a scale or in the label of clothes, on top of being bombarded with images of "ideal" body shapes or "real" women. I'm very proud of how far you've come, and healthy is always the best place to be regardless of "size". ❤❤❤

[@kittikoko]

Wow, I'm proud of you for sorting through so many clothes! We're very similar in that we hoard/hold on to clothes from over a decade ago - fortunately for me I was a fatty then, and I'm still a fatty now, so I can still wear those decade-old clothes! Occasionally people will say lovely things about my tops and ask me where I got them and I have to say "Uh... Peacocks... 12 years ago..." 😂

[@rominarehi4929]

I love these clothing throw out videos they are motivating for me

[@qbecks9557]

I danced in that Disney parade too!! Can barely remember any of it, except being ridiculously excited xD (I was only 7) I think I did a different year, but we had a same pompom dance 😂😂

[@zoelor7923]

I don't connect so much with your going back to clothes and therefore in a sense a time you've had before, but the 'not feeling like you're in my own skin' thing I relate to. Even scrolling through the comments, I'm seeing a lot of people saying you "still look great," or they "haven't noticed too much of a change," which is something I'm hearing a lot as well recently and I've gained a bit of weight. Not so much that others are calling it out, but enough where I feel like I'm a new shape and I don't feel like me. But I'm becoming more comfortable with it.

[@abihoper5755]

Are you still selling these on depop? I love your clothes :)

[@jenniferchristian8115]

Your trousers are fab!! Where are they from?x

[@beckiejbrown]

Charity shop and they look handmade!

[@aveskaa4736]

You can be proud! You obviously made lots of progress!

[@lsedge7280]

If there's some items that hold really strong memories, maybe pick like 5 to keep simply for those memories if you can't let them go. Sentimental value is still value.

[@cheesepuffffff]

If you're so upset about letting go of expensive clothes (especially those with labels still on it?!), why don't you try and sell them on Facebook, shpock or other places like that? It won't sell for the same price of as you bought it originally, of course, but still, you'll get some money back!

[@beckiejbrown]

Sure the money aspect is frustrating, more that they're really nice clothes (some with good memories).

[@greensteve9307]

Well done for the weight gain, strength gain, and mental health gains. You are looking good. :)

[@peridotprincess0908]

This is inspiring me to finally let go of some of my own clothes that no longer fit! :)

[@stephaniewashere9821]

Rebecca, you look radiant here. I have the same pilates/yoga ball in blue, but was a bday gift when I turned 33. Long long time ago. Used it for pilates. Pilates may be a better option for you instead of yoga cause it will help lessen the problem you have with your legs (what you mentioned in your past videos) as well as your back. I promise you. 💎

[@DanishArtist]

Would be nice if there were a place where one could go and swap clothes that is to big or to small for some clothes that fit, and others could do the same so there wouldn't be any wasted clothes, especially bras seems to be a good idea for this... but that seems almost impossible, but one can wish and hope I guess. I'm guessing the heat is up in the UK at the moment after what have heard.

[@katherinesmith1740]

I'm so proud of you! - I know I'm just some random viewer on the internet, but, yeah, Go you! :)

[@LIonGraphiK]

Stay strong!

[@NochEinJamie]

I'm fascinated, how much you throw away and how much you still have - I think everytime: "She can't have anymore clothes... or?" :-D

[@Jess-lz2jj]

Love the top you're wearing! 😊

[@beckiejbrown]

I wrote more about weight and changes here: instagram.com/p/BxYDvFmhdoR/ I've had mixed response from the internet in opening up on this topic. Everyone has an opinion on my body and how I discuss it, but it's no ones property at the end of the day. It's mine

[@warrenevans4019]

Don't get into the mindset that God has anything to do with you becoming or evolving into who you are meant to be. It's all your own work. You have overcome a lot and moved on with your life and you only have yourself to thank for your improvement.

[@beckiejbrown]

No. It's the opposite. Thank you though.

[@kimh3726]

Love you and your channel beckie 💕

[@Anqueen14]

Bless you! (I had to say it for the sneeze!)

[@rachael4983]

So proud well done xxx

[@gdltc123]

Hi! I wonder if there are any "exchange clothes" events where you live. I love going to those. You give and you get ^^. That way you also don't feel like you are just giving all away and starting from zero 😊. Plus it's better for the environment that going shopping for all new clothes 😉

[@bronya74]

Wow you've done a video with Molly Burke and I haven't seen it?!

[@carleighapted9167]

Good on you, for so many reasons...

[@hannahrobin7449]

It's a big thing going through clothes and dealing with body changes. You might have put on weight but you definitely look healthier for it (I do understand that you might not be healthier though - bodies are strange things)

[@AdamLindgrenComposer]

You are brilliant

[@15Indianajon]

You sounds like you are on the up and as an fyi don't worry about reverting. I'm 41 and still wear a jumper I have had since I was 16.....admittedly its a bit ragged!

[@stellabeam25]

4:51-4:53😂

[@Harrison_J_T]

Gosh Jane Norman - that's a brand I've not heard of in so long...

[@peterg3729]

Floor must such a pain

[@beckiejbrown]

Looks fine from a distance but has cracked and bubbled/buckled all over. Especially near the patio doors/lounge area for some reason. You can see the gap between the floor and the skirting board behind me - that's all being replaced! Can't wait!

[@peterg3729]

@@beckiejbrown thank god must have been terrible. Must be such a hassle moving everything out of the room.

[@faultylightbulb91]

I have a holding period before I give stuff away =)

[@alicebrady2303]

I suspect you don't say this to yourself often but please do give yourself a big pat on the back for going through your clothes irregardless of the reasons behind it. And also another pat on the back for how well you're doing (work, life, health) despite everything that has been going on.

[@xLorunn]

I thought you and james had split up?

[@beckiejbrown]

We did for a while and are now together once more...

[@mr.concerned]

Hi👋👋

[@casanova0102]

New to your channel. Who’s we?

[@beckiejbrown]

Which bit? :)

[@IzumiCurtiss]

Probably her boyfriend James :)

[@beckiejbrown]

Yup and family too

[@lilyvorfeed]

I'm so used to using the pronoun we I forgot that most people don't use it. This comment reminds me of that.

[@beckiejbrown]

@@lilyvorfeed Is it a British thing? I know people I know and myself say 'Our' and 'We' generally!

[@urRAWRsoundsfunnyLOL]

I could never put my finger on it, but I realized the person Becky reminds me of is Princess Diana. Her voice, hair, eyes, nose :)

[@marlene144]

Hello

[@beckiejbrown]

HEYYYYY

[@lensolla7777]

Not fitting into clothes is so shocking, I remember last year I got put on a depression medication that made me incredibly hungry, and I gained about 10 kg that year. When summer came around most of my fav pants didn't fit, and I felt so disconnected from my body. Now I'm not taking any meds and I'm back to my original weight and I feel great tbh. Sudden weight gains are so hard to process!!

[@Languages_with_Mardin]

You're really really cute and beautiful . And it's not just a YT motivative comment. I really mean it. Xoxo

[@jamiefields8145]

Millions of millennials all around the globe are dealing with similar struggles. Finances are going to be a bit tricky for literally the entire world for quite a while. Good on you for taking it upon yourself to be the optimistic go-getting motivator. I'm sure your smile and your sunshine helps a lot of people get through their days.

[@effiecreighton5582]

I'd really encourage you to consider donating your bras to the charity Smalls for All - They do fantastic work! ^_^

[@beckiejbrown]

Definately not throwing them away as there are certain places that accept even old tatty bras for good causes. Yup!!!

[@effiecreighton5582]

@@beckiejbrown Yay, fantastic!! ^_^

[@lilyvorfeed]

You give the courage to tattle my hoarding disorder I might film it as well

[@blackcountrywalker]

I still have clother that fit me from when i was in my 20's now i'm 46 and i am proad of it. at least i haven't let my self go too much, but then again i do a lot of walking around.

[@xandranicholai7301]

[@SimplyMeElla]

Jesus Christ how does this count as content? Why would anyone care what videos old clothes have been worn in - no wonder your view count has decreased dramatically in the last few years. How long can people go on listening to moaning and banal rambling

[@beckiejbrown]

Awwwww. X

[@Mehlsuppe]

Some people enjoy it. If you don't like it, don't watch it. Simple as that ;). Moaning about moaning isn't better in any way.

[@lartensgrill6106]

Hot chocolates

[@anastasiagirl1342]

Yay! New video!

[@littlesophie1300]

Are you back together with James? ☺️💕