Geez, Evan, my heart breaks for you. I can't even imagine how hard it is for you. I have a nephew that has transgendered to a woman & I fully accept her....as I accept you as a man. I helped raise her & saw it coming, actually. But, unfortunately, I can't say that I truly understand what it must be like. You helped me understand a little more than I did before though. Thank you. There's one way that I can relate to your situation. And that's that I too had found & lost my soulmate. It's a grief that never ends. Although you don't cry as much as the years pass. I feel helpless because I can't advise you to help in any way. Is there a trans group where you could meet someone? Dumb question. Just know that I'm a friend & that I care about you. I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers. 🙏 Sending positive vibes your way! ❤️✨