a chaotic reading vlog | The Read-EH-Thon [CC]

[@malintries]

that intro is better than any movie trailer i've seen this year

[@NativeLadyBookWarrior]

My thoughts exactly! 😃

[@ICHMUSSMALPIPI]

The anal glands were such a good conclusion to that 😂😂😂

[@Steamengenius]

The twists, the turns!

[@andrewannotates]

That intro was life affirming

[@EpicReads]

We could not agree MORE! Dying at the anal glands!! 😂😂

[@alexworrall6283]

Kayla is now releasing short films and I’m so here for it

[@11Juliet]

me, eating my sweet & sour tofu & fried rice: ☺️ Kayla: what’s the word for when your face is like falling apart? disintegration? decaying... decomposing of bodies... and like, bones, and blood, and guts, and like digging into people, and also, like, animal graphic scenes, and me, holding my fork in midair: 🥺

[@HerMakeupIsRad]

💀

[@flop9562]

this sent me

[@TerminalThiccness]

When my son was first exhibiting signs of his severe ADHD and depression in elementary school I got super angry with the school staff who in the meetings to determine if he needed allowances in school kept telling me "if he's labeled as having a disability that will stick with him the rest of his life." And I finally got so fed up after the 5th time of someone saying that in one meeting I went off. I talked about how labeling his disability wouldn't do him any harm, having a disability while in a public school and being treated like he was a leper was the harm. I told them THEY were the ones perpetuating this idea that having a disability is "bad" and kids should try hard to avoid having that label. Grrrrr.

[@messy678]

Yes!!! We as parents were the ones struggling with this when the school wanted to get my son tested. My husband and I grew up on the 80’s when kids were actually bullied and separated and treated badly and we didn’t want that for our son. Luckily, my sons school is amazing. Once we had his diagnoses of ADHD, things got so much better. His teachers were all made aware of it and were so loving and helpful. They gave him the space and help he needed while also keeping him in class and involved with his peers. He has a case counselor, the school counselor and the district psychologist to help. The principal goes to special trainings and then gets together with me so we can go over methods and new ideas. It all depends on the school I’ve learned. I hope that things work out for you, just keep reading and learning and being a great mama that protects her kid!

[@Neil-writer-author]

I was bullied in the 80’s for being disabled.

[@marchforth3515]

I remember walking home everyday in middle school because the bus didn’t go to my house and I could’ve taken the bus with other disabled kids but my mom didn’t want me labeled “disabled”, and I mean I wasn’t innocent either, I didn’t want to be seen around the “special” kids, which I absolutely hate that I thought that way, but it makes me mad that that happened... and one time I had to walk all the way back to school to get my phone when I left it in the little pockets by my teacher’s door, I was crying from pain and exhaustion but neither of my teachers even bothered to ask if I was okay, they looked at me and looked away... sorry to go off on a tangent, but everything about that situation pisses me off I’ll add that I was just diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome the year I had to go back for my phone (8th grade) and I guess my teachers didn’t know but they knew I was absent a lot and I explained that I had to go to the doctor...

[@Ray-td4tq]

This is so interesting to me because my problems were similar but so different. while I dont have depression I have very obvious and severe ADHD. Because its stereotypes as 'cant sitting still disorder' my mom just kinda said oh okay, ignored it, and didnt tell me. my ADHD manifested in excellent schoolwork, great attention and very detailed assignments so it was never a problem. But it also manifested in never-done homework, terrible social skills, and executive disfunction so bad I can never do something if I'm not interested. no one picked it up. ever. I was just a 'gifted' kid who was abit quirky and it was fine. years later my hyperfixiation had gotten super super bad (to the point i forgot to eat, sleep, or move) and I'm scrolling through pinterest and see some posts. a little research spiral later and.... oh. I have ADHD. it was reading a book with a huge plot twist and looking back on everything in a new light. long story short, I have terrible ADHD and my mom never told me and no one noticed because neither my school or parents wanted me labeled with a disability so they pretended it wasnt there. you absolutely did the right thing and I applauded you.

[@TerminalThiccness]

@@Ray-td4tq

[@laurenelizabethsreads7548]

You zooming in and saying “thats literally drugs” just made my entire life 😂😂😂

[@JeddieMPB]

the “in this vlog” section is literally just a summary of my quarantine life-even the anal gland part weirdly

[@jamiemasters2464]

Lol same! Love my puppy, even with her gland issues 😂

[@samuelm2989]

The "the only disability is a bad attitude" hit different. I can never be just disabled and a person, it's always something I have to overcome. I have to change my diet, I have to work out, I cant look at my phone, i have to learn how to act like everyone else etc. Not for myself but for other people cause me being disabled is an inconvenience. Honestly, people trying to push me to be "less disabled" is the worst part of being disabled. But people dont realize that cause oh how tragic it is to be different

[@pastellewitch]

Feel this so hard. Ive actually made myself worst trying to meet others expectations of me. Stay strong friend!

[@samuelm2989]

@@pastellewitch ugh same, the depression and fatigue I feel bro. I'm trying not to care tbh, my disability makes me who I am and I like me 😌

[@nevita9355]

"I'm trying to get my life together and read all my books" honestly my mood for the last three months

[@jenvcampbell]

I always love your reading vlogs, Kayla!

[@daysleeper1989]

My cousin, who is a trans person, recently told me that they only used to identify with the villains of Disney. Only recently they have understood why and stopped feeling bad and self shaming or wondering if they are a bad person. Representation matters. Jen Campbell has a whole series on disfigurement and media representation that I highly recommend. Also, she has a video about how problematic is The great showman, which is a fantastic reflection.

[@meghanj28]

Jen Campbell is such a gift to the booktube community. Love her

[@pandaaaaa4]

Yaas a Jen stan. Her discussions on disfigurement and disability are so real and so good 🙏🙏

[@natsbookshelf]

Kayla: I go and I find people and i force my friendship upon them Me: have never related to a statement so much in my whole life!

[@JLynnEchelon]

I didn't read every comment, but did anyone else gasp when Kayla said she should maybe not run readathons? But...but...I NEED Spookathon.

[@alexshe819]

ONE HOUR!!!!! Lala, this is a movie. I’m so down.

[@winternight809]

We have been blessed 😍

[@vlogginginviolet2932]

I’m literally 36 minutes in and I didn’t even notice 1) that I’ve been watching that long 2) that the entire video was that long. Just goes to show how easily I can watch Lala’s videos and get lost in them 😍!

[@bionicbookworm3928]

“That’s literally drugs” - oh yes. That’s Canada’s other leaf 😂

[@cpjohnson1887]

"I force my friendship upon them"!!!! Girl, i am with you. Those late night ramblings when youve had a rough couple of days, and you just let all the feels fly and say what you really think. I loved this video. It was raw and real, and so just real life. I just feel so connected to you through just being a normal human who isnt all put together sometimes. Just so fucking relatable.

[@NububuChan]

That part about "It's for ME!" and "I force my friendship on them!" was so soberingly honest omg

[@alwaysreadingseason]

Non-Canadian disability recs (full disclosure, I have not read these but have been doing research): DISABILITY VISIBILITY edited by Alice Wong, ABOUT US: ESSAYS FROM THE DISABILITY SERIES OF THE NEW YORK TIMES edited by Peter Catapano, CARE WORK: DREAMING DISABILITY JUSTICE by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha, and MAKING DISABILITY MODERN: DESIGN HISTORIES edited by Bess Williamson. Also the Disability Visibility Project website which has essays by disabled BIPOC discussing the 30th anniversary of ADA as well as a podcast I think. The Paul Longmore Institute's KZbin channel has recordings of two events they hosted in partnership with the Project that include essay writers from the website and the book. Thank you so much for the ReadEHthon, Kayla! I read four books in the week (favorite was EMPIRE OF WILD).

[@BetweenLinesAndLife]

Almost an hour of Queen Kayla reading vlog is the blessing none of us deserved but we were still gracefully given. Love that for all of us.

[@minauhrohnestunden5020]

Thank you so much for the things you said about disabilty. As someone who has been chronically ill for years, I'm always in the mindset of:"As soon as I'm better, I will be happy." Because that's what everyone tells you, because you "can't be happy if you're not as healthy and outgoing as the heroes in shows or books." Representation is so important, everyone deserves to have hope for their happy end. Amazing video as always.

[@alexsitar4163]

LALA THE DUDE WHO DIRECTED CALL ME BY YOUR NAME IS DIRECTING A LORD OF THE FLIES ADAPTATION

[@blueditto]

“that’s literally drugs” 😂 also i just bought the ebooks for He Must Like You and The Skin We’re In because of this video!

[@denisecrane9688]

POV: You’re eating while Kayla is describing the types of body horror in The Troop 🥴🤣

[@dylancooper3469]

Has a disabled person I oftentimes feel so ignored, disrespected, and invalidated at the same time in so many ways. I really appreciate that you spoke on the important aspects disfigurement brought up and that you will be adding disabled prompts moving forward. It means a lot to see people supporting us and constantly making an effort to learn and grow!

[@narflet]

The way North Americans tend to pronounce 'horror' as ‘whoorrre' will never not amuse me.

[@alexshe819]

Never thought I’d hear you say “anal glands”

[@coffeeandwashitape]

Also I have to say, I totally get the feeling of not being in these Buddy chats! I’ve been on bookstagram for like two years or more now and I got invited to my first buddy read like two months ago me the only people I have that I’m legit friends with in the community is the person I knew IRL before bookstagram 😂😂 i just don’t know how to make friends without making people feel like they have to be friends with me but also that’s how you make friends?? 😂😂

[@CaitlynAnneReads]

This is highly relatable to me! How do people do it!?

[@coffeeandwashitape]

CaitlynAnneReads I wish I knew! I do the thing where I just assume everyone already has all the friends they need 😂🤷🏻‍♀️

[@littlemusic4x]

Same! I feel like everyone knows each other and is always tagging people and I’m like 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

[@juliaisagoodwitch]

If you want some Canadian titles that deal with disabilities Fragile Bones, Brent Not Broken, Born With and Time to Run are some great ones. My younger brother has autism so I will definitely be reading Disfigured. 💜💜

[@gnesp]

Just stopped reading Home Before Dark to watch this 😄

[@allymorgan]

Me tooo

[@Nathalie.999]

I've had such a terrible day. Seeing this brightened my mood. you're such a light!! love you ♥

[@aganderson7205]

As someone with a disabled mom I just wanna say thank you for being so open minded when you went into reading Disfigured.

[@courtneyhayman1503]

I just need to say that I’ve never felt more understood than when you said you’ve taken on a lot of things and you feel like you’re doing none of them well and then you cried because Zoe said something nice about you. That’s quite literally my life at this moment and it’s super validating to hear someone else say it

[@readingintothevoid2930]

I loved hearing you talk about The Skin We’re In. I know you recognize it can be hard to talk about nonfiction, but you did amazing. I really appreciate the way you review books because regardless of if I have the same taste in books as you, I can get a really good understanding if I would like it or not.

[@chandlerainsley]

i was super on the fence about picking up He Must Like You because I assumed it would be really similar to a book like The Nowhere Girls which was great but not what i was looking for. definitely going to pick it up now!

[@DaninaPetroskova]

Kayla watched you in this vlog. 😊

[@Katesbookishnature]

Well, with an intro like that you can’t stop watching this video 🤣

[@martinasophiaisaksen3034]

OK I haven't even watched this but I just wanted to tell you Lala that you just made my whole week.

[@jessicagolden1631]

I didn’t know about the “going in blind” thank you for sharing this! I also will be picking up this book it sounds super good and powerful!!

[@Anonymouse1989]

I LOVE A GOOD LONG KAYLA VIDEO! My day has just gotten so much better

[@manganett]

Awww that little rant about not having a lot of friends in the book community. By all means, I'll be your friend if you want to 🤭🤩

[@issianne7552]

Dropping everything to watch this!!!

[@Antonio-yq8hl]

When Kayla told us that she had an allergic reaction I got major “Mom I just peed myself “ at 3:00 am vibes.

[@MrLaiioSpain]

A whole hour of Kayla? Yes thank you

[@bookwild2495]

Feel free to force your friendship on us!! We adore your personality, and love that you show us all the aspects of Kayla! ❤️ -the bookwild girls

[@alexsitar4163]

she watches trin, that's how we know she has taste

[@niallsbookthing2185]

expulsions, kayla, expulsions

[@BooksandLala]

hahahhahaha 😅🤯🤗

[@zoelaird3354]

'Washington Black' is one of my favorite books that I've ever read and I don't think I could describe it in a way that makes sense. Other than I think more people should read it because it was fantastic!

[@TheeKookyWildflower]

I'm loving the books you are choosing. So many conversations to topple!

[@sophia.but.better]

i love how everyday just comes more and more chaotic we love that

[@alysarocker]

20 minutes in and the comedy is 👏🏽🤣👏🏽

[@BookedandBusy]

I enjoyed this so much😂 your reaction to the troop and the number of times you said blood made me laugh so hard!

[@Rank.Roundup]

I watched this vlog a couple days ago, and ever since then I’ve been going around my house singing, “Oh, Canada.” I’m American. 🤣

[@bettyreads222]

When you had that moment of stress because of all that you're doing this thought came into my head, so wanted to share: You're doing your best. The best you can. Appreciate all you bring to this community.

[@RKStumblingbear]

I have added a couple of these books to my list. It was nice hearing of new books.

[@SereneDancer]

The Skin We're In has been on my TBR for so long. I really need to get to it. Especially, since we Canadians can be so self congratulatory regarding our approach to racism. And we really shouldn't be.

[@maddythemo]

I definitely want to pick up Disfigured! Thanks for the recs Kayla ☺️

[@firewhiskeyreader8257]

I just put Disfigured in my shopping cart! I'm so glad you made the link to Bad Feminist because that definitely gives me more confidence to read it!

[@monicabittle8888]

I'm watching you every single day to find books so I can get into reading cause every book you mention seems interesting to me

[@Cafe_Scribbles]

“The night is young, it’s still early”....checks clock... “it’s 9:30.” Me: uhhh... that’s past my bed time 😭 I’m so old 🤣🤣

[@sassysarahreads]

I think you would love All the Rage by Courtney Summers. It follows that rage and trauma that follows after assault as well as dealing with a murder of a teenage girl in a small town.

[@BooksandLala]

I've read it, solid rec 💪 I didn't actually love it but I see where you're coming from with that!

[@allthelovetish3080]

your vlog intros will always make me laugh!!! And an hour vlog? HECK YEAH

[@birchfoxfarmandgarden2807]

I've only watched a minute of this and I'm already so entertained!🤣🤣🤣

[@jordanhutson6962]

I'm with you on The Troop. I just felt kinda "meh" when I was done. I mean, it was definitely gross but I wasn't blown away by the overall story.

[@booknerdwithlipstick]

I've always felt like you would be the most amazing friend. Now I just have to create a channel so you can force us to become friends !

[@katherine3389]

I just started watching this vlog and from the intro highlights I'm very intrigued to say the least lol. Can't wait to watch the rest!

[@biancareads]

Kayla: I don’t feel like an intellectual Also Kayla: has some of the best discussions of complex texts I’ve seen in ways that are accessible and engaging

[@biblioobscura]

Hi Kayla! I love that you read Disfigured. As someone who has a relatively unknown mental illness, it bothers me to no end when it is poorly represented and negative stereotypes perpetuated. Anyways! I just want to mention Jen Campbell, who is a disabled UK author and booktuber. She speaks extensively about the representation of disability in pop culture and literature. Here's the link to her "Videos about Disfigurement/Representation" playlist: kzbin.info/aero/PLlRIaAzTjWi5onpjRQzypc_yNfpRtnPVy

[@YoSamiYo]

1 hour? 😍😍😍 love that! Perfect ending to my long late shift at work, thank you so much! Greetings from Germany 🌻

[@beckyduff]

Thank you so much for putting together this readehthon. I have been watching all the videos by the hosts and they were all so awesome, and I had so much participating and vlogging myself. I've added Disfigured and He Must Like You to my TBR!

[@annajo6576]

great vlog, as usual 🙂 have you ever watched Jen Campbell’s videos? she is constantly doing videos about disability in literature particularly in fairy tales. i highly highly suggest checking her out!

[@jadaas6796]

horror stopped sounding like a word very quickly asjagahnsjja

[@KaylaRaeReads]

“That’s literally Drugs!!!?” I am laughing so hard! 😂😂😂

[@BohoBookworm]

Eh!!! God your reactions throughout your reads were just hilarious. That view was amazing around 17 minutes in. Beautiful.

[@YoSamiYo]

9:46 it seems like no english speaking person can pronounce Leuchtturm 🙈 translated it‘s the lighthouse

[@jana-dy5et]

I think it's the "ch" which they can't pronounce but it sounds so cute when they try 😄❤️

[@ramblinganna]

bonnie aime but we have the “ch” sound in English right at the start of the word “human”. Now, “u” and “ü” is a different story and the Bain of my life (especially as my husband’s name is Uwe and I cannot pronounce it) 😆

[@koritsi2142]

I was literally about to comment that haha it's always so funny to me

[@mouse-o5z]

bonnie aime I think it’s more because our vowel system is so weird that we never really know what sound vowel combinations make unless we’ve heard the word before lol. I can do the leuch part just fine but trying to pronounce turm like a german makes my mouth give up

[@thedespotcat]

I loved The Skin We're In as well. It was so important to see a non-fiction book about anti-black racism that is specific to Canada. Also I totally have to read Disfigured now!

[@spilltheteaandread]

I loved this vlog 😍 So many important topics of conversation that you talked about really well. Thanks for all of the great book recommendations!!

[@hannahsuydam3942]

Kayla this intro I am living it for it

[@annakarlien1952]

I love horror but never ever ever will I read the troop. 😂 thanks for making it a bit more explicit so I know to avoid it completely forever

[@vittorigoli1098]

The first book’s cover is soooo nice

[@oliviamooo9423]

Kayla, what a great video! I absolutely loved the whole discussion you had about the skin we're in!! It's already on hold at my library, but the way you talked about it reminded me of another book that I think you should check out - A mind spread out on the ground by Alicia Elliott! It's by an indigenous author and to me it also had the perfect balance of statistics on indigenous people in Canada and the U.S, and personal stories about her experience as an indigenous woman too. It discusses race and depression and poverty and a million other things, but the sections in particular where the author discusses indigenous people being murdered in Canada and the differences in the way their cases are treated by our government and media was just mind blowing! I've always know it happens in Canada, but the way the author describes it you can physically feel her heartbreak and devastation when indigenous people continue to not get the justice they deserve. It was truly a beautiful book, and I feel like I could talk about it endlessly too, so I really recommend it!!

[@Janella_Ice_Ice_Baby]

“That’s literally, like, DRUGS......” 🤣🤣🤣

[@coffeeandwashitape]

An hour long vlog? Amen. 🙌🏼 also this was a whole entire mood.

[@TehBuggy]

When you were talking about how certain language that we don’t think about is actually unintentionally harmful or exclusive, it made me think of something I’ve realized I do that’s wrong recently that I wanted to share. Just in case other people do this too without realizing it: When I’m talking about race or reviewing a book with POC rep or messages, I always preface it with something along the lines of “obviously I’m white”, usually before recommending an Own Voices review or opinion. But I realized that that’s super not ok, because 1. White-passing POC totally exist and race ISN’T always “obvious”, and 2. That’s super ableist because I’m just assuming that everyone can see my avatar or visually watch my video and be able to determine my race that way. So yeah, that’s definitely language that I’m changing with myself

[@jjcinnaberry]

it’s only been four minutes and we’ve hit day three kayla you are zOoming 🏃‍♀️

[@nathanielluscombe5277]

When she’s on the last couple days and there’s still most of the video 😂

[@thepagesofsamantha]

definitely interested in picking up disfigured and washington black now 👀

[@CherAquili]

Yassss, I have been waiting for this! 💖 Thank you Lala for coming through with great content, as always! 💖💯

[@stringbeanbooks]

i haven’t read “the skin we’re in” yet, but i watched the mini documentary desmond cole made of the same title while he was writing the book and it was amazing- genuinely one of the best mini docs i’ve ever watched and i can’t recommend it enough!

[@NativeLadyBookWarrior]

I loved this video ❤ I watched the entire thing and I thought, awww man! It over! 😔😂 these books sound amazing. Hopefully I will read them this year. Lol. My tbr is gonna swallow me 😄

[@AimeeReads]

You read some GREAT stuff this week! I've added so many of them to my TBR.

[@leilajaafari8436]

Lala uploads a video: me “ooooh so pretty such aesthetic!” Been a fan for 3 years ur awesome!

[@jana-dy5et]

"The Troop" was too gross for me, I couldn't finish it and I usually finish every book I start. But the body horror and the animal cruelty were too much to take 😅

[@Djcooksandbooks]

1 Hour long video on this Friday evening is such a perfect start of my weekend! Thank you Kayla! I am going to make myself a cup of tea! brb

[@nikoletak]

32:36 - Community Day on Pokemon is a day where a lot od one pokemon spawns, which means you get a chance to catch that pokemon in its special shiny form or maybe even get a 4-star one (perfect stats). Every Community Day on Pokemon Go includes a different pokemon and occurs monthly.

[@becklebooks]

You hitting yourself in the face, by the book that made you angry... *BOOK STRIKES BACK*

[@annalisamoretti271]

So glad you loved Washington Black! I had such a great experience reading it and I’m always trying to get people to read it.

[@thebookishnook4165]

20 seconds into this video I knew this vlog is gonna be iconic and hillarious 😍😂

[@AbiofPellinor]

The messiest vlog I've ever watched from Kayla and honestly I'm here for it

[@Cafe_Scribbles]

Omg.. you bullet journal?!? I didn’t know I could love you more 😭😭

[@CompletelyMelanie]

After watching this, I added 3 of the books to my wish list. He Must Like You, Washington Black, and Disfigured. They all sound great.

[@angela-thebooknerdess2110]

You were talking about the Book Can I Touch Your Hair and that you couldn't find out if the people involved were Canadian, even though the book was on a Canadian list. The authors are American (Alabama and Philadelphia_ however, one of the illustrators is from Vancouver, BC so part of the book is Canadian so, not a sham, specifically but loosely Canadian.

[@mayahreads3034]

Yay! I’ve been waiting all week for this! I feel like you perfectly described the experience of reading The Skin We’re In. It’s so informative but personal and infuriating to read about the new stories in it. If you’re looking for more non-fiction, I read A Mind Spread Out on the Ground by Alicia Elliott for the readehthon and it was incredible!! It has similar educational content but a beautiful and deeply personal writing style.

[@marijabarbaric5727]

Thank you for this. It was not boring at all. I put Washington Black, Disfigured..& He must like you on my TBR.