Brannan Chan Redd | A Mom's Stillbirth Story | My son was stillborn at 38 weeks

[@lyricalaska]

I had patients who were in their 80s crying about a baby they lost at birth many years ago. My heart went out to them!! My heart goes out to you!!!!

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for sharing that. It's hard sometimes to deal with the grief and it builds up until it just consumes us. We are hoping that these stories are able to help the parents and help anyone who needs to hear these stories.

[@joannmaciorowski8386]

The pain is always there but it starts to be bearable

[@AdrienneMcGuire]

My grandmother is 94 and she can still tear up when she talks about the baby she lost when he was born 2 months early. ❤

[@jaimiestripling]

I’ve watched this 3 times and cried each time. I’m so grateful for your content, as an OB Gyn Sonographer, I’m certain this will make me better and more compassionate in my job. Thank you. Love to Brannan.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Wow, thank you

[@megtaylor1027]

I am just absolutely jaw dropped with how many people have stories to share. I just cannot believe how many poor souls have had to endure these awful tragedies. God bless all of you

[@susanberry4574]

Losing a baby is something you never forget. You just learn to accept it and go on with life. It’s been 33 years since I lost my baby at 8 days old. I still think about her and cry.

[@JoceLucero-b9y]

I had my son 3 weeks ago… he was my second baby, and he was stillborn. My heart goes out to you both, knowing others have had to feel the way I do now pains me. Brennon was SO beautiful, and your story is very similar to my story with my son, Leo. My two year old daughter has been my saving grace during this time. Sending so much love and prayers to you and your beautiful family! ❤️

[@joancottam6956]

Sending love and healing to your family and heart ❤.

[@YesThatPrettyGirL]

My heart is pained to hear of ur loss. Thank you for sharing ur story, especially being Leo’s birth was only three weeks prior to ur comment here. You are so strong. You are so brave. You are an AMAZING Momma bear to ur daughter. I’ve always said “a child’s laughter is the most beautiful thing a mother could ever hear.” I’m sending much love ❤️ to u and ur sweet family.

[@bridittebargeot2679]

I'm so sorry you're having to experience this, sending you love and comfort...

[@NS-lx4hx]

Your baby was a perfect mix of you and your husband.. he has beautiful facial features ..Im so sorry for your loss😢

[@marie-ctunnicliff513]

I lost my baby boy at 33 weeks in 1976, you never get over it. My heart goes out to everyone who has had this tragic experience xxx

[@carolinanotthest8]

im so sorry for your loss. he is so perfect and so blessed to have a mom and family like you and your loved ones. I lost my baby less than 3 weeks ago and finding your page has helped me so much. I was almost 29 weeks pregnant. my baby girl has impacted me more than i can explain and nothing prepares you for the loss of your baby. but you are still his mother, he will forever be your baby. right now i feel empty and alone, but hearing your story, along with so many other women who has gone through this makes me feel a little bit normal. thank you for sharing baby Brannan's story with us.

[@psychonauty2020]

what did you name your sweet girl mama? ❤ praying for you

[@pammerle1691]

Brannon is a Beautiful boy and now a BEAUTIFUL ANGEL IN HEAVEN. Brannon is and will forever be with you 24/7. When you are thinking of him, say his name, he is right there with you and he will be for everyday for the rest of your lives .... I cried with you watching this...but know he is ALWAYS RIGHT WITH YOU. God Bless you

[@jacquelinejacobson6789]

Your daughter is beautiful too! Don't fear - he is in heaven looking down at you, and you will all meet up with him there after your earthly life.

[@keeleycooper7296]

My sister was born still 24 years ago . I was born three years after . My mom still grieves , but she can talk about her now without being sad . I had a babygirl 9 months ago and my mom says she sees my sister in her which brings us both so much comfort . I never got to meet her but she's had such a positive impact on my life . My mom said her room had a lilly pad . I don't understand your pain but I sympathize and send you so much love and comfort .

[@StillAPartofUs]

We hope that you didn't feel like you were in your sisters shadow. All parents pray that they are able to be the best that they can be for their children, but sometimes it's difficult. We're glad that you and your mom are able to see your sister s little in your own daughter. That is special.

[@karinnesse7752]

I also gave birth to a 32 week stillborn son. He was still pink because the placenta was still working. Labor was 18 hours of non-stop tears. Hewas 3 pounds and 17 inches long. Whenever I remember him I tear up. I so looked forward to knowing him and loving him. Heaven is not that far away now.

[@strangementalitypaperYT]

My brother would be 24 also.

[@alwaquehs]

My daughter woke up early getting her children ready for the day, almost the same scenario. She had called me that morning sharing her concerns. Drink a cold glass of water get in the car drive to your Doctors office. Within 30 minutes I received a call from a nurse in the ER saying she was going into surgery. Her baby was delivered but was not breathing, but by the grace of God they resuscitated her. All the nurses were calling my daughter a hero. You see I lost a baby at 25 weeks. I was able to help my granddaughter just not my baby. You will help others by sharing your story, you are brave and courageous.

[@StillAPartofUs]

We hope that we are helping others with our stories of love and sadness. Thank you for sharing your life experience

[@YesThatPrettyGirL]

My mother had three babies before my brother arrived. He and I are 12 years apart. I couldn’t understand why or how it happened, as I was 7-12 yrs old during that period. As a grown woman who has experienced my own loss, so much pain, so much worry, so much, just SO MUCH. Thank you for sharing ur personal experience, and of course this channel.❤

[@mileymay-may970]

I'm crying as I'm listening to your beautiful bubs story. I lost mine 2 weeks ago at 39 weeks. I didn't want to believe it was true. Thank you for sharing your experience. May your little one rest in peace.

[@MHolla-f1j]

I lost my baby this January at 41 weeks. I know your pain. You know mine. And I’m so sorry we have had to go through this.

[@hipnhappenin]

It's so important to share these stories. My niece was born sleeping back in March and I still cry about her and I cry for her mother, who will likely never fully heal. Thank you, Winter.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much. We hope that these stories are able to help those whom need it.

[@gadgetjand]

I also live in Utah. I have never lost a child, and can’t imagine going through something like that. I have one child, I was a high risk pregnancy and almost lost him at 12 weeks. It was a miracle that I had him. I have friends who have angel babies. I love your channel so much. I love all the parents who are brave enough to share their stories. The sad truth is that no one talks about infant loss even though it’s something that happens. So grateful for all you do to help spread awareness.

[@peterlawrence6815]

Yes after trying for five years I almost lost my child in early pregnancy and a perfect pregnancy morning sickness no nothing after a difficult birth . Wrong position forceps ECT . I got my beautiful baby. Never screamed during that hard labour did not take any of that for granted .it was not a case of easy come I'll be back next year so everything was done quietly no need to make a racked

[@tdecker2937]

You did a phenomenal job telling a difficult, sad (but still loving) story. God bless you and your family. ❤️

[@charlotte_stevens]

Wow, Brennan is literally perfect. I'm glad you got to snuggle him. What a beautiful reunion you'll have with him one day. In the meantime he is your guardian angel watching over his precious family. I'm so very sorry for the pain you went through and the loss of your sweet son. You'll be together again, but it sure hurts while we're here on Earth waiting for that joyous reunion ♥️😇👣🙏

[@juliery63]

I'm so sorry for you and everyone else who has ever gone through this. Weirdly, i know at least 10 women who have had full term or nearly full term stillbirths. It's just never an easy thing to hear about and i can't even imagine having had to personally experience it. My heart aches for all of you. I think it's wonderful that you are providing parents a platform and way to share their stories and babies. I'm sure it's a great comfort to many others going through the same grief. Also, so funny when you mentioned your nieces Brooke and Paige. My two youngest daughters who are now 26 and 25 yrs old are named Brooke and Paige. Anyway, I wish you peace, and I'm glad you had and have a lot of support.

[@missluna5]

I’m so profoundly sorry for your loss, I can’t even begin to imagine your pain. Your ‘Still a part of us’ resonates with me as my beautiful mother birthed my stillborn big sister almost 55 years ago, and she has always been part of our family. She is loved and cherished to this day. I am so glad that you got to spend time with your precious son. Sadly for my mother, it was deemed too traumatic for her too see her child so my sister was whisked away immediately, never to be seen again. My mother is now in her 70’s and to this day, she is still haunted by the fact that she did not get to see and hold her child. I went on to have three beautiful boys and became a midwife (here in the UK) and supported women birth their babies, including those that were born sleeping, I truly hope that my care helped in some way to make the unbearable more humane than my mother experienced. Sending much love and light to you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

[@maryellenblount6376]

Your story is so touching and heartbreaking. Thank you Winter for sharing your beautiful son with us. His legacy lives on in the lives of those you touch through your channel. Thank you so much for everything you do.

[@marilynmills2273]

What a beautiful little boy. I’m so sorry for your loss. My mum lost my little brother at full term when he was still born over 50 years ago. There are no photographs of him and my mum and dad never got to hold him which still makes me sad. My parents are in their 90s now but little Edward is still very much part of our family and we all visit his grave and talk about him often.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Though time passes, the love for our children (and siblings) never fades. I glad to hear that your brother has been a part of your family all these years.

[@marilynmills2273]

Thank you for your kind response. I know that as my little brother is still loved and remembered, your dear little boy will also be loved and remembered and hold a precious place in your hearts forever. Sending much love xx

[@StillAPartofUs]

Much love to you, too

[@FastNCurious88]

Absolutely perfect little boy. So beautiful. May he rest easy. May your Family be blessed.

[@wishingyoupeace]

Dad holding the casket is so beautiful and sad at same time. Very very heartfelt, all of this.

[@tyreebruce]

Dear Winter and Lee, I’m guessing you began this channel in Brannan’s memory.. I imagine the sharing of these beautiful yet so tragic birth stories serve as a way if not to heal to connect with others who’ve suffered what I consider the WORST pain imaginable! Brannons story like the others told are so very moving and as sad as they are they’re also beautiful in some way. I know each of these lives are of GREAT worth to those in this world grieving for them but also for our God who gives and takes away. I don’t understand the whys but I do appreciate these stories. They are all unique and I do find beauty in them. Even though we are all so different , grief is universal and how the couples of these BEAUTIFUL and PRECIOUS children manage to get past the pain together is touching! I think the fact that Lee couldn’t bring himself to cut the cord , severing the bond between you is truly beautiful in its symbolic yet very sensible way… it makes Sense. I pray this finds you well.. I thank you for sharing your grief and others. Brannon is a special little boy!

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much. We did start the podcast and this KZbin channel in honor of Brannan. It has been a wonderful way and a constant reminder that our son is loved, and we are able to do some good (we hope) in his name and memory. When we are talking with these parents, it is very apparent that they too, love their children, and are just so proud of them. Thank you for reaching out to us.

[@lisabeaver2919]

First time seeing this channel , it is so wonderful you made this for parents who experience the greatest loss. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I was a high risk pregnancy due to something I was born with. I have 3 children , my first 2 where boys and my third was a girl. All went well doing my pregnancies , however with my daughter during my 34.5 I woke up early and was bleeding heavily . I was panicking and couldn't feel her move . We dropped my boys off at a friend's and got to the hospital right away and it was found out I had placenta abruption. My daughter was born a few hours later. She was in good shape weighting 5 lbs 6 oz..she is now 25 . scariest thing I've been though. My heart goes out to you all who lost babies.

[@maryannewebster]

Hi it's Maryanne from the UK I'm so sorry for your loss my prayers🙏 🙏 🙏 and thoughts are always with you all xxxxxxxx rest in peace little angel

[@jojozep7820]

This isn’t fair, this isn’t okay, my heart reaches out to you both. There is no sense or reason x He’s perfect and beautiful

[@StillAPartofUs]

It isn't fair, but we just have to continue on. He was, and is beautiful

[@jesawalker]

I am so sorry for your loss. My god what a beautiful baby. There is nothing worse or harder in life than giving your child back to god. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you. It is a hard everyday to have that missing piece of our family

[@luvjc77]

I've lost a baby very early in a pregnancy 35 years ago and I still think about it from time to time. I guess we never forget. Your son was perfect and is now residing with the Father in Heaven so you'll see him again. You're so blessed to have such a wonderful supportive family. And your daughter is so adorable. God Bless you all.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you, and we do feel so blessed to have such a strong and close support system around us.

[@mommyshark1124]

I wish I could give you the biggest hug 🥺😢

[@StillAPartofUs]

And we would hug you back. Thank you.

[@MaryAnn-pd3pm]

@@StillAPartofUs Beautiful baby boy. Ye always have a little angel by your side. 🙏

[@dianakidd5688]

Your courage to share your experience is a tremendous help even for those of us who were children when our mother’s lost our new born sibling. I was 10 when my 5 day old baby brother died (in the hospital) and there was nothing in those days (in 1964) done , for my Mom or our family, to help with this loss. My heart goes out you, your family & Lucy. After 56 years I still feel the loss of my baby brother. Thank you again for sharing your baby & your experience. Bless you.

[@StillAPartofUs]

We hope that these stories and experiences can help everyone who has experienced loss, and we are so glad that you have felt that. We hope that you are able to see the impact that your own baby brother had on your life and that you can share that with others. Thank you.

[@mazinwonderland3077]

My mother gave birth to a still born baby girl in 1948. She never got to hold her, as the baby Diane, was whisked away by the nurses. Her whole life my mother missed her baby girl. When my mother passed, I prayed that she was reunited with my sister. I am so glad that things have changed.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for sharing. When we have talked with parents who have had a stillbirth long ago, that has been a common occurrence. I too am glad that it is changing.

[@TheSpider1022]

What a beautiful baby your Brannan is......I cried that painful emotional cry that comes forth when you lose a baby... Bless you and your beautiful wonderful family and thank you for sharing such a deeply personal story of your son

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you,and sometimes a good cry is just the best thing in the world. Thank you for mourning with us.

[@missmew5240]

He was such a beautiful, perfect baby boy 💙 My sincere condolences. My heart breaks for your loss 💔

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you, he truly was.

[@mariapobje5692]

My girlfriend's daughter lost my grandson at 35 weeks.

[@davisholman8149]

@@mariapobje5692 I am so sorry - I am a grandmother & can only imagine how painful that is for you & your loved ones. Again, I am so sorry.

[@tiadavenport5465]

We lost one twin at 27 weeks and then went into labor with a sister. Twin A lived for a month before she passed away. It will be 22 years ago this year and it feels like yesterday. My heart feels for you and your family. You're not alone.

[@sharonhall2586]

I am so very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful baby boy, born sleeping. ❤️💔❤️

[@StillAPartofUs]

He was beautiful. And we can't wait to meet him again

[@miatam5105]

Thank you for having the strength , courage and love to tell your tragic and heartbreaking story. I am so so sorry for your loss. You don't hear alot about stillbirths and your video captured it all. Words cannot describe how much my heart broke while I was watching your video. Brannan is a beautiful angel baby watching over you and your family. Love and prayers.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you. It was a very hard thing for us to do and it brought up a lot of old feelings and some new ones that we didn't know we could feel.

[@cherylmiller2334]

I'm so sorry for your loss! My heart is aching. I've lost (3) children my and that is the hardest thing in life you will ever have to endure! Your heart will always ache & you will always feel a loss that is so painful, but remember this! He is a happy, healthy angel that watches over you everyday! May peace be with you and yours! God Bless you and your family! 💙😇🙏🤗

[@runningwithjane]

What a beautiful legacy you've created for your son, Brannan Chan. Thank you for being brave and sharing your story, Winter. You and Lee are doing a wonderful thing by creating this podcast and KZbin channel.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thanks. We hope it is a legacy he is proud of

[@barbaralinenfelser6454]

Why is his chin so red?

[@StillAPartofUs]

When children are stillborn the skin goes through something called dermal maceration; which is seen in the skin 4 - 6 hours after death. The epidermis separates from the dermis on applying a pressure (skin slipping). Bullae (bubbles) appear with collection of fluid beneath the epidermis. The desquamation (skin peeling) regularly progresses in time to extensive skin separation on the face, neck, abdomen, limbs and external genitalia exposing red and moist dermal surface. Brannan had some of the bullae (bubbles) on his chin, his wrists, his ankles, and on his chest.

[@lifewithdeedee3392]

😭😭😭 I'm so sorry for your loss. I feel so guilty. I'm 25 weeks pregnant and it's really been tough on me. I'm glad I found this channel because I need to be thankful to God. I'm 41 ill be 42 and I'm worried. Thank you for sharing your baby with me. I needed him to give me the strength to continue on for my son. 😭😭

[@StillAPartofUs]

Be strong Dee Dee, we are sure that you have many people who would love to listen and help you. We are send you love and prayers

[@lifewithdeedee3392]

@@StillAPartofUs thank you

[@janicescott7338]

You take care and think positive thoughts .Reach out for help if you are depressed because hormones can be crazy too. Lots of women have babies at this age. You are certainly in my prayers.

[@peterlawrence6815]

Summer and Lee are two of the most beautiful people. They are wonderful with helping others with both strength kindness and understanding. With a slight touch of human humour . I love winters soft kind laugh nessesary

[@fatbottombiker3038]

I am so deeply touched by your story. I cannot imagine your grief and I am truly sorry for what you and your family has had to go through. May God bless you.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for those words and for your memorial support, even though we are connecting through the internet, it helps us.

[@claireashley427]

My heart breaks for you and for every family that has had to experience a stillborn or an infant loss. I can't even imagine, but even as someone without any kids it is so relatable on a human level. Your story and all of these stories are so important to be told to get this information out there so more women and families can be educated and for comfort and a community for those who have experienced it! Thank you for your open heart, honesty and vunerability sharing this heart breaking experience and for shedding light on this topic and sharing all of the other stories you have. Every single one touches my heart deeply and leaves me in tears. Thank you for what you are doing! You are truly making a difference and I pray that you continue doing so and that God blesses you and your family greatly! Brannon was so perfect and beautiful and he is now even more perfected in Heaven with God for eternity!❤🕊 Sending you so much love and big hugs from Southern California.❤

[@Autumn.93]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the heartache you endured. He is so beautiful. You gained an angel. 👼

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much. He is a cutie, isn't he

[@ProudCanadian-vv6bk]

Brannan is so perfect. A beautiful little boy.❤ The flowers on his little casket looked just right. Somehow they added a peaceful feeling and some joy gor Brennan.

[@karenmclaughlan9128]

What a beautiful tribute to your precious baby boy. So sorry for your heartbreaking loss its so sad 😞 thank you for sharing your story with all of us. Big hugs from Scotland ❤❤

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for listening to our sons legacy. And we are glad to take those hugs from Scotland.

[@sandyhawks5240]

So so sorry for having to go through this. At least you got to be with him, before he was gone forever. You two are very courageous people. I think i would of died along with him. My heart just went out to you ❤.

[@DebbieSparkman]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby boy I miscarried 32 years ago I was 20 weeks It was the worst thing in my life it almost drove me crazy and every year on 10/8/1992 was the worst thing of my life

[@LadyLyndhurst01]

Beautifully told. A lovely gentle voice I feel I shall remember. RIP angel baby xxx

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you.

[@mylittlerebornfarm756]

My son had a single cord also..I was told the night before I was to be induced due to him not doing well. And my health. I am in New Zealand. I was told he would be born with a lot of disabilities. I was told this in the evening by a female Dr without my husband there and NO support. I delivered him the next day and apaert from being 6 weeks prem 5ib 10oz he was fine. I was diagnosed 2 days later with Non Hodgkins lymphoma and had a big operation and 6 months chemo. They told me I had as little as 3 months to live. I was 26 years old then, I am 59 yrs old now..I was also able to have a daughter after my chemo..I was told I was sterile!! Thankfully they were wrong AGAIN! I am SO lucky and blessed. I did lose a baby after my daughter with an ectopic pregnancy. And I am so sorry for the loss you suffered of your beautiful little angel

[@lindawalters4098]

What a beautiful baby your son is,you will ways be his Mom & what love he had.My deep respect to you & Lee for Still a Part of us.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much.

[@64GBOSS]

Prayers of hope and comfort for your family. He's an angel ✝️🙏💗

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you. He is a sweet angel

[@wishingyoupeace]

Winter I am so sorry for your loss. Your voice has become such a source of comfort through all of the stories told and it is so heart breaking to hear your sadness. You are a beautiful person and beautiful mom. You and Lee both have made such a wonderful contribution to this community with this podcast. I have so much admiration for you both. Brannan is absolutely precious as well as his sister Lucy, so adorable. My heart feels all of this. Ongoing prayers and warmth dear Winter.

[@inesar1993]

I admire your strenght, your love, your capacity to enjoy him in the hardest time of your lives! You really appreciated life before this and I'm sure you appreciate it more after this. I love people like you, being honest about the hardest parts and the lovely parts, and be so so kind and open about this so personal event. Thank you so much!

[@nate6511]

I am so sorry for your loss. However, I am glad to see that you did get to spend some time with her, and that you got to take family pictures. My grandmother had a third trimester stillborn in the '60s and demanded that she see the child, which people were very hesitant towards. She did get her wish in the end, and it helped her massively in her process. The hospital being clear on their policies and the way they treated you sounds like a major difference and I'm glad to hear that that's the case. I am also incredibly proud of you for normalizing death in this amazing way. The photos are gorgeous and show that death isn't scary, isn't terrifying. And kudos to including Lucy, your family, and your Church in the process, including the visitations and people holding Brannan. The way you managed to embrace your loss--and with that your love for him--is amazing to see. And I hope you're well now.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you. It was a blessing to be able to hold him and have our family and close friends hold him, even if it was for just a moment. How society has changed with how they handle the mourning and dealings with infant mortality is getting better. We just want to have the world that we do have a child, whom we love, that isn't with us here.

[@nate6511]

@@StillAPartofUs I just realized I used the wrong pronouns, so sorry about that! Anyway, I agree with you, I can't imagine how healing it must be to take your own time in saying goodbye and I am very happy to hear the situation has changed. I think I'd have liked to see my uncle, actually. And I am glad you're continuing the work, allowing other people to talk about the children they've lost too. Finally, I am grateful for you sharing this video because it helped me remember that I really ought not to assume somebody's children based on the number with them.

[@kimtillman5683]

You were right …. He was absolutely perfect , beautiful, yet heart wrenching,God bless ❤️

[@Jennifer-me7mu]

He was so perfect..looked like he was sleeping..sorry for your loss!🙏

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you, he did look like a perfect sleeping little boy.

[@elainebird58]

He was sleeping...the term is born sleeping

[@shirleysiebert8699]

I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you and your family. ❤️

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you, it is with love from so many different people that we are able to share our stories, and share other parents stories.

[@michellesorenson1292]

He was truly beautiful. I'm so sorry you lost him.

[@summerrayne42]

I am watching this for the first time, and it totally broke my heart 😢. It’s hard when these sweet little angels just come to earth to receive a body, and then have to go back to their heavenly home right after. Even though it’s hard to let go, knowing that our Savior’s Atonement will allow us to be with our little angels again, eases the pain just a little bit. It seemed like Heavenly Father had a special calling for your sweet angel and needed him back “home”. I had my son at 26 weeks and I thought I was going to lose him, but he lived. And then at 8 months he had to have double brain surgery, and I thought we were going to lose him while in surgery, but he managed to pull through as well. So, watching your video made me cry my eyes out, wishing that you and your beautiful family could have the same outcome as I did. My heart literally goes out to parents like you two, for I don’t know how you do it. I thought having a baby in the NICU for a month was difficult, and then having him have brain surgery at 8 months was difficult, but that was nothing to what you guys went through. Your daughter is absolutely adorable and your son is beautiful baby, and even though it was for a little while, he was lucky to have you as his parents . Sending you and your family hugs! ❤

[@aahhil8693]

I'm so sorry for you're loss ...I have had 2 still births and my heart 💜 feels for you. you are so strong mama 💖 and dad ❤️ he is so perfect hugs to both of you 💜

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much, and we are so sorry to hear of your own losses.

[@indicatmusic]

You are a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing your story of your sweet boy. My heart goes out to you 💚

[@metrotmobile7370]

My daughter had a miscarriage and it was hard telling her yes Dr is right, baby doesn't have a heartbeat now. It was one of my hardest days as a mom,other than losing my own baby.

[@kathleengivant-taylor2277]

I can relate. We lost ur first child at 5 months old to SIDS. My daughter got pregnant last year and we were all so excited for her . Than the unthinkable happened at almost 3 months. She and her fiancé are heartbroken 💔. Me and husband understand that heart break. You never forget them and it’s been 32 years since we lost ur 5 month old daughter to SIDS. I shared with my daughter you likely will always remember that miscarried child and a remembrance of the child is healing and everyone grieves differently and no right or wrong way to grieve and we are always there for you

[@stephaniehastings6364]

With my 2nd son (when I was pregnant with him), also had the same thing as you had with Brannan. I had to be monitored quite a bit more than the usual. My son was born at 41 weeks after being induced and during his labor(which was intense) and he ended up being fine. He is now a little spitfire 10 year old. I'm SO sorry for y'all's loss and hope you guys will always cherish the memories and the time you had with your sweet little boy!! BIG hugs to you and Lee and BIG sister Lucy!!!!!

[@maryellenblount6376]

Thank you for sharing Brannan with us. Such a heartbreaking story but one of love and hope. What you and Lee do for so many who have traveled this road of sorrow is tremendous and I appreciate everything you guys do! Blessings 🙏🏼

[@ciscokid0110]

This was heartbreaking and I was so glad to hear of the continued love and support from the entire family. You will hold him again!❤️

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for listening and those nice words

[@janeknight6526]

Brannan is just beautiful and perfect in every way. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine how painful it is to lose a baby at any stage of life. I really admire your strength, and i pray that you will be blessed with many more children soon. You will see your beautiful, sweet little Brannan again...

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you, and we do think he's a real cutie.

[@irirustraiar3175]

@@StillAPartofUs 🥺🥺

[@irirustraiar3175]

@@StillAPartofUs 😭😱🥺🥺🥺

[@dianajames4717]

I dont know what to say in a situation like this because there really are no words of comfort to give. I just wanted to say that I never had children myself but I can only imagine the pain both of you went through. I hope and pray God is good to you and grants you another sweet baby to take care of. You look like good people and great parents. God bless.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for those sweet words.

[@ChurchoftheFirstborn888]

Thank you for sharing your very touching story with us. He was very beautiful, and so is your little girl.

[@deecates7715]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have not gone through having a stillbirth however I have a grand child who was named after my son and I who was alive for a little bit and passed away shortly after. And I sadly had 3 miscarriages and I have 3 living children who are all grown now and they all have kids of their own. I have 12 grandkids. My heart goes out to all the moms and dads who have gone through this and especially for those who have shared their stories.

[@StillAPartofUs]

We are sorry to hear of the loss in your own family. We hope you are finding peace and healing

[@qendresaful]

I just had my son 4 months ago I ran across your video and I can’t stop crying I’m so sorry you went through this god bless you and your family

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you for listening and sharing in our loss and pain. We hope that you are also able to feel the love we have for our children, for we are truly proud parents of perfect children.

[@taylortwinsandpreslie8662]

Ma'am I'm so sorry that you and your family went through this. I couldn't help but notice how often you said how grateful you were. I believe that's such a testimony to the love and strength God gives us, even in terrible times. Brannon was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your son with us.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much

[@beyedoc]

Thank you so much for sharing Brannan with us. The way you share him and the kind, compassionate way you interview the parents on this podcast is a huge part of what drew me in to this community and start my process of telling others about my grief. Thank you for that gift, Winter. I'm so sorry for your loss. 💕Brandi

[@StillAPartofUs]

Brandi, thank you so much for those sweet words. We truly hope that you are able to reach out to those around you and share your grief and receive an outpouring of love and support. Thank you.

[@beyedoc]

@@StillAPartofUs Thank you so much. I know that what you have been through was an exponentially more difficult and acute loss, but I have learned that many aspects of the grieving process and thought process of the loss of what could have been are similar. I spent many years fighting for my life and then unpacking that trauma that now I am starting to really grieve the other parts of what it means to have this illness and the other ways my life is changed forever. Thank you for reading my comments and for your kindness. I will keep your family in my prayers and will also continue to pray for your channel to be a place of healing and blessing for those who need it. 💕

[@gaylelazarus2394]

Yes you all will meet Brannon again. I know he is an angel on yours, Lee, and Lucy’s shoulder. I know no words can ever make the heartache go away, no words can heal the pain. He is with Our God free of any pain. He was a beautiful little boy. Thank you for sharing your story. I still cry Winter now 40+ years. I only ask why but have no answer. God Bless❤❤gayle

[@JenJen_88]

Oh my 😍 Brannan is so perfect and precious and just gorgeous. I wish he could have stayed. Thank you for sharing him, and your story with us. Wishing you healing, peace and blessings xxx

[@BeeSimm1]

A poem that meant so much to me way back in 1980 & 1982 because I had baby boys that lived only a few hours after carrying them for 37 weeks. “They say you died at birth, How wrong they are. For 9 months wrapped in love’s cocoon, You already seemed one of us “ So sorry for your loss! I too took Clomid with my first 3 pregnancies. My daughter Sarah is 43, the next 2 baby boys passed at birth. Then I refused to take Clomid again. My 3rd son was born in 1984 perfectly healthy. I’m not saying it was the Clomid because I took it with daughter also. My 2 babies that passed had genetic problems, but was very hard to go through, but if I hadn’t tried again, I wouldn’t have had my son. Now he gave me 2 grandchildren. My daughter has no children.

[@andreaconroy3623]

Oh my goodness, I cannot believe the strength you show telling your story. You are wonderful for sharing your grief and I am so sorry that you had to go through this. I have not lost a baby but know that it must be the hardest thing for a parent to go through. Know that your baby was perfect and that one day you will be with him again.

[@marinemom351]

I am so sorry for your loss. He was beautiful and I love his name. I also know the pain of losing a child. It has been a long time for me but it seems like yesterday. When people ask me how many kids I have I say 3, because he is still my son, he is still a brother, and he is still a part of our family. I am wrapping your family in love, prayers and peace.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Though time passes, the memory and love is always there.

[@KatieJoMikell]

Thank you for sharing Brannon with us he was so beautiful! ♥️💔♥️

[@deanawells4395]

Big hugs to you and your family. I unfortunately know too well your loss. I have been pregnant 10 times and have 4 children. Each of my children are special and I remember and love each of our children we loss just as much as our children that are alive.

[@StillAPartofUs]

We mourn with you in your own losses. The pain is always with us, as time goes on we are more able to cope with it, but it remains.

[@madelynescholp2390]

I lost my son 11 weeks ago at 32 weeks 5 days exactly. I was high risk and I went into my doctors office one day because my son had a bowel defect he needed surgery on. The office was about 3 hours away and when I went in they noticed some cord flow issues which they thought was placental insufficiency. They told me I could stay until he was born for monitoring or I could go home get things and come back. I decided to go home to get things sorted out for my animals and get clothes and comfort things as I have had many traumatic experiences with hospitals. The next morning and when I came back he was dead. My baby was gone in less than 24 hours. I found out he was gone by myself because my boyfriend was working. He didn’t know that he died until his mom picked him up from work and told him. I was induced that night when my boyfriend was able to come up and we found out the placental insufficiency they thought I had was actually a concealed abruption. I had an anterior placenta and so they couldn’t see the bleeding behind my placenta. Obviously there is a lot more but I have stopped talking about a lot of information because peoples responses put me off. I get comments saying it was for a reason and it wasn’t meant to be and for the life of me I have no idea why people say it wasn’t meant to be. You wouldn’t say that to someone who lost a 5 year old. I even got questions asking if he was deformed. When I was at the hospital the day before he died I was terrified I went into a room by myself and I cried and I just prayed to God. I asked him to make sure my baby was going to be okay. I asked for him to keep my baby alive over night so I could get my stuff come back and if something was wrong that would take his life let him live long enough so I can see his eyes. But I prayed that he would live. And even 10 weeks later I am so mad because I asked for one thing. I asked for him to let me keep my baby and take him home alive. And instead I had to leave the hospital by myself and 3 weeks later I had to come back to get his ashes. They were in a tiny urn that was the size of my palm. I am so mad and sad and all I want is my baby back with me. That’s all I want and everything sucks. And I will always wonder that if I just stayed that day. If I just stayed maybe they would have seen decels and he would be alive today. He should be 11 weeks old today but instead 11 weeks ago was the day he died.

[@juliahennessey1287]

Iam so sorry, I can only imagine the pain and that feeling of a part of you missing, your going to see him again. I almost lost my son of a placental abruption and bleeding, today he's 15 yrs.old I also lost 2 pregnancies. We will see our babies again sweetheart. 💜 ❤ prayers to you.

[@natsangel0013]

I lost a baby at 18 weeks gestation today 9 years ago. No one really talks about all this like we should. Sometimes I don't think people from outside the sad club of losses like we share really understand the emptiness that claws at you. The moment that you find out you are pregnant you start thinking immediately about all the future you will share with your baby. And then suddenly it is all gone and it feels like the person who you would have been everything that the world could have been is gone, a door that will never be opened.

[@kathrynstewart5863]

You’re a very strong woman. You will always remember the strength you have within…so will your daughter.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you.

[@karengorzkowski2446]

This channel is a beautiful tribute to the precious lives that were lost. Thank you for having the courage to share your story and to help others who have been through a similar journey.

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you. There is so much that we would like the world to know about our children and this is just a fragment that we can share

[@deanawade5878]

first of all, thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry this happened to you. And I'm grateful that you had so much love and support.

[@StillAPartofUs]

You are so welcome. And thank you for listening and letting us tell you about our son.

[@82chetali]

I was speechless and sobbing hearing your story… may God give u strength to cope up with the loss… we get so anxious at small things but can’t imagine the pain coming from loss u dealt with… and I absolutely admire the courage of putting ur story here… it will give some strength and compassion to people who go through this loss that they are not alone… many people are completely unaware of kick count in last trimester is so important and that you highlighted here.

[@wanda4573]

The details in your story was amazing. Sorry for your loss. So happy your both have still managed to continue to grow together. You sure make beautiful babies. I love the feet photo, perfect toes. Holding hands was so touching. Family photo was adorable. Big hugs

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much.

[@laurenk1853]

Beautiful boy. I’m so sorry for your loss

[@sharaduncan3204]

I am so profoundly enriched by Brannan's beautiful story....and utterly humbled by the grace and honor with which you shared it. Praying fiercely for your family...and sending reminders that our Father catches each tear we shed. 💞😇 Brannan was born having already won this race. 💘 Blessings family in Christ!

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so so so much. We are so blessed to know that we already have someone waiting for us, but it is also so hard to be separated from him. Your words and love are greatly appreciated.

[@stephaniewest-white2777]

You are so great telling us of this season of life. I'm so glad you had so many to be with you guys. I had none.

[@tphan6919]

Even hearing your voice makes my heartache I can hear your pain made me cry , I’m very sorry for your loss such a beautiful angel !

[@StillAPartofUs]

Thank you so much. Even though it has been a couple of years for us, sometimes the pain is too real. Our love for Brannan grows everyday, and everyday we are able to understand the sadness a little better

[@sharonhubbard606]

This is so very sad but also precious. Unconditional love for a beautiful baby. I will think of this child and the family often. You have touched my life. God bless.

[@StillAPartofUs]

You are so kind. Thank you.

[@Sapphire771]

Your story has me in tears so sorry for your loss

[@kathleengivant-taylor2277]

I agree. Iam a mother who lost her first daughter too SIDS at 5 months old. We since got pregnant again 2 years later . That was 32 years ago and you don’t forget. You just learn to find purpose in helping others thur this loss and similar losses. Last year my 28 year old daughter and fiancé got pregnant and me and husband were over joyed for them. They were so excited about the pregnancy . Than the unthinkable happened at just 3 months pregnant. She miscarried baby. Her and I still cry about it. Iam glad iam able to provide them comfort and support and understand there heartbreak 💔.

[@ScousersWife]

What a beautiful son 🤍 Brannan Lee what a beautiful angel you are. I'm so sorry for your family's loss.

[@jamiemisch]

You are all so amazing and Bless you for sharing your lives and your emotions and feelings with us. I was never able to have children due to a heart condition and raised many stepchildren and grandchildren and nieces and nephews and it has all been so precious. Sending loads of love to all of you in your loss and sendings prayers for comfort and support ❤️🌻❤️🌻❤️🌻❤️🌻

[@Angelluvs05]

I can’t imagine making it that far just to ‘lose’ your baby at the end 💔 My heart goes out to you & the many other women that have had to endure this heartbreak 🥺

[@djbrec]

I’m just seeing this on my recommendation page. Sending so much love and prayers to you, your family, friends and everyone who loves you all. Also all of the families and people who have shared stories. ❤️🙏🏻❤️

[@InnerMoka2002]

He's such a truly beautiful and special and it's is supposed to be the happiest day of your life that actually struct me hard and my heart goes out to you and your family

[@yami.jx13]

I am sorry for your loss. It was very touching how your friends and family where there for you guys. Brannan will be waiting for you one day.

[@strontiumstorm229]

Oh my love. My heart breaks for you. My daughter lost her baby just the same way. Your story is beautiful just like baby Brannan Chan. I feel your pain in every word but I’m so glad you have a loving and supportive husband and family. So brave to tell your story and although I’m sobbing it helps. Sending you all the love in the world and then some xx

[@StillAPartofUs]

We are so sorry to hear of the loss of your grandbaby. The loss of a child touches so many more people than just the parents.

[@katytaylor681]

So brave to tell your story and what a comfort people can find in each other, which would not have been possible before these days of internet access. What is also noticeable is how you are grateful for so many things/people rather than raging at the world; guessing your faith helps. So sorry such a sad thing happened to you and sending warm wishes.