Chapter 1

[@lindyking6758]

He's beautiful. ❤❤

[@emilie5507]

Mental health professional here. Sometimes this job becomes too much to bear and I question why I do what I do but hearing from people like Ren remind me why I do what I do and renew my resolve to carry out my job and help people.

[@meeshapeesha]

Sometimes it gets to the point where professionals can’t even help and only the strong ones can get through

[@emmanewman2]

Please don’t ever blame yourself unless you know you’ve given bad advice or ignored someone asking for help

[@kaycarter6389]

Keep going we need people who care in services make sure you do nice things on time of, I can't imagine how hard it is hearing so many story's in a day of torment and suffering but you got this ❤

[@annabartoszak7605]

It's the same for me . I'm a mental health nurse

[@krystiankosowski4617]

A bit more to do than therapy, My Son also suffering from neuro psychaitric condition called PANS/PANDAS. Becase there is no guidance yet my Son and many others suffering. It`s already two years with OCD, insomnia halucination, psychosis and self harming, there`s few more symptoms, road to hell and back. Check it out.

[@jasonklenetsky5687]

The Ren Effect It’s his bottle of light That fills empty cups It’s his melody that touches our souls It’s the words that hit home For the scared and alone That leads them past the fiery coals It’s a glimmer of hope A pause in the scope That allows us a moment to feel To connect in a sense Under no false pretense To the sounds with a vast loved appeal It’s his journey embarked That we feel apart Watching him grow and transform In front of our eyes His music revives And shields us from the eye of the storm From mainstream to obscure His message is pure He sings, and the audience hears His guitar is his wand That tightens the bond To the things that we all hold most dear And it’s artists like him That keep us filled to the brim With joy that they’re sharing their gift With something to say In a meaningful way Through performances that shouldn’t be missed He implements ideas That brings crowds to tears When evoking emotional tones Or he’s quick with a pun In lighthearted fun Using beats that he made on his own He’s a writer, producer A linguistic abuser Using rhymes that are multi-complex His schemes are unreal He’s got skill; the real deal And he’s not shy to show you or flex He’s a force on the scene Far from routine He’s got a voice that needs to be heard He’s got an ear for his pitch That’s melodic and rich And he’s got talent that’s borderline absurd

[@kalenaquinones7963]

I love this! Thank you for sharing!❤❤

[@CosmicVagabondPixie]

Beautiful Much Love To You

[@Retro_Rainer]

I'd love to hear you perform that in whatever way you've meant this to sound. I can't imagine the rhythm, but I like how it's written, it takes some serious wits 'n I feel pos'tively hitten.

[@Veeliscious]

Oh my, that's Beautiful! I hope you've sent it to Ren, in case he doesn't see it here amongst all the comments

[@jasonklenetsky5687]

@@VeelisciousIt has been shared around, and Vic Dunn has actually taken the time to make a song of it. But I’m uncertain if Ren has seen it. Thank you for the kind words.

[@mysteriousfigure3808]

Joe saved Ren's life. And now Ren keeps on giving his own life to everyone else. You ARE changing the world Ren. I hope you can see it. ❤❤

[@wendycabog9695]

Hello and ty (my name is ren)

[@Trev-t8z]

Wake up he ren molested

[@rebeldarlin7]

Anyone else think Joe was Rens first angel? Joe helped shape him and was then called home.

[@angelawisecarver5838]

❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@chrisfreeman6540]

Keep up the good work Ren and don't give up and stay strong 💪

[@noelneyman421]

The way I see it, Joe saved Ren so that Ren could go on and make a difference for so many. Joe is absolutely an angel. ❤

[@JoRiceRenegade4Eva]

100% Joe’s gift to Ren, although life changing & heart shattering, was saving him, so he would & could go on & keep fighting through his own darkness & pain, and in Joes memory, find his true purpose & self love & forgiveness 💔❤️ We owe Joe & Ren so very much gratitude 🙏 😊❤️

[@kellyt5341]

💯🤗

[@AttiCarius12]

For sure. ❤❤❤

[@krstlbmstr86]

💯

[@autumngrubb1468]

🫶🏻🙏🏻💯💯💯

[@ChrisLawton66]

I may not believe in the Divine, but if anyone has a Divine Purpose, it's you. Thank you.

[@lisasage3164]

Agreed since the very first. Divinely inspired, divinely gifted, with divine purpose. He's changing the world.

[@stephenlane7676]

I couldn't have said it better. Never quit on us Ren, we need you.

[@rcmysm9123]

Everything has a divine purpose

[@ChrisLawton66]

@@rcmysm9123 ok thanks 👍

[@autumngrubb1468]

Amen🙏🏻💯

[@magcannamag4238]

i'm crying man. it's so f..cking true emotions in your words, in your song! you are true man, thank you!

[@brohen]

Joe's story hits me so. fucking. hard. Colton made the permanent decision. I was there. Saw him walking, determined. I called his name, but he ignored it. I thought maybe he was going for a walk, headphones in. Maybe he was meeting someone. After a few minutes he walked up to a tree, and fired four shots into it. One into himself. Leaving six shells on the ground. 5 bullet shells, and one, the shell of a man I looked up to. Thank you, Ren, and community for providing a space to share this. Irl people don't want to hear it.

[@lairx]

I feel your pain 🫂

[@dottiemurray6013]

(((( 🫂))))

[@brohen]

@@lairx I love you. Feel free to share your story if you're comfortable. If not, just know my first sentance holds true, even if I don't know you

[@andreawhiting5501]

I can’t even imagine how painful that must have been and still be for you. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love and healing thoughts from one stranger to another.

[@brohen]

@@andreawhiting5501 the love and thoughts is returned 3 fold. Come back here if you ever need a hand (assuming I get the notification)

[@turtleturtle4197]

I’m 35. Diagnosed with Parkinson’s at 27. Lost a wife and unborn child 7 months later. Your lyrics/words spoken encapsulates every emotion I can no longer express. Thank you for that.

[@kellyt5341]

😥

[@loneyb11]

I’m praying for you! Your story breaks my heart!! You got this brother!

[@KathleenGillan-h4l]

Thoughts and prayers are with you ,💪☮️💜⭐️🙏@turtleturtke4197 my name is Kathleen hope you are doing ok ,i just wanted to reach out UR NOT ALONE ❤🤍🙏

[@wembley636]

Ah Man, I read you comment and wanted to post something extremely positive but I can't find the words. I guess that I can't find word is the positive, always start the day as positive as you can, TODAY IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY... just trying to do something man.. anything to give you something.

[@alishastevens9972]

Nothing I can say can change your experiences. Please just know there are those of us out here you may never meet, but we are here, and we do care. I wish for you better times ahead in a way that can reach out and lift others who without your experiences could never understand the way you can. Wishing you peace and joy! My heart is with you.

[@teradrew7555]

Ren (Chinese: 仁, meaning "co-humanity" or "humaneness") is a Confucian virtue meaning the good quality of a virtuous human when reaching for higher ideals or when being altruistic. Ren is exemplified by functional, instinctual, parental feelings and intentions of encouragement and protection for their children. It is considered the outward expression of Confucian ideals.

[@Veeliscious]

WOW! He was Born for this mission

[@teradrew7555]

@@Veeliscious he sure was!

[@pollyannakarina]

Wonderful!

[@blazeparabellum7325]

I got a puppy 8 years ago. I struggled with what to name him. It took a few weeks, after a lot of research, I decided on "Ren". There's a few meanings to the name depending on language. It also means love. The only reason I found this Ren is KZbin suggested a song called 'Hi Ren'. What a gift that he shares his soul and talent with us. How lucky are we? P.s. my dog's nature with children and other dogs tells me I name him correctly. He's patient, gentle and just the best.

[@leannetervit784]

I'm 51 years old. My wee brother hung himself from a tree 50 metres from his house when I was 19 and he was 17. Ye never get over it. Its with you for life. The aftermath is for life. The immediate aftermath is hell on earth. I just found you last night and ive been going through your work since. You sir, are a master at describing life. One of the most unique talents ive came across in my life

[@juliehenderson4647]

Perfectly put . Bless you 🙏

[@kdnppr]

That ''I was about a minute too late...'' has killed me. I was also about a minute too late for someone. I send you a hug, Ren.

[@Momthemum]

I feel you through your music and I'm blessed to be here to hear it.

[@Veeliscious]

That feeling - that you had a Divine Purpose - I believe will Always be there and won't leave you no matter how disillusioned you may have become with all things spiritual, and whilst you may be agnostic currently, it is your core Essence that shows in all that you do, and much in your lyrics and writing, and is the light that shines so very brightly within you - shining your light on The Darkness that's both within ourselves and our outer world and helping others to see different ways out of the darkness - be it inspiring open discussions about "shameful" & embarrassing subjects such as mental health & suicide, inspiring & igniting others to find the courage to follow their creative passions, to highlighting many of the wrongs of the greedy & selfish corporate world, and showing new ways of working that truly acts as a Hive and as rising tides that lifts all ships. You have already made such a huge impact on millions people, touched lives, even saved lives, and I believe for this reason you may well one day be, at the very least, a catalyst to "defeat the forces of evil". You're a Warrior of Light, Ren I have no doubt, and I suspect that certain "Knowing" you had all those years ago will return to you again with a strength of conviction that there really is a Devine, and your Purpose within it, because you Lived that Purpose & feeling you could never shake off. BP said when he listened to "For Joe" that he sometimes wondered if people in our lives "sacrifice themselves for a greater good in others" - I like that thinking, especially as my own dad committed suicide when I was 11 - for me, its nice to think that Joe's decision may not have been all in completely vain because of how it gave you the strength to carry on when you felt you couldn't, and all the lives you've touched, and will go on to touch, in the future. In a sense, the light of your Freckled Angel lives on - through you.💪🙏💖

[@kellyt5341]

I agree.....He made me nervous saying "He yelled into a void that he was ready to take on the earth's evils and give me what you got"...paraphrasing of course. He said he reflects of that time quite a bit. 😥

[@samsmith3055]

We need your book ren such an emotional roller-coaster and i applaud you being to brave !! Your doing great things and things will only get better

[@Tinkerbell9332]

I was born with a rare syndrome called turners syndrome but didn't find out about it until I was 15. That started growth hormone treatments and it has prevented me from carrying my own children. At times I felt trapped because there was nothing I could do and I watched my sister and everyone around me having children and it was the one thing I wanted most in the world. It made relationships hard to navigate and is something I still have to live with but life brought me to a relationship that I can still take care of 2 beautiful children like they're my own. Everything can change. Thank you Ren for everything you do and I see how hard you try! I will always be a supporter!

[@kellyt5341]

😥... So sorry what you went through sweetie..💔

[@Tinkerbell9332]

@@kellyt5341 I can look on the bright side of things now. I've been through dark moments and loss too but we have to push forward! I try to work very hard on staying a positive person😊 Thank you!

[@scamoart3096]

yes - things can always change, I pray for your strength 💚

[@Tinkerbell9332]

@@scamoart3096 Thank you SCamo! 😊

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Hey I replied but don't see them so it must be a KZbin glitch thing but thank you both so much!

[@Krugoose]

REN listen buddy you’ve already changed the world for the better. I found ur music by pure chance it was the epic HI REN! an absolute masterpiece that night I sat in my livingroom with my wife and 5 daughters. I played them HI REN on KZbin afterwards I was crying looking at them taking it in ren! You made a difference to me a 43 year old Scottish construction worker biker martial artist and most importantly dad. To see the look on my daughter faces and then realise they understood even just a wee bit about what you sang! Was magic brother thank you! ❤️

[@barbarahatcher5942]

I've said many times over, since I first saw Hi Ren, that Ren has given us something we have never seen before. And he keeps doing that over and over again. I have also commented many times that each and every twitch stream and little instagram update and retake and message from Ren is really him giving himself to us. Giving his time and his energy to us. He admitted that here, and I'm just glad he recognizes it. He has given us so very much of himself. I'm very grateful and thankful!

[@canadianqueen6969]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! Much respect and lots of love to you❤❤❤

[@carladicarlo3255]

Please know this…I believe your divine purpose intuition was a sign. I don’t say that lightly. I’m not particularly religious, I’m not creative, I’m 20 years older and was never the fan girl type. All I know is when ppl tell you how much you’ve helped them they aren’t exaggerating. I battle childhood trauma, depression and anxiety every day. Over a year ago life did a 180 and really fell apart. Somehow, right then, I found Hi Ren. Yes you’re extremely talented and your music speaks to so many, but you’re also passionate, open, empathetic, humble and know how to relate to others without judging because you’ve been there too. So thank you. For your art and your understanding ❤

[@jay-jay133]

"..when ppl tell you how much you’ve helped them they aren’t exaggerating." I never really thought about that till now! I think that is (generally) UNIVERSALLY True.. from/to WHOEVER says it. Thank you 🙏 I'm always going to remember that now, XX 🖤🦇

[@shannonwalker3994]

Thank you for writing that.

[@FrankColesMadeEasy]

“Like a ghost haunting myself” spot on mate. From those with chronic illness, you know.

[@thegingermenace8593]

Or for me with M.E., I went missing too! I slipped through the cracks and have been living beneath the floorboards. Because that's what Ren says that's what happened to me! 😢

[@LP640LP670]

@@thegingermenace8593 Sending you love. Just from me, a stranger who is giving for others.❤‍🩹

[@SophieGates-oc1bd]

The world needs more men like you, Ren

[@janeysweeney7391]

Wow!!! ❤️ Bless you 🙏😘❤️🇬🇧

[@MissMeKate]

Thank you for so brutally exposing yourself and your story to help shine a light on all those who are missing, and all those we've lost. I hope that people respect your privacy as much as they respect your openness.

[@CosmicVagabondPixie]

Beautiful Much Love To You

[@MissMeKate]

@@CosmicVagabondPixie And to you. ❤️

[@ninajrainsmbaocps760]

What an incredible story.. so very sad and it hits so close to home 😢

[@BeckiKaylene-x8n]

You are a very special human. Thank you, for all that you give in hopes of reducing other's pain. Please, keep enough for yourself. You can't pour from an empty cup. I do believe you are and will continue to make this world a better place! What a legacy. Love and peace to you!

[@Retro_Rainer]

I'm deeply conflicted now. on one side I see ren as a gift we don't deserve, on the other I feel like he is gifting us more than he should and that it's going to hurt and damage him in the long run. and I don't want this to happen, since he has suffered enough already.

[@CosmicVagabondPixie]

Beautiful Much Love To You

[@CosmicVagabondPixie]

@@Retro_Rainer I believe he will know what is best for him whatever that may be i do not foresee him letting himself be eaten alive by his Creativity & his Gifts Much Love To You

[@ignomoly]

i love the... idea of a... video message journal... thanks for sharing...

[@minkuspower]

Joe was your angel, and you are our angel.

[@elmonik]

This is real music, from the heart and soul, brings tears to my eyes brother. ❤

[@steviehinton9403]

Thank you, for being vulnerable with us; for sharing your gift and story. You are loved and appreciated and deserve your privacy and solitude. We will be here for you in whatever capacity you need. Your music has saved me, more than you know. Thank you.

[@Jason_xofilos]

I concur.

[@RollOverRoverSouthPortland]

Yes

[@blaze3fire]

It’s like you took the words right out of my thoughts. I was thinking EXACTLY what you said 1st! We LoVe you Ren! Thank you for sharing with us the alchemy of your healing process and transformation. ❤️‍🔥🫶🏻

[@TheOriginalSkinny]

Thank you so much Ren. You help our hearts to have a voice. Bless you, my brother. ❤ Joe is proud of you.

[@lousea6760]

People talk about their disease when the "fight is over". I've listened Chp 1 twice. REN discribes us all the disaster the disease is doing & still does on his body & mind. Now I've learned more about Lyme, I do feel concerned about him. I will share Chp 1 to allow the research of LYME treatment getting as much funds as they need. REN I've said your talent has no limits, I'll add your LOVE as well.. RESPECT. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️❤️🇲🇬

[@SashaJamesDion]

Sorry for your loss of Joe, Callum and others RIP but i thank the higher powers, whatever they may be for you that you are still here 🙏. You are a gift and you were put here to make a difference. Thank you Ren ❤❤

[@jishanchoudhury2597]

“For Joe” hits different after hearing that story

[@Jamy1337]

Your voice is so beautiful. I think you are motivating me with your own strenght and I love that. Thanks for sharing your stories,

[@reactivereplays5666]

I don't say this to almost anyone... I love you Ren! You've made me cry more than anyone I can think of, and they are all tears I welcomed... You are amazing Ren, you have already changed the world for the better. I cannot wait to see the rest of your journey man...

[@DebiMaria_]

This! ❤

[@rodb9275]

I couldn't say it any better.

[@justinnube1058]

Dude my eldest son introduced me to your music and i immediately knew there was something special about you, You spoke unbridled truth from a place of not just knowledge but experience and wisdom, now listening to this it all makes sense.. much love young man, keep speaking your truth, keep fighting your fight, the world needs more powerful wise and real voices like yours, As a neural divergent person that’s grown up in the penal colony of our wonderful colonialist overlords that was born in the 70s I’ve lived a very educational life to put it nicely, Without going into details, there’s a reason your music speaks to so many of us, There may be oceans separating oir countries but our blood will always be tied, our “western culture” overlords have got a lot to answer for, Stay strong brother, it takes a lot of courage to share how you do, be proud, I know it’s hard, I know it hurts, and it never goes away, my daughter said to me not long ago, the hurt is a sign of how much we loved them, and that’s something we should be thankful for, we’ll always have good days and bad days, we’ve just gotta keep trying to focus on the good ones and take our lessons from the bad, and keep going for them and for the loved ones we still have here, ❤️

[@Dragonartykay]

Ren. I know it’s difficult for you. But I really think you are the only one who can put stories and feelings and use the perfect words, so it feels like you are telling the stories of others. Don’t give too much of yourself, I know it hard. But your music must be enough for is all. Thank you for your story. We all love you so much. 😘😘😘

[@stephaniegarner943]

Thank you for sharing you and Joe's story 💞

[@MegaPaperaeroplane]

As a mother listening to the song after knowing you showed his mother fucking got me good 😭 Joe’s parents are lucky to have you around ren to write such beautiful music for their boy

[@Toey7819]

No words ❤❤❤❤❤ we all love you ren. Had 2 of my best mates growing up by 12 and what can bring as my parents didn't help me grief and start unfortunately seeing world different x

[@rah5512]

Thank you for your courage to speak your story. As a person who has been trying to write a painful story, I found this beyond inspiring. I swear some of us are earth angels learning to embrace suffering and transmuting it to joy. Bits of your story resonate so deeply, I feel seen.

[@markthompson9914]

How can u sing that without falling apart is beyond me. I’m a mess of tears every time I hear this. From a 57 year old RENagade ✌️&❤️ mate 👍

[@montehill1364]

Dude! I love you. You’re amazing. Hang in there. We need you. Your story blows my mind. You’ve survived more than most would. I’m a survivor too. Never give up. Just keep being you. You are awesome.

[@TheMatthewc89]

I typically never leave comments or do a like of interacting on the Internet. but this is just so powerful. I’ve had a lot of suicide happened around me in my life and struggled with it myself and I too decided no matter what happens. I was going to fight through it or just suffer in silence. because I can never leave my loved ones with the mess that suicide causes to everyone else it’s not fair to them to drag him into my suffering. Your story screams that message, people need to understand. Mental health is so important.

[@KilaKrumpira]

God has put you through a great struggle my friend. That gave birth to this creative sword that you are and that helps millions of people to overcome their problems. I'm telling you this as 45 yo father of 3 who finds comfort in your art and that helps me deal with everyday shit we all get hit by. Thank you and keep rockin' man!

[@paulwilkinson8308]

What you’re doing is of utmost importance. Thank you Ren for having the strength to deal with all the crap you’ve had. Hope Calgary treated you well, from a fellow Canadian you’ve def helped though your music. 🤘

[@GotDangJosh]

Young man you are an excellent storyteller. And your ability to communicate in so many different modalities… You might be what Buckminster Fuller calls… a “Leonardo Type” or a “Comprehensive-ist” (polymath, Renaissance Man). A systems thinker, who can see Symbiotic (Win/Win) Options. I’m meeting more & more young folks who want the option to be Secure (food, water, shelter) & grow their own gardens with some smiling options. Independent of old patterns & inter-dependent on the homesteads near them. A network of people see-ing Symbiotic (Win/Win) Options. Your ability to communicate by being an example of the type of creator you’d like to meet is admirable. It’s all Priorities & Options to see Symbiotic (Win/Win) Solutions. I’m watching THE MONEY GAME PART 1-3. And this, up above, beautifully honest example of what is. All the stories look, feel, & sound like sincerity. Thanks for pursuing worthy endeavors. 1:43

[@ShawnP853]

Oh. My. God. This is beautiful.

[@Sue-m3d]

Absolutely, unbelievably heartfelt..I wonder do you realise ren what a powerhouse of talent and inspiration you are ..Irish hugs 🇮🇪

[@jamesmartin6426]

We love you thanks for your music and sharing your stories with us something we need Ive been pretty bad Dr don't know shit so quit going guess just listen to music and live got to stay up keep going God bless you and your music and the person you are

[@francesdoll4039]

Sharing an endless hug for you and all who feel alone.

[@CosmicVagabondPixie]

Beautiful Much Love To You

[@Christinescotty]

I feel you’re pain 😢well done for this ❤xx

[@laurensparanormalreviewsan860]

I have just discovered you ❤ you are fabulous. I h8 new artists but i love you ❤ and your music. I lived in wales. My brother and sister go to uni in cardiff

[@Alan_Duval]

So incredibly touching.

[@BethaneyLilly]

Even your reading is melodic. ❤ Thank you, being this vulnerable & sharing so much of yourself requires such self-reflection determination & strength.

[@fraserbordeleau9140]

That’s tough shit. Your honesty and straightforwardness has helped me look at myself and my own losses in a more connected way. Your music and who you are have such a beneficial impact on us all. God bless

[@dianneshenton1262]

I hope Ren realizes he already has changed the world (yet I know he has more to do). This 50-something woman in Maryland is grateful for his contribution to humanity; everything from here is just gravy. His musical talent is other-worldly, but he is also an amazing philosopher. I am so sorry for all he’s gone through and I am humbled by the man it produced.

[@sisnaustinyazzie-mcdonald1282]

Feels like your telling my story, Love you man. this song is on my music playlist

[@Bunny-bi8dj]

Thank you for sharing your story REN, this will help so many who hear it including me. 💙💙💙

[@wendybmore]

Ren, you are a phenomenal human being. Your love, vulnerability and music is reaching all of us.. and it’s healing us! Your strength and courage are like keys that are opening so many locked hearts and minds. You are a True Heart and a Warrior for Love and Healing. I commend you , I applaud you and your bravery, resilience and dedication. It’s so weird to have these feelings come through a screen ( from a stranger, no less) but your Love is that powerful, it makes my heart recognize what true and beautiful love is again. I love you! I feel your love and your heart, and it’s Divine. You are a Gift and my prayer is that you get to enjoy the gift of life and love that you are so freely giving us. You deserve it all. I am giving you the best and most epic hug, you can even keep it in your pocket for rainy daze. I honor your walk. I am humbled by it and give you all the love in my heart. Well, not all, gotta keep some for me but I’m pretty unlimited in that area. 🥰And maybe let’s not take on allll the darkness and evil in the world on your own, that’s a tall task . There are others that will fight right along side of you. We are out here! ❤️💪Thank you for sharing your soul with us, it’s beautiful. I’m so sorry about your friend, it really is a heartbreaking experience. More Love, Power and Blessings to you! ❤️

[@CaEkJu]

fuck man, with what you've been through you deserve everything positive that will ever come your way in the future.

[@ingymedia]

WOW! I'm blown away. Your wisdom and understanding of life and self coping and honesty is brilliant and you're teaching this old dog new tricks. Thanks for being real. Sincerely, Ingelbert

[@Tinks71]

You are very brave Ren , from someone who silently suffers i truly hope this helps everyone, and please make sure to give Ren space as he has to reheal himself it will be like opening a wound and pouring salt on it . We keep shit buried in hopes never to let it visit , i have been misdiagnosed, and told i was bi-polar ugh .. much love and respect Again thank you Ren

[@TheLizItIs]

I’m so proud of you for your transparency, courage, and resilience. Thank you ren.

[@MrsCassieToots]

Today's been a roller coaster of emotions. I attended my aunt's funeral. Too sudden and too soon, yet after 30 years finally reunited with her son. He died of an accidental overdose age 20. Hugging my family and feeling their love was profound and filled my heart. Then I arrived home to some wonderful photos of my 6 year old autistic granddaughter, beaming from ear to ear. Things have been hard lately for my daughter. Raising a child with special needs alone. And my first thought regarding my granddaughter was "I hope the world is kind to her". I hope she smiles forever. This video of Ren sharing his life and some of those terrible dark moments caused me to break down. Life can be so cruel. And I only pray we learn to start lifting eachother up, and hug eachother more. Hug eachother TOO much. As you never know when it will be the last hug you receive from someone ❤

[@nelb55]

Your daughter isn’t raising her daughter alone, they have you, with you both in her life your Granddaughter is Blessed and loved so much xx

[@MrsCassieToots]

@@nelb55 Thank you 😊

[@raluvibes]

I just found your music. It is something else. You are something else. I will keep you in my prayers from now on. Please keep it going, no matter what! Love you! 🙏🏻 You’re making a difference.

[@Hexenkind1]

Thank you so much Ren. Cannot imagine how hard it must have been. This will help and inspire people. Hope everything will be in book form to purchase one day. I am sure many would appreciate it and give you something back in the process. We love you and we are here for you. Always.

[@porthmeor1]

There will be a film....

[@Hexenkind1]

@@porthmeor1 I know he plans nextflix stuff for a while. But he never said what.

[@CuddoTheBudda]

❤ ❤ much love brother your words hit home just the fact you have the balls to tell your storie means alot big up ren much love

[@schuhschrank947]

Thank you, Joe, for saving Rens live ❤

[@williamkeith8740]

Absolutely

[@Veeliscious]

🙏 Joe's light lives on in Ren, who in turn shines that light & ignites, inspires & touches others' lives, some of whom who also now live on thanks to Ren 💖

[@clemmie1275]

Ren we love you! Thank you for sharing your story with us. It's inspiring to see someone share their story so honestly x

[@pollyannakarina]

Love the Aldous Huxley reference at 2m30s, Ren. He was the hero of the intellectual awakening of my 20's and his brilliant mind has stayed with me in the following 3 decades, even though I haven't read his books for many years. "After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music" Aldous Huxley Music At Night book 1948 Bless you Ren, you are a messenger for the best side of humanity. Here is another Aldous quote for you, Ren. "The secret of genius is to carry the spirit of the child into old age, which means never losing your enthusiasm". That's you, that is, Ren.

[@loneyb11]

Matthew 18 - Jesus was asked “who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?”. I’ll tell you the truth: unless you have become like this little child, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”

[@AgyWilson]

Brave, that's for sure. And I think you beget love and understanding-at least you do that for me. Without going into my "sob" story, I will share that you've reinvigorated and restored much of the best parts of me, and I am emboldened now to re-dedicate myself to my "powers". I'm happy I got to meet and see this side of you Ren Gill. For the record, I think the Welsh are among the most magical people on this place. Thank you.

[@KarinaBarley]

Ohh Ren - the heartache. Someone else in the comments said “thank you Joe for saving Ren’s life”. I concur - your music, poetry & wisdom needs to be shared with the world. Much love & a big hug.

[@sandiewells8697]

Thank you Ren for being you. If there is anyone out there that can show people the way, then it is you. I am nearly seventy and you have certainly done that. So thank you once more young man. I hope that your future is as magnificent as you. Sending lots of love and wishes and lots of granny hugs xxxxxxx

[@kellyt5341]

💯

[@vic.taurus]

What A Strong, Inspiring Human Being You Truly Are Mr Gill 🥺🙏👑 Beautifully Written & Heartwarming Story ❤️ Rest In Love And Peace Joe 🤍🪽

[@strive4impact]

You are a legend and an inspiration Ren. Thank you. ❤ I'm so sorry for your loss. And you’ve turned it into beauty.

[@bobbystowe980]

If there was a perfect interpretation of an angel this man is the perfect representation of what we need in this worl, Ren! we need more of you!No homo or super fan but I love you dude, I really do and I hope and pray you reach all of us who struggle day to day man, again we all love you!

[@nixpuk75]

I'm only 6 minutes in but I have to say the following before it gets lost...I relate completely to so much of what you have said so far. Although I'm much older than you, our lives have some kind of parallel theme, like our thoughts run in tangent. I've felt an outsider with an undefined mission most of my life. Which is why, when I first watched Hi Ren, about 18 months ago, I was so relieved to find a kindered soul who thought along very similar lines about important things. I'm so glad that you really are that person. Edit at the end of this chapter. I love this song from the first moment that I heard it. So beautiful and moving and honest from the first hearing and always. Love you man and I'm much happier and a little sadder, for that. Thank you my friend ❤

[@juelz5844]

thank you REN. Es fällt mir schwer meine Gefühle in Worten auszudrücken, noch schwerer in Englisch als in Deutsch. Du berührst mein Herz. Deine Musik kam auch bei mir zu einem Zeitpunkt an dem der Schmerz am größten war, zwar endlich diagnostiziert aber mit dieser Beigeschmack des Leidens der letzten Jahre. Auch bei mir wurde die Psyche verantwortlich gemacht für meinw ‚Symptome‘ obwohl der zeitliche Ablauf anders herum war - die psychischen Probleme kamen als mir immer wieder gesagt wurde, ich hätte ‚nichts‘. Wir hEDS Patienten nennen uns 🦓 weil bei Hufgetrappel immer alle erstmal an Pferde denken - wir aber auch Hufe haben. Unsere Symptome sind vielseitig, es ist eine Bindegewebserkrankung. If you can‘t find the issue, think connective tissue…. Das wusste ich sogar, weil ich 4 Jahre lang in der Histopathologie gearbeitet habe. Aber es kam mir nicht in den Sinn, das auf mich selbst zu beziehen. Es wäre leicht sich jetzt als dämlich zu bezeichnen, aber damit höre ich geade auc. Alle Schritte führten zu diesem Punkt in meinem Leben. Deine Geschichte in all ihrer Klarheit, dein Ärger und deine Worte helfen mir im Heilungsprozess. Wir singen deine Lieder hier in Deutschland, bei unseren Mini Brun Fest gab es schon letztes Jahr einen Tribut für dich. Also nochmals, danke. Ich werde weiter zuhören 🫶

[@DogDocKat]

Thank you for your bravery in telling your story and helping us to feel less alone. Sending love and hugs 💜💜💜

[@malinhobbs2745]

There are no words for me to tell you how your story and the person you are affect me. So many emotions run through me while you read this first chapter of your story. I see how the feelings inside you are taking on a physical form as you read and how hard this must have been for you. You already had my respect and love, I don't know how you can gain even more but you do, by being you and telling your truth to the world, to try and make it better for those of us that suffer ❤ Never stop being you ❤ The world needs more people like you!

[@kimberlyallen6582]

Thank you for sharing your story. It takes courage to stand up and do so. I was taught in my medical training to always listen to the patient. If they tell you something is wrong in their body, believe them. Don't write them off or dismiss them. The way I practice medicine is to keep searching for answers until I find them. It is a blessing to me to be able to work with patients like you who have been dismissed and traumatized by our medical system. I recommend your videos and music to my patients. Thank you for your inspiration.

[@Emilie-one]

Thank you for being so open. You mentioned that when you put so much out there about yourself you’re giving away part of yourself and leaving yourself with less with the hope that you can help people. I just hope you understand how much you help other people. You’ve made a profound change in a lot of peoples’ core, beliefs and values. I see more kindness,kind acts and more people helping other people in your name. You are a very special person. I hope you know how much you are loved❤

[@ingvarsveinsson4753]

God bless you, keep you and pretect you Ren. what a talent you are and using that so well.

[@peterbadham1875]

Love you, as a 47-year-old who has gone through and am still going through similar symptoms as you, but not the same as you and your past. You are so brave to do what you do. It was even really hard for me to say if should I comment on this and self-indulge that I had similar stuff. You are breaking all boundaries and helping people like me, and I am sure so many others as well are benefiting for your talent. Thank you x

[@lairx]

It is good of you to open up and I do not feel this to be self-indulgent. Ren has shown many of us that acknowledging our pain, our fear, our insecurity, our loneliness... is the first step towards healing. By opening up to others, to us, you enable yourself to heal and to love - yourself and others. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. And thank you, Ren, for being. You matter.

[@kelliecurtin467]

Thank you for being brave enough to comment.

[@andyboudier6537]

I suffer bro. Suicide thoughts and noise. Had my 2nd bike crash 4years ago had face reconstruction.six hours of stitches. thank you and well done.your words are helping me big style. Keep safe geeza.

[@jenthomson639]

Did anyone else just cry for the entire 19 minutes and 17 seconds? Thank You Ren. I needed that. ❤‍🔥

[@KathleenGillan-h4l]

I did shed a few !!! Honrstky Ren he is defo goin places and all the best luck fir him & his Crew🎉 enjoy life guys have a great time, well done to u all👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏☮️💜⭐️❤❤❤

[@annaashmore5968]

Wow, I have just heard the pain and love of the world. Just thank you. ❤

[@SpeedyE420]

Sometimes all it takes is one voice to stand out in the dark to save someone. Thank you for being that voice for so many. No one can change the world or save everyone on their own but thank you for devoting yourself to doing what you can.

[@leonardhaddlesey517]

Absolutely fucking brilliant Ren....i love it....what a memoriam ❤

[@davidleonard3175]

I have chronic arthritis and have had 17 major operations (mostly joint replacements). I was a perfectly healthy 10 year old boy who came home from football training. I went to bed and the next day I woke up with full blown arthritis. Nobody knows how or why it happened but it did. I can relate to feeling like you’ve woken up in the wrong body, that this isn’t normal. I can also relate to people telling you it will go just as quickly as it arrived. People say it to bring comfort but when you suddenly feel so alien it’s hard to feel that there will be any positive outcome. I’d love to talk one on one with you but your music on its own is such a huge comfort for me, especially since you articulate things in a way that I never could. Thank you, @RenMakesStuff Your content means more than I could ever express

[@ShoSoul]

thank you so much Ren for giving this system the ability to persist with your music. We teared up.

[@kaycarter6389]

I defo use your music as a companion I get my mental health people to listen to to try get them to understand some stuff yeh I don't have lymes but the mental health struggles and other psyical issues that's similar to your struggles psychosis is a bitch the worse but your words are strong thanks for sharing all this you keep doing you cuz your helping so many that bit at beginning shows you care so much

[@treeboar711]

Man, that's the most graceful and loving way I've ever heard "Leave me and mine the fuck alone" expressed. Inspirational again 👍

[@Natalie-Smith-1111]

I respect you Ren 💯

[@cassu2837]

Mad respect for you Ren. Thank you for sharing this.

[@bethanyblackburn9967]

I have eds, pots, MCAS…. This means the world to me! Gives me hope to fight and strive to be healthy as possible. 8 months a go I found you and ur music. And u gave me the strength to continue my fight. Thank u! For everything u do and continue todo. I know it comes at a price. So take care of yourself and do what you need todo to be happy! Keep it up brother! We ❤ u!

[@averagegamer1185]

Hello Bethany, my mother has been told she has POTS after she had a serious CSF leak, please can you explain what it is as we really don't know a great deal about it. Thank you, have a bless day ❤

[@bethanyblackburn9967]

Pots is postural orthostatic tachycardia. So that means that my blood pressure drops and my heart rate goes up when my body changes positions if I sit in one position too long like in a car with my legs hanging down all the blood will pool in my legs and it will start to hurt. This also makes it very hard to stay hydrated because your blood just doesn’t seem to absorb what you drink so you have to drink a lot of electrolytes, salt, potassium, magnesium. I have a very high sodium diet and I’m constantly drinking something. I would really search dysautonomia. There are a lot of things that can help but it takes a lot of time. I would recommend getting compression garments and looking into electrolyte drinks and salt tablets. And watching carbs when you eat.

[@CKEFAMREACTS]

The chapters were all a tough watch, as an empath I found myself emotional, what a beautiful pure soul you are Ren ❤