why we suddenly disappeared from youtube

[@CharlesAlyssaForever]

Hi everyone, Charles and Alyssa here. 🌟 We want to take a moment to thank each and every one of you for your patience and support. This video was not easy to make, but we felt it was important to share our story with you. Remember, it’s okay to take a break and focus on your well-being. We’re all in this together. If you’ve ever faced similar challenges, feel free to share your experiences or words of encouragement in the comments. 💕 #StrongerTogether

[@ry4071]

WE LOVE YOU 💕💕FOREVERRRR ♾️

[@jqf284]

Love you two so much 🙏❤❤ #ForeverSquad 😊

[@jennamartin4098]

❤

[@12345FGFFG]

It's ok your humans too

[@claudettclaassens7365]

Take as much time as you need we will wait Lots and lots of love ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@onyx_96]

before i continue the video, don’t ever feel obligated to apologize for taking a break, we know you’re normal humans and deal with your own issues on a day to day basis so there’s no need to apologize ❤️

[@naressia]

Frl

[@beautiful.disaster423]

This is what I’m saying too 🤍

[@itsNadia444]

Yes

[@SweetPea92]

I think it's for all the a*sholes that were leaving comments on their social media saying "You OWE us an explanation because you'd have NO money if it weren't for us!!" 😒 ALL those comments used to piss me off soooooo bad!! I'm glad they also have UNDERSTANDING fans who love them enough to be patient & give them the grace they deserve!! 🙌🏼🥰❤

[@emilygarofano4399]

This!!

[@najiyahmarieshakir2209]

When Alyssa broke down about her dad, I cried with her. I hope you both find peace and prosperity and keep growing together. Rip Scott ❤️

[@samanthasamanthaaa]

Same 😭 I was bawling!! Losing your dad is a different type of heart break, definitely just wanted to reach through the screen and give her a hug!!

[@kenziemorace2837]

Me to

[@kenziemorace2837]

@@samanthasamanthaaame to

[@thewaterycrab5216]

Same!! I broke down like it was my dad. I really felt that pain 😢

[@Moon_salty]

Yeah, I just wish Charles could sit a few inches closer to her. She's falling apart over dad, and he's all cold, sitting a foot away from the women he loves. She needs closeness more than she needs a tissue. Charles is emotionally distant and self-serving. I feel bad that Alyssa always seems like she goes through crap alone

[@trinityeliz]

Grief has no timeline. You learn to live without them, but you never get over it. Prayers for both of you 🙏🏾

[@ms.trueheart6302]

I love how you put that....

[@trinityeliz]

@@ms.trueheart6302 thank you!

[@michelle7514]

If you simply cannot understand why someone is grieving so much, for so long, consider yourself fortunate that you do not understand ❤ Thanks for the likes 👍

[@thalassophile8398]

Best comment i read in a long time..and it is depressing and comforting at once

[@cosmictyger]

Well said.

[@katelynl3420]

Yes exactly. Grief has no timeline. It ebbs and flows. It’s a new normal and it’s one day sometimes one minute at a time.

[@reginaolivas8814]

I lost my husband at age 23 I raised 4 children alone. I am now 55 and I still have days where I miss him and wonder how life would have been if he was here. I still cry from time to time. It does get easier but never goes away

[@bernadettemartinez82]

I always say, you can’t tell someone how to feel, how love, or how to grieve, you can’t put a time on love or grief or tell someone how long to grieve or how long it takes to love ….everyone is different

[@hannahstewts2104]

Now THIS is why I never unsubscribed. Rest in Paradise Alyssa’s Dad. We are all human. We are all real people. Let’s love and help eachother. #strongertogether

[@lucymckee7518]

Exactly. You just never know what people are going through.

[@aaliyahrasheed2317]

Man soon as she said her dad passed, instantly started balling crying! HE WAS A GREAT MAN! I love you Alyssa gah wish I could hug her!!

[@klm00379]

Same. 😢as soon as she said, knock at the door.

[@cathymc300]

I knew when they called and asked for her address they were sending someone to tell her.😢😢

[@annaburns8793]

I lost my dad a week ago. So I couldn't even finish the video. I read the comments as I was listening. I have to come back to this. 😭❤️ prayers for yall as your not alone

[@kleeshaxo]

Sorry for your loss ❤

[@franki9119]

Wishing you peace and healing. I’m sorry for your loss!!

[@miamilina2295]

Sending you love 💗

[@sherrydalton6516]

I’m so sorry for your loss! 😢🙏🏻

[@e.wilson729]

Praying for you. My condolences to you

[@amandamarie4271]

When she started talking about her dad I cried. I couldn’t imagine losing my parent. I wish you nothing but better days ❤

[@angelstar197831]

I was absolutely lost when I lost my mom almost 6 years ago. I’m so sorry for your loss

[@Lynn-f4g]

Yah to see her cry like that made me break down,she's such a pure good girl it hurts me she experienced a pain that deeply.

[@Lynn-f4g]

​@@angelstar197831I'm a Mother to all girls three are grown my youngest is 17..I just feel I should let you know how much us Mother's love our children, specially our girls.I have always told mine,even in death to know I'm with them and I promise you your Mother is with you spiritually.Our love for y'all is something you'll never understand until you become a Mama.Shes with you and shows you signs,trust me..

[@onetimedream]

Wait, was not her dad visiting them couple months ago? When did he pass?

[@juanitawhite7486]

@@angelstar197831I lost my mom Jan. 1 2000. That is the hardest day of my life. She was my everything and the core of the family. I cry all the time over her. I miss her so much. 😢 So when she broke down when she said she knew what the police officer was at her door for I broke down and felt her pain. I lost my dad when I was 13, had been shopping and when we all got home I was the first to walk in the house and found him. We lost him to a self inflicted gun shot wound. Life is a struggle but I manage. Praying for you because I know your pain. God Bless!

[@corrao.4643]

I had to pause this half way. Alyssa I know you usually don’t check comments but I hope you will read this. As soon as you started talking about getting a bad feeling about your dad I knew where it was going. In September I received a knock on my door as well, telling me my dad was in a car accident and didn’t make it. I’m 23 and this is also the first time I’ve lost someone. I’m so sorry Alyssa, it’s the worst pain I’ve ever experienced. You feel like you’ve been robbed of all these life experiences, he can’t walk you down the isle at your wedding, we don’t get to tell him he’s going to be a grandpa, but most importantly the man who has been there for you your entire life has just vanished. Christmas coming up is also especially hard. I’m just so sorry, losing a parent while you’re young is absolutely gut wrenching and I would like to thank you for sharing this with us, I’m just sitting on my couch crying for us both but know that you aren’t alone ❤️ it’s really hard to find a support system for someone in a similar position and I’m sending lots of love your way. Spend the time to grieve, so far I’ve found it’s best to just let the tears come out when they want to, talk about memories often, and just tackle one day at a time ❤ love you Alyssa, we got this.

[@oneash]

❤️❤️❤️

[@Monsterpeaches97]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my father figure about a month ago. This pain is unreal. He’s my brother in law I was going to have him walk me down the aisle. He died in a car accident too and left behind my sister and niece and nephew. Again I’m so sorry for your loss. I know the word sorry doesn’t do anything it’s not even the right word, I don’t think there is a word that could be used because it doesn’t exist to properly articulate this feeling or show of sympathy for your grief. You’re very wise with the advice of letting the tears come and taking it day by day. You take care of yourself ❤

[@xi1996xi]

My condolences to you, and also had a negative feeling with what Alyssa was saying and I was hoping it wasn't the case but yea. So sooryy.

[@marymaytshikoh]

i can relate to this lost both my Dad n Mom in 2018 in a span of 4months and it still hurts and the pain never goes away completely...support system helps alot.

[@candilease938]

Very good advice! I lost my momma, my very best friend 8 years ago when I was 30! She passed away in my sons 9th birthday and I always swear that she held in for that specific day because she KNEW that as the anniversary of her death rolled around each year I’d focus more in it being my sins birthday than I would it being the most horrific day if my life. Because September 7th was one of the most joyous days of my life! The day I gave birth to my one and only SON! My baby boy! (I have two girls as well) but I think she knew I’d hold in tight ti that instead if dwelling on it being her death date as well! My Momma told me my e tire life that she wouldn’t live to see 55 and she passed away on September 7th just 8 days shy of her 55th birthday! I don’t know how she always knew….but she did! I carry her with me everywhere I go! I can still hear her beautiful voice and see her beautiful smile! I miss her each and every single day! But I believe we will be together again one day…and as much as I miss her and would love to give her the biggest hug I don’t want that to be for a very long time because I pray to live out a long healthy life here on earth and to see my kids have kids one day! And I know she will be watching from Heaven and keeping us all safe!!! ❤❤❤❤ Much love from Maryland!

[@summerladie]

My condolences to Alyssa. I know it’s hard losing a parent. He is looking at you from above. Stay blessed ❤

[@AnarchyDemons]

What was the time stamp ?

[@Girlmama1998]

@@AnarchyDemonswhy wouldn’t you just watch the whole video?

[@christinethivierge7404]

My dad passed too and watching this has brought it all back. You are human and deserve that respect!!❤

[@zhanemaldonado7540]

Charles and Alyssa there is absolutely no need to apologize for your time away. You both were dealing with real life shit and that’s your business. Your fans love you for you. Alyssa, i am heartbroken by the news of your dad’s passing. I know it’s not easy. Especially navigating an autoimmune condition. Charles, you were selfless in taking care of what mattered to you. I know from experience what it is to battle anxiety and episodes of depression. You both were facing burnout that needed to be addressed. I am so excited for this next chapter for you guys. You both deserve happiness ♾️ 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

[@ashleykristen4788]

Omg Alyssa broke my heart when she started talking about her dad. I was trying so hard not to anticipate the outcome. I remember your dad from all the videos he was such a cool nice guy I loved how he always respected Charles and he really loved you both your parents honestly it showed through the videos. I want y’all to hold on to the memories y’all have with him and know he is always with you in spirit !

[@sireeshak1979]

Amen

[@CaitlynMarie-u4s]

I'm 23, I lost my dad last November he was only 51 year old, listening to Alyssa talking about her dad and break down broke my heart💔 it's the worst pain in the world losing a parent, I'm so sorry for your loss 💔😭

[@tayzjuhtv44]

Damn 2023 was hard for everyone. So happy to see you guys turn this around for the better and stayed together through it!🙏🏾

[@samyaahmed7840]

I'm sure this is something that a lot of people believe in anyway, but as a Muslim, tragic incidents are reminders/tests/wakeup-calls. They make you realize how temporary life is, and help us value our time, loved ones and experiences as basic as brushing your teeth in the morning. You guys are SO STRONG!! It is literally so cool to see how you've changed since being back. This shouldn't mean that you guys have "sorted everything out" or are "okay". You guys are ready to be back and that's all that matters. Wishing you guys peace and strength❤

[@samanthamanley7686]

Don’t apologize for being upset about your dad. Grief isn’t easy and it’ll come in waves. Lost mine in 2016 & it still isn’t easy but you learn to cope in your own way❤

[@christinaperez1691]

I agree it comes in waves my dad died 6 weeks ago n somedays im ok but yesterday i woke up feeling like it jus happend today its not easy jus take it day by day n each day try n make it better than the last until u learn how to deal wit ur emotions n still b happy its gna get better its a daily battle but it will get better we jus gotta keep going

[@katiealver5078]

When I lost my dad 6 weeks felt like a day. It takes a while to come out of that fog of grief that you’re in. It doesn’t get easier but the loss get more familiar and becomes easier to cope with. It feels like just yesterday for me but it’s been just over 3years. I get sad thinking about how it’s been three years since I’ve seen him or talked to him. I miss him so much. Things will never be the same but it will get better in its own new way but it will never not be sad. Seeing things like this will trigger it but it will pass faster and be easier to focus on the good times and the memories that make you smile and laugh❤️ I’m sorry for your loss

[@tamechia4098]

🙏🏽 for all of you.

[@colleenniles4238]

I can visibly see the anxiety and stress that you both endured while filming this video. Hypertension and hyperthyroidism are NO JOKE. Coming from a nurse please do not apologize for prioritizing health. I’m so grateful that I have a chance of seeing content later on because you took time and you’re more importantly both alive and well💜💜💜I love you both!!please stay healthy

[@Rbhawk3rd]

If the two of you went through all of this together, you'll last forever. Together through ups and downs, thick and thin.

[@emilybunch4139]

Losing a parent is the hardest thing I've ever went through. Sending yall prayers.

[@jal81087]

Never lost a parent but my daughter passed away in NICU at 5months old. She was a twin and her twin is now 6. But I remember that was the hardest time of my life esp cuz Dr's did like everything but made me make the final decision and omg that was so tough to make but I couldn't be selfish cuz she was in so much pain and couldn't breathe on her own. And worst part is people saying I killed my baby or o it's been 6yrs y r u not over it. But people truly don't understand certain slsituations but it still hurts. But sorry to hear u lost a parent. Thats hard as well. Life's so short.

[@brandypage62]

I'm so sorry about your daddy, Alyssa. My daddy passed away 3 days ago & i don't know how to act or feel. It feels crazy to exist in a world that he isn't in. My prayers are with you & please know you aren't the only one. You definitely aren't alone. ❤️‍🩹🙏🏽

[@emmajane9403]

Awww Brandy I’m so sorry 😢 I found my Dad on the floor in 2015, he had passed away. That day was the worst day of my life. It still feels like yesterday. I miss my Dad so much, I would like to say it gets better but you just learn to deal with the pain better. Then in 2020 my partner took his own life so I’ve been grieving for 8 years 😢 the only advice I can give to you, is make sure you grieve your way, don’t listen to people. If you want to cry, cry and if you want to lay on the sofa in your pjs doing nothing you do that. Everything will go by like you’re in a dream now but I’m sending you the biggest virtual hug ❤❤❤

[@e.wilson729]

Praying for you and your family

[@MeredithJayXoXo]

My dad died two years ago. Nothing hits harder than losing a parent . My heart goes out to you Alyssa ❤️❤️❤️

[@oliviacribbs2354]

I lost my dad in 2020. I’m so sorry for your loss, Alyssa. Grief is definitely not linear. It’ll come and go like waves. Lean on Charles, your friends, family. I pray for grace, strength, and love for you.

[@frankdatankmizzarack6542]

Same lost mine in 2020. It's not easy

[@biancagalvan3777]

This video brought me to tears. I am so extremely sorry Charles and Alyssa. Like I said last video I know god has a plan for you guys. God gives the toughest challenges to his strongest soldiers. There’s nothing but growth and elevation coming. I know big blessing are headed y’all’s way. Charles and Alyssa I’ve been here since the beginning I even was on ft with you guys when you guys were at Brett’s and yessicas. You guys are the most genuine human beings ever honest to god. I love you guys so much your guys energy vibrates and spreads to every single subscriber. Before you guys took your break I had found out I was pregnant with my first born. I sent you guys invites bc I felt you are apart of the fam. She’s now 9months today!! Her name is Illianna!!! I hope one day you guys can do a meet in greet in sac and we can all meet!! So excited to see what’s in store!!

[@dbunker0326]

Alyssa I’m so sorry about your dad. My dad’s name is Scott too and I lost him a few years ago. Hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. 💗 praying for you

[@Emilyytru]

The comment section shows it all we missed you guys so much thank you for coming on here and being open with us we do not deserve y’all !!! We love y’all stay strong and keep shinning !!

[@BriaWalkingInFaith]

Honestly, I literally cried with Alyssa. Grief is hard and unpredictable. Both of you are so strong! You guys have impacted me so much like your videos truly make me happy and during your break I would just go back to old videos to make myself laugh and feel better. God has you all in the palm of his hand your relationship is anointed and will continue to grow. I pray you continue to rise and make it through the tough times together. I’m so so glad you guys are back my heart is so full now 💖

[@kristinau4167]

Losing a parent is so hard. I lost my dad this year on April 23 and it is so hard. I feel your pain. One thing I have learned is there is no timeline to grieve. Having a supportive partner like you have will help. Don’t be sorry about putting yourself first before posting a video.

[@sireeshak1979]

Ya my best friend was killed July 5😢

[@AniceaReid]

I lost my dad on the 29th of April. One day after his birthday. Its the hardest thing I had to go through, given the fact that I lost my mom 15 years ago. As a 27 year old, with 2 kids, I'm always sad and depressed 😢😢

[@juicyg1]

I ost mine 2 days after you lost yours. Xxx

[@jessylei]

I’m not close to my biological father but the father that raised me since I was 5 or 6 years old died 5 years ago and I will always have the memories❤❤

[@ameliawilson1053]

Dear God, thank you for another day. Please watch over my family, friends, and whoever is reading this. I pray you will bless them and keep them safe, Amen.

[@Corynenicole]

I can tell from five seconds in that you guys are going to come back bigger than ever at the quality of this video. Looks amazing. Glad you guys took some time for yourselves.

[@bethanynaylor1720]

My dad was an alcoholic and killed himself when I was 16 years old. When you guys talked about Alyssa's dad passing away it brought back a lot of memories of my dad. This year has been 10 years since he's been gone and it still hurts. Losing a parent is not easy I'm sorry you had to go through that. I am praying for your healing and for your family to get through this. Keep Your Head Up Guys and take as much time as you need to heal. Grieving does not have a timeline.

[@Mtb777]

I lost my dad at 16 from alcohol also. It’s been almost 45 yrs and I still cry over him. You will never get over losing a parent. My mom is 96 now and her turn is coming and I can’t even think about it without breaking down. I don’t know what I will do 😢

[@empresskenya3403]

Alyssa, I’m so sorry for your dad pass that brought me to tears. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things a child can go through. May he Rest In Peace. All humans deserve a break. I’m so happy you all had that time.

[@natalierichardson4365]

So sorry for your loss ❤my deepest sympathy I know how it is I loathe both of my parents I am happy that you are back and safe

[@Shes.Sunkissed]

0:05 wait PAUSE this Camera quality is literally INSANE😭😂omg …but more importantly, im glad yall are okay. I hope your mental health continues to be healthy Charles! Best of luck to you both🩷

[@DestineesDestinations]

Right?! I feel like they are in my room with me! Lol Great camera!

[@angryken]

😢 I’m so sorry about dad Alyssa. Praying for God’s comfort over you and your family❤

[@tasmanholloway1104]

felt this video alot i took months off youtube this year got in a serious car accident .... just got back on man i respect you guys .....

[@Diana-uw9rs]

I’m sorry for your loss Alyssa. May he rest in peace ♥️ He seemed like an amazing man .

[@heatherlowry2835]

Losing a parent is the hardest thing to go through. I lost my mom 2yrs ago and my dad just passed in September so I felt it when Alyssa broke down. Praying for you both

[@Charlieebr0wnn]

I’m terribly sorry for your loss… I lost my mother in July

[@lensieshaw9051]

The sob that came out of Alyssa had me bawling my eyes out. I just want to send you so much love and light and all the good energy. I’m so sorry for your loss! 🩷

[@usmc_sunscreenqueen]

I kept coming back to look for new videos & I was scrolling through the comments when I saw where someone said her father passed. I was crushed for her. My Daddy passed in 2012 & I know how hard it was for me. He was my best friend. I’m so very sorry sweet Alyssa. I’ve been praying for you since I read that comment, but stopped checking for updates until now. God love you both & may your heartache be lifted some in the very near future. Much love from East Tennessee ❤

[@alialandon2912]

I'm so sorry for your loss, guys. It must hurt so bad. I'm glad you took time for your family first.

[@pamelarogers9768]

Losing a parent it’s so hard,I lost both of my parents ,I had to pray to get better,condolences to you all.❤🙏🏾Keep GOD FIRST,DON’t worry about negative people.

[@marygalaviz9022]

Amen

[@swiftwolffff]

I lost my brother in a terrible accident he passed on Thanksgiving this year and so I couldn't even imagine how you guys feel and take all the time you need ❤❤

[@carmenshands7565]

I know how you feel.

[@alyssamckenzie2609]

I’m 24, I lost my mom 6 months ago. Losing a parent is such a shock and a pain I could never imagine. So sorry for your loss and praying for your peace.

[@lskdk1125]

I lost my Mom 21months ago and it still hurts. She was my best friend and life just isn't the same. Losing a parent is so hard at anytime but especially when you didn't know it was coming. My heart broke for her when she started crying and took that deep cry or breath in, I could feel her pain. I'm so sorry you are going through a loss and sorry for her and Charles too. You never get over it, you just learn how to live differently now. Glad they are back but I do get why they took a break.

[@belindaadams15]

I lost my dad 7 years ago couldn't get over it and then is year august I lost my mom😢I'm suffering with grieve

[@gr8nessalways586]

Condolence for your loss. I lost my mom over a decade ago, and I still miss her. Talking to my daughter about her, I can finally laugh as I remember the things she used to say… My prayer is that you can one day exchange your mourning for laughter and thank God for the memories and time you had. 🙏🏽

[@e.wilson729]

My mom passed 6 years ago. I miss her soooo much. It gets easier with time, but I understand how you feel. Take your time. Cry all you need to. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[@e.wilson729]

​@@lskdk1125Praying for you. My condolences.

[@brittanyyramirez]

I bet you guys feel so much relief after filming this. We people who truly care and love you guys, understand! Sorry for your dad's passing, and your disease. I'll pray for you and your families! 👌🫶❤️😘

[@vxnessa96]

I can't describe how happy I am to see you guys 🥹🫶🏼

[@SelfLoveCeo]

I completely understand.. I lost my dad in April 2021 and it had been SO HARD! Alyssa take your time while grieving bc during the grieving process you can allow access to a lot of negative things and people unknowingly bc of grief. I’m so happy that you have Charles there to talk to and process your emotions and grief. You don’t ever have to apologize for grieving. It’s hard AF and I’m still grieving my father

[@feebennett]

I’m so very sorry for your tremendous loss. I’m not even going to pretend to know how y’all feel….I’ve never lost a parent so I definitely can not speak on it. All I can do is send my love, good thoughts and prayers the both of you. I understand that real life happens and you guys do not owe a single one of us shit, period, but thank you so much for choosing to share. ❤

[@darriannthompson6990]

I cried when Alyssa cried. Real talk, I lost my godmother. My mom was an addict growing up, so she was the only positive role model I had growing up. She showed me unconditional love, and I dont think anybody will love me like she did. My days have been dark ever since. I feel you, Alyssa. ❤

[@Mjane_001]

The fact that Allysa could laugh & cry 😢 is just so heartbreaking.....we love you ❤️❤️❤️

[@emlucero0]

YALL!!! AYO You guys went through a LOT please don’t apologize or even feel bad for taking any future breaks I think we’ll all live as long as you guys are ok if your mental goes downhill and we loose you guys we won’t be ok. I’m praying for you guys to have peace and tranquility ❤️ I have mad respect for you guys after this I love how RAW and unedited it was!

[@saharaabdirahman8646]

Got me emotional watching this video, I'm sorry for your father passing Alyssa. I missed you guys so much!! the only KZbin couple I actually enjoy watching! You both look amazing

[@StephanieOusley-xv2wl]

This is the most transparent video, besides Charles last video on his mental health. I love how real you guys are being with us. We will always love & support you! Alyssa, I am so sorry for your loss. You broke my heart talking about your dad, but just remember you will see him again in the next life and he is ALWAYS watching over you. After all of the bad luck and negativity you guys went through, you have the most amazing Angel watching over you now. We love you all so much.

[@kimberlyjones9184]

I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS BEING REAL WITH US, AND I’M SOO GLAD YOU GUY’S TOOK A BREAK FOR YOURSELVES!!!!!! NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE!!!!! TRUE OG’S SUPPORT REGARDLESS!!!!!!! Did you guys move?? You guys LOOK GREAT THO!! You definitely do!!! Omg 😱 I’M SOOO SORRY 😭 Scott seemed like such a great guy, definitely had a sense of humor!!! I instantly started crying whenever you said the cop showed up at your house omg I couldn’t imagine Alyssa! So sorry

[@bridget4125]

Sometimes the universe has a way of bringing you to a dead stop. It’s always smart to listen to what it’s trying to tell you. Sounds like that’s exactly what you did. ❤

[@TT.3123]

So true. This happened to me I lost everything but it’s all being restored to me now, years later.

[@MadelineJune_Butterfly]

I normally don’t get personal on shit like this but I love you guys so much and feel the need to share 💞 I didn’t find you guys until last year, I didn’t ever really get on any of my social media accounts enough to “follow” any specific content creators.. but I loved you guys from the jump- I have always been able to see the genuinely beautiful souls you guys have.. 2022 was the hardest year of my life- which in general has been filled with trauma from a very young age.. when I found you guys, I literally would get on Facebook or KZbin solely for your content, because it was an escape for me like Charles said..At that time I had just gotten clean (I am recovering addict) been put through several situations that were very fucked up and I won’t go into detail about them but I got so depressed I wasn’t even getting out of bed, like ever, I wasn’t showering, either wasn’t eating, or over eating, wasn’t working, just wasn’t taking care of myself at all… I would get on and watch all your old videos that I had never seen, for hours. lol. Definitely an escape, and on top of that you guys showed me the kind of love that I didn’t know I deserved, through your relationship, because even though you guys have had your struggles, your love is beautiful. Eventually I gained the strength to go to mental health treatment and through that experience and a lot of different support networks I have been able to heal and am doing better than I have ever been. You guys were such a huge support and coping mechanism during that very dark time and for that I am forever grateful. I’m so sorry for the loss of your dad, grief is a nasty bitch and most of the time all over the place, there are 7 stages to grief but they are not linear, and there is no wrong way to grieve! Everyone experiences it differently, and everyone heals differently, and you are right where you’re supposed to be. ♥️ I very much respect you guys for being so vulnerable with your followers.. you guys should never feel bad for doing what’s best for you- you guys are people too, and you can’t pour from an empty cup. ♥️ and honestly, you’re not obligated to explain yourselves at all- always going to be people stirring shit up and being as negative as they can about literally everything- fuck em. You guys are fucking amazing humans and you are loved!! Rock on 🤘🏻

[@raymman5408]

Y’all don’t have to apologize y’all are human beings that have real life and real problems to deal with stay healthy stay safe stay strong stay focused 🙏🏽

[@mollielabarre8554]

Just so happy you guys took time out for yourselves. So glad to see you back!!!!!

[@calie1299]

Seeing Alyssa start to cry, broke me. I am so sorry that you’re having to go through that grieving process. It’s tough. I see you. Love you both.

[@Hunterwilkinss18]

My momma passed away September 1st of this year unexpectedly. I cry probably every day, missing her. That pain is so hard to explain.. i love y’all, always have❤️ keep your head up beautiful!!

[@e.wilson729]

Praying for you and your family

[@beeweezee71888]

My God I am so sorry for your father passing. This year have been incredibly challenging for alot of people. I lost my mother this past Summer and up to this day I still grieve because she was the only ones that raise us me and my siblings. So, I totally understand the pain. Trust me he in heaven watching down on you guys. That's the only thing that let's me sleep knowing my mother soul with God in peace. Thank God you have each other to support one another! 🙏

[@annj.7138]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother. May she rest in peace 🙏

[@veramartincova8402]

Sorry for your lost 😢

[@beeweezee71888]

@@veramartincova8402 thank you!

[@emilymccusker6772]

Alyssa ✨ You’re strength and resilience never goes unrecognized and your dad is such a hoot! He is never forgotten

[@anisetalarsen2886]

I’m so sorry Alyssa my deepest condolences!! I lost my Dad 1 year ago. And my mom in 2010. It’s painful. Big hugs!!! May God watch over you two! 🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@mariacordello4994]

I personally went through the almost exact same situation with my father in Florida this year while I was living in NY- going back and forth so much to get him right. He eventually passed away in July. Keep your head up, love you guys. There is no time limit on grieving. ❤

[@geannittiguerra4678]

Sending warm hugs Alyssa! 😢 you have such light for others that it hurts to see you hurt! Thank you Charles for being her shoulder! Missed you all ! ❤will keep you all in my prayers

[@CharlesAlyssaForever]

Thank you so much!

[@victhevirgo]

Thank you guys for being so vulnerable and transparent with us! We have missed you guys !

[@FineAfter30]

Whewww grief is such a complex "thing". I lost my dad a year ago last month and I'm still crying, still hurt, still haven't outburst at the most random moments. I dont think this is something you could ever "get over" like people say you will in time. Time changes nothing but only makes it even more real. Losing one half of what created you and brought you into this world is a wild realization. Sending you both luvv, light, and healing energy because I feel y'all pain on so many levels. ✨️💜

[@jal81087]

Been 6yrs for me since my 5month old passed. And I get judged to this day by others saying it's been 6yrs y r u not over it. Grief is so complex tho and everyone processes it differently. 😢

[@MzBrownSkn11590]

I instantly started boo-hoo crying after Alyssa mentioned the story about her dad. So sad. Praying you guys continue to be strong, and healthy mentally, and physically

[@MaryKlaudaBeauty]

i lost my dad last year and it’s the hardest thing to go through, is losing a parent 💔🥺 i’m so sorry for your loss Alyssa, even just watching this made me cry and think about my dad too. it’s something that no one can prepare you for. 😢 he will always be with you no matter what ❤

[@breannabortner4556]

This year has been tough. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in July, I’m only 30. I do know that when life throws you these curveballs you go deep spiritually and find your purpose. Love seeing you two healthy and glowing on the other side of all your trials ❤

[@yves7562]

God has a purpose for.. He is not done working on you He is healing you ❤ love😘🫂

[@itsgia_1]

Honestly no need to apologize. Hopefully everyone understands why y’all had to take such a long break. I had lost my uncle this year and the place we stayed at got ruined by a tornado as well, it hurt so much because life was already going downhill and I went into a dark place and didn’t speak to anyone. We are all here for you guys with love and prayers❤🙏🏼

[@april4liasophia]

I'm sorry for your loss. I was 26 when my dad passed away suddenly (he was 49, aortic aneurysm). I understand everything you are going through. I still cry, I cried watching you get your tattoo. I feel it doesn't get easier, you just learn to adjust to your new chapter. Lots of hugs and prayers!

[@micaelafuller6850]

I also have been battling mental health issues this year, and this video taught me it’s ok to not be ok, I just got diagnosed with endometriosis/endomyosis and am having a laparoscopic surgery on the 22nd of December!! 🙏❤️ prays and healthy health/ mentality all 2024 !!

[@MandyAliens]

Praying for you ❤

[@micaelafuller6850]

@@MandyAliens thank u so much ! Xo 💋

[@peaceamp6037]

Grief is never over, I lost my daddy in 2020 I talked to him the day before he died, we only talk once a month cause he’s a busy man. They didn’t find him till 3 weeks later. I’m his only child. I’m still grieving till this day. Big hugs Alyssa

[@natnathello]

I am sending you a BIG SQUEEZE!!

[@peaceamp6037]

@@natnathello Thank you ♥️

[@MecheleLove]

I lost mine in 2020 too. Found out through Facebook..

[@sexybrets]

@@MecheleLove😢😢xoxo

[@onesweetday64]

Editing this to say I just got to the part where Alyssa breaks down and..😢💔 that’s really heartbreaking. I can’t imagine what it’s like to lose a parent, I haven’t yet and I am terrified of it ALL the time.. try and keep your head up guys and TAKE ALL THE BREAKS YOU NEED❤❤ 1. I’m sorry for your loss 2.-to everyone who made the “we ‘DESERVE’ (🙄) a response/you could at least give us an update/you wouldn’t be where you are now without us, etc.” comments on most of their most recent videos…now y’all here going “oh don’t ever apologize for taking a break”…. ?! Idek what to say beside y’all (commenters) are fake af I guess, which is lame. These 2 individuals that you’re watching are human, just like you. They can take a break without an explanation and WITHOUT all the fake bs when they do come back and finally make a video..🙄🙄

[@inuyashaanime90]

thank you for sharing and being so raw with us. I remember watching yall 4 years ago and was curious what’s up. I appreciate yall

[@priscillaharper65]

I hope that mama Hyde is okay and has support. This is heartbreaking.

[@sakiracoleman7489]

Lifting y’all up in prayer that this can be a year of peace and healing ❤

[@nicolecoto4908]

I missed watching y’all’s videos! Glad to see that you guys are doing a lot better and I love that you guys both took time off KZbin to get better and thrive on your own for a while ! Thank you and we are excited to see this video and getting content back after 10 months!

[@katherinesmith4507]

Instant break down 😭 lost my daddy 09/05/21… it still hits me hard at different moments… prayers for strength and I hope your daddy leaves you little signs all over the earth like my daddy does for me. ❤ 18:43

[@M.BeauTfull87]

I’m so happy yall are back ❤ Alyssa , I’m so sorry to hear your dad passed away😢 I lost my dad in 2009 . I’m praying for you guys …. There is no time frame on grief … take whatever time you need

[@Lizzfest]

You guys are amazing and an inspiration to so many. This is a little out of pocket but I'm so proud of you both. Making the conscious effort to step back, acknowledge where things are wrong, and then take the proper steps to heal and mend all while nurturing a relationship is amazing. Wherever life (or KZbin) takes you, whether you post or not, know that so many of us believe in you and are cheering you on

[@theburnettfamily8834]

I’m sorry about your dad Alyssa 🥺 he seemed like such a great dad in the video, I always wished my dad was like yours when I’d watch the videos. One thing for sure is that he loved both of you & now he’s guiding you from heaven. Y’all have been through so much, I’m so sorry. 🤍

[@jujuc945]

I lost my dad a year ago. I feel the hurt. Loosing a parent will break you. He was an awesome dad ! So glad we got to see him on here

[@rosetati1988]

I'm literally balling my eyes out. I lost my Mom last month, the week of Thanksgiving. I cry constantly, grieving isn't easy when you lose a parent. This pain is the worst feeling 😞 I've ever gone through. I want to thank you guys for making this video, but never apologize for taking a break. I still re-watched your old videos as if they were new. I will continue to be a supporter forever! Ain't no breaking up! ❤

[@skye8031]

I’m so so sorry ❤️I’m sending love to you and your family

[@DamonHalley]

Praying for your healing queen

[@rosetati1988]

Thank you 💗 both so much.

[@Imspiffyyy]

Praying for you I lost my mom the day after Christmas. It still hurts to prepare for Christmas.

[@rosetati1988]

@@Imspiffyyy, Oh no. I'm praying 🙏🏽 for your healing. As I prepare for this holiday, I hope and pray that it's happy thoughts of the times me and my Mom shared ❤️.

[@heathercripe5573]

As someone who has lost their mother, I understand your pain. My heart is with you both ❤

[@jamiebyers4357]

I’m so glad you guys are back but never feel obligated to share anything you don’t want to share. Your true supporters will understand. I’m so very sorry to her about your dad Alyssa. Losing a parent is one of the hardest things you will ever go through. I lost my mom and then lost my dad a couple years later it was a very bad situation and the worst couple of years of my life. I feel like I’m just now getting my life on track. I have also been having a lot of health issues. I’m a single mom to three kids two which are older and my youngest just turned 17. I also have a grandson who is 2 who I help my daughter with. His dad passed a little over a year ago in a horrible accident. Just know I am thinking of you and Charles both. I pray all the hard times are behind you guys and that you both are happy. Love, prayers, and hugs to you both!!❤

[@amandaortiz1938]

You both honestly look like you grew up over the last year. I’m so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent kills a part of your soul that nobody understands until it happens. Welcome back and thank you for being real!

[@angryken]

I’m sorry you guys went through a lot this year. Keeping you both in my prayers. Keep the faith Fam! All these things will only make you stronger in life.

[@sharky1154]

Losing a parent is one of the hardest things in this world! Losing someone so close to you, is hard period!! I lost my dad when I was 10 and it was sudden. I’m now 37 and there’s not a day that I don’t ever think about him!! It’s a process!! I love you guys both, and as a supporter I appreciate your realness!! You both are beautiful people!! Much love and God bless you both!

[@JasmineLizardo-p4o]

I’m so sorry for your loss Alyssa 😢 I’ve been watching you all since 2019 and seeing you like this was heartbreaking . You two never have to apologize for anything to us viewers , y’all sanity and health is more important.

[@gracenilana2578]

Charles you changed so much! You ve matured and you look at peace

[@victoriadiaz5084]

There was no need to share with us about what happened, but you guys did and we appreciate it. It's understandable of everything you guys dealt with to be off KZbin. Keep doing you guys! We love Alyssa and Charles 💝 Happy Early Holidays! If you guys are up to it, doing a little bit of holiday decor might also be self healing and could make you guys feel relieved and relaxed. Always remember if you guys don't take care of yourselves who else will. This is something my mom has always told me. Welcome back ❤️ You guys were missed.

[@mikluvin4633]

You two are so wholesome. Not only wholesome, but genuine. But that’s why the channel is popular (= Take the time you need to stay happy, and also take the time you need to get through life issues. I can guarantee we will all be here for your next upload. Wishing yall the best.

[@jordanerickson5439]

Alyssa, my heart is breaking for what you’ve been through. I am so sorry to hear about your dads passing. He was so special. Sending you guys so so so so much love and light

[@AmsElizabeth28]

Never feel you need to apologise for putting both of yours, health first, physical, mental, emotional - all of it! My heart goes out to you losing your Dad, I've been there.. one moment at a time 💜 sending you both lots of love from Australia x

[@cyrenamaldonado]

I didn’t think I could like you guys more than I did, but I do. The respect for you guys has grown tremendously. You didn’t have to give us any details but we appreciate it and respect it. Alyssa, I’m so sorry for your loss. Your beauty is truly breathtaking - inside and out. Charles, your growth is incredible and admirable. So much respect! Welcome back - can’t wait to see what’s to come! Only up from here🙏🏻❤️

[@marisaburns4720]

Alyssa - I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is a HUGE thing to have to go through. ☹️💔 You are in my thoughts & prayers. I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult it has been; grief is very complex & such a process. You are so strong & resilient & just know your dad will continue to be so proud of you for everything you’ve accomplished. ❤

[@ucheedochie3475]

Wow. Good to see you guys again. Lovely couple. I am glad you are both doing alright. My condolences to Alyssa for losing her dad. Tough. More strength, happiness and growth to you.

[@justlacee3474]

Alyssa, I am so sorry for the loss of your father. I fear the day that I feel what you’re going through.