Cheerleader shot herself in chest, shares powerful story

[@yomille82]

I suffer chronic anxiety, ocd, and depression since 14. Hearing your story takes me back to my suicidal attempt..That's when my world turned upside down...Heard the voice of God in my deepest despair. Haven't looked back since. God is so loving to save a wretched sinner like me. God bless you and keep, thank you for sharing your story.

[@arielkozak]

The first thing you did wrong was declare that you have those things. Unless your faith is in it you will experience it. Have faith that you don't have anxiety or will not have it soon. The moment I stopped saying I'm Ariel I have anxiety depression and an alcoholic. It stopped controlling me. 3 years clean from drinking and I don't have to remind myself of who I was

[@joeydaniel3053]

@@arielkozak sometimes these things just come upon you wether you believe in it or not. You must pray against these thoughts, you must seek the Lord and confess your sins and wait on the Lord until God gives you the victory over this satanic assault.

[@yomille82]

@@joeydaniel3053 🎯🙏✝️

[@perrycoffey5410]

How about ask god if he's a gd dinner Jesus Chris st what is it with people like you your god is a sadistic psychopath who needs a rimjob because he's really sexually frustrated

[@zavinovacka]

Thank you for your testimony! It is so valuable! Praise Lord! ❤🧡💛💜

[@longtabsigo]

When the, very few, survivors of Golden Gate Bridge jumpers were interviewed, every one of them said that they regretted their decision as soon as they stepped off the bridge! I hate to think of those hundreds of people who regretted their decisions, but only for a few seconds. Emma, thank you for your strength, those of us that have been in that moment, know the feeling…I’m so glad you are here young lady. You will save others’ lives.

[@houseofyarbs623]

When I hear about suicide I always think of a tv special I saw probably 10+ years ago about people that survived suicide from the Golden Gate Bridge and how they instantly regretted it the moment the stepped off. That will be stuck in my mind forever because it’s so heartbreaking to think that could be what was in the mind of others who attempted suicide and weren’t so lucky.😢😢

[@beatrixbrennan1545]

I remember seeing that documentary. It was chilling because there are no second chances once you step off that ledge. The fear and intense regret once you jump is unimaginable. I had a good friend commit suicide by jumping off of a 6 story parking garage. When I went to the scene of his suicide and looked over the edge he had jumped from, I felt my legs get tingly and this intense fear coursed through my chest. Mental illness is no joke. I pray for all the survivors that they find healing.

[@amity.mp3]

I can absolutely understand why, I was also suicidal in the past and tried to overdose on pills. Thankfully I survived, but the mental scars that it left on me are permanent. My life has gotten so much better since I was that sad and hopeless teenager, i'm in university now and in a sorority and I actually feel like I have some control over my life. It's an amazing feeling to not be in the position I was, and I never would have gotten here if I had successfully given up on my life

[@longtabsigo]

@@amity.mp3 amity, thank you for writing, I’m so glad you are here to share! With your feet firmly on the ground, keep,reaching for the stars young lady, I’m proud of you.

[@amity.mp3]

@@longtabsigo Aww, thank you! It means a lot to hear that, you have no idea ❤️

[@daviddjerassi]

You are a great role model for others suffering from depression yes you have paid an awful price but God was there for you giving you back your life to share with your family Thank you for this video may i send you a HUGE HUG your a winner D.

[@BronteBlu2]

The enemy truly is a roaring lion seeking those he can destroy. So grateful for the Lord's mercy to rescue her and show her how much He loves her...as well as use her to help others who may be contemplating a similar end of their lives.

[@willc539]

@MetalFreak666@My666Jesus You have been blinded by satan. You are already right where he wants you in unbelief so why would he answer you? If you switch to the side of Jesus Christ, I promise you that you will feel the tension and opposition from the devil then, that is what happened to me. You are on this video commenting for a reason though brother, I think deep down you have an interest in Christianity. There is hope for you to be saved, all you need to do is repent of your all your sins and believe that Jesus Christ died for you. You will receive the Holy Spirit and God will guide your steps and accomplish his plan for your life.

[@willc539]

@MetalFreak666@My666Jesus I was raised as a Christian when I was young but when I was around 14-15 I became an atheist because my life was not what I wanted it to be and I felt that God never answered my prayers. My "logical" conclusion at the time was that God must not exist. I got into listening to evil metal music at around that time as well. I see that you like metal from your name as well. I started off with suicide silence, whitechapel and other bands such as the black dahlia murder around 2008 I believe. I lived my life as an atheist doing whatever, smoking drinking just going through life without a thought or care. I would have called myself a good person back then but I realize looking back that I was living the lifestyle of a sinner. I went on this way for years until I met this girl and I ended up sleeping with her. I heard a voice in my head that told me "don't do it" and it sounded as though it was not my own thought but little did I know at the time, this was the voice of God speaking to me. I did not listen to God's call because I did not believe and I suffered various different problems related to health, mental state as in depression, anger and more. In 2019 I was doing some work for a friend's farm and while I was driving the farm van back from market, I started to hear a weird noise coming from the van. I decided to keep going and see if I could make it back to the farm which was an hour away. About 45 minutes down the road, the noise got louder and the van started shaking. I had the knowledge that the wheel was falling off of the van so I slowed way down and coasted into a parking spot at a church. The van landed safely in that spot so perfectly, if all the wheels were on you would never know I didn't intentionally park there. I could not put the tire back onto the van because the bolts had broken off into the wheel so I was stuck. I figured well, its a Saturday and there's no one here, I have very little phone battery and bad service so I'm kinda screwed. I waited about 30 minutes trying to make some calls with little success and then all of a sudden some people show up at the church. They said that they were originally not going to show up that day but they felt like they should just go anyways. They helped me get a tow truck for the van and one of the church members drove me back to the farm. That was the biggest sign from God to me in that moment that he was real and looking out for me. I did not take it as a sign immediately though and continued my lifestyle. Further down the road, he worked with me convicting me of sin and drawing me closer to him. I became a Christian in October of 2020 and have been seeking God since. I am currently living my life for his calling. God has called me to be a messenger to warn others that they need to get right with him. We do not have much time left, God's judgment is coming and you do not want to be unsaved in that moment. God has a plan for your life that he wants you to live out and if you will come to him in repentance, addressing and turning away from all the sin you have committed, he will work with you. You must believe that Jesus Christ died for your sins and you will be justified. After you receive the Holy Spirit from this process, God will sanctify you and help you walk in the path that he has for your life because I am telling you its better than what you or anyone else could ever want for you. It is something meaningful. Don't wait, start your relationship with God today through prayer. God bless and good luck.

[@BronteBlu2]

@MetalFreak666@My666Jesus just playing with a Ouija board is an open door...if you have not asked Jesus into your life with a sincere heart, nor asked forgiveness for your sin, you're already in Satan's trap...he has no need to do anything. He knows if you die apart from JESUS, he takes you with him to hell anyway and that's his goal. The Bible says that Satan stands before God accusing us, but for those who have asked Jesus into their lives, Jesus intercedes on our behalf, He is our advocate. No one is perfect, not one of us. We are human and fail, make mistakes all the time...Jesus took the punishment WE DESERVE for the sins which condemn us to death. His life was an incredible gift for us, when we reject that sacrificial gift of the death He suffered on the cross, we reject the eternal life He died in order to give us. Therefore, we put ourselves under the law, by which all our sins are judged and the sentence for those sins and rejection of Jesus is eternal damnation. I used to be into similar things that you seem to be dabbling in. One day the mask will slip and you may be face-to-face with an evil you've never experienced. I know the enemy's only goal is to destroy you, but hopefully, sooner than later you'll realize nothing he offers you is real...he is called a liar and the father of lies. He has NOTHING to give and he has nothing but absolute hatred for you, God's creation. Why would you choose any of that for yourself? Jesus offers eternal life, forgiveness, mercy, joy, peace, protection, guidance, provision and best of all the genuine love of a Father who gave EVERYTHING to redeem us. I hope you will choose Jesus.

[@TheprophetJeremiah25]

I just heard a sermon and the pastor mentioned it so I felt to pass it on. In 1 Peter 5:8 it says the devil walks about “like” a roaring lion. I didn’t see that at first when I read 1 Peter 5:8. “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.” ‭‭I Peter‬ ‭5:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

[@pvdguitars2951]

The Lion of Judah is the Lord Christ Jesus who saves us, the resurrected One, the head of our body! I want him to shout (roar) and bring me out of bondage ( Rev 18:4) 7 trumpets! ✝️

[@mmmmlllljohn]

Emma is bright and articulate and will do great things and help many people. (She is her mom’s beautiful clone!) ❤️🇨🇦

[@janecoe9407]

SHE IS A PRETTY TALENTED YOUNG LADY.

[@Ljm-hp9pu]

Amazing young lady. You can not judge a book by its cover. Thank God she is alive to share her story.

[@ryanboutr7756]

I have been there too, Emma. People from the outside looking in may think "pretty girl, she couldn't have problems". The grass is not greener on the other side. I'm sorry you went through this and felt alone. I'm glad you failed and are here to tell us about your story. Stay strong! You're here for a reason

[@houseofsolomon2440]

I have the same problem too. The issue you identify as "Pretty girl problems" is no joke. Resentment & jealousy are real.

[@Greencumulon]

Hope you're better now

[@robinfun2123]

She's a smart and beautiful young lady

[@hollyhammett8163]

Thank you for sharing your story. I needed to hear your testimony. May God bless your courage.

[@preachielilbit3700]

A beautiful and seemingly successful young person outside, but feeling pessimistic and depressed and hurting inside so much that she tried to end her life? How tragic. Meanwhile, there are so many underprivileged both physically and financially who are stoically struggling to survive amid toxic surroundings. Quite admirable.

[@comecorrect1]

Yes, I am glad you still feel for people, no matter their social class or physical appearance. This young lady was suffering inside mentally even though she is physically put together. Life can be exhausting and a challenge at times.

[@Invisible-Human1967]

A cheerleader I was friends with back in 1985 came to school with her fathers pistol and went into the girls bathroom along the main hall and shot herself in her head, dying within minutes. She was truly loved by everyone, she was student body president, head cheerleader, also a track champion. Always smiling, always lifting up her friends. Truly nothing can be said bad about her. And at 15 in 1985 being a Virgin wasn't very common. I was one of her best friends even though I'm a guy and I knew for fact that she was a virgin. Also, she was a hard-core Christian. But nobody saw the signs and because of that, we failed her, I feel more to blame because I was closest to her and didn't see the signs. Her name was Jennifer Waldo. I pray that God forgave you and you are resting until the day the dead in Christ are resurrected then those who are alive will be caught up in an instance to meet the Lord in the air to receive our new incorruptible body's.

[@Sylver_Echo2923]

What does her virginity have to do with anything?

[@Invisible-Human1967]

@@Sylver_Echo2923 It means she was a sweet girl who loved God and showed it by keeping his commands, she wasn't defiled. Sex Outside of marriage is fornication and thats sin according to God. She kept herself from that. Do you understand now?

[@Sylver_Echo2923]

@@Invisible-Human1967 I'm aware of the concept and totally agree sex outside of marriage is fornication. I was asking what it had to do with the testimony, wasn't sure if I was missing something is all.

[@olivevideogames]

@@Sylver_Echo2923 my assumption is maybe she was being bullied by rumors that she wasn’t? I’m not sure either.

[@steflondon88]

@@Invisible-Human1967 failure in that area doesn’t mean you aren’t sweet or don’t love God. Christian’s fail everyday but they come to God for forgiveness.

[@Wish1954]

At the moment I feel cornered in a place I don't want to be these thoughts are one after another this has encouraged me so much thank you.

[@ronnie-lynn]

I wonder all the time if a very close person in my life who committed suicide would have regretted it, if he didn’t die. Thanks for sharing your story! God bless ❤️

[@clairejones5373]

Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ you’re a wonderful inspiration ❤️

[@cjvaill1339]

Thank you Emma! Glad you’re still here to share your story!

[@desertcoco]

Wonderful to see you coming back and becoming stronger! Thank you for your courage and message to help others!

[@MelissaSalinasTV]

Such a beautiful soul you are Emma! You are doing a great work for the Lord. Keep doing what you’re doing. It’s so needed by so many!🙏🏻

[@violetsun2343]

Incredible way that she described her experience.

[@garawa1987]

God bless for this testimonie I'm a 47yr 6"2" male played sports all my life raised in the Church I too suffered from anxiety and depression since 2009 from my fathers death which caused me to spiral into a deep dark hole only person that helped me was my Faith in Jesus Christ and I mean I had to really hold on to Christ even when the panic and depression were engulfing me I would just meditate on Gods promises now more than ever we need Chirst to be the foundation of our life because one important thing you touched on was the introduction of internet and social media how its negatively impacted society especially the minds of the younger generation so for anyone get your love and identity from Christ because He promises He will never leave you nor forsake you and meditate on how God sees you .

[@guadalupegonzalez9132]

Thank you!! Well explained!! May lots of people read this truthful, and beautiful massage. 💕🙏🎁

[@animalmother5689]

what does your height have to do with anything?

[@geneziogenezio3299]

I'm the only child of old-fashioned parents, it wasn't easy but I was patient but I always tried to express my feelings I'm not one to keep what I feel, I don't stay close to those who treat me badly, I end relationships in a good way because I love myself first! !! Parents have an obligation to listen to us and give us good advice, and we have to say what we felt or leave home to be a good person outside of any toxic environment. Run away from toxic people Run away!!!

[@scottjackson163]

You needed lots of hugs and somebody to talk to. We all need that. 💕

[@digidrum2003]

Yes....someone to talk to is a huge help....someone to just listen.

[@toosiyabrandt8676]

Hi It hits soo hard, the conviction that ‘ I can’t do this anymore’! It happened to me at 17. My middle class life was seemingly running smoothly, I had been accepted into Art school, and was confident in my talent, but there was a constant narrative going in my head which never stopped! An audial overdrive accompanying my every move! Like when crossing the street for instance, I’d hear ‘ She’s crossing the road’! Or when dressing in the morning ‘ I wonder why she’s going to wear the skirt?’ UNBEARABLE! I just wanted it to stop! Decision? Kill myself! Very matter of factly. In my family of four nobody ever asked for advice about problems! We were all just meant to cope and not be a burden. Parents both working. I remember my mother saying to me once years later when I confronted her about her lack of understanding, she just shrugged her shoulders and said ‘ I’m not a psychiatrist!’. Too hard basket! Be a success or else you won’t be respected! All that middle class status fear of failure driven mentality! So back to my suicide attempt. I took what I thought were sleeping pills and lay down on my bed expecting to doze off! The OPPOSITE happened! My heart started racing! I had mistaken BENZEDRYL ( speed) tablets for sleeping pills. I had had 7 of them. I thought get myself to throw up drank a litre of peanut oil! Didn’t work. Woke my brother who was asleep after Night Shift. He assumed I had taken sleeping pills and grabbed me and took me outside and raced me around the house, until I made him understand I had taken my father’s BENZEDRYL tabs. I just lay on the grass and slowly recovered. He said never tell mum and dad. I still can’t believe drinking a whole bottle of peanut oil didn’t make me throw up, or have some sort of bad effect on me, but by the grace of God nothing happened. The relentless narrative also ceased when I realised I could switch to visual thinking, right brained instead of left brained. But I do think teenagers are especially at risk of suicide because it is one of the first autonomous decisions they make, prior to which they always had to do what they were told! Which needs to be addressed by FAMILIES not PSYCHIATRISTS! ( Sorry mum!) Shalom to us only in Christ Yeshua returning soon to reign over the world government from Jerusalem.

[@michellearroyo816]

I’m 42 Iv been struggling with all the above I feel u girl bless ur heart 💜

[@stephanie4698]

I've come out the other side from deep depression. Through all the uncertainty from life's struggles, God is a rock in the midst of the storm. He can be your firm foundation.

[@kittyyy222]

Great! Proud of you! It’s amazing to see this. I graduated from that same school in 2010. Mental health in geismar was not talked about, she’s right

[@shobhanapeters5721]

Dear Emma ,sorry you have to go through,,may God heal you completely 🙇‍♀️

[@claudiam3402]

Please pray for salvation and union of my family.Thank-you.

[@fredahollinquest8276]

🦾👑🙌🏾✝️🙏🏾

[@greyghost1962]

Painful, Ive stuggled with terrible anxiety and have close many times. You give a lot of hope to us that suffer, wonderful to see your faith in God! Very inspiring!

[@kimberlyhaleinthemix]

It’s so epidemic these days that I do believe it’s a society issue! More young people than ever with mental health issues. I wish society could see that it is because of how far our world has strayed from God! You are definitely not alone and if you would like me to pray for you, let me know ! God bless you and keep you 🙏🏻✝️

[@susanschuck8124]

Thank you so so much for sharing your story. You are an unbelievable amazing young lady! God Bless You

[@j.c.7555]

Emma …you are a beautiful bright young lady who can really articulate so clearly in ways everyone can hear you and understand your message. It’s so wonderful you have a purpose to help others. I will be following you. May you be blessed forever and have a miraculous recovery. God is with you as are many others. Have a lovely Christmas and a very successful New Year! 🙏😘❤️

[@JavierBonillaC]

Man, this breaks my heart. I am glad you are mentally well now. I just wish you were all fine. It is so important that you speak out.

[@stevenmccallan9202]

Young lady, you have found your life's mission. God bless you

[@xanpollaro3444]

You are more than a survivor; you’re an overcomer❤. God Bless you dear😊

[@fionabell1744]

Thankyou for your life and for sharing your story . I pray you make a full recovery mental physical and spiritual 🙏 xx

[@lawrencesee9954]

Thank you for sharing your testimony sister

[@mjarboesdf]

I hope anyone thinking about suicide realizes that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I really hope you think about what Emma said after her suicide attempt. How she felt instant regret and very grateful that she survived. Please think about your parents, siblings and loved ones. The agony, torment and total devestation you would put them through for the rest of their lives. Your life is worth living and you deserve to live! Always remember, no matter how hard things were today, tomorrow is a fresh opportunity to make it better! It's a new day with a new start! 💌

[@tranquility9325]

Not everyone has family who love them

[@klk1900]

I have 5 daughters and 1 son between 6-19yrs old. The one thing I always have sympathy for and watch closely. Is I hear “adults” go around complaining. “Oh these kids today can’t do this or that and they are screwed up”. - I always like to remind people. Every human is born with a blank hard drive. You only know what you’ve been taught or learned via experience. SO IF GENERATION C is “screwed up” that means generation A & B are the ones that failed them. But the same generation that complains about them are usually the ones responsible for them being the way they are. The people between 50-90yrs old right now are really the ones responsible. So think about this. They complain about the problem they created instead of fixing it! So do you really need to know why the kids are struggling? These kids grew up watching you complain about problems instead of just fixing it so what do you think they will do when they have a problem? Probably complain & ignore it or they will shut down mentally. But I say this because the kids are really struggling and mentoring I’m finding the so called “adults” they do nothing but criticize children that haven’t been taught in the first place. A lot have been neglected since the 1980s or so. It’s just getting worse because the generations blame the kids instead of themselves. All while they feed the kid adderall by the age of 10. When all the kid needs is simple Love, Acceptance, Structure, Security, & Guidance.

[@celinechauvet1067]

First, thank you for sharing your testimony and praise God that you are still alive ! I have experienced thoughts of suicide myself, with scripted suicidal thoughts (as psychologists say). Then, as I was in the midst of these thoughts, I thought to myself: are these really my thoughts? So I started to chase those thoughts away from me. What I am trying to explain is that these thoughts are caused by evil spirits. I beg you, if you go through this, absolutely refuse these thoughts of suicide! God bless you !

[@sherrimartin4775]

She has a purpose. She wasn't meant to succeed in her attempt to commit suicide. God has a purpose for us all. This young girl is going to help so many young people who are in the same position she was in. God Bless her and may she reach many before it's to late ✝️🙏💞

[@francineproulx2535]

Beautiful person inside and out.

[@nybsbfan18]

Social media makes it so much harder on the young adults of today. There's too much bullying out there.

[@janetherrera6403]

AMEN AMEN!! God is so good! Thank you for sharing and helping others!

[@tia2211]

Your message is so very important...God bless you!!!!

[@terencehennegan1439]

What a beautiful young lady inside and out.

[@corinadaschievici1925]

So happy you are still alive! You're so beautiful! You're a miracle and glad you're God's child!

[@stargazeronesixseven]

🙏 Thank You So Much Emma for helping others who are dealing with their own depressions right now ... We all have depressions , must learn to cope with them with positive thoughts & positive actions , one baby step at a time ... Human life is hard to come by as there are other Realms that are much worst than the human Realm like the Animal Realm , Ghostly Realm or the Hellish Realm ... Accomplished Gurus taught that , in certain cases , it took Billions of Life Cycles to be reborned as human being in a fortunate human Realm! ... 🙏🕯🌷🌿🌍💜🕊

[@sereneanna4040]

There is no such thing as reincarnation.

[@judykelley836]

Huh??

[@jennigriffin3115]

Other girls can be super cruel. plus the social pressure to be physically and emotionally available to everyone else begins the perfect storm that leads to self harm

[@TheNarrowGateOfJesus]

It was a good story she is so brave

[@bornagainbeliever1429]

God bless her, I’m so thankful she found Jesus and is helping others now!🙌🏻

[@michealtorres8598]

Im so sorry. ...but glad you made it. I hope your parents are proud of how you turned it around.

[@Mgoblue1023]

What a brave, courageous and positive person you are Emma! I would love to learn more about you

[@kellyreed2762]

Thank you for sharing your story. I am so very sorry for the pain you have suffered, but very thankful you survived and are now thriving. God bless you. ❤

[@Clemburke1111]

So glad she is alive and well

[@haydens5370]

I am so sorry this young woman felt this was her only option. I feel like she should speak in every school!!

[@filomenacornelio6809]

Bless you! Thank you for sharing your story ❤

[@andreabontempo643]

I tried to kill myself twice. First slit my wrists, cut it the wrong way ( thank God ), and second time tried overdosing on valium. I was an over achiever perfectionist and put so much stress on myself to always be perfect, it takes a toll. I never expressed my feelings, always held them in, and one day I was numb. It's scary because this was about 45 years ago. I can't imagine the amount of teens wanting to commit suicide in this crazy world. My heart goes out to this beautiful young lady.

[@Colinmcdougall6996]

Thank you very very much for sharing your story ❤

[@Siouxsi-Sioux]

Not only was I born with a birth defect on my hand greatly limiting what I can do, I was also the tallest and usually the heaviest of every class I attended in school. I was tormented from kindergarten to graduation day in high school. My father was a hunter, fisherman and I grew up with loaded weapons literally in every corner of many rooms of our house. I had one sibling who was older and didn't particularly have interest in a sibling relationship. Despite all these things I never had a single thought of suicide or hurting anyone because of their cruelty. I focused on myself and the fact that I was a good deal more intelligent than my peers. If anything I felt pity for them. So seeing and hearing this story, as well as many others who caved to the abuse, imo it gets down to ones own emotional strength and upbringing to save themselves. Being female, it gave me insight into who people really are given the opportunity. Being overly emotional and injuring yourself, how is that a solution? Nature, I've discovered, has a way of weeding out the weak. Never let them get to you. Then they win.

[@horizonxx_1]

I attend a support group for people affected by suicide due to a sibling taking their own life. The overwhelming story from family is that they didn’t know. Unfortunately here in Australia, despite lip service there is limited help for people with mental health.

[@kimmyymmik]

Her attempted suicide happened in 2017. By then mental health awareness was big idk why she’s saying she’s never heard of it… maybe in the 90s or early 00s but by 2017 it was well known…

[@abrahamskaria4645]

God bless you Emma. Tend to His lambs.

[@calderonjd30]

God bless you!! Your mission is not over

[@pastapete9095]

I told my family what my doctor said about my mental health and they weaponized it against me It was the biggest mistake in my life. Ive now condemned my relatives for my own safety.

[@sadah748]

Thank you for shering. And God bless you

[@glenncollins294]

Stay strong. Thanks God. Your are a beautiful woman.

[@mattiejohnson4637]

God bless you little sister in Christ!💕

[@annec988]

Thank God. Hallelujah!

[@roxananunez4238]

She’s so beautiful

[@rnp1785]

Damn I hate when people do that to themselves. Nothing is worth taking your own life. I’m happy she lived.

[@sylviaolney-qj8jd]

She’s a beautiful girl. I’m so sorry that she went through this.

[@rigavitch]

God bless her brave brave soul

[@kimberlysmith7311]

This is only the beginning of a spiritual journey. There is SOOOO much more life to live. ❤

[@lilwinged5291]

Ok...I didn't realize ideation could switch so quickly. Many of us are with depression are asked if we've been having it but if we have, nothing further is said ,just oh ,OK so not thoughts. I'm a Christian woman.. my faith has wavered or struggled for about 2 yrs and I've never felt so Alone in my whole life accept for my teen years. I've always suppressed my pain with Jokes and just people pleasing. But I got so exhausted by life, I'm always home alone. My husband and I are both high masking on the spectrum...Nobody ever knew. I am empathic ,he isn't but he loves me but he thinks I can just keep living this way. God put my Dog in my life.. I have adult children that are doing well, I'm proud of them. I don't see them much and that kills me. I pretend I'm ok ,it's selfish to let them know I'm so depressed so I don't. My mom and my sister's rejected me to the bone...Rejected, abandonment, lead to isolation. I was outgoing and so different.. I'm going to try and keep praying...but I sure hurt so Nad in my chest just saying this..

[@robertquinn1945]

So glad you survived 😊😊😊 you seem like such a brilliant beautiful and loving woman ❤❤❤ I had a friend pass away a couple years ago next month suicide by train 😢😢😢😢😢 I was really close to him almost 20 years he was the coolest down to earth person I wish he was still here with us all we will always love ❤️ and miss him everywhere and everyday ❤❤❤❤❤ again so happy that you are still here and in recovery ❤️‍🩹!!!!

[@maryjoyce7310]

Thank god praise the Lord for saving your life. Now you can save others. God is going to use you in a powerful way. God loves you so much. Best wishes n blessings for your lovely future from Sri Lanka

[@donaldteal6315]

All the best.God bless you all your days ✝️🕊️🇺🇸

[@lindamarie6574]

God bless her!

[@dianecelento4974]

Great role model you are. God Bless

[@allbets0ff134]

Some people don't care to help and make you feel even worse for feeling the pain and feeling like you want to die which makes you want to more. Some of us suffer in silence because those in our circle won't help. It's just a phase. You'll be okay. You're fine. You just gotta do what you gotta do. Never ever helps someone who already feels weak and making themselves vulnerable for someone to act like you're over reacting. That's why Some go through with it. I tried once and botched it. Not enough pills, and now I'm just too scared to try because I'm afraid of what happened with this girl or it will be long and painful. And for me the suicide hotline doesn't work. I'm talking to people who don't know my situation who don't know me at all who possibly can't care about me cause they don't know me.

[@elisaolson1289]

I know there is hope do not give up😊

[@Mytube8I]

Hard to imagine a girl that looks like that, who is clearly intelligent, endless opportunities….etc. would be suffering like that. Glad she survived.

[@MsTinkerbelle87]

Why? Her eyes look very sad:(

[@Mytube8I]

@@MsTinkerbelle87 Do they?

[@Em_Elizabeth]

Yeah, I don't understand it either.

[@truthseeker7086]

I am so sorry it came to that Ms. Emma, there are so many stories of people who failed to commit this thing, and now have to live with the issues because of that. What makes a person want to do this, that is so forever, you don't get to come back, for anyone to do this, it takes a lot of thought, but what are those thoughts?? what caused them, what makes people think that is the solution? I lost a nephew to this, and everyday I ask the same question, what were your thoughts? Why don't they talk about it to anyone, I don't understand. But I want to. Help us to understand Ms. Emma, once again, I am so sorry this happened to you, I wished it never came to that. GOD bless you and yours.

[@rsj2027]

I'm so sorry 😞for the awful things you suffered, I relate to you so much. You have a purpose and a BIG call on your life for God. Prayers for you to be completely healed 🙏 In The Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth Amen 🙏. Lord knows I am so glad you are Still Here, I really am.

[@savqe_2834]

I went to school with Emma DutchTown High school , you would never knew she was going thru this!

[@angelwings3128]

God bless you! ✝️🙏🏻

[@ricksteamboat8051]

Her name's Emma Benoit. Reminds me of WWF/WWE legend.Chris Benoit. Wonder if he's in heaven or the other place where I wish nobody to end up in. Hope Jesus Christ showed mercy to the souls of Chris Benoit, his wife Nancy Benoit and their son. I know this commenr isn't related to Emma Benoit but I just felt like typing this comment. And thankyou Jesus for saving your daughter Emma. Your love is eternal and deeper than the ocean. Amen.

[@kimbers1238]

I wish I could see the documentary but can't find it

[@Ritagail]

You are a survivor! Stay strong you are beautiful and so smart

[@TonyMontana-bl3qe]

She is beautiful 😻

[@servantsofthemessiah720]

She is a lovely girl

[@user-rz2zq8vp4r]

She is beautiful. A 10!

[@Rob-vv5yn]

One of close friends took his own life with a firearm, he was so young with so much life to live but at that moment he couldn’t see that life can go on and be better than before. I regret I never knew how much pain he was in he hid it too well. RIP Carl R

[@stephenkaake7016]

my father destroyed my life leading to my suicide attempt, but I chose to keep on living through the nightmare, wish there was help

[@makeuphappy1]

Jesus loves you so much ❤ You have a beautiful value and purpose 🙏☺️

[@warrenrodgers7544]

Good video tyvm

[@elle7856]

Beautiful lovely girl

[@longwaveforecasters]

I pray healing over you in jesus name. May the lord bring you back to full being and health in Christ. Amen

[@Gisellej80]

😮🙏🏻 god bless you emma

[@POV00005]

A friend suffered from deep depression. She relocated from her home state. Being several miles AWAY and prayer healed her.

[@DeanMartinson-ci3lk]

🙏🏻

[@Courtjowhite]

This sounds all too familiar. Bless her