Citizen Soldier - My Own Miracle (Official Lyric Video)

For those who showed up for themselves when no one else would.
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[@jasonc7503]

These guys can never miss. The fact they don't stray away from what makes these songs so special is so amazing. We truly are blessed to have them.

[@unknownmusiclover3903]

Agreed.

[@adamhouck6854]

I will absolutely second that if I so may!!

[@dreamcode2774]

I agree

[@lukasbiknevicius1335]

I agree ❤

[@arianah4083]

I agree

[@loryannelalonde]

my boyfriend has autism and he has already tried to take his life but the rope has to let go and now he has only one goal to share his story and give hope to people like him that despite their autism they can go far in life and this song explain exactly what he’s been trought

[@ThatCampingOwl]

This is a year old comment, but I do hope both of you are alive and well. The world is an extremely cruel place for the kind, intelligent and loving people

[@peytongustafson2580]

I have autism too. Sometimes I get mentally attacked with insults by my dad, and it causes emotional overload. That's the worst feeling in the world. And he sees I'm going insane, and he keeps doing it anyway

[@andrewbynon8624]

I have autism as well, and it's made socializing with others a struggle, but I still keep going because I want to get better and I know my family isn't going to be there to help me through it because they have their own lives to deal with. I hope you and your BF keep pushing forward in life and live the best lives you can

[@hyperdrive9456]

I have autism as well the opposite happened to me tho my girlfriend killed herself 😞

[@FawnTheGuider]

​@@hyperdrive9456 I'm so sorry to hear that! That hurts my heart and I don't even know her😭💔

[@kagonotori6804]

This is my new favorite song. Shout out to all those like me who stood alone in their darkest times.

[@CitizenSoldier]

shout out to them and you! 🫀

[@jakubduzy5766]

And shout out to all who came through hell and came out singing

[@peytongustafson2580]

Right. I asked so desperately for help and all I got was people telling me to kill myself

[@lenablanc7162]

"Fake smiles are holding me together". Everytime I leave my apartment. Don't let them see, don't let them know. Great song. You're really creating art ❤

[@SarafinaSummers]

This! Fake a smile. Nobody will know. Nobody will know......

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫀

[@KingCenture]

This song hit different than any other. While suicide and other awful things have been around in my life. I've never put thought to them. But the concept of walking my path alone has been extremely prevalent. Thank you for making this song. Continue the work you guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 🫀

[@dead.channelbruh]

As someone who suffers from ptsd, anxiety, and depression… this song is nothing but facts. Good job as always. Keep up the awesome work.

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad the music helps 🫀

[@cjlogan3412]

@the jay guy I'm the same

[@OverdramaticAngel]

I'm diagnosed with those 3 things too and I totally agree with what you've said.

[@theJDSaiyan]

​@@CitizenSoldier Can you do the song about "standing up to your abuser", please?

[@HunterNeyorApollo]

We got the same issues

[@reneegood6393]

"I don't know how to love cause I try to trust but then I remember " I'm in tears because this has been my life struggle. Thank you for this song.

[@LobiJani]

Same! Lost count as to how many times this song made me tear up/cry because of how much I can relate to it!

[@rebeccamichael626]

The lines "fake smiles are holding me together" and "I've been through things that you can't see, a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice" is how it feels to have Epilepsy. 💜🎗 It's also how it feels to have other things like depression. But honestly, I've never felt the first line or been depressed, but that's just me. 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@Rick-mg1nv]

Yep and other things

[@FallingAsh20]

"fake smiles are holding me together" is like definition of what I do every day

[@jakubduzy5766]

Depression can be here too. 12years and keep going. Keep going too fremns :*

[@mystiangel96]

"I should feel strong But I just feel sad So just let me grieve - what I never had" Much love! ❤️ Counting down the days until I see you in concert!👀🤞🏻❤️🎶

[@emilyhauger]

Thank God for you all, Citizen Soldier! This is another song that I relate to and that reminds me that I am not alone. I have been struggling with mental health struggles and abuse for the majority of my life, and I was introduced to your band about a year ago. I never found any "therapeutic techniques" that work as much as listening to your music. Thank you!

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad the music helps Emily 🫀 much love

[@ExplosionMare]

@@CitizenSoldier Y'all are like therapy to me too, and I don't know where I'd be right now if I never found your music!

[@asyrafratim3235]

One thing I love about this song is, you can feel the pain, the exhaustion, the frustration every second I hear this song, and the scream at 2:03, really something to be taken note on. It sounds really personal from that scream itself. Really a masterpiece

[@dit.2465]

I wish this song was out sooner, I’ve been in a very dark place once again. Everything keeps getting worse and as a teenager with PTSD and depression, it is really hard for me. Especially because I deal with other disorders too. A very great song, It’s going into my important song playlist❤😊

[@CitizenSoldier]

hope things are better now friend 🫀

[@bobbistarklouf7264]

I feel the same way. Hope things get better.

[@cjlogan3412]

@Dit. I know you're pain

[@alexbroadway1757]

If you need to talk I’m here for you❤️

[@user-sw3sh2pm9m]

It's so hard to explain how deeply the lines from this song touch me... how it touches the deepest scars on my heart... At school, I was regularly bullied every day until the 9th grade. It was very difficult for me to socialize, but despite this, I tried my best to be a good person, tried to find friends, love... In general, ordinary human happiness. All thanks to the instructions of my grandpa - the only family member who somehow cared about me. But at some point in my life, something seemed to break. First my grandfather passed away, and then I was betrayed by two people whom I considered close friends. In a row... I was left all alone, I was covered with thorns. Everything that I had to go through at school (and not only) began to seem so meaningless to me... I didn't have any friends anymore, and other members of my family always didn't care about me because I was a loser and a complete disappointment to them. I had incredible trust issues, I didn't let anyone into my life all this time, I was afraid of getting even more pain. Everything was so bad that at times I could walk home from work and just cry on the way for no apparent reason, while no one sees. All that occupied my thoughts in the most difficult moments was "how I want it all to end," but I didn't have the courage to finish it all myself... And ofcourse, nobody showed up. I was completely alone, fighting for my mind and life for several years. And when I was at my darkest, I came across the songs of Citizen Soldier. The songs Would Anyone Care and Wanted made me cry, but at the same time gave me more strength to cling to hope. But this song.... It describes so well all the thoughts that tormented me all that period. I hated myself, but I had to love me. I was desperate, but I had to have hope. It was only recently that I let a person into my life again. A person who really loves me, who cares about me. Just recently I was able to look in the mirror for the first time without feeling disgusted. Just recently I stopped crying convulsively in my bed at night. But all the time until I met her, I was fighting in absolute solitude. All my life. I was my own savior, my own miracle. The only person I had by my side. This is an experience that I never want anyone to go through. Thank you Citizen Soldier, thank you Jake, really... I cried again when I recalled this experience during the song. But I remember very well how your songs helped me feel that I was not alone, that a happy outcome was waiting for me in the end. That my life is worth fighting for. I was fighting for my life. I'm still alive. And right now I finally see the light. Thank you

[@balanc-joy9187]

I'm glad these songs helped you, and I know what it's like to be alone, though I never felt the kind of pain you have. I'm glad you have someone in your life to be your miracle now, you deserve that and all the good fortune in the world!

[@CitizenSoldier]

wow. thanks for sharing. glad to hear you're doing better. much love🫀

[@does-it-really-matter-who-am-I]

Пусть твоя жизнь наладится. Для меня Let it burn стала знакомством с Citizen Soldier, это сложно принять, но прошлое это действительно лишь выученные уроки и опыт. Мы никому не обязаны тащить дальше как обузу эти травмы, мы и так пережили из-за этого боль в прошлом, незачем травить ими настоящее и будущее. Удачи тебе, пусть всё теперь будет лучше прежнего!

[@Tori12445]

I'm going through the trust issues part right now but i let a couple people in my life and everything changed but still have issues trusting even the people that u love so i want y and everyone to know that there not alone in this big world cuz so many people are struggling

[@itzMxko]

Same Here, and cause pain to others that haven't done anything wrong my only regret was never being strong enough

[@hjm9571]

I've been battling mental illness for 18 years and ended up adding post concussion syndrome to that concoction 3 1/2 years ago. I haven’t had that many people in my corner throughout this battle, so I had (and still do) to fight for myself. It's been 18 years, and here I am, a walking miracle of my own design. 💜 Thank you for yet another powerful and relatable track, CS. Much love.

[@diamondgirl698]

This one cuts me open 💔 "I should feel strong but I just feel sad" Thanks for putting my station to music I'll be blasting this one all day 🎧❤️‍🩹

[@scootskie]

“They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud.”

[@Queen_Bread]

I have no words Update: I found some I never thought someone would be able to hit that specific spot, "a heart closed and it left a temper" The moment when your grief and pain turns into unreasonable anger and annoyance, such a painful moment because you can come across so offstandish from your pain You're just so hurt and scared that seeing others around, the slightest thing, hurts, you're so defensive, and you know nothing but to fight and defend yourself

[@ExplosionMare]

That's a pretty good way to sum that up

[@draidenwolf]

This be how I felt when my mom passed away

[@balanc-joy9187]

Truth, nothing but the truth. It's how I felt after my family stopped proving that they loved me, and treated me with dismissal and pettiness instead of love. At first I was sad, then I got ANGRY, and I'm still dealing with it...

[@CitizenSoldier]

we hear you 🫀

[@Queen_Bread]

@@balanc-joy9187 it's something I've taken years to heal from, it's a hard process and a bit painful, it takes time, and honestly, I don't think I'll ever be the same, but I'm better, I'm working on it and, hey, I've learned so much, I just need to find a middle ground, it takes time to deal with, but it's worth it It's OK to feel this way and it's not your fault, you were wronged, and it's normal to be so bitter when something like that happens, it's not an instant easy heal, I believe in you though

[@Nermal-vk1is]

*I've walked a path that would kill most* I have said this many times in my life! Thank you guys for this. I didn't know I would be crying about a song today, but these lyrics really hit home. Please keep them coming, these new songs are so powerful! 🖤🖤

[@darkmagicbeta5574]

Dont walk a mile in my shoes. That would be boring. Go 30 seconds in my head instead and you would come out crying

[@michaeltinkham6894]

@@darkmagicbeta5574 Same here. :( Hope ur doing oki

[@CitizenSoldier]

more on the way! 🫀

[@darkmagicbeta5574]

@@michaeltinkham6894 Hehe... could do better

[@CoffinEmoji]

"And be the family that never was there" Hits so hard, struck every cord in my body. Love it so much 🥴

[@christopherlopez5134]

Long ago, there was a boy. This boy was a special child, able to wear magical masks that changed who he was. One day, when changing a mask, his face came with it, and became a mask in itself. As he looked over his own face, he wondered how this may have come to be, and considered the possibilities that came with it. As he continued on, he learned many tricks and techniques of rapidly changing his masks... but one day.. the mask of his own face went missing. He began to wear one of the masks to hide the revealed flesh and bone. As time went on, he kept looking, but to no avail... and people began to see that something was wrong. After a while, he tried just going without any mask at all, only to be met with horror and shock, people seeing the disfigurement and treating him as dangerous. Then came one, someone approached one day, as the boy sat in despair. She looked at him, and sat beside him. Gently, she lifted the mask off his face and smiled. With no terror or horror, the boy was confused, lost even. And she handed him his own face, which had been lost to him for so long

[@pennyhester3646]

Unfortunately this song resounds way hard for me. However I'm on the road to recovery which will be a very long one but I've NEVER heard music that has hit every aspect I've been going thru. Also music that has helped me heal as much as Citizen Soldier! I have to thank you guys for it because I express everything thru music when regular talking just doesn't cut it. Thank you and may everything in your lives and careers continue to shine as bright as the sun.

[@doublespur1748]

I'm a DV survivor. I suffer from PTSD DEPRESSION ANZIETY. This hit home the second I heard it... my family never helped me I had to save myself once I did I had nowhere to go but to my family's house and all they did was trigger my ptsd and I was so on edge I responded with anger... this song is 💯 me

[@bottomofastairwell]

love the empowerment. it's often hardest to love ourselves, especially when it feels like no one else around us does, like no one cares enough to help. But sometimes we CAN be the miracle we need.

[@DemiRed-zq8um]

Been neglected most of my life this song is very relatable....

[@thekatherinewolff]

As someone who was my mom's parent more than she was mine, with dad absent in my life - "be the family that never was there" - hit me he most. One of few ways I get to feel anything at all, other than panic attacks, these days is through your music. Thank You for another brilliant song!

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad the music helps Katherine 🫀

[@thekatherinewolff]

@@CitizenSoldier It's being understood that helps the most though. No one has ever understood before. ❤️‍🩹

[@unknown-unseen4824]

Ughh, you are right

[@JustinSchieck]

For me it was my mother who kept me from going to far every single time I've been in that much of a darkness, suicidal ideation is not a fun thing to have on a daily basis but when i didn't have her to help me, I had to be "my own miracle". Amazing song again guys. love it.

[@angeliqestar1473]

"Are you okey? You need to chat? The questions i was never askt " It hits hard. Becuse thats what i feel. You guys are so talented i wich i culd do songs like this one day!

[@hannahstrong8354]

This was a great song and as someone who suffers from deep depression I constantly felt like no one was there for me so thank you for making this song and for making me feel like I am not alone

[@CitizenSoldier]

we hear you friend 🫀

[@supersaiyanred2650]

Thanks for the new song citizen soldier much love

[@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939]

1 year ago, I left the mental hospital. My life has been turned around in such an amazing way. I am my own miracle. Thank you, everyone in Citizen Soldier. This song is my anthem.

[@frankiewestwood]

Well done for your own miracle hope u are ok now

[@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939]

@@frankiewestwood Yep, I’m doing amazing right now. Every aspect of my life is significantly better than it once was, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

[@frankiewestwood]

@@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939 that's is great news glad for u

[@michaelsuitt5658]

This song describes me perfectly. Nobody there hits me the hardest, but I'm keeping my head up and choosing to believe that will change one day

[@VoidGalaxy484]

As an auDHD person who's now physically disabled due to the damage it did to have to be my own miracle through the trauma, & as a member of a D.I.D. system, this....this song hits really hard. This hits us really hard. 🥺💜 ~Nico

[@jacobstowe2371]

The way these guys can sing about what people go through when a topic thats as hard to talk about like this one, and these guys express those feelings through songs perfectly, amazing work as always Jake and the crew, absolutely love it 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

appreciate that Jacob 🫀

[@shadowblade2725]

NOW THIS IS WHAT I WAITED FOR! l love this so much this song I relate to so much i'm always having to put on a fake smile to hide my pain from others and lately my anxiety been through the roof because i'm always mostly alone so my thoughts get worse thank you guys for making all of us music we can relate to you guys will always be the number one band! ❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

appreciate those words Tyler 🫀

[@squisshhiieeee]

This song is just what I needed. I'm suffering from PTSD from a situation with my ex fiance and how he was abusive.. I recently got out.. This is truly how I can put my words into.. Well, words. Thank you, so much. Truly, your music has saved me on so many occasions. Please, keep doing what your doing.❤ Remember to hydrate and rest too!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad the music helps, and yes hydrate! 🫀

[@ambrissakaminari6926]

This was me in 2018-2019... And I became my own miracle with one word from a stranger who has since become the greatest person in my life.

[@bensalemomar8001]

[Verse 1] Fake smiles are holding me together For worse or for better Cause I've never had anyone To stay long enough to see the weather The pain and the pressure I carry like a loaded gun [Pre-Chorus] I've been through things that you can't see A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice I'd rather hide when I'm hurting Than be a burden 'cause all I've known is [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle [Verse 2] Worked twice as hard through the diseases To make up for the weakness And vices not visible No friends to pick up all the pieces No sympathy or sweetness No wonedr I'm cynical [Pre-Chorus] I've walked a path that would kill most Where a heart closed and it left a temper I don't know how to love, cause I try to trust, but then I remember [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle [Bridge] "Are you okay? You need to chat?" The questions I was never asked I should feel strong, but I just feel sad So just let me grieve what I never had [Chorus] Nobody showed up Nobody slowed down They must have been deaf I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole Six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle

[@starfox5352]

Thanks

[@Ona_JluBep_BblJle3]

Очередной отличный трек, спасибо!!!

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫀

[@animaldarezntalkz]

​@@respect3817 💯💯💯

[@momtazurshilpy8442]

Those lyrics hits hard. Such an amazing song❤💫

[@Azeas1993]

I've been through things that you can't see a kind of suffering the eyes don't notice I've walked a path that would kill most Those two lines struck me like a baseball bat to the head. Love you guys 💔

[@lilstinkers123]

Thank you so much for this song! It is nice to finally have words to describe so much that I can’t find the words to say. It is also healing to feel validated on my long journey to healing ahead. I just hope my therapist enjoys this song as much as I have!

[@lilstinkers123]

Well I wanted to make a quick update incase anyone was curious. I just got out of my therapy session and showed her this song. She honestly really liked it and wanted to know more about citizen soldier. 🥹 it was a nice ice breaker to start the session with so I could explain more about my thoughts and emotions I can’t find words to.

[@CitizenSoldier]

you're note alone 🫀

[@lilstinkers123]

Thank you so much! I wish you knew how much it means to me to hear that. Also how much your music is comforting and helping!

[@YouTubeArtisticallyChallenged]

@@lilstinkers123 Hugs her best friend tight. He's right you are not alone. You have someone who care about you even when it may not seem like it. I love you like you're my own sister. I am grateful to have you in my life. You helped me become a better person and I thank you for that.

[@dangername6996]

Увидел в шортсах, теперь уже встречаемся в моем в плейлисте) Спасибо за отличные треки!

[@jaymesonshaw9471]

I was blessed with the chance of meeting you in Chicago where I told you "I'm sure you get this all the time, but your music saved my life." And this song is just another perfect example of that. Songs that put words to the thoughts and feelings I've had for most of my life, that I didn't know how to express. Now you're coming to my home of Green Bay at the end of next month and I've got a group of friends wanting to come to the concert with me to see the band that saved my life and show their support of me as well. I'm gonna do my best to get right in the front row singing along as loud as I can ❤❤

[@shaunmccarthy7580]

I've been on the streets, through war causing PTSD and injuries, had a drug addiction, habe immune deficiency, had girlfriend and friends who used and abused me and was raised by a very distant family who hated each other this song hits, but life can get better. I've found my soulmate and realize life can he beautiful. Stay strong and remember you are worthwhile not worthless. Much love all. Be safe and remember you do matter.

[@GothicAngeles]

I waited so long for this song and it was so worth it. Thank you for releasing a song I relate to so much.

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad it didn't disappoint 🫀

[@_crimsonwxnter]

This would've been my anthem before September 2022. 100000/10

[@mistam.3764]

Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down... its amazing how in a world full of people one can feel so alone

[@marianruiz48]

"Had to love me when nobody cared" is the most relatable lyrics...

[@ludwigvonchomse888]

I try to trust but then remember" I can't describe how the line touch me. But what I can definitely say is that I think the song is super great! I've already added it to my playlist. I hope that the song gives everyone as much power and strength (can't really put it into words) as it gives me. Thank you Citizen Soldier for all your songs!🖤

[@arianah4083]

This song literally hits so hard. Especially when it's so related to my situations. Your songs actually speaks the feelings that I don't say out loud. The part "are you ok? You need to chat? The questions I was never asked" just revealed my feelings of how I feel whenever I need someone to talk to but they're not there for me. The feeling of loneliness and that I can't rely on anyone but myself 💔 Great song. I love it 💙💙💙💙💙💙

[@Rays-Gamming]

This song open up a child hood pain, that now I can journal about and get it out.

[@Khoas_666]

"The questions I was never asked" That hits differently

[@coraharper2426]

This song hits hard for me. I had no one for years and I had to struggle on my own. I somehow managed to hold on long enough to find my loving husband. I love all your songs!

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad you found him Cora 🫀 much love

[@mikeyreeves585]

Just as I predicted, this song is fantastic and one that I will be listening to a lot on repeat. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad it didn't disappoint 🫀

[@mikeyreeves585]

@@CitizenSoldier I don't know how to express how much I appreciate you and your songs. Thank you for everything you do.

[@Max-17]

Your music is a medicine that helps us lonely people feel heard. 🖤

[@PheonixNugget]

I wish this song was out sooner, like 6-8 years ago... I'm currently going through times where I'm just not happy, my relationship with my family is terrible just because they weren't there when I needed them most. These songs have really been helping me recover slowly. Thank you Citizen Soldier.

[@elisad2592]

Это просто прекрасно. Вокал, лирика, все на высоте)

[@RoseOfPhantom]

I cannot describe the chills I got. Wow.

[@ArchangelOfKindness]

"are you ok, do you need to chat" really hit me like bullet in chest😢

[@kainoxv.2744]

Relating to this song so hard, I'm fighting so hard to stay strong for them, they need me, but it's getting tough seeing someone I love so dearly fight such horrible demons and theres nothing I can do to stop the pain they're in, and I don't dare to burden them with my own problems, Please don't let suicide take you mum, I still need you and you deserve to be happy💚

[@DunnSann]

Always able to put what i am going through into words thank you for your hardwork

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫀

[@Sam_StillDrawZz]

Another song that hits directly- genuinely impossible for these guys to produce anything less than amazing.

[@CitizenSoldier]

appreciate that 🫀

[@NightWink129]

Self-love is the strongest love. It is unconditional. And not only does it energetically spread to others like wildfire, it's the best damn thing you can do for yourself. So, hell yes, be your own miracle!

[@nikkishii]

I swear this song hits so hard, I relate to the lyrics so much it makes me feel seen and understood. Thank you. You're an amazing artist

[@MalivoreKai]

This describes me so much right now. Recently I have admitted myself into a ward after having really bad thoughts and almost going along with them. As a long time fan since the very first song, your music means a lot. Thank you for simply existing to provide such gems ❤

[@Dark_Dragon1337]

thank you... for showing me that someone understands... for showing me that I'm not alone... and for giving me the strength to be my own miracle...

[@joshnix1852]

This song speaks VOLUMES! After losing an uncle, best friend of 25 years, and grandfather to suicide in an 8 year span, there were more times than not I was fending for myself and had to rely on myself to get through it.

[@artic_fox2157]

I'VE BEEN REPLAYING THIS ON TIKTOK FOR AGES NOW! I'M SO GLAD IT'S FINALLY A FULL SONG! Also my hope goes out to everyone

[@valtina15]

Another amazing song from my most favorite band! Thank you Citizen Soldier for being my comfort blanket and for always being there when I needed you the most. ❤❤❤

[@unknownhall8569]

I was always there for others and when it came to me. Only few stuck around. I will move mountains for them few and I walked away from the rest

[@EliWalker-lt6xm]

I really haven’t had a dark time in my life because I have God in my life he really does work miracles God bless America

[@CitizenSoldier]

Stream/Download 👉 citizensoldier.band/myownmiracle Shop for merch 👉 citizensoldier.band/merch Follow Us on Twitch 👉 citizensoldier.band/twitch Follow us on TikTok 👉 citizensoldier.band/tiktok Talk to us on Instagram 👉 citizensoldier.band/instagram Please SHARE it with someone that needs to hear it.

[@LyricThePoetryCollective]

And I love this so much!!!!

[@tinatvarelashvili643]

💜

[@scottmadsen9964]

Every bit as amazing as Afterlife and Would Anyone Care I'm glad I could get to listen to these notices hopefully you still recognize me after the account name change XD

[@joeski_77]

Love it 😊👍❤ hey how long make you make a new video ???

[@tinatvarelashvili643]

@Citizen Soldier You used to release songs after every week or so, I see from shorts that u have many songs, plz release them 💙

[@lyssnicole]

I’ve been waiting for this song to come out since December honestly I want to say this is my favorite citizen soldier song. My comment can’t cover how much I needed this song you wouldn’t believe how excited I got seeing this. No one has stayed when I witnessed loss and grief you have to tell them your fine so they just move on so quickly I seriously thank you guys for putting this one. I actually teared up after playing the full song I love you guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

we know how it feels Alyssa 🫀 appreciate you. sending hugs

[@EvaneCrow]

this song hits so darn hard having had to deal with depression and emotional negligence all by myself.

[@JoghTmicheal]

How does this not have 1 billion views this is so deep this song will be on replay

[@pyromichael19]

Yess amazing song this song hits deep 🥺🔥🎸🎧

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫀

[@darklostsoul711]

I have never related to a song more. Its gonna be on repeat for a while.

[@reneewilson4920]

I watched my dad lose his battle to cancer last year, and I have been so alone since… so many tears cried in silence while watching everyone go on with life 😢

[@Nam3lessd]

"Are you okay, you need to chat? The questions i was never asked" And the bar delivered with a perfect crescendo hits so hard. Thank you for a song that not only I but so many else can relate to🤟

[@patricka5926]

Wow, I know you guys not very long, but your sound and massages are amazing, I’m a big fan of your heavy songs and I think this is your best so far, keep going 💪🏼💪🏼🔥

[@briannataylor2571]

This is fantastic as always ❤ I'm determined you couldn't make a bad song even if you tried!

[@CitizenSoldier]

haha thanks for the compliment Brianna 🫀

[@kylehartley4918]

Shout out to everyone who became their own miracle and those still fighting we are enough

[@lilithlynn]

Hi Citizen Soldier! Big fan here. I just wanted to tell you how much your music means to me. It always helps me get through the toughest of times. I found you at my worst, and you helped getting me back to my best! Also, this song means a lot to me. I have OSDD which means my brain developed a coping mechanism to deal with childhood trauma, splitting my personality in many parts. And this song is EXACTLY what it feels like. "I had to be the family that never was there". We are a family in one body to protect one another. "I had to be my own miracle". We can support each other at pur worst and can get our spirit up again. Thank you for expressing that in words. We think more people, and especially more systems should hear this song. Your music is the best therapy one could find. Thank you for saving me!

[@bdog95]

Im grateful for your music as it's not only helped me, but it's helped and saved millions of people probably without them realizing it. That's something amazing and beautiful in itself. ❤

[@CitizenSoldier]

appreciate that Brittany 🫀

[@bdog95]

@@CitizenSoldier You're welcome. 😊 Keep doing what you love, keep saving lives. You're awesome.

[@adelinevogt04]

There are already so many comments, so I don’t think anyone will see this, but I want to say thank you for making the music that you make. All of your songs put into words a lot of things I’ve never been able to say, but this one hits a little closer to home than usual. My home life is so much better than so many people get and I know this, so I don’t know if my feelings are valid or not, but this song voices all of them much better than I ever could. It makes me feel seen and understood. I’ve listened to this song multiple times per day since it’s coming out (as well as many others before this) and it gives me hope that some people know what I’m going through and that I can make it to the other side too. So thank you for making this song, and I hope you keep making this music for as long as you possibly can.

[@gdlegend6344]

We all feel the exact same way as you do. Citizen Soldier has told our stories for us, without even knowing them. We love their music, and always will. And as for you, don't ever lose hope, and I wish you all the best for whatever you are going through ❤

[@Rey-2517]

I just wanted to let you know that I've read your post. Your feelings are always valid. You don't have to beat everyone else at the Olimpics of suffering to be allowed to feel bad. If you relate to this song you probably have good reason to. Regardless, I wish you the best and hope you'll feel better soon :)

[@gdlegend6344]

@@Rey-2517 Much Love ❤

[@darkenroses]

I adore your music. This song especially hits home for me. I've always been my own miracle as it was the only way to survive my extended family who are so toxic that they are like festering wounds on my body. I've cut them out of my life, but the scars they've left are still there.

[@selene-lane]

Your songs always come out in perfect timing. I'm healing, and your music is to thank because ot helped me keep going in the darkest days. Keep up the good work and all blessings go your way, you are very talented and are a beacon of light for so many people with your music❤

[@kaplararon1592]

Let's gooo, love ya stuff. Been listening since 2019!

[@CitizenSoldier]

thanks for your support 🫀

[@kaplararon1592]

@@CitizenSoldier Thanks for saving my life ❤

[@laylahawkins4873]

This! This is how I felt exactly for many years! I lost so many people in different ways, both from what caused my trauma and from losing friends who couldn't handle my 'cold' self, that it got to the point I couldn't even speak to my therapist about how I feel. I have literally hardened my heart that all I feel is frustration and some bits of excitement or happiness. When I was still going through the source of one of my traumas many years ago, I wanted to be heard but any attempt I did fell on my abuser's ears (my aunt was my abuser) and only wanted me to wear/have things all so I could be popular (jokes on her, since day 1 I wasn't friends with any popular kids and kept my hoodie on over the shirts she wanted me to wear since it was always cold in classroom). Any relatives who only listen to her wouldn't listen to me like some brainwashed victim of my mother. Over the years when I finally moved back to my mom, after each traumatic event that happened, I slowly became the way that I am today

[@CitizenSoldier]

thanks for sharing Layla 🫀 sending hugs

[@KP-kk4dz]

The Greatest Of All Time : Citizen Soldier

[@MissSirenita]

You know, I don’t think I could be in the good place I am now without this band. Feeling heard and understood through music made a whole lot of difference. And when I get down again, there’s a song here I can listen to. I feel this song. Trying to be strong and optimistic feels forced tbh. I’ll continue to persevere, but I want to thank you guys for writing this music because I’m sure there are others who need it. You guys are super heroes with music as your power.

[@Rakunka]

I am big Fan of your Songs. Another Best masterpiece

[@Yo251097]

This is a nice form to start my day! 😊

[@NBMC_Obey_me]

I really needed this song my life has been crumbling down beneath my feet and this song just made me lose my harmful thoughts thank you... you gave me a reason to keep living.

[@IrraCtical]

every one of these songs are so relatable.

[@1imaace]

Que que isso!!! simplismente insano 🔥🔥🔥⛓️

[@AreYouScaredYet-hh5cd]

Hechos!

[@Dima666Air]

(1 куплет) Поддельные улыбки позволяют мне держаться К худшему или к лудшему, потому что у меня никогда никого не было Кто остался бы достаточно на долго что бы увидеть погоду Боль и тяготы которые я несу как заряженное оружие Я прошел через то, что ты не сможешь увидеть Те страдания что не заметить глазами Я лучше спрячусь когда мне больно, чем буду обузой Ведь я точно знаю... (Припев) Никто не пришел, никто не остановился Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле (6 футов под землей - глубина на которую закапывают гроб) Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом. (2 куплет) Работал вдвое усерднее преодолевая болезни Что бы компенсировать свои слабости и пороки что не видны Нет друзей что соберут все осколки, нет симпатии или нежности Не удивительно что я циничен Я прошел путь, который убил бы большинство Где сердце закрылось, и оно оставило характер Я не знаю, как любить, потому что Я пытаюсь доверять, но потом вспоминаю... (Припев) Никто не пришел, никто не остановился Должно быть они глухие ведь я так громко кричал Никто не верил, что я когда нибудь найдусь Родился в дыре шесть футов в земле Мне пришлось любить себя когда всем было плевать Быть для себя семьей которая никогда не была рядом Пришлось сохранять надежду когда не чувствовал себя одухотворенным Пришлось быть своим собственным, своим собственным чудом. Ты в порядке? Тебе нужно поболтать? Вопросы, которые мне никогда не задавали Я должен чувствовать себя сильным, но мне просто грустно Так что позволь мне оплакать то, чего у меня никогда не было. (и еще раз припев)

[@ThisIsNotMyTime]

спасибо бро

[@Twisted-Manic]

Thank you for sharing the lyrics ❤

[@dildilstupid4720]

I literally love his voice every time he says the word "Ground"

[@Weirdandwonderfull19]

The first song I've heard from this band. Had me tearing up. 36 this year, and been struggling with mental health since my pre teen years, particularly after my brothers suicide. My parents drank every single night without fail, my dad would get angry after a drink. I was bullied at school for being a metalhead, would come home and get bullied by my dad. My mum just got drunk and oblivious. I was self harming and nobody even noticed. Nobody knew. 20 years later and I never forgot the loneliness I felt growing up. I still have to fight through the same mental health BS every day, and I still struggle to talk and open up to people when things become overwhelming, but I have amazing friends in my life and I'm learning to open up. If you ever think someone is struggling, don't turn away, reach out, because you will never know how much that kindness will mean to them. 🖤

[@michaeltinkham6894]

This is amazing!!! I’m so glad I came on yt when I did. I’ve been feeling really depressed lately and this really explains what I’ve going through. I love all your music, keep up the great work Citizen Soldier! -Coral T. 11yr old girl who loves your music ❤ :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

glad the music helps 🫀 much love

[@michaeltinkham6894]

@@CitizenSoldier omg you actually replied you have no idea what that means to me!! ♥️♥️ thank you so much 😊