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@AFTER-STUDIOS9 ай бұрын
Thanks por this years i ear you guys
@jennkayyjenn9 ай бұрын
❤.this song couldn't be the most truth. 😢..... where were you 😢😢
@BrickMaster_mando9 ай бұрын
Can't fricking wait for the album. Might get merchandise for it too
@louiswolfe50129 ай бұрын
"where were you when I was at my worst Wasn't there for me That's the part that hurts Where were you When I was scared to trust (mom and dad) I still opened up (with my mom and dad) Guess I'm just too much (for my mom and dad)"
@nrivera3089 ай бұрын
Wish you could put extra plus sizes, some of us like oversized 😢
@ashisanxious9 ай бұрын
What hurts is not feeling seen by the people closest to you but great song
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Exactly 🫶
@silver-crow2039 ай бұрын
Or the feeling of trying to reach out and even the people closest to u don't seam to notice
@RhondaRose59 ай бұрын
Exactly, for me it feels like being thrown out like I just don't matter, and being told so, won't mention Exactly what was said, but I'm still here! Thanks citizen soldier for all these helpful songs❤
@sub_to_diamonddj202239 ай бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier thank yall for making this song, it really helps describe how i feel
@KieronPeachey-md1ks8 ай бұрын
❤️❤️ feels
@coraharper24269 ай бұрын
This album keeps getting better and better! This song reminds me of my own family. They never helped. It took my husband to finally help me start healing. Thank you Citizen Soldier
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Appreciate you 🫶
@SkylarVamp_IDC9 ай бұрын
Agreed 👍 Citizen soldiers are the reason I been feeling better because of there music & knowing I ain’t alone in the darkness
@Crimsonqueen03069 ай бұрын
Felt that
@schwierdo88389 ай бұрын
same except both me and my wife come from abusive homes the only difference is when i confronted my family about the abuse they realized what they did and are actively trying to do better. My wife's family on the other hand is a complete 180 from mine and I hate it. but we have our own family and she has decided life is to short for toxic family.
@renegade125anime59 ай бұрын
Not only did mine not help. They stole $26,000 from my savings and bought them selves a new house while I was deployed comming up on the end of my contract and I went homeless for 4 months upon getting out.
@Daybreakmusicproduction9 ай бұрын
“This was so one-sided 'cause when you needed me I'd never hesitate but that don't reciprocate” hits so hard 😔
@sunday_unnie9 ай бұрын
Indeed, that feeling of betrayal but still trust
@jessicaadams29149 ай бұрын
I keep getting burned but I always try to trust again even though I know that eventually they will turn against me. I keep holding on to hope that there will be somebody who will really be there and stay
@Daybreakmusicproduction9 ай бұрын
@@jessicaadams2914 Its good that you’re holding on hope, I suggest standing up for yourself more and not letting it get to that point if it’s possible.
@helheimrgaming25472 ай бұрын
Same here. I’m a huge advocate for my friends to vent to me when they need it but I only have a few who reciprocate.
@Daybreakmusicproduction2 ай бұрын
@@helheimrgaming2547yeah that's tough, I have one friend who reciprocates now, better than before, but it's a tough situation to be in when people selfishly use you.
@ShadowWing9 ай бұрын
Who abandoned me? My friends, my family. They kept saying "we will give you time" or "do sth with yourself" when I just needed someone to be with me. Amazing song, it really makes me cry but not in the bad way^^ Really thank you for another masterpiece!
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
We hear you 🫶
@tinycoinfromholland13919 ай бұрын
I'm sorry that happened to you, just know that making it through your problems makes you stronger than those who've wronged you. Have a great day.
@ShadowWing9 ай бұрын
@@tinycoinfromholland1391 Thank you^^
@1onebox9029 ай бұрын
Nice username and pic, tinycoin
@tinycoinfromholland13919 ай бұрын
@@1onebox902 Thanks
@mystiangel969 ай бұрын
"I'm nowhere close to healing" Another incredible song, much love! ❤️
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@AutumnRat17 ай бұрын
❤
@luciferpetrenkoff50409 ай бұрын
The part that hurts is feeling inadequate and invisible
@luciferpetrenkoff50409 ай бұрын
And knowing if I passed very few people would truly care or miss me
@unknownmusiclover39039 ай бұрын
@@luciferpetrenkoff5040 hugs 🫂
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Sending hugs 🫶
@unknownmusiclover39039 ай бұрын
Hugs 🫂 . it's hard to feel that way.
@Kinslayer-999 ай бұрын
Ppl with the most caring hearts always seem to be the ones that get theirs broken... but hugs to u just remember if we have to be broken at least we can be broken together
@alexisbroussard70369 ай бұрын
I’m literally in tears rn. This song opened up that wound again, but I still love it. It makes me feel I’m not the only one who went through it. 😭
@justrevvy20019 ай бұрын
"I'm nowhere close to healing" That line rings so true, especially since even when im at my worst i choose to neglect myself so i could make sure that those i care about are happy.
@kaplararon15929 ай бұрын
This is too real... It hurts even til' this day
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Sending hugs 🫂🫶
@kaplararon15929 ай бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier thank you so much. Love you lot 🫶
@tayplaysgames74809 ай бұрын
Was just thinking the same thing my friend
@kaplararon15929 ай бұрын
@@tayplaysgames7480 i hope it gets better for you real soon, friend ❤️
@Witted_decagon327 ай бұрын
Agreed
@zeroXis9 ай бұрын
Citizen Soldier doesn't need click bait... As soon as I see a new upload I am clicking on it immediately knowing I am going to severely enjoy the next few minutes. You may not realize how much good your songs do to the world. I literally changed a few habits in my life just reflecting to your songs. Let the world know their name.
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Appreciate those words 🫶
@Serenity_939 ай бұрын
"When i needed you there, you didnt seem to care" hit me so hard.. my dad was never there, he was an addict.. 💔
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Sending hugs 🫂🫶
@simonbishop549 ай бұрын
I feel this my dad's an alcoholic and after my mum's suicide it's like he's there physically but never there at the same time
@StephanieSchwarz-gl2vi9 ай бұрын
You guys really manage to discribe my inner pain in a way I will never be abel to. "I don't need someone to preach to me" "I just need a little empathy" but "this (feels) so one-sided' cause when you needed me I'd never hesitste" "so in the end it's probably best to say nothing" I know that my best friend is going through a lot herself so I don't want to burden her with my own problems too. 'Specialy because my problems don't feel that bad compared to others. That's why I always feel so guilty when I think of my "problems"... My friend told me that she can't talk with me about her stuff either but once we did talk a little and well.... I tried to explain to her what my heavy anxiety feels like and she just gave me sayings like "Yeah, wait till school is over. It will get better." But my anxiety is not just based on school! Anytime I try to talk with someone it's like the air is being sucked out off my lungs! I'm scared of opening up again and recieving the same answer... "so in the end it's probably best to say nothing" If you read this to the end.... Thank you❤ That felt really good
@dilligaff19799 ай бұрын
When the monsters in my head keep screaming at me telling me I'm worthless, I'm a burden so just do everyone a favour and end it. When every breath is a struggle and every heartbeat hurts. And I constantly stare at myself in the mirror and tell myself to just hold on just a little bit longer and at the same time I'm begging God to just stop my heart from beating. Just to make the pain go away and the voices to stop. But still I get up, put on the full armor of God and prepare to fight through the tears and the pain. I'm tired but I can't quit.
@MeganWalker-xl8vr9 ай бұрын
🫂 I’m proud of you
@brittanym.9 ай бұрын
I have been there too, some days I still am, so when I say I know it's hard but keep fighting know that I am not saying that lightly. I know the weight and how exhausting the fight is, but just take it one day at a time. You can do this. 🙂
@josephzook9 ай бұрын
Beautiful. Sometimes just writing it helps. Sometimes sharing it hurts more.
@alythatgirl25Ай бұрын
I know it is hard...but please stay! You are worthy, special and amazing!
@thatguy39 ай бұрын
When you're in that deep dark spot the silence hurts the most.... even more so when you heard their voice from that same hole.
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@LornaDirection9 ай бұрын
Truly believe everyone blooming leaves! Memories are forever, people aren’t. Thanks for this beautiful song❤️❤️
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Much love 🫶
@antonio42599 ай бұрын
This song is painfully relatable. My last relationship that just ended was much like this. Now I am just trying not to cry listening to it on KZbin.
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Sending hugs 🫂🫶
@helheimrgaming25472 ай бұрын
Same bro 🥲 I put as much as I could into that relationship, rarely got anything in return. It took the relationship ending to truly realize just how miserable I was with that person. Granted I’m not doing much better but every little bit helps, eh?
@madame__bizarre9 ай бұрын
I'm disabled and doing pretty well on a day to day basis, but I've always struggled with feeling like a freak: different, inadequate, lonely, misunderstood. It's hard for me to open up to people. A couple of years ago I had a few so-called "friends" who claimed to understand me and be there for me yet they walked away. I don't think about them anymore but I wish I had this song to turn to then. Citizen Soldier's music is a great outlet for all my deeply hidden emotions. It feels like you guys get what it's like to be me. Thank you ❤
@brettskinner14169 ай бұрын
I am disabled to so I agree and I understand that feeling
@SpoonieSanctuary7 ай бұрын
Same here 🥴 But always here if you wanna talk
@PrincessGinaVonSachsen-Altenbu6 ай бұрын
I would give anything to not be pushed away from everyone. I just never deserved anything good , is my conclusion to this.
@madame__bizarre6 ай бұрын
@@PrincessGinaVonSachsen-Altenbu I know that feeling... You deserve the world ❤️ We all do. Maybe we just haven't found the right people yet.
@temy42199 ай бұрын
“Am I an inconvenience!?” that hit very close to home for me, thank you for the awesome new song guys, this is going straight on my playlist ❤️
@xpatkichanx9 ай бұрын
Nothing hurts more than getting disappointed by the people you trust ❤ beautiful song
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
We hear you 🫶
@veilmontTV9 ай бұрын
@@CitizenSoldieryou reply to so many people. Not just a heart reaction. You guys really do care. Fucking amazing
@manz-sb8kh9 ай бұрын
Hear you still finding it hard the people who you thought were tight arent
@Imperial_Lizardgirl4 ай бұрын
Oh...
@marijncat67119 ай бұрын
1:04 is my favorite part. Even that hallway looks familiar to my past. And the lyrics are so damn true. Back then I had Three Days Grace to help me through this. Citizen Soldier is like a new era Three Days Grace for me with similar music. Everything is different but still the same. Your music is helping me and others heal. Please keep it up. I want to see you guys live someday.
@Anew_Returner9 ай бұрын
This one hits hard as hell, I have really bad abandonment issues, and this one just puts so many words into what I can't, thank you so much for this wonderful song, I've been looking forward to it a lot since the first teaser!
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Appreciate those words 🫶
@FrankensteinLover9 ай бұрын
Just when I think I've heard your Best, you blow it out of the water with more Amazinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg Songs. Jake you are so Talented and your Lyrical ability is out of this World. Thank You for speaking to the Wounded Souls and For the non stop just amazing Music. Forever a Soldier for the Citizen
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Appreciate you 🫶
@service_andrew9 ай бұрын
AMEN
@FallenAngelNZ9 ай бұрын
Instantly my new favorite CS song of all time I've never related to anything more in my entire life Thank you for letting our souls scream with you, Jake
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@EthanNichols-l3e9 ай бұрын
Thank you citizen soldier this song goes out to the person who I thought was my best friend jake voice at the end makes me wanna cry it is so beautiful
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Sending hugs 🫂🫶
@bradlines54949 ай бұрын
Same. Alot coming to light.
@EthanNichols-l3e9 ай бұрын
@@bradlines5494 thank you
@skittlestheninjapanda48239 ай бұрын
You have all of us here. 🫂
@service_andrew9 ай бұрын
AMEN!!!!
@dimanakarabozhilova91099 ай бұрын
I think so many people are trying to watch this at the same time that it's crashig... (or at least for me it is) Thank you for this song, Citizen Soldier! Your art is amazing. You never disappoint, you're out there saving lives. I hope you know just how loved you are!
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Love you back 🫶
@unknownmusiclover39039 ай бұрын
Yep. I often have to leave and come back to be able to see the new comments.
@cemeteryasylum9 ай бұрын
my heart is bursting with tears... these are too accurate and familiar thoughts.
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@userrunner_lefty3 ай бұрын
"the trust you betrayed"is everyone in my life
@pcc4043 ай бұрын
things will get better
@user-finally-free-to-be-me9 ай бұрын
You can forgive if you can’t forget. Nobody tells you to forget. These are the memories that make each and every one of us the beautiful people that God sees ❤ I’m not asking you to forget…
@glizzi9 ай бұрын
March 31, 2024. Today im dropping this comment to let you know that im gonna be a big shot artist soon. My songs will be bangers shortly. And when that happens, I'll make sure to slide back here and leave a comment, so that all you guys who believed in me can be proud. I wish you all the best and don't mistake my confidence for arrogance. Peace out 🙏🏼
@expiredchicken51799 ай бұрын
I’m your first comment- but I wish you luck :D
@theecchicero8109 ай бұрын
The best of lucks to you my friend, i believe in you
@saffathist13609 ай бұрын
Good luck
@EthanNichols-l3e9 ай бұрын
Good luck with your work I will be sure to check it out
@jamieroche74589 ай бұрын
Good luck to you!! 😊❤😊❤
@PrincessAstrea3 ай бұрын
I'm 32, and relationships aside, this song helps me sort through my truth that these feelings started with my parents. Still, they are nowhere to be seen when I need someone. I'm grateful for all of Citizen Soldier's music. It helps me sort through my pain and grow. 🖤
@WriterDreams449 ай бұрын
I wish I could send this to the woman who yelled at me for calling at 7am when I was freezing to death on the streets after being abused by a stranger. (the lyrics fit flawlessly, love that of this band's music that it brings such solidarity, comfort and healing by just stating thire experiences that just line up with so many others) AFTER she said she would do her best to be there for me. Happy to stand in as a mother figure. She didn't answer but the next day called me and yelled at me for calling so early and didn't care it was because I needed serious help. It wasn't the only time she left me hanging but then she later got angry at me when I broke contact with her and had the decency to politely tell her so. Didn't even accuse or articulate why. Just said we disagreed on too many life matters I no longer knew how to remove that fact from us seeing each other. She never responded. Not even to confirm she accepted the request to not be in contact anymore. Then when we met months later she got angry that I asked to stop being friends and claimed texts were sent that never were and denied sending the ones she did send. Not once the whole time ever asking if I was okay. I survived my ordeal but alone. Suffering further from it. I guess at least she respected that much about me by not reply before but it remains so sad what your closest friends and family get away with. I have worse horror stories from worse than her but it still leaves a mark. 😢 If you have someone abusing you, letting you down or doing anything that just hurts you and they don't care, acknowledge or apologise. Leave them. It hurts but staying only breeds new scars. No longer having them around lets the ones they already have made. Heal.
@ednafitzgerald37924 ай бұрын
I'm so sorry you had to endure all that alone. Sounds to me like she was a narcissist - they never accept responsibility for anything. They just blame their victims. You were wise to cut contact. I hope you have better people in your life now. Everyone deserves to have at least one true friend that will stand by them.
@WriterDreams444 ай бұрын
@@ednafitzgerald3792 Thank you for your compassion. I agree and yes, I have one now. Ironically they all keep trying to tear us apart, always saying that he is no good to me just because he is unwell. Like everyone does, we have fights and disagree, but afterwards he owns his actions and apologies. (something they never have done in over a decade of knowing them. They are older and healthier but don't treat either of us right) He actually has a condition where he isn't in control of his own mind and cannot understand all the time when a phrase offends or hurts someone but he apologizes later and strives to understand and do better. If a man without full control of his own mind with added memory issues can still own his own mistakes (even if he cannot remember making them) apologize and try to do better what in the frig does it say about the ones we know that have no mental health issues and cannot under any circumstances it seems own or acknowledge that they hurt you? Even when you point it out to them they just turn it back on you. I really don't think he is the issue here. You're right about getting away from them being the best idea. I tried to reconnect recently and it went so wild and horrible. It's like trying to communicate with a pack of ferral selfish immature ally cats! (and that's an insult to cats) My point is it was really bad. So yeah sticking with the good one only. If nothing else he's earnt more of the right to be in my life than any of them ever can. All the best you too. Thanks again for your reply.
@WriterDreams444 ай бұрын
@ednafitzgerald3792 Thank you for your compassion. I agree and yes, I have one now. Ironically they all keep trying to tear us apart, always saying that he is no good to me just because he is unwell. Like everyone does, we have fights and disagree, but afterwards he owns his actions and apologies. (something they never have done in over a decade of knowing them. They are older and healthier but don't treat either of us right) He actually has a condition where he isn't in control of his own mind and cannot understand all the time when a phrase offends or hurts someone but he apologizes later and strives to understand and do better. If a man without full control of his own mind with added memory issues can still own his own mistakes (even if he cannot remember making them) apologize and try to do better what in the frig does it say about the ones we know that have no mental health issues and cannot under any circumstances it seems own or acknowledge that they hurt you? Even when you point it out to them they just turn it back on you. I really don't think he is the issue here. You're right about getting away from them being the best idea. I tried to reconnect recently and it went so wild and horrible. It's like trying to communicate with a pack of ferral selfish immature ally cats! (and that's an insult to cats) My point is it was really bad. So yeah sticking with the good one only. If nothing else he's earnt more of the right to be in my life than any of them ever can. All the best you too. Thanks again for your reply.
@ednafitzgerald37924 ай бұрын
@@WriterDreams44 Don't mention it! When you were 'raised' by a narcissist, you learn to spot the signs. They are immature, spoiled, entitled, self-righteous people. You can't trust a word they say. They act like their feelings and opinions are the only ones that count and if you disagree with them about anything - you're wrong. They demand you make changes to accommodate them but will never seek to improve themselves because they are NEVER the problem. They want you to think of them as perfect, selfless individuals - yet in truth they're only using you to make them feel better about themselves. They LOVE to play the victim card, but it's all just a web of lies to manipulate people into feeling sorry for them and giving them what they want. Nothing but a lot of "woe is me! Life is so unfair!" self-pitying nonsense. Whatever she blamed you for or accused you of was a bunch of malarkey. SHE is the problem. She's the one that needs to make changes and take responsibility for her cruelty; not you. A real friend doesn't lie or make excuses for themselves when you tell them they've hurt you, nor do they don't blame you for being hurt; they apologize and try to avoid making the same mistake in the future. Don't listen if someone tells you that your feelings aren't important, or that you don't have the right to be in pain over something someone did or said to you (even if it's been YEARS and the wounds still linger). Contrary to popular belief, time does NOT heal all wounds. It's possible to forgive someone without allowing them to stay in your life and continue to abuse you. Reconciliation and forgiveness are NOT the same thing. It doesn't help anyone to LET them abuse you. You have a right to set boundaries. Don't let anyone guilt you into letting them back into your life on the grounds you owe them for something (that's emotional extortion and it's an evil practice). I'm glad to hear you have someone who genuinely cares about you now! I hope the two of you can support each other during the hard times and get through challenges together! Putting others first is good, but try not to forget that YOU matter too! You can't pour from an empty cup, so please take care of yourself! If no one has asked you in a while, it's good to stop and ask yourself, "How AM I doing right now?" If you're stressed out or in pain, take a moment for you and give yourself permission to cry. You've been badly hurt and you're allowed to cry sometimes. It's not weakness; it's self-care. You are valuable - not because of the things you can do or what others can GET out of you. You are valuable because of who you are. Even if you had never accomplished anything, your life would still be precious because you are a human being. That makes you worthy of loyalty. Worthy of love. Worthy of life.
@vivicaophelia9 ай бұрын
I dedicate this song to my dads family who stole all his things when he died so I couldn't have something to remember him then abandoned me 12 years ago
@KAYBETOYS22859 ай бұрын
Thank you. It's a slap in the face when everyone tells you how you are always so strong and reliable ... yet where are they when your world shatters. Thank for saying the things so many survivors think while trapped in hell. For a few minutes we are not forgotten.
@TheFullmetallover9 ай бұрын
This song makes me think of my family. Because after I was attacked they all comforted him and left me to deal with the fallout on my own
@Icee_Time8 ай бұрын
This goes out to all those "friends" who said they would be here when I broke!!!!
@newblackpaladin82466 ай бұрын
"You can "always" reach out to me." Then they ghost you and act like you're inconveniencing them. My "friend" turned on me for being depressed and lonely.
@marcinkepa65439 ай бұрын
who abandoned me? I'm.. not sure about that.. I don't even know who I should expect not to abandon me... but.. no one will do it again... for sure. Cool song, Thanks CS
@SuperflyMN7 ай бұрын
This is the hardest I've cried listening to a song for the first time. Thank you Citizen Soldier🖤
@seargent1199 ай бұрын
I think I may have found a new favorite band. You put everything in my head into words. My first suicide attempt was on February 4th of 2024 and every single one of your songs simply screams the emotions in my head. Thank you for putting these words into song and allowing people like me to hear we're not alone and begin to heal through your music.
@Mae_0959 ай бұрын
Every new song is better than the last. God, how I love you! Keep in that way. ❤️🩹
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@bottomofastairwell9 ай бұрын
yep, that hits home. could be dedicated to BOTH my parents. glad i can say that "i'm nowhere close to healing" is no longer relatable though. on a side note, this song also a total banger. those instrumentals are just ~chefs kiss~
@lysanhugh9 ай бұрын
Reminds me of the past. But even when everyone ignores you, it only takes one person's kindness to change a life❤
@timothypryor79529 ай бұрын
Every new song makes me look forward to the concert so much. I'm not crying, you're crying.
@keynanarcher9 ай бұрын
your lyrics and music are always mesmerising
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Hope it helps 🫶
@keynanarcher9 ай бұрын
it does thank you
@lostrevan31429 ай бұрын
YES IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!! I've been waiting for this song to realse ever since I heard the short
@swirlyxpsychedelicxmermaid069 ай бұрын
Infinitely love you my Rock Gods🩵💯 You can always give me words to express emotions i didnt have words for & your music continues to save my life with every new song🩵💯
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Much love to you 🫶
@unknownmusiclover39039 ай бұрын
Agreed
@puff_and_co9 ай бұрын
This is definitely how my family is about my PTSD from severe sexual abuse. I wasn't heart, wasn't prioritized. Didn't trust them to not blame me. Thank you for giving me a voice
@Queen_Bread9 ай бұрын
Where were you? This song is definitely a bit different than what I expected, but I'm not disappointed by that, it matches, every lyric is there and every beat has that touch that just says everything Every album just gets better and better to the point I don't know what to say. Thank you❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
We hear you 🫶
@waiter52929 ай бұрын
that is so real
@Queen_Bread9 ай бұрын
@waiter5292 when I was scared to death still I opened up... Guess I'm just too.muchhhh
@Kyle-s_corner9 ай бұрын
What hurts the most is giving someone your all, they tell you they love you and will always be there but they move on to be with someone else saying they are still here for support but you can’t help but hurt as you look at them or talk to them because they still have all your heart but you don’t have theirs
@jewelemelaldeu36099 ай бұрын
You're one of the very few that are actually helping heal heart's and open eye's in this world💚 continue to be safe led and kept by GOD💚
@chelsealong51629 ай бұрын
Another amazing song. You guys are just amazing!! Thank you all for putting in so much time, effort, and energy into these beautiful songs.💙💙💙💙
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@work4it529 ай бұрын
This~ really cuts deep.. I feel abandoned, alone, but it’s really no one’s fault that I have to much interference to hear clear, or trust fully. I love how this track came out ~ sounds amazing 🎉
@michaelafton86259 ай бұрын
Dang this song hits to close to home for confort.....I had no one growing up from ages to 3 to 8 sometimes even now i dont have people(im 14) but i always make sure im their when someone else needs me because im scared their feel what i felt
@darklostsoul7119 ай бұрын
Great song, its been on repeat all day. This hits close to home after a death in the family and no one could bother being there when I needed someone.
@angyal_259 ай бұрын
Thank you for this song. I absolutely love it..❤❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Glad to hear that 🫶
@emilyobrzut92909 ай бұрын
This song reminds me of a lot of people with trust issues. And I am the only one that those people can trust. I also have struggled with the fear of abandonment. So this song means a lot. Thank you, citizen soldiers ❤❤❤
@AndyLegends149 ай бұрын
I identified a lot with this song! It's enough to give you goosebumps, Citizen Soldier never disappoints! Thank you for your songs. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Glad to hear that 🫶
@user-rj8tr6sp7e8 ай бұрын
I discovered this band today and man i love your songs, you're the kind of band that doesn't have bad songs. Amazing work guys, keep up the good work. Cheers.
@valtina159 ай бұрын
Yes! Finally one of the 1st!! I love you Citizen Soldier! ❤❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Love you back 🫶
@ROWAN-j6v3 ай бұрын
I constantly quote "I'd rather hear your hell than see your funeral." i have always felt like this, i only have 1 friend that has stuck with me through everything, and a lot of my old friends took their own lives so i constantly remind my best friend that they are never a burden to me and they can always talk to me, or even just not say anything, i will be there whenever they need it
@DireNight_Drnt_8 ай бұрын
this is the song i needed.. currently going through this exact thing.. i can feel every lyric in this song... this is the exact thing I feel right now.. biggest one being "this was all one sided, 'cause when you needed me, i'd never hesitate.. but that don't reciprocate"
@jessicaadams29149 ай бұрын
Whenever I finally trust someone enough to tell my story, that person acts like they care. But in the end they abandon me. Ive been called psycho but really im just looking for someone to hear me and understand. This band does that for me. Thank you!
@purechaos34989 ай бұрын
I found this while listening to the song “Dupe - Presidencial” 😅😅
@DragonessPixie9 ай бұрын
This song resonates so much with me. So many friends and family say there are there for me but when I do need them… they are no where to be found.
@Najma-m2h8 ай бұрын
Feeling invisible hurts only spoken to when you are needed life sucks
@supergamers20225 ай бұрын
I know how you feel
@anglrios9 ай бұрын
Dude I've been waiting for so long to hear the full song and I'm so hooked on it.
@hayleeramos2789 ай бұрын
Good ass song thank you guys again for keeping me going in life❤😊 I relate to this song 😢
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Hope it helps 🫶 Sending hugs 🫂
@hayleeramos2789 ай бұрын
@@CitizenSoldierthank you😭🤗
@chrisv.63753 ай бұрын
The feeling of betrayal is overwhelming. Thanks for putting it in words and make it real. When it gets a name, you can fight it.
@OfficialSAS7489 ай бұрын
My feelings got like this a lot nowadays
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
We hear you 🫶
@Eads349 ай бұрын
I just found this band out other day from a friend. Ive never cried so much and appreciated music so much. Were not fighting this battle alone. Stay strong everyone. Thank you Citizen Soldier.
@AlexanderWinter09 ай бұрын
Beautiful song! ❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@meajess95809 ай бұрын
I love all of your songs, they hit me at a personal level. This song reminds me of when I was first dealing with depression back in middle school. When I told my friends, they didn't react how I thought they would. They replaced me. When I went through a tough break up, they weren't there to comfort me. I had no shoulder to lean on then and through all of high school. Music is what helps me. I love this song so much. I'd love to go to one of your concerts some day.
@chloe130139 ай бұрын
LOVE IT!!!!❤❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Love that 🫶
@michaelsimpson84089 ай бұрын
Damn this song is so good I love it so much it describes so many peoples pain yall are literally a citizen soldier you all fight for people and give them reasons to stay and songs to cope yall really saved many peoples lives
@lake.next_time.6669 ай бұрын
THANKS FOR SAVE ME ... ❤
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Much love 🫶
@lake.next_time.6669 ай бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier ❤️🔥
@schmeelkie075_gaming9 ай бұрын
Firefighter who’s delt through PTSD and personal struggles. Your music has brought me peace through some dark times. Thank you
@Tck4009 ай бұрын
Best song ever ✝️
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Glad to hear that 🫶
@andreeapadurariu93824 ай бұрын
I wish there was at least one person in my life who would put me first... I feel like I always gave my all in everything until now and I can no longer do it and feel like everything is just there, including me and I am just existing for convenience... Not even faking it anymore, I just can no longer trust anyone or care anymore.
@userrunner_lefty4 ай бұрын
What I'm headed towards
@andreeapadurariu93824 ай бұрын
@@userrunner_lefty 😥🙍♀️
@keynanarcher9 ай бұрын
❤️❤️❤️
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@TheChaoticQuackMentalHealth2 ай бұрын
I found citizen soldier when i was at one of my lowest points, its helped me talk to someone as i struggle to explain how i feel to people, thank you citizen soldier for helping me through things
@KyloRen42389 ай бұрын
Kool. This rock. 💛💛💙💙💙💛💛💛💛
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
Glad to hear that 🫶
@queenani68869 ай бұрын
This song hits hard for so many people i opened up and trusted,turn their backs on me when i needed someone when i was in a dark place but need me to be there for them
@xxandrewkunxx9 ай бұрын
💛💛💛💛
@CitizenSoldier9 ай бұрын
🫶
@ajlarsenmeganroy84129 ай бұрын
This song makes me heal, My mom hasn't been a part of my life for 25 years and never even put an effort to see her children. And I've been in a lot of relationships that were painful growing up. Thank you, Citizen Soldier for healing my heart!
@OrigiNixon9 ай бұрын
I'm still asking there they are. 2:22
@ghostofloki9 ай бұрын
when a song hits so close to home it feels like you're the one who wrote it 💔
@justskills50379 ай бұрын
Under 1 hour gang 👇
@LightintheDark20569 ай бұрын
👍❤️
@alexandriabryant27879 ай бұрын
"When I needed you there, you didnt seem to care" hit me the most 😭...
@Alice-cn8sn6 ай бұрын
Probably cheating 😢😡
@Sislay864 ай бұрын
😢
@He_cheated_on_me...3 ай бұрын
Indeed😔💔❤️🩹
@jaylin43032 ай бұрын
Omg so relatable, but I used to be gaslighted, but that’s all over now. It be cool if there was a song about gaslighting! Anyways, this is a great song, love it every song hits so hard!❤❤
@irischurchill-qx4si9 ай бұрын
Where were you when I was at my worst? Wouldn't put me first, that's the part that hurts That's the part that hurts Another call unanswered has got me losing sleep And now I'm questioning were you ever listening? You know me more than most do and that's what cuts so deep When I needed you there, you didn't seem to care I showed you all my demons, when I was out of reasons Am I an inconvenience? Where were you when I was at my worst? Wouldn't put me first, that's the part that hurts Where were you when I was scared to trust, still I opened up? Guess I'm just too much (Guess I'm just too much) It could've been, could've been life or death I've tried but I'll never forget Where were you? Where were you? Where were you? This was so one-sided 'cause when you needed me I'd never hesitate but that don't siplicate So don't you dare deny it, the trust that you betrayed [?] I showed you all my demons, when I was out of reasons I'm nowhere close to healing Where were you when I was at my worst? Wouldn't put me first, that's the part that hurts Where were you when I was scared to trust, still I opened up? Guess I'm just too much (Guess I'm just too much) It could've been, could've been life or death I've tried but I'll never forget Where were you? Where were you? When I was lost and fighting thoughts screaming to end the pain Where were you, where were you? When I was told you'd help me cope you lied, you never came Where were you, where were you? Where were you when I was at my worst? Wouldn't put me first, that's the part that hurts Where were you when I was scared to trust, still I opened up? Guess I'm just too much (Guess I'm just too much) It could've been, could've been life or death I've tried but I'll never forget Where were you? Where were you? Where were you? Where were you?
@FrostyFyre9 ай бұрын
Is it crazy that I relate this song to myself? Asking myself where was I when I needed myself to be there FOR myself the most? Sometimes that is one of the hardest things to do, being there for yourself. Thanks for another treasure Citizen Soldier 🖤
@DreamNLego.9 ай бұрын
Love this song, please write a song about toxic positivity, Ik u guys would nail it as always lol! Keep up the good work, can’t wait for the rest of this album!❤
@gamergibbs549 ай бұрын
I never really comment on anything, but this song hits home so hard. I was abandoned by my “best friend” of almost 10 years (would’ve been 10 in May). I opened up to her and she knew everything about my past, my childhood trauma, all the friends who walked out on me as soon as I opened up to them, my nightly panic attacks, even how I was manipulated throughout my entire childhood by my aunt. I did whatever I could to help her through everything I had the power to, lost countless hours of sleep, missed out on so many important moments in life that I’ll never get back, just for her to reconnect with an old friend of hers and leave. I could slowly see a difference in her mannerisms, but the thought of finally having a friend who I thought cared about me just made me want to ignore it, so I would apologize about things even as far as standing up for myself. I soon found Citizen Soldier through the song “Through Hell” and immediately fell in love with their music and their message. I can proudly say that this has been the year I finally said enough was enough and began my journey to leave a toxic “friendship” and I still feel stuck, but free at the same time. Seeing the comments of others in this community makes me realize that I’m not alone, but also that I’m stronger than I ever realized. So, I really have to say Thank you to not just CZ, but to everyone in the CZ community. None of y’all will ever know just how much you’ve saved me. In case you haven’t heard this today, I love you and I am so proud of you. 🖤
@shadowvoids9 ай бұрын
So relatable fr. I wanna scream this to some of my friends faces. Ur songs make me feel so heard. Thank you 🫶🏽
@ValeOfMuses9 ай бұрын
This song hurts so much from the other end of it, too - I've had to leave so many deeply, deeply unhealthy relationships where there was simply no way to balance my health and someone else's, not because they didn't deserve to be heard and helped, but because I was just another teenager with too many broken friends and absolutely no one helping me. I wasn't a person, just a sponge for their pain, and there was no excuse for me not being there every second for every one of them. Not to even start on the outright abuse in one particular relationship. And it's not like I somehow didn't have any other problems - I was just the naturally caring one who wasn't in immediate danger of being homeless, or of the utilities turning off, just generally in a position where the absolute fundamentals of life were basically assured. Where was I? Not letting half a dozen people claw me under the surface and use my corpse as a raft. It's not their fault they had worse problems than me, but it is their fault things were so one-sided. I feel bad about leaving them. I hope the ones who got taken away made it somewhere better, somewhere safer, somewhere their fathers couldn't find them ever again. But I don't regret surviving and finding a community that wouldn't take advantage of me.
@aaronbaker45959 ай бұрын
"you" was never a person just that missing strength to fight another day :)
@katiebennett76029 ай бұрын
Another great song, Citizen Soldier. This is definitely a good one!!
@alliws9 ай бұрын
I'm not depressed anymore, but I still love listening to these songs and reading the comments. Admittedly, there are the most hurt people here, but at the same time the kindest. Take care.
@mitchellnorton52049 ай бұрын
Honestly this band has helped me through so much, gave me strength through their music. Helped me get through foster care,being stabbed in the back by so called friends and many other things. This is such an amazing song and amazing band.