Citizen Soldier - ICU (Official Lyric Video)

[@CitizenSoldier]

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[@zajanahnapoli1688]

This song is amazing I love it

[@georgiossirgoudis9207]

I love this song know banging it🤘💥

[@nicolegerhardt9018]

Bekomme ne gänsehaut und Tränen in den Augen 😢das geht unter die Haut

[@bigbot1508]

As a fan that pre-ordered the album, I can really say that this title-track alone was worth it. Thanks for the great lyrics and music; you guys are amazing♥

[@mjuytsjmser29]

❤

[@KataHime]

"Some day you'll see you were worth this fight." I hope you see that you were worth the fight, Jake. Your music, your songs, your band have saved so many. Thank you for surviving. Thank you for not giving up.

[@tripledog8990]

This needs be be said more. So many people have been saying “thank you for the music” and “It helps” but no one says “thank you for being here” and to “love yourself” You sir are amazing

[@Hdhdjdudh-fv5jk]

Jesus loves you

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you 🫶

[@shadowhawk4164]

@@CitizenSoldierthank you Citizen Soldier, this song certainly gave me some powerful emotions, I hope you are doing okay, thank you again for always giving me songs when I need it the most

[@madisonmorris97]

Thank you for being here Jake! Your strength shows you are stronger than your storms! I am so grateful for you and your band

[@crushcreate1461]

The lyrics "I see you" paralleling ICU is brilliant wordplay.

[@Katie.Logan.23]

Been there way to many times..

[@KylaLH]

💯 agree. Brilliant

[@Roastedchicken-g9b]

@@Katie.Logan.23Are you ok rn?

[@RageAsylum187]

Yes it is

[@BlueTextingStories]

"Hey, kid, are you okay?" That muffled voice... It broke me... The words my younger self begged to hear... Citizen, you guys are amazing. 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 🫶

[@gothfoxgirlAO3]

Went back to find it and same. It's something we all yearn to hear, but also fear.

[@AmandaAWBY]

It broke me too

[@unclebozo9845]

almost a callback to their very first song "Let it Burn"

[@EthanNichols-l3e]

This is song is Jake telling us his story

[@endless_havoc123]

This song gets so much deeper when you realize that this is Jake talking to his older self from the attempt that started everything. Who would have thought that a few words on a napkin would wind up saving thousands of lives through music

[@MariaMinor-xr2so]

It honestly felt like he was talking directly to us. Ik for me this is 100% relatable. “You still have a lot of songs to write”. But thank you. This was actually amazing to realize. ❤

[@elithenerd8956]

I remember describing this band to a friend. The best way I could do that was explain that the music acknowledged that the listener was dealing with things and the music was essentially reassuring the listener that they’d be able to get through with their issues and suffering with them. This song nails that home.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you 🫶

[@NemaraDengirl]

This made me bawl my eyes out. Never has a song ever really struck that helpless feeling you have when you're stuck there in your own head, being forced to live and stay around. When all you want is to quit fighting. When all you want is to finally have a restful sleep, even if that sleep is one you would never wake up from again. At least the exhaustion, the hate, the pain would go silent. Especially if during recovery you have to stay with the very ones that drove you to that point to begin with because no one believes you when you tell them the pain in your very soul from all the horrible things they've said and done. Seeing the disappointment in their eyes because they don't take any responsibility, they just think their child is a failure of a person, waste of skin. God this hit to my core. Thank you. I needed this cry.

[@christopheredelmeier1854]

same

[@AK-qy8ss]

@NemaraDengirl ... know u are not a failure... U are not a waste of skin. U r alive. u can survive this... It may seem like things won't change but every day you survive is a testament to how strong u are. Don't forget that. U are not defined by the people who hurt u... You alone can define who you are and what u are capable of ...❤❤ Sending you healing vibes ❤❤

[@alesiaprewitt4748]

I'm hurting..

[@tsunemara]

We cannot like this song enough times. It’s everything we felt growing up and still to this day. You’re an inspiration. Thank you

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫶

[@isabellariley8236]

​@@CitizenSoldierThis is exactly what I went though 7 years ago on this exact day

[@Andrewjames116]

I went through this my senior year when me and my ex-fiance were in school and the last three Has been hell but as I'm getting older it's not worth hurting your loved ones

[@Li-Mei-李每]

Why did I just find this? I lost my twin obrother when I was 5 y.o, we suffered from a heart defect since birth. At that time we were both in critical condition and in the ICU, but he chose to leave and give his life to me, so I live until today believing in that. When I woke up, my parents kept blaming me for their 'Golden Child' leaving. I was diagnosed with pneumonia, the nerves in my legs sometimes don't function so they often go numb. And they were even just busy with their argument without knowing I also heard it from inside the room, and all of that created noise in my head. I had 3 friends when I was in the hospital, but one by one they also left because God always takes the good ones first. For years I endured, was diagnosed with leukemia but luckily managed to recover. Several times being in the ICU alone, hoping they would come or someone would accompany me. I often can't sleep when I'm in my room because the noise fills my head. Cried silently while enduring the pain just because I was afraid they would know, and yeah, I'm survived until today. Thanks a lot for all your amazing songs, it give me a reason :)

[@littletyler172]

That's something no one should have to go though, stay strong and hope you have the brightest future. Stay strong and keep going

[@MeaJenkins-m6h]

I'm a 16 year old junior in high school that suffers from Anxiety, Deppression, and PTSD I've struggled for a long time. My family has always had trouble unstanding my problems that they think is just an exscuse to get attention. 2 years ago I thought that I was better dead than alive. I was considering ending it all until I got a text from my best friend. She asked if I was ok because I sent her a text saying goodbye and that I would always love her no matter what. When I didn't respond to her text she called me. For the first time that day I didn't feel like ending it all. When I told her how I felt we talked for hours and right before we got off the phone she recomened your music to me. She told me that no matter how much I tried to fight the fact that I can relate to the lyrics I'll listen to them and I wont feel the way I did and she was right. I've been listening to your music since that day and it has helped me get through some of the darkest times in my life. Thank you for doing what you do you have helped so many people. You have helped us feel not alone and that we are loved no matter what were going through.

[@tammylitzinger8526]

You're not alone I suffer from Bipolar with psychosis and PTSD and Anxiety I just want to know that you are heard and seen hang in there you are worth the fight

[@binah7119]

I’m so thankful for Citizen Soldiers music. It saved me and so many other people 💜

[@CitizenSoldier]

🫶

[@tripledog8990]

Same bro, honestly I don’t think I’d be here if it wasn’t for them

[@Queen_Bread]

@@CitizenSoldier You've helped us all so much, I hope you know how much we love you for you and not just your music, for still being here, surviving

[@wrightfamily7381]

This song hit me hard the part that got me really teary-eyed was the line that said the picture all the people when they heard the news, thought your body in a bag would be enough to prove it was not a sad excuse that almost broke me

[@Queen_Bread]

@@threevisionsgodpark no, you shouldn't be thinking that, stay with us, this music I'd a reminder of the worst that had been survived to get us to brighter days 'Someday you'll see you were worth the fight'

[@Thisaccountisnotabot]

As someone who is officially diagnosed with major depressive disorder, is a suicide survivor and as someone who has been through so much trauma in my life, thank you. When I listen to your songs I feel like the pain I go through everyday is finally understood and that I am not alone. It makes me feel better knowing someone out there understands and I’m not alone.

[@naotokamigire-terumi9912]

You are strong!

[@theeternaone7731]

Honestly a relatable song after the week of fighting back the thoughts and urges that have been trying to make their way back into my head.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Sending hugs 🫶

[@SeersLight]

Keep fighting it gets better

[@Jedi_Paragon]

I stayed up until the album dropped and this was the first song i played. Brought tears to my eyes.

[@CitizenSoldier]

It's ok to cry 🫶

[@tiffanyhughs5130]

In 7 months will make 20 years since i was in the ICU for 2 weeks due to me trying to commit suicide by taken pills. Following that was almost 3 years in and out of a mental hospital. The music you guys put out help and save all of us. I was so thankful to meet you jake in Columbus ohio!

[@stary1night]

I hope you are feeling better now. I know I don't know you at all but know I believe in you.

[@WhiteAngel-z2x]

Don't ever do that at again .ps if you need someone to talk to talk to me I'll help you

[@SnowFairy1999]

As a mentally ill med student this fucking hit HARD

[@Hdhdjdudh-fv5jk]

❤ yes. Jesus loves you

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 🫶

[@TigerMoth_Of_RiverClan]

laungauge, but i agree.

[@Katelyn.renee1]

I really had dreamed of going to medical school but never thought I’d be able to as I figured all the setbacks and failures would make my severe depression even worse

[@naotokamigire-terumi9912]

That's all your imagination, go and leave your dreams!​@@Katelyn.renee1

[@JohnieCanine]

This song was released at just the right time for me. I really needed to hear this! 🥺

[@Ember571]

"Hey kid, are you okay?" Those words made me cry cause they are the words I've wanted to hear all my life.

[@KylaLH]

Hey kid, are you alright?❤

[@reysamael]

Just today, November 29, 2022 (one year ago), I tried to take my life. Today, im a new me, and i am grateful that I decided to stay. I've not completely healed, but recovering your metal health is a long process. A long process that is absolutely worth it. It's really true that when you're on the ground, everything gets better. You can cry or climb. It's all on you, but staying and fight is ALWAYS the right choice. Trust me, it always gets better. (Citizen Soldier was there for me in the rough spots, thank you for that. You guys part of the reason i'm still here)

[@_Nyum_]

Im proud of you! And I'm glad you're doing better.

[@RageAsylum187]

Proud of you

[@QueenCelestina-x9g]

“ I see you crying in a gown that’s blue screaming in a breathing tube “ that one sentence hit me hard. As I been dealing with stress and these songs are the ones I play when I’m upset.

[@savanger953]

For those, who are struggling. I feel your pain. I know what it's like to be tortured by your thoughts and memories, to be half-dead when everybody thinks that you're fine. But things could change and they will only if you see that the fact that you are alive proves that you have enough strength to keep fighting and when you start to believe in yourself, you'll realize that there is something left for you and also that we find the most valuable things for us in the darkest time of our lives

[@jc45287]

I think this is the song that's hit the hardest for me. All of your music is amazing and makes me feel so seen, but this is something else. Thank you for making me feel like I'm not as alone as I always feel I am 💙

[@CitizenSoldier]

You're not alone 🫶

[@EthanNichols-l3e]

This song is fire 🔥 it made me cry in the firstly 20 seconds thank you citizen soldier you have help me though my darkest times love yall citizen soldier

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hope the music helps 🫶

[@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939]

This song genuinely made me cry. I remember being in the ICU and feeling like this. This album is an absolute masterpiece. Edit: For anyone curious, I was there for attempted self-removal. I thank God every day that I’m still here.

[@mrteddybear86]

The first days of my life was in the ICU after I almost died as a baby

[@AkinToDamnation]

@mrteddybear86 that's so sad, but I'm glad you're hear today, this song must be hard for you

[@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939]

@@mrteddybear86 It’s amazing that you’re still here today. I don’t know who you are, but I’m glad you’re still alive.

[@Hdhdjdudh-fv5jk]

Man you have a story worth the world and I really think from a stranger across the internet I really do think you will think you can use your story to help others in the same situation that you pulled yourself out of like brothers we will fight the good fight I have been in a all to similar situation we can use it to help and it is healing to yourself when you see that you're story of surviving pain can help others who have no help, no hope and nobody to share their pain. Jesus loves you you will be okay even though I don't know you and you don't know me I know that if someone just told me that I will make it and be OK I would have had at least a glimmer of hope and I hope you see this please stay safe out there

[@opulenceharbingerofchaos3939]

@@Hdhdjdudh-fv5jk I have shared my testimony many times to give others the same hope I live with every day.

[@brightclaw7187]

If anyone needs to vent, I'm here. Just remember how awesome you are. You listening to these songs is proof of your courage and determination to hang on for better days. If you feel like you aren't loved, just remember that I love you. Keep going. There will be better days :)

[@brightclaw7187]

@@threevisionsgodpark Regardless of if you're an adult or not, everyone's feelings deserve to be heard. I'm completely open to hearing ou vent if you wish. Really, I am. I'll try my best to help if I can.

[@threevisionsgodpark]

Oh god, you really are a teenager, aren't you. Lucky... Go be young and forget about trying to help anyone. No one can truly help anyone else. And people that can't help themselves like me are just screwed. I've literally had professional therapists and medical doctors give up on me. I even broke their spirits with what is inside of me. And I didn't even scratch the surface. There is only one logical solution left to me, and I'm just too full of self-pity and fear to do it. The only way out is to remove myself from the equation. I guarantee I'd break your spirit if you tried to help me. I'd infect you with the sickness inside of me until it took you over completely. I'd bring you down to my level and there'd be nothing you could do to stop it. I've watched it with everyone I've ever loved and everyone that ever tried to help me. That thing inside of me is so evil and full of pain and hate and rage and despair that nothing can stand in its way. It destroys everything in its path. I just keep staying alive because I'm too addicted to alcohol and drugs, and I'm addicted to hurting myself any way possible. I keep pushing it at far as I can without dying each time, be it with drugs/alcohol or physically hurting myself. Each time I get closer, each time I feel more pain, each time I crave the pain and suffering even more than ever before. It got so bad I had to start hurting other people to make myself feel that pain I crave. Once I'm completely numb and can't hurt anymore or get high anymore I'll finally kill myself and remove the blight of my existence from this world. It will be a much better place for it. You don't want to meet what is in my head, I promise. You'll never be able to feel ok ever again. The beast feeds on pain and my pain no longer satiates him anymore. He needs the pain of others now. Get away while you can.@@brightclaw7187

[@leighferrell7354]

Your guys songs have saved so many people and I thank you for not giving up and surviving too. You give hope and life back to those who may not feel enough but at least with you we don't feel alone. Thank you for hope to make it to the other side and keep writing more beautiful music. You were our sign. We love you CS! 💙💙💙

[@SolarWinner2000]

The first time I heard this song I was reminded of my father who died Nov. 12 this year. This song brought back images of him in the hospital with a bunch of tubes and wearing a blue gown and padded cotton boots for his feet. He couldn't speak because of his breathing tube but I knew in his last moments he was happy to see me after 3 or 4 years. Even now this song makes my throat tighten up and my eyes sting. I broke down the first time and that's never happened before from any other song. A lot of your guy's songs came close but this one got me hard and I love it even more because of it. It's good to cry. Let yourself cry, if not for someone, let it be for yourself.

[@MeowingCat835]

Damn... very sorry for your loss, buddy... 😢 Hope the pain is not as strong anymore.... 😢❤🫂

[@SolarWinner2000]

@MeowingCat835 I'm okay now friend. Memories just come back everytime this song comes on.

[@Curious_Clover]

The vitals monitor thing beeping is one of the best things about this song. It matches the tempo so well.

[@kerry2638]

You don’t realise the amount of people that are still here because of your songs 💯 😢 I’ve been struggled a long time and I’m still fighting everyday you’ve helped in so many ways… this song made me cry and made me realised I don’t want to end up in a bag. I’ve been unglued for a long time

[@tritonia_]

Listening to this song, to you citizen soldier, it makes me feel seen, like no other music or person has been able to. It really makes me wish I could be fixed. every time I've tried to be truthful about my feelings with anyone, they've just looked at me like I'm a monster. so thank you, for making me feel understood and just a little less alone.

[@hildalobo2399]

Never heard of this band i have no freaking idea how i came here. I have been "sane"for many years now 57 here But oh this song made me cry and brought me back in time and it hard to me. Nobody but i mean nobody deserves to feel this way . Mental healt problem should never be a taboo .Talk to ppl let them know you care let them know you love them just did that earlyer this evening to my litle brother who is also strugling. The person who wrote this lyric/song you are strong and loved .

[@thebubbliciousgenius5405]

"I see you trying not to cry. Just wishing you had not survived." Broke me into so many pieces because of how real that is for me. Thank you for this song. Thank you for telling me and everyone who sees this video: "don't give up, give it a little time. Someday you'll see that you were worth this fight." and that we still have so many songs left to write in our lives. Thank you for seeing us, Citizen Soldier. 💜

[@t-bird174]

Wow...I'm 59 & lived this exact scenario 35 years ago. I never thought words could describe the experience or my feelings, until now. I've really been struggling again, then I accidentally clicked on this song. I almost closed it & thought what the heck, I like music, I'll see if it's any good. Holy hell...coincidence...I don't think so!!! I looked up your story & you have a new fan 😉 Your lyrics in the songs are amazing & spot on...keep it coming!!!❤❤

[@Kaleb_Rich]

A family friend of ours was eternally bleeding I remember going into the icu dropping to my knees crying hoping that she would live thank you citizen soldier for this song it sure helped me and I’m sure it will help so many other people thank you

[@ChisaiNezumi100]

I just found this in an absolute moment of darkness for me. I am jobless since nearly 3 months and since then my depressions got worse and worse. Your music helped me a lot, it also makes me cry a lot because I finally feel like someone understands me and hears me screaming silently. There were many times I wanted to end it but then I found your songs in my Playlist and simply listened to them and it helped me, it gave me strength to continue fighting. Thank you for being the way you are and for touching me with your music, Citizen Soldier. ♥️

[@hyperdillusion6325]

I have never found a song that made me cry immediately. I’ve been this person so many times and yet again I’m falling down into this role all over again. This feels so deep I can’t explain it. It touches a part I could never explain. Thank you. God thank you.

[@ambrissakaminari6926]

I've been in a bit of a limbo recently and this helped. Thank you! I really appreciate you guys. I wish I could go on tour with you guys, but I won't be able to do instead I hope you guys have fun and make amazing memories on your tour. Sending love ❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love to you 🫶

[@purpl3Cl0udz_420]

My grandpa Robert passed away in the ICU about a few years ago around this time of the year 🥺 my daughter Thalia was too young to see him back there so I stayed in the lobby with her when he flatlined...after my mother & some of the family came back to the lobby I ran back to him...I've never seen anyone so pale but I didn't care if that was how I saw him last, I just hoped he had some peace before he passed away..

[@undergaming281]

"You've been carving maps into your skin to make the sickness show." Thank you citizen soldier For making music to help people explain their thoughts to other and making music to save them to. Thank you for saying our thoughts out loud for those who don't have the strength to say it themselves. We all love you jake and the rest of your band to.

[@Christylove2000]

“Some day you’ll see you were worth this fight” that definitely hit and I always wondered when it would come when no one would listen.. citizen soldier you have definitely been there for me like a friend I haven’t had in forever ❤️‍🩹🎶 Thank you 🙏

[@Kiterpuss]

I had suspected it may be so when the album art dropped, but this song is a love letter to the 2016 Jake. It's an honor that you've shared it with us. ❤

[@EthanNichols-l3e]

This is Jake's story glad he is still here and did not give up

[@marydeebutters6999]

I have cut my wrist and your songs are just so amazing. And it helps thank you. Don't stop what your doing.

[@Kev-Ph4nt0m]

I'm just speechless. When I heard the song I was both smiling and almost crying at the same time. You make me feel completely understood without exception, doesn't matter which song I hear. I really appreciate you as a band and as people. I can proudly say that the fight was worth it, Jake! A semicolon has saved my life, and so you did. Thank you for everything! 💜

[@WriterDreams44]

I need to hear the audio of this song 'Hey, kid you okay?' like I need air. No one has ever asked it my whole life. It makes me feel seen when I hear that line. Thanks for this. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@heru..3923]

If I could describe this band I'll just say SAVIOURS 🙏

[@twinightshifter239]

Im happy you are here jake , youve helped me and so many people , to continue their fight. You and your band Have helped me heal and countue ,from the worst times , from when i was 16, putting words to what i went through and as last year where i was dealing with a stressfull job and shitty work envirememt , stupidly stop taking my meds cold turky , the fact i had cops show up to my house....

[@twinightshifter239]

ah your guy's music has helped me continue my fight, you guys will still be here for the fight I'll need to face next year as I turn 26 and fight to be able to get health insurance for meds and other stuff

[@Corrupted05]

Another Song to be repeated more than hundred times❤thank you citizen soldiers for such Masterpiece 🔥

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 🫶

[@caslynn9531]

I've not been admitted to the ICU. While I try not to describe it this way, I was a coward and chickened out of both suicide attempts last minute. Yet. Despite that, despite the scars and the texts to suicide hotlines; I selfishly wonder if it takes landing in the ICU for family to take my depression seriously I haven't gotten to the ICU, but this song still resonates w me. The thoughts that go through my own and others' heads of just giving up and the horror of surviving that attempt It's hard to put into words. But tonight. I needed this song♡

[@InfinityShadow20]

6 seconds in and I got chills, started to cry and related to it so well. "You've been hurting in a million ways, no one else can see."

[@Jay-Gruener]

I've listened to a lot of Citizen Soldier. This is the one song that never fails to make me cry.

[@theultimatewarlord69420]

I have never heard a song such as this art, what a one-of-a-kind masterpiece! This song got me to tear up, therefore it won me over eternally, forever and always. In general, the greatest, the ultimate, song out of every others to have ever existed, and I am so glad this came to me at the right time, when I am just piecing my broken life back together - university is stupidly difficult. As for the context of Citizen Soldier alone, this was the second-best song, after Let It Burn. Finally, something surpassed Would Anyone Care! My top 5 outstanding Citizen Soldier songs of all time, as of right now: 1. Let It Burn. 2. ICU. 3. Would Anyone Care. 4. Face To Face. 5. You Are Enough

[@Ms.B88]

Jake this song is so dang beautiful. I SEE YOU TOO! My mom’s currently in hospital from a stroke,can’t talk. This song and the entire album are my saving grace. Laurie 💙♾️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Sending hugs 🫶

[@dagger3k]

So sorry to hear that chin up you give a positive outlook she will get strength from hope she gets past this

[@Ms.B88]

@@dagger3k thank you. She’s been in hospital since oct 23rd rehab for 5 days and they almost ended her life by not giving her fluids n food. I got her to ER and she was in kidney failure. She had surgery today for a feeding tube. Spoke her first word last night. 💙♾️

[@caitlinsmith167]

I’m so sorry praying for yall

[@elainekaydendracosong8135]

Sending prayers and blessings. If you need to talk. I'm willing to listen, I'm a stroke survivor myself.

[@sparkyyy395]

this song made me burst out crying. it reminded me of one of my loved ones. 💔

[@EvaHoshizora]

Sometimes I feel like no matter what I do, I'm never good enough, then I see your music show on my recommended again when I need it the most and I just have a good cry. I'm following you for 2 years I think now, and I'm glad you are here.

[@mikaelagonzalez9531]

I was woefully unprepared to hear this. My heart absolutely breaks for you, I feel your pain. We feel your pain. We are crying with you. I'm so happy you're not in that place anymore, at least I hope so. We need songs this painful and raw for people to understand what truly goes on in those dark times. This is definitely one of my favorites you guys have done. Stay strong everyone. Reach out if you need help, please don't suffer alone 🖤

[@JustusGagnon1]

Every song is a banger and has lots of meaning, keep the good work

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🫶 More songs on the way

[@aliciamcconkey8361]

When I was a teenager in the ER I had an LCSW who was there with me and saw me. I survived and though my journey has been long, hard and full of near misses, and it will always need to be medicated due to genetics. I'm in a better stable place in my head. So much so that I have only a few months left until I finish my MSW degree and enter the field as a therapist for teenagers just like I used to be. I was seen and I will be there to see others so that maybe one of them will end up being there to see someome else in the future.

[@JAR5783]

I have been obsessed with this band ever since a friend had me listen to one of their songs, not only are the songs amazing but they have so much emotion in them that it is hard not to relate to them in some way. As a SA and DA survivor, I struggle with anxiety, depression, and feeling like some days not being here and it has helped me so much listening to this band and with the support of friends and family. I absolutely love the ICU album and I am so thankful for you guys and what you do ❤

[@JC-bq3vd]

I remember when I was in the icu for cutting up my arm and od'ing this song explains every thing I felt that day the overwhelming pain the shame, the guilt, the blame it all still hurts so bad thank you for this it's so beautiful and helps me

[@GothicLane]

Jake, how do you and your band always know what I need to hear, right when I need to hear it? December is always the worst part of the year for me, and this song coming out just before hand,; it helps me see that the dark doesn't have to win. Through your ability to tell your story, to show people that not being ok all the time is ok. I'm sure there will come a time in my life, when I won't feel like I'm fighting a losing battle wit myself. Thank you, for giving words to the feelings. Thank you.

[@s0arYT]

Citizen soldier is such an amazing band and I really mean that, they've saved so many people. This band's music is more honest and meaningful than 90% of bands out there today. That's why I love these guys. 💛

[@bogiccakardos]

Hi Jake! This is going to sound dumb because this is *your* story, but my best friend sent this to me the moment it came out because literally two days before I almost threw my life away. I would've done it, no questions asked. But she gave me enough hope to hold on for a little longer. I'm not sure how long that's going to last. But this song is way too accurate and fit even my life's story. And although I'm not seeing reasons right now, I'm glad you stayed Jake. You saved my best friend more times than I could count. I wish you knew just what it means to me that you can keep her here. I'm truly grateful for you and the band for everything you do. I hope you have an even better next year! Love you endlessly.

[@garmadonthesensei59]

It’s so hard to pick a “best” song from you guys cause every single one is a certified MASTERPIECE. But this one… it’s up there. The heart beat, play on words, and that final minute. Wow, this is truly one of the greats. Never stop saving lives ❤

[@charathedemon5939]

Thank you Citizen for helping many people with whatever they go through. Try to stay determined.

[@caitlinsmith167]

As a mental ptsd person I know I how it feels this song is so special to me Thanks Jake

[@NotMyResponsibility12]

This hits hard. Thank you Jake for everything. I'm here because of ur music; it pulled me out of my dark spot and I'm currently healing. You've helped so many people including me. Again thank you so much.

[@TheSketcher3000]

You truly don't understand that state of mind unless you've been there. The music you guys produce is such a fantastic road map to acknowledge how you feel in that place, and get a helping hand to start climbing out at the same time. When I describe this band to others I can't help but say this feels like a spiritual successor to Linkin Park. It's an incredibly brave thing to put your heart on your sleeve within the music, but I, along with many others, are so grateful you have the courage to do so. You've somehow given a voice to the buried feelings that usually exist beyond words for so many. Thanks again!

[@ErshEight]

Your songs have saved me before from being in a terrible place in my mind, they will definitely be my inspiration to keep going to see where life takes me. I can't thank you enough for putting what is otherwise unsaid in your lyrics, you guys are incredible!

[@spacebowles2588]

After a long icu stay followed by a very long mental hospital stay I can honestly say you help!!! This is a therapy and it’s amazing and it makes me feel. Thank you!!! ❤❤❤❤

[@Roman-jc6dk]

This song just hits on a different level. When I first heard it I really couldn't describe everything I felt. This is indeed is the most meaningful piece of art that CS ever made Have a question, though. Can you tell me, how will the bonus songs be released?

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate that 🫶 The bonus tracks will be announced here soon

[@Roman-jc6dk]

​@@CitizenSoldierthank you so much! And thank you for this album. And thank you for being here. We all wouldn't be here if not for you

[@jameshamilton9936]

I've shared my story on another song from another artist but this is exactly what happened to me 2 years ago roughly I even wrote a poem called I see you about everything I went throught to get to where I am so minutes after this was released I sent this to my therapist and we spent so much of our session that day talking about it I still face challenges today from my attempt my voice changed from the intubation I had to endure thank you citizen soldier I hope to see you and icon for hire on April 30th 2024 i still have to get tickets you both are two of my favorite artists I'd be so psyched to see you preform

[@BlockMelody]

When I came across this channel I fell in love with your songs… life is tough because you lose people that you love and struggle is real and depress is real😔😔

[@jenerlendson5911]

I have been fighting so hard to keep myself from ending up in this position... It feels like a battle i will never win.... At least not right now.... Thank you for this, for putting these words to music, for going through and surviving all you have to be able to write things so powerful and relatable... Just thank you

[@kryswilson2743]

The album is a masterpiece and this is an amazing song

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🫶

[@MS-ij1xm]

Some days are hard but some days are wonderful and truly happy I'm still here and still fighting.

[@sunny-ry9sh]

1:32 Hit me hard. I mean, your songs usually do. Knowing I've thought about how my family would react if I did something that can't be taken back makes me feel so bad. Now I'm a bit better than even 2 years ago, but it's hard to try become a "normal" adult, when all your life you've been exposed to things no child or anyone should be exposed to. A few days ago I turned 18, legally an adult, which I thought I could or would never become.

[@saraamormino5115]

This song broke me. I'm on the verge of breaking. This song hits so hard. Every word shakes my soul to the core. You guys have saved me so many times. Thank you for making music that helps. You guys are the best. Keep up the good work

[@keks8497]

stumbled across this randomly and I'm in tears. you captured the emotions perfectly, and the music and the singing is amazing. my compliments to you!

[@DillanDitcham]

​@CitizenSoldier last year, i was on the edge, about to give up, when i first came across your music. Your music brought me back from that ledge. Thank you. And though i know the fight is far from over, i am able to at least keep fighting because of you guys.

[@Wolfdancer4859]

This song feels like it was pulled out of my heart and through my throat, so beautiful and simply amazing. 🧡

[@CitizenSoldier]

Much love 🫶

[@coltonchase333]

Man I felt this song in my heart I'm 25 and I deal with severe anxiety and recently been going threw bad panic attacks n depression I'm working on myself all the time trying to do better n love myself losing my grandpa and uncles been the hardest my best friends been feeling like no hope n I have nothing left 😭🥲

[@i.m_late]

The heartbeat with the sound of the machine in the middle and the end of the song just hit different. Like the drum you add at the end. I can just feel it ✨

[@hardcore_rs]

Instand goosebumps in the first 12 seconds❤

[@amandastroinski2237]

This song is very relatable and that I have been to a psychiatric hospital 10 years ago I have been on psychic meds for 10 years the psychic meds do not help at all it only numbs the pain that I have indured since my child hood and teenage years and now still going through as an adult and now I'm dealing with stage 4 breast cancer but I love your songs they help me out thank you!

[@alexalexcws]

This is now my new favorite. Hands down. Amazing album and song as always!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🫶

[@joeyabraham9159]

you guys are always amazing this song is yet another hit. i love your group cause your lyrics tell me you get it and even though i am on the other side living a happy life finally it still brings me so much comfort to here your songs and it always reminds me to to care harder. May God bless you always.

[@rebann]

I found Citizen Soldier at my darkest moment in life. I could practically feel the cut it would take to end everything, and it almost felt good. Citizen Soldier saved me before I wound up in the ICU, or worse. Thank you so, so much for showing me that I'm not alone. Thank you for showing me that people care for me. Thank you for showing me that I have the power to take back my life. Thank you for showing me that I can do this. Some days it still hurts deeply, but I have hope to get through now. Hope for a future. Thank you for everything.

[@dannyfeador107]

Thank god I survived my attempt January 18th of this year…the surgeons said I had less than 2% chance of survival due to blood loss and damage to the major arteries in my neck. God was on my side that day, and I’m on all of your sides…the world is a better place with all of us in it. This song kicked me straight in the gut, such a beautiful, deep and touching song. If no one has told you guys lately, you’re needed in this life.

[@KingMagenta]

What a beautiful song, I cried immediately once Jake started singing. We can share the experience of the dark day when we almost left this world. Thank you for sharing your pain. We love you

[@charlessmith6508]

This broke me down, an absolutely beautiful song, thank you ❤🖤

[@Boi00]

this song is so, SO tragic. Never been in an icu before but i'm struggling alot mentally, this song explains how SCARY it can be to be at that point, laying there, in extreme emptiness, hopeless, tired. Fuck man... i can feel this song.

[@darkangel8968]

Hard to listen to the true meaning of this song I have been through this many times around the holidays I try so hard to keep picking myself back up .. your music has meant more to me then you will ever know much love to you and your band

[@PurpleFlames87]

Reminds me of my crazy teen years but the song also reminds me of Jake's origin story and how we're all grateful he stuck around to give these messages to all of us

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you 🫶

[@aimeefrieze3000]

Your music always help me. Keep releasing music

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear it helps 🫶

[@DanielShafer-k6u]

This song hits home hard it's like you read my mind and took the words right of my head and brought them to life I was only 13yrs old when I tried taking my life and woke up in the ICU and got put in a padded room in a blue gown and not a single family member showed up to make sure I survived or not I'm literally in tears right now 😢😢😢

[@TheNamesRise]

This has to be my favourite of the title tracks, it’s so beautiful

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🫶

[@ozzynichols8861]

This song makes me remember when I was 16 and was in the ICU because I took an handful of pills. My grandparents said they will never fully understand what I was going through but when I was laying in that bed on life support they could see how much pain I must have been in

[@Zeek529]

My prospective of this song is the personal relationship I have with god. He’s been the only true best friend that’s always stuck by my side. 🤘🏻❤️anyone else feel the same?

[@biancamoore413]

You are special you are talented you are smart you are lovable what you feel, and what you think matters you deserve peace and happiness

[@Zeek529]

@@biancamoore413 thank you, you are as well.

[@AndiSchneider]

This song it was hard. In June of 2009 I woke up in the ICU after attempting to leave this world. I thought I was doing everyone a favor because I was such a burden on everyone, I couldn’t just snap out of it, and I felt like the darkness would never end. Now here I am so many years later and a mother to an amazing little boy. I struggle with those old thoughts lately, but never once have I considered leaving my son without me. God blessed me with this miracle and I love him with my whole heart and being.

[@ambermoore5171]

Absolutely amazing goosebumps and shivers

[@CitizenSoldier]

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