"I'm either numb or feel too much" hits way too close to home. 9/10
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Glad you liked it 🧡
@shylo51072 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier you guys make the world better with your music 🎶
@Vampire_Girl932 жыл бұрын
Feel u man, i have borderline.
@shylo51072 жыл бұрын
@@Vampire_Girl93 I find citizen soldier helps me when I think of my pain loosing my dad at a very young age all the hate the pain the sorrow I hold it up in my head when I sing with this band I am free
@kaystevo47962 жыл бұрын
💯 Feel ya there ♥️
@jules67352 жыл бұрын
“Am I manic or is this just me? Panic is my personality” Another amazing song guys (and the highlight of my week) thank you❤️
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you Jules 🧡
@rickysellstedt73959 ай бұрын
Big true! Been listening to this song on repeat and the whole song just talks to me. Sooo good!
@MooodyDawe2 жыл бұрын
I'm so glad to live in a time period where you guys exist. What a privilege it is to hear your music.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate those words Rhiannon 🧡
@brianagrootboom1039 Жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier hyy I'm sorry for the bother but do you think you can write a song about specifically dealing with Borderline Personality disorder.... Cause I doubt I'm alone and I was hoping to have a song to or maybe a piece to fall down to... P. S this is beautiful. Got me crying on the first go. Thank you so much for your music. It means the world to me 😖
@mystiangel962 жыл бұрын
Every line is perfect. The nods to Always December make it even more emotional. Much love! ❤️
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Glad to hear that 🧡
@Hutch20042 жыл бұрын
I completely agree 👍
@giorgostsak427 Жыл бұрын
Also this one is so much better than always December!
@mystiangel96 Жыл бұрын
@@giorgostsak427 Eh, to each their own :) Always December has a pretty special place in my heart, though.
@LoveWolves4Ever Жыл бұрын
I'm a teenage girl and your songs always hit way too close to home. I suffer from PTSD and although I'm taking steps to get better I know it will never completely go away. Your songs have brought me a lot of strength on really dark nights. Thank you, seriously. 🖤
@gachaalex1517 Жыл бұрын
I swear we are twins because I am literally the same. Literally every single word of this song is me. We will get through this together 🖤
@TheZephyrsWind3 ай бұрын
Not a teen, but I relate. I wish these guys were around when I was 16-19, especially right after losing my dad to cancer... It would've helped me a lot.
@zackgames68192 ай бұрын
@@TheZephyrsWind I fell you on that one man. I lost my best friend at 12 to a gernade. It was way to young of a age to go down this path but I got pushed in bc my mom had started divorcing my dad 3 months earlier. This entire album would have been so good to have. It's been 3 almost 4 years and I was recovering but my best friend now stopped talking to me after he got a gf, (this was about 3 months ago) and now with school getting ready to start back and my mom yelling at me for no reason and other crap in my life it's like a nuke going off in my mind and I've already almost grabbed a knife wanting to just end it all. I hope we can both find a cure one day.
@darkdesire4512 жыл бұрын
This song is just indescribably good, it says what you are trying to hide deep in your heart, I can only say thank you again and again, thank you for all these masterpieces that say more than a million words could ever do.❤
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate those words 🧡
@claudiothewarrior2 жыл бұрын
This band can't make a bad song and I think that's beautiful.
@arcadia89362 жыл бұрын
“Slave to what I remember” “Im either numb or feel too much” God damn those lines hit so hard 😭
@brettskinner1416 Жыл бұрын
Me too
@Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 Жыл бұрын
A lesson learned the hard way is a lesson learned, that is, if you cared enough to learn from your mistakes
@ZeroOmega-vg8nq Жыл бұрын
@@Obi-Wan_Kenobi62 problem is you can learn from those mistakes but they can still haunt you long after youve learned the lesson.
@Manuel_26072 жыл бұрын
Told y'all, it's gonna be a masterpiece and here we are! 🧡
@the_lost_goonie7222 жыл бұрын
Never thought I'd find a song that would describe how I've felt for the past 5 years...another absolutely amazing song.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
🧡
@shaylynn9262 жыл бұрын
When you're constantly stuck in the past, the negativity, the endless night, you lose sight of what matters. I think this song perfectly depicts the stress traumas cause, the stress constantly feeling like everyone's out to destroy you is like. On top of what severe depression and bad thoughts about staying in the living realm feels like, as well.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
We know exactly what you mean Shaylynn 🧡 Sending hugs
@laurah2002 жыл бұрын
Got chills, this is exactly my jam. Thanks guys, can’t wait for a Europe tour someday 🧡
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Would love to play Europe Laura 🧡
@konikiispoka800 Жыл бұрын
Im waiting for Europe too Especially Poland
@GalacticVes2 жыл бұрын
This hits me in the heart hard. Your music shows me I'm not alone. Thank you so much for everything you write.
@gracechance1632 жыл бұрын
You're absolutely not alone 💪❤️
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
We hear you 🧡
@gamla_frost3637 Жыл бұрын
I would be self pitying myself right now thinking I was alone if it wasn’t for Citizen Soldier
@Horsemelody1084 Жыл бұрын
“Now life goes on but I’m stuck in December” “Slave to what I remember” “The more I think the more I can’t breathe” This song is just beautiful and so relatable Citizen Soldier!!! 🧡🧡🧡
@Lynaka12232 жыл бұрын
This song hits me in the feels. December is a bad month for me so thank you for making me feel not so alone ❤
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
December blows 🧡
@gamla_frost3637 Жыл бұрын
Winter is my favorite season but I can understand that people don’t like it
@Sarah-du7vy2 жыл бұрын
“Panic is my personality” and “slave to what I remember” hits *so* damn hard. Y’all are awesome. Much love💞
@CameySaurusRex2 жыл бұрын
"Panic is my personality" Fuck dude that shouldn't have struck my heart as deep as it did 🥺😭😭😭 This whole song though is such a call out to how easily I sometimes let my mental illness spiral. I'm still strong every day even just at a fraction but I'll admit there's subtle moments at times that could last either mins or hours of my mental health feeling like a demon that I have to go square off with just to feel steady/calm/afloat.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
We hear you Cameron 🧡 Gotta stay strong friend
@KrulDaRapper12 жыл бұрын
Very nice . I was recommended here while listening to the song “Sayo- Ndrangheta “ ❗️❗️❗️
@mollytubbs56192 жыл бұрын
“Am I manic or is this just me?” I’ve asked myself this a lot lately. I’ve been listening all morning. Another hit, you guys just don’t miss! 🧡🧡
@DeeWoods142 жыл бұрын
Woohoo 🎉 I'm so excited to listen to this Citizen Soldier, thank you for your truly inspiring music
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for listening Dee 🧡
@tinycarat2 жыл бұрын
When I really have a bad time or bad moment, you upload a song... For example today, which is one of the worst day of my life, you saved me from my loneliness. Every time you made a song, I really found a piece of myself in that song. I don't know what is your secret to making me feel better but thank you for this.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Glad to hear that 🧡 Sending hugs
@gracechance1632 жыл бұрын
"If I show you, I know you'll just leave" has me crying. Thxxx for the music. Much love. Y'all are amazing and stronger than you're capable of believing or ever even knowing. I don't know who needs to hear this, but you're amazing, you're beautiful, you're strong, you're absolutely not alone, and I'm so proud of you. 💪❤️
@lexvinar9825 Жыл бұрын
I am sitting outside of my Partial hospitalization program while listening to this. I just got out of the hospital for being suicidal and being off my meds for a month. This song has given me some hope. Thank you @citizensoldier !🥰❤️
2 жыл бұрын
"These days giving up is looking more like paradise" ♥
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
🧡
@jenniferhennessy9657 Жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier o9j
@elizabethblott47352 жыл бұрын
This hits close to home with something I’m dealing with today. Yet another beautiful and meaningful song🤍
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Much love Elizabeth 🧡
@xaulmando2 жыл бұрын
Citizen Soldier has been my saving grace these past few months and I can never express how in debt I am to them. Feels good to be seen 💜
@nicolbartonikova36792 жыл бұрын
When I think you already covered all of my emotions in your songs, you come up with something new and I am once again in awe of your talent. Thank you guys for giving me hope in my dark days 🌤️
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Stay strong Nicol 🧡 Much love
@Ms.Kriddle2 жыл бұрын
Like a soldier fighting battles back behind my eyes. A shout out to all of our members of our Armed forces who deal with PTSD💜💜💜🧡
@THE_MISTRESS_OF_SHADOWS Жыл бұрын
And those who aren't part of the armed forces who have PTSD
@eugenegreer75422 жыл бұрын
Ребята вы даже не представляете как ваши песни помогают, спасибо от души, продолжайте дальше, в моем плейлисте еще много места 🥳
@zodiac85952 жыл бұрын
бро здесь в основном англ. аудитория. если знаешь английский, пиши на нем чтоб тя понимали 😎👍
@dandromeda66762 жыл бұрын
Não só inglês
@Avensia862 жыл бұрын
@@zodiac8595 можно перевести любой комментарий, под ним есть кнопка Перевести. 😏
@eugenegreer7542 Жыл бұрын
@@zodiac8595 я специально написал так, что-бы ребята понимали что их и в России слушают 😀
@zodiac8595 Жыл бұрын
@@eugenegreer7542 вас понял сударь XDDDDDD
@ebonybailey89812 жыл бұрын
I’m in such a bad place right now and your songs help me get by thank you so much ❤
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Stay strong friend 🧡 Sending hugs
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Stream/Download 👉 citizensoldier.band/goldenweather Follow Us on Twitch 👉 citizensoldier.band/twitch Shop for merch 👉 citizensoldier.band/merch Follow us on TikTok 👉 citizensoldier.band/tiktok Talk to us on Instagram 👉 citizensoldier.band/instagram Please SHARE it with someone that needs to hear it.
@ashleyburghdoff95112 жыл бұрын
Can you come to Michigan sometime? I'd love to be able to meet the man who saved my life many times.
@bigbot15082 жыл бұрын
Today is my birthday! this was not intended to be a gift, but it feels like it, thank you so much!!!
@ashleyburghdoff95112 жыл бұрын
@@bigbot1508 happy birthday!
@mjuytsjmser292 жыл бұрын
Ob foi seguir
@ashleyburghdoff95112 жыл бұрын
@@mjuytsjmser29 huh
@arefbenali263 Жыл бұрын
Can't wake up, can't wake up From living in yesterday I've had enough, had enough Of watching it on replay I'm so scared of every trigger because if it gets pulled It's gonna turn my brain into an endless hole Going down When will it happen again? No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever With just a taste, just a touch My whole world is crumbling I'm either numb or feel too much And there is no in between Like a soldier fighting battles back behind my eyes These days giving up is looking more like paradise Going down When will it happen again? No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever Am I manic or is this just me? Panic is my personality The more I think the more that I can't breathe If I show you I know you'll just leave If I show you I know you'll just leave If I show you I know you'll just No more golden weather All war and no surrender Now Life goes on But I'm stuck in December No more golden weather Slave to what I remember Now I just pray That nothing lasts forever (Nothing lasts forever)
@katsukibakugo349 Жыл бұрын
"These days giving up is looking more like paradise." That line hit me so hard
@gothfoxgirlAO32 жыл бұрын
I just LOVE how each song seems to reference previous songs! It makes everything seem tied together...like it's one person with all these experiences. Which it is.
@Ashiro_Sasaki2 жыл бұрын
Ikr! I have the same vibe with "Wanted" and "Hand Me Down" with the lyrics saying "I open up, I get replaced like who I am is a mistake". Moreover, this one has a picture similar to "Madhouse".
@gothfoxgirlAO32 жыл бұрын
@@Ashiro_Sasaki there are a lot of their songs that reference other songs and I love it. Those three songs have some really vivid imagery and I love their messages.
@Ashiro_Sasaki2 жыл бұрын
@@gothfoxgirlAO3 You're right, I love that as well!
@gamla_frost3637 Жыл бұрын
It’s like the the MCU Infinity Saga but with Citizen Soldier and their songs
@CK-lr7sd2 жыл бұрын
Another incredible song by CS as always! Hoping everyone that sees this has the best day/night you can! And sending hugs to anyone that wants/needs them!🤗🤗🤗
@taranthompson10262 жыл бұрын
I'm in the middle of a depressive episode right now and you have no idea how much this helps Your songs have been one of the main things keeping me away off the ledge for a long time, and I am so very grateful. Your music brought light back into my life after years of living in the dark Thank you ❤
@lindsays96502 жыл бұрын
....... Give me a second to catch my breath. This is the best song I've heard all year. I've been a fan for a while now but this song just means something more to me. Love you guys!
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate you Lindsay 🧡
@ButterflyDivide Жыл бұрын
I’ve been here for so long, and I’m so proud of you guys coming this far. Really. From humble beginning to now half a million. I’m so proud of you guys. Your music has reached so many people, your humor has reached so many people, and your band captures, validates, and helps people. I’m so proud to be a part of the citizen soldier army
@murasakirin89982 жыл бұрын
This is so accurate in describing my ptsd that its almost liberating. I've actually shared some lyrics of your songs with my therapist when I ran out of words to describe it. Truly I thank you.
@gamla_frost3637 Жыл бұрын
I think I might do that too (if I can get one)
@murasakirin8998 Жыл бұрын
@Sarafina Summers thats messed up. Sometimes you just run out of your own words and can't describe things as well as someone else. There have been times where Citizen Soldier has made aspects of my pain much clearer through their lyrics.
@TheLoneWolf-wj9pi2 жыл бұрын
This band hits places no therapist could've ever
@jacobstowe23712 жыл бұрын
I have no words, this song left me speechless, "I'm either numb or feel too much" every bit of this song was too relatable, I don't know what to say other than that this is my favourite song and that I can't wait to hear what you have in store for us 🧡
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
More on the way Jacob 🧡
@rickysellstedt73959 ай бұрын
If i ever got to get the chance to write a song about how i feel, then this would be it! "When will it happen again" hit me extra hard... Thank you, and good job, Citizen Soldier!
@leonmislo2 жыл бұрын
I actually don't wanna cry...but yes! 🥺 Golden Weather - the prequel to Always December! You are maybe the only one who tell a fairytale through your songs. Golden Weather is the moment before the mental-breakdown, before you're stucked in your bad thoughts, experiences. The screams in the background teased it, that this person wanna fight against his/her agony. And Always December is the point, that you gave up, that it's too late; the darkness was stronger than the GOLDEN WEATHER. 🥺🥺🌤 Thank you so much for this lyrical-masterpiece! I love it! Thank you!🙏🙏🌤
@alaire66505 ай бұрын
I can't believe just how close your songs hit to home..
@voltix95942 жыл бұрын
“These days giving up is looking more like paradise” goddamn, that line hit hard
@HarleyQuinn-mv5me Жыл бұрын
Every song is how I feel and this song is how I feel... And the part I feel numb or too much is so true... 💔
@nissatropa2 жыл бұрын
Big respect for all those songs in such a short time
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
🧡
@emless5597 Жыл бұрын
Honestly, I used to feel like this. It sucked. My dad was verbally and sometimes even physically abusive. My brother bullied me when we were little. My uncle r*ped me for 4 years. And the entire time, I had undiagnosed Autism. My brother is much better now. My uncle is dead. My dad is better, but he still confuses me. Sometimes, he says he is proud, and other times, he yells at me even in the middle of a panic attack. I know my relationship with my dad will never be that good but I'm finally truly happy! I have all these amazing, kind friends who I can always count on. I have my online bestie, who I tell everything. I've grown up to be a pretty good person. I help whoever I can, and I'll do anything to see someone else smile! Your songs really helped me. Thank you so much! Now, sometimes I'm so happy my chest hurts!
@vampirelover124892 жыл бұрын
Yet another song by this band that within the opening hits close to home, but I already love
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
🧡
@abigailmcvey8055 Жыл бұрын
Just listen to it. Chills I remember feeling this so hard just months ago, I still do but the help I’ve gotten has made it easier. Keeping going guys, stay for a little longer
@Truffle85 Жыл бұрын
"All war and no surrender" sent chills down my spine! Another great song!
@obsidianhellqueen877 Жыл бұрын
lately been feeling down and depressed. so citizens soldier has been helping me
@janicelawson8887 Жыл бұрын
im glad his music helps you, ive been in this hsopital for about 8/9 months and listening to him helps me so much.
@obsidianhellqueen877 Жыл бұрын
@@janicelawson8887 i understand i have been in a hospital before so i get it. good luck with your path to healing, ik one may not fully heal but know you have cheerleaders chearing u on and friends and family and people who will stit and let you vent and or talk for help. i send good vibs and healing love.
@A_AA_AA_AA_AA_A2 жыл бұрын
This song hits hard, It’s written and sang so well! I loved the line “These days Giving up is looking more like Paradise” it describes exactly how I feel daily
@aria27042 жыл бұрын
"Like A Soldier Fighting Battles Back Behind My Eyes" is just so relateable. We are like trying to re-fight the battles from the past, and even tho we cant really fight it to make it stop, the music helps me always get through my darkest days. I just wanna say, Thank you for always making me feel better when im at my lowst, and spreading awareness for ptsd. 🧡💙💜
@Cosmicgothx Жыл бұрын
As a Cptsd Sufferer, sometimes the smallest thing can make everything crumble. Amazing song
@jasonc7503 Жыл бұрын
How are these guys not playing om major radio stations. I mean these songs save lives.
@janicelawson8887 Жыл бұрын
thats what ive been saying!🖤🤍
@natascha_mephisto2 жыл бұрын
this moment when someone makes a song that you can show other people so they can understand your PTSD and also a bit of your BPD better. Thank you so so much ♥
@Sweet_UwU_ Жыл бұрын
your songs oversew my wounds on my heart thank you
@Luv2002 жыл бұрын
As always, AMAZING song Jake!! 😌 and as always, I send you much love and Many virtual hugs 🥺🤗🧡
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Sending hugs back 🧡
@Luv2002 жыл бұрын
@@CitizenSoldier 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
@Emanuel-hh4uu2 жыл бұрын
Thank you for making relatable songs. I'm in a pretty dark place and it just hit right in the spot. "Now, life goes on, but I'm stuck in December". It's just how my life feels like. Time goes on, responsibilities go on and I'm expected to push though it all because life won't stop to give me a break. It feels like I'm watching people through a window and how happy they seem and I just pray they'd never feel the pain I feel. I can't enjoy the happy moments because they're so fleeting like the wind. I know at night it's gonna be war again. Really, thank you guys for everything you do. You are getting us through the pain and although most of us don't feel like we can tell anyone "because you'd just leave", we can relate to these songs, take our torch and let that very dim light guide us all. Love you all guys! 🤍
@Ashiro_Sasaki2 жыл бұрын
I am ABSOLUTELY stunned by this one. The animations, the lyrics, your voice, everything is just so stunning that I don't even have the words to describe how lit this song is. I love all your music! 🖤🧡🔥
@UnfamusOfficial Жыл бұрын
Despite the lack of exposure, these are songs that *need* to be written. These songs you make are so strong they practically will themselves into existance. Thank you for speaking what must be spoken.
@BrokenHeartedVS2 жыл бұрын
"No more golden weather. All war and no surrender." This line is such a double edged sword. Not only does it describe the "monster made of memories" in our heads, but it also describes the warriors fighting that monster everyday. Also, I love the way this song mirrors Always December!
@nicholehale1274 Жыл бұрын
"I'm either numb, or feel too much. There's no in between"
@lyulf2 жыл бұрын
"I'm scared of every trigger because if it gets pulled it's gonna turn my brain into an endless hole." "These days giving up is looking more like paradise." These 2 lines hit right in the soul and pretty much sum up my existence.
@hlway402 жыл бұрын
"These days giving up is looking more like paradise".. Damn guys, it's really heart-wrenching knowing that you could literally relate to that line.
@meganahasic61542 жыл бұрын
This hits hard. Your timing is perfect. Thank you.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Much love Megan 🧡
@courtneymcmaster7438 Жыл бұрын
I’m in tears listening to this it hits home so much thank you for this song your music literally keeps me alive
@DeeWoods142 жыл бұрын
Wow Citizen Soldier 😎 you have outdone yourself again love it. Thanks for your amazing music and truly inspiring lyrics 👍☺️♥️
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Dee 🧡
@Gilded_Wolf Жыл бұрын
This song breathes life into me 🧡
@jaspershores5752 жыл бұрын
Beautiful song. This song describes how I felt most of my life up through high school
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Jasper 🧡
@jakubslavicek6796 Жыл бұрын
this is the music nowdays needs, not some stupid pop songs about dancing monkey either rap songs about drugs this si the music that should been played in radio bcs this is what people needs to hear and not what they want to hear
@Serenity_932 жыл бұрын
Absolute masterpiece 👏 🧡
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Heather! 🧡
@VoidGalaxy484 Жыл бұрын
I...we just moved out of our abusers’ house a month & a half ago...& we're regaining our ability to cry, slowly remembering who we want(ed) to be...& I haven't found anything that describes how we've felt as we unravel & process everything- not till now. This is perfect. & I'm crying. Thank you for putting our feelings into words 😭💚. ~a DID system who adores all of your music
@aria7592 Жыл бұрын
Congratulations on getting out 💕💕💕
@VoidGalaxy484 Жыл бұрын
@@aria7592 Thank you 😭
@pedromok7 Жыл бұрын
IF I SURRENDER + ALWAYS DECEMBER = GOLDEN WEATHER ORGULLOSO DE ELEGIRLOS, SIEMPRE... GRACIAS POR TANTO NEW SONG, AMAZING... I LOVE MY FAVOURITE BAND 🧡💫
@osir_beymrstr3857 Жыл бұрын
Y'all have help me,my brother, and my father from depression we have had from loved ones that were very close to us and I wanted to thank y'all for that y'all are very talented and hope y'all go on tour so I can see y'all in person and say this to your faces and show y'all how much I appreciate y'all
@Ventiiiiiii2 жыл бұрын
Such a beautiful song! I relate to it so much, thanks for making it ❤😭🌦
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks for listening 🧡
@theultimatewarlord694202 жыл бұрын
The bridge of this song is literally me. It’s part of my nature, as an introvert, but moreover it’s also my personality. I love being alone, but when I have someone by my side, I will cherish that and do all I can to never separate from the person or do something to get them to separate from me. I built this belief up in my head, and it’s holding me down in my social life, though I’m an introvert, I’m the social type of introvert. That bridge literally just hit home for me. But I am very lucky that the current friends that I have made, still have faster graduating high school and the few that I have made in my first year of university this year, understand me, and I understand them. Share our personal feelings, we shower in that darkness and rise back up together
@anonymousdude432 Жыл бұрын
I feel like the biggest curse would be immortality because it's just a lonely day that lasts forever.
@TheZephyrsWind3 ай бұрын
I feel ya there. I can't think of anything worse than that. Even if my health wasn't absolutely terrible, still, my mind makes every day hell. It never shuts up, always finding a way to make me suffer mentally as well. I turned 36 recently & when my mother (dad's dead), then later on my doctor, told me happy birthday I actually had a real smile & said thanks, but the smile was because inside my head I was thinking "I'm a year closer to being free." My mother knows I feel that way, but I never come out & say it anymore, it's terrible to do that to someone who genuinely loves you.
@thelostsoulslittlegirl6505 Жыл бұрын
I actually nearly cried because of how close to home this actually hits for me. Even the month used hits the nail on the head.
@Ghost-nr1ng2 жыл бұрын
This feels like the kind of song you'd blast on a long car ride with the windows down singing your heart out 🖤 yet another beautiful song, thank uou
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
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@EtherealMinuet Жыл бұрын
I don’t normally comment on posts like these, but this song… Change December to November and it would be my story… Last year at this time, I almost gave up the fight. I was driven to the darkest of places and wound up in a mental hospital for trying to end it all. It was there I learned this song isn’t just my story, it’s so many others’ as well, fighting every day…
@outpaceace2 жыл бұрын
So good! I feel all the words! Like your singing it to me! I love this song. Another amazing one 👏🏻
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Glad you're here 🧡
@applesauceisgood322 жыл бұрын
Great song, I love the video style you guys use for the music, a lyric video that's fun to watch and really adds to the music. The way it draws attention to some words to help them stand out more is a good way to emphasize them.
@randomtomboy38132 жыл бұрын
Another banger! I love it so much! ❤
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
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@AlabasterCountryGirl2 жыл бұрын
This song ties so many of your songs together, and hits home for so many of us. Thank you for being a voice for the hurting.
@lilian_fortane2 жыл бұрын
I find my new anthem another times in your lyrics ! Love you Citizen Soldier
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Lilian 🧡
@h3romaniac Жыл бұрын
"These days giving up looks more like paradise" Dang... #relatable
@buddermastr Жыл бұрын
I keep coming back to this song cause of how much it relates to me. I've seen things I pray no one has to see and this first time I saw these things, I was off. I had anxiety constantly. I'll never be able to forget that but listening to this helps. Thank you. And to anyone who reads this, talk to someone. You have people in your life that will listen. I will listen
@bushboi69422 жыл бұрын
Ya know, I’m pretty sure this if the first time I’ve ever been hyped by a song, like in my entire life. Strangely some of the words resonate, but on top of that this is just amazing. It’s precisely what I think whenever I think of you guys! Just bravo! 🔥 🧡🫡
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Appreciate those words 🧡
@infinitelogic2621 Жыл бұрын
I don't know why but music like this hits different in autumn and winter. Even though I'm in doors I feel like there's a chilling presents in the air.
@alyssawainwright70352 жыл бұрын
Songs awesome just like all their other stuff, keep making music 🧡🖤💛
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Alyssa 🧡
@jamiesiegel93412 жыл бұрын
Your music has saved my life. It actually gave me the courage to save my own life with your music.
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Glad the music helps Jamie 🧡
@vividdragons1192 жыл бұрын
Absolutely love this song! 💜💜💜
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
🧡
@stariskyegaming5030 Жыл бұрын
I know december was probably just picked because it sounded good, but its true for me, my life changed in december, I went from a healthy happy child to being in the fight of my life against multiple illnesses that still havent let up 4 years later and this music is so helpful for all those pent up emotions, and the struggle to move on from the trauma
@teatimestories982 жыл бұрын
Your songs are gifts to heal the broken 💖
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Thanks Steve 🧡
@MightyMelonn2 жыл бұрын
I have it on repeat and i love it
@thegamingweeb28142 жыл бұрын
Amazing as always you guys❤
@CitizenSoldier2 жыл бұрын
Love to hear that 🧡
@Percy-and-Pate-know-the-thing2 жыл бұрын
This song made my week. It perfectly describes what I’ve been feeling recently. Thank you so much, Citizen Soldier, your music really has saved my life before. Sometimes I’ll be considering ending everything and then I just remember that if I do, then I’ll never get to hear your next song. Thank you💜 You’ve been my favorite band from the night I first heard your music almost a year ago, and you’ll always hold a special place in my heart.
@DemonYoriichiTsugikuni.2 жыл бұрын
Beautifull as always! 🧡 I Love this already from first words! 🧡✨✨