Being Alone and Opening Up | November Vlog Pt. 2

Always gotta finish what you started so here is the second part for the November vlog. I get the house to myself for ten days and it’s the first time I’ve been home alone in two years. Every day is filled to the brim. Lots of events, photoshoots and I open up about wanting to be more vulnerable on my channel.
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[@imjennim]

Happy Sunday, Eggies! This is the final part of the November vlog. In this one I open up more about my feelings and wanting to show more vulnerability on my channel. I hope all of you are having a relaxing day.

[@tori4274]

You are definitely one of my greatest inspirations Jenn!

[@imjennim]

Aww thanks Touri!

[@veliciahiley7652]

clothesencounters Thank you for sharing your feelings. I hope you remember that you are no longer a girl. You are a positive, upbeat & very smart young woman. It ok to say no, it ok to not agree. It’s very important that you do not settle and hold resentment later. Resentment is the birth discontent. So getting what you want or arriving at a compromise about things will help with self esteem.😊♥️

[@DoctorNikkiP]

clothesencounters I'm excited for your channel and how much you're growing! Hope you're having a good Sunday too :)

[@noravarga422]

clothesencounters i just teared up your happiness makes me happy💕 you motivate me soooo much so thank you ❤💋 keep up the positive energy

[@liezlmacabuhay]

The moment when you asked Sarah to be your bridesmaid really brought tears to my eyes :’)

[@jessicavije]

jenn does more things in a week than i will ever do in my entire life

[@SuperElise21]

Jessica Vije I watch these vlogs for inspiration to get my life together. Maybe that could work for you too 💞

[@summibear14]

* nods heads while lying in bed at 3pm *

[@puppetboymiguel9459]

Oh yeah I like Jenn Jessica Vije

[@umermagah5843]

Jenn's reaction to all the snacks Ben brought back from England lol SAME gurl same

[@ItsGloryDaze]

I honestly feel so much closer to you when you show your raw vulnerable emotions. I remember a really old interview years ago where you teared up because you were so sad that you couldn't get to know all of your fans at meet and greets. It was such a sweet and precious moment to see you like that. I know the fear of showing negative feelings esp growing up in a korean household, but I bet you'll see that your viewers will always appreciate you and probably love you even more for being real.

[@lavalives]

i feel the same way. dodie describes it in her book as “feeling like a glass full of water, and the slightest nudge makes it pour over”. i cry at everything. it’s painful, but you’re right, it’s growing pains. imagine how good we will feel on the other side

[@roplusmiu]

Really love how honest you always are in your videos Jenn, thank you for that 💞

[@imjennim]

Aww thank you! I'm glad you appreciate the honesty.

[@teebellamy]

*It’s so cool that you have so many friends who like to film and do photoshoots too* 🙌🏼 I’m looking to find more friends who are into the same things as me too ❤️

[@mkat712]

As a girl of about 15 years of age, I am really having a hard time finding what I like to wear / express myself as. A lot of people I feel judge me for who I am, and I’m scared to wear bold colors or do new things with my hair. I’ve just stuck with not really wearing a lot of makeup, and as a result I feel less pretty and less like me. However, watching your videos give me hope on how I can one day be just as confident, pretty, and happy as you are. Thank you so much Jen. These vlogs get me through the week.

[@imjennim]

Growing up, I was in a similar position as yours. I wanted to dress a certain way, but was terrified of what people would think. Then every day I started to challenge myself by getting out of my comfort zone. I put on the outfit I was nervous about and it got easier and easier as I kept doing it. Keep with it and stay true to yourself. n_n

[@Carrotcake00]

Jen! Please don't be obligated to have to show your vulnerable side to us. Just create whatever content you feel comfortable sharing. Honestly, when I see your videos, I don't always think like "omg her life is perfect" I see it as, "omg she has worked so hard to get where she is now" We know you had your ups and downs and your life reflects hardwork and inspires people like me.

[@KatieTracy]

Jenn you’re so honest and real❤️ We’re here to support you all the way!!

[@FROMCHRISTINA]

Love how open you are in this vlog! It's scary to be open nowadays, YOU GO GIRL 💞

[@LunaThatsMe]

The monthly vlogs are always my favorite so I'm super happy that the November vlog is split up in two! I really love them because they motivate me to work harder and be more productive :) I do have a video idea suggestion, I would love to see a planning video or something like that since you have such a busy life and seem to balance it all pretty well. Lots of love

[@AshleySialovesTimTam]

yes +1 for the planning video because jen always seems so organised and motivated

[@gagachanful]

Ben is the best guy : he brings back FOOD !!!!

[@shivaniupadhayay7536]

Wait update okay: I understand the emotion of your brain saying "No you should be grateful you have these problems". We all have our baggage and our childhood mentality that carries us into what we feel today. I get pretty insecure too, but to be honest it's because of others who have opened up about it that made me feel more confident. And I know you have your problems and stress, and you're definitely grateful, but always allow yourself to have a fit and feel upset. You're human and you have devoted yourself to a service which we all can enjoy while you work hard behind the scenes for it. Not everyone holds themselves to a standard or changing a standard for something. For you it's fashion. I'm glad you've chosen to open up to us even though KZbin can be cutthroat. Your honesty is appreciated and trust me, it's helping a lot of people out there. Including me.

[@imjennim]

Wow! Thank you so much for this message. I'm so happy that you really understand how I'm feeling and that we both are going through this.

[@user-cv5rb5cj1y]

Shivani Upadhayay so beautifully said!! ❤️❤️

[@dohwaa]

Thank you for being honest and vulnerable with us. Earlier today I was on your Instagram feed and I started feeling so envious of your life. It's comforting to know that someone who seems so perfect like you also struggled with jealousy in the past. And I'm just so happy to know that you overcame it because it means that one day I may be able to overcome it. I can't wait to listen to the podcast. You inspire so many people and are so loved. I will continue to support you!!! 💕

[@linakim8868]

A question: What does Jenn wear at home when her grey adidas shirt is in the wash?

[@EmilysLook]

Rose Kim I've seen her wear that yellow "just don't" Nike spoof a couple times, so prob that hahahah

[@sarahannwee]

another grey adidas shirt

[@colorth3ory]

This comment goes perfectly with your current pfp, LOOOL.

[@ayralily5986]

Rose Kim the blue tie dye shirt!

[@georgesand9177]

Does anyone know where she got the shirt from? It looks so comfy! Thanks

[@hannahkyme4809]

Jenns vlog are usually a 9.5/10 but girl this vlog was a 20/10

[@SpaceMonkiiBob]

Awwh Sarah's getting married too! That was such a sweet moment! I feel like I'm the opposite, I'm too good at hiding my emotions, I often struggle with loneliness because no one knows how I feel. I really dislike being vulnerable too, it goes back to childhood. It's crazy how experiences from our childhood can stick with us and effect the way we act right up to adulthood.

[@emfarmiga4188]

SpaceMonkiiBob same! and that last sentence is so true! some of them are terrible which i'm trying to resolve. :(

[@jellysams]

Aww, is Sarah engaged too?? Congrats if so!!

[@Hanhabelle]

I like your weather analogy with regards to your feelings, I'm going through a hard time and this really helped me, it's ok to deal with the ups and downs xx

[@jewel7784]

as a Korean girl also living in the U.S, i'm so happy when i see your videos and you incorporate elements of Korean culture and the Korean language into your everyday life!! it makes me feel a little closer to home even though i'm away most of the year for school

[@KPLF]

Girl you should definitely start adding recipes in your descriptions. Looks so delicious

[@jennaseoo1]

I want to know what matcha powder she uses! ah

[@hannahvenerella6056]

Yes! Or at least put a caption on the video spelling out the name of your dish so we can look it up ourselves!

[@jennaseoo1]

if you turn on subtitles it spells the dish but i will spell it out for you anyways. Its called dakdoritang also known as dakbokkeumtang it is a very delicious korean dish

[@hannahvenerella6056]

yyessirr it’s linked in her November favorites video!

[@AnaLatese]

I love when youtubers support another youtuber’s big accomplishments💕

[@imjennim]

Ahh of course! I love shared victories!

[@selenasaefong6875]

I love when you said that you can't always make everyone happy, but you have to find inner peace within yourself. Please continue to be open and raw like this, I love it!!

[@ColletteisaBear]

I started KZbin after watching your channel for years and it’s been such an anxiety relieving outlet. Thanks for being my inspiration for a while! 😄

[@Sunflowertower100]

I’m so glad you spoke about low self esteem I struggle with it so much and “your words healed me” I hope you continue to have such a beautiful blessed life.

[@kindregardskatie]

Being emotional is a great thing Jen, most of the problems in the world is due to apathy so be proud , I love your content and appreciate how authentic you are😘❤️👍

[@katierosefun7722]

I appreciate the talk about your self-esteem and finding inner peace-you’ve grown so much, and it’s so mature of you to realize that being vulnerable is okay. Love you so much!

[@user-kk9vb7dk3o]

jenn,, i want to remind you that it’s okay to not be okay. don’t overdo yourself & suppress your emotions! i’m so proud of how much you’ve been and still are growing! love u always!!!

[@annasmith8518]

The fact that you guys eat Korean food on thanksgivings is honestly so beautiful. Any family, sitting together, eating anything, is so wonderful. So thankful that your family is together

[@dorotheaurelio]

I can’t imagine you be angry or envious. but i’m glad you shared that little part of yourself because it does seem like you are one dimensional, but that’s not a bad thing. you choose to give your viewers a happy vibe. we love you jen!

[@Steph-lt1ko]

Truly don't know a more genuine soul than yours

[@ashkoook]

You are such an inspiration to me! I love how open you are with us and the rest of the internet. We need more souls like yours ❤️

[@itsmesarahmarie]

The more and more I watch from you and the more you open up, I feel so similar and so connected to you. I have never related more to the emotions thing and I didn't know anyone else who was like me before you shared so thank you SO much!

[@bekahmetz1664]

you've always stayed true to yourself and I've been watching you since the very beginning when you started. youve inspired and impacted my life so much. we love you Jen!

[@amyrhee415]

I love how you showed your vulnerablilty to us, the viewers. We are slowly starting to see more about who you are in the inside and I AM SO HAPPY!! love you and we support you as always!!!!!

[@StellaCharm]

thank you for being vulnerable in this video . its refreshing to see someone i consider to be so perfect go through the same emotions that i go through.

[@KochapanWang]

Jenn you’re probably one of the very few KZbinrs who have genuine relationships. It’s so inspiring to see you grow in such a loving environment. I hope to be in such a surrounding when I grow up. Love youuuu! And Cheeky. And Sophia ☺️

[@nong1470]

I absolutely love the way you edit your vlogs never a dull moment! ❤️❤️❤️

[@mackenzievang6618]

I am also very grateful for you Jen!! Your videos constantly brighten up my day ❤️❤️ Love you Jen

[@joyneo9069]

To open up is never easy, but you share with such sincerity. I feel you ❤️

[@ChristinaCheung1]

Thank you for opening up to us and creating a very intimate chat with your viewers. I related so much about not being able to fake it, I too get too emotional sometimes when I find it difficult to express myself properly and get so frustrated with myself when tears start coming out when I never intended to look so upset! It's something I'm still working on...

[@vournalist]

I feel you Jenn. I also struggle with jealousy and learning to be grateful. One of the main reasons why I really love your videos because you're so raw and truthful about your emotions and that's real. Lots a love!

[@nana_delilah]

I'm so happy that you feel a little bit more open to us in showing your vulnerable side. I know that you hated showing this side of yours (as per your old vlogs), but it's nice that we get to relate with you as a human being and not just a star on youtube. ☺ Love you!

[@nothere7775]

This is my favorite vlog. I love when you’re able to be strong enough and share with us of your other selves. We love you jenn!

[@rebeccapotts7]

I really love how you opened up in this vlog. So many youtubers don’t do that and it’s nice to see someone who is genuinely real. You’ve always been someone I look up to for that. Keep being amazing girl!

[@kamaecal-9260]

Awe... my heart just melted at the “i am thankful for...” part. We love you Jenn, you’re such an inspiration. Cheers for more blessings to come 🤩

[@KrisWanjama_]

I really love how honest you are...reminds me of why i have always loved your channel and your personality

[@geraldinesysn5108]

You are so kind & so genuine!!! It’s just feels so good that as the year goes by u definitely always try to re-connect with us and that is by means of showing how u truly feel. You really deserve all the love and blessings in this world Jen! 사랑해 ❤️❤️❤️

[@alltherad123]

you have such great insight, it always makes me smile to watch your videos even when you talk about vulnerability. you are such a genuine person. i really look up to you. thanks for sharing jenn!

[@manay_cat]

Seeing Sarah makes me happppyyy

[@dooogeun]

I've been watching your videos since 2011 and you've really had such an impact on my life! I found your channel during a really difficult time in my life when I was so hopelessly sad and insecure, but your honest and positive approach to style (and life) really helped me to gain more confidence. I'm so happy to see you continue to grow as a person, too!

[@rachelhopkins8373]

I’ve been subscribed for yearssss now and I’m so happy to see the confident, strong, beautiful woman you have become! Love you Jenn! Keep being you, love you girl!! ❤️

[@ElleLauren]

I love this video so much and it came at a perfect time. I have a lot of doubts and fears and you voice yours so elegantly and calmly. I was procrastinating for first semester of first year of college finals and came across this little bit of inspiration. Thankful for your channel as always.

[@livelovepink100]

Jenn!Your honesty and sincerity is reflected in every video that you make! Always know that your videos motivate and inspire me! Love you girl, keep doing you!

[@evelynfuchs1434]

I love how open and honest you are I love you jenn❤️❤️

[@Daydreamer6805]

Same. I am thankful for everything i have even if i don’t have, i am thankful. But i do have my mood swings out of nowhere and sometimes they are there for no reason but i have full trust with god cause nothing will be worse than it is but better will come and i notice that and i hope you notice that too ❤️❤️❤️

[@DailyDoseOfBrenda]

Thank you Jenn for being so honest with us! You’re vlogs are always so soothing to watch!

[@jordanne625]

The comments you made about being grateful for ben and how he changed your mind about marriage was honestly so cute!! It got me in my feels guuurl!! And you're totally right to be thankful for your health, sometimes thats something I think everyone can take for granted when they don't have any health problems and it's good to just take a step back from time to time to think how lucky we are!

[@thihoamailambrechts3531]

I’ve always seen you as a greaaaat person who’s always happy and confident, but I’m glad to see you open up on your channel. It makes you more relatable, cause I also am a super emotional person so it’s nice to get to know this side of you! 💕

[@TheNikkePikker]

Very brave of you to share more of your feelings with us! What you're saying about having low selfasteem when you were younger, really resonates with me. Thanks for sharing that. The way you put so much work in being the best version of your self is definitely an inspiration to me.

[@emilysmith7972]

I love Jenn so much, my heart is so FULL of LOVE FOR HER. I could listen to her talk for hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and--

[@ThePinkelephant97]

So inspiring, genuine, and kind. Love you Jenn!

[@AdenTeklu]

You are awesome, and always make my day. Thanks for being there for us to get a glimpse into your life, and for always giving me a reason to smile. Even at the times when I didn't know that I needed it! Cheers!

[@chelspanda927]

This is one of my favorite videos of yours ever, Jenn. Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing that you’re a real, multidimensional person. I just graduated from university and have been trying to figure out who I am and what makes me happy, so hearing you discuss that you’re still figuring things out is comforting. It honestly feels like you’re a sister. Thank you for being you 💕✨

[@sarahchua5337]

Jenn, please dont stop vlogging! We love how much you do what you do and it inspires me everyday.

[@blazingdusk]

Your blogs are always so inspiring! It makes me want to do better with my life, even though sometimes I feel like it’s too late for me to really go for the life I want (being 26 and little else will do that to your motivation I guess!) thanks for being you Jenn, and for being such an inspiration!

[@imjennim]

Hey Hali! I'm glad my videos make you feel that way. I know it can feel like it's too late to achieve something, but that's not true. Push yourself a little everyday and you'll be where you want to be.

[@morganbillingswrites6330]

Jenn I love your videos and just want to say I’m grateful for you too, I’m super super bad at showing vulnerabilities bc I’ve just been through so much and there is always that mindset where, “it could always be worse and I don’t want to complain.” Thanks for showing it’s okay girl!

[@y4shuan662]

Jenn! You’re constantly my inspiration and your outlook and tastes in life are something I’ve always looked up to and I hope you have a nice day!

[@Killerinrome]

honestly, this vlog is by far the best Jenn. I love how you open up with us and always remember that you are not alone!! Thank you for being the realest, you are truly my all time fav youtuber. Sending lots of hugs ♥️

[@spicyaikoroll716]

I really needed this. These past few weeks have been rough and I find myself not being able to control my emotions as much as I used to and end up crying so much over the smallest of things. Makes me happy that you enjoy adapting on being independently taken with Ben and making yourself super productive. It’s amazing

[@tayyay00]

hey jenn ive been watching your videos for years now and i just want to thank you for being so consistent and always shining positivity in my life. recently ive been struggling a lot with my mental health but even when im at my darkest i know i can come watch your videos and find some hope. what youve achieved and the way you choose to live your life is inspiring. i wish you the best always.

[@asen1639]

Watching your vlogs just puts me in a good, positive mood. That’s one of the many reasons why you are my fav youTuber. Love you Jenn❤️

[@gwerlin]

Love how much you’ve grown Jenn. You have sucha great energy & bring good vibes to people around you. I’m your biggest fan! 😘

[@elysamaea.2789]

Been waiting for this for awhile now! Got so stoked for Part 2 after watching part 1. Love you Jenn!!!!

[@baseofblinggirl]

Thank you so much for opening up to us. I know it's not easy, especially in a public platform like KZbin. We all appreciate it! It's so relateable to me that you're an emotional person like I am. It's really hard for me to fake my emotion too. But then it's part of who I am. You don't have to be vulnerable here if you're not comfortable with it Jen. We always appreciate your honesty with us! Seeing you happy makes us happy. But do feel free to share with us your bad day if you'd like to. I hope what I mean gets through. I'm bad at expressing my thought into words. Hope you have a lovely day!

[@wendysan5281]

So grateful for you, your honesty and EVERYTHING ELSE!! You inspire me so much Jenn. Keep doing what you do because you make millions out there happy :)

[@luminiscencia_]

Hi Jenn! I'm thankful for you being so nice and more open! i look up for you as inspiration as a person, and yes, we're all humans, but the fact that you accept that and try to change for the better shows how nice you are! love from chile

[@izzyveo]

Love you Jenn!!! Vulnerability and emotions is something that is difficult for me but is something I have been working on and experiencing too! I’m glad you have been more open. It makes me feel closer to you :)

[@sheknowsgodworldwide]

So happy that you continue to share your life with us!

[@irene227]

I love your blogs!! I always watch them. Thank you for sharing your thoughts,I'm a freshman in college and this really helps me realising about adulthood and stuff. Love you!!

[@Faunamusicmx]

Ben throwing snacks and cookies on the counter while Jen dances is just...perfection.

[@rhongomiant]

Jenn! I just had to pause at the bit when Ben came home and brought so many snacks, the joy that showed on your face was just, it made me smile too!!! Keep up your great work!

[@Karimrahali]

I needed a break from studying for finals and this miracle popped up 🙌🏻 Love you Jenn ❤️

[@Fluorrrecent]

Thanks to you Jenn, you're just the best.

[@jHeartsFashionBeauty]

Jenn! I am obsessed with your videos! I am an avid viewer and watching your videos instantly boosts my mood and makes me happy. Your energy is so contagious and just by watching your videos I can tell that you are such a genuine and beautiful person. I usually don’t comment but I just want you to know that I love you and that I’m so thankful for your videos ❤️

[@PollyBoonlue]

I really loved this vlog. You are one of my favorite youtubers for a reason and that's because you pretty much bring everything to the table. I've seen you grow and grown with you through the years and you never disappoint. You were meant to do this and you do it so very well! Thank you for utilizing your platform the way everyone should. Thank you for speaking on politics, vulnerability, insecurities, family, stress, and all of life's hardships. I appreciate you so much for not only the creative content that you put out, but also because you include segments that are thought provoking and makes me want to reflect back on my own life. Your channel is so much more than just fashion and I love that about you! Love you Jenn!

[@michellinn]

thank you for opening up, it really calms me to see that even those I look up to have hardships. It just showed me your humane and you have flaws but that's all okay. thank you so much for being you jenn :)

[@AmberTan]

loving the advice at the beginning.. " distance make love fonder"

[@vyvyensay]

Jenn! I really connected when you were talking about emotions and how you deal with them then and now. I have been following you since you were in SF and it's so nice to feel like I am growing with a close friend!

[@Littlelightcloud]

THANK YOU so much for showing us more your vulnerable you💖 I can feel you because I am so emotional too! You are so real and you inspire me so much to be a better person and to believe in my dreams. I remember an interview where you cried... When you show us how kind, nice and genuine you are, I just want to give you a huge hug and I would tell you: 'YOU are amazing and you can be proud of yourself.' 💖💖💖 SENDING LOVE FROM FRANCE! 💖

[@poldocolendresx]

I really love it when you talk about emotions or how to deal with it :"( really therapeutic for me

[@ashty2806]

Thank you for opening up! Somehow this vlog has inspired me in so many different ways! Happy Sunday!

[@catk8245]

Love how inspirational you are! You're little talks really relate to me and how to deal with all my emotions, Love you and am so thankful to be able to watch your videos!❤️

[@haseena1001]

Hey Jenn Great seeing more of your adventures and behind the scenes. Success comes with happiness and challenges too. You have come so far since the beginning of your career and journey in life as well as KZbin. Things can be fabulous and challenging at the same time both personally and professionally. We can be both grateful and appreciative of all the wonderful aspects of our lives and feel overwhelmed, down at the same time. It's all about our approach, we are all human beings and growing. It's ok to be vulnerable as the greatest growth can come at those times. Keep doing you and love you girl! 💖

[@imjennim]

Ahh, thank you so much for this comment. You described how I'm feeling perfectly.

[@kayleebaby101101]

Our girl Jenn coming through with another vlog yayaya ❤️👏🏽

[@esmyxu8906]

Going through some emotional times in my relationship and finals, your vlogs are what's keeping me sane

[@imjennim]

Ahh, I'm sorry to hear you're going through it. Hoping this all passes for you soon.

[@kasycruz]

Jenn, you are such an inspiring person. I admire that you're not afraid to admit that you have down moments. I love that because it makes you so seem so "real" and relatable. This is why I admire you so much and I love watching ALL your videos. They always give me a sense of positivity and motivation. So Jenn keep doing you! 💖

[@thatbritchick9695]

I massively respect you as a person Jenn. I think you're intelligent and have a lot of worthwhile things to say (and absolutely beautiful, obvs), and your videos are some of the only ones I watch with any sort of regularity because of that